Breaking His Heart
by fallenwitch

Rating: R
Ship: Draco & Ginny
Canon: Books 1 - 6
Genre: Angst, Romance
Status: In progress
Length: 10,193 words in 5 chapters
Published: 10 Aug 2005
Last updated: 24 Apr 2006

The War tears the Slytherin from his red headed witch. Heartbreak, damning choices, and assumptions rule the day. A tale
of love where angst meets romance on the long road to a possible happily ever after. "He closed his eyes and drew in a
long, unsteady breath as she began to cry. It started out as a suspicious sniffle or two, and minutes later she was
sobbing. After a failed attempt to quiet her with various endearments, gentle kisses on her cheek, and empty words of
comfort, the Slytherin fell silent. One elegant hand stroked her silky crimson tresses to no avail. What was he suppose
to do? He wasn't equipped to handle this crass display of emotion. Those damn Weasleys had no emotional restraint
whatsoever. She was breaking his goddamn heart."

From the Unofficial Portkey Archive: https://portkey-archive.org/story/4924/

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1. Breaking His Goddamn Heart

Warnings:

1) As usual, foul language abounds due to Draco's potty mouth and snarky attitude. Proceed with caution if this type of
thing offends.

2) This fic was born prior to the HBP. I have gone back and attempted to make various adjustments to bring it more in
line with the changes brought about by the HBP. However, the morphed plot line continues to have a few holes. I hope you
will forgive these as you make your way through it.

Author's Note:

Okay, we're going to try this one more time. This fic was originally posted in July '05. I stumbled with Chapter 3, hit
a roadblock, and crashed. Due to the poking and prodding of lizzyop and Marcia, it's back. I would like to thank them as
well as the two other people who were reading it at the time. It was such a mess that I decided to pull it, rework it,
and repost it. To make a long, painful story short, here it is. I hope readers will give it a whirl and let me know what
they think. Any constructive criticism is welcome as this one is teetering on the edge of a premature cyber death
anyway. - fallenwitch

Chapter 1

Breaking His Goddamn Heart

He didn't start the goddamn War. The Slytherin put an elegant, shaking hand to his forehead and closed his eyes, trying
to shut out the nightmare. What the hell did she expect him to do? No, he couldn't just walk away. He was a Malfoy. His
family was overflowing with bloody Death Eaters. It was a family tradition. Exile? Not an option, at least not in this
lifetime. They would find his sorry arse, and when they did, he would spend the remainder of his life, all three
glorious seconds of it, looking down the business end of some Death Eater's wand, praying for a quick Avada Kedavra.

What the hell was wrong with her? Why did she equate his impossible situation and lack of options with not loving her
enough? How were those things related? They weren't. The witch was impossible and driving him insane. No, he wasn't a
goddamn Gryffindor and had absolutely no intention of starting now. That kind of arse backward bravery and nobility
would get him killed. He had half a mind to tell her to sod off.

No, he wasn't her Boy Wonder, savior of the wizarding world, thank you very much. If she was interested in that sort of
bullshit, he would hold the door for her and see how long Potter could put up with her infuriating, stubborn,
hard-headed ways. The Slytherin reckoned Potter could either fight the Dark Lord or deal with the red headed witch, not
both. She would be back on his doorstep in a heartbeat, torturing him and trying to nag him into submission.

He couldn't think straight and found himself barreling headfirst down the most dangerous path he had ever attempted to
negotiate in his life. She would get him killed. If she would bloody well back off, maybe he could devise a plan to get
through the War in one piece. Hell, at the rate he was going, he would get them both killed.

No, he didn't want to hear what she was saying to him and adding increasing decibels did nothing to change his mind.
When she grabbed him firmly by the wrist and yanked his hand off his forehead, he merely opened his eyes and attempted
to stare her down, silently. Stubborn wench. He shook his head, eyes never wavering from hers. No matter how many times
he told her, she would never understand.

Her dark eyes were imploring him. Her fragile hand was on his cheek, holding him in her world, refusing to let him go.
Goddamn it. He would not allow her to break him, not here, not now, not like this. Their fucking world was imploding on
them, and he knew he wasn't strong enough to hold it together. There wasn't enough strength in the wizarding universe to
hold their little illicit world together. Theirs was an ill-fated affair, an abomination, doomed to die a miserable and
painful death, squelched under the roar of the War. Her eyes told him she knew the truth of it as well as he did.

Not knowing what else to do, the Slytherin took his frightened witch into his arms, holding her fast to him, cradling
her slight frame to his, attempting to comfort her with his love. When she clung to him, desperately throwing her arms
around him, he knew she wasn't fooled. What kind of a wizard was he? He was a goddamn impotent wizard was what he was.
The War was descending on them faster and darker with each moment, and there wasn't a damn thing he could do about it.
There was no place to hide where he could keep her safe. All he had left to give her was his love, and even that was
failing her. Here she stood, shaking and terrified in his arms, and he couldn't give her a blessed Knut of comfort.

He closed his eyes and drew in a long, unsteady breath as she began to cry. It started out as a suspicious sniffle or
two, and minutes later she was sobbing. After a failed attempt to quiet her with various endearments, gentle kisses on
her cheek, and empty words of comfort, the Slytherin fell silent. One elegant hand stroked her silky crimson tresses to
no avail. What was he supposed to do? He wasn't equipped to handle this crass display of emotion. Those damn Weasleys
had no emotional restraint whatsoever. She was breaking his goddamn heart.

His heart. The blasted sorceress from Gryffindor had managed to find a part of his anatomy he never knew existed. She
not only found his heart but had also absconded with it. He had no idea if he would ever see the foul organ again. It
had betrayed him, utterly and totally betrayed his Slytherin arse in a most flagrant manner.

In an attempt to stifle her outburst, he pulled her body apart from his and caught her startled eyes as he placed a
long, firm, lingering kiss on her tear stained lips, tasting their salt in his mouth, as the pain of their two worlds
collided. When she attempted to say something, he ignored her and continued to ardently kiss her and touch her and
embrace her in the most distracting ways possible, pouring his heart out to her until she threw herself back at him with
abandon. He was dizzy with her like this and shut out all other thought from his mind, focusing his world on her,
watching himself revolve around her like an afflicted planet caught in her irreversible and unstoppable pull. She was
his magnificent scarlet sun. Her luminous light burned his unworthy skin with every touch, so excruciating was her
presence to him now.

He drew her closer, attempting to meld her to him, until he felt her expire and collapse onto him. He was sick with
despair and continued to greedily gather her to him, until every point on her flush and sticky body was touching his.
Fear? His greatest fear wasn't The War or the pain or even the possibility of death. It was forgetting. He wanted to
sear her into his body's memory so he could never forget. She was precious and glorious to him. He would never forget.
Never. It would be a sin against her and a violation of his all encompassing love for her.

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Weeks later, the Slytherin and his witch were embattled again. Was she out of her ever-loving mind? Absolutely not. He
would burn in hell before he would allow them to continue their relationship. He wasn't sure he could keep himself alive
much less her as well. No matter how excellent his occlumency skills, he would never place her life in such a precarious
situation. Both their existences would be wiped out with one handy stroke of a wand in the event of their unfortunate
discovery.

He stared at her, moonlight splayed carelessly about her fiery silk, her head tilted in defeat, shrouded in shadows so
deep he could only imagine the expression on her face. She stood next to him, now silent. How many times did she want to
do this? He had had enough. It was too goddamn painful. No, he wasn't in denial. He knew as well as she did what was
coming down the pipe.

He didn't want to talk or argue or think about their nonexistent future anymore. There wasn't a goddamn thing left to
say which hadn't been said already. All the Slytherin wanted to do was to take his broken-hearted witch into his arms
and hold her and caress her and make glorious love to her until they were transported out of their miserable, hellish
existence into that other place. The place where only the two of them existed, where there were no divided houses, no
fractured wizarding world, no war. Where there was only this boy wizard and the witch who loved him. He yearned for that
place.

Turning, he grabbed her slight frame and pulled her to him, wrapping his arms around her and holding her tightly, until
he felt her relax. He reveled in her magic, in the spell she had cast over his heart, in the strength of her love for
him. He believed this love could see him safely through the War and back to her.

He did not see her again for two and a half years.

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2. His Newly Realized Hell

Chapter 2

His Newly Realized Hell

He did not see her again for two and a half years. The intervening time had been brutal to the Slytherin. When he looked
in the mirror, he no longer recognized the wizard staring back at him. It was an existence far colder, sicker, and more
twisted than he knew himself capable of enduring. That part of him which could not endure, simply died, withered away
from the stench of the war, never to be resurrected again.

A certain series of events forced the Slytherin out of the shadows and into the burning light of the Order. He entered
their heavily veiled and warded camp burdened with the enormous responsibility of providing crucial information from the
Dark Lord's den to help turn the tide of the War. These were the tenuous closing days of the War, and they knew the
young Slytherin could help them secure a win, if he managed to stay alive long enough to be of use.

On the way to the small hut containing the core leadership of the Order, he passed rows and rows of multicolored wooden
shacks with makeshift chimneys spewing smoke. Children were yelling and screaming and playing games across the grounds.
Scattered women and the elderly were engrossed in the tasks of war as well as with the raising of the many children
shielded there, most not their own.

Draco had not seen a wizarding child for over two years before coming here. What about the other children, the Death
Eaters' children? He suspected the Dark Lord had them ensconced somewhere as leverage against any parent with a touch of
ambivalence about his methods or mission. The sound of children playing and their innocent laugher were music to his
soul, which had been trapped in darkness for too long. He watched their forgotten world with some fascination. Their
existence was a potent reminder of the fragile nature of wizardkind's future as the Dark Lord raged against all reason
and sanity and hope.

His purposeful stride arrested mid-step. Ginny? Surely not, but there she stood, no more than fifty feet from him, and
his starved eyes locked in on the sight of her, refusing to let go. Those distinctive scarlet tresses and those
remarkable dark eyes belonged to one witch and one witch only, his witch.

He saw her standing with her arms thrown absent-mindedly around a small school aged child in front of her, while she
kept a watchful eye on several others, running and playing. She was even more exquisite than his war weary mind
remembered her to be.

So this is where they had been keeping her. She was safe and sound and very much alive, right here at the heart of the
Order, the place where they kept their most treasured and sacred possessions.

He threw off his invisibility cloak as he approached her. The sound of her laughter floated out across the grounds. It
was a sound he had not heard in many years. His long dormant heart lurched.

"Ginny!"

She looked up at the calling of her name.

He rushed to her, a much changed wizard. His elegant frame was draped in fine Death Eating robes, the Dark Mark
indelibly imprinted on his left forearm, and his beautiful face chiseled by the mark of time. But his unmistakable frame
was still tall, lanky, and lean; his eyes were still that strange iridescent shade of grey; and his heart still held the
same burning passion for her it had when he saw her last.

Her searching dark eyes went wide as they caught his, igniting on contact, now less than a dozen feet away.

"Draco," she whispered, eyes locked firmly on his.

He returned her glorious gaze for one heartbreakingly long moment, drowning in the wonder of her all over again.
Suddenly, the child she was holding broke loose, brushing past Draco in pursuit of a loose ball thrown his way.

Draco stepped forward to take his witch into his aching arms. When his eyes fell to her now unobscured figure, confusion
and disbelief fell over his face as his entire world shattered, goddamn shattered. He stood paralyzed, unable to move or
think or react. When movement finally returned to his uncooperative body, he tore his pain-riddled eyes from hers and
abruptly turned away, stumbling toward his original destination without another word, without another glance, without
another breath.

He left the nondescript shack, containing the headquarters of the Order, two hours later, striding full speed toward the
Apparation point, all the way on the other side of the goddamn camp. Of course he saw her waiting under a large oak
tree, staring at him. He refused to acknowledge her. When she called to him repeatedly, he ignored the growing
desperation in her voice. He didn't give a damn. The Slytherin dismissed her as though as were nothing to him and
continued walking toward the Apparation point. He refused to meet her foul gaze again, ever. His eyes never wavered from
their objective, to get the hell out of the filthy place. No, he never looked back at her miserable figure again. He
couldn't. When she rushed after him in a panic, he merely Disapparated before her eyes.

Draco collapsed into the nearest chair, amazed he had managed to Apparate home without splinching himself. He had waited
the entire War for this miserable day. Over the past two and a half years, he searched every bloody day for some sign of
her, anything. Nothing. Not a goddamn thing until today. He groaned, wishing he had never seen her, wishing he had never
known her, wishing he could simply blow his fucking head off.

He contemplated driving a stake through his heart before he stopped himself, realizing she had already taken care of
that for him. He hung his head and closed his eyes as he saw her previously magnificent figure before him. What the hell
had she done?

Pregnant? Who's fucking child was it that she was carrying? Unless she had managed to obtain a Time Turner, it wasn't
his child. Goddamn it, Ginny. Could she not have waited for the War to end before moving on with her life in such a
manner?

What about the blessed vow she had made to him? Was the whole thing, including the Slytherin himself, a fucking joke to
her? Evidently, the joke was on him. He never believed her capable of sinking so low, of running off and finding another
while his back was turned. Where the hell was her Gryffindor nobility now? Who was this wizard who had stolen her out
from under him? If he had the means of finding the bloody bastard, he would kill him with his own goddamn hands, forget
a fucking wand.

No, he had no idea when the blasted War would end, and the last time he checked they weren't operating on his goddamn
schedule. But he had waited for her, fully intending to wait the rest of his worthless life, if needed. What was he to
do now? She had betrayed him, failed him, and found another.

While he was fighting and scraping to doggedly hold onto his cursed life in the midst of the Dark Lord's growing
insanity, she let go, erasing all meaning in his current situation. He had purposely hidden his involvement with the
Order from her prying eyes, fearing for her safety. It was for her and her alone. Everything in his wretched life
stemmed from his unquenchable desire to be reunited with the damn witch. He had schemed and plotted and sold his ever
loving Slytherin soul for her. Now he found himself irreversibly trapped in a perilous web of lies and intrigue,
tenuously holding on, hoping to purge himself of its filth with the fall of the Dark Lord and the end of the War.

Without of his knowledge, she had cut the only thing which tethered him in a world gone crazy. He was now adrift and
broken, utterly lost without her. She had propelled him forward through the dangers and the intrigue, embueing him with
the strength and the will to survive and to continue attempting to right the wizarding world, to bring it back in line
with the axis which had ruled its existence since time immemorial, out of the hands of that filthy, twisted half-blood,
to do what needed to be done to allow them to go forward, together.

He bitterly recalled the price he extracted for his treacherous allegiance to the bloody Order, which seemed like a
bargain at the time. They gave the Slytherin their word, Ginny would be kept safe throughout the War, away from the
fighting, untouched by the stinking filth of the Death Eaters' malignant ways. He desperately wanted her soul to retain
its innocent purity, to never be tainted by what he had only begun to glimpse at that point in time. He had no intention
of turning traitor only to find her dead or maimed or tortured beyond recognition, not if it was within his power to
keep her safe. When he sold his soul, he had no hesitation or second thoughts, recalling the incredible rush of relief
that flooded his world when he shook hands with them, knowing only that, regardless of what happened to him during the
War, she would go on, untouched, until they met again. Whether it was on this side or the other side of the Veil,
mattered little. Her life was all he cared about.

He had trampled on his precious Malfoy identity, turned traitor on his family, and thrown away his legacy for her. Of
course he was prepared to give up his life should he fail and the Dark Lord reign supreme at the end of the War. Why
would he want to live in a world which existed without her? That would be no life, only an endless sea of torture. Here
he was, a traitor adrift in that torture, now royally screwed no matter which way the War ended. His whole fucking
existence was a bloody joke.

What was it about him that was so vile to her now? Was it because she believed him to be a Death Eater with no remorse?
Was that what had led her heart to abandon him? She was his, and he knew her as no other could. She would never engage
in something of this magnitude without belonging heart, body, and soul to the lousy wizard.

He groaned, remembering how he had recklessly pursued her against all reason, stalking the unreasonable witch until he
managed to wrestle her protesting figure into his web and entangle and ensnare the sense out of both of them. He knew it
was a dangerous gamble, but his heart would not be stopped. All reason flew out of his pathetic excuse for a brain at
the sight of her. He had been sick for her. What they had engaged in was nothing short of complete insanity, filled with
an illness so deep, he would never fully recover. He was afflicted with the witch, never realizing it was fatal,
mistaking it instead for a lifesaving toxin.

As he sat in his newly realized hell, in a place void of all hope and with no possibility of redemption, the Slytherin
knew that the bloody fight of his life was over, and he never had the opportunity to lift his goddamn wand off the
ground. She was gone, irreversibly and forever gone from his life, and he was absolutely devastated.

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3. The Rescue

Author's Notes: My deepest gratitude to gotsnape for her help with this chapter. Her wisdom in all things writing knows
no boundaries.

Chapter 3

The Rescue

(Three Weeks Later)

Draco Apparated into the campground containing the headquarters of the Order, frantic to save the life of the pregnant
witch he had sworn off three weeks earlier. After alerting their leadership to the Dark Lord's impending attack, he
raced off to find Ginny.

Panic propelled his boots across the still campground as the pounding of his heart filled the air and the bitter winter
current burned his frightened lungs. He didn't hear the shouting erupting in the distance or see the lights turning on
in every cabin across the place. His focus was narrowed to the cottage that held his witch, because she was his witch,
no matter what had happened since he held her last. She belonged to him, and he would not let her die.

Without breaking pace, he withdrew his wand, aimed, and fired a spectacular hex, blasting open her cabin door and
flinging himself inside. It was dark. Too damn dark to see a thing.

"Lumos."

She was sound asleep on a small cot in the corner of the shack.

"Ginny!" He shook her and hauled her up into a sitting position. "Ginny, wake up! We have to go."

Barely conscious, she stared at him grabbing her ankles and shoving her bare feet into her boots before reaching over
and snatching her winter cloak off its hook on the wall.

"Draco?"

"Come on, Ginny," he ordered, pulling her up by the arm and tucking the heavy cloak around her shoulders. Her sleepy
eyes were focused on him as she stood. He took her hand firmly in his, threw on his hood, and rushed out of her cabin.

"What's going on?"

When they emerged, the throng rushing toward the Apparation stations on the opposite side of the camp engulfed them.
Ginny's eyes went wide as fear gripped her in the throat.

"Good lord, Draco. Are we being attacked?"

He didn't hear her. The roar of the crowds and the rush of the multitudes jostling and yelling on their way to safety
drowned out her voice. Draco pulled Ginny along as fast as he could, but they were falling further and further behind
the crowd. Ginny was unable to keep up with the hurried pace. Finally, she stopped and bent over, panting with exertion.
One hand held her pregnant belly, and the other waved him on, attempting to shoo him along.

"Go on, Draco. I'll catch up to you. Go!"

He shook his head. What the hell did she think he was doing here in the first goddamn place? Saving his own arse? The
last time he checked, he didn't need to Apparate into ground zero to get his Slytherin arse killed, thank you very much.
Then he noticed she was pale and sweating and struggling to remain standing. He threw his arms around her and felt her
lean against him.

"I'm sorry," she said.

How pregnant was she? No wonder she couldn't run. While she caught what breath she could, he held her firm in his arms
and sent his eyes skyward. There wasn't much time before the Dark Lord attacked. The Order's wards were holding - for
now. Without taking his eyes off the sky, he urged her forward again.

"Come on, Ginny." She nodded and walked as quickly as she could, his arms steadying her. Then he grabbed her hand and
began to run. Ginny stumbled after him, rushing to keep up with his frantic pace. "Shit."

A sudden hush and collective shudder fell over the chaotic scene. Ginny looked up and saw the Dark Mark emblazoned
across the sky above the camp. Merlin.

That's when he heard it. When everyone enclosed in the camp heard the tremendous sizzle and melting crack followed by a
fantastic shuddering moan as the previously impenetrable wards surrounding the headquarters of the Order fell, blasting
the hell out of every sentient being in the place.

Draco could not hold onto Ginny. The force of the blow ripped her from him. He saw her pregnant form hit the ground a
dozen feet from him as they were both thrown back. Picking up his battered body, he scrambled over to her motionless
form.

"Ginny! Ginny!" He was yelling her name over and over again, to no avail. She was out cold. Draco heard waves of Death
Eaters pouring into the camp and the hysterical yelling and screaming preceding their sea of destruction.

With no other option left, he pulled the fallen witch into his arms and held her securely to his kneeling frame. Then he
looked up, ready to Disapparate them. At that moment, his pale grey eyes locked with another set of similar eyes.

His father and a dozen other Death Eaters were headed straight towards them, staring at Draco with Ginny in his arms. It
was only then that the Slytherin realized the blast had knocked his hood off, leaving him exposed and vulnerable.

As his father lifted his wand and took aim, Draco Disapparated them to safety, his eyes never losing contact with his
father's.

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Two days later Draco continued his vigil by Ginny's bedside, becoming more and more concerned with each passing minute
she remained unconscious and unresponsive. Was she dying? Had her head injury put her into some kind of irreversible
coma? What about her baby? What the hell was up with that thing?

Of course he carried the rudimentary healing skills that all soldiers carried but nothing that would have equipped him
to deal with something of this complexity. He was a Death Eater, not a Healer. He could kill her baby with one simple
incantation, but that really wasn't the point, was it? Merlin. This wasn't what he had in mind when he signed up to save
her life.

He ran an anxious hand over his worn face before letting out an exhausted sigh. They were alone in his dwelling of last
resort, the safe cottage he had fortified, warded, and veiled years ago in preparation for his entry into the Order. He
never anticipated this particular scenario. There were no Healers, no spying house elves, nobody. He was bloodied
terrified that she was slipping away from him, and he was powerless to stop her irreversible slide to the other side of
the veil.

Draco slumped further into his chair and buried his face in his hands with no intention of coming out, ever. What had he
done? He had followed his heart, the foul organ that had caused him nothing but grief over the past two and a half
years, and slit his own throat in the process. What a fucking disaster.

He remembered the moment the Dark Lord's plan to attack Ginny's camp fell upon his well-placed ears. He had a fast
decision to make. He could either let Ginny die and take his Malfoy pride with him to the grave, or he could save her
and kill her adulterous arse later. He chose the latter.

Why didn't he hesitate before plunging in to save her? Because he was a goddamn Slytherin impersonating a foolishly
brave and noble Gryffindor, that's why. The bloody stuff was obviously contagious and perilous to his health, not to
mention his newly shortened lifespan. All the "Scourgifies" in the world couldn't rip her from his contaminated soul.
What an arse backward thing to do.

Why didn't he stop to think about his allegiances and obligations or their vital connection to the outcome of the War?
He couldn't say. All he knew was when everything when to hell in a handbasket, he was the one who ended up being fucked,
royally screwed up the arse.

That uncomfortable moment happened when his father saw him on the ground at the camp of the Order clutching a pregnant
Ginny to his frantic frame. Draco remembered the look of outrage and betrayal on his father's face. He could feel the
rising fury with each closing footstep. Lucius swiftly deduced Draco's allegiance to the Order and betrayal of the Dark
Lord by viewing the scene splayed out before him. He knew that Ginny was the reason for Draco's treacherous betrayal and
believed her to be carrying a future Malfoy heir in her pregnant belly.

It was this series of repugnant revelations that sent Lucius over the edge and into a state of murderous rage. He would
have struck them dead where they huddled if Draco delayed Disapparating them another moment.

Draco groaned and attempted to push his face further into his hands, but there was no place left to go. He was buried up
to his precious neck already, and he had taken Ginny along for the ride. Their fates were now intertwined and sealed,
joined forever until death tore them apart. And that, unfortunately, could be sooner than either of them bargained for.

He looked up and took her painfully limp hand into his, interlocking her fingers with his. Then he placed their joined
hands on his lips and stared at her. When was she going to wake up and tell him what the hell was going on? He noticed
days ago that she wore no rings. So what? It didn't mean a damn thing, that's what.

He remembered his mother telling him she stopped wearing her rings during her pregnancy because her hands were so
swollen they no longer fit. Draco looked at Ginny's hands for the millionth time. Were they swollen? How was he supposed
to know? The only thing he knew was that her belly was filled with some other wizard's child.

His eyes were drawn to that distasteful lump, growing like a tumor out of her. As he sat there, Draco decided he loathed
that baby and could care less if it dropped dead as long as it didn't take Ginny with it. That wretched unborn creature
had cost him a bloody fortune. The Slytherin was sure they would have made it safely to the Apparation stations on the
opposite side of the camp the night of the attack if Ginny hadn't been pregnant. That baby had blown his cover, put
Ginny's life in peril, and placed the balance of the War in jeopardy.

Wasn't there a spell to turn off the raging faucet in his head? Merlin. It was bloody paralyzing was what it was. He was
drowning in his own collection of malignant and embittered thoughts. That was the last thing they needed. Because in his
mind, the three of them were now one, even the blasted tumor, and it was his job to get them all safely through what was
left of the War, because it was fast coming to a close, one way or the other.

The seventh Horcrux had been destroyed by the Order several months ago, and the outcome of the War now hinged on the
long awaited and much dreaded duel between the Dark Lord and Potter, either that or an assassination of one or the
other. Both sides were scrambling to get the upper hand, and with Draco's unfortunate discovery, the Order had just lost
what little advantage it once held.

Fuck it. Draco stripped down to his boxers and crawled into bed bedside Ginny. Then he carefully took her into his arms
and held her close to his frightened, breaking heart. He didn't know, and he didn't want to know. He didn't give a rat's
arse about her other wizard or her other life. In his world, right here and now, she belonged to him, and he would
protect her and care for her until there wasn't a breath left in his cursed body.

And so Ginny's wizard held her and soothed her with his soft-spoken words of endearment. He closed his eyes, shutting
out the world he bitterly resented, buried his face in the nape of her neck, and opened his embattled soul to her. He
whispered his closely held secrets, shared his shattered illusions, and confessed his terminal love to a woman who could
no longer hear him, who might never hear him. And then, without his consent, a peaceful, dreamless sleep took the
exhausted Slytherin away.

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4. You're Nutters

Author's Notes: Much appreciation to gotsnape for her insightful injection of life into this chapter. Her generous
assistance was sorely needed. -fallenwitch

Chapter 4

You're Nutters

Draco startled awake at the violent shove. He found himself flat on his back, staring blankly at the ceiling. Looking
down, he saw Ginny scrambling awkwardly across the bed. What in the bloody name of Merlin was she doing? Was she
delirious? Hell, she going to topple off the bed and hurt herself. Hauling his sleep-laden arse up, Draco made a
spectacular grab for her, latching onto her hips and pinning her safely to the bed. She swung around, eyes wide with
panic.

"Draco, the loo. Where's the loo?"

The loo? Good lord, was that an emergency? He nodded and helped her off the bed and across the room to the bathroom.

"It's right here," he said, flinging the door open.

Then he planted his feet and looked over at her for some sign of something. Did she need help in there? She rushed past
him and slammed the door in his face, nearly cutting off the tip of his nose. Fine, that answered that question. She
didn't need his bloody assistance.

Draco leaned against the wall and gratefully released the twisted bundle of pent up anxiety that had scraped his stomach
raw over the past two days. Instead, he welcomed the wave of relief that rippled through his body, almost knocking him
over with its blissful power.

Thirty-five interminable minutes later, Draco stopped pacing the floor of their bedroom and approached the bathroom
door, concerned. It didn't take that long for any creature on the face of the earth to use the loo. What was going on in
there? Was she alright? Had she gotten dizzy and collapsed? She had been pale and unsteady on her feet when she went in
there, but then again, that didn't stop her from slamming the door in his face. He knocked lightly.

"Ginny?"

No answer. He waited a few seconds and knocked again.

"Ginny, is everything okay?"

No answer.

Just as his hand touched the doorknob of the bathroom door, it swung open. Draco stood aside to let Ginny pass. She
walked out with red eyes and evidence of hastily wiped tears still clinging to her blotchy face. His eyes followed her
all the way across the room, until she climbed back into bed, pulled the covers up, and laid her head down on the
pillow. Had she been sick? He knew about pregnant women throwing up.

Draco hesitated before cautiously approaching her bedside and kneeling down to speak to her. Her eyes were focused on
her unfamiliar surrounding, ignoring the only other living being in the room, the elegant Death Eater himself.

"What's wrong, Ginny?" Her eyes never left their distant focus. When Draco put his hand on her shoulder, she glanced
down at him briefly. "Is there anything I can do?"

She sighed and looked away. "Honestly, Draco, I think you've done enough already, don't you?"

The cool tone in her voice stung him. What the hell had he done? Not at damn thing, at least not yet. "What are you
talking about?"

She ignored his question. "Where are we?"

"This place?" She nodded. "Don't worry. This is my cottage."

"I didn't know you had a cottage."

"We'll be safe here."

Her eyes widened at this. "Safe?"

"Yes, safe. There was nowhere else to bring you. It's veiled, warded, and unplottable. We can hide out here indefinitely
if we need to."

Ginny sat up. "Is that what we're doing here, hiding?"

"Of course." What the hell was she so irked about?

"And then what? We can't stay here forever, not with the baby coming."

Her heated, indignant tone grated on him. "Merlin, Ginny, I don't know." He stood and raked an exasperated hand through
his hair. Of course he didn't know how he was going to get them out of the incredible mess he had gotten them into. He
was too goddamn busy worrying about her dying, pregnant arse to think about that. "Excuse me if I didn't plan for this
particular contingency."

She was on her shaky feet at the dripping sarcasm in his voice. "What, exactly, does that mean?" she hissed, dark eyes
flashing.

He stared right back at her with his infuriated eyes. What a bloody ungrateful witch. Whatever happened to the small
amount of gratitude he expected for saving her adulterous, pregnant arse from every Death Eater in England?

"It means that I never thought I'd have to deal with a pregnant witch right now, that's what." Before he could blink,
she struck him across the face, hard. When she moved to strike him a second time, his swift reflexes immobilized her
wrist in his grasp. He shook his head. She struggled against his iron grip, trying to free her wrist from the crushing
lock he had on her. "Don't do that again," he warned.

Ginny stared at him, startled at the foreign edge to his voice and the excruciating pain he was causing her. Her knees
began to buckle under. Was he breaking every bone in her wrist? She nodded in agreement, and he mercifully released her.
Then she snatched her hand back, straightened, and massaged her bruised wrist while glaring at him. Did she see a
flicker of regret in his eyes? Arsehole. She spun around.

"Ginny, please - "

While her back blocked his view, she grabbed the nearest object, a brass bookend, with her uninjured hand. Whirling
around, she hauled off and threw it at him as hard as she could, hoping to knock the bastard unconscious. She was fast,
but he was faster. Not only did he deftly dodge the bookend, but he also had the business end of his wand in her stunned
face before she could exhale.

"Are you completely mad, woman?" She was rabid and raving and completely nutters, attacking him like this. What the hell
was wrong with her? It wasn't his goddamn fault. He didn't order the bloody attack on her camp just so he could
experience the joy of kidnapping her during what was left of his newly shortened lifespan.

Ginny knocked his wand aside with one swipe of her furious hand and stuck her finger in his face. "Don't you even start
that nonsense with me, Draco." She was seething mad, so angry she could barely get out a coherent word to his arrogant,
unfeeling face. "Put that ruddy wand away before I snap it in half."

He raised an eyebrow at this but tucked his wand away in his robes, admiring her Gryffindor courage. There wasn't
another witch in England who would dare do that to his Death Eating face.

"Stop being such a bloody git." She shoved him back with her uninjured hand. He didn't react or even attempt to deflect
her crazy antics this time. "This baby is as much your responsibility as mine." Then she folded her arms across her
chest and glared at his look of callous incredulity.

"Mine?"

"Yes, yours. My parents, not to mention my brothers, are going to kill us, but they're going to kill you first."

Draco leaned forward and stared at her. "You're nutters."

Ginny swung around and began rifling through the room, throwing objects here and there, looking for her clothes. Making
contact with her things, she pulled on her boots, threw on her cloak, and grabbed her wand. She wasn't going to put up
with his Malfoy bullshit. She might be pregnant, but that didn't make her a doormat.

"Expelliarmus!"

Her wand flew out of her hand. One swift summoning charm later, and the Slytherin held it in his sure hands. Ginny
placed an irritated hand on her hip as she glared at his childish antics.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" He hissed, furious beyond belief.

"Leaving."

Over his dead and rotting corpse. The Slytherin had just slit his own throat to save the ungrateful hag, and she was
about to go and commit suicide. He strode across the room, grabbed her by the arm, and jerked her flush against him
before glowering down her unreasonable throat.

"Are you out of your goddamn mind?"

She stuck her defiant chin up in the air. "You're calling me nutters? Weren't you the one who told me that we didn't
need the anti-conception potion? That the anti-pregnancy charm was protective enough? Well, I guess you were wrong,
weren't you? If you're not wizard enough to take responsibility for the child that you fathered, then I'm leaving."

Draco nearly fell out of his robes.

"Ginny," he loosened his hold on her arm, lowered his voice, and stared at her, "I didn't father your child." She looked
up at him, shocked and hurt.

"How can you say that? Of course you did. You know that I've never been with anyone else." Was she serious? "If you
don't want to be involved with your own child, fine. I'm leaving and don't bother owling me later." She yanked her arm
hard, attempting to break his hold on her.

"Wait a bloody minute, Ginny." He did not release her. "Of course I want to be involved with my child. You know that.
But that child isn't mine. How could it be? I haven't been with you in over two and a half years."

She looked at him and laughed, laughed right into his heartless, sadistic face. It felt horrible, awful. She wanted the
floor to open up and swallow her whole. She wanted to die right then and there, in his miserable cottage, hidden away
from the world in a cloud of Malfoy shame. When he merely raised a concerned eyebrow at her, her laughter fell away into
an uncomfortable silence. The longer she stared at him, the more unsettled her stomach became.

"What are you talking about? We've been shagging each other for months, and you know it." Her brave facade began to
crack when he shook his head at her. Where was the malice in his voice, the deception in his face, and the pushing her
away from his heart? There was none. She knew the Slytherin well enough to know when he was speaking the truth. "I don't
understand," she whispered, going limp in his hands.

"We've been at war for the past two and a half years."

"War?"

"The Dark Lord and the Order. You've been living at the campground for the Order, remember?" She shook her head and
heard him let out an exasperated sigh. "Merlin." He took her into both his hands and stared at her. "Ginny, you've been
living at that camp for two and a half years with hundreds of children and older witches and wizards. Do you remember
any of it?"

She shook her head.

"Do you remember being knocked unconscious when the camp was attacked?"

Ginny shook her head again, watching the devastation fall over his face as question after question fell from his mouth.

When his words began to sink into her incredibly thick, amnestic skull, she got a horrible feeling in the pit of her
precarious stomach. Was she going to be sick? Ginny reached out and held onto Draco's outstretched arms. The bitter
taste of bile was tugging at the back of her throat, and she began to feel dizzy.

"Draco," she whispered, now unable to look him in the eye. Instead, she stared at the point where the front of his robes
made contact with his throat. "If you're not the father of this baby, then who is?"

His soft, pale grey eyes were on her as he shook his head. "I don't know, Ginny."

Draco watched as Ginny fell into a dead faint in his arms. He sighed and, for the second time in as many days, picked up
his pregnant fallen witch and placed her back in his bed. Then he stared at her, as vulnerable as he'd ever known her to
be, awash in his sheets, pale and confused, and fighting him every bloody step of the way.

"Goddamn it, Ginny," he muttered before collapsing into the luxury of the chair beside her bed.

Author's Notes: Still here? Thanks for reading. - fallenwitch

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5. Stop It, Draco

Author's Notes:

1) Yes, Ginny has amnesia. Her memory stops sometime before the War when she and Draco were still in the midst of their
relationship, which is why she woke up assuming he was the father of her child. She is amnestic for the duration of the
War so far, including how she became pregnant and the identity of the father of her child. Draco is devastated and angry
became she gave him a vow to wait for him until the War was over. Does that help any of the confused out there?

2) Am I starting to hear the beginnings of this fic crashing and burning? Oh, well, our story continues for now...
-fallenwitch

Chapter 5

Stop It, Draco

"Stop it, Draco."

"Stop what?"

"Stop looking at me in that tone of voice." What? How the hell did she know he was glaring at her? Did the witch have
eyes in the back of her head, Mad-Eye Moody style? "I didn't start the War. I didn't attack the camp. And I didn't ask
you to rescue me, or have you forgotten that?"

Goddamn it. What an ungrateful witch.

"I never said I wasn't grateful because I am. But there's no need to glare at me. You can beat me, kick me, and hex me
into next week, and I still won't remember where this baby came from, alright?" Then she closed her book with a snap,
turned around, and caught Draco glaring at her. She raised a delicate eyebrow back at him.

Without a word, Draco marched upstairs and slammed the door to his claustrophobic cell shut. They had struggled through
five tension-filled days together, barely tolerating each other. Or was it just him?

The sight of her was pushing Draco over his last irritable edge, until he felt like he was going mad, consumed by his
seething pit of anger and outrage and, yes, jealousy. What wizard had wooed her and stolen her heart, leaving his
undeniable calling card behind? Draco wanted to grab her fucking throat and throttle her. Either that or take her into
his aching arms and shake them both wake from their mutual, miserable screw up of a never-ending nightmare. It was a
folie à deux of unbelievable proportions.

Those blasted wizards in the Order. There was only one wizard he couldn't kill, at least not until the War was over and
the Dark Lord was dead. After that, Potter was every bit as much fair game as the rest of those scumbags.

Potter? Draco had this sinking feeling in the pit of his pureblooded stomach that that four-eyed freak of a Gryffindor
Seeker had bested him again. No, he couldn't think about it now, so he kept pushing the unreasonable beast of a notion
to the back of his mind where it refused to stay put. Of course he knew, everyone knew, that Ginny had been besotted
with Potter for years, and that the Wonder Boy finally took to noticing her in his sixth year.

They dated for a period of time before Draco came along and stole her away. Then the bloody War started. Had her
relationship with Potter rekindled and grown into something more over the past two and a half years? Draco ran a
frustrated hand over his disgusted face and groaned. Any wizard but that freak of a wizard.

The thought of his Ginny carrying Potter's child was more than he could tolerate. He was going to be sick. Yes, he was
going to puke his guts out all over his prison cell of a room. Was Potter going to haunt his Slytherin arse with a
Potter junior somewhere in the known wizarding world with Ginny as its mother? Merlin, it was a sick fucking world out
there.

Draco threw his infuriated body down on the bed and began staring at the ceiling of his room, the claustrophobic one he
had been banished to when Ginny took over his room downstairs. It was a glorified broom closet was what it was. He had
hastily enlarged it into a room when Ginny regained consciousness, and he was forced to give up the luxury of the chair
beside her bed.

No, he didn't have the heart to kick the pregnant wench out of his room as he ruddy well should have. Would you? So he
suffered in relative Malfoy silence. Glancing over at his wand, Draco summoned one of his spell books.

Where were those bloody house-elves when you needed one? He flipped through the dusty tomb until he hit upon the desired
page. His elegant finger stopped mid-page. After reading the directions twice, he sat up, took his wand in hand, and
pointed it dead center at the wall next to him.

Then he grumpily spat out the incantation.

A stinging blast of frozen winter air exploded into the place, toppling the surprised wizard backward as an enormous
gaping hole opened up, blowing the contents of his room around.

"Shit!"

The Slytherin was on his hands and knees looking for his wand, which had been blown out of his unexpecting hand. The
wind wasn't helping things. Where the hell was it?

"Draco! Draco, are you all right?" She was pounding on his door, but he couldn't hear a thing. It was too damn noisy
what with the wind and his own internal cursing.

By the time she had worked up enough strength to open the heavy wooden door against the torrential blowing wind, he was
gone from her sight, on the other side of the bed searching for his wand. She ran inside, pummeled by the frigid night
air, and saw only the huge hole in the wall.

"Draco? Draco!" Ginny stood, yelling out of the Hagrid-sized hole with one small hand tenuously anchoring her to the
wall. The wind and the cold ripped at her, sending her crimson silk and robes streaming backward. "Draco!"

By the time he saw her, she was halfway out the hole, looking frantically for him. The Slytherin dove for his pregnant
package of red silk and freckles, wrapped his arms around her considerable waist, and wrestled her gently to the ground,
away from the goddamn hole.

"What the hell are you doing?" he shouted, furious. She looked at him and shook her head, one hand to her ear. "WHAT -
THE - HELL - ARE - YOU - DOING?" The added decibels did nothing for her hearing. He grabbed her wand.

"Finite!"

Complete silence blanketed the small room as the hole in the wall sealed itself.

"WHAT?" she yelled, startled by the sound of her voice echoing off the walls.

He sighed. "I said, 'What the hell are you doing?'" He had one infernal eyebrow raised at her.

"Saving you."

"Do I look like I need saving?"

She eyed him from the top of his tousled platinum locks to bottom of his glorious boots. "Yes."

Draco snorted before issuing a summoning charm. His long lost wand flew into his impatient hands. "If I need your help,
I'll let you know." She nodded before taking her wand from him. Then he untangled himself from her, muttering loud
enough for her to hear, "The last thing I need is for you to fall out of that damn hole."

He picked himself up before offering her a hand. She brushed his hand aside and pulled herself up, using his bed as
leverage. When he turned around, Draco saw the total havoc he had wrecked upon his miserable room. In the middle of the
disaster was his shredded spell book. He picked it up.

"Reparo."

He shot her a nasty glance. "I'm capable of repairing my own book, thanks."

Ignoring his inflammatory remarks and irritated tone, Ginny casually strolled about throwing cleaning and straightening
spells as she went. "What were you trying to do?"

While his room was in a whirl, courtesy of the witch from Gryffindor, Draco sighed. "I was trying to put in a window."

She glanced back at him. "A window?"

"You know how claustrophobic I get. I enlarged this broom closet earlier in the week, and it needed a few windows.
That's all."

"Oh."

Before he could turn his head, she had charmed three enormous windows into place, one on each empty wall.

"Where did you learn how to do that?"

She shrugged. "I don't know."

As he looked at the merciful windows, three sets of heavy curtains fell into place.

"I know how you hate the early morning sun," she said softly.

"Thanks," he mumbled.

She smiled. "You're welcome." Pause. "Draco?"

"Yes?"

"Can't we call some kind of a truce? If we're both going to be staying here indefinitely... "

He sighed. Was he capable of putting aside his jealousy and anger and enormous feelings of rejection? Not bloody likely.
Malfoys were too genetically narcissistic to take this kind of emotional humiliation lying down.

Her gentle hand was on his face, drawing him into her spectacular world, her dark eyes beseeching his. Taking an
unsteady breath, Draco shut his eyes. Having her this close was interfering with his ability to think straight, the way
it always did.

When he felt her soft, incredibly warm lips on his cheek and her face touching his, he threw his arms around her and
buried his face in the nape of her neck, drinking in her precious scent. Yes, the Slytherin had finally gone over the
deep end, into that dangerous territory which didn't exist anymore. He was out of his mind with her. His desire to
possess her, to own her, to have her belong to him and only him was overwhelming his senses and any sense he ever had.

His. His. His. Only she wasn't his anymore.

He had no hold on her. She now belonged to some other wizard in the most painful way possible, and it was tearing him
apart. And no, four weeks wasn't enough time for him to adjust his heart or wrap his mind around her new situation. Here
she was in his arms, and he was impotent. Too little, too late. He couldn't reclaim her love.

"Draco?"

He didn't want to hear her voice or see her pregnant belly or move from her arms. Why couldn't he expire right here and
now? What a fantastic way to pass from one side of the veil to the other.

Her hands were cradling his head and her fingers were running through his silver blond locks. When he looked up, she
placed whisper-light kisses on his face. He moaned as she attempted to comfort him in the way she always comforted him,
and his heart exploded with a mixture of grief and pained relief.

When his pale grey eyes stared into hers and his hands reached out for her face, there was no resistance from her. He
watched her dark eyes as his lips descended onto hers. The only hesitation was his as he softly brushed her baby soft
lips with his, testing her waters. To his surprise, her willing lips met his and devoured his feeble attempt at contact
with her searing, full-mouth kiss engulfing him.

Her magnificent crimson tresses were in his hands. Her heated body was pressing against his as he felt her back arch
towards him and heard the faintest hint of a moan echo from her throat. Draco was in a free fall, dangerously slipping
away from all the carefully placed checks and balances of their everyday existence. His hands were roaming in places
they shouldn't, touching her in ways best left behind. He was lost in her splendor, incapable of stopping himself. And
she wasn't asking him to stop. No, she was urging him on with each movement.

That's when he felt it, the firm, well-placed knee to his lower gut. Draco startled as he was struck again. The third
ruddy knee bloody well did it. The baby's triple dose of stiff reality checks yanked the Slytherin out of his fragile
fantasy and back into the harsh world he resented.

Draco stiffly withdrew from Ginny's arms and placed an unsteady hand on his forehead before turning away from her. What
the hell was he doing, attempting to seduce some other wizard's pregnant witch? Merlin.

When he turned around again, she was gone. He didn't even hear her footsteps on the stairs. Draco rushed out in time to
see her bedroom door close. He collapsed on the wooden staircase and leaned his pathetic head against the wall, shaking.
It was one fucking disaster after another. How many more ways could he screw up before the end of the week?

Author's Note:

1) Folie à deux: A condition in which symptoms of a mental disorder, such as the same delusional beliefs or ideas, occur
simultaneously in two individuals who share a close relationship or association.

2) Thanks for dropping by again! -fallenwitch
