Here With Me
by Lynney

Rating: R
Ship: Harry & Hermione
Canon: Books 1 - 6
Genre: Mystery, Romance
Status: In progress
Length: 135,366 words in 29 chapters
Published: 4 Feb 2006
Last updated: 24 Apr 2006

from chapter 28... She rolled over in his arms then and tried to tell him so, how singular and lovely and irreplaceable
every inch of skin, every thrum of pulse, every instinctual movement and sound he made was to her. It was hell to think
of losing him, ever; it would be heaven to be able to simply give herself over to him without imagining the bitter taste
of loss one day upon her lips. She lived now to sense for that moment when the rest of his preoccupations fell away from
him as they came together, when she managed to draw him so certainly into their private cocoon of touch that the only
thing he really cared about was where the next one would come and what it would feel like and how he could mimic its
sensation back for her...

From the Unofficial Portkey Archive: https://portkey-archive.org/story/5723/

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1. Into the Wood

Here With Me

Disclaimer: My utmost admiration for the inimitable J K Rowling requires me to be most clear in the fact that I own none
of this and humbly offer my thanks for her absolutely magical world so far removed from work, kids (well, I share it
with mine but on a much different level…) and never-ending laundry. I always come back renewed. And I don't make a cent.

Special Thanks Department: To Mina for the beta of these original chapters - without you, I never would have posted here
on Portkey.

A/N: To anyone who might be reading this story for the first time, welcome. Please excuse this lengthy authors note, but
it's here because some of the nicest, most unselfish and supportive writers and readers are also here at Portkey. You've
found the best place on the net for HP fiction.

To all of you who wrote me after the recent incident with a truly nasty reviewer brought me to take this story down, all
I can say is thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I owe each and every one of you so much.

I am that most awful breed of writer; deepus insecurus. You rarely ever see us; our natural habitat is alone with our
keyboards, preferably after midnight. The invention of the laptop is the only reason we actually experience sunshine,
but its cousin in technology, the internet, has been a mixed blessing for the species. We hop out like hopeful bunnies
and post, and your reviews, positive or negative but constructive, make us thump our feet in joy. Take a shot at us, and
we run like Bambi from the flames.

It hurt to delete this story; it had over 500 reviews attached and they were my first ever, so they meant a lot to me.
It hurt even more, though, that someone could say such nasty and unreal things about me personally and my other story
without ever even reading it. I felt singled out and eviscerated in the most awful way, and I thought the answer was to
erase all my tracks and make like I'd never hopped out of the forest. That was my plan anyway.

So many of you pointed out something I'd never thought of at all; if I took down my stories and ran for the woods the
jerk who attacked me or others like him/her might feel emboldened enough to pick on other writers here with the same
effect. I know now that several other writers were victims of the same person - and being far more resilient than I
stayed put. No matter how much I'd feel like licking my wounds in private, I really couldn't bear it if my behavior
meant that kind of thing became any more commonplace at Portkey.

Several of you even quoted Dumbledore and Harry to me - a couple of you even my “own” Harry - about facing dark times
and making decisions. I'm no Harry, I'm afraid, but it seems deeply hypocritical to work so hard to write something and
not take it to heart.

So, anyway… I've decided to repost this story again and put up its final chapters here as well, and to leave Magic Never
Dies up indefinitely for anyone that wants to read it. The least I can do for all the amazing kindness and encouragement
you guys have shown me - I owe you far more than that.

I loved working on MND, but it took a lot out of me. I write chapter by chapter, making it up as I go along, so I had
general sense of where I was going but it often surprised me as much as anyone where it went. I am a bit burnt out at
the moment and content to leave Harry and Hermione in peace while I work on some original stuff. But if any ideas should
come to me and I have the time to write them I will post them here first. GOF is coming to DVD soon, so I am more than
likely doomed to feel the need to try again. I am in the process of archiving my stuff, and if you asked for the info it
will be emailed to you. I am truly looking forward to finally getting the chance to read many of your stories as well.

Once again - you are the best, an island of hope in a rapidly scumming-over pond. If all the kindness you guys have
shown me is born of delusion, than to be delusional is a higher form of consciousness devoutly to be wished for. Thank
you so much. I'll shut up now and let you just read.

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Here with Me is set in Harry's sixth year, rendered AU by HBP. There are three preceding chapters first posted as
Goodbye Privet Drive. They'll be reposted when Dell returns my old laptop, but Here With Me stands without them. Enjoy
or skewer at will. I'll post them one a day til it's back up and then the ending chapters, so if you notice anything
truly dreadful let me know and I can work on it as it goes back up. Thanks! ~ Lynney

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Chapter One

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The Great Hall hummed faintly under its stormy enchanted ceiling, mirroring the overcast conditions outside the castle.
Hogwarts' usually cool fall temperatures had given way to a last gasp of summertime and the air felt heavy with the
latent electricity of an imminent thunderstorm. Across the vast room students from all four houses were caught up in the
usual turmoil of the first weeks of a new school year; wide-eyed, panicky first years clumped together and conversing in
hushed tones, returning students adjusting to new schedules and expectations, the resumption of old friendships and
rivalries.

Harry and Ron had just finished their first Quidditch practice with the new season's potential replacement players. The
always challenging task of beginning to fit together the raw strengths and weaknesses of a new team had caused practice
to run long and mentally knackered Ron, the new Gryffindor Captain. Harry had just been happy to find that Dolores
Umbridge's lifetime ban had been officially lifted and he could play for Gryffindor again. Mounting the Firebolt,
despite its powerful memories of Sirius, had been the best thing that had happened to Harry in months. The two had had
to race to shower and change in time to make dinner, both starving and desperate not to miss their evening meal. Now
Harry was on the hunt for Hermione, having promised to give her his notes from History of Magic, which she had missed
talking a tearfully homesick Gryffindor first year down out of the Owlery. So far, she was nowhere to be found.

He dropped into his usual seat at the Gryffindor table across from Ron, who was already attacking his dinner with
mindless gusto. He poured himself a glass of pumpkin juice, surveying the hall hopefully for Hermione's presence at one
of the other tables. No prefect business with Hannah Abbott over at Hufflepuff. Not comparing Arithmancy assignments
anywhere at Ravenclaw, though Luna Lovegood gave him a characteristically absentminded little wave. No point even
checking out the Slytherins, although old ferret boy was looking somewhat out of sorts over there on the end by himself.
And what were Crabbe and Goyle so disgustingly cheerful about?

“You haven't seen Hermione, have you?” he asked Ron.

Ron grunted “Nawrfhi?” Harry roughly translated “Nope, why?” from the mouthful of Shepherds Pie.

“She really wanted the notes from History of Magic before she went to the library tonight. She's got that Educational
Decree Reversal Committee thing to go to.”

Ron kept chewing and looked at him skeptically. “Why would she want your notes? Wouldn't she want to get them off
someone who was actually paying attention?”

“And they would be…” Okay, so Harry's feeble attempts were usually interspersed with their games of enchanted hangman;
he didn't even remember Ron bringing parchment to most of Binns' bore fests. He'd actually attempted to pay attention
today to please Hermione; he'd found it far easier than usual without her actually there in class. Perhaps it was almost
losing her in the Department of Mysteries last year, but Harry had suddenly come to realize that Hermione was completely
enchanting when she was utterly absorbed in something. Unfortunately Binns was so unrelentingly boring even she had
slowly become aware of Harry's new penchant for getting lost in the swirling shades of brown and blond and gold that
made up her mane of unruly hair. He had a permanent bruise on his left side exactly the size and shape of Hermione's
right elbow.

“D'nno, mate. You've got a point. Don't worry though, she'll turn up.”

Harry looked at his still empty plate, mind wandering. So where was Hermione? He scanned the Gryffindor table again as
he took a sip of pumpkin juice. Parvati, Lavender, Neville, Seamus, Dean, all intently chatting about the first week of
classes. Ginny… Where was Ginny?

A shadow fell across his plate, followed by a sharp crack. Which turned out to be the near simultaneous sounds of
Goyles' elbow connecting soundly with the back of Harry's head and Harry's teeth connecting soundly with the -
thankfully now nearly empty - glass. Which in turn connected soundly with the table and promptly shattered.

“Oops. Sorry Potthead. My bad.” Goyle sniggered. Crabbe guffawed and Goyle pushed him on toward the door. “Clumsy oaf,
look what you made me do! How's Potty going to snog his mudblood with a bloody lip?”

Harry could feel a lump starting to tighten at the base of his neck and tasted blood. He stood up and turned toward the
two Slytherins' retreating figures as they passed through the door to the entrance hall, too surprised to even fully
register his own anger for a moment. What the hell was THAT? That was a classic Malfoy move, the name Malfoy was a
trembling snarl on his lips. A quick check, however, revealed Malfoy to be still seated at the Slytherin table, head
bent over a book. Yeah, right. But since when did Crabbe and Goyle venture out on their own? He glanced back at Ron to
find his best friend similarly thrown. Ron reached across the table to hand him a napkin.

“Wipe up, Harry. You alright?”

“Yeah,” Harry dabbed gently at his lower lip to staunch the flow he felt dribbling slowly down his chin. It stung, his
head now ached, and something was itching, scratching at the back of his neck. He sunk back down in his seat.

“Stupid gits, those two. Shouldn't have thought they'd have it in them without Malfoy leading the charge. What'd you do
to get up their noses, Harry?” Dean asked as he resumed eating. Parvati kindly reparoed his glass and the rest of the
Gryffindors at the table seemed to breathe a small, relieved sigh of house-points-lost averted and tucked back into
their meals as well.

“Woke up this morning, I expect,” Harry replied glumly, and reached back to rearrange the collar of his school shirt.
What was that annoying… a small piece of parchment met his questing fingers.

He unfolded the scrap to find a crudely drawn wizard cartoon. Whatever else Crabbe and Goyle might be, they weren't
artists. It took Harry several minutes of studying the scrap, turning it side to side and squinting, to suss out what
they were getting at. The figure with what he had first taken for a Kneazle on its head was meant to be … Hermione? Her
awkward posture revealed itself to be a result of being tied to what he was rather sure was meant to be a tree. A
balloon repeatedly blew from her lips with the words “Hary! Hary!” scribbled across it. Merlin, couldn't those morons
even spell his name right? Unless she was trying to say, Hurry? Or that she saw something Hairy? Or…

Harry pushed himself away from the table, making his way to the door as fast as his legs could carry him. He'd been
looking for Hermione for the better part of a half hour… because effing Crabbe and Goyle had left her alone somewhere in
the Forbidden Forest. And it was getting dark.

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Harry ran. Without thinking, without reflecting, without pausing for advice from Ron, (well, really, what was the point
of that?) or anyone else (Hermione was the one he went to for advice, and she was the one who was missing…) Every part
of his being screamed find her! He told no one where he was going, stopped for nothing, took nothing with him other than
his wand. He shrugged off his robes somewhere around Hagrid's hut and left them puddled on a rock. The unusual heat had
him sweating already and he well remembered how they had slowed him down on previous visits requiring forays through the
underbrush. He plunged into the trees and ran without stopping until his adrenaline had carried him quite deep within
the forest.

There he paused, doubled over and gasping for breath, and it occurred to him at last that the Forbidden Forest was a
very big place…wheeze… and Crabbe and Goyle were very bad artists… heave… and it was unlikely that there was anything
really distinguishable about the tree that Hermione was tied to in the cartoon. So… exactly HOW was he going to find
her? He stood quite still, listening with all his might to the sounds around him. Even if he couldn't hear her, he might
hear something that had seen her and could lead him to her. Like what, Harry? A Unicorn? Not too fond of boys, those.
Friendly little bowtruckle? He still had a scar on his hand where one of those had bitten him during Care of Magical
Creatures, and he didn't have a handy pocket full of - blech -- wood lice to bribe the little buggers with anyway. How
about a Centaur? Now there's a wizard-loving creature likely to want to help you out… NOT.

“Bugger me.” Harry knew somehow that he'd managed to do it again. Turned off his brain and clicked into Harry-mode. And
now he'd just have to make the best of it and hope that Hermione would be grateful enough to be saved that she wouldn't
hex him into next term just for trying to. Why did he keep on doing this? Talk about slow learners…

Assuming, of course, that she really needed saving and this wasn't just another trap to prove how stupid and predictable
he really was…

“Harry Potter.”

Uh, oh. Not good. Harry knew that voice, and it hadn't been particularly pleased with him the last time he heard it
either.

“Bane.” Harry slowly turned and instinctually bowed as he did before raising his eyes to meet the centaur's gaze. Well,
it works with Hippogriffs, and they can be right moody creatures when they want to be, he reasoned. Bane was still big,
black and very angry. The chestnut red centaur Magorian stood on his right; a quite dark gray one Harry had not seen
before, seemingly younger than the other two, took Bane's left.

Bane furiously stamped a powerful hind leg, his hoof making a dull whumping sound on the forest floor. “We warned you,
Harry Potter. Your kind are not welcome here. And yet you come again. You are not a foal to be coddled any longer. You
have surely reached your manhood now.”

And now I'm gonna die a virgin…

“I only came to free someone who is held here against her will. I only want to help her and I'll go…”

“We do not care about that. If you would but look to the stars as we do you would not bother with these useless quests.
The foolish superiority of all wizards washes through your veins. It is time it was washed OUT!”

All three centaurs raised their bows, arrows at the ready. Before he had really taken in the immediacy of his peril,
Harry heard the singing twang of three bowstrings. He dropped to the ground, hearing the deadly swift hiss of the arrows
pass over his head, then broke left and ran hard, hoping the younger centaur might take longer to re…

Nope. The arrow pierced his right bicep, passed through, and buried its head in his side. He immediately felt strangely
lopsided, grew increasingly aware of how much he used both arms for balance and how hard it was to stay upright, dodge
tree branches and leap over rocks and logs with only one free to steady him. They were damned fast, centaurs, but he was
smaller, more maneuverable. The back legs that gave them their propulsion also required more space to move. He stayed
away from clearings, crashing into the depths of the forest and aiming for cover. He needed to stop running to wrestle
his wand from his right jeans pocket with his left hand, but he sensed if he stopped even for a moment now it might be
his last. Arrows whistled around him or thonked into tree trunks but for the most part it was an eerily quiet pursuit,
his footfalls and the hoof beats of the three centaurs were muffled by the thick loam of the forest floor. It seemed to
go on for hours but could only have been minutes at most. Long minutes. Even as he ran for his life, Harry kept looking
desperately through the trees for some sign of Hermione. What would you do if you DID find her, idiot boy? Lead the
centaurs to her? You'd have to run in the opposite direction. But if I could reach help, Hagrid, the school, if I could
just tell someone where she is…

Harry staggered and failed to clear the trunk of a large tree fallen to the forest floor. He felt something in his ankle
give out with a sideways twist and fell hard, carrying all his forward momentum into the ground. He lay stricken, the
breath knocked out of him, face buried in the decaying leaves that gathered at the far side.

The centaurs soared easily over the log and the still figure so close behind it, galloping on in hot pursuit.

It was some time before Harry made any attempt to move. Everything hurt. His split lip - the scene in the Great Hall
seemed a lifetime ago, surely it should have healed by now? - had opened again and he could taste the blood once more.
His head throbbed. His arm and shoulder were unmentionable, the pain a fierce burning sensation even when he remained
completely still. And now his left leg, his ankle. Bloody, bloody HELL.

“Stupid git.” he mumbled blearily, trying to force himself into a sitting position. It was starting to grow dark. If the
centaurs came back there was nothing for it now, anyway. He made a fumbling attempt to finally free his wand.

“Now that,” said a soft, sibilant voice, “is usually my line.”

He knew that voice.

Malfoy. Malfoy? Oh, like this wasn't going badly enough… Okay, this HAD to be a dream. A really pathetic bad dream.
Malfoy will just kick me in the stones as I lie here and I'll wake up on the floor of the boy's dormitory screaming but
essentially alive. Right? Please?

“Oh, just kill me now,” Harry snarled. “Get it the hell over with. What a freaking nightmare…” He expected to hear
something like “Oh, I haven't even begun what I'm going to do to you yet, Potter,” or “It's time to take you to the Dark
Lord now, Potter,” or even “Avada Kedavra, Potter!” He was totally not expecting:

“I sincerely hope your feeble brain can appreciate this, Potter, because I'm going to be The Boy Who's Totally Screwed
if I save you now. Understand this. You will do everything I say. There will be no whimpering. There will be no feebly
rising up to hex me when you finally manage to get that wand out of your pocket. There will be no dying on me, or I WILL
do unmentionable things to your corpse. Got it?”

The Boy Who's Totally Screwed If I Save You? Save me for what? So Voldemort can finish me? Thanks, friend. Piss off.

Harry was tired. Harry was confused. Harry was bleeding a lot.

Unmentionable things to my corpse? What the hell was that all about? Like I'd care? Whoa… what was that? That rumbling
sound… not hoof beats again. No way.

“Listen, Malfoy, no offense, but I gotta run,” Harry staggered to his knees and tried to pull himself upright against
the log. The sound came again, louder now. He suddenly realized Malfoy wasn't moving to stop him. Wasn't hexing,
jinxing, full-body-binding or petrificus totalus-ing. His wand was held loosely in his hand, not cocked and ready to let
fly. And what was that look for? Harry didn't see anything the least bit amusing about any of this.

He pushed off from the log in the direction he thought vaguely should lead back to the castle. He managed three
floundering strides and fell to the forest floor again. The thunder of hooves was louder now. Or wait. Was that just…
thunder?

Must be. Because that was definitely rain. Brilliant.

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2. Chapter 2

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them.

**I have been rereading these for any corrections I can catch and will repost one or two chapters a day until they are
back up to Chapter 27. Chapter 28 begins the new chapters ending the story, and I will be sure to note in the story
synopsis when the new chapter kick in. Thanks for reading – or re-reading. **

Here With Me

Chapter 2

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Harry didn’t exactly ‘wake up’ later. Consciousness snuck up on him gradually. He had flickers of awareness, and none of
them were tempting him further along. For one thing, where was Madam Pomfrey? And uncomfortable though they were, the
Hogwarts infirmary beds didn’t have lumps this hard. Or… gritty? And to her credit, Madam Pomfrey did a much better job
with the whole pain management program. So this wasn’t Hogwarts, and Harry wasn’t waking up until it was, thank you. So
there.

“Ow!” Except all of a sudden now he found himself attempting to sit up, eyes wide open, looking for a weapon. Something
deadly. But he was in a… cave? With rain streaming down outside the opening. Caves in the Forbidden Forest were not
good. Caves had spiders in them. BIG spiders. Big, hungry spiders that could talk.

“Ow!” This, however, was not a spider. It was something worse. It was Malfoy, stabbing away with his wand at the arrow
still sticking through Harry’s upper arm and into his chest. And Mother of Merlin but that hurt.

“Will you quit it with that already? The word you’re looking for is Crucio. Say it with me. Cruuuucciiioooo. Swish and
flick.” said Harry through gritted teeth.

“And I said no whimpering. No whining. No ‘ow’ing.”

“Then keep your effing wand to yourself.”

“They’re poisoned, you know. Centaur arrows. Slow acting. It causes muscle spasms throughout the body that ultimately
lead to death by strangulation.”

“You actually listen to Snape, then? I always thought he just gave you O’s for being such a Slytherin.”

“Believe it or not, I earned them. Lucky for you I did. Lucky for you that the Forbidden Forest is full of obscure
potion ingredients. I can’t make the full antidote, but I made something that should get you to last long enough to make
it back to Hogwarts.”

“Which you would do because…”

Because this is, after all, the ferret. His father is Voldemort’s left hand man. He’s done nothing but ooze darkness for
the six years Harry’s known him. If the world were not tilting on its known axis, he’d be casting the dark mark in neon
sparks to make sure Voldemort had the exact coordinates of Harry’s demise. So what was up?

“Because at the moment, Scarhead, it seems to be in my best personal interest to keep you alive. If things change, I
promise you’ll be the first to know.”

Harry slowly became aware that there was a small enchanted fire near the front of the cave heating a bowl of sorts
crudely blasted from stone, the contents of which emitted a faintly greenish misting of steam. His eyes traveled from
the potion to its maker. Draco Malfoy? Nope. No way. Voldemort himself couldn’t make him take so much as a sip of that.

“Sit up.” Draco told him.

Harry cautiously levered himself into a more upright position using his good arm.

“First things first. If we’re going to make it out of here alive we need to free up your wand arm.” Draco examined the
feathered end of the arrow, running a finger backwards and forwards along the fletches.

“Nice workmanship?” Harry asked through gritted teeth, mainly to keep on breathing.  Malfoy was enjoying this, he had to
be.

“The best. Really know how to make an arrow, those centaurs. Pity for you though,” Draco told him. His silvery grey eyes
glittered. Like a snake, but not. Harry mused. Something else. Something else that hypnotizes its prey. He’s not a
ferret, Harry thought distractedly. He’s a mongoose. Wait, don’t they eat snakes? Okay, it was official. He was losing
his mind now.

Draco grasped the tail of the arrow in one hand and Harry’s elbow in the other. He quickly bent the shaft of the arrow
until it cracked just above the skin and broke free, then pulled Harry’s arm hard up and away from his side. It came
free of the remains of the shaft with a sickening squelch. Harry felt as if he were falling. Sounds were echoing, images
spinning dizzily before his eyes. His stomach heaved, but it had been so long since he had eaten now there was nothing
to lose. He was faintly aware of Draco pouring some of the heated potion into the wound, tearing off the tail of Harry’s
shirt and binding it around his arm with his own green Slytherin tie. He had never known pain quite like this before,
coursing through his veins like consuming fire. There was no one to fight, nothing to push against, no presence to throw
off. He tried to interest himself in keeping the extent of it from Malfoy (he’ll tell the whole school you cried!) and
found he didn’t really care. There was one thing he wanted, only one thing that could make this bearable.

Hermione! his mind seemed to scream. The cave was deathly quiet but for the crackling fire. Draco was pouring more of
the potion over the wound where the head of the arrow was buried in Harry’s side.

“This has got to come out as well.”

Oh, Merlin, not again….

Hermione, oh, damn, Hermione…Think! Nothing else matters.

Almost as if he could hear inside Harry’s head, Draco said, “She’s alright, you know. The Mudblood. She’s at the castle.
She was always at the castle. They were having you on.”

Harry felt sweet relief take him like a waterfall over the edge of consciousness.

Draco grimly dug the remains of the arrowhead from his side.

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This time he wasn’t expecting comfort and there was no momentary hope of opening his eyes to find the Hogwarts
infirmary. He could still hear the sounds of a torrential downpour from the open mouth of the cave. A sudden crackling
BOOM of thunder jolted almost directly overhead.

His mouth and throat felt parched, as if it had been days rather than hours since that shattered glass of pumpkin juice.
The cascading rain outside was like torture, an abundance of the very thing he craved just out of reach. He groaned
softly and rolled to his good side, trying to push himself upright. His arm felt shaky beneath him, the muscles
quivering as if they had just finished a punishing Quidditch practice. He was out of breath and tried to inhale,
suddenly conscious of the sharp, tearing pain beneath his right arm. He looked down and saw that most of the rest of his
school shirt had been torn off and wound tightly into a makeshift bandage. Ouch.

His new, semi-upright position brought more of his surroundings into view. Malfoy was sitting with his back propped
against the wall of the cave, about halfway between Harry and the rain-curtained opening. He had both Harry’s wand and
his own and was absent-mindedly drumming with them on his extended legs. He appeared to be watching the rain outside,
and Harry wondered if surprise would offset the rest of his obvious disadvantages and allow him to retrieve his wand.

“Welcome back, Potter.” Malfoy said, without turning.

Guess not.

“How are you feeling?”

Harry’s eyes narrowed while he considered possible answers. Really stupid? Royally pissed off? Still not quite ready for
your red-eyed friend yet?

“Alive,” he said finally. His voice sounded strange to his own ears, hoarse and unfamiliar. “Accio wand.”

His wand shot out of Malfoy’s hand and back into his own like a… well, like an arrow. Which had been a major
miscalculation on Harry’s part, because it homed in on his usual right hand, not his uninjured left as he had vaguely
intended. The smack against his palm, usually a small familiar sting, sent shockwaves of pain up his arm that made him
more than a little nauseous and slightly dizzy. He shook his head like a wet dog, attempting to clear it.

Draco grinned, and Harry knew he was trying not to laugh. Okay, so it was a pointless move. So what. If Draco really
wanted Harry’s wand there was very little that Harry in his current state could do to stop him… but there was still
something deeply disturbing to Harry about the sight of it in Malfoy’s hands.

“What did you mean before, about it being in your best interest for me to be alive,” Harry croaked. “Since when?”

His nemesis made a pained face and scooted forward onto his knees toward the fire, retrieved something that appeared to
be a fist-sized rock, then moved to the mouth of cave and thrust it out into the downpour. After several more moments,
Draco turned and came back toward Harry, balancing the object before him.

Oh, sweet, sweet Merlin, it was water; the stone had been blasted out in the center like a cup and contained several
inches of rainwater. Harry felt the tip of his tongue run over his split lip before he could stop it. It had been a long
time since he’d wanted anything as badly as he wanted that water. Hermione was the only thing that came to mind. So, was
Malfoy going to spill it out in front of him? Splash him with it? Please, let him splash my face, please let him go for
my face… No? Make him beg, then. Okay, I could probably handle that about now. Please, oh exalted heir to the henchman
of the heir of Slytherin, you guys may be a little evil, but hey… so’s the Minister of Magic these days!!

“Drink up. You sound like shit. It hurts me to listen.” Draco extended the rock towards Harry’s left hand. Harry took it
hesitantly, still expecting an Uncle Vernon type maneuver, the sucker punch at the last minute that would spill the
contents into his lap. Nothing. Amazing… He raised it to his lips and felt his eyes close involuntarily as he drank,
still waiting for the punch, or at least the punch line of this strange joke. The cool water swirled through his mouth
and trickled down his raw throat. He opened his eyes again only when the rock was empty.

“More?”

It cost Harry a lot to shake his head no, but he wanted – needed – to hear the answer to his question first, “What did
you mean?”

Draco’s face, so often an easy-reader in the art of malice, seemed to shift gears slightly from the usual actively
menacing to guarded and impassive.

“Exactly what I said. For the moment, at least, I actually need you to be alive.” Draco smiled the cold, enigmatic smile
Harry knew so well, a cross between a sneer and a grimace. “But before you get too sentimental, Potter, let me inform
you that the key words here are need and alive. I’ll do my best to counteract enough of the centaur’s poison to keep you
that way. I don’t particularly care if it hurts, and I have a very low tolerance for whining. I also bore easily,
particularly when it comes to Muggles and mudbloods and the welfare of house elves. You dream loudly. Work on it.”

Draco stood up, his lean height hunched by the confines of the caves’ roof, and moved to the fire. Harry watched as he
used another hollowed rock to remove more of the green potion from the steaming bowl.

“I saw that look on your face when I asked how you were feeling,” he continued. “Don’t fool yourself. I frankly couldn’t
give a toss what’s going through that excuse for a mind you use. I need to know how far the poison has progressed. We
stand our best shot of getting out of here alive if we stay undetected until morning and head back then.”

“You always were scared of the dark, Malfoy.” Harry snarled. “Isn’t that a bit of an occupational hazard for a Death
Eater?”

“I’m not the one full of centaur poison, am I? Anyone but your typical Gryffindor with more stones than brains is afraid
of this effing forest at night, you half wit. You wouldn’t have caught me crashing off through the underbrush after
dinner hour looking for Pansy.”

“Even I wouldn’t have gone in here after her.” Harry retorted, although a small portion of his brain questioned this
even as he did. Would he actually let even Pansy Parkinson spend the night tied to a tree in the Forbidden Forest?
Without trying to help? No. He’d have reported it to McGonagall or Snape and let them handle it. This was, of course,
technically what he should have done about Hermione as well.

“For future reference, Potter, one; I am not, in fact, a Death Eater and two; it’s a tactical error to insult the
assumed girlfriend of the person who’s about to apply potion to your open wound,” Draco told him softly, and the look in
those silvery eyes made Harry’s stomach clench. He tried to lift his wand, and the pain brought tears to his eyes. He
switched to his left hand.

“Stay away from me, Malfoy.”

“If I do, Potter, you’ll die. Strangulation is not a pleasant way to go… or so I’ve heard.”

I don’t feel like I’m strangling yet. I don’t feel like strangling anything but you. Harry thought.

Unfortunately, he also knew that whatever else he felt; he wasn’t strong enough to reach the castle on his own. Malfoy
began untying the green and silver school tie that bound the wrapping to Harry’s injured arm. The makeshift bandage was
fairly well soaked with blood and after wiping at the wound with it he threw it into the darkness at the back of the
cave.

“Give me the rest of your shirt, Potter.”

Harry unbuttoned the one remaining button and pulled what was left of the white school shirt from his good shoulder.
There was the sleeve and about half of the front side left to work with. He sensed that Draco was trying to use as
little magic as possible to avoid being detected, but if that last bit was anything to go by he’d bleed to death before
the centaur poison got him. He wished he hadn’t thrown off his robes by Hagrid’s hut. Unless Hagrid found them, and came
looking for him… Hagrid wouldn’t mind coming into the forest at night – he did it all the time. Please, Hagrid.

Despite his proclaimed enjoyment of the concept of Harry-in-pain, Harry reflected that Draco seemed to have a little
more difficulty with the actual follow-through. He appeared both discomforted by the state of Harry’s shoulder and
undecided how best to apply the potion to it. The trickle of the green liquid into the entry wound on the outside of his
bicep stung sharply and he jerked back involuntarily, knocking the cup from Malfoy’s hands.

“Hold still. It’s got to get in there, the hole goes right through.” Draco hissed, wiping up the spilt potion.

Harry closed his eyes and tried to be somewhere, anywhere else. He let his mind wander, hearing faintly some probably
very unmanly whimpering sounds that he knew must be his own, and some increasingly un-upper-class swearing from Malfoy
as he worked.

He tried to picture Hermione safe in the castle, wondered what she was doing now. Studying in front of the fire in the
squashy red and gold armchair, the one that almost seemed to embrace her while she read. Harry’d actually reflected on
what it would be like to BE that chair before, he’d spent enough time sitting at the foot of it. He pictured the
familiar glow of the firelight on her hair, watched as her front teeth trapped her lower lip as she read.

Suddenly her lovely brown eyes gleamed with an emotion he couldn’t place and turned from the book to meet his. “Harry,”
she said, “you have to read this. Look!” He rose to his knees before her and she turned the book so they could both see
the page she was indicating. She was so close he could feel her warm breath against his neck as he read what appeared to
be a handwritten note to the text. It said, HARRY YOU USELESS PRAT! IF IT’S THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND YOU’VE GONE
MISSING IN THE FORBIDDEN FOREST DO YOU REALLY THINK I’D BE SITTING HERE PEACEFULLY STUDYING IN FRONT OF THE FIRE???

So much for my happy place, he thought. Occlumency was no defense against a guilty conscience cloaked as an enraged
Hermione. Things still weren’t very welcoming back in the real world from the sound of it, either. Nice mouth, Malfoy.
He felt a cold shudder run down his spine. But it’s warm in the here, in fact it’s hot…and a strangely vivid vision
crashed over him like a wave.

There was Wormtail, Peter Pettigrew, scurrying along like the rat he was, although he was in his wizard form this night.
Harry was following him, but he wasn’t Harry. There was no pain in this body. The heart in this body barely beat, and
there seemed to be rather long periods when breathing was almost unnecessary. He was very cold. There was a feeling of
great latent power but no way to access it, like a powerful bomb without a flame to light the fuse. Frustration and
weakness warred within him.

Oh, not now. Not again. Please.

He knew only too well who he was.

They were walking somewhere unfamiliar to Harry, although he got the sense it was not so to Wormtail. There was a large,
imposing house, very old and beautiful in a way, but faintly evil as well. All was quiet, the inhabitants probably
sleeping, except for a light in one downstairs window. Wormtail crept past the formal front doors and along a stone path
that led past the lighted window and around the side of the building, where French doors spilled light from the same
room out onto a stone terrace. Harry watched as Wormtail turned aside, looking back at him with obsequious eyes. He knew
somehow that it was he who had gotten them this far, only he that could force the powerful wards protecting this house.
He saw a wand raised before his eyes; heard a terse hiss of a spell. The doorframe splintered and the glass panes gave
way with a resounding crash..

Wormtail pushed open the shattered doors and stepped aside.

“My Lord, I…” Harry heard someone say inside. He stepped into the room and saw Lucius Malfoy’s startled face through
Voldemort’s slitted eyes.

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A sharp, stinging slap brought Harry back to his own body – or thrust Voldemort out of his mind. He heard a suddenly
stifled keening sound and guessed that he had been the source.

Sweet Merlin, by all that’s remotely magically possible, I want out too! Harry thought bitterly. Who the bloody hell
would want to see the world through MY eyes now? This really, really hurts.

“Would you shut the hell up, Potter? Why don’t you just whinny a mating call to every centaur in the forest already, you
couldn’t make it any plainer where we are!” Malfoy snarled at him, and clamped a hand down over Harry’s mouth.

He had a faint flash of panic as he suddenly had to struggle to breath, bared his teeth and bit down hard.

He heard Malfoy’s muffled shriek and felt the hand fly off his mouth, gasped in air desperately and fought to fill his
contracting lungs. Okay, so the centaurs’ poison thing was probably true. Fine time to turn up right for once,
slither-brain!

Malfoy pushed him down hard against the floor of the cave and trapped Harry’s good arm under his knee, grinding it into
the stone. The bitten hand grasped the base of Harry’s throat; the other pointed his wand directly at the zipper of
Harry’s jeans.

“Make one more move like that, you ungrateful little mudblood loving fuck and I WILL rid the world of Potter-kind for
all time,” he snarled. “You really can be the last.”

“I don’t think so,” said a soft voice from the mouth of the cave, “unless you’ve decided to put an end to the
illustrious House of Malfoy as well.”

A disembodied, wand-bearing arm moved deeper into the cave and Harry’s invisibility cloak slipped off to reveal
Hermione. A beautiful, soaking wet Hermione, eyes flashing like an offended Valkyrie.

“Get off him, you twisted little blood snob,” she said, wand trained on Malfoy in a roughly similar location.

“Go ahead. Granger. Make my day. Hex it off. It won’t make much difference to me if Potter doesn’t shut up. The centaurs
will just have to battle the Death Eaters to see who gets first dibs on the three of us.”

“Stupif…” began Hermione.

“Petrif…” started Draco.

“Expelliarmus! Expelliarmus!” thought Harry desperately with everything he had.

Neither finished their spell. Hermione and Draco’s wands jerked from their hands and fell with a clatter to the floor of
the cave, close by their respective owner’s feet. Both visibly started and narrowed their eyes at the other as they
reached down.

“What was…?”

“What did you…?”

“Not me…”

“I didn’t…”

Harry was still struggling to breathe; air seemed to be finding its way into his lungs now but it was like trying to
inflate a too-small balloon. Dumbledore’s wand less magic lessons must have finally taken some hold. At least he’d
managed to distract the two momentarily, even if their wands were lying right at their own feet. Hermione had never
appeared scarier, or more glorious. Please let him not die just yet.

“Don’t,” he managed to rasp out.

“Harry?” Hermione queried softly. She clearly wanted to move to where he lay but needed to assess the situation first.
Clever Hermione. She never ran first and came up with a plan after.

“Harry?” she asked again, more urgently this time. Her eyes were taking in the blood soaked shirt bound with the
Slytherin tie and the fact he wasn’t exactly leaping to his feet and putting two and two together. She didn’t look
happy, either.

Potter, a suddenly clear voice said inside his head, if this is going to go any further you need a plan. Better late
than never, right? Step one, you need Malfoy to finish dosing you up with that bloody potion of his on the off chance it
might actually work, buying you time to tell Hermione that she is the most beautiful witch in existence and that you are
never, ever going to do anything this stupid again. So, step two, you need to tell Hermione that Malfoy was not in fact
the one who shot an arrow through your arm or else she won’t let him anywhere near you, in which case you’ll probably
die here choking in your own spit. Step three… hell, you can tell Malfoy about Voldemort’s house call to Lucius later.
There’s nothing you can do about it now and neither can he, even if he wants too. Okay, so, Step one, tell Hermione
about…

“Gah,” said Harry. He could feel the muscles in his throat spasm, his tongue tightening against the roof of his mouth.

Okay, Plan B. This is the part where she looks into your eyes and sees how much you love her and begins to read your
mind or hear your thoughts or… something. Hello! Harry to Hermione – leave the wand and let Slimey the Slytherin get
back to work before I die here, okay? Please?

Hermione abruptly crossed the distance between them and dropped to her knees beside Harry.

Whoa… does this really work? Hermione, I could pass on the whole rib crushing hug thing, but I bet you could kiss it all
better in no time, honestly…

Her eyes flickered over him and then on to Malfoy and the rest of the cave.

Rats.

“Let me guess… you, Harry, ran off half-cocked into the forbidden forest at nightfall and met a…” she picked up the
broken shaft of the arrow from the floor of the cave where Draco had tossed it, examining it for a moment, “centaur? Oh,
but Harry, centaurs’ arrows are really poisonous, they’re deadly!” He saw the sudden flicker of fear in her eyes as she
turned to Malfoy, and pointed at the potion. “What’s in that?”

Malfoy listed ingredients, and Harry could almost see her mixing them together in her mind.

“That should be alright...” she murmured.

Harry felt himself give a sudden, involuntary shudder, almost like a shiver, that seemed to squeeze his contracted lungs
even tighter. His eyes sought hers. Hermione, please…

Her hands swiftly began untying the remaining bandage around his chest. “I’ll do it, Malfoy. Bring it here.”

It didn’t really hurt any less when Hermione applied the steaming green liquid to the wound beneath his arm – in fact,
it still hurt like hell – but Harry found he somehow minded a lot less. He also found it extremely amusing to see her
order Malfoy around and to watch him, however grudgingly, acquiesce. When she had cleaned the wound and saturated it
with as much of the potion as she could manage she soaked a small wad of cloth, positioned it over the gash and motioned
to Draco. “Give me your shirt.”

“My what? Forget it, Granger. I’m not ruining a perfectly good shirt on Potter! Use your own.”

“Mine is soaking wet, as if you hadn’t noticed. Don’t hate mudbloods enough not to eye one up, do you? His is already
ruined and now it’s all bloody as well. We need a fresh bandage over this.”

Hey! Eying who up? Keep your sick silver eyes off Hermione, you… dungeon-dwelling snake…

“He’s already bled all over my tie,” Draco grumbled, fingers reluctantly moving to his buttons. “This is one of my
favorites, it’s monogrammed.”

“You can afford more. Just do it already.”

He pulled it off and passed it to her. Harry noticed he didn’t seem quite so Slytherin-sleek and menacing stripped of
his shirt. The luminescent white of his skin actually made him appear almost… vulnerable? Out from under his rock,
certainly.

“Ever met the sun, Draco? It’s that big warm yellow thing in the sky during daytime.” Hermione said, tearing the shirt
apart.

Go Hermione! Harry silently cheered.

“Ever met a brush, Granger? It’s what the rest of us use to keep our hair from looking like yours,” Malfoy rejoined.

“Ha, Ha. So amusing. Help me sit him up so I can get this around his back as well.”

Her hands felt gentle and cool wrapping the bandage around him. It still wasn’t the Hospital Wing, but Harry reckoned he
felt as close to good as he was going to get anytime soon. When she had tied it off in a firm knot Hermione sank down
beside him. He noticed that she really was very wet. He shifted slightly so that his head was closer to her knee and her
hair dripped onto his forehead, running slowly down into his eyes. She pulled it back into a ponytail with her hands and
wrung it out behind her, then used the tip of her finger to wipe the water from his lashes. He closed his eyes, feeling
suddenly at peace. Hermione’s here. There was a moment of quiet, only the sound of the rain washing over the front
opening of the cave.

Wait a minute… how come Hermione’s here? His eyes flew open again and met hers looking down at him. She seemed to
understand the question in his, because she said softly, “I heard you screaming Harry. I was in the Common Room and we
were looking for you on the map when all of a sudden I could just hear you inside my head. It was the strangest thing.
Ron said he couldn’t hear anything, but I was so sure I heard you. You were just saying my name, over and over again.”
She turned from Harry to Malfoy.

“Ron said Crabbe and Goyle bumped into Harry in the Great Hall and a few minutes later he just got up and ran from the
table without a word. Know anything about this, Draco?”

Harry heard what sounded like the scratch of parchment unfolding, and saw Malfoy holding what looked to be Crabbe and
Goyles’ cartoon.

Malfoy sighed and shook his head. “Cretinous imbeciles. Crabbe’s always wanted to do something like this. It’s just
embarrassing, frankly. I can’t believe you two actually thought I had anything to do with it.”

“How silly of us, Draco. It’s so unlike you to taunt Harry.”

“If I had been involved in this, you would have actually BEEN in the forest, you would have been yelling ‘scar head, my
scar head, wherefore art thou scar head!’ and it would have been SPELLED correctly.”

“An educated Death Eater is still, Malfoy, a Death Eater. Punctuation and grammar don’t change the leopard’s spots. A
high class whore just costs more.”

Erm… Hermione?

“I sit before you shirtless, Granger, thanks to your bloody boyfriend over there. Spot the dark mark anywhere? Anywhere
at all? My father is a Death Eater. I am not. Nor am I going to be. So you can trot that little bit of information back
to your other red-headed friend.”

Why would Ron care about Draco Malfoy’s post-Hogwarts career choice? Uh oh, wait a minute, was THAT why Voldemort took a
field trip to the Malfoys tonight?

There was a moment of silence and then Hermione said slowly, “I really can not in good conscience play messenger for you
two again. If this thing between you is going to survive you’re going to have to make it on your own. I won’t try and
stop you, but it just feels… wrong.”

WHAT?

So much for dying in peace. Five minutes was too much to ask for, just to enjoy her nearness in silence unbroken by the
sound of MORE crap he didn’t understand?

He struggled back up, bracing his weight on the elbow of his good arm. “What… are… you… saying?” he rasped out against
the constriction in his throat. “Wahh ggart sa?’ was what he heard. Okay then, Harry! Clear as mud, that. You sound like
Ron in the middle of a particularly good breakfast.

Hermione visibly winced at the sound of his voice. In more ways then one, he was sure. There was something going on here
that he didn’t understand, something both she and Malfoy did. How unpleasant an image was that?

She handed Draco the stone cup. “Get him some water, please.”

“He’ll only choke on it.”

“Just do it, for Merlin’s sake. Must you argue about every little thing?”

They were starting to sound a bit like Hermione and Ron. Noooooooo!!

He thought she might explain while Malfoy took the hollowed stone to the mouth of the cave, but she only worked her
fingers under his fringe to feel for fever. “Harry, you’ve got to lie back down.”

He let his eyes bore into hers with a look that would not be ignored. She rolled hers and sighed.

Malfoy brought back another cup full of rain water. Hermione pulled her school shirt free of the waistband of her skirt
and ripped a piece from the bottom. She soaked it in the water and turned to Harry. “Open.”

He was puzzled for a moment and then caught her idea. She carefully placed the scrap between his lips and he sucked the
water from it, feeling the cool wetness against his tongue. She continued to patiently soak the cloth and place it into
his mouth again and again until he managed to swallow. He watched her watching him, smiling and encouraging. She had
never appeared more heart-snaringly precious, more completely and totally desirable. More truly determined to distract
his attention.

“What… about?” he managed.

Hermione turned to Draco. He was standing just behind her, watching them both.

“It’s your secret to tell.”

Harry watched the play of emotions wash across his features. Distrust, frustration, defiance and a flicker of fear
battled with something Harry had never seen before on Malfoys’ face. The indefinable won and it looked so out of place
on Malfoy’s countenance that for a moment Harry scarcely recognized him.

“I’m in the midst of a little family argument, if you must know, Potter. It’s the big seventeen coming up this year,
time to get my apparition license and take up the hood.” He laughed bitterly. “I was born in the shadow of the Dark
Lord, too, you know. My whole life, it’s always been the Dark Lord said this, if it wasn’t for the Dark Lord taking care
of that. ‘Clean your plate, Draco, or the Dark Lord will let the Dementors give you your good night kiss.’ Our first
year at Hogwarts, I chalked you up to beginners luck. You’d been raised by Muggles, for Merlin’s sake, you didn’t really
know what you were up against! But it worked for you. Maybe old Fumblemore really has a plan. Whatever. You survived.
And despite remaining completely clueless of the rules of the game, you somehow keep ON surviving. It’s enough to make
one think…If Harry Bloody Potter can go on evading the inevitable, what could someone with an actual plan manage? I’ve
never liked the idea of serving Voldemort; it’s just always seemed to be a choice between that or a quick Crucio and
hello, green light of death. And then even the sorting hat started in with its’ two cents and it began to occur to me
that there might actually be other…possibilities.”

Holy hell… who’d’ve thought he’d ever feel kind of bad for Draco Malfoy? As much as he disliked the visibility of his
own position, he had to admit that if Malfoy chose to stray from the family path he’d be under a pretty unenviable
spotlight on several fronts as well.

“Go on,” said Hermione. “There’s more.”

“Gods, what a nag you are. How do you stand it, Potter?”

“Do what… she wants,” Harry managed to choke out. Draco gave sharp bark of laughter. Hermione looked like she wanted to
smack Harry, but didn’t have the heart.

“Further complicating my erm… indecision, is the unforeseen fact that I seem to find myself, well having, erm… a
relationship of sorts with… with… well, with Ginny Weasley. And I’ve come to realize that I don’t actually want to end
it. Quite the reverse, in fact. Puts the whole Death Eater issue completely in question.”

“To say the least,” Hermione said. “To be honest, I can’t see there’s much to choose from between Voldemort and the
brothers Weasley when they find out, though.”

“At least the brothers Weasley might be worth it. The Dark Lord’s fringe benefits simply can’t hold a candle to
Ginny’s.”

Harry was still stuck back at, ‘having, erm… a relationship of sorts with… with… well, with Ginny Weasley’.

“My father was furious. About the Death Eater decision, I mean. Obviously he doesn’t know anything about the, um, rest
of it. You think your life is hell, Potter. I’m meant to be marrying Pansy, you know. It’s been arranged since last
summer, at least between her father and mine. No one bothered to ask me. More important than ever to keep the blood
pure, you know. You may not have had parents, but trust me, that can have two sides as well. No one’s running your life
for you. My Father will kill me himself rather than see me shame the Malfoy name, and it won’t be a merciful Avada
Kedavra, I assure you. Crabbe and Goyle keep begging for a look at the mark, they can’t wait to get theirs. Pansy’s been
trying to run her hand up my sleeve all week. I was pretty much at the point of no return anyway when I saw Goyle knock
into you in the Great Hall and watched you take off. Ginny still adores you for some unfathomable reason, Potter. If I’m
going to get myself disinherited and moved up to a notch or two below you on the Death Eater hit list, I figured I
couldn’t blow it on all fronts.”

So Draco Malfoy is trying to keep me alive to impress Ginny Weasley? Harry felt himself start to laugh, something of a
bad move in his current respiratory state. The laughter turned to coughing, the coughing to gasping for air. Hermione
tried to get him to lie down again but that only heightened the sense of drowning and he fought her to stay upright. She
rubbed his back gently and he tried to focus on the soothing movement of her hand, fighting reflexive panic. His mind
jumped to the feeling he had experienced in his vision of Voldemort’s body; the slow reptilian heartbeat. It seemed to
work; he felt as if his own body recognized the feeling and deliberately measured the thudding of his over-worked heart,
slowly easing the constriction of his lungs. He lay back in shaky relief, nestling unashamedly closer against Hermione
and closing his eyes as her arms steadied him. Draco Malfoy and Ginny Weasley. Mother of Merlin, who’d seen that coming?
The end time truly must be near…

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3. Chapter 3

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Here With Me

Chapter 3

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Hermione watched him sleep, his head pillowed in her lap. Her eyes followed the sporadic, shuddering rise and fall of
his chest seeking any signs of improvement. How like the story of her life to finally have a half naked Harry in her lap
only to be too close to losing him to enjoy it… Part of her wished she knew enough about healing to charm his pain away,
the other just wanted to run her hand down that lovely, taut-muscled stretch of skin to the button of his jeans and…
Damn! She could feel Malfoy’s eyes watching her and raised her own to meet them.

He made a tsking noise.

Hermione found herself laughing. “Oh that’s rich coming from you, Malfoy.”

“I could read you like a book just then, you know Granger. I’ll bet I could tell you exactly what you were thinking.”

“Oh really?” Hermione questioned, steeling herself not to blush. He’s guessing, and he’s playing with you. Don’t fall
for it.

“Here’s a thought for you, brightest witch of your age,” Draco said, leaning forward. “He’s likely within a year at
most, probably less, of finally really facing Voldemort. Why don’t you just drop the saintly bookworm charade and have
at him already? There isn’t a male under a hundred in the castle that can’t scent you as marked territory. You must know
he worships the ground you walk on. What is this twisted nonsense with pretending you’re just too good friends to fancy
him? Sex is truly a glorious thing, Granger, and if you haven’t noticed yet - the ghosts don’t get any. If he’s got
every chance of getting himself killed taking the Dark Lord out, why not send him off a happy man instead of a regretful
boy? Far be it from me to snag Potter a shag, but time waits for no witch and quite frankly it’s getting painful to
watch.”

Hermione was shocked rigid. Harry wasn’t the only one having trouble breathing for a moment.

“Go on; tell me it hasn’t crossed your mind. Fifty times a day from the look you were just giving him. What are you
saving yourself for?”

“Why don’t you mind your own damn business, Malfoy. Here’s a thought for you; if you’d thought with your head instead of
your… your little wizard, you probably wouldn’t be messing up Ginny Weasley’s life right now!”

The eerie, silver-grey eyes glittered coldly at her from beneath his white-blond fringe; still she somehow glimpsed in a
split second what Ginny had tried to tell her, the likeness to a fallen angel. He was beautiful, but in a faintly
tainted way that made her feel almost unclean to admit recognizing it. Ginny must have a bigger saving people thing than
Harry if she truly wanted to take that on.

“I like to think I made that particular choice not with my little wizard, as you so charmingly put it, but with my
heart. And yes, I do have one. It knows that Weasley loves me. She’s literally screamed it out loud. More than once, and
quite, quite happily, I assure you. If I die tomorrow, at least I’ll die having known it without a doubt. Can you say
that?”

“Oh, so a good shag proves everything, does it? Well you’ll obviously be going out knowing the whole of Slytherin loves
you then, from what I’ve heard,” Hermione shot back at him before she could stop herself. What was she saying? Why was
she even having this conversation with him? Why were there tears building in her eyes? More importantly, why was Harry
lying there oblivious when she needed him?

Draco laughed mirthlessly. “For once, my reputation exceeds me. So you’ll have been what to Potter? Study buddy? Doesn’t
He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named gain even more power over you both if he’s
He-Who-Keeps-Harry-An-Emotionally-Stunted-Virgin-Forever? Let me guess, you’re waiting for him to declare his undying
love in front of the whole school, ring on your finger and happily ever after, before you’ll take your knickers off.
Meanwhile, he’s busy trying to keep you below Voldemort’s radar and figuring out if there’s even going to be an ever
after, let alone a happy one.”

The tears spilled over. She couldn’t stop them, sensed the first one slipping from her eyes and sliding down the side of
her nose. How could this happen? How could he, of all people, take her carefully structured world and just smash it to
pieces? Why did she even care? She’d always thought him vile, spent half her life keeping Harry and Ron away from him.
It was such a Slytherin trick, to ferret out perhaps the only vulnerable spot in her fortress.

“Must you?” he sighed, leaning back against the cave wall and rolling his eyes.

“Yes! I must! It’s your own fault, if you must know. You’re so very brilliant, so damn insightful. How did you think I
was going to react to you picking apart all my convictions for me? ‘Oh Draco, you’re a genius! It never occurred to me
to just, just… fuck Harry before Voldemort does!’ And what’s it to you, anyway?”

“Nothing. Less than nothing. Forget I said anything. Look, I’m tired.” Draco yawned and stretched. His limbs were long
and luminous in the firelight. “Unless you’ve a better idea, we should get some sleep too. I don’t think it makes sense
to try and get him to the castle until daylight. I don’t know if the centaurs have given up on us but there are enough
of Hagrids’ failed experiments out there to make staying in here worthwhile no matter how lacking in charm it may be. Is
it safe to assume you’ll keep watch over Potter? He’s not sleeping on my lap if we take turns.”

“I’ll watch him.” Hermione said. “Is there enough of the potion left to dose him again if we need to change the
bandages?”

“I think so. Do us both a favor though and leave it ‘til morning. There’ll be no sleeping through that performance.”

Hermione felt her blood begin a slow boil.

“Did it occur to you what it must feel like to have that particular potion heated and poured into an open wound? My best
guess is it hurts like holy hell, you sadist. Or is it even possible for you to care what anyone else is feeling?”

From the look he gave her, Hermione realized the usually chilly Draco was probably pretty close to the same boiling
point.

“Did it ever occur to you that maybe that’s just how I happen to deal with it, you sanctimonious little bitch? Just
because you Gryffindors trot your hearts out on your sleeves every forty-five seconds for everyone else to have to
acknowledge doesn’t make you the world’s foremost authority on feelings. I had to take the bloody thing out in the first
place. It was like poking a puppy’s eyes out, thank you. I bet you couldn’t even have brought yourself to touch it,
could you. Could you? Is that how much you supposedly love him? Oh yeah, I forgot, I play the role of the heartless
bastard in this drama, I’m just supposed to shut up and let your preconceived ideas reign. Only poor Hermione Mudblood
Granger’s ever been persecuted for what she is. Well, I have enough sounds of people screaming bouncing around in my
head to last me a lifetime. I don’t want to hear any more.”

He was clearly angry too. Fine… Malfoy had always seemed to Hermione to be about control. Distancing, mocking, menacing.
It occurred to her that he probably liked to lick his wounds, literal or metaphorical, in private. There was no retreat
in the cave. Let him squirm.

“Let me guess, Daddy laughed at you if you cried. Boo hoo for you, Malfoy. You knew what you were doing. That’s hardly a
license for your attitude.”

“No, Granger. Daddy liked to see me cry. I learned at the foot of the master there. I knew what the receiving end of a
Crucio felt like a long time before I ever came to Hogwarts. All for my own good, of course. And I know what it’s like
to cast one, too. You and Potter and Weaslebee can crack all the “Malfoy’s too scared to be a Death Eater” jokes you
want. You’re right. I am. Because I’ve had a good hard look at the Dark side and I’m making a decision to get out. So
allow me to educate you for a change. It’s more painful than the most masterful, Aunt Bellatrix-style Cruciatus to
listen to someone else, anyone else, even him, and be the one to cause it.”

His eyes were truly angry now, their silvery color flat and reflective. “Your precious Potter and I do have at least one
thing in common. We both learned early on that there are vicious pricks in this world that feed on your pain and there
is something to be said for starving them off, locking it up inside you and throwing away the key. Not every bloody
thing is healed by observation under your emotional microscope, you know. You’re the one who’s got nerve, Granger.
Getting one hundred and ten percent on your exams doesn’t make you fucking omniscient when it comes to the rest of us.
It just means you can read the book.”

He turned away abruptly removed himself closer to the fire and lay down with his back to her.

And there were the tears again, running down her nose toward Harry.

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Hermione slept fitfully, dozing off and snapping back to consciousness only to find herself still trapped in a cave
filled with sound of the pouring rain outside and Harry’s troubled breathing within. She drifted off and woke again to
find her legs gone heavy and numb between the weight of Harry’s head and the hard stone floor. ‘Time to move, Hermione,
or you won’t be able stand up in the morning yourself,’ she thought. She slipped her hands under Harry’s shoulders to
lift him and let out a cry of pure panic. “Oh, God, wake up. Harry! Oh, he’s so cold; he can’t be breathing at all. He
was alright just a few minutes ago… damn it, Malfoy, get the potion, quickly!”

Draco woke admirably quickly and rose, crawling the short distance across the cave floor between them. He felt around
under Harry’s jaw. “There’s a pulse. Ugh, he is cold though. We need to wake him up.” His hand moved to administer the
same bracing slap that had startled Harry from his dream state before Hermione had arrived but her fingers closed like
iron bands around his wrist.

“What are you doing?”

“Waking him up! What the hell is wrong with you?”

“You were going to hit him!”

“To wake him up! Bloody hell, Granger. What do you want me to do, kiss him?”

Hermione felt the look of steel that turned Ron’s knees to water creep into her eyes. Draco appeared unaffected and
glared right back. She pushed him aside, knelt down beside Harry, cupped his face in her hands and kissed him with
everything she had. Please wake up Harry, please wake up Harry, please wake up Harry, please.

It felt like he came from very far away. There was a slow warming beneath her lips, twitches beneath closed eyelids.
Come on Harry!  She let her fingers stroke the sharp bones of his cheeks and trace down to his ears, trying to warm them
as well. He began to turn his face into the pressure of her hand. She felt his jaw loosen slightly and found herself
lost in the moment, her tongue slipping softly towards his… Hermione, you idiot, the point is to get him to breathe
here, he can hardly breathe with your tongue down his throat, can he! She drew back hesitantly and was rewarded by a
shallow intake of air, a marked thump in his chest beneath her hand. It was several long, long minutes before his eyes
slowly opened.

Beautiful green eyes, come on you two, open up, there you are, come on Harry…Hermione urged silently.

Only it wasn’t Harry in there.

His eyes were horribly blank, and flicked without interest from her own. They were fascinated, however, by Draco.

Harry began to laugh, a horrible, mirthless evil sound she didn’t believe possible from his lips.

“Hello, little Malfoy. Imagine finding you here. Did you think you could hide?”

It was Harry’s voice, but not his own. Hermione knew somehow that it might be Harry’s body speaking, but Harry wasn’t
home. This left one obvious candidate, forever linked by the lightening bolt scar.

“Oh, shit!” said Malfoy, obviously coming to the same conclusion at roughly the same time. “That’s not Potter, Granger.”
He grabbed her and pulled her back, away from Harry. Harry’s body fell back heavily when her support was so suddenly
removed and seemed to thrash about to right itself. He managed to rise to his knees, struggling obscenely against the
useless arm bound to his side by the bandages. Clearly Voldemort somehow hadn’t been aware of Harry’s injury. From the
disorientation on Harry’s face, he also wasn’t a lefty.

Hermione felt Draco’s wand arm rising behind her, and she reached back, grabbing hold of it.

“Get off, Granger!” he hissed.

“You can’t! It’s Harry, Malfoy. Even a petrificus or a stupendo could kill him now. He can barely breathe.”

“Well we’re just going to have to risk it, because I’m pretty damn sure that’s the Dark Lord in there with him.”

Voldemort seemed infuriated to discover Harry’s body not only wounded but wandless. Harry’s face – so clearly no longer
controlled by Harry – took on a self-assessing look, followed by a horrible leer. “Ahh. Potter’s growing even stronger
than I knew!”

Harry’s left hand extended toward them, fingers splayed. Hermione just had time to notice that it looked like his aim
was a little off when a pulse of green light shot out from Harry’s fingertips and careened into the cave wall an arms’
length away from Draco’s head, propelling shards of rock over them both.

“Draco, his glasses! I took off Harry’s glasses last night,” Hermione whispered, moving backwards towards the front of
the cave and pushing at Draco, who stepped in front of her. “He’s nearsighted. If we can keep back a bit he can’t focus
on us.”

“Come, Draconis. There’s no point in prolonging this. You knew this would come the moment you denied me. You’ve seen my
playthings before. Crucio, littlest Malfoy. Crucio, Crucio, CRUCIO!”

The first three were near misses. The fourth was a direct hit and carried with it the frustrated force of its
misdirected predecessors. Draco went down with a strangled cry, his body curling protectively, knees drawn to his chest,
arms over his head.

“Harry!” Hermione screamed. “Harry, wake up! Stop him! Harry!”

Hermione saw something flicker in Harry’s eyes.

“Harry. I know you’re in there. Please stop him. Draco helped you!”

It was excruciating watching the warring emotions range over Harry’s face. Whatever was going on in there, the Cruciatus
curse on Draco had been broken and he drew himself trembling back to his feet. Hermione was terrified that the visual
cue of Harry, whom he had so long hated, added to the reflex to protect himself from another curse would be more than
Draco could resist.

“Last chance, little Malfoy.” The cold black-eyed Harry was in the forefront again, although disconcerted enough by the
struggle to change attacks. “Come do what you were born and bred to do. It’s Potter after all. Look. I’m offering him to
you!”

Harry seemed to throw himself against the cave wall behind him, left arm stretched out, legs spread wide, as if held by
unseen forces. His head drooped forward limply.

Draco lurched to his feet, clutching his wand.

“Take him, Draco. You know what I can do for you. Take him and join me,” came Harry’s voice, so grossly unlike him.

“Alright! I’ll do it!”

The confident self-righteousness of earlier that evening flew swiftly out the cave door for Hermione.

“Ginny could never forgive you if you hurt Harry, Malfoy. Never.”

“Shut it, Granger,” Draco whispered. “I’m not going to hurt Harry. Much. Your faith, however, is deeply touching.”

Much?

Draco made his way toward Harry channeling five years of scarcely suppressed aggression.

“Look at me, Potter,” he hissed. “I want you to watch me. This is your bloody fault and I’m going to break you before I
give you up. Father always said the Death Eaters were told they could have as much fun with you as they wanted as long
as they brought you to the Dark Lord still alive. So look at me!”

He made a swift slash and upward flick with his wand. Harry’s head flew back against the cave wall as if pulled by his
hair. Hermione saw his eyes shift and realized Draco wanted Voldemort to step back from the forefront to allow Harry to
be the one to feel what Draco was supposed to do to him. He could still be in there, controlling, but it gave Harry a
better chance of regaining himself. If Draco didn’t kill him first.

“You’re think you’re so special Potter. You’re nothing but a scrawny left-over that Dumbledore pinned his misguided
hopes on because he had nothing better to use. Only the most gutless, spineless, sniveling drivel of the wizarding world
can possibly expect you to save them from what’s coming. You simply sicken the rest of us. Conlacertus!”

The spell neatly sliced through the shirt bandaged around Harry’s chest and into the skin below. The bandage and
potion-soaked poultice fell away to the ground. Harry’s body cried out and jerked against its splayed limbs. Hermione
began to see what she knew to be Harry taking over his features again. The pupils shrunk to their normal size and the
green iris took over the balance of color, his mouth trembled, the terrible smile gone. Voldemort couldn’t resist the
opportunity to feel Harry in pain and humiliated, and he could not do so without allowing Harry dominance in the body
upon which the pain was to be inflicted. In the exact reverse of his last awakening, Harry’s eyes moved beyond Draco
with neither fear nor resistance to Hermione’s with what seemed to her to be both concern and regret.

And grew falteringly black again.

Draco noticed the change as well. “You know one thing I’ve always wanted to see, Harry? You, on your knees.” He flicked
his wand again, a graceful twist that brought Harry to the ground. “begging my forgiveness for every moment of your
pitiful, annoying existence. Exposco adfectio.”

Harry’s body lowered over his knees, clearly against his will. His good arm slowly extended beyond his bowed head as if
in supplication, trembling as it fought the force of the spell.

Hermione felt her own hand covering her mouth, wished that she could instead cover her eyes.

Draco stepped forward and positioned his foot against the side of Harry’s head, forcing it flatter to the ground but in
the process turning Harry’s eyes towards Hermione.

And he was Harry again, eyes brilliantly green and magnified by tears of pain and humiliation.

“Let him go. Draco. It’s Harry, let him go!” No sooner had the impassioned plea passed her lips did Hermione see the
flare of impatience on Draco’s face and the resurgence of the cold black in the eyes beneath him.

Oh, damn, what have I done? Smart move, Hermione. That helped!

“No, wait. I’ve got a far better task for you, Potter,” Draco said, a hint of desperation invading his tone. “The only
thing more revolting than you is the mudblood scum you consort with.” He stepped away from Harry and Harry’s body pushed
itself shakily back to its knees. “Tell her. Tell her that even a half blood like yourself could never love her. Tell
her how her very existence repulses you. How it repulses us all.”

“No,” came a hoarse whisper from Harry’s lowered head.

“Did you say something Potter? Think carefully. I don’t think I quite heard you correctly.” Draco’s voice was more
confident now, at its sibilant Slytherin best.

Harry’s head came up, his eyes distinctly green; they sought out Hermione’s steadfastly. “No… I said no. I meant no,” he
grated out against the remnants of the centaur’s poison still constricting his throat.

“Wrong answer, Potter,” Draco said, raising his wand.

“Then for your sake and mine, Malfoy, would you just stun me already and get this demented fuck out of me!” Harry
gasped, as his hand darted out towards Draco’s wand.

“Hang in there, Potter. Stupefy!” Draco spat, jumping back just in time. Harry’s seeker instincts were homed on Draco’s
wand, Voldemort’s last chance to take control and render at least one of them a fatal blow. He dodged the first spell
and stumbled to his feet, lunging, still hindered by having to use his left hand.

“Stupefy!” sobbed Hermione, aiming her wand dead center at his chest.

Harry dropped like a stone and was still.

Hermione and Draco both stood frozen for a long moment, watching. Hermione dropped to her knees and swiftly crawled to
where he lay, raised a hesitant hand but could not at first bring herself to touch him. ‘Please let him be okay, please
let him breathe, please let him be him, please,’ her heart pleaded. ‘What have I done?’

“Is he breathing?” Draco asked shakily.

Hermione laid her hand on his shoulder and gently rolled him over. He was still disturbingly cold but she was almost
certain she saw him take a shallow breath. Her hand moved to just below his collar bone and she felt another small
swell.

“I think so,” she said. “The question is, is he still Harry?”

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4. Chapter 4

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them.

Here With Me

Chapter 4

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“So,” Draco said. They were still in the cave; rain still dripped fairly steadily over the entrance but a pale light was
also creeping in, dawn making its way through the Forbidden Forest. Harry’s head lay again in Hermione’s lap. He had
been unconscious for what must have been five or six hours. Draco and Hermione had together re-poulticed the centaurs’
arrow wound with the last of the potion, thankful that he had remained seemingly oblivious during the procedure.
Hermione had sacrificed most of her shirt this time; it was now sleeveless and what was left was tied off in a knot
baring her midriff. Draco’s passing mention of his fondness for naval piercing had earned him an undisguised glare that
ensured his silence until this point. Who did he think he was? Who did he think she was?

“So, do we enervate him now, or try and get him up to the castle? That’s what you’re asking, isn’t it.”

“Yes.”

“If we enervate him at the castle, we risk bringing Voldemort into Hogwarts,” Hermione said slowly.

“If we enervate him here, we risk picking up where we left off,” Draco pointed out. “Not my personal choice. Scary
boyfriend you’ve got yourself there by the way, Granger. I’m starting to understand the whole withholding sex thing.”

Hermione took a deep, cleansing breath. “He’s never actually done this before. Well, he told me that Voldemort possessed
him at the Ministry of Magic last year and tried to get Dumbledore to kill him, but other than that it’s just been
dreams. Your dear friend and house master Snape has been supposed to be teaching him Occlumency.”

“Obviously he should be doing remedial classes in that as well.”

“That’s what he’s doing during “remedial potions,” you idiot. Learning Occlumency.”

“My personal grading system would give him a “T” then. It’s not working as far as I can tell.”

“No,” Hermione said sadly. “It seems not. Another reason not to take him in to Hogwarts. Which leaves us two options; we
either try to enervate him here, or one of us goes up to the castle and brings Dumbledore back with us.”

“Or we just quietly grab our wands right quick, because I swear to Merlin he just blinked,” Draco said nervously.

Hermione looked down in time to see Harry’s eyes open and meet her own. They were their own lovely green again, the
pupils shrunk down to normal size. He blinked… and they stayed green. She had never seen anything so relieving, so
reassuring, and so… beautiful in all her life.

“Hi Harry,” she said softly, watching him slowly take in his surroundings and reacquaint his brain with their
predicament..

“Are you sure that’s Potter?”

“Look at his eyes, they’re green again. When he was Voldemort the pupils were so dilated they were black. I’m positive
it’s Harry this time,” she told him.

Draco leaned forward and peered hesitantly at Harry…who promptly crossed his eyes at him and attempted to stick out his
tongue.

“Potter it is. I never thought I’d actually be happy to see you, scarface. Nice alter-ego. Not hanging about anywhere
nearby, is he?”

Harry started to shake his head, swallowed and said hoarsely “He’s gone,” instead. His eyes flicked between the two of
them. “I’m sorry. My fault…”

“Don’t,” Hermione interrupted him. “I could see you in there. We knew you were fighting him. It’s not your fault that
the scar connects you.”

“I think I let him in though. I didn’t mean to. I was so… tired and,” his eyes closed, shutting them out, then
resolutely opened again, “so scared. I panicked, about the poison. I couldn’t feel the potion working; my heart felt
like it was going to explode. I remembered being inside him in a dream, and being his snake in fifth year. It’s like
he’s cold blooded or something, his heart hardly beats at all. It made the pain almost stop, and it felt so good. But he
must have known what I was doing. It was just like unlocking a door to both of you. It was stupid, and I’m sorry.”

“You couldn’t have known,” Hermione said gently.

Harry met her eyes, misery contorting his features. “I should have. Dumbledore has been trying to make me understand
that this could happen. I just couldn’t really fathom it until now, what he could make me do. What he could do with me.
It’s not just thoughts and images like Snape and I fling back and forth. It’s everything inside me. He can touch it all.
It sickens me, Hermione, and it scares me to death. I know I’m supposed to defeat him for the good of the Wizarding
world, but I swear I just want to kill him so that he never gets inside me again.”

His voice still sounded as if he had swallowed ground glass, painful even to listen to, but there was one more thing she
really needed to know.

“Harry, how did you… did he… just leave? You shouldn’t have been able to wake up. I stunned you. We were trying to
decide whether to take you to the castle or enervate you here to be sure…”

“Sure that Voldemort didn’t get into Hogwarts through me? I was afraid that’s what you were going to do, and I’d come to
in the infirmary and attack Dumbledore before anyone really understood how far he’d gotten. I kept on trying to find
something in me so horrible he couldn’t stand being in me any longer like what happened when I touched Quirrell. All I
managed to do was bore the hell out of him. He kept trying to squirm his way into memories like the prophecy; things
that I knew I couldn’t let him see. I was getting so tired, and then I stumbled on it entirely by accident. The one
thing that physically pains him in his own body the way my scar sometimes burns me.”

He paused, and Hermione saw his gaze shift briefly to Draco before turning back to her.

“That’s fantastic, Harry, that could be really useful,” she said. “What is it?”

He swallowed. “You.”

“Me?”

“I’ve been pushing myself away from you, trying to push you away from me because I didn’t want you to become a pawn in
this. It was my fate, it didn’t have to be yours. I thought I couldn’t bear it if anything happened to you or Ron
because of me. I never saw the other side of that, how letting myself care about you both made me stronger in so many
ways and weaker in only one. I’d fight for you both with my own life. There’s nothing he could do to me that I couldn’t
take if it protected you, and there’s no place dark enough that he could ever hide from me if he hurt you. But if you
died, I’d welcome death and there’d be no way in this world he could stop me from killing him in the process. Not caring
if I died if it meant I could see Sirius again flushed him out of me at the Ministry of Magic because he couldn’t stand
that feelings for another human being could be more powerful than death.

He knows the power of it – look what it did to him when my mother used it. Tonight he knows that I’ve got another source
of that power. One he didn’t get to destroy before I knew it.

Every time I’ve punished myself like a house elf for thinking that I might love you, Hermione, it was pure power for
him. But I do love you. It can’t be anything else because… I love you more than I fear him. You are the power the dark
lord knows not. Even if you… if you don’t feel the same about me, you’ve given me what I need to fight him.”

Hermione felt as if her head were spinning. You are the power the dark lord knows not… I punish myself like a house elf
for thinking I might love you, Hermione… It can’t be anything else because… I love you more than I fear him… You are the
power the dark lord knows not. Her eyes sought Harry’s, her heart full… to find him unconscious once more.

“That,” Draco Malfoy said with what could be mistaken for nothing but an actual smile, “was the single most creative
appeal for a shag I think I’ve ever heard.”

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They left the cave cautiously when Hermione assured Draco that the angle of the sun meant it was at least 7am.

“He’s not leaving unless there’s breakfast waiting,” Harry rasped out resentfully. He’d awoken to two well-aimed wands
until Hermione performed a thorough identity check; Malfoy’s had “accidentally” poked him in a particularly tender spot
and he was having a really hard time retaining a sense of gratitude now the situation had somewhat stabilized..

“I’d rather not be breakfast for the centaurs, stupid. I’m hardly walking into the Great Hall dressed like this.” Malfoy
told him.

“Might blind someone,” Harry agreed.

“May I note that you don’t exactly look like you’ve just returned from the Caribbean yourself, scarface? Plus, you’re
all bloody and you reek like that wretched potion. All in all I’d bet on a better welcome than you’d get.”

“For Merlin’s sake, will you two stop already? Malfoy, you go in front of Harry and I’ll follow behind.”

“Oh, right, so I get the centaur arrow to the heart and you get to watch Potter’s arse? I don’t think so.”

“I always knew you wanted my arse for yourself, Malfoy. Be chivalrous. You can’t honestly expect Hermione to have to go
first.”

“Here’s a plan, Potter. You’ve already got holes in you. You’re expendable. You go first.”

“Fine!” Harry agreed. He took a cautious step on his swollen ankle, already further aggravated by Voldemort’s
calisthenics during the night and realized he was in for a slow and uncomfortable trip; unless, of course, the centaurs
showed up, in which case he was dead. Leaving the totally unacceptable option of only Malfoy watching over Hermione… He
sighed and turned back.

“Here, Harry,” Hermione said, glaring at Malfoy and positioning herself on his left side. “Lean on me.”

They set off through the forest, wands at the ready. The cave was off the beaten path - which in the Forbidden Forest
meant little more than a deer trail anyway - and it seemed to take an agonizingly long time to make any progress at all.
Harry wasn’t exactly sure when the differences between them had become so marked, but Hermione suddenly seemed too small
(and if the truth be told, Harry too reluctant to lean on her as much as he actually needed) to make an effective
crutch. Malfoy ultimately lost patience and pushed her aside.

“I’ll do it. We’ll never make it back at this rate.”

Their progress increased rapidly, if uncomfortably for Harry. They began to recognize their surroundings and be able to
judge the distance; Hermione reckoned that at their current pace they had no more than a quarter hour at most until they
reached the edge of the forest near Hagrids’ hut.

“Almost there,” she said encouragingly, noting his rapid, shallow breathing and thinking that if he was only slightly
less stubborn or would just cooperatively pass out she and Malfoy could so easily use a levitating charm. But then, he
wouldn’t be Harry, would he?

“Shhh!” Draco hissed. Hermione heard the sound of something approaching at a steady pace; two somethings, actually. They
didn’t seem to be making any attempt to disguise their progress, not a great sign in a place where most creatures made
every attempt to go unseen. Draco shoved Harry none too gently behind a nearby tree and stepped in front of Hermione,
wand poised.

“Stupefy!”

“Malfoy, don’t, it’s Hagrid!” Hermione swatted at his wand arm, succeeding in deflecting his aim slightly. The spell
barely glanced off Hagrid’s enormous frame and he shook himself. Fang whined and hid behind his legs.

“Malfoy? ‘ermione? What are you two doin’ ‘ere? Haven’t seen no sign o’ ‘arry have yeh? McGonagall’s in a right fury,
Dumbledore’s sent for ‘im and she can’t find ‘ide nor ‘air in the castle. Did she send you two lookin’ as well?”

“Erm…” Hermione elbowed Draco sharply and with a reluctant sigh he hauled Harry to his feet and out from behind the
tree. He was quite bloody again despite their best attempts to clean him up and appeared distinctly glassy-eyed and
worse for wear, although Hermione was relieved to notice no sign of anything Voldemortish in his expression.

Hagrid looked from the bedraggled Harry to the uncharacteristically mussed Malfoy and wild-haired, barely covered
Hermione with something like shocked amusement.

“I can’t wait to ‘ear this one. You three look like six weeks worth o’ detention on the ‘oof. Alright there, ‘arry?”

“He’s been shot with a centaurs’ arrow, Hagrid. Last night. Draco’s been trying to counteract the poison until we could
get him back to the castle.”

Hagrid’s expression changed rapidly. “Shot by the… ‘oly mother of Merlin why didn’t yeh say somethin’! Tha’s nothin’ to
fool around with! Up you get, then ‘arry.” Hagrid hauled Harry over his shoulder like a sack of dead ferrets and began
to trundle rapidly off toward the castle. Draco and Hermione had to jog to keep up with his pace.

“There’s going to be ‘ell to pay for this. They’ve gone too far now, the bloody minded creatures! What were the three of
yeh playing at in the forest at night? Yer not firs’ years anymore, yeh know well enough what’s in there’s not to be
messed with.”

“Crabbe and Goyle sent Harry a note saying they had me hidden in the forest. They were lying, but Harry, being Harry,
went running off to rescue me without telling anyone. Malfoy went after him to warn him, but it was too late. Ron showed
me the note when we got back to the common room after rounds.”

“And you stole Harry’s invisibility cloak, which unless I miss my guess meant a trip into the boy’s dormitory, then came
after him yourself without telling anyone where you were going. Don’t forget that part, Miss Perfect Prefect. Even
Weaslebee won’t have let you go by yourself.” Malfoy interjected. Hermione glared at him.

“We’ll sort all that out later. Important thing now is to get ‘arry safe.” Hagrid told them.

The rest of the trip was accomplished in anxious silence. Harry appeared to have fallen unconscious again and Hermione
realized with some trepidation that they were essentially right back to the same decision they had had to make in the
cave. She trotted ahead and stopped Hagrid before the enormous doors that led to the entrance hall.

“Hagrid, wait. There’s something else.”

He pulled up in surprise. Hermione knew he expected her to be the one rushing them to get Harry to the Infirmary, but
she also knew Harry would want them to be sure it was safe before they did.

“We need to wake him up before we take him inside. Voldemort possessed him last night. He took control of him. Harry
managed to get back, but we need to make sure it hasn’t happened again before he’s in the castle.”

Hagrid’s black eyes grew round and he lowered Harry gingerly to the ground.

“Might ‘ave told me that before, ‘ermione!”

“I… I’m sorry, Hagrid,” Hermione said apologetically. “I don’t think it will happen again, but I know Harry would want
us to be careful.”

“How kin yeh tell? Are yeh certain yeh’d know it wasn’t You-Know-Who?”

“Trust us, if it’s anything like last night, you’ll know.” Draco told him ruefully.

Hagrid gently shifted Harry into a more upright position and tried shaking his un-injured shoulder, to no avail.

“Come on then, ‘arry. Wake up. ‘arry?”

“So far it’s been kiss him or slap him, that’s all that worked for us,” Draco said.

Hagrid shot him a somewhat bemused look, and Hermione thought that Draco Malfoy really needed to learn when to shut up
if he was going to pass on the whole Death Eater career option.

“We’re back at Hogwarts, Harry,” she told him, squeezing his left hand as gently as she could. “We need you to let us
know if it’s okay to go in. Come on, Harry, you can do this.”

His fingers tightened around hers in response, but she knew that wasn’t enough.

“No, Harry, You’ve got to open your eyes. Please, Harry.”

“Come on then, ‘arry,” Hagrid prompted. “Open up so we can get you up to Madam Pomfrey. She’ll put you right.”

Hermione saw his eye shift beneath their closed lids and gripped her wand tightly. They struggled open, tired but
familiar and green, pupils quite normal in size.

“Okay to go inside?” she asked.

He nodded, and managed a hoarse whisper.

“You might want to use the invisibility cloak though, Hermione, because that shirt is definitely not regulation school
uniform anymore.”

She could have sworn he grinned as Hagrid hoisted him back to his shoulder and through the doors.

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Madam Pomfrey achieved whole new heights of protectiveness and wouldn’t even let Hermione near Harry after she had
examined him.

“This is no fall from a Quidditch broom, Miss Granger. I can not fix this with a dose of Skele-Gro, you know! You’ve
come quite close to losing young Mr. Potter this time and he’s not out of the woods just yet. I’m going to give him a
nice dreamless sleep draught and…”

“No! I mean, Madam Pomfrey, please don’t do that until we’ve talked to Professor Dumbledore. Please! It’s very
important.”

“Really, Miss Granger, I know that you are quite attached to Mr. Potter but I believe that I am far more qualified to
know what’s best for an injured student.”

Hermione filed the whole ‘attached to Mr. Potter’ comment away for later perusal, but persisted. “Please wait. Professor
McGonagall said he was on his way here, it can’t be much longer.”

“If it helps any, I’m not attached to him in the slightest. I hate Potters’ guts and even I think Dumbledore ought to
weigh in on this one,” Malfoy added. “Trust me Madam Pomfrey; you don’t want to see him wake up on the wrong side of the
bed just now.”

Madam Pomfrey rolled her eyes and bustled back toward her office for the medicine. Dumbledore appeared just as she was
returning. He seemed tired and somewhat diminished to Hermione; the eyes behind the half moon spectacles had no hint of
a twinkle this morning.

“Miss Granger, Mr. Malfoy. Hagrid told me a most interesting tale of your adventure in the woods. Perhaps you would care
to provide a few missing pieces?”

“Professor, I know what we did was wrong and we’ll be punished, but there’s something you need to know first. Voldemort
possessed Harry last night, the same way he did in the Department of Mysteries. He was inside him and he spoke through
him. Harry thinks he knows how it happened, but I’m not sure… well, I mean, it might be dangerous for him if anything we
do puts him back in that same position. Could deep sleep or unconsciousness make you more vulnerable to unwilling
possession?”

“Indeed they could, Miss Granger, and if what I have heard of Harry’s condition is correct his other natural defenses
are most likely at low ebb as well. Poppy, I’m sure that a dreamless sleep draught would have been your first choice for
Harry, and a wise and merciful one at that, but we will need to be very careful with Mr. Potter just now.”

“Albus, the boy has still got quite a bit of the centaur’s poison in his system and the wounds must remain open until…”

“Perhaps Professor Snape could be of some assistance? Mr. Malfoy seems to have had some success with a generic
antidote…”

“Erm, Professor, just a thought, but if Harry wakes up as Voldemort, you might not want Professor Snape to be the first
person he sees.” Malfoy interjected. “He wasn’t very happy with me last night.”

Dumbledore leveled a measured look at Draco and sighed. “Yes, Mr. Malfoy, I do see your point. Poppy, I will leave you
to treat Harry as you see best, but I must insist that you not medicate him in anyway that inhibits his own control of
his senses. I think he would agree that any pain from his injuries is infinitely preferable to the alternative. I will
not ask to see him just now, but I hope you will grant me a short visit after I have spoken with Miss Granger and Mr.
Malfoy?”

Madam Pomfrey said, “As you wish, Headmaster,” in a most disapproving tone of voice and disappeared behind Harry’s
curtains.

Dumbledore turned to Hermione and Draco. “I am sure you feel the need of a good wash up and something to eat after last
night. I will allow you both a half hour to go to your respective houses and change into clean clothing. Please join me
in my office then. I will have the house elves arrange for some breakfast to be sent along for you, and Miss Granger,
please inform Mr. Weasley that he is to join us as well. The password is now ‘caramel bulls’ eye’. Off you go.”

And with mutual glares of misgiving, Draco Malfoy headed off to the dungeons of Slytherin and Hermione Granger climbed
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Thirty minutes later both met again in front of the gargoyles that guarded the entrance to the Headmasters’ office.
Hermione noticed how much more unapproachable and dismissive Malfoy appeared safely cloaked in his uniform once more. Or
maybe it was just being unnerved at being glared at by his flame- haired potential brother-in-law… either way she felt a
small pang of regret. He’d hurt her deeply and annoyed the hell out of her but she had a rather different perspective on
him after last night; a small, quite fragile, respect.

Ron just looked like he’d like to give Malfoy a large pang in the arse.

“Caramel bull’s eye,” Hermione said hurriedly, hoping to avoid bloodshed in the hall, and led the way through to the
revolving staircase as the doors opened before them.

Three straight backed wooden chairs were lined up before Dumbledore’s desk and on a small table between two of them two
plates of buttered toast and two steaming mugs of tea waited. Professor McGonagall and Professor Snape were there as
well, already seated and obviously deep in a conversation brought abruptly to a halt by their arrival.

“Please be seated. Mr. Malfoy, Miss Granger, you two at least must certainly be hungry. Help yourselves to whatever you
wish.”

Hermione chose the seat between Ron and Draco, feeling Harry’s absence keenly. She had never actually been in
Dumbledore’s office without him. She had a sudden vision of Hogwarts without Harry, as if he had already defeated
Voldemort but been virtually erased in the process. The sense of loss, of a hole in the universe too big to ever fill
flooded through her with a sudden knife-sharp pain. She had always held the idea at bay, an abstract concept best dealt
with later, after. What would being Head Girl or perfect scores on her N.E.W.T.s mean in a world without Harry in it?
What comfort would even the certain knowledge of peace, of safety in which to build a life, a home and family be, if the
price was Harry?

“Are you quite alright, Miss Granger?” Professor McGonagall’s voice penetrated Hermione’s reverie.

‘No,’ Hermione thought. ‘I’m not. I’m sixteen years old and I’ve just had the most horrible realization that the whole
rest of my life is something I simply don’t want to contemplate if Harry’s not going to be in it. I’ve actually seen him
laid low and struggling now, and it’s way too real to cope with.

“Fine thank you, Professor,” was what she said, and took a bracing sip of scalding tea.

“I have a few questions I must ask,” Dumbledore said softly, watching them carefully above his steepled fingers. “Please
answer as completely as you are able. We’ll skip the details of what brought you together in the one place you have been
repeatedly warned for the last six years not to be, as it is most unlikely that the reason in any way justified the now
all too obvious danger. Tell me, Miss Granger, Mr. Malfoy, when did you notice Voldemort’s possession of Harry? What if
anything precipitated the event?”

Hermione glanced at Malfoy and he nodded dismissively, as if to say, ‘This one’s yours.’

“He was asleep, not unconscious, I think. He’d seemed to drift off, so I thought he was sleeping. One moment he was okay
and then maybe ten or fifteen minutes later I woke up again and he was cold and stiff, freezing cold. I thought he was…
I thought he’d stopped breathing. We tried to wake him up, but as soon as his eyes opened you could tell it wasn’t
Harry.”

“How?”

“He was furious with me.” Draco took over.

Ron snorted. “So?”

Draco ignored him. “He tried to Crucio me, which really isn’t Potter’s style. He was also confused about not being able
to use his right arm and not having a wand. Potter was pretty familiar with those concepts by that point. And then he
seemed to sort of, I don’t know,” he glanced at Hermione as if for confirmation. “He seemed to try and take stock of
Potter, as if he was sort of feeling him all over, then he said something about how Harry was stronger than he knew, and
he Crucioed me without a wand. It was no feeble effort, either.”

Dumbledore appeared deeply disheartened by Draco’s words.

“Did you feel at any time that Harry was present or aware of what Voldemort was doing?”

Hermione nodded, and felt Dumbledore’s eyes zero in on her with the attention of a drowning man on a distant ship.

“Impossible.” Snape stated unequivocally.

“No, it isn’t.” Hermione said. “When Voldemort Crucioed Malfoy, Harry stopped him.”

“Nonsense,” Snape said. “The Dark Lord simply changed his plans.”

“He changed his plans because Harry stopped him. He was frustrated and angry. He tried to get Draco to attack Harry
then, and Draco played along. Whenever Draco did something, Voldemort seemed to push Harry back in control, so that it
was Harry who would be hurt.”

Dumbledore actually seemed to wince, his greatest fear for Harry once again realized. Snape shook his head, unswayed.
“Unusual, but it means nothing. The Dark Lord was in total control.”

“He might have been - until I told Potter to insult Granger,” Draco admitted. “I tried to make him call her a mudblood,
to say he was disgusted by her.”

Ron, silent all this time, leaned forward to get a clear view of Malfoy.

“You tried to get Harry to call Hermione a mudblood? What the hell is wrong with you, Malfoy?” He turned to Dumbledore.
“Why are we sitting here listening to this? If you want to know what You- Know-Who’s thinking, just ask him, not Harry!”

“He didn’t do it, Weasley,” Draco cut in angrily. “He couldn’t do it. He’d done everything else I’d told him to, like it
or not, because Voldemort was in there with him and I made him. I made him look at me while I cut off his bandages and
let him bleed. Voldemort liked that. I made him kneel and bow down to me, head down on the ground and everything. I put
my foot right on his head and pushed his face around in the dirt. For a moment or two I actually thought I was going to
like that, but I couldn’t. He just never gave up. I humiliated him and he begged me to stun him to, as he said, ‘get
this demented f…erm… fool out of me.’”

Hermione noticed he still had the grace to flush as he took in McGonagall’s disapproving glare before continuing. “He
didn’t ask to die, and I’ve seen Voldemort drive people to that with a lot less. He never stopped being Potter, and in
the end, somehow, he … won.”

Ron’s face was contorted with a combination of rage and regret; Hermione realized it would be a long time, if ever,
before he completely forgave her for going after Harry alone. For the life of her she could not verbalize her impulse to
do so; it had been foolish, illogical, and yet somehow the only answer she could bear at the time. She’d had to go.

McGonagall looked shattered that it had come at last to this; Snape disbelieving. Dumbledore, to Hermione’s great
amazement, seemed to have been given a pepper-up potion and a second chance at life.

Suddenly she had a surge of comprehension. Harry’s successes has always pleased and been acknowledged by the Headmaster,
but she’d never seen before how torn Dumbledore was between what he knew must happen and the boy it had to happen to.
Dumbledore, she saw, was more than just fond of Harry. Perhaps he was less of a pawn in this battle than he thought.

“That could be all that he needs,” Dumbledore mused. “If there was even a hint of it there he could be taught, but there
is little one can do to light a fire without a spark. Harry has always been strongly resistant to the Imperius curse.
Learning to throw off possession while the scar still links them could well change the whole course of conflict.” He met
Hermione’s gaze. “This has been a painful experience for Harry, I know, but perhaps a blessing in disguise as well.”

“It seems a great deal to expect of a boy who could not master the simplest tenets of Occlumency.” Snape commented
dryly.

“Might have done if he hadn’t had to learn it from you,” Ron muttered.

Snape’s overlarge nostrils flared.

“And you would know exactly what about that subject, Mr. Weasley?”

“I know that there had to be more than just Occlumency going on during those lessons,” Hermione said slowly and clearly,
“because Harry dreaded going down there, and he always came back looking like a mouse pawed by a cat. And then they just
stopped. He would never say why. Why did they, Professor?”

Snape’s cold black eyes went glacial. “That, Miss Granger, is between Potter, the Headmaster and myself. I admit to a
great deal of surprise that it has in fact remained that way, but it most certainly has nothing to do with either of
you.”

Hermione was tired; worn out from the night before and the constant buzzing of newly unleashed thoughts around her brain
like a hoard of restless bees.

“So, it’s up to Harry to do whatever it takes to learn how to defeat Voldemort, no matter how painful and difficult, but
the rest of us should go on with our petty daily occupations because no one made a prophecy about us? Is it really only
Harry’s war, or all of ours? At least when Umbridge was here a few people were shocked enough to join the DA and think
about fighting for themselves. If you ask me, Voldemort’s greatest power might have been realizing how revoltingly
self-involved most witches and wizards seem to be. ” Hermione heard herself exclaim. “If that’s a side effect of
constant exposure to magic I think I’d rather be a Muggle!”

She pulled her prefects’ badge from her robes and dropped it onto Dumbledore’s desk. “I’ll save you the trouble of
asking for this. I’m sure someone can let me know the details of whatever punishment you decide, I don’t particularly
care and I have no defense at all. I’d like to go now, please, Professor.”

She thought for a moment that Dumbledore was going to refuse her but he seemed at last to think better of it, and waved
her sadly toward the door. She heard Ron rise and follow; half hoped he would be called back. The last thing she heard
as the stairs lowered beneath her was, “Sit, Mr. Malfoy. I’m afraid that you and I have a great deal more to discuss.”
The doors sealed again behind them with a gentle “snick.”

“Are you going to see Harry, then?” Ron asked her as they passed the gargoyles.

“Maybe later. Madam Pomfrey won’t let anyone near him now. I think I really need to get some sleep.”

“Yeah. You were right in there, you know. Strung out and daft as a duck for handing in your prefect’s badge, but right
on about Snape and Dumbledore.”

“They’d have had to take it anyway Ron, how could they explain a prefect doing what I did? They’ll take Malfoy’s as
well. But it’s not just Snape and Dumbledore, in fact I think Dumbledore knows he’s got ground to make up with Harry.
Your family has always pitched in, through the Order. It’s the whole rest of this bloody school thinking house rivalries
are still important and nothing will change except Voldemort might kill Harry! I just feel like it’s all closing in
around us and no one’s noticing…”

“Sleep does sound a good idea then. If I get in I’ll tell Harry you’ll see him later, yeah?”

“Thanks, Ron”

Hermione set off for her room. As she climbed the stairs it seemed to be a thousand miles away.

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5. Chapter 5

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 5

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Hermione chose to wait until late in the day to visit Harry. Madam Pomfrey looked up from her little office when
Hermione arrived and waved her on without a word. She knew the rules by now.

His eyes were closed but struggled open reflexively when he heard movement beside him and he smiled when he recognized
her; the sweet, hesitant grin of welcome that she so associated with essential ‘Harryness’. Nothing could ever mimic
that for her. She loved that he seemed to find solace and comfort in her company, that he openly admired her mind and
willingly accepted her need to be needed for her brains and ability instead of more typically girlish qualities. She
often wished to see herself through Harry’s eyes, well aware from his unstinting loyalty that what he saw must be
somehow far closer to what she actually wished to be.

“Hi.” His voiced still sounded forced and painful. He shifted over on the bed, making room on the edge. She pulled the
battle scarred old wooden chair she’d spent so much time on over the last five years across the floor and settled on it,
leaning forward to rest her chin on her arms and her arms on the bed. He curled his good arm under his head and rolled
to his side to bring them level.

“Hi,” she said back. He appeared pale and tired, eyes shadowed, the split on his lower lip still raw. ‘Well, he lost
rather a lot of blood, didn’t he?’ she thought. ‘What were you expecting? You just don’t want to see him vulnerable.
It’s not like he chose this.’

“Ron told me about turning in your prefect’s badge. I’m really sorry, Hermione. I never meant for… I mean, it was my
mistake yet again. You shouldn’t have to pay for that.” Genuine regret watched her from his eyes and she wished for
something simple as a charm to dispel it.

“Don’t be sorry. I’m not, not really. It’s almost as if I’ve outgrown it or something this year. It seems kind of, I
don’t know, pointless now…”

Now that Voldemort has changed all the rules.

“Who are you, and what have you done with Hermione Granger?” he joked, but sadness seemed to swell up and join the
regret. She had to lower her own eyes.

“I’m sorry too, Harry. I know saying that sort of shakes the foundation of who I’ve always been for you and Ron. None of
us can really stay the same anymore.”

Not and survive, anyway.

“You gave me a lot to think about in that cave, Harry,” she told him. “You and Malfoy both, actually.”

“You want to take Malfoy with a very large dose of salt, Hermione. He seems to be trying to get us to think he’s headed
in the right direction down a very crooked path.”

“Harry, were you really asleep after he told you about seeing Ginny and not becoming a Death Eater? Did you hear us
talking, well, arguing really, after that?”

He closed his eyes briefly, as if rewinding his memory and searching for what she asked. “I think I must have been
asleep. After the bit about Ginny and Draco everything sort of goes horribly blank. Hardly surprising, when you think
about it. But then it gets very confused between what was Voldemort and what was me.”

She didn’t know whether to be relieved or not that he had missed Malfoy’s pointed remarks about the two of them.

“Do you remember Voldemort telling Draco to hurt you?”

He nodded slowly. “That was really strange. He kept sort of taking over and then pushing me back again. Malfoy would be
throwing a spell at me and I’d just get to where I could handle what he was doing and sort of get back in control and
wham, Voldemort again.”

“Do you remember what Draco made you do?”

“You mean the last bit, don’t you? Calling you a mudblood and saying that you repulsed me. I didn’t, did I? I couldn’t
have. Because… well, because you don’t. Obviously. Exactly the opposite.” He pushed himself up onto the elbow of his
uninjured arm and she sat up as well, lifting her chin from her arms.

“Not so obviously, Harry. It’s never been obvious to me. I think I was fairly confident that you hadn’t the slightest
bit of blood prejudice and I didn’t actually repulse you, but I could never be sure of the opposite. I’ve always
lingered in the middle ground of Harry’s-friend-who-happens-to-be-a-girl.”

“No. That’s where you thought you lingered, Hermione. You lingered lots of other places in my imagination, believe me.
But I could always find a hundred reasons not to give you the chance to just answer the question. How could you ever
want someone like me? You saw me on the train, the clueless muggle kid wearing Dudley’s old clothes. You came to know
that I’d lived this totally messed up life, that no one had ever loved me, had ever even liked me and lived to tell
about. It was as if I’d pulled a fast one on you and Ron that first year and I’ve been terrified ever since you’d
actually see through whatever you thought you saw in me to what was really inside. I thought the answer to that was
nothing. Now I know that it’s worse than nothing, that there’s some part of Voldemort in me because of this bloody
scar.”

“Whatever part of wretched Tom Riddle might be attached to that scar, the rest of you, the best part of you is Harry
James Potter,“ she said fiercely. “We found that out last night. No matter how you choose to torture yourself, there’s
another side to all of this.”

“How about how I almost killed you last spring in the Department of Mysteries because of it? Where’s the other side to
that? I might have wondered if I’d been taking you for granted before then, but that’s when I knew. All at once I just
knew that I couldn’t go on if anything happened to you. I… my mind just kind of stopped. And it was because of me you
were there.”

She looked at him, struck wordless for once, dumbfounded.

He saw her face and went instantly still, painfully sure he’d said the wrong thing as usual, but uncertain exactly how
this time round. He fought the rising urge to complete the usual cycle, to pretend there was nothing there, push her a
safe distance away.

He struggled up further, sitting cross legged on the bed. Everything throbbed, and he fought to clear his head.

“Hermione, I can’t do this anymore. I’m not even sure how we got here, or what I said that hurt you, but I’m sorry. I’ve
been trying to say I’m sorry and that I think I might love you and I don’t know why I always mess it up, except that
I’ve always been afraid to put everything on the line and just ask you if you could ever love me as well. And stay
conscious long enough to hear the answer.”

He was looking down at the blanket over his knees, avoiding the consequences of her silence. When he finished his eyes
slowly rose to peer hesitantly through his fringe for her reaction and she was utterly undone. It was as if a powerful
hand had literally grabbed hold of her heart and squeezed until the message was more than clear.

“Of course I love you, Harry,” she choked out against the tightness of it. “I’ve loved you for ages. It’s just you never
seemed to see me. I thought you’d never think of me as anything other than the one who argues with Ron and tells you to
get your homework done.” It was her turn to look away then, her turn to say things that she wasn’t ready to watch him
hear.

“There’s something about how accepting you are about things, about how you just keep on trying no matter what happens
that makes me feel safe with you, and hopeful. You make me believe in things that aren’t in books. You make me look deep
into things, and to think them through for myself instead of just accepting what seems to be true. You make me feel like
more than just a walking encyclopedia, Harry. You make me feel special. Useful. Wanted, instead of… tolerated, for all
the things that make me different from the other girls.”

They were quite still a moment, as if unable to take in the enormity of what they both had finally admitted to the
other. Harry hesitantly extended his left arm toward her and with a small squeak she flew at him and buried her head in
the crook of his neck, sobbing out of sheer relief. He patted her back gently, wondering again if there was something
related to the curse of his scar that meant no matter how hard he tried to please a girl they would always end up crying
their eyes out over him. As if reading his mind, which he was growing quite sure she could probably do by now, Hermione
pulled back her head, smiling tremulously through the tears.

“Sorry, Harry, I never meant to pull a Cho on you, honestly. This is the part where you’re finally supposed to kiss me,
and I’ve gone and spoilt it for you.”

“Never mind,” said Harry, fighting his shyness and the awkwardness of their position to kiss her anyway. Hermione’s
tears and Cho’s were a world of difference. For one, hers were actually for him and not some other bloke, and, well…

Harry stopped thinking. Anything more then Hermione was simply gone. His heart was somehow full, his brain was full,
every other sense he possessed was otherwise occupied. He knew her, felt he knew at last what she wanted from him. She
was utterly familiar, like finding some missing piece of himself that instead of complicating his life swiftly and
succinctly simplified everything, answering questions he’d barely known he had. He was dimly aware of her gentleness
with his lip, felt the rising need to explore this new connection between them warring with the desire not gross her out
by bleeding all over her.

This conflict was resolved by a shocked “Miss Granger!” from Madam Pomfrey, directly behind them.

He felt Hermione pull sharply away like a tearing of his own skin. Her abrupt departure brought Madam Pomfrey’s outraged
countenance into view. Just as he attempted with his own heated gaze to begin to warn her not to blame Hermione he
realized that Dumbledore was standing just behind her.

Busted.

“Now Poppy,” Albus Dumbledore remonstrated gently, “I’m certain Miss Granger meant Mr. Potter no harm. Quite the
opposite, I should think.”

Harry saw Hermione’s fierce blush out of the corner of his eye. He only wished he could manage something half as
innocent; being slightly low on blood at the moment, the rush south at the first touch of Hermione’s lips had left him
with a serious deficit… nothing left over to blush with. The room was beginning to spin in a most unhelpful manner.

“Lie down, Mr. Potter,” Madam Pomfrey told him in her very best Head Nurse voice, the one you ignored at your own peril,
the penalty being proportionate to the foulness of the potion you ultimately received.

Harry slunk back against his pillow, wincing.

“I can see that you are still somewhat under the weather, Harry. Most of my questions for you will wait until the
morning. Miss Granger and Mr. Malfoy proved wonderfully observant under the circumstances and answered quite of few of
my concerns when we met this morning. My only interest at the moment is what we need to do to assure that you sleep
safely tonight.”

“I don’t know, Sir. I’ve been worried about… I mean, I managed to throw him off last night, but I’m still working out
exactly how. I don’t want to risk Voldemort gaining access to the castle or anyone else being hurt because of me.”

“I am afraid we have few choices then. I have also been working on finding a solution throughout the day, and will
continue to do so throughout the night if necessary. For now, however, I am afraid we shall have to restrain you.”

“How?” Hermione asked. “I wondered about that last night. How can you restrain him and still keep him safe? What spell
could you use without leaving him a sitting duck for Voldemort?”

“That, my dear Miss Granger, is the heart of the problem. I was hoping that Harry could give us some insight into what
might help him. I could not – would not – use any means that increased his own vulnerability.”

“I need to be able to wake up,” Harry said at once with a shudder. “Please, as long as I can wake up I’m not sure if I
care what else you do.”

“He’s not in any condition for most traditional immobilizing spells, Albus” Madam Pomfrey fretted. “Petrificus totalus
is out of the question, for example, as his body can not carry out any healing while he is paralyzed and only the eyes
are spared. Perhaps in a day or two, but not just yet. Most limb affecting jinxes have either such short or
unpredictable results that we’d spend all night recasting them and he’d get no sleep at all. And sleep is what he needs
to help him heal. The sooner the poison is fully eradicated from his system the sooner I can heal the arrow wounds
themselves.”

“Perhaps we should just tie him to the bed posts.” Professor Snape’s voice was at its silkiest; none of them had noticed
his approach and he was clearly enjoying the dilemma of what to do with Harry.

“Couldn’t I go down to Hagrid’s?” Harry asked desperately. “He wouldn’t mind, and it would keep things out of the castle
if anything went wrong.”

“Mr. Potter’s condition requires reintroduction of the anti venom potion into the wounds every four hours and I, for
one, am NOT spending the night in Hagrid’s hut. I have other patients here that require my attention as well.”

“Hagrid would do it!” Harry pleaded.

“It’s out of the question, Mr. Potter!” Madam Pomfrey insisted.

“I could do it,” Hermione volunteered. “Draco and I managed in the cave.”

“Given your behavior earlier this evening and the nature of the arrangements at Hagrid’s I rather think not!” Madame
Pomfrey said, with great finality.

Hermione’s cheeks flamed again, and if Snape’s ears could have been seen through his greasy tangle of hair they would
have pricked. Harry wished she could read his mind when he actually wanted her to and tried to think soothing thoughts.
He could tell he was going to pay for their interrupted embrace later, and it had been going so well for a change…

“Perhaps Mr. Malfoy could be convinced to assist Hagrid this evening?” Dumbledore suggested hopefully to Snape.

“Not if anyone mentions the alternative is tying me up,” Harry said glumly. “You might as well go on and do it.”

“I believe that he is available for detention this evening,” Snape said, “but given his statements to you earlier today
and the news I came to bring you I think it unlikely you could consider it a viable option, Headmaster.”

“And your news, Severus?” Dumbledore queried.

“Perhaps we could step out into the hall?”

“Is it Malfoy’s father, Professor Snape?” Harry asked with a sinking feeling, remembering the vision with Peter
Pettigrew.

Snape’s eyes swiveled back toward Harry, black and glittering. “And what exactly do you know about the disappearance of
Lucius Malfoy, Potter?”

“Last night before he possessed me, Voldemort and Peter Pettigrew went to Malfoy Manor. I didn’t see what happened
because Draco woke me up, but when he was in me I could feel his frustration, his rage about something. I thought it was
Draco’s decision, but if it’s Lucius you’re worried about, he’s not dead. I’m pretty sure of it. I know what Voldemort
feels like after… well he wasn’t that happy.”

Dumbledore, Snape, Madam Pomfrey and Hermione all stared at Harry for a moment in silence and he felt the sick, shamed
clenching in his stomach that revealing his connection to Tom Riddle always brought on.

“I’m sorry,” he said softly. “I meant to tell him, but there was nothing Draco could do to stop it…”

“Harry,” Hermione cut in firmly, stepping bravely back toward the bed as if daring Madam Pomfrey to stop her. “You
should never have to apologize for having to live with the knowledge of what Voldemort thinks or does.”

“Miss Granger is quite right, Harry. Lucius Malfoy’s dealings with his master are in no way your responsibility. But as
Draco’s Headmaster and Head of House, Professor Snape and I must of course be concerned.” Dumbledore turned to Madam
Pomfrey with a reluctant sigh. “Poppy, I leave the final determination to you as to what is best for Harry’s well being.
He must be kept in control of his own faculties, and yet he must be safely restrained. Hagrid cares deeply for Harry and
would certainly look after him with some assistance, or he must in fact be tied with restraints to his bed here in the
infirmary. I give you my permission to assign another sixth year student or even two to help you, whichever you decide,
and will return as soon as possible to be of any assistance myself.”

“He will be quite safe, Headmaster.” Madam Pomfrey assured Dumbledore, although to Hermione’s eyes she still appeared
flustered and undecided.

Dumbledore and Snape left the infirmary deep in muted conversation.

“Well then, Mr. Potter,” Madam Pomfrey began.

“Please, Madam Pomfrey, please don’t. I’ll be perfectly fine at Hagrids’, no bother at all, I promise.” Harry implored.

Hermione reckoned Madam Pomfrey would have to have a heart of stone to withstand that plea. Harry rarely turned on his
not inconsiderable charm; Hermione wasn’t even sure he knew properly how to control it or if it just reached capacity
and let loose the way his magic had occasionally been known to do. Either way, its sparing use and the intensity of its
focus was a lethally appealing combination, almost veela-like in its effect. On Hermione, anyway. It seemed perhaps
Madam Pomfrey might not be immune herself.

Poppy Pomfrey hadn’t taken care of Harry Potter’s many and various injuries over the last five years for nothing. She
considered it her personal mission that the boy-who-lived lived long enough graduate from Hogwarts, at very least. Such
a mission required firmness, fortitude and a calm, cool head. By far the best option she could see was to keep him
safely in the infirmary under her care. It would be difficult to ask him to accept restraints, although she knew if she
insisted he would submit without fuss when the time came. He was such a good boy, really, had been remarkably patient
and accepting of quite a string of painful treatments over the years… The thought of seeing an evil thing like Voldemort
take possession of a helpless, tied-down Harry suddenly revolted her. She met the anxious green eyes awaiting her
verdict and sighed.

“Oh all right, Mr. Potter. If Hagrid agrees to be responsible for you this evening and Mr. Weasley will accompany you
there, you may go. I will leave strict instructions as to your care and I expect you back in the infirmary first thing
tomorrow. Is that quite clear?”

“Yes Ma’am,” Harry said. “But, erm, Madam Pomfrey, I know that Ron will come with me and I couldn’t ask for a better
friend but he’s really, really squeamish when it comes to…” Hermione noticed that Harry left Ron’s squeamishness to
Madam Pomfrey’s imagination; it was not immediately clear whether he was referring to his somewhat gory shoulder or
Harry himself. “Hermione knows just what to do and it didn’t faze her a bit… she’d make a wonderful healer, really…”

“I suppose if Hagrid is willing to take on both Mr. Weasley and Miss Granger as well that would be… safe enough.” Madam
Pomfrey made up her mind. “Very well. I shall send an owl down to Hagrid. If he agrees, that will be our solution. I
will pack a supply of your medicines and explain their usage to Miss Granger. Come with me, please.” She wasn’t leaving
that girl alone with him for a minute. Perfectly lovely girl of course, brilliant little thing and Merlin knew Harry
deserved a bit of happiness in the midst of all the wretched things that seemed to keep happening to him, but really…
the boy was in the throes of centaur poisoning. Some things could just wait! If she had any ideas of becoming a healer
she’d have to get that through her head straight off.

Hermione glanced back over her shoulder as she followed in Madam Pomfrey’s wake and rolled her eyes at him.

He figured he’d scored brownie points getting her included in the envoy to Hagrid’s, but he was still just a little too
nervous to unleash a grin back.

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It was wonderfully cozy, safely kipped in Hagrid’s house later that evening. The rain still dripped outside but the
temperature had dropped considerably. Fall was firmly in control once more.

Hagrid had insisted in turning his enormous bed over to the invalid, attempting to smother Harry with every blanket he
could find. Harry felt cocooned in warmth, drowsy and almost comfortable for the first time since Goyle’s elbow had
found the back of his head. Hermione and Ron had sleeping bags on the floor but now sat on the foot of the bed drinking
hot cocoa and politely risking their teeth on Hagrid’s rock cakes.

“So how did you say we could tell if he was possessed, something about his eyes; was it?” Ron asked Hermione in an
undertone with a quick, furtive glance in Harry’s direction.

“Yes, Ron, he can hear you.” Hermione replied, exasperation evident in her tone. “And no, it’s not a secret. Harry
knows. Last night whenever Volde…”

“Erm!” Hagrid spit a mouthful of tea back into his cup

“You Know Who, was in control,” Hermione continued calmly, “Harry’s pupils would dilate so that you couldn’t really see
the green bit at all. You’d swear his eyes were black. When Harry was back the pupils shrank back down and they’d go
green again. But I was thinking that there must be a more fool-proof method than pupil dilation, something less
dependent on a biological process that could be affected by poison or controlled by Voldemort if he discovered it. A
safe word, or something like that.”

“I’m already trying to hide too much from him.” Harry said slowly, not bothering to open his eyes.

“You said something about that at the cave, Harry, about keeping the prophecy from him. What do you mean? He already
knows that the containing orb broke and the prophecy was lost. Have you found out what it meant?” Hermione asked.

Harry inwardly sighed and knew the time had come. He’d known he’d have to tell them sometime and at least they were all
together, the people he cared for most. He’d only have to say it once. He opened his eyes and levered himself off the
pillows with the working arm until he was sitting as well.

“Steady on there, Harry,” Hagrid said anxiously. He was taking his responsibility quite to heart and seemed unnerved by
the prospect of anything at all happening Harry on his watch. Harry managed a brief smile to reassure that he was okay.

“Dumbledore already knew about the prophecy,” he told them. “That’s why his initials were on the card as well. It’d been
made to him first, sixteen years ago in the Hog’s Head, in Hogsmeade.”

“Who made it?” Hermione asked.

“What did it say?” Ron asked almost simultaneously.

“Trelawney made it,” Harry admitted.

Hermione snorted, as if to say ‘well, then, that’s that settled!’

“And it said, ‘The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches… Born to those who have thrice defied him,
born as the seventh month dies…And the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power the Dark Lord knows
not… and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives.

“Whoa,” said Ron. “What the bloody hell does that mean?”

“Dumbledore said it actually could have been made about either me or Neville. We were both born at the end of July, his
birthday’s two days before mine and his parents were members of the Order as well. Voldemort had someone listening in
the pub that night, but whoever it was got thrown out before they could hear the whole thing. He never heard the ‘mark
him as his equal,’ part or the rest of it. Hence the scar. So now while everyone else at in our year is trying to decide
whether they want to be aurors or healers or work in muggle relations or what all, he’s left me two lovely career
choices. Die, or become a murderer.”

“Merlin, no wonder Trelawney’s been predicting your death ever since third year!” Ron gasped, then seemed to realize
what he’d said. “Erm, sorry mate, didn’t mean, you know…”

“What’s this ‘power the Dark Lord knows not’ then, ‘arry?” Hagrid asked. “Did Dumbledore know what yeh’ve got to get ‘im
with?”

Harry shook his head, eyes on Hermione’s pinched white face. “Only a theory. He thinks it’s got something to do with the
fact that I can still know emotions that Voldemort’s cast off over the years as worthless. In the Department of
Mysteries when he possessed me… the pain was so bad…” Harry’s voice, still straining against the residual poison, broke.
He swallowed desperately. “I thought I was dying, I couldn’t believe that you could hurt like that and still live. When
he told Dumbledore to kill us I actually wished that he would. I remembering thinking death is nothing compared to this…
and I’ll see Sirius again…’ There was no payoff in that for old Tom. Dumbledore said he probably couldn’t bear to be in
the same body with me then, the same way the love left in me from my Mum made him turn to dust with Quirrell. Dumbledore
reckons it’s got to do with what makes us all human, because even though my blood gave him a body back he still isn’t
really human. He’s just alive.”

“I know it’s not as simple as it sounds, but you’ve just got to kill him, Harry. We’ll help you. Just kill him. Kill him
and finish this once and for all.” Ron’s voice sounded harsh and frightened and almost as strangled as Harry’s.

“I’ll try, Ron. What else can I do?” Harry said tiredly. Hermione’s uncharacteristic silence was killing him and he
sensed that it had both Ron and Hagrid disconcerted as well.

“Well, then I reckon the three of yeh’d best be getting some sleep. Mornin’ll be ‘ere b’fore yeh know it.” Hagrid told
them, hoisting himself from his chair. “Goin’ to take Fang fer a quick nose round while yeh settle in. Just sleep tight
‘arry. No use lookin’ for trouble before trouble finds yeh firs.”

Hagrid disappeared through the door with Fang in tow. Ron settled down in the sleeping bag closest to the fire with an
apologetic glance at Hermione.

“I thought it would be easier if you didn’t have to climb over me to get to the bed. You know, to give Harry his
medicine.”

“Buck buck buck…” Harry muffled the chicken noises in the pillow, just loud enough that Ron could hear.

“Buck you, mate,” his best friend said with a grin, and rolled over. Harry grinned back.

Hermione collected one of the potions Madam Pomfrey had sent and returned to the bed, sitting beside him without meeting
his eyes.

“It’s almost time for the anti-venom one. Do you want to do it now, or do you want me to wake you again in another half
hour?”

Harry reckoned that in a half hour’s time both Hagrid and Ron would be fast asleep and if he could manage to keep quiet
it would give him at least a chance at some uninterrupted time with her.

“Later, please, Hermione. If you don’t mind, that is.”

She shook her head wordlessly and went to settle into her own sleeping bag. Hagrid returned a few moments later with
Fang, blew out the lantern and retreated to his enormous stuffed armchair close by the fire. Fang ignored his basket and
instead sprawled back-to-back against Ron’s sleeping bag. A faintly muffled snore registered no conscious displeasure on
Ron’s part and the giant wolfhound settled in for the evening with a yawn. Within what Harry estimated to be between
fifteen to twenty minutes Hagrid and Ron were well into the first heats of Britain’s National Snoring Championships with
Fang hardly shaming the species in the giant dog division.

“Good Lord Harry, how do you deal with this every night? No wonder you keep having dreams. Voldemort’s wondering what
all the noise is.” Hermione mumbled, crawling to the side of the bed. “I’d go spare, as Ron likes to say, if I had to
live with that.”

Harry tried to sense her mood beyond the frustration with the two happy woodsmen, still wary of her silence during the
discussion of the prophecy. He lay absolutely still while she fetched the potion bottle and equipment Madam Pomfrey had
sent. He heard her sigh when she realized that the shoulder she needed to work on was on the side of the bed pushed
against the wall.

“Shove over this way, Harry. I’ve got to get over there to see what I’m doing.”

He shifted closer to her, making room for her on the other side. She leaned over him and set the bottles and bandages
down, then climbed up on the bed. He expected her to clamber over to the space he had made and had to remind himself to
keep breathing when she chose instead to straddle his hips over what were suddenly WAY too many blankets and rest both
her hands lightly on his chest. She was watching him intently and he instantly decided that shutting up and acting
appreciative was the way to go. There was clearly something on her mind and it was more likely to come out if he kept
quiet.

Almost a minute later he was considerably less sure of his plan. The thickness of the blankets between them would have
been a blessing in the past as he attempted to maintain the illusion of being completely unaffected in any remotely
physical manner by his best (girl) friend; now that he was significantly more comfortable with revealing the nature of
his attraction to said girlfriend it was just annoying and growing kind of… painful. Her warm brown eyes continued to
hold his and he had the distinct feeling she was waiting for something. On impulse he reached up and touched her face
gently, stroking her cheek bone with tentative fingers. Her eyes closed and her expression grew content and faintly
catlike, Crookshanks with a fresh catnip toy. Way too good to let go without further exploration.

“Hermione?” her eyes reopened reluctantly. “Could you either, erm, remove yourself from, um, where you’re currently,
uhh, sitting and start with the potion or maybe come down here, ‘cause I can’t reach you with just the one arm without
hurting us both.”

She grinned. Hermione Jane Granger, smartest witch of her age, was grinning at him with the most promising little grin
like he’d never said a word about any wretched prophecy. What could it mean?

There was really only one way to find out.

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6. Chapter 6

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Chapter 6

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Given her options, Hermione wisely decided changing Harry’s bandages would certainly wait another few minutes. After
all, she’d read that a patient’s sense of optimism was key to successful treatment. Patients that felt that life was
worth living for tended to recover faster and with fewer complications regardless of the relative severity of injury. It
was time to give Harry a little something to live for without Madam Pomfrey’s prescription… or intervention

She dismounted and slipped beneath the covers beside him, feeling him reach for her and moving to make room she didn’t
need. She threaded her leg between his warm flannel clad ones and unzipped the enormous, well worn muggle sweat jacket
of Dudley’s she had chosen for him (to make replacing his bandages easier, she reflected with another grin.) She nestled
against the heady warmth of his skin and laid one hand flat on his chest directly above his heart.

While his eyes appeared calm and watchful; the irregular thumping of the heart beneath her hand betrayed him.

“Hermione?” he whispered.

“What?” she whispered back.

“It’s just that I… well, I’ve been dreading talking about the prophecy ever since Dumbledore told me. To you, most of
all. I thought you’d be more upset, or I don’t know, angry, even. Don’t get me wrong,” he added quickly, “it’s fine that
you’re not, it’s great, really. It’s just that I don’t understand why, and I really want to know what you’re thinking.”

The hand on his chest began making slow, mesmerizing journeys of exploration, fingertips covering previously uncharted
territory without hurry and with obvious delight. Her touch was deft and light and curious, just as he would have
imagined. If he’d ever let himself. Lord, what a lot of time he’d wasted.

“I might not have known what your prophecy said, Harry, but I gave prophecies in general quite a lot of thought while I
was in the hospital ward after the Department of Mysteries and again this summer over break. I know Ron thinks that I
left off divination class because Trelawney said I lacked the proper aura and I didn’t want to be in any class I
couldn’t be best at. It did hurt a bit when she told me I had “very little receptivity to the resonances of the future.”
Hermione did an almost uncanny take on Professor Trelawney’s ethereal quavering and Harry couldn’t help but smile.

“The thing is,” she continued, “that I found I just don’t believe in it. Fundamentally, I mean. I believe that human
beings have free will, the ability to make choices that affect our lives. You made a choice while we were standing
outside the Great Hall before the sorting first year. You chose Ron over Malfoy. You asked the Hat for something else
when it offered you Slytherin. Earlier today you talked about having some of Voldemort’s powers in you because of the
Avada Kedavra that backfired. But in all the years I’ve known you, I’ve never known you to be less than honorable, and
you couldn’t be a truer or more loyal friend. You’ve obviously chosen somehow not to let him overtake you. It’s one of
the things I love most about you, Harry. You’ve made the best out of a life that could have worn you down, not because
you knew it was foretold that you’d have to fight Voldemort or die but just because of the person you are.”

As much as he wanted to hear what she was saying, what she was she was saying was drawing him closer and closer to the
point where wanting to kiss her turned into needing to kiss her. Badly.

“Prophecy or no prophecy, I think you’d have ended up fighting Voldemort,” she told him. “You might yearn to turn away,
but I don’t believe for a moment you would. I chose to love you fully knowing that’s what you’d probably do. Tom
Riddle’s made his own choices. I don’t think the person who finally stops him is going to be a murderer. I think he’s
going to be an innately good person who just wants the evil to stop before it touches one more life. The very same kind
of person who launches himself on an Ogre six times his size without thinking twice, even though he’s only eleven years
old.”

She smiled at him then, and her hands moved from his chest to frame his face, as if understanding his brain’s dilemma
and focusing things for him.

“There’s an enormous difference between prediction and prophecy, Harry. I think divination is really just a form of
prediction, and prediction is trying to deduce what might be. Prophecy is trying to tell us what will be… And I believe
with all my heart that what will be is ultimately up to you and me.”

Harry felt somehow as if a staggering weight had just been lifted from his shoulders. Learn from this! he told himself
fiercely, gathering her closer to him and burying his face in the warmth of her neck and the thick, silky fall of her
hair. Tell her. Just tell her, no matter what it is. You know she can handle it, and she’s more than earned it with
that. Everywhere he touched felt impossibly soft and pliant beneath his fingers; how could she be so strong and so
delicate all at once? All his instincts to handle things alone, to try not to involve his friends in the darkness of his
life, to hide his fear and guilt and shame were all being swiftly usurped by a need so powerful it shook him in his
skin. He bargained with himself as he kissed her, told himself that he could keep her safe, that he would never fail to
keep her safe because without her he was nothing. If he had magic at all she was his focus, if there was love still
buried within him from Lily’s gift, she was the only one he could feel safe enough with to coax it out.

“Besides,” Hermione said softly, her lips a promise against his ear. “Nothing says you have to do it alone. I’ll be your
power Voldemort knows not if I can. I will.”

“The power I know not,” honesty forced him to admit with some urgency in her ear, “is how to stop, if we don’t. Right
now actually. Hermione, I…”

She drew slowly back and he reluctantly eased his own hold.

“I know,” she said, glancing over at the still snoring Hagrid and Ron. “I wish…”

She sat up, reaching again for the bandages and potion from Madam Pomfrey she’d set aside before.

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Hermione opened one eye. Reluctantly. She felt lovely, warm and comfortable; sleeping beside Harry was a lot like having
an electric blanket, another bit of Muggle comfort that Hogwarts could have benefited from. The question, then, was what
had awoken her? She’d planned to wake early and slip down to her own sleeping bag, anxious to respect Hagrid’s sense of
responsibility for Harry’s well being and uneager to gift Ron with further fodder for teasing. Hermione had an inner
alarm clock. She’d always been able to will herself to wake early to get a head start on the day, or to pick up with an
idea exactly where she’d left it the night before. It was still quite dark, though, and felt earlier than she had
planned.

Something was amiss.

Her eyes roamed around the room. The door was closed and the bar still securely in the latch. The fire had died down to
mostly embers and glowed. Hagrid was snoring away in his chair. Fang was drooling in his sleep and had rolled lovingly
closer to Ron…

Hermione sat up quickly, throwing back the blankets and shaking at Harry behind her.

“Harry…” she hissed.

“Ouch… what?” Harry mumbled back.

Am I a really bad friend if I still notice how much I love the way his voice is all deep and sleepy while I tell him
there’s a giant snake crawling up Ron’s sleeping bag?

“There’s a snake on Ron’s sleeping bag. A really big ugly snake.”

“Friend of Hagrid’s?” Harry suggested blearily, but she could hear him fumbling for his glasses.

“You’re the parselmouth, Harry,” she reminded him. “Ask it.”

Harry struggled up to sit behind her, peering over her shoulder. She heard a shaky intake of breath, and then the
sibilant, undulating hiss she had last heard issue from his mouth second year.

The snake stilled its progress, turned toward the bed and raised its head as if to get a better view of them. Black
beady eyes fixed their gaze on Harry and Hermione felt what she could only describe as a wave of dislike, like a rush of
cold in a stream of warm water.

Harry repeated the same string of softly slurring hisses. Hermione could feel that his body had tensed behind her. The
snake flicked its forked tongue, rising up higher in the air, then appeared to answer Harry. Whatever it said, it ended
the message with an open mouthed display of fangs that glistened in the low light of the fire.

“What… what did it say?” she asked softly.

“The Dark Lord, the rightful heir of Salazar Slytherin, is displeased with me. He can no longer allow my interference.
The snake is here to claim an eye for an eye. The Dark Lord has lost something precious of Salazar’s and he claims the
red headed Gryffindor in its sake.” Harry’s eyes met Hermione’s and he whispered “It’s talking about Draco, I think. It
thinks I somehow turned Malfoy to Dumbledore’s side and it wants to kill Ron.”

“Tell it something to make it stop! Quick!” Hermione whispered back, horrified.

Harry hissed urgently. Hermione watched in fascination as the snake appeared to listen to Harry’s appeal. If it was
possible for a snake to laugh, that was its response. It turned back to the still sleeping Ron and rose up further into
striking position.

Hermione felt Harry launch himself from behind her back and literally fly from the edge of the bed to where his best
friend lay on the floor, landing with full force on top of Ron as the snake struck. The fangs sunk into Hermione’s
enthusiastic re-bandaging of Harry’s arm and he hissed something, grabbing at it. Ron sat up abruptly, screaming,
dislodging both Harry and the snake on to Fang. Fang awoke with a startled yowl and leapt up onto Hagrid’s lap, rolling
the still wrestling pair back toward Ron. Hagrid came awake with a start but remained frozen, trying to take in the
seemingly impossible scene before him. Ron appeared to suddenly realize the snake was trying to hurt Harry; he reached
out and found the fireplace poker with one hand, grabbed the snake just behind its head with the other, yanked the fangs
free from Harry’s bandages and with one smooth continuous motion batted the snake towards the hearth. There was a
hideous, slithery whump as it hit stone and fell to the floor, stunned.

A moment of silence followed in which all that could be heard was heavy breathing as three wizards, one witch and one
enormous boarhound tried to persuade calm to swim upstream against the adrenalin rush.

“Nice one, Ron,” Harry managed first. “Thanks.”

“No problem,” Ron gasped. “Think nothing of it. I did think snakes were partial to you, though. What’s the story with
that one?”

“Friend of Voldemorts’.”

“No!” Hagrid was horrified.

“He told Harry the Dark Lord sent him,” Hermione said. “He said…” she broke off, a look of dawning comprehension on her
face. She hopped down from the edge of the bed and grabbed her wand from the floor beside her sleeping bag.

“Erm, Hermione, don’t get too close, I think it’s only stunned, that thing…” Ron started as he saw her head toward the
prone form of the snake. She ignored him and crouched down quite close, softly said an incantation and waved her wand.
There was a blinding flash of light and then a speeded-up-film effect they had each seen before. Hermione took several
steps backward and to the boys’ undisguised amazement the enormous pale snake grew and took shape as Lucius Malfoy’s
unconscious body.

“Eeewww.” said Ron, succinctly.

Harry couldn’t have agreed more.

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7. Chapter 7

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Here With Me

Chapter 8

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“So the whole Ministry Regulation of Animagi thing is a complete sham, is it?” Ron said as the three sat in the
infirmary that morning awaiting Madam Pomfrey’s verdict on when Harry could leave. The Ministry had sent aurors for
Malfoy when Dumbledore notified them of the events of the night before and Tonks and Kingsley Shacklebolt had been most
congratulatory of Ron’s zeal with the fire poker.

(“It’s especially nice when you don’t have to listen to them go on and on about what Voldemort’s going to do to you when
he realizes you’ve got his most loyal servant,” Tonks told them with a laugh when it became clear that Malfoy was still
out cold. “They can’t all be the most loyal, can they, and he’s never cared enough about any of them to try and get one
back, except for that one break from Azkaban.”)

“I mean we’ve come across six animagi now that we know of and Professor McGonagall’s the only one who’s actually
registered,” he pointed out. “Harry’s Dad, Sirius, Pettigrew, that Skeeter woman and now Malfoy, all illegal. How many
more are creeping around?”

“They’ve got a point though, don’t they,” Harry mused. “What’s the use of being able to transform yourself into
something else if everyone knows what you are anyway?”

He was sitting on the edge of the bed, shirtless, bandages undone. If Madam Pomfrey’s testing confirmed the centaur’s
poison to be at last eradicated she would use healing charms on the wounds on his arm and chest and he would be allowed
to go. Lucius Malfoy’s snake fangs had become entangled in Hermione’s thorough re-bandaging of his arm and only nicked
the skin. Madam Pomfrey had insisted on testing for a range of snake venoms as well, but Harry was actually starting to
feel quite himself again and frankly just wanted some breakfast.

“The point is to be able to make use of the abilities of your animal form, like flying, or exceptional hearing or
instinctive behaviors. It’s not meant to be a cheap disguise.” Hermione admonished them.

“Speaking of flying, Harry, we’ve got to make sure Pomfrey vets you okay for Quidditch next week. We’ve got our first
match against Ravenclaw.” Ron reminded him.

Hermione rolled her eyes but said nothing.

“I’m fine. I’ll be ready,” Harry told him with a grin, but he made sure to find and hold Hermione’s eyes a moment with
his own. She smiled back and he felt positively optimistic. Except for the fact that he was now definitely going to have
to have a little talk with Ron about what was going on between them. To borrow a phrase, bloody hell!

Madam Pomfrey returned from her office looking quite pleased. “All clear then, Mr. Potter. I must say you’ve been
extraordinarily lucky, young man. I would like you to keep that arm in a sling at least for the rest of today to allow
the healing charms to finish their work, but you should be completely mended by tomorrow.”

Harry felt the warm tingling of the healing charms she performed on his arm, the almost itchy ticklishness of the arrow
wound beginning to close in his bicep.

“Miss Granger?” Madam Pomfrey questioned, making Hermione jump guiltily. She’d been allowing her mind to wonder over the
possibilities of a completely healed Harry and not really paying attention. “You have really done a quite excellent job
caring for such an uncommon injury, and under most unusual circumstances. Perhaps you’d care to try closing the last
wound? A simple curatio should suffice by now.”

Hermione glanced quickly at Harry. She could see no obvious signs of apprehension and he smiled at her encouragingly.
She moved closer, nudged his already healed arm in the sling gently forward and concentrated on the jagged hole the
arrowhead had left in his side. She could see that it had met Harry’s rib cage and skidded slightly at an angle toward
his back. She had a moments’ vertigo at the thought of what might have happened if the arrow had not pierced his arm
first and instead hit the ribs with force enough to pass through to what lay protected within. ‘But it didn’t,’ she
reminded herself. ‘Don’t go borrowing trouble, as Hagrid always says.’ She angled her wand and murmured “Curatio!”
clearly visualizing the wound healing itself fully from the inside out, smoothing the surface of Harry’s skin in her
mind’s eye.

Hermione was quite accustomed to performing acts of magic; her propensity to do so was what had gained her entrance to
Hogwarts in the first place and she had been practicing for more than five years now. Never, however, had it felt even
remotely like that. Usually magic felt like an extension of her resolve, a bending of the forces around her to her will.
Something she simply did. Performing the healing charm on Harry felt… different. Wonderfully, satisfyingly different. A
warmth that seemed to start in her chest suffused throughout her body before flowing through her fingers to her wand in
a heady rush. The sensation abruptly brought to mind the feelings she had experienced when Harry first kissed her; an
intuitive letting go of a piece of herself, a giving up that brought back a thousand-fold. She stifled a soft gasp, saw
Harry’s eyes widen.

“Nicely done, Miss Granger. Very nice work, indeed! If you do decide to dedicate yourself to the healing arts I would be
most happy to recommend a course of study to Professor McGonagall for you.”

“Thank you, Madam Pomfrey,” she stammered. “I’ll… I’ll think about it.”

“Does this mean we can go to breakfast now?” Ron asked plaintively.

“Yes, Mr. Weasley,” Madam Pomfrey sighed. “Mr. Potter, please be careful. I don’t want to see you again until at least
after the holidays. Understood?”

“Yes Ma’am. Thank you,” Harry said, choosing not to remind her that unless Dumbledore had found a solution to his little
possession problem he’d likely be back that evening. He doubted they’d let him go back to Hagrid’s again. Or, for that
matter, that Hagrid would want him.

He pulled his shirt on and slipped down from the bed, buttoning it as the three departed the Hospital Wing. They joined
the flow of sleepy-eyed students making their way along the corridors to the Great Hall. He found his tie in his robe
pocket and slid it round under his collar while they descended the last staircase. Hermione turned toward him while they
waited behind Ron in the backed-up queue at the door, watching as he attempted to knot it one handed. “Did you remember
to take notes for me in History of Magic?” she asked. “It feels like weeks ago somehow.” She reached up and gently
straightened his fringe, leaving the bit above his scar the way he liked it, then frowned slightly as she tried to fix
his tie. Harry briefly closed his eyes, trying to preserve the sensation of her touch in his memory. It was almost
Patronus fodder, that. She’d hugged him, grabbed his arm, pushed him away from danger… he’d even kissed her now. How was
it then that something about those ordinary gestures, accompanied as they were by the simplest of questions, made him
feel… loved? She’d just used some fairly complex magic to heal a painful wound in the infirmary; how was it that the
simple act of neatening his hair or straightening his tie could make him feel so much for her?

“Yes,” he told her. “I did.”

“Thanks.” She smiled, pleased.

The clog ahead resolved itself and they entered the Hall, settling at their usual seats at the Gryffindor table. They
began the comforting routines of breakfast, passing, pouring, trading butter for marmalade, sugar for cream. Harry took
several long, grateful pulls at his pumpkin juice before he began to notice it. He lifted his gaze from his cup to find
a fourth year Hufflepuff blatantly staring at him in a most unfriendly, almost Slytherin-ish way. He narrowed his eyes
slightly and glared at the boy, who abruptly looked away.

‘Jerk,’ he thought absently. ‘What’s his problem?’ His eyes shifted across the room… only to meet a similar reception at
the Ravenclaw table. From most of the Ravenclaw table, as a matter of fact. With the few exceptions of those in the DA
that Harry named among his friends, the balance of Ravenclaw House seemed to be glaring at him with looks ranging from
distinctly uneasy to outright hostility. A quick glance back at Hufflepuff revealed a similar situation at the rest of
the table. No point checking out Slytherin, then!

“Hermione…”

“Ignore them. It’s shocked them out of their little ostrich colony and they’d rather try and blame you than deal with
reality.”

“Ignore what?” Ron asked.

“What, you can’t feel the heartwarming welcome back I’m getting?” Harry muttered bitterly. “Quirrell had Voldemort
growing out the back of his head and no one looked at him like that.” He pushed his nearly untouched plate away.

Hermione pushed it back. “You need to eat. You’ve been hurt and your body is still healing. Don’t let their ignorance
drag you down. You didn’t really think you’d only be fighting Voldemort, did you? Why do you think he’s so powerful? He
feeds off the worst in people, even otherwise perfectly nice, well-intentioned people. Everyone has fear inside them,
Harry. He knows just how to find it. You’ve either got to inspire something else in them or stay well clear of the ones
who fall for it until it’s over.”

Harry stared at his breakfast, hurt and rage battling the common sense of Hermione’s words. Let them feel what it was
like to have that filthy, slimy, evil git inside of you, forcing you, fighting you, hurting you and getting off on it.
Who’d choose that? Did they think he wanted it? Let them take a turn! He tried a small forkful of egg and almost gagged
on the combination of anger and soreness that tightened his throat. He was so tired of this… all of this.

Ron was gazing around the Great Hall, dumbfounded. “They couldn’t really be thinking…”

Whatever he thought they couldn’t be thinking was cut off by the approach to the Gryffindor table of an emissary from
Ravenclaw. Cho Chang.

Merlin, but Harry was not in the mood for that.

“What?” he sighed.

“Is it true? What Malfoy said?”

“Well if Malfoy said it, it must be true. Why ask me?”

“He said that Voldemort possessed you in the Forbidden Forest last night. Fully possessed you. He saw it happen. And she
was there, too.” Cho answered, pointing accusingly at Hermione.

“No, last night his father turned himself into a big ugly snake and tried to kill Ron. It was the night before you’re
thinking of,” Harry said, reaching across the table with his left hand and gently pushing her finger away from
Hermione’s face. “And your point would be?”

“Don’t touch me!” She stepped back, clearly repulsed. “You… you don’t belong in this school anymore. You don’t belong
anywhere near here until He’s defeated. You were trying to teach us defense spells when you can’t even defend yourself!
You’re a menace, Harry. Cedric died just because he was with you and it’s only a matter of time until…”

“Shut up!” Ron snarled, leaping to his feet. “Stupid cow. He never asked for any of it. You were happy enough to snog
him when you thought he could help you. What is it you want him to do now?”

Ron’s voice carried across the Hall where Cho’s and Harry’s had not. There was a sudden silence, unfortunately timed for
the moment Cho said quite clearly, “Leave. Leave Hogwarts and go where he can’t hurt anyone else until it’s over.”

“Miss Chang!” Professor Flitwick cried out angrily from the head table. “It pains me to do this to my own house, but
that will cost fifty points from Ravenclaw and I will see you in my office immediately!” A low groan arose from the
Ravenclaw table, but Cho simply turned and began to follow the little charms professor from the Hall without a backward
glance, head held high.

“Well spoken, Filius. Mr. Weasley, my regret is as great as Professor Flitwick’s to have to penalize my own house,
particularly as that would in fact punish the individuals I believe you thought you were defending. However your
behavior is beyond admonishment. Forty points from Gryffindor and five night’s detention.” McGonagall’s voice sounded
oddly unlike her usual forthright tone. Hermione thought she might be close to tears. The moment needed Dumbledore to
call them all to order and administer calming words as only he could, but Dumbledore had not been to breakfast and was
no where to be seen.

Harry squeezed her restraining hand gently, rose without speaking and made his way to the door, eyes downcast. Hermione
followed him without a backward glance, although she sensed Ron behind her. When she reached the door however she paused
before passing through it, allowing Ron to precede her. She turned back then and allowed her eyes to scan the room,
friend and foe alike. She made sure each of them saw exactly what she thought, and without a word she dared them to
cross her to get to Harry.

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The enormous advantage to sixth year was dropping subjects they’d never liked, such as Divination and Astronomy. (‘The
class hours were ridiculous, but the tower’s still quite useful,’ Dean had pointed out with a grin.) Hermione had only
convinced Harry to keep on with History of Magic because she felt that he needed to understand the events that had
shaped the Wizarding world and left them vulnerable to Voldemort. Ron signed on for it because they had, and it was a
good nap besides. Beyond that their schedules were more varied than they had been before. Harry and Hermione suffered
Snapes’ N.E.W.T. level Potions together while Ron happily indulged in Muggle Studies, Hermione had Arithmancy while Ron
and Harry had Care of Magical Creatures (‘I love Hagrid and he knows it, but the only magical creature I’ve ever
remotely cared for was Buckbeak and he still scared me to death. I just have too much else to do!’ she defended
herself.) Harry had been pulled from DADA this year to work individually with Dumbledore himself, and, Hermione
suspected, keep quiet exactly the scope of his growing abilities. The only other classes they had together were Charms
and Transfiguration.

This morning’s class was Advanced Transfiguration and they knew McGonagall would stand no excuses for absence. Harry
seemed to be finding his quill absolutely fascinating and Ron was keeping a distinctly low profile in the face of his
Head of House’s wrath. (“As much as I agreed with your assessment of Miss Chang’s nature and behavior, Mr. Weasley,” she
had told him quietly as they filed into class, “that was quite simply far more than any of us wanted or needed to
know.”) Hermione was still trying to mentally clean house and make sense of all that had taken place in the last
forty-eight hours; she was only half listening when she suddenly heard McGonagall begin to talk about their term
projects.

“It is at this point that I usually begin breaking my classes up into somewhat smaller groups depending upon the
ultimate goals for your knowledge of Transfiguration. While we will continue to meet as a class, you will be working for
the most part with your peers and I will spend most of my teaching time with you in these groupings, so I am expecting
you each to be able to undertake a much more mature and responsible view of your class time and to continue to practice
and study independently while I am with other students. Is that quite clear? Good. Now I should explain that this is the
point in your training when if you should ultimately wish to attempt animagus transformation we begin to teach the
theory of the process so that you may one day safely do so. Only a handful of the students that sign up each year choose
to continue when they understand the complexity of the study, and of those that do continue there is no guarantee of
ultimate success. I say that you might one day safely do so because it is highly unlikely even for those who stick
through the training to manage a transformation before the end of seventh year, so this is not the choice for those with
brief attention spans or anyone desirous of instant gratification.”

She aimed her wand at the black board and ‘Group One – Animagus Candidates’ appeared. This was followed by ‘Group Two –
Transfiguration for Magical Law Enforcement (Auror Candidates)’ ‘Group Three – Legal Use of Transfiguration in Commerce
and Trade’ and ‘Group Four - Ministry of Magic Transfiguration Standards and Practices’.

“You may use the rest of this class period to confer amongst yourselves while I talk to each of you individually about
your choices. I will call you up one by one to discuss your placement. Miss Patil, I shall start with you, and take the
rest of you row by row.”

“Erm, Hermione?’ Ron asked slowly.

“No, Ron, I can’t make the choice for you. It’s simple enough, though. You’d be bored out of your mind doing the
animagus study and you’ve already ruled out being an Auror. You just have to decide whether you’re leaning toward going
into business like Fred and George or working for the Ministry like Bill and Charlie and your Dad. And, well, Percy, but
remember he was a prat before he started, working for the Ministry only made him worse.”

Ron turned to Harry. “What are you thinking of, Harry?”

“Let’s just say doing anything involving the Ministry of Magic doesn’t hold much appeal at the moment,” Harry told him.
“I figure if my Dad and Sirius could manage to become animagi on their own I should be able to hack it in class. If
Pettigrew could do it, you’d think anyone could. What are you going to do, Hermione?”

“Well, I’m not going to be an Auror, and I’m not really interested in commerce or trade, but I wonder if I shouldn’t do
the Ministry Group. I understand how you feel about the Ministry, Harry, but it’s not going to change itself. Someone
has got to get inside and change it from within.”

Harry’s nod and slow smile warmed her heart with a rush. “If anyone can, Hermione, it’ll be you.”

She knew at once he didn’t want her to, wished that she would choose the animagus training as well. Even a week ago she
would have expected him to argue about the worthlessness of the Ministry as it stood; they had certainly never made life
any easier for him. Standing trial for the use of underage magic while saving his despicable cousin Dudley from the
Dementors two summers ago had left scars of mistrust in Harry as clear as the ‘I will not tell lies,’ Umbridge had
caused to be etched on his hand while Fudge’s appointee as High Inquisitor to Hogwarts. His “If anyone can, Hermione,
it’ll be you” was a gift of the sort she had so long craved from him, more precious than gold. An acknowledgment of her
ability to make her own choices coupled with acceptance that making a different choice for different reasons wouldn’t
make her any less loyal to either Harry or Ron. She felt tears prick the back of her eyes and tried to think of
something, anything to say that would convey her appreciation when Professor McGonagall called her name.

Professor McGonagall accepted her choice with a smile, marking her down under the fourth group. “You would have fit
quite successfully into any of these categories, Miss Granger,” was all she said.

Ron was called next, and Professor McGonagall seemed entirely unsurprised when he declared himself still undecided. “I
shall put you down for the Ministry group, Mr. Weasley. I think you should be quite safe there. Mr. Potter?”

“Ministry,” Ron sighed as they passed in opposite directions.

“Least you’ll have Hermione. Guaranteed pass.” Harry muttered back.

He started to tell her what he’d chosen when she shook her head in a barely perceptible movement. “You will be in the
Auror group, Mr. Potter.”

“But I…” he started.

“You will be in the Auror Group.”

His jaw tightened. “Why? Why does everyone get a choice but me?”

Professor McGonagall handed him a folded piece of parchment and called out “Mr. Longbottom?”

Harry passed Neville without really seeing him, furious with McGonagall, with himself, with Dumbledore and Fudge and
Voldemort as well. Everyone else had choices, chances to control the direction of their lives. All he wanted was one
stupid choice. Why was he always doomed to being told what would happen, what he would endure, what he would have to do.
Bloody freaking hell. He slammed into his seat ignoring Ron and Hermione’s anxious looks. He dropped the parchment and
had to feel around under his desk to find it, half tempted to just forget the damn thing. His fingers closed on it and
he drew it up and opened it.

Blank. It was blank. McGonagall gave him a blank piece of… He looked up. Ron and Hermione were staring at him, but the
rest of the class was thoroughly involved in making their own choices or discussing their options with their neighbors.
He pulled out his wand and muttered “Aparecium.”

Slowly McGonagall’s elegant spidery writing crawled across the page.

Dear Mr. Potter,

Considering both my discovery during your third year of your Father and Godfather’s success in becoming animagi in
secret and knowing you as I have for these five years, I am certain you have at very least some curiosity in regard to
the process yourself. Should you be successful, however, it would be most helpful if your animal form were unknown to
those who mean to harm you. While I can not therefore in good conscience accept you as an anamagus candidate in Advanced
Transfiguration (where you would be monitored by the Ministry for registration purposes) I should be pleased to work
with you Tuesday evenings from 7:30 to 9pm to further explore your aptitudes in this area. I know I need not remind you
of the extracurricular nature of this assignment. You may call this training ‘Remedial Transfiguration’ if questioned
about its nature by anyone you do not already deeply trust.

Best Wishes,

MM

Remedial Potions, remedial DADA and now remedial Transfiguration. Clearly he was the stupidest student at Hogwarts! No
wonder everyone thought he was an idiot and Voldemort would walk all over him.

He slowly let go of his anger. Clearly he was the luckiest as well; he knew what a chance Professor McGonagall was
taking for him just because she believed it would help him in the end. He was an idiot. He waved his wand over the
parchment to blank it again and tucked it in to the bottom of his book bag. The hour was ending and he rose to follow
Hermione and Ron toward the hall.

“Okay, Harry?” Ron asked quietly.

“Yeah,” he said. “I’ll tell you later, but yeah.”

Hermione’s relief felt like the sun peeking from behind a cloud, and he was almost certain Professor McGonagall actually
winked at him as he left the room.

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8. Chapter 8

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

A/N: I STILL think this works better as a short chapter on its own so I am posting it as such; and I promise to get the
next one re-proofed and up tomorrow. Remember this was written quite some time ago, well before HBP! It’s hard even for
me to work my mind back there, but this is still a fun story with lots of plot twists coming up. Thanks so much to all
of you who are re-reading this, as well as reading for the first time. I hope you enjoy it either way.

Here With Me

Chapter 9

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“Ron?”

“Hmmm?”

They had skipped lunch before Care of Magical Creatures, neither quite ready to face the Great Hall again after the
drama at breakfast that morning, and had instead made their way down to the lake to sit in the brilliant afternoon
sunlight. They were alone; the wind was too brisk to make studying outside remotely productive. Hardly a problem, as
neither Harry nor Ron had any intention of wasting a perfectly good free half hour studying this early in term. Ron was
mentally trying to calculate the weather’s effect on their scheduled Quidditch practice later that afternoon. Maybe he
should swap drills, save the ball handling for closer to the match and concentrate more on broom skills today…

Harry was working up his nerve to talk to Ron about Hermione.

“Erm, Ron?”

“What?

“I, unh, actually need you to listen for a minute here.”

“Right. Sure. Go ahead.”

“Great. So… Ron.” Was there a good way to do this? ‘Cause it sure as hell hadn’t occurred to him anytime over the past
two days.

“Yes, Harry. I will marry you.”

What the… Harry raised his eyes from the stone he’d been worrying between his fingers and met his best friend’s laughing
gaze. “Git.”

“Prat. Well, it sounded awfully dire and important. Spit it out then.”

Harry winced. “It’s about Hermione.”

“What’s she done now?”

Gone and made me fall for her, for one. And you? “Remember fourth year, when you and Hermione had a bit of an argument
after the Yule Ball? You were angry at her for fraternizing with the enemy and going with Viktor…”

“And she thought I was jealous that he’d asked her before we did and said if I didn’t like it that next time there was a
ball I should ask her first and NOT as a last resort. Yeah. She totally missed the point about Krum being from
Durmstrang, official headquarters of Death-Eaters-in-Training. ‘Bit of an argument’s a bit of an understatement as I
remember it.”

“So you weren’t actually mad that she went with someone else, just that Krum was a potential Voldemort fan?”

Ron turned to look at him. “What’s this all about, then? Is Hermione… Oh, dear Lord, tell me nothing went on between
Malfoy and Hermione in that cave, Harry. Even Hermione couldn’t go that far in the name of school unity… could she?”

Okay, if this was hard, how bad was it going to be having the whole Malfoy-loves-your-sister conversation? That was so
not going to be HIS job. Once was enough. “No! No, Ron, not Malfoy. Nothing to do with Malfoy. Ron… do you, no, are you…
are you, unh, in, umm, are you possibly… Oh hell, Ron do you love Hermione?”

Ron’s pale blue eyes rounded and his mouth dropped open. “Merlin, Harry, what are you on about?”

“Just answer the question,” Harry pleaded, rubbing the bridge of his nose under his glasses. Splitting headache in the
works already and he couldn’t blame Voldemort for this one. Perfect!

“You mean love like snogging-in-love, don’t you? Hermione? I mean, she’s like a sister or something. I think I thought I
was in love with her in third year until I started to realize that actually being afraid of her as well would seriously
affect my erm…follow through. I couldn’t even, umm, think about her that way, if you get me. Tried it once and it put me
right off. No, I love to tease her. I love to cut through all that brainy stuff and just get her riled. I love it when
she tries to get back at me, unless she pulls out her wand. I love her like I don’t want her looked at wrong by scum
like Malfoy or Krum. Same as Ginny, really. Wow. Unclean thoughts, mate.”

Ouch. “What if she was with… well, me?”

“What, you and… Ginny? Eww, Harry, that’s like….”

“Hermione! Me and Hermione, Ron! What if Hermione and I… if I…. What if I was to love Hermione? Snogging-in-love and
everything else? Could you… I mean would that be okay with you?”

It was out. Harry felt an enormous weight lift off his chest. He took a deep breath and realized that no matter what Ron
said now, nothing could really change. He wanted his friends’ approval, or at very least his acceptance, but if he
wasn’t dealing some kind of devastating blow to Ron’s heart the rest of it didn’t really matter. There was nothing Ron
could say that would rock Harry’s growing certainty that he was supposed to be finding Hermione this way.

“Do you?” Ron asked incredulously.

“Yeah.”

“You sure?”

“Think so.”

“Like how sure? Like how far have…”

“See, this is where the whole thing gets just a little strange for me. You’re my best friend. She’s your… extra sister?
Are you really sure you want me to answer that question?”

“Well, yeah. Do I need to kick your arse or what?”

“No. No, you don’t. Well, depends on your comfort level, I guess. But don’t get me wrong, Ron, this is not going to be
some kind of vicarious three-way or anything.”

“That was just uncalled for.”

“No it wasn’t. It just means I, um, deliberately didn’t want go anywhere I shouldn’t until we had this conversation.
Well, I wanted to, but I didn’t. You’re my best friend, Ron. If you told me you loved her… I don’t know what the hell
I’d do, because I don’t know how I could close my eyes to this now that I finally feel like I’m figuring it all out, but
trust me, it would be different somehow. I’m just not sure what else needs to be out there now, though. It’s not like
talking about kissing Cho or anything. This is Hermione. She’s still going to be your friend, I’m still going to be your
friend, but I think the whole two of us thing needs some time before I can talk about it with you. At least not without
some kind of psychological damage to one or both of us. Not to mention hell to pay with her.”

“See your point.”

“Okay, then?”

“Okay. I guess. Wow. So here’s a question. What’d she say when you told her?”

“The first time I kind of passed out so I’m not really sure how she took it. Must have broken her in to the idea,
though, because the second time she only cried a little. Way less then Cho, so I figured I was finally getting something
right. Actually, she made a joke about pulling a Cho and spoiling our first real kiss. I took that as an ‘okay’.”

“That was in the cave? With Malfoy?”

“The first time. Total mood killer. The second time was in the infirmary. Cut right off at the knees when Pomfrey and
Dumbledore arrived. Finally getting somewhere at Hagrid’s and Malfoy’s Dad shows up… I thought maybe it was a sign I was
supposed to talk to you first.”

Ron laughed, “What, you think I’ve got an interuptus charm on you guys or something?”

“Ron, my life is so messed up I have to do something right. I really, really don’t want to screw this up. I’ve been
trying to write off how I felt about her for a good while now because I didn’t want anyone to be a target, someone
Voldemort could use to get to me. I feel like I have to make everything up as I go along, like I’m playing a game where
everyone but me has seen the rules and already knows how to play.“

Ron said nothing, but Harry could tell he sort of understood. “I just wanted to be able to tell her that it’s okay with
you. That nothing would change the way the three of us are.”

“Go on, then. Tell her.” Ron said.

Harry lifted his eyes from the safety of the stone in his hands and smiled at his best friend. He clambered to his feet
and offered his functioning left hand to Ron. Ron grinned back and took it, noting vaguely that there was some serious
muscle behind the heft up considering it was Harry’s off side. Had to be a way to make something out of that on the
Quidditch pitch…

“She’s got you whipped already, hasn’t she,” he said.

“I told you I wasn’t sharing that kind of stuff with you. Keep your kinky fantasies to yourself.”

“Just don’t let it mess up your game, or I will separate you ‘til after the Quidditch finals. We’re winning this year.”

They set off for Hagrid’s companionably side by side.

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They saw Hermione again for the first time since Transfiguration on their way back from the Quidditch pitch after
practice that evening. She was waiting half way up the hill, watching for them, her robes and hair streaming in the
wind. Harry thought she didn’t look happy. A distinct shame, because otherwise in her present windblown state she was
enticing as a siren to his aching eyes. He was thoroughly impatient to tell her the results of his conversation with
Ron.

“Liver for dinner tonight?” Ron asked her as they drew abreast and she fell into step between them.

She sighed. “You’ll wish it was that. No, it’s our detentions. They’ve just added you in with Malfoy and Harry and me,
Ron.”

“Oh, so you guys break a million school rules, spend the night in the Forbidden Forest getting shot at by Centaurs and
fighting off Voldemort and I get the same punishment just for calling Cho a cow at breakfast? How does that work?” he
asked plaintively.

“It gets better. Our detention tonight… is with Dumbledore.”

Harry and Ron exchanged looks of trepidation. “No one ever has detention with Dumbledore. Oh man, even Fred and George
never had detention with Dumbledore. This is not good.” Ron groaned.

“We have to be in the Headmaster’s office in twenty minutes,” she continued as they passed through the entrance. “You
ran a long practice, Ron. We’ve only just got time for dinner.”

“I’ll see you there, then” Harry told them, edging toward the stairs. Hermione stopped him with a look.

“Harry, don’t. It’ll just make it worse and you really need to eat something. Ginny said neither of you made lunch.”

“It’s hard to work up an appetite when the whole Hall is glaring at you, waiting for you to start channeling Voldemort,”
he informed her.

“You’ve got to stop caring what they think. What difference does it make what they believe?”

“A lot!” Harry said, fuming and trying desperately not to. “It makes a huge difference, actually. What if they were all
to follow Cho and try and get me expelled? I don’t exactly have a loving, supportive family to go home to, remember?
I’ve got a bunch of anti-magical bigots who want to pretend Voldemort doesn’t exist. I need to be here, I need to learn
everything I can from Dumbledore and McGonagall and Flitwick and Lupin and anyone else who might have the slightest clue
what in the name of Merlin I’m going to do when he comes looking for me that last time, because I’m not exactly feeling
prepared. If they take me away… and where do you think they’ll take me, Hermione, with a direct link to the Dark Lord
etched on my head? I’m looking at Azkaban now if I piss off the wrong parents. I’m not sulking or withdrawing or any of
that psycho stuff, I’m not trying for anyone’s pity. I’m scared. It just seems like a good survival move right now to
shut up and keep my head down.”

“I hate to say it,” Ron said slowly. “But that actually makes a scary kind of sense.”

Hermione’s indignation on his part seemed to deflate like a pricked balloon and he saw this new worry take over her
features. He was sure the idea could not be one that hadn’t occurred to her before. She always considered problems from
every possible angle. It was more likely wonder and fear that the stirrings of a self-survival plan had actually
occurred to Harry.

“Go on then,” she told him. “We’ll meet you at the top of the stairs to Dumbledore’s corridor. After detention is over
though, be prepared to go tickle the pear. There’s a certain house elf down there who wouldn’t want to see you go
hungry, either.”

“Excellent idea, Hermione,’ Ron chimed in, envisioning an entire second dinner with Harry.

“See you,” Harry said, and watched his best friends head off into the Great Hall before trudging up the stairs to the
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Malfoy had just reached the door to Dumbledore’s office when they arrived. Harry could sense his almost reflexive
resentment rise the moment he saw the faint gleam of white blond hair. The feeling was mostly unabated by the fact that
he knew that without Malfoy’s help in the cave he might well be dead. Knowing that he was alive because Malfoy wished it
so left him feeling somehow outdone and used; that thought coupled with the knowledge that he now owed the Slytherin a
wizard’s debt was almost more than Harry could bear.

“Thanks for keeping it shut, Malfoy. I always knew you could be trusted,” he said in greeting.

Draco raised one long dark eyebrow. Clearly he’d learned that move from Malfoy Senior rather well. “They have a right to
know, don’t you think? And Cho wasn’t too far off the mark. You are something of a menace, although you really don’t
need the Dark Lord’s help for that.”

Harry could feel a feral growl building in his throat, articulate response at the moment quite beyond him.

Luckily Ron wasn’t experiencing anything of the kind. “Listen, arseho…”

“Caramel Bull’s Eye!” Hermione almost shouted, wishing they hadn’t outgrown her by such an unfair margin in the last few
years. She pushed Harry and Ron past Malfoy toward the slowly rotating spiral staircase. Draco followed her inside and
they rose to the level of Dumbledore’s office to find him already seated behind his desk, writing intently on a quite
long piece of parchment with an extraordinarily large, fluffy quill. He looked up and smiled upon their arrival, waving
his hand toward the front of his desk. Four straight-backed wooden chairs appeared. “Won’t be a moment,” he told them.

They sat. Fawkes fluttered over to Harry and settled on his knee, cocking his head and nipping at the sleeve of his
robes for attention. Hermione watched as Harry began to absently stroke the magnificent flame-colored bird, his mind
clearly elsewhere. She reflected how much better it felt this time round with him there as well. Ron sat beside Harry
and played with the ragged, unraveling cuff of his robes, slowly worrying the black thread into a ball. Malfoy was on
her other side, radiating unconcern.

Dumbledore finished his thought with a flourish, capped his ink bottle and allowed the parchment to re-roll. His eyes
lifted from the desk and she felt them probe their way down the row of the four before him.

“I have,” he said at last, “something of a quest for you four.”

“One of the enduring mysteries of Hogwarts,” Dumbledore began, “Is how alive this castle is. It has been full of so much
magic for so many centuries that a great deal was bound to slough off, but I myself prefer to think that it was the will
of those who created it to begin with. How it was intended to be, in fact. It responds to us daily, to the staff and
students alike. I believe each of you has probably experienced this differently but that you recognize my meaning none
the less. It has been your home and refuge for five years now and still there is much about it you do not know. Indeed,
despite my many years here, there are secrets yet it keeps from me. One in particular I am starting to feel it may be
urgent to resolve.”

Dumbledore rose and made his way to an old wooden stool in one corner of the office on which the sorting hat spent its
days when not fulfilling its duty of sorting Hogwarts first years into their houses. He lifted the stool and brought it
further out into the room, setting it closer to the four students.

“Acclaro Abditum.’

The hat seemed to startle awake and cleared its throat froggily.

“Seek me when the one who lives

Has passed the Centaur’s test;

Four again must walk these halls

And wake me from my rest.

A pageless story I unfold,

Yet through me is the tale foretold,

Of what will happen,

What has been,

Fate’s wheel within my circle spins.

When times are dark and evil grows,

Then truth must hide within the rose

That never dies.

Obscured from those who seek in wrath,

But waiting on the righteous path.

So seek me through these castle walls,

Search where the light of morning falls

At break of day.

Seek me in faith and you shall find

Answers hidden long from time

The hat fell silent.

Dumbledore turned to the four students. “That particular bit of verse was not only entrusted to the hat, but also
inscribed upon a stone incorporated into the hallway beneath the Divination classroom. Alas, it was inadvertently erased
along with some rather pointed commentary about the predictions of one of Madam Trelawney’s predecessors many years ago.
The inscription had apparently been there since the days of the four founders. It was most curious how it disappeared.”

“Professor, you don’t think… I mean, it’s not talking about Harry, is it?” Hermione asked.

“That is part of what I wish you to ascertain, Miss Granger. I myself quite think it might be, and given the fact that
Harry seems to have survived his recent brush with the Centaur’s love of archery and lack of fondness for wizards, the
time could well have come to do as we are bid and seek the answer to the riddle. It is with this that I am charging the
four of you as punishment for your rather flagrant disregard of school rules for sixth year students. Instead of serving
detention per se, you four are on probation. All of your privileges, including Hogsmeade visits and Holiday leave are
hereby revoked until the answer to the mystery is revealed.”

“Want that again?” the hat asked. “I can do it a little slower if you like.”

“Yes, please!” Hermione said. She grubbed about in her bag for a quill and spare parchment.

“All privileges…surely not Quidditch!” Ron said, aghast.

“No Mr. Weasley. You may continue as Gryffindor Quidditch Captain, as long as your partners agree that progress is being
made. Likewise Mr. Potter and Mr. Malfoy may continue as seekers for Gryffindor and Slytherin, unless it seems Miss
Granger is having to, shall we say, ‘carry the Quaffle’ for you three.”

“Why should the rest of us have to lose Hogsmeade privileges and Holidays to try and figure out some ridiculous riddle
about Potter?” Malfoy complained.

“I’m afraid it’s simply a matter of bad timing, Mr. Malfoy. The riddle specifically names four walking the halls, and
you happen to have chosen the wrong time to…”

“To do what? Save your potty little hero? Without me he’d be the Boy Who Choked on His Own Vomit right now.” Malfoy cut
in angrily.

“To walk away from what you started, perhaps?” Dumbledore completed.

Malfoy’s jaw clicked shut so hard Harry and Ron winced.

“If you are sincere in your aims, Mr. Malfoy,” Dumbledore told him with a faint smile, “It is time, as I believe they
say, to put up or shut up. Figuring out this ridiculous riddle might very well save your own life and the lives of many
others if it proves of use in understanding Mr. Potters’ predicament. And now may I suggest you adjourn yourselves to
discuss how you propose to solve this mystery? I find ‘Hogwarts, A History’ to be an excellent starting place for many a
question. I believe it to be one of your favorites as well, Miss Granger.”

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They left Dumbledore’s office and headed disbelievingly toward the library.

Ron groaned. “This is the single most heinous detention plot in the entire history of detention!”

“Fascinating, though…” Hermione mused. “Although how we’re going to manage it…”

“Far be it from me to agree with Weasley, but this is ludicrous,” Malfoy snarled. “I’m not doing it.”

“And how are you going to manage that?” Harry asked with a small surge of pleasure. Malfoy’s misery somehow made the
sheer barmyness of what Dumbledore was asking almost tolerable.

“Yeah, Malfoy. Somehow I don’t think Daddy’s going to be coming to your rescue anytime soon. He should be slithering
into Azkaban right about now, shouldn’t he?” Ron taunted.

“All they got him on was the unregistered animagus thing. Hardly much of a crime to be caught slithering into Hagrid’s.
Merlin knows how you could even spot him with the rest of the wildlife in there. It’ll be a simple slap on the wrist if
there’s enough gold in the palm. Don’t think you’re shut of him yet. You’re right though – if he sees me before I see
him, helping won’t describe what takes place.”

Ron stopped dead and Hermione suddenly found herself bouncing off him. Only Harry’s steadying hand kept her from
careening back into Malfoy. “You can’t honestly mean he’s getting off? Ron exclaimed. “He was trying to kill me!”

“Says who?” Malfoy sneered.

“Says himself! He told Harry!”

“‘So the snake says to the parselmouth…’ That’s a pub joke, Weasley, not testimony.”

“Unbelievable!”

“Believe it. Your Ministry of Magic at work. Who’s afraid of Voldemort with Fudge around? Is evil really so much worse
than total incompetence?”

“Yes,” Harry said. “It is. Fairly large difference, actually.”

“How very Gryffindor of you, Potter.”

“I don’t know about you,” Harry told him, suddenly weary, “but I reckon this thing isn’t going to get done by arguing
about it.”

“Harry’s right,” Hermione said. “Let’s go to the library and at least draw up a plan of attack. We can split up the
research and the foot work between us and then each of us can fit it in around our own schedules when we have time.
We’ll arrange a time to meet and compare what we’ve found out.”

“Do that,” Malfoy said, moving off in the direction of the dungeons. “Fascinating though I’m sure it will be, I have a
somewhat pressing previous engagement.” He stared at Ron rather pointedly and Harry felt suddenly ill, wondering if it
was to do with Ginny. He had been studiously avoiding thinking about that particular complication, at a complete and
utter loss how to begin to deal with it.

“Dumbledore said we should do it together,’ Hermione pointed out stubbornly.

“Then do it together,” Draco told her. “Since when has your ‘together’ ever included Slytherin? I’m sure as brave and
brainless Gryffindors you’ll manage well enough on your own. Let me guess; Granger will do the boring poring through
forgotten tomes in the library while Potter and Weasley sneak around the castle at night looking for previously
unnoticed circular objects and trying to evade Filch and Mrs. Norris. Call me when you get to the part you actually need
wits for.”

He stalked off.

Three fingers spontaneously raised in formation behind his retreating back.

“Bloody git,” Ron grumbled, turning toward the library.

“Selfish prick’s more like it,” Harry followed him.

“If we weren’t already in more trouble than I ever thought possible,” Hermione groused, joining them, “I’d hex his
little wizard right off.”

Ron and Harry each felt small, protective shudders within their own anatomies. When they reached the library Harry
carefully held the doors open for her and Ron allowed her to enter first.

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Harry was dozing over his Charms essay, head propped on his hand and quill stalled halfway across the page when Colin
Creevey suddenly appeared at their table.

“Hi, Harry! How are you? How’s sixth year? I can’t wait ‘til the Quidditch match, you guys are going to sink Ravenclaw!
I took some pictures of you practicing today and I bet they’re going to come out super! Oh, and you need to go to the
Potions classroom straight away. Snape wants you.”

Had he ever had that much energy? The kid was at least third year by now, shouldn’t he be mellowing out a bit? “Thanks,
Colin.”

“What do you think Snape wants? I know he really has it in for you, everybody knows how many points he gets off you.
Detention’s over but he had a cauldron of something really foul going, I hope you don’t have to scrub cauldrons after
that! Well, good luck, Harry!”

Ron watched Colin’s departing back. “That’s not good. What does Snape want with you at this hour? With a foul potion on
the fire no less. Want some company, Harry?”

Harry shook his head. “Thanks. I knew one of them was going to send for me, I was just hoping it wasn’t going to be
Snape. They’re not going to just let me go sleep in the dorm even though what happened last night wasn’t my fault. I’m
probably going to regret begging Madam Pomfrey not to tie me up in the Hospital wing; it’s got to be better than
whatever Snape is brewing if it’s for me. If they let me I’ll see you back here later.”

He gathered his books into his satchel and circled the table to crouch down beside Hermione’s chair so that their eyes
were level. “I was hoping to get some time to ourselves to tell you,” he said softly, “but Ron and I talked while we
were dodging lunch today. He’s okay with everything. Well, he said he’d kick my arse if I wasn’t good to you, but I
don’t think there’s any need to worry about that. I wanted you to know so you didn’t feel like we’d left it hanging or
anything.” He grinned sheepishly. “Well, that, and because I think it means I get to kiss you before I go face Snape.”

“I guess we’d better,” Hermione agreed with a grin of her own, “because if you’ll be ingesting any of this foul potion,
don’t expect me to be sharing the taste when you get back.”

Ron made gagging and sicking-up noises and eventually started throwing parchment spitballs at them, but Harry found his
farewell entirely satisfactory.

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Harry made his way toward the dungeons, encountering only Peeves and Hufflepuff prefect Ernie Macmillan in a pitched
battle involving a Hufflepuff first year. The girl seemed to have missed her curfew because she was afraid to leave the
lavatory Peeves had chased her into. It struck Harry how very young she seemed, marveling that Hermione had been just
that age when the she had encountered the troll in Moaning Myrtle’s bathroom. He smiled encouragingly at her as he
passed while Macmillan attempted to scourgify the stinksap Peeves had hit her with and lure her out. Unfortunately she
took one look at Harry, wailed in terror and retreated back into the depths of the girls’ loo. Peeves snickered.

“Thanks, Potter.” Ernie snarled in frustration. “Nothing better to do tonight than frighten the first years?”

“Sorry,” Harry muttered, and continued quickly down towards Snape’s classroom, thoroughly depressed.

Whatever Snape was brewing, it smelt, as Colin reported, foul. Harry followed the scent hoping against hope it was
something Snape made up as a favor to Filch for cleaning up dungbomb incidents.

“Ah, Potter.” Snape said happily, crushing that illusion.

“You wanted me?” Harry replied cautiously.

“Hardly,” Snape told him, beckoning him forward none the less. “The Headmaster instructed me to make up this potion so
you wouldn’t have to spend the night out with the werewolves, not that you’ve minded that before. I’m simply doing as I
was told. You might try it sometime.”

“What is it?”

“I believe the correct response to my prior statement to be ‘Thank you, Professor Snape.’

Harry thought back to his discovery at the Burrow, focused his thoughts and hurled them at Snape with all his might and
without a word. ‘You must be joking, you sniveling, shrivel-hearted git. I’d as soon take tea with Voldemort as drink a
drop of anything from you.’

He saw Snape’s eyes round.

“Excuse me, Professor,” he said meekly aloud. “Why thank you.” Why, indeed.

He felt Snape’s mind reach out, saw the wand twitching in his fingers half hidden by the fold of his robes. Harry
concentrated hard and thrust back with everything he had. Snape fell back a step, expression disbelieving now.

“Why the open door policy for the Dark Lord, then, Potter?” he sneered, but shakily. “You can’t tell me that you can
achieve that sort of effect and still be overtaken by someone not even in your physical presence? You’re inviting him
in, aren’t you. Thinking you can handle it all yourself…”

“No!” Harry shouted, suddenly furious. Exactly, he was quite sure, as Snape intended. “No. I hate it. I hate him ever
being inside of me. You have no idea what you’re talking about. You think you know everything, but you don’t. It’s this
bloody scar; nothing I ever learn is enough to stop it.”

“Draco told me that you told Granger that you imagined the Dark Lord that night, that you used his altered physical
nature to slow your own heart to try to reduce the spread of the Centaur’s poison,” Snape hissed. “Not such a bad idea
in concept, except for the fact of exactly who you were attempting to use, you Gryffindor half wit! What were you
expecting?”

“Not that!” Harry hissed back. “Hermione was there. I would never have endangered… I didn’t know!”

“You didn’t think!” Snape snapped. “You never do! You’re just like…”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I’m just like my Dad. Well, maybe I’m not exactly like him. I didn’t like what I saw in that
pensieve. I wasn’t proud of what he did, I even asked Remus and Sir… Sirius about it. They pointed out that he was just
a boy. Just a fifteen year old boy. It doesn’t make it right, but can’t you ever get past it? Sirius said he was trying
to impress my mother, for Merlin’s sake. Haven’t you ever loved anyone, ever done something stupid because of it? It was
a moment in time, not what any of you really were. It’s only stuck that way because Voldemort killed them and killed any
chance to change any of it with them! How do you really know that he might not have brought me to school himself or seen
you at a Quidditch match one day and said ‘Severus, good to see you, listen, I’m sorry I was such a total prat to you
sixth year?’ How?” Harry asked, anguished.

Snape did not answer, but ladled some of the potion into a glass tumbler and set it down on the table before him, then
picked up a second tumbler and filled it as well.

“This potions’ ingredients should yield an effect never documented before, quite probably because no would normally wish
for such a result. You will sleep only with the permission of one other, dream only with their permission, wake only
with their permission. If anyone attempts to enter or take over your dreaming mind you will be forced into a stupefied
state from which you can only be freed by the dream keeper. The Dark Lord could possibly possess you, but you would be
immobilized, unable to be of any use to him.”

“There’s a vision of hell right there. And I would agree to that because… you think I’m a complete idiot?”

“No. Because you want to remain at Hogwarts and this potion is quite probably the only way you may be allowed to do
that. This potion, and a great deal of convincing of the Ministry by Dumbledore. Yes, Potter, the Dark Lord could indeed
run rampant in you while you are immobilized but you would be beyond moving and injuring anyone else. You claim to have
been able to cast him off when you are awake, and if your little display before was any measure it is certainly quite
possible. Your dream keeper would have only to wake you up and then release you from the body bind when you signal it to
be safe.”

“I’d have to drink that every night?”

Snape sighed. “You really have no sense of potions, do you? No, this is a variant of an enchantment potion. You drink it
the first time and name your dream keeper. The first dose is followed with a second in which your dream keeper has added
some essence. Have Weasley spit in it. From that moment until the enchanting effect is neutralized your keeper controls
your sleeping and waking states with a simple spell.”

Harry hated the very idea of it. He didn’t want to be controlled by or dependent on anyone. He trusted Ron, would
entrust him with his life, but still…

“There has to be another way,” he said.

“Far better minds then yours have been working on this issue ever since you brought it on yourself, Potter. For now,
it’s this or face expulsion from Hogwarts until the Dark Lord is vanquished. Your choice.”

“Professor Dumbledore okayed this?”

Snape sighed. “Potter, why else would I waste my time with it?”

Because you never answered my question? Because you’d enjoy the sight of me writhing to death with the world’s foulest
smelling potion foaming out of my mouth? Because you’re a…

“A what?” snarled Snape.

Oops. He’d really have to learn to keep track of some of the new stuff he was learning this year.

“I can’t just do this. I have to ask Ron’s permission first. What if he doesn’t want the responsibility? I couldn’t
trust just anyone with this. Can I at least ask him first?”

Snape produced a tray and set the two tumblers on it along with a small piece of parchment. “This note has the exact
spells for your dream keeper to use, whomever you should chose. I will be chatting with the fat lady from exactly
midnight until approximately three minutes after the hour. Return the tray to me with both glasses empty or I shall have
to rouse Professor McGonagall and make other arrangements for you tonight. Understood?”

“Yes, sir,” Harry said dully, and took the tray.

This was starting to feel like the longest damn day of his life.

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Harry managed to get the tray through the portrait hole without spilling any of the noxious potion but the smell had so
sickened him along the way that he was seriously doubting his ability to ingest it at all. The common room was mostly
empty; a few sixth and seventh years in scattered in clusters of two or three, talking or studying. Ron and Hermione had
left the table and were ensconced on chairs near the fire; Crookshanks curled like an orange cushion next to his
mistress. He set the tray down on the table and dropped to the floor near Hermione’s feet.

“What did Snape say?” Ron asked.

“I need a keeper.”

“He needs some new material, then. Malfoy’s been saying that since first year.”

Harry sighed. “I mean, I need someone to be my dream keeper. He’s made this variant potion that’s supposed to stupefy me
if Voldemort invades my dreams to possess me. I need someone to direct the spell. He says whoever it is will control
when I sleep or wake up, and decide whether or not to release me if I get stupefied.”

“Harry, are you barking? You’re not going to trust Snape enough to drink that stuff? Even if it’s not poisonous, how do
you know he’d ever wake you back up? You can’t…”

“I have to take it, by midnight, or he’s going to make sure I’m locked up somewhere. He’s coming for the glasses himself
to see I’ve taken it. He said I could play with the werewolves for all he cares, but my bet is he’d chain me up and give
Slytherin the keys if he could. He told me Dumbledore agreed to the potion, so if I have to, I’ll take it. The problem
is who’s going to want to have to be my keeper if I do? I hate it every time Voldemort comes slithering into my head and
there’s nothing I can do about it, how can I ask…”

“I’ll do it,” Hermione cut in. She saw the relief in Harry’s eyes… and Ron’s as well. “What do I need to do?”

“First off, umm, Snape said to spit in the second potion over there.”

Hermione wrinkled her nose as she approached the glasses and gave Harry a ‘the things I do for you…’ look. She crossed
her eyes a moment and then spit into the second potion in the most delicate and lady-like manner she could manage. Ron
and Harry quickly doused their grins as she turned back around.

“He wrote the spells on that piece of parchment on the tray,” Harry told her.

She picked it up and he watched as she read through it. He’d been hoping against hope that she would agree to do it, had
instinctively known that Ron would be uncomfortable both with being responsible for him and the possibility of actually
seeing Voldemort in his eyes.

Harry believed that Ron was far braver at heart than he knew, but there were layers of fear laid down by growing up
wizard that Harry and Hermione had taken on only later, when fear was subject to conviction as much as instinct. A
rather convoluted trail of events over the last five years had brought Harry to the realization that Ron’s fear of
Voldemort had roots that sunk even deeper than their friendship. Ron always came through at the end, but Harry didn’t
feel like he could lie trapped in his dreams with Voldemort running rampant through his head while Ron agonized over
whether to wake him or not. He didn’t blame Ron, but to be completely honest he felt infinitely safer knowing Hermione
was to be the one to watch over him. He believed without doubt that she would not allow her own fear to influence her if
she could help it; he worried more about her fears for him.

If Hermione had the faith to wake him to deal with Voldemort, however, Ron certainly had the strength to hex the crap
out of him if the stupefying effect wasn’t working properly. All in all it was a much better balance this way ‘round.

“What about the safe word to let me know it’s okay to lift the stupefying effect? What do you want to use?” she asked.

“It has to be something simple that he wouldn’t recognize as a safe word, something ordinary. I’m trying to keep him
away from so much I don’t know how to hide anything else. Snape may think my head is empty but it’s awfully crowded when
you’re wrestling Voldemort in it.”

“What about Hedwig? He can’t be very interested in your owl, can he?” Hermione offered.

“What about Crookshanks? Hedwig can be used for messages but that cat’s just bloody useless, there’s nothing Voldemort
could possibly find interesting about him,” Ron suggested.

“What about Ron? As in Ronald Bilius Weasley, unredeemed prat.” Hermione countered.

“I was thinking more along the lines of sugar quill or Honeydukes,” Harry said. “But you’ve given me another idea. How
about the names of both of my best friends? The ones who never bleeding stop arguing over…”

“Chocolate Frog, then,” said Hermione decisively. “Drink the first one Harry, it’s almost midnight.”

Harry forced himself to pick up the first potion, his stomach churning. He closed his eyes and drank, swallowing as fast
and hard as he could. His throat was still somewhat raw from the effects of the Centaur’s poison and the potion felt as
if it was burning its way through him. Polyjuice would seem like pumpkin juice after this nastiness. He finished,
sickened and gasping.

Hermione gave him the parchment. “You say the first bit.”

Harry gagged out the words indicating he was the willing caster of the spell and naming Hermione as the one who would
watch over his dreams.

“Now you need to drink the second one.” Hermione told him.

“Don’t know if I can,” he groaned.

“Fast is the way,” Ron advised. “Down in one.”

Harry lifted the glass to his lips, closed his eyes and drank as Hermione began her half of the incantation. It… wasn’t
half bad? In fact, it tasted kind of sweet, almost vanilla-ish. And there was something else, cinnamon, he thought.
Pleasant enough, delicious, even. He finished the whole thing almost without noticing, stared wonderingly at the dregs
in the bottom of the tumbler. He’d seen Snape draw them from the same cauldron, the only difference between the two was…
Hermione’s essence. Her spit, to be exact. Who knew Hermione had such excellent tasting spit? Well, actually, come to
think of it, he should have, but … Wow.

“Harry, it’s midnight. Didn’t you have to give those back to Snape?” Hermione asked, rousing him from his thoughts. He
hurriedly set the second glass on the tray and took it to the portrait hole. When he stepped outside Snape was already
turning away.

“Professor,” Harry called after him, and Snape turned back. Harry thought he looked disappointed. He took the tray from
Harry’s hands, eyeing him intently.

“Mind you have someone to wake Weasley as well,” he said at last. “I wouldn’t want you to be late for class tomorrow.”

“I… we… unh. We’ll be there on time,” Harry managed. Snape headed down the stairs in a flourish of robes.

‘Why didn’t I tell him?’ Harry wondered. ‘I probably shouldn’t have, but I was going to say that it was Hermione, and I…
couldn’t. Why?’

He turned back toward the Common room.

“Password?” the fat lady asked waspishly, clearly annoyed at this disturbance of her sleep. Her hair was in curlers and
some sort of chalky white substance was spread thickly beneath her eyes.

“Oh for god’s sake, I haven’t been three feet away since I came out!” Harry muttered.

“I’ve heard all about you, Mister. One minute you’re Harry Potter, Boy Who Lived, and the next you’re He Who Must Not Be
Named! I’m taking no chances with you. Password, or no entrance.”

“Hurling Hinkypunks. Happy?”

“Delirious,” she pronounced sarcastically, and opened to admit him.

He returned to Ron and Hermione, still before the fire. He dropped back down to the floor, rubbing his eyes tiredly. “So
what do we do now?” he asked. After a moment when he realized that neither had answered he left off and hurriedly opened
his eyes again, finding his two friends silently glaring.

What now?

“Ron and I are just having a little discussion about the best way to handle the logistics of the spell.”

“Okay?” Harry said, still unsure of the problem.

“We didn’t really think this through when I said I’d direct the spell, Harry, but you and I actually sleep in different
dorms, remember? And while I think that Neville and Seamus and Dean could be convinced to cooperate for the sake of
peace and safety, Ron here isn’t happy about me staying in your room to check on you. What he THOUGHT was going to
happen, I don’t know. I think he was just so happy that he wasn’t going to have to deal with it that he stopped thinking
altogether.”

That would of course make two of them, because Harry hadn’t actually considered how Hermione was going to put him to
sleep or wake him up from the girls’ dorm either.  ‘Brilliant, Potter! Wait, did she just say she thought Neville and
Seamus and Dean would… ‘

He looked at Ron.

“All right, it’s one thing having the two of you feel the need kiss like dementors if you’re going to be out of sight
for five minutes, I can deal with that if I have too, I guess, but I didn’t know I was going to be signing on for having
her as a room mate as well. It’s a boys’ room, Hermione, where we can do boy stuff without having to explain everything.
You’re going to start telling us to clean up and make sure our socks get in the laundry and stop talking and go to
sleep. And talking? How can we talk about guy stuff with you there? Not just Quidditch, mind you, which you hate, but
about… “

“The enemy? Girls? The invaders? Don’t tell me you actually talk about us in between Quidditch matches and insulting
each other? Afraid I’m going to squeal all your deepest, darkest secrets to the other girls? Like I care, Ron. Grow up.”

Ron looked like his head was going to explode.

Harry thought his might have already done, from the feel of it. “Ron, I’m sorry. I didn’t exactly think it through,
either. Look, I’ll go and get my stuff and sleep down here on the sofa, okay? Let’s just get through tonight and deal
with the rest of it tomorrow. Please?”

Ron rose without a word and collected his book satchel. Harry caught Hermione’s eye. “Meet you back here in five?” he
mouthed, holding up five fingers questioningly. Her lips were pressed in one grim line, but she nodded and headed off
toward the girls stairs. Harry followed Ron up the stairs to their room.

“Look, Ron, I really am sorry about this…”

Ron whirled on him as soon as they’d cleared the door. “Didn’t really think this through? DIDN’T REALLY THINK THIS
THROUGH? When in Merlin’s name has SHE ever not thought something through? She knew exactly what she was doing, Harry.”

“You mean agreeing to cope with me when I happen to wake up as a creepy homicidal maniac? I hope so… At least she’s
dealt with it before.”

“No, I mean worming her way in here! She knew exactly what it meant. It’s just a perfect excuse to sleep with you every
night.”

“Whoa,” said Seamus. “Who’s sleeping with Harry, now?”

“It’s not what it…’ Harry started.

“Hermione!” Ron turned to Seamus and Dean. Seamus had just returned from a shower and was rummaging through his trunk
for pajamas and Dean was sitting on the end of his bed threading a new shoe lace through the holes of his trainers.
“She’s fixed it so that the only way to keep Voldemort from possessing Harry is her sleeping in here with him!”

Dean looked at Seamus, who grinned back. “She’s good, that one. She’s finally turned that mind of hers to something
worthwhile and come up aces.”

Harry gave up and began peeling off his own clothes.

“It’s not funny!” Ron insisted. “Think about it! She’ll be after you clean up that volcanic pile of crap in the corner,
Thomas, and as for you, Finnigan, you’ve got activities of your own that will need to be left off before she shares with
the rest of the school whose name you’re gasping out over there.”

“On the other hand,” Seamus pointed out with a laugh, “if she’s to be here, and I’m just guessing this may not be a
school-sanctioned activity, what’s to stop the rest of us entertaining occasionally?”

“Erm… human decency?” Harry offered pulling a clean t shirt on over his head. “Not to burst your bubble, or anything,
but it’s not like Ron’s making it sound. I’ve got to use a sleep controlling potion that Snape made up, and Hermione has
to be the one to make sure that I wake up without Voldemort in tow, so she has to be there when I fall asleep and wake
up. If any of you want to trade places I’m all for it, but since I can’t control a single bleeding thing in my life
anymore it’s not that likely.”

“So here’s a thought,” he said. He slammed the top of his school trunk down and faced them, his expression fierce. “You
three might consider thanking her for taking on a job no one else would want and welcome her in here with big smiles and
shut mouths if you know what’s good for you. Especially you, Seamus, your mum didn’t want you to come back last year, if
she hears about all this I expect you’re right out. The first one of you that says anything out of line to Hermione, or
says a word about what she’s doing to anyone outside of the four of us or Neville, they’ll have to deal with me. And
I’ve learned some hexes in “remedial DADA” that you might want to think long and hard about taking on. Any questions?”

“Harry? I won’t say a word. Really. It’s fine with me,” Neville’s voice quavered from behind his bed hangings.

“Sorry Neville. Didn’t know you were there. I’ll be off, then.” Harry went to brush his teeth, leaving stunned silence
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Hermione was waiting downstairs when he got there. Her hair had been tamed into a night-time braid and she had books and
parchment piled and scattered across the floor.

“So it will look like we fell asleep studying if anyone finds us,” she explained seriously.

He flopped onto the sofa beside her, exhausted. He couldn’t imagine having the energy left to dream tonight. “I think
I’ve fixed it with the rest of them for tomorrow night,” he told her.

“You were afraid to tell Ron about us because you thought he was in love with me,” she said softly. “The jealousy you
forgot was how much he loves you.”

“Hermione, I may be dense about a lot of things, but Ron is definitely not… that way.”

Hermione rolled her eyes and crawled closer across the sofa. “Not that kind of love, Harry. I mean, you didn’t count on
how important your friendship is to him. Not just as a part of the three of us, but you and him. I think he’s afraid
that I’m going to try to take up all your time and attention, to take you away from him.”

“You won’t, though,” Harry said softly. He stopped there, but “will you?” seemed to reverberate between them. They both
knew that she probably could.

“I don’t want to change you, Harry. Why would I? I love you this way. I didn’t look across a crowded room and think,
‘hmm, that one’s nice.’ Not that I wouldn’t think that, mind you, but your loyalty to your friends is one of the reasons
I came to love you in the first place. Why would I try to wreck it for you and Ron?”

It began to occur to Harry then how lucky he really was, He remembered the feeling he’d had kissing her in the
infirmary, the sense of how loving her simplified so many things. One of them was explaining things; he’d never have to
take time to explain his friendship with Ron, how torn he’d feel if he had to choose between them. It would happen
sooner or later, he did know that, but far later than it would with anyone else and for that he was grateful. He didn’t
know how long he had left before… He only knew he didn’t want to regret, to have wasted it.

He let his head roll toward her against the back of the sofa and met her eyes. “Thank you.” His brain enumerated all the
things he felt grateful for; agreeing to act as his dream keeper, understanding about Ron, saving his family jewels from
Malfoy’s wand in the cave, stunning him when he needed to be stunned. For loving him at all, despite his inescapable
destiny as Voldemort’s plaything. No, his executioner. He had to start believing that, accepting that, if he was
promising to love her. Tentatively he gathered all his scattered feelings and cast a mental legilimens. Once connected
he was most careful not to intrude, but to pause at the door of her consciousness, as it were, and deposit his feelings
of love and gratitude on the mat, knock once, and retreat.

Watching her eyes widen and grow almost opaque with inwardly turned curiosity as she undid his little mental bundle and
examined the contents was intense. He reminded himself to breathe, waiting for her to react.

“Harry?” she whispered. “What was that? What did you just do?”

“I don’t know, exactly. If it has a name I don’t know what it is, no one taught me how to do it. I used legilimens - but
not to see what you’re thinking or anything, just to sort of open your mind. Then I left you some of my thoughts where
you could find them.”

She closed the distance between them, settling against his side and kissing him softly just where his jawbone began
beneath his ear.

“They were very nice thoughts, Harry. Thank you.”

“It’s not particularly useful,” he admitted. “It takes a fair amount of concentration and it’s very limited. I would
never try to … I wouldn’t ever do what Snape can do, just pushing your way into someone else’s mind… your mind. I
wouldn’t, ever. Just so you know.”

“I trust you,” Hermione said simply.

Harry felt himself pushed gently sideways onto the arm of the sofa and Hermione crawled up beside him. She touched her
wand to his forehead and murmured the incantation to activate the potion’s charm for sleep.

“It won’t make you fall asleep,” she explained. “It just gives you permission that it’s safe to sleep now. You still
have to get sleepy by yourself.”

“Not a problem.” Harry yawned. He drew his legs up on to the cushions. Hermione settled down beside him and he reached
for her, drawing her close. There was a moment’s awkwardness as they jostled about to find comfortable places for extra
limbs; one of her legs slipped between his and he shifted his hip so that it wasn’t jutting her, their hands slid about
seeking resting places on territory neither had really had the chance to fully explore. If he wasn’t so very tired,
Harry reflected, it would have been frustrating as hell.

It was the last thing he thought that night.

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11. Chapter 11

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 11

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The spells were coming at him fast and furious, from every side. He was trying to keep up, but he couldn’t; he managed
to shield himself, to dodge and duck, but he could do nothing to attack back. His brain seemed to be moving too slow,
always a moment or two after the action. He thought of the appropriate counter-curse only after the curse itself had
passed or ricocheted off whatever he could find to hide behind. He was a mouse to the Death Eaters’ cats, scurrying and
hiding. He’d never get anywhere this way; he had to fight back, to take control. ‘Wait,’ his tired brain shouted. ‘Hang
on! Time Out!’

‘This isn’t Quidditch, baby Potter,’ Bellatrix hissed, appearing suddenly around the pillar he was hiding behind. ‘No
Time Outs for you. Crucio!’

And she meant it. She must have been saving up a whole backlog of hatred and resentment just for the occasion. Harry
felt it hit him like a thousand knives piercing him at every nerve point. He tried to scream but the sound was trapped
in his throat, gagging him. He fell back, driven by the blades of pain. He fell, and kept falling and falling, never
reaching the floor. He was weightless, floating. He wanted to go down, away from Bellatrix and the pain but knew somehow
the way out was up, safety was above him. He fought back through the knives, kicking and flailing as if towards the
surface of water, bursting through, sucking air into his pierced, empty lungs.

Awake. He hit the floor with a solid thud that knocked the hard-won air right out of him.

Hermione’s wand was pointed at him and her eyes were frightened. He realized he was moving and she was prepared to stun
him, convinced the potion hadn’t worked.

“Chocolate Frog,” he croaked. “Hermione, it’s only me.”

Her relief was instant and apparent; she lowered her wand, hand shaking. “What happened? Why weren’t you… I don’t think
it’s working, Harry.”

“Just a dream,” he told her betweens great gasps of air. “Not him.”

“That was a dream? Just a dream? Is that really how you dream when he’s not making you?” she asked. She looked stricken
and he felt suddenly shamed, the odd boy out again.

“I was losing the battle. I couldn’t remember the right spells; I was just running and hiding like a little kid. I
thought if they would just stop for a minute, just one minute, I could get my head together, do something. The scary
part was how stupid and useless I was. And yes, that’s how I dream when he’s not controlling me,” he said, pushing
himself slowly up from the floor.

“Oh, Harry, I… That’s…” she started.

“Don’t,” he told her fiercely from his hands and knees, afraid to look at her face. “Please. I don’t need your pity. I
hate that.”

“I don’t pity you, Harry. I love you. There’s a difference, you know,” she said. She reached out and took his hand as he
rose, gently pulling him toward the sofa. “You’re in trouble now. You may get to snog me, but I get to feel bad for you.
That’s the way it works.”

She scooted on to her knees, threaded her arms around his neck and kissed him once, softly and chastely, catching the
corner of his mouth. “That’s because I’m sorry,” she said simply. And then she kissed him again. It didn’t take him long
to notice the difference; this time was full speed ahead, lips against his, fingers splayed through his hair,
wait-I-have-to-breathe-oh!- never-mind nice. Her tongue slipped smoothly over his and he felt his jaw relax of its own
accord. He brought his own arms around her and felt her hands slide round to rest against his chest. They felt lovely
and warm through his t shirt, but so small somehow. He covered one with his own, larger, longer fingered and rougher.
When exactly had that happened? When exactly had she grown so lovely, so soft, so… different? This was Hermione, he’d
spent almost every day with her for a good three-quarters of the year since they were eleven. How could he have missed
this? He wanted a time turner, to go back already knowing what he was learning now and to watch it happen. Her other
hand began to slide down from his chest, setting off a sort of portkey sensation in his stomach and a distinct straining
in his groin. He shifted his hips toward her helpfully, renewed the intensity of the kiss with his own tongue and…

“See what I mean? I knew that this whole thing was just a giant snog plot.” Ron’s voice came from behind them over the
sofa. “You’d better get a move on unless you want to scare the firsties.”

Hermione surfaced abruptly, eyes flying open. “Oh my gosh, we’ve got Potions!” She scrambled off him and flew up the
stairs towards the girls rooms, leaving Harry feeling cold wherever her warmth had been. He let his head fall back
against the arm of the sofa, trying to catch his breath.

“Hop it, mate. Breakfast is calling,” his red-headed room mate told him, refusing to meet his eyes.

Harry found that he was actually feeling quite hungry for a change.

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Breakfast was okay. No one accused Harry of anything untoward and none of the first years cried when he walked past.
Hermione was quietly happy, humming tunelessly as she perused the Daily Prophet and Ron warmed up considerably when
Harry pointed out that one of Ravenclaw’s new beaters seemed to have had a close encounter with a bludger. “Brilliant!”
he enthused, eying the third year’s multi-colored bruising. “That will slow them up a bit. He’ll be cringing every time
anyone swings!”

Hermione mumbled something about good sportsmanship and three year olds into her paper, but only Harry heard her.

Potions was never okay, and Snape was not feeling particularly well disposed toward Harry after the previous evenings’
exchange.

“Today we will be working on determining antidotes. Quite often when dealing with cases of magical poisoning speed is of
the essence. Time in which to aid the victim may sometimes be extended by concocting a bridging antidote that halts or
slows the worst of the symptoms until the full or proper antidotes may be administered. Bridging antidotes may be made
of some very common ingredients under hurried circumstances. An excellent example could be made of the potion Mr. Malfoy
concocted when Mr. Potter made the first years’ mistake of tangling with a loaded Centaur.”

Harry heard a small whistling sound, like a tea kettle beginning to boil. It seemed to be coming from somewhere inside
his head.

“Tell us, Mr. Malfoy, how did you determine which ingredients you would use?”

Malfoy smiled silkily. “I remembered you teaching us some of the properties of the poison the Centaurs’ favor. I knew
that the effect was to kill the half wit, er, victim through muscle convulsions leading to strangulation. The
peculiarity to the poison was that any modulating potion or antidote has to be given through the wound to follow the
poison’s path into the blood stream. You can’t use anything that would coagulate the blood or cause the wound to heal
over, or the antidote ingredients would then become useless. Clever on the Centaur’s part, because the wizard who uses a
healing charm on himself signs his own death warrant. My personal opinion is we should just eradicate the beasts.
Anyway, given the probable symptoms and the ingredients readily available in the pouring rain in Centaur infested woods
in the dark, the choice was easy.”

“Twenty points to Slytherin. Mr. Longbottom, what common ingredient in the Forbidden Forest would act as a binder
without causing an undue degree of blood coagulation?”

Neville blushed and stammered out, “St. John’s Wort root would work, but using the leaves or stems in quantity would
cause the victim to bleed to death.”

Snape sneered. “A pedestrian choice as always, Longbottom. Mr. Malfoy used willow as an anticoagulant agent and wild
valerian for its anticonvulsive properties …

“But it was a mistake to risk using valerian on Harry! The delivery through the wound increases the risk of paralysis or
weakened heart rhythm. Why would you when you’d have Arisaema rhizome all over the place? Jack in the Pulpit. If the
root is cooked it’s analgesic, only mildly sedative and a powerful anticonvulsive. Unless of course you wanted your
victim in pain and as helpless as possible to leave him a sitting duck for You Know Who.”

There was a full moments’ stunned silence. Even Neville seemed shocked.

“I said that out loud, didn’t I?” he squeaked.

Snape’s black eyes glittered. “Are you insinuating, Mr. Longbottom, that Mr. Malfoy tried to…”

“Hurt Harry to make it easier for You Know Who to get at him? Sounds like a Malfoy move to me.” Dean Thomas volunteered,
eyeing the Slytherin darkly.

Harry’s eyes met Hermione’s. He shook his head. She nudged him with her foot. He closed his eyes and let his forehead
slump to the desk.

“I shall start with twenty points from Gryffindor for Mr. Longbottoms’ technically correct but libelous suggestion that
…”

Nudge!

Son of a…

“He was, unh, genuinely doing his best to keep me alive, Neville. Dean. Really.” Harry sighed.

“Keep out of it, scarhead!” Draco sneered. “What do you know? You couldn’t have brewed that potion if it came in a
bottle.”

Okay, so did the slimy bastard want Harry to defend him to the Gryffindors while condemning him to every Voldemort
supporting Slytherin in the room, or did he want him to make him out as the evil git he usually was, pleasing the
Slytherins and pissing off the Gryffindors? How the hell was he supposed to know? Well Malfoy could just bloody well
sink or swim on his own then. Jerk.

“To be followed by another twenty points for Mr. Thomas’ pointless but equally slanderous rejoinder,” Snape continued.

“Draco, why did you make that potion? Wouldn’t it have been better to just let it die in the woods?” Pansy Parkinson
asked, her dark eyes on Harry from across the room. He could feel her total disdain; to dislike him she would have to
admit he was human first.

“I had my reasons,” Malfoy said mysteriously, but Harry could have sworn he heard a tinge of panic in his voice.

“Ohhhhh,” Pansy said with deliberate understanding.

“Which one was it, that you’re a total prat, or a total liar?” Hermione asked conversationally.

“Twenty more points for Miss Granger’s outrageous audacity,” Snape added.

‘Don’t you mean outrageous stating of the truth?’ Harry hurled silently and mentally at Snape. ‘Whose side are you on
here? Whose side are you ever on? Do you even know?’

“And a final twenty points for Mr. Potter’s insolence!” Snape snarled.

“Harry never said a word!” Pavarti broke in, outraged. “You can’t take twenty house points when he never said anything!
That’s unfair even from you!”

“Very well, Miss Patil,” Snape turned on her. “The twenty points can be for you… for defending Potter. And unless anyone
has anything else both relevant and intelligent to say about antidotes or bridging potions you will SHUT your mouths for
the remainder of the class period. Understood?”

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“Eighty house points! Eighty! In one class!” McGonagall said, her voice shaking with thinly suppressed outrage. “No, I
don’t want to hear your reasons, Mr. Thomas. No matter what they are, they do not justify the kind of behavior that
costs your house mates eighty house points. All I can say is that had better be one impressive Quidditch game tomorrow.
Goodness!” She huffed off to the teachers table, leaving the Gryffindors to their lunches.

“Bloody Snape. And Malfoy, useless leach. I’ve never been so glad I didn’t exceed expectations on the Potions O.W.L.”
Ron groaned, “I can’t believe we have to spend three hours with him tonight.”

“He probably won’t show. He said he wasn’t going to do it,” Hermione pointed out.

“Dumbledore seemed fairly serious about it.” Harry said gloomily. “He’ll be there. It would hardly be a punishment
without him. Admit it, Hermione, a part of your brain has been working away at it ever since last night. Have you worked
it out yet?”

“I have a few ideas,” she said airily. “This is only my second detention ever, and I fully intend to get to the bottom
of this riddle.”

“They don’t give Head Girl points for best detention, Hermione.” Harry told her with a grin.

“I’ve handed over my prefects’ badge after breaking no less than thirteen school rules with you and Malfoy. You do
realize my only other detention was because of you and Malfoy also? First year, Norbert the dragon, traipsing through
the Forbidden Forest? Have we learned nothing? Remember how Filch told us he missed hanging students from chains in his
office? The way we’re going he’ll get his wish to bring that back even without Umbridge running things. I’m probably
going to break at least another twenty or thirty as your dream keeper, Harry. I’m hardly in the running for Head Girl
anymore,” she sighed.

Harry felt for her hand beneath the table’s edge and twined his fingers tentatively with hers.

“Sorry about that,” he said softly.

She shook her head and smiled faintly. “I told you in the infirmary, Harry. It’s okay. I think I’m ready for more
important things. It just doesn’t matter so much anymore.”

“Did I just hear Hermione ‘killed – or worse, expelled!’ Granger say being Head Girl didn’t really matter?” Ron asked,
dumbfounded.

“Yes, Ron. You did. But I still think getting to class on time is important, so you and I had best get going to DADA.
We’ll see you at dinner, Harry. Be careful.” And for the first time ever, yet with an air of nonchalance as if she’d
been doing it for years, she kissed him as she left the table. Nothing more than fingers steadying his chin and a soft
brush of her lips against his, but he realized from the surreptitious looks passed along the rest of the Gryffindor
table that the cat was irrevocably out of the bag. And it felt bloody alright. He tried to keep the silly grin from his
face as he finished his lunch but it kept coming back whenever his thoughts came back to her. He almost didn’t notice
Ginny sit down beside him. She waved a hand before his eyes.

“Oh. Hey, Gin.”

“What are you so happy about? I heard we lost eighty house points to Snape this morning, I didn’t expect to find you
quite so chipper,” she replied, setting in to her lunch.

“Useless wanker,” Harry said, shrugging. “Doesn’t matter what I do anymore, he’ll find a way to take points for it.
Reckon I could come up with a new formula for the Sorcerer’s Stone and he’d still dock me points.”

“That’s Professor Useless Wanker to you, but you’re probably right. So,” she continued briskly, “what’s up with you and
Hermione, if I may be so bold as to ask?”

“You may. And as Ron’s little sister I’ll tell you nothing.”

“What about as one of your many admirers?”

“As my own little-sister-I-never-had I find that equally out of the question.”

“Gods, Harry, the last thing I need is another brother.”

“No,” he said. “The last thing you need is Draco Malfoy.”

She froze for a moment, the blink of an eye, but Harry noticed.

“What are you on about now?”

“You heard me.”

“She just couldn’t keep her mouth shut, could she,” Ginny said angrily, two spots of red staining her fair Weasley
cheeks.

“She could. Don’t go blaming Hermione. He couldn’t. Quite full of himself, actually. I don’t remember it all so well,
but a few things stand right out.”

“You get shot by a Centaur’s arrow, nearly die from the poison, find yourself possessed by Voldemort and the thing you
remember about the experience is that Draco Malfoy doesn’t actually despise a Weasley? You really are a little strange
Harry.”

‘Doesn’t actually despise’? What the hell did that mean given what Malfoy was hinting at? What had he done to her?

It was the end of the lunch hour; the Great Hall had mostly emptied. Harry’s special DADA instruction didn’t start for
another half an hour. “What class do you have now?” he asked, realizing with regret that his good mood had mostly
evaporated.

“I have a free period. I do double Herbology after this. Why?”

“Let’s take this outside, okay?”

“Why?” she asked again, mulishly this time.

“Because it’s safer. Because I don’t want to talk about it in here.”

“What if I don’t want to talk to you about it at all, Harry. In here or out there. Anywhere as a matter of fact.”

He breathed deeply and raised his eyes to the ceiling, staring for a moment at the enchanted sky.

“Fine. It’s your line to draw, I guess. Just don’t expect me to support you or cover for you with Ron when you won’t
even talk to me. I’d just as soon forget the whole thing myself, it makes me ill to think about, but he’s my best
friend, your whole family has been so good to me. I’d never betray them, and I think that potentially you are.”

“How dare you!” she hissed at him.

“See, this is why I want to do this outside. You can take a swing at me and call me names and then maybe we can get to
the bottom of it.”

“I’m starting to see what he means about you!” she said quietly, not looking at him.

He grabbed his book bag and stood up. He was seeing red, and it wasn’t her hair. “After everything we’ve… after…” he
stopped, unable to believe what he was hearing. He pushed down the never-too-far image of her lying, dieing on the
Chamber floor, and what he’d had to do to save her. “Fine, Ginny. It’s your life. Do what you want.” He left without
looking back, heading blindly for his next class.

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Advanced level DADA at Hogwarts this year was being taught by a rotating draft of teachers. There were many cracks about
no one wanting to take the accursed position, but after the Umbridge debacle the Ministry was only too happy to let
Dumbledore do what he wanted with the job. Teaching in shifts, Dumbledore assured the Board, would be the quickest way
to make up lost ground from Umbridges’ open book classes, allowing the students to work with a range of teaching styles.
In reality, it allowed the Headmaster to fulfill his promise to Harry of practical instruction in advanced defense – and
by default, offense – by rigorous, exhaustive dueling practice with a variety of opponents. It also ensured that he had
experience with those on the forefront of the movement without removing them from their positions for long; members of
the Order of the Phoenix and a number of Aurors, both active and retired were signed on in shifts. Some taught regular
classes, others quietly taught only Harry in a tightly warded classroom off the hallway to Dumbledore’s office. The
general assumption all the way round was that Dumbledore wanted to keep Harry’s progress a secret; the only debate was
whether it was because he was strengthening, or because he wasn’t.

Harry’s opponent this afternoon turned out to be a surprise. He was expecting Mad Eye, who often came to work with Harry
but avoided the regular DADA classes (“They all look at me like I’m about to turn into Barty Jr. again. They lose their
concentration then and it’s too easy to stun the little buggers. Someone needs to teach them about constant vigilance,
but it’s not gonna be me.”) Harry found instead Bill Weasley waiting for him outside the door to the classroom. His long
red ponytail was singed at the bottom and an ugly red welt ran up his right forearm from wrist to elbow.

“Hullo, Harry,” he said with a grin.

“Bill!” Harry wasn’t entirely sure whether to be happy (he admired Bill greatly and dueling with him would be the real
deal; while not an Auror, Bill had had some pretty wild experiences as a Gringott’s Curse Breaker and was a full fledged
member of the Order of the Phoenix) or disconcerted (yet another Weasley brother to keep the Ginny problem from, and
Ginny’s favorite no less...)

“I saw a bit too much action and they’ve given me a few weeks off.” Bill told him. “I just arrived this afternoon. How’s
Ron doing?”

“Erm, okay.”

“Dumbledore told me about your… well, about what happened in the Forest.”

“Pretty dumb, I know,” Harry admitted, ducking his head.

Bill opened the door to the classroom and led the way inside.

“I heard that Crabbe and Goyle told you that they’d left Hermione in the Forest.”

“They drew a picture. A kind of cartoon with her tied to a tree calling my name.”

Bill shut the door. “Well, I would have gone. Who’s gonna take that chance? What was up with the Dark Wanker possessing
you?”

Maybe it was gratitude left over from his appearance just when Harry needed him at the Dursleys’ over the summer. Maybe
it was because Harry thought Bill was, for lack of a better description, cool. Maybe it was just because Bill occupied
the territory between true adults like Arthur and Molly or Dumbledore and the painful neverland of sixteen when
seventeen was the age of independence. Whatever it was, Harry found himself spilling the whole story, not just seeking
out Voldemort’s altered state to slow his own poisoning but the realizations about Hermione as well, the possibility
that he was meant to renew the protection his mother had given him by loving someone else.

“I don’t know what I’m doing, but she seems okay with it – so far,” Harry ended.

“Hermione’s nobody’s fool, Harry. She’s not going to like the implication that you love her enough to die for her if you
have to, but you can only do what’s up to you. She’ll do what she thinks is right in the end. With luck the two will
have something in common.”

“Yeah,” Harry said. “I guess. So are we going to duel?”

Bill laughed. “Oh yeah. No holds barred and all that. No going easy on an old man, okay? What are you working on?”

“Blasting Curses.”

“On second thought, go easy on the old man for a couple of days yet, okay? Flabra or Abiciectum?”

“Abiciectum, actually.”

“On three then?”

Harry nodded.

Bill counted to three and felt himself flung against the far wall of the classroom with a blast that would have blown
apart the Death Eater who’d slashed his arm. His own spell was still stumbling off his lips. “Alright, then,” he said,
climbing stiffly to his feet. “This time I’m not going to go so easy on you!”

Harry grinned.

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They met to work on the riddle in the library, as they had planned.

There was no sign of Malfoy.

“We won’t worry about him,” Hermione decided. “Professor Dumbledore said he’d know if the three of you were leaving all
of the work to me to play Quidditch, he’ll know Draco’s ditched us. He’ll handle it.”

Harry and Ron exchanged looks. They’d both just as soon see Dumbledore leave well enough alone. Much as Harry’d like
Malfoy to be punished, it was infinitely less annoying not having to deal with him.

Hermione handed them each a sheet of parchment with the sorting hat’s poem written out on it, triple spaced.

“So we can write in our thoughts about what each line means and where to look,” she explained.

“D’nno you needed to leave quite that much room,” Ron said glumly. “I never did get poetry.”

“Let’s just try the first bit,” Hermione instructed briskly. Harry looked at his parchment.

“Seek me when the one who lives
Has passed the Centaur’s test;
Four again must walk these halls
And wake me from my rest.”

“Do you think we ought to look for records of witches or wizards who survived Centaur attacks?” he asked. “It might well
not be me.”

“I did, Harry,” Hermione told him. “Encounters with Centaurs aren’t terribly common, you know. In 1811 they refused
‘being’ status and asked to be categorized as beasts. They don’t like wizards any better than muggles and they normally
stay well away from both. Only four wizards have been targets of actual Centaur attacks in the last one hundred and
eighty-five years. None of them survived. I think it’s got to be you.”

Harry groaned. “Of course it is. If there’s some barmy old poem about wrath and evil that grows, I’m in it.”

“It just says four, it doesn’t say anything about Malfoy.” Ron pointed out. “Maybe we could get Dean or Neville or
someone else to help us. Someone who won’t stab us in the back or send their Dad in to bite us.”

“What’s puzzling me is that is says four again must walk these halls. Who were the first four? Do you suppose it means
the four founders, or someone else? And if it meant the four founders, does it mean the four should be from each of the
different houses?” Hermione thought aloud. “Did Dumbledore really believe we were actually the right four or did we just
happen to be convenient guinea pigs because of the detention?”

“Moot point if it’s actually just the three of us,” Ron pointed out.

“’Wake me from my rest.’ Something is asleep in the castle? What sleeps for hundreds of years?” Harry asked.

“The basilisk slept for almost that long, except when it was living off the vermin. I wonder what keeps the rat
population under control down there now since you did it in, Harry.” Ron wondered.

“Ew, Ron.” Hermione wrinkled her nose. “We’re getting side-tracked. If you’ll just look at your parchments you’ll see
I’ve noted the key things we need to identify. First is the pageless story. How is a story told without pages?”

“What if it was a medieval knight that lost his pages? You know, his…” Ron’s face fell at Hermione’s steady gaze.

“A medieval knight, Ron, is not round.”

“It doesn’t say it’s round, does it? It says ‘within my circle spins.’ It could be a tower, or the round table. How
about that, Miss Smarty Pants.”

“And I suppose the ‘rose that never dies’ is in a vase on the round table, along with tea for four? “ Hermione asked.

“Don’t need to be so superior, Hermione. What’s your theory?”

“I don’t exactly have one, not yet. That doesn’t mean I can’t spot a bad one, mind you. My plan is to split up and
gather more information. First, someone needs to find out about what kind of rose never dies. If we don’t find anything
in the Herbology section, one of us can ask Professor Sprout. Or perhaps Hagrid, he might know if it’s something magical
that’s been grown around the castle. Second is the pageless story. There must be references in the library about charms
to relate stories. Think about it; the hat told us a sort of story without pages after its’ written form was erased. And
third, about that stone inscription that was wiped out from the hall under Divination. I think we need to find out more
about that. Who wrote something over it? What did it say? Why did the person who cleaned up the message use a spell or
cleaner so strong it could wipe out etched stone?”

“Probably Filch, wishing he could use it on the kid who wrote on the wall.” Harry said. “He’s been around for a million
years, but he’s not going to tell us anything. Who else would know?”

“Maybe Professor Trelawney? She wouldn’t have been here, but it happened on her patch. She might have heard of it from
one of the other teachers.” Ron suggested.

“Who else would know who actually has a clue what she’s talking about?” Hermione replied darkly. “I’m not wasting time
on that old faker. Imagine what she could come up with.”

“Wait a minute,” Harry said. “I really, really hate to say this, but what about Hogwarts, a History? Didn’t Dumbledore
say something about starting there?”

There was a moment’s stunned silence from both Hermione and Ron.

“For the love of Merlin stop kissing her while you still can, mate.” Ron grinned. “It’s catching.”

“My personal copy is the most recent edition, but the library one should do just fine for this, we’re looking back
hundreds of years after all. I can’t believe I got so caught up in the poem that I forgot what Dumbledore said! I don’t
remember anything exactly like what we’re looking for, but then I wasn’t looking for it, either. ..” Hermione murmured,
already lost. She moved unerringly across the room and went to the exact place on the exact shelf where the book was
kept, extracted it and made her way back toward their table, flipping through the pages. She sat down and began reading,
but looked up after a moment. “What are you two waiting for? Get started on the Herbology section. You need to find us a
rose that never dies.”

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Madam Pince finally shooed them out of the library late in the evening and they made their way wearily back to the
Gryffindor Common room.

Hermione left them at the portrait hole to return a borrowed book to Susan Bones, turning down offers to accompany her
from both boys. “I’m quicker without you, and I want to think through the facts of the poem again,” she told them. “I
keep feeling like there’s something obvious we’re missing.”

“Obviously whoever wrote the bloody thing was off his rocker, is what I think,” Ron yawned. “Won’t bother saying good
night. I suppose we’ll be seeing you upstairs when you get back.”

Hermione intensified her glare at him and jerked her head toward the Fat Lady. “Ha Ha, Ronald. Very funny. Good night.”

“Erm, ‘night Hermione,” Harry said clearly.

“Parting is such sweet sorrow,” the Fat Lady told them, “Speed it along, will you? I want to get back to sleep.
Shouldn’t the three of you have graduated? You’ve put ten years on me, already.”

“Looks more like twenty to me,” Ron observed as he passed through. The portrait slammed abruptly, sending him careening
into Harry.

“Smooth, Ron. Don’t forget anything tomorrow, because my bet is you won’t be getting back in without flowers and ‘you
look absolutely fabulous, honestly’ as your password.” Harry advised him.

“I vote Sir Cadogan back. He was weird, but he wasn’t moody.”

The two trailed through the nearly empty Common room to the stairs and up to their dormitory. Neville was already in his
pajamas, reading on his bed with his mimbulus mimbletonia beside him.

“Likes a good bedtime story, does it Nev?” Ron asked.

“It’s supposed to be good to let them become accustomed to your voice,” Neville informed them earnestly. “They can learn
to differentiate stimuli. Then they won’t spray you accidentally; they know you’re not threatening.”

Harry and Ron each took a step back. Having received a mouthful of stinksap on the Hogwarts Express the previous year
Harry was in no hurry to repeat the experience.

“It makes an excellent watch plant, though!” Neville beamed fondly at the little cactus. “Is Hermione really going to
sleep in here Harry? Because if she is, we’ll want to get Mimble used to her as well.”

“Ahh, Neville, what’s the, er, range of that… Mimble?” Harry asked cautiously.

“Six to eight feet. Why?”

Harry eyed the distance from Neville’s bed to his own, glad that Ron was between them. He supposed with the hangings
closed they were all safe enough from a direct spray, but the smell…

“She’ll only be here last thing at night and gone first thing in the morning,” Harry said. Ron snorted into his trunk
and Harry threw a trainer at him. “I bet Mimble will hardly know she’s here. Remember, Neville, it’s a secret Hermione’s
to be here at all. I’ve already gotten her the detention from hell; I can’t get her into any more trouble.”

“I won’t say a word Harry. Honestly.”

“Thanks, Neville. And thanks for this morning, in Potions. Sorry about the points and all.”

“Well, I did wonder, when I heard what happened. It could have been a coincidence, I suppose. The thing is Malfoy’s
actually really good at potions but he doesn’t usually pay much attention in Herbology. Valerian is best known as a
sleep inducer. It’s better recognized for that then the anti-convulsive side effect.”

“So you really do think Malfoy was trying to make Harry more defenseless for Voldemort, then…” Ron said.

“Ron, when I first woke up to him, Voldemort was trying to crucio Malfoy. He was happy to see him, but he wasn’t happy
with him, if you get my drift.”

“Maybe it was all an act.”

“He was IN me Ron. In my head. I could feel him; I was fighting with him, trying to stop him. It was a damn good act on
Voldemort’s part if that’s what it was. I don’t know what Malfoy’s up to; I doubt Malfoy knows, to be honest. I don’t
trust him as far as I could throw the smarmy little suck-up. I just don’t believe it was really a coordinated plot on
his part.” Harry felt it was time for a quick change of subject; Malfoy’s talk of Ginny was one of the few things he had
to fall back on to support his contention and he wasn’t going anywhere near that subject. “Better get changed before
Hermione gets here.”

Ron looked a bit panicked and shuffled through a pile of dirty clothes even the house elves had been afraid to touch
looking for pajamas. “What about Dean and Seamus? Did you warn them?”

“I think it was pretty clear last night. And she’s not here to scope you guys out, Ron. She’s here to make sure you
don’t wake up to the roommate no one wants. I’ll close the hangings; you’ll forget she’s even around after a bit.”

“Not so sure that’s a good thing, either.” Ron said cautiously. “Put a silencing spell on, will you.”

“She knows you snore. You were honking away at Hagrid’s the other night, besides she’s heard you at the Burrow plenty of
times.”

“Otherway round, Harry.”

Harry was silent a moment, puzzled, then threw the other trainer Ron’s way. “I’m hardly going to choose a roomful of
snorting, wanking prats as the right place for that, idiot.”

“Least it’s got a bed. Beats a broom closet hands down,” Seamus said, coming in. Dean followed him. “Is she here yet?”

“No,” Harry told them, heading off to brush his teeth. “And when she gets here all talk of beds versus broom closets in
reference to her is off limits. Don’t care if you go on and on about your own fun with the cleaning supplies, just leave
her out of it, okay?”

The sound of whips followed him out the door.

He was so not whipped.

Yet, anyway.

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In the end, only Neville and Harry were still awake when Hermione arrived, reading by the light of their wands. Ron had
fallen asleep as soon as his head touched the pillow and Seamus and Dean had followed suit soon after. Harry had loaned
her his invisibility cloak but he still had a moment’s pause when the door opened and closed itself. Once she noticed
Ron and the other two asleep she pulled off the cloak with a grin.

“No matter how many times I get to use it, it’s still fun,” she whispered. Her hair was neatly braided for the night,
but this time she wore faded boys’ flannel pajama bottoms and a dark green thermal top, both of which appeared several
sizes too large for her. On closer inspection, they both appeared to Harry to be his, as well. She noticed his
assessment and grinned again.

My, but she was happy tonight.

“I nicked them from the laundry,” she admitted. “I thought in a pinch in the dark I might get taken for just another
boy.”

Nope. Not a chance.

“Uhh, good thinking.” Harry managed. “Neville says you need to get to know his plant so it doesn’t mistake you for an
intruder.”

“Okay. Hullo, Neville.”

Harry watched as she went over to Neville’s bed to examine the Mimbulus Mimbletonia, watched her eyes grow intent as she
listened to Neville describing the finer points of his plant like a proud father. She really listened, then asked
Neville a question Harry couldn’t quite make out and tentatively reached out a finger to stroke the blobby plant exactly
as Neville showed her. Harry held his breath a moment but the plant remained calm, no jets of green stinksap appeared.
Even the plant realized it, he thought. Hermione was nice. Kind-hearted, forgiving, loyal, fair and plain old nice. And
she had said that she loved him, Harry. For the first time ever something appeared to be going right in his life.

Please, please let him not screw it up.

He heard Hermione tell Neville good night and she appeared again at the side of Harry’s bed, kicked off her slippers and
climbed up.

Harry reached round her and pulled the hangings closed.

“Where do you leave your wand at night?” she asked curiously, picking it up from the blankets between them.

“Under my pillow, mostly. I learned my lesson the hard way with Uncle Vernon this summer. Why, where do you keep yours?”

She looked at Harry a bit strangely and then pointed toward the bed hangings. His blank look made her sigh. She took her
own wand and slipped it into a neat, wand-sized pocket sewn into the vertical hem. “It’s what it’s there for, did you
never notice?”

Harry shook his head, wondering what other basic Hogwarts facts he had completely missed during the last six years. Why
was it girls always knew these things?

“Shall I put yours there also, or do you feel safer with it under the pillow?”

“Yes, please. Put it with yours, it will be harder to get at if I’m… not right. Oh, hang on.” He took it back and cast a
quick silencing charm on the hangings, handing it to her sheepishly when he was done. “I promised Ron,” he explained.
“And it will help with the snoring.”

“They are noisy sleepers, aren’t they?” she said matter-of-factly; to Harry’s relief she seemed completely unfazed.
“Ron’s far and away the loudest though.”

“Yeah, He is. Um, I don’t know if I should say this or anything, but I made sort of a big deal about this not being
exactly the place I’d pick to, well, take you to, erm, anyway… they’re meant to be polite to you. Just tell me if Seamus
or Dean say anything funny. I trust them not to tell anyone else, but they won’t necessarily be above teasing you.”
Harry could feel his cheeks burning.

Hermione settled back against the pillows. “I can handle them. I’m curious about something though, Harry. Where would
you take me?”

What? “I have absolutely no idea.” Harry said, falling back on honesty in his confusion. “Where would you, umm, like to
be taken?” Okay, that didn’t exactly come out right, either.

“Have you ever imagined us together?” she asked softly.

Harry nodded, feeling an even fiercer blush and the beginnings of something else.

“Where were we?”

“I don’t know.”

“Were we on a bed? The floor? A sofa? The beach?”

“Erm…”

“Warm? Cold? Night time? Day time?”

“I don’t know.” Harry said softly, the beginnings of anguish closing in. “I don’t really take in any of that stuff.
There’s not a lot of detail, only you.”

Her eyes softened and he knew he’d finally said something right somehow.

“It’s not here when I imagine it either,” she told him. “But if you’re a very good wizard and catch the snitch tomorrow,
I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow night.”

“I’d like that,” Harry said slowly, trying to swallow. A lot. “But what if I don’t manage to catch the snitch?”

She laughed. “You always catch the snitch, Harry. Don’t worry about it. Just stay mounted on the broom all game this
time, okay?”

“Okay.”

“Lie down, Harry. I won’t bite you.”

He lay down beside her. She sat up and retrieved her wand, tapping it gently against his forehead and repeating the
incantation for safe sleep. He felt his eyes begin to grow heavy even as she replaced it in the hangings; the spell
might not cause sleep, but it sure made it feel like an excellent option.

“Good night, Harry.” She whispered.

“Night, Hermione. Thank you.”

She settled down under the covers beside him, kissing him gently on the forehead where her wand had tapped. “Tonight,
Harry? Remember where we are.”

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The next morning dawned clear and cool, perfect Quidditch weather. Hermione peeked out of Harry’s bed hangings to see
the sun slowly climbing the walls of the castle and just beginning to stream through the tower window. All around the
room the boys slept on.

She ducked back through the hangings and settled herself against her pillow, contentedly allowing herself ten more
minutes in the warmth and comfort of the bed before waking Harry and sneaking back to her own room.

Harry stirred, his eyes seemed to shift quickly beneath closed lids. His breathing quickened, his body tensed. Hermione
reached up and recovered her wand, watching warily. He seemed less agitated than intent, expectant. His mouth opened
slightly and one hand pulled free of the blanket, reaching across his body….

And snatched at the air. His face relaxed into a smile, triumphant and content.

No need to wonder what’s going on there! she thought with a smile of her own. She brought her wand to his forehead to
begin the waking incantation, then paused. No telling what was going on in Harry’s dream world, but he’d just caught the
snitch. Might as well let him enjoy his moment; Merlin knew there were few enough good ones these days.

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vs. Gryffindor is traditionally the last game of the season. Sorry! I really needed to, and I apologize to any Quidditch
purists offended by that. Slytherin was allowed to change the schedule once – if Draco can do it, so can I!

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Breakfast that morning was a rowdy, noisy meal with predictions of the outcome of the match circulating fast and
furiously around the Great Hall. The fine fall day seemed to have put the whole school in the mood for Quidditch,
although Hermione had her own suspicions that more than a few were looking forward to seeing Harry have to have a go
against Cho, seeker for the Ravenclaw team. The whole Ravenclaw table was sporting badges depicting a soaring blue eagle
with a struggling golden lion dangling from its talons. The lion wore familiar round national health spectacles with
tape wound around the bridge.

“Cheap shot mate. Hermione’s kept yours in good shape since first year,” Ron comforted Harry when they first noticed
them. Hermione rather thought Ron was just pleased the lion wasn’t wearing a crown.

Ron always ate an especially enormous breakfast before matches, under the premise that one never knew how long a
Quidditch match would last and it could in theory be a full day or more until his next meal. Harry had a tendency to
pick, choking down only toast, and Hermione knew he would be ravenous afterwards… assuming he managed to stay clear of
the Hospital Wing, anyway. A short way down the table Ginny wore all the signs of a girl whose secrets were overtaking
her, eating and laughing one moment but watchful and uncertain the next. A quick glance at the Slytherin table provided
one possible answer; Draco’s silvery eyes were following her every move, while Crabbe and Goyle’s piggy ones were
following his.

Katie Bell, in her final year and having put down Auror as her career choice, was rather desperately trying to eat and
work on a transfiguration paper at the same time, utterly unconcerned by the imminent game. Vicki Frobisher, (who had
narrowly lost the keeper spot to Ron the year before by admitting that her position as the head of charms club would
take precedence over Quidditch practices) had been convinced to play chaser this year. Ron had decided rearranging a
couple of practices was quite probably worth it to have someone with half decent broom skills as their third chaser;
there was some good up and coming talent amongst the third and fourth years but no one he felt quite safe putting out on
the pitch just yet. Vicki took a distinctly practical view toward Quidditch, it was just another item on her “to do”
list for the day. Andrew Kirke and Jack Sloper were another story altogether. Kirke was a truly sickening shade of green
and Sloper had already dropped, knocked over or spilt so many things that the seats on either side and across from him
had been vacated. Gryffindor, Hermione realized, would be fielding a somewhat rough side today.

Ron at last decided that he was fully fueled and called for the team to head down to the pitch. Harry seemed almost to
shoot out of his chair in relief, his nerves always quieted once he was in the air. Hermione thought he was going to
forget about her altogether in his distraction, but he stepped aside to let Ron pass him and crouched down beside her.
For a moment he looked as if he was going to ask her something, but he seemed to lose some inner struggle and simply
leaned forward as if he was whispering a last minute bit of information and kissed her warmly beneath her ear instead.
She began to move her hands toward his neck but suddenly became acutely aware of being watched and looked over his
shoulder to find Dumbledore’s eyes on her own. He did not appear in any way angry, but she was sharply reminded of the
constraints of the situation and dropped her hands to her lap. There were school rules regarding PDA and although
Hermione had never thought to concern herself with them other than writing up infractions as a prefect, the Great Hall
at breakfast before the first Quidditch game of the season was unfortunately a no-go zone even if you’d turned in your
badge. She dropped her eyes to Harry’s and realized he had been aware all along of Dumbledore’s observation.

“Don’t forget your promise,” he said quietly, and grinned. She couldn’t help a matching grin as he rose to follow the
others, disappearing through the door behind Ron.

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Hermione never truly enjoyed watching Quidditch matches. While she didn’t understand Ron’s rabid enthusiasm for it, as
sports went it was an interesting enough game to watch. In fact, if Harry had been in the stands watching with her
rather than playing one of the more exposed positions she might have actually quite liked it now and again.
Unfortunately, however, Hermione had picked up Brutus Scrimgeour’s The Beaters’ Bible in Flourish and Blots second year,
only to put it down again rather hastily after noticing its first cardinal rule of advice was ‘Take out the opposing
Seeker.’ She hadn’t watched a match with the same degree of comfort since.

Now she sat beside Lavender and Parvati and Seamus, watching as the two teams appeared on the field; Gryffindor in
scarlet and Ravenclaw in bright blue. The colors stood out brilliantly against the pewter autumn sky. Both teams
gathered across from their opposing sides before Madam Hooch and the trunk that held the Quidditch balls. The snitch and
bludgers were set free. She appeared to say something to which Ron and Roger Davies as captains both agreed; then blew
her silver whistle and tossed up the quaffle. Fifteen brooms took to the air, rising high above the stadium. For better
or worse, they were off.

Hermione brought her omnoculars to her eyes and found Harry circling high above the stadium, the wind giving his already
disordered hair a true life of its own. He was keeping a good distance between himself and Cho but still observing
warily her every move. Hermione tried desperately not to mind (‘It’s a game, idiot, he has to watch her. He can’t
possibly have any feelings left for her after that!’) She redirected her gaze to Ron, who was playing much more
authoritatively this year now that he was Captain and out from Fred and George’s rather long shadows. Unfortunately, the
Ravenclaw chasers faked him out and got one through the hoop almost as soon as she focused on him.

“That’s one for Ravenclaw, Ravenclaw takes the lead 10 to 0,” Dean Thomas announced. He had succeeded Lee Jordon as
Quidditch announcer and proved to have both the same flare and lack of impartiality. “Ginny Weasley with the quaffle
now, lovely pass to Katie Bell, that would have made Angelina and Alicia proud you two! Katie’s in position to score and
… oh nice try Katie, but that was a super save by keeper Su Li for Ravenclaw.”

The game proved to be an exciting one, closely matched. There were remarkably few fouls and both teams played true to
form; Ravenclaw relying primarily on strategy, attempting to out-think their opponents and Gryffindor falling back on
nail-biting maneuvers, often flying in the face of logic but managing to score in the end.

The three Gryffindor chasers in particular were playing really well considering support from their beaters was such a
mixed bag. Kirke had a tendency to duck the bludger rather than send it back off offensively while Sloper, brave to the
point of foolhardiness, bat them all but was just as likely to send it toward his own team as the Ravenclaws. Hermione
found herself wondering whether glasses might help him as well. Ron had moments of breathtaking brilliance interspersed
with some real cringers. Harry was biding his time; Hermione couldn’t tell if he was tracking the snitch yet but she
knew that he wouldn’t bring it in even if he was until Ron gave him the okay. She had decided the plus side of Cho
seeking for Ravenclaw was that the race to the snitch was unlikely to prove nearly as rough as it did when Harry and
Malfoy both took off after the little golden ball. If only Kirke and Sloper managed to intercept the bludgers while his
eye was on the snitch he might actually get out of this game unscathed…

About fifty minutes into the game she heard Ron suddenly shout “Go for it, Harry!” an unsubtle but effective indication
that he had seen Harry lock on the snitch. The score was 110 – 90 to Ravenclaw’s advantage, there was no point in
holding off. Harry took off like a bullet with Cho shouting something into the wind and homing in on him at equal speed.

It was at exactly that point when Hermione’s world exploded. One moment she was watching Harry tearing after the snitch,
the next she felt as if she’d been clubbed in the face by a troll. She heard a whistle and cries of “Foul!” and
“Bumphing! Bumphing! That was a deliberate Bumph!” amidst Lavender and Parvati’s squeals as blood from Hermione’s nose
spattered them both. She slowly took in that she had been hit by a bludger sent purposefully into the stands.

Time seemed to creep, as if she were still looking through the omnoculars and had slowed down the action. She brought
her hands up to her face and felt her rapidly swelling nose, tried to clear the red haze from her eyes. She blinked and
saw Professor McGonagall making her way through the stand toward her, outrage written in every line of her set
expression. A quick peek at the field revealed Harry changing course and zooming toward her with an expression on his
face she had never seen there before, one that seemed to provoke an entirely new physical response within her that
actually almost offset the damage to her nose rather nicely for a minute or two.

So that’s what love looked like on Harry.

He appeared torn between an anxious protectiveness and seething rage on her behalf. She also noticed Cho, however, still
single-mindedly tracking the snitch. While she couldn’t catch it during the foul period, she would have the advantage of
knowing exactly where it was when play began again. It became abundantly clear to Hermione in that moment what was going
on, and much as she’d love to explore what Harry’s protective side felt like, she wasn’t letting Cho get away with that.
She rose to her feet.

“I’b all wight, Habby! Don’ stwop pwaying! She’s twying to distwact you!” she yelled to him, waving her hands wildly and
causing the dribble of blood from her nose to gush in a most unhelpful manner. Lavender thrust a handkerchief into her
hand from one side while Professor McGonagall tried to get her to sit back down in her seat on the other.

Harry drew up close to the stands, hovering before her and ready to throw himself from his broom.

“Habby, don’t. I’b fine, I’b okay. Don’t wet them use be to gwet to you!”

Green eyes met hers, enormous and conflicted.

“Wemember owr bargain, Habby Botter!. I’b fine. GWET THABT SBITCH!”

That seemed to work. He wheeled around and headed back out over the pitch as the whistle indicating resume of play
sounded.

There were some advantages to a broken nose after all. Professor McGonagall didn’t bat an eyelash at the “sbitch” and no
one else was about to ask if she meant the little golden ball, or Cho.

“That’s a bumphing foul on Ravenclaw, Katie Bell to take the shot. Go Katie… YES! Score is at 110 to 100 now with
Ravenclaw still in the lead, the lousy cheaters; think they’re all so smart,” Dean announced rather undiplomatically.

“Thomas!” McGonagall rapped out. “You are our announcer, NOT the referee!” She turned back to Hermione. “Miss Granger,
I’m afraid this means a trip to the Hospital Wing for you. I can stop the bleeding here, but Madam Pomfrey is much
better at healing noses without that tell-tale bump than I.” She brought out her wand and leveled it at Hermione’s nose.
Hermione felt the dribbling flow of blood slow and then stop altogether. Her eyes watered with the sharply repressed
need to sneeze.

“Please, Probessor. I beed to bee the bend of the gamb.” Hermione begged, her eyes riveted to the Ravenclaw end of the
pitch where Harry and Cho were maneuvering.

“Really, Miss Granger, I think it best if…” Professor McGonagall trailed off, caught up in the play herself.

There was a brief flicker of gold low between two of the Ravenclaw hoops. Harry and Cho both dove after it, coming from
opposite directions, Cho a bit closer at the start of the dive. The cheering of the crowd fell off abruptly as it became
clear that the two seekers were on a collision course with each other as well as the snitch.

He’s not going to stop! Hermione thought in horror. And neither is she! There was more then just the snitch between
those two now.

At the very last moment before they would impact, Harry dropped into a quick sloth-roll, hanging below his broom and
passing just under Cho, his back scraping the ground. Harry’s robe ripped free and fluttered past them; concealing as it
did that both had a hand outstretched for the snitch and both seemed to grasp it at the exact same moment. When it fell
clear it appeared that Cho had successfully wrested it from Harry’s grasp by angling her broom upwards just as the tip
of Harry’s broomstick jarred off the goal hoop post. The force of his collision wrenched him free of her grip and sent
Cho cartwheeling off her broom. She landed upright on her bum, facing the goal. Harry hit the ground as well, sliding
along on his back until the next pole caught his shoulder and brought him to an abrupt halt. He lay still a moment and
she held her breath until his arm rose, albeit somewhat shakily, to reveal the snitch fluttering in his glove.

Ron’s shout of triumph led the roar from the Gryffindor stands.

Harry rolled over to his knees and climbed slowly to his feet, walking over to Cho. Hermione watched, amazed and
suddenly fiercely proud as he offered her a hand to help her to her feet as well. Cho seemed to consider his
outstretched hand for a rather long moment before she accepted it and allowed him to help her up. Hermione could see him
say something to her, his face pained, but she turned away without appearing to answer just as the rest of the
Gryffindor team dropped down to surround him.

“Well, Miss Granger,” Professor McGonagall reclaimed her attention. She still seemed upset, but considerably less so
then a few moments before. “Shall we go now? I believe Madam Hooch will insist Mr. Potter be checked out after hitting
that goal post, so he’ll have no trouble finding you.”

Remarkable power that little snitch has! Hermione thought. But those bludgers hurt like hell. Stupid sport!

She followed Professor McGonagall from the stands

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It struck Hermione as almost surreal to be the one sitting on the bed submitting to Madam Pomfrey’s administrations
while Harry and Ron hovered anxiously close by.

“You’re next, Mr. Potter,” Madam Pomfrey informed him as she cast the last straightening charm on Hermione’s nose.
“Remove your shirt and hop up on that bed,” Hermione heard a faint ‘pop’ and it suddenly become much easier to inhale.
“That’s going to be rather tender for a few days Miss Granger, but it looks quite alright, I assure you.”

“Actually, I think she’s made it even straighter than it was before,” Ron said, assessing it critically as he peered
over Madam Pomfrey’s shoulder.

“I’ll have you know there was nothing wrong with my nose, Ronald Weasley.”

“I didn’t say there was, I just said she’d made it even better.”

Hermione turned around just in time to see Harry rather desperately drawing his finger across his neck in the
international symbol for ‘shut up while you’re ahead.’ He smiled at her sheepishly.

“I’m really glad you’re okay,” he told her while Madam Pomfrey busily scourgified her hands between patients. “It looked
awf, erm, there was an awful lot of blood.”

“Head wounds always bleed a great deal, the nose is no exception,” Madam Pomfrey said briskly. “You on the other hand
seem to have ground rather a lot of sand into yourself, Mr. Potter. Exactly why is that?”

“The snitch was hiding under the Ravenclaw goal post?” Harry offered.

“Hmph,” was the best she could manage in response to such an excuse. “Well, the good news is you don’t seem to have done
any lasting damage to your shoulder, but the bad news is I’m going to have to flush the sand out of those scrapes and
there’s really no magical method any more effective than old fashioned scrubbing and antiseptic. You may want to run
along to dinner, dears,” she said to Ron and Hermione. “There’s either going to be tears or bad language for the next
bit. You can retrieve him after if you like. Oh and bring along some clean clothes please, Mr. Weasley, these are filthy
through and through.”

“Can I stay?” Hermione asked quickly. “I’ve been considering what you said, about becoming a healer…”

“Of course!” Madam Pomfrey said delightedly. “This will be an excellent little test to see if you can stomach some noise
without it being at all serious for the patient.”

“Dinner calls. Gotta run! Nice game mate. I’ll bring you some clean stuff after,” Ron stammered and fled.

Harry hissed and snorted through the start of Madam Pomfrey’s administrations but he remained resolutely quiet when
Hermione took over, determined not to make her feel as if she were hurting him. The surprise was that she didn’t – or
significantly less than Madam Pomfrey, anyway. It took her longer to finish her bit, but she had a very light touch and
careful, methodical approach. His eyes watered a little when the antiseptic potion was applied, but Hermione did
something with her wand while Madam Pomfrey emptied the sandy basin and the stinging mercifully stopped.

“What was that?” he whispered.

“Just a little localized pain-muffling charm. Madam Pomfrey doesn’t bother with them because they don’t really last and
they’re only good for shallow scrapes or burns, but I thought it might help.”

“Hermione, I know I haven’t told you yet today, but I really do love you,” he said softly and gratefully. “You’re
amazing. I’m so sorry that they did that to you. It almost stopped my heart; all I could see was the blood everywhere. I
asked Cho if she was the one who called the play, but she wouldn’t say.”

“Miss Chang and Mr. Corner have admitted to discussing bumphing together without Mr. Davies knowledge prior to the start
of the match,” said a voice from beyond the curtain at the end of Harry’s bed, and Dumbledore appeared. He seemed to be
quietly excited about something. “One of the Ravenclaw chasers came forward and said he heard them discussing something
earlier this morning. According to Mr. Bradley, they were both of the mind that directing a bludger toward Miss Granger
would serve as quite a distraction to you, Harry. Perhaps enough to allow Miss Chang to secure the snitch for Ravenclaw.
Once confronted with his confession they too confessed. They claim they had no intention of injuring you, Miss Granger,
simply of scaring you. Obviously their aim was as flawed as their intent.”

“I can’t believe she admitted it!” Hermione exclaimed. “Couldn’t that put them off the team?”

“Indeed, it will.” Dumbledore said as he made his way to the end of the bed. “I think losing their positions on the team
seemed a small consequence compared to the alternative.”

“Professor Dumbledore? What was the alternative?” Harry asked uneasily.

“Miss Chang admitted to me that Ravenclaw though she may be, the origins of the plan were not her own. While the idea
that Hermione could be used to hurt you is hardly a novel one considering your longstanding friendship, Harry, the
timing of the attempt given recent … events, shall we say, seemed more than coincidental. She told me that the idea
originated with Mr. Malfoy.”

“Son of a b… ouch!” Harry said as Hermione prodded him in the back with her wand. “Sorry. Sir.”

“My feelings exactly, Harry. I don’t know what game Draco is playing at, but I confess to being rather concerned. His
intentions before me have all rung true; I haven’t sensed anything off while he is in my presence but his behavior is
failing to support them when he is on his own. Confounding indeed, but it only makes me twice as proud of you both
today.”

“Proud of us?” Hermione questioned.

“Indeed. It has hardly gone unnoticed by the school that you have become somewhat better friends since your sojourn in
the Forbidden Forest. Today, however, the groundwork was laid to support the notion that you are both powerful in your
own right, that you will not allow yourselves, either of you, to be used against the other. You, Hermione, did not
require Harry to forfeit the game to prove his devotion to you, and you, Harry, proved how much you trust and admire
Hermione’s judgment by acceding to her wishes that you might avenge her best through the game. While it will be very
much harder to translate those responses to a situation that could threaten one or both of your lives, it did plant the
idea that you might very firmly in some important places. And for that, I am very proud of you both.”

Harry lifted his eyes to Hermione’s to find them glowing with pride. The feeling washed over him again of how very lucky
he was that she had made up that mind to love him.

“I can rather imagine this is an exciting and yet somewhat frustrating time for you both. It is not easy to change the
footing of any relationship with the eyes of the whole school upon you. I can do little more than wish you both well,
but if I can be of any appropriate assistance, I hope you will come to me.”

“Thank you, sir,” Harry said.

“Yes, thank you, Professor,” Hermione added.

Dumbledore smiled gently and rose to leave, then paused. “Tell me, how is your assignment coming? Have you made any
headway yet?”

“No, sir. Not exactly,” Harry admitted. “Hermione’s got us organized to do all the research but we haven’t turned up
anything that makes any sense yet.”

“No matter. Keep at it. Some secrets Hogwarts seems most adept at keeping just that.”

“Professor Dumbledore, Malfoy hasn’t shown up to help out, or take on any of the investigation at all.” Hermione knew
that Harry and Ron were happy not to have to put up with him but after today she’d be damned if he didn’t do his part.

“I see. Are you meeting this evening?”

Harry could see where this was leading, and he wasn’t following. “No, sir,” he said firmly. “Tomorrow afternoon.”
Sundays were quiet in the library; there’d be no one to hear the ferret scream.

“Very well, then. I assure you, Mr. Malfoy will be there. Ahh, Mr. Weasley. It appears Harry and Hermione have missed
their evening meal. Perhaps you would be so good as to take them both down to the kitchens and ask the house elves if
they might rectify the situation? I rather imagine you could do with a second helping as well. Shepard’s pie, I believe,
wasn’t it?”

Ron nodded happily. “Absolutely, Professor!”

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It was a difficult evening for Harry Potter and Hermione Granger. Harry, who liked to sleep on his back, was forced to
lie on his stomach. Hermione, who loved to snuggle her face into her pillow, had to sleep on her back. There was little
left to do but comfort each other. Unfortunately Harry’s gentlest attempt to reach Hermione’s lips never quite managed
to avoid some contact with her nose, and Hermione’s instinctive response to Harry was to draw him closer with her arms
around his back.

“Do you expect this is what Dumbledore meant by exciting and yet somewhat frustrating?” Hermione mused finally.

“Oh, Merlin, I hope not. I’m really a little queasy with the whole Dumbledore/us in bed thing, Hermione.”

“I think he meant it in a genuinely paternal kind of way Harry. He does care about you.”

“He’s also manipulated a lot of my life for the better good of wizardkind. I get the concept; I’m just never sure which
he’s after.”

“How does being nice and giving the two of us what amounts to his blessing of our relationship do anything at all for
wizardkind, Harry?”

He hesitated. She was the smart one, and it wasn’t bothering her. But what if…?

“What if he already knows what I think I felt that night in the cave? He’s already told me that love is a power
Voldemort has forgotten, or forsaken. What if he’s encouraging us just because he thinks that you can help me somehow?”

“What if he is? I want to help you Harry.”

“And I want your help, I honestly do. Your help. Not what Dumbledore might think you need to do to help me. Do you see
the difference? I admire him, I’m grateful to him. But he scares me sometimes, Hermione.”

She was silent a moment, thinking through what he had said. She loved that he let her think, that he didn’t jump all
over her thoughts the way Ron sometimes did. She could see his point, and realized that his perception of Dumbledore was
quite a bit different from her own. She thought of him most as the omniscient Headmaster who always knew what to do, but
he was also the most powerful wizard in their world and the only one that Voldemort truly feared. Power did powerful
things even to those who sought to use it for good. It multiplied mistakes, divided loyalties. Harry was right to feel
the way he did. She shivered, feeling as if another layer of safety had been stripped from her life. She felt his hand,
warm and comforting, slip over her shoulder and stroke slowly down her spine, bringing a shiver of an entirely different
kind.

Rather reluctantly she retrieved her wand from the bed hangings and said the words to ensure his safe sleeping.

“So tell me,” he said with a yawn as she settled back down against the pillows after retiring her wand.

“Tell you what?” She was startled to realize that after only two nights as his dreamkeeper it already struck her as
wrong that he was setting off to sleep on his stomach. His head was pillowed on one of his arms and she could barely see
one green eye peeking through his fringe.

“You know, where you…?”

“Oh! That.”

“Yeah.”

Hermione was in a bit of a quandary. When she had imagined things it had been within the realm of fantasy and with a
remote, unobtainable Harry. She had once placed them, for example, on a veranda overlooking a secluded beach. (The beach
itself was too sandy for her taste, the idea abrasive even with lots of blankets and towels. Sand always stuck so when
you were wet. Ugh.)

Now that fate had made her a nightly visitor to Harry’s own bed, the goal posts had moved significantly. If she told him
she had always imagined their first time to be on a beach, knowing Harry he just might wait until he could take her to
one and Hermione was quite certain at this point that she wasn’t going to make it that long without jumping him first.
It was one thing to know she at last had his undivided attention around the school, and quite another to feel his
implicit trust as he relinquished control of himself to her each evening.

She had no desire to be dishonest with him but she had every desire to do just about everything else with him. It was
growing stronger by the day – and even stronger by the night as she settled beside his warm, hard length and wondered
curiously about his other one. She could sense his watchfulness; he responded eagerly to her every touch but she knew he
would not initiate anything himself no matter what his desires might be. Harry was nothing if not the consummate
gentleman – an eternal surprise considering how he was raised - but even if he were not his guilt about placing her in
this compromising position in the first place would have held him off.

Still, all things considered she wasn’t quite desperate enough to want Ron in the next bed over while they made love for
the first time, at least not yet. The astronomy tower was cold and hard and a little too popular. She loved it down by
the lake, but it would cut their chances down significantly and the weather was starting to close in with the fall,
making outdoors unpredictable at best. There was something a bit outdoorsy about Harry, though; he struck her as being
altogether more comfortable there than in, say, silk sheets on a massive mahogany bedstead. Outdoorsy, but comfortable.
Hmmm.

“You know the classroom Firenze enchanted on the first floor for divination last year?”

“Umm hmmm.”

Rats! He was almost asleep!

“I want you to take me there.”

“Okay,” he mumbled. His eyes were closed, lashes dark against his cheeks. She could not help thinking that he was…
beautiful. He might be uncomfortable with her choice of words, but there it was. Her heart seemed to swell with
tenderness until it had nowhere to go but a kiss; she pressed her lips gently to his forehead. His fringe fell away to
reveal the scar and she found herself wondering for a moment that if when Voldemort was gone the scar might go with him.
Power of positive thinking, she assured herself. The vile, loathsome, evil thing that Voldemort was now couldn’t
possibly take Harry from this world now that he loved her back. It was simply Not Possible. She would find a way to make
sure it was so.

But first she had to find a way to make him stay awake long enough to hear about her plans for the enchanted forest
classroom.

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14. Chapter 14

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 14

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Draco stormed into the library Sunday afternoon and strode purposefully to the table where Ron, Harry and Hermione were
seated, each buried in a book. Hermione was actually reading hers; Ron and Harry were both struggling to keep upright,
with mixed success. Harry seemed to detect Malfoy’s sudden presence from behind his drooping eyelids and came instantly,
instinctually on guard. He elbowed Ron, who mumbled “Piss off, Fred. Mum already said it was breakfast,” but opened one
bleary eye anyway.

“You just couldn’t let it go, could you?” Malfoy snarled. “It wasn’t enough that I saved your pitiful life out there,
scarface, you just had to drag me in to this stupid riddle business.” His eyes slid from Harry to Hermione beside him.
“Nice nose, Granger. Purple and green really bring out the mud brown color of your eyes. Oh, and Weasel, in case your
friends have failed to inform you, I’m OW! Sweet mother of Merlin!”

Harry had defensively dropped Hogwarts, A History on Malfoy’s foot.

All four were promptly requested to remove themselves from the vicinity of the library immediately. Malfoy limped and
whined all the way to an empty classroom down the hall.

“First of all, I didn’t drag you anywhere,” Harry spat as soon as the door was closed. “You got the same punishment as
the rest of us and I fail to see how that’s my fault. Second, I seem to remember you telling me that you ‘needed’ me
alive to further one your own twisted little games. You made the choice. Live with it. Third, you just made a major
mistake coaching Cho and Corner. Watch your back. All it takes is one good chance.”

“Ooooh, Potter. I’m shaking. One good chance to what?”

“Stick your wand so far up your…” Ron started, incensed.

“Keep guessing,” Harry cut in. “Aren’t surprises really more fun in the end?”

“Listen, I don’t know what you three imbeciles have planned for this afternoon but it better have an intelligible point
and get us a whole lot closer to solving this pathetic joke or you, Potter, are going to be the one with a magical
arsehole.”

“Speaking of arses, how are you going to manage that without Crabbe and Goyle to help you out? Had a lover’s quarrel,
have you?”

Hermione had been about to cut in and point out that they were both being really juvenile and that the afternoon would
have had an intelligible point until they had to leave the library and all of the books they needed, but Draco’s flicker
of discomfort at Harry’s mention of his two cohorts made her pause.

“Crabbe and Goyle are none of your business, Potter.” Draco said flatly. Hermione itched to pursue the matter; clearly
there had been a rift, or a very good imitation of one. Were they aware of his refusal to accept the dark mark? Was not
accepting it just an act to place him in a better position to spy for Voldemort or was he actually intent on not
becoming a Death Eater? She knew that Dumbledore was watching Malfoy carefully, but did he know what he was looking for?

Hermione had an idea.

“If you really aren’t taking the dark mark, Draco,” she asked innocently, “Then you’d have no problem taking one from
the other side, right?”

“What are you on about now, Granger?” He looked directly at her, but his body stiffened slightly and she had the
distinct impression he was ill at ease. “Has Dumbledore started branding his little band of infidels then? Where’s
yours, Potter? Weasel?”

“No one’s ever questioned Harry’s loyalty, or Ron’s.”

“You must be joking,” he sneered. “Where were you forth year? Thanks to scarface Voldemort’s got a functional body
again. Fifth year? Heard a rumor Dumbledore could have taken him out if he’d just taken Potter with him. Certainly would
have ended the whole problem the way I see it. And how about a few days ago when Cho pointed out to the entire Great
Hall that Potter’s closer to Voldemort than my beloved Father in his wildest, wettest dreams?”

“Fourth year I was portkeyed against my will, tied to a gravestone and had my blood stolen, Malfoy. I would have begged
Dumbledore to kill me in the Ministry, but unfortunately I wasn’t the one who happened to have control of my mouth at
that particular moment. And you were there in that cave. Stop acting like it had nothing to do with you. You saw what
happened, you had to know how hard I fought to get rid of him; it was you he was after. Or was that just a little
arrangement between the two of you?”

“You were there, too. What do you think?”

There was the rub, though Hermione in frustration. Harry genuinely seemed to believe Voldemort had wanted to kill
Malfoy. But did that really exonerate him?

“Remember Marietta Edgecombe, Malfoy?” she asked.

“Cho’s friend with the pustulent ‘SNEAK’ on her face? The one who gave your little Dumbledore’s Army game away to
Umbridge, wasn’t she?”

“She signed a list of names swearing she would keep a secret. She didn’t. The jinx just revealed her true intent.”

“Are you saying, Granger,” he asked her, incredulity sharpening his voice, “That you want me to….”

“Perfect!” enthused Ron, who had just grasped the idea. “I can’t wait to see TRAITOR actually spelled out on your
forehead, ferret boy.”

“If your intentions are good and you have nothing to hide, why not?” Hermione inquired simply.

The gears were clearly turning a mile a minute behind Malfoy’s pale eyes; Hermione half expected steam to escape his
ears. Her own mind was fairly racing as well. She had to shape the jinx exactly right; specific, but wide enough to
cover a whole range of possibilities. It would only work if Malfoy consciously violated one of the parameters and a
Slytherin conscience was a slippery thing to catch in the act.

He had two real options: to refuse, knowing they would reveal him to Dumbledore, or to accept and either keep his word
or find a way to counter Hermione’s jinx.

“Fine. I’ll do it. But it’s an absolute secret between the four of us. No one else knows” he said at last.

“You’re the one who always blabs,” Ron pointed out. “Don’t worry about us.”

“How can I not? This has ‘tragic Gryffindor mistake’ written all over it. Lord, all I want to do is be done with this
bloody riddle and be able to go to Hogsmeade again. Is that really so much to ask?”

“You might try actually doing some of the work then.” Harry said. “Maybe we should run through what we all already know
and decide who’s going to cover what, okay?”

“No,” Ron surprised them all, mulishly. “I don’t think we should go any further until Hermione makes up that parchment
for Malfoy to put his name to. I’m not passing along anything I know about a riddle with your future tied up in it to
him until he signs.”

“And I’m sure your contribution to the combined knowledge of this endeavor will prove earth shattering, Weasel.” Malfoy
sniped back. “Fine. Let me know when you’ve got it ready, Granger. And tell Dumbledore I did my bit today. I don’t need
yet another power hungry old git on my back.” He spun around and left the classroom.

“Well,” said Harry rubbing his eyes as if to erase a painful image, “that was pleasant and productive. Ron’s right
though, Hermione. Brilliant idea to set him up for a jinx if he betrays us.”

“If you love us at all, please have it involve his painfully shriveled bits.” Ron requested. “Anything else is just too
good for him.”

Hermione and Harry eyed each other worriedly. It had certainly seemed as if Malfoy had been about to confess something
about whatever was going on with Ginny in the library and neither of them had any idea why or what. There was a definite
sense of dancing round a ticking time bomb.

“On the bright side,” Ron said extending an arm around both their shoulders and steering them toward the door without
seeming to notice their consternation, “it is now officially time for dinner.”

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Harry and Ron were playing wizard hangman when Hermione had her revelation. It was during History of Magic the following
morning, and Binns’s relentless droning was little more than white noise in the back of Harry’s brain while he feebly
attempted to guess where Ron was going with
_ A _ I S _ A W _ A _ O _ S _ I . Harry’s dangling wizard needed only one more hand and another foot to be swinging from
the gallows in earnest and it was waving its single little fist at him furiously and mouthing commentary in regard to
Harry’s innate intelligence. Ron had had to put a silencing charm on the paper.

“T” whispered Harry.

Ron drew a second foot on the hanging wizard who began kicking it at once.

“…restitution of Muggle property and extensive memory reversal charms were required to eradicate the knowledge that the
path of the battle had moved directly through the northwestern quadrant of the city. While a few spontaneous fires could
be explained away the implosion of all of the cathedrals’ stained glass, especially the famed wheel window in the nave,
would have been impossible to disguise. Interestingly enough, while the Wizard’s Council, the direct predecessor to the
Ministry of Magic, managed to piece all the windows together they inadvertently swapped the heads of Fate and Destiny in
the wheel window. To this day no Muggle scholar has ever noticed the mistake.”

Hermione made a small noise that sounded like “eep” and began writing furiously along the margin of her notes.

Ron caught Harry’s eye and raised his eyebrows. Harry shrugged and turned toward Hermione on his other side to try and
read her notes. Her handwriting was cramped by the small space available and written mostly sideways so he couldn’t make
out a single word of it. She seemed to feel his scrutiny and looked up, her eyes aglow. It struck him how the moments
when Hermione’s true beauty was most obvious were nearly always ones of discovery; clearly she was on to something now.
She leaned over her parchment another moment then turned it toward him. Large legible letters at the top of the page
read, “I think I’ve got it! Tell Ron to meet us in the Library after Muggle Studies.”

Harry wrote. “She thinks she’s on to something about the riddle. Meet in the Library after MS, okay?” on the top of his
own parchment and tipped it toward Ron.

Ron nodded his agreement. The little stick wizard gestured rudely in Harry’s direction, the tip of his pointed hat
wiggling in indignation.

“Z” Harry whispered. That should teach the little beggar.

Ron actually filled a “Z” in the first space of the second word. _ A _ I S _ A W Z A _ O _ S _ I . Wait a minute… this
was Ron. Ron Weasley, the one who’d asked him how to spell ‘extinguish’ just the other night in the library with a
dictionary right in front of him. This had to be about Quidditch, then.

“Ladislaw Zamojski,” Harry guessed softly. “The Polish International Chaser.”

Ron groaned and filled in the blanks. The angry little stick wizard pried the noose off his head with his single hand,
hopped down off the gallows and disappeared round the back of Ron’s parchment mouthing something that looked
suspiciously like “took you long enough”.

Harry leaned over and filled in “ungr_teful w_nker” just in case he came back later.

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When Ron and Harry reached the library after their afternoon classes Hermione was already there with an enormous text on
the table before her and an even more enormous smile on her face.

“I think I’ve found it!” she said as they sat across from her. “A rose that never dies!”

“Good on you if you have,” Ron said. “Neville couldn’t think of anything, Professor Sprout thought we were loony and
Hagrid didn’t have a clue.”

“This fits almost perfectly,” she told them, and turned the book around. Harry and Ron saw a picture of the dim interior
of a stone building that looked a great deal like Hogwarts with a round stained glass window set high in one wall. The
dimness of the building and bright exterior light from behind the window made its colors seem to glow with an unearthly
brilliance. “Professor Binns was talking about how the Wizard’s Council had to piece together the wheel window of a
Muggle Cathedral. Wheel windows are also known as Rose windows because the spoke framework makes the glass inside appear
like the petals of a rose. Long ago stained glass was used to keep stories alive for people who couldn’t read or
couldn’t afford books. In thirteenth and fourteenth century windows the narratives were almost more important than the
decorations, and rose windows were favored because they allowed for events to be recorded in compartmented sequences.
Sometimes there were several rings of petals surrounding the center, each petal like a page or chapters in a book. Think
about it! The perfect pageless story!”

“Brilliant, Hermione! Err, except for one, small detail,” Harry pointed out. Don’t hex me, don’t hex me, please don’t
hex me… “Hogwarts doesn’t have a rose window. And the stained glass in the Great Hall and the library is just plain
colored glass, no pictures or stories.”

“We don’t know for sure Hogwarts doesn’t have one. We’ve just never seen one. There could well be one here somewhere. As
well as we know it, we’ve still probably only seen half of the rooms in this castle.”

“Knowing Hogwarts,” groaned Ron, “It rolls around and you can only catch it in certain rooms every forty years on some
barmy old wizard’s birthday at dawn.”

The scary thing was he was probably not far off. And now they’d have to find it.

“I think we should tell Professor Dumbledore,” Hermione said decisively. “He might know of one and just never have
connected the idea with the riddle.”

“I’ll ask if we can see him after dinner,” Harry agreed. “What about Malfoy? We should probably include him in the
meeting. Otherwise it’ll just look like we’re trying to get him into trouble. Have you had any time to work on the
parchment for him to sign?”

“It’s all set,” Hermione smiled. “I finished my Arithmancy test early, so I used the extra time to come up with the
jinx. It was probably the most complex one I ever worked on. He’ll regret the day he was born if he so much as thinks of
betraying us to Voldemort.”

“If? I think the question is when,” Ron grinned.

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They arrived outside the Headmaster’s office early in order to be ahead of Malfoy. Hermione had the parchment and a
quill waiting. The wording was quite simple (I, Draco Malfoy, do solemnly swear that I will not use any information
discovered or revealed to me during the course of my assigned detention to in any way harm, injure, discredit or betray
Harry Potter, Hermione Granger, Ron Weasley, Albus Dumbledore or the staff or students of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft
and Wizardry.) The underlying jinx was far more complex and covered as wide a range of possibilities as Hermione could
envision. If Malfoy was going to untangle himself from it, he would at least have to expend an awful lot of time and
energy to do so.

When Draco arrived he seemed impatient somehow, uncharacteristically distracted and rushed.

“Fine,” he snapped when Hermione showed him the parchment, “whatever. Just show me where to sign.”

She pointed and he signed with a flourish. His own name, correctly spelled, using her quill. She had him. This just had
to work…

They gave the password and mounted the moving staircase.

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“Fascinating. An absolutely intriguing idea, Miss Granger. It certainly fits the riddle, doesn’t it? Even historically,
for as you point out such windows were used during the darkest of Muggle ages when learning or the lack of it was used
to control others by those seeking power. I for one do not know of such a window at Hogwarts, but that certainly does
not preclude there being one somewhere about. I will question the portraits when they awake in the morning to see if any
of the earlier headmasters had experience of one. I would caution you not to accept this as the only possibility to the
extent you close yourselves off to others, but it does seem most hopeful,” Dumbledore told them. “You have my permission
to be about the castle ‘at break of day’ as necessary for your search, but please do be careful. Dawn may be the
beginning of the day, but it is still the ebb of night as well. How goes the dream keeper potion, Harry? I trust it has
proved successful.”

“I don’t honestly know,” Harry said. “I don’t think he’s tried. Maybe he can’t when I’m in the castle itself, or maybe
he just hasn’t been interested. I haven’t had any real sense that he’s been particularly happy or angry the last few
days either, though, and we know he can do that wherever I am.”

“Things have indeed been quiet from that direction,” Dumbledore said gravely. “But alas, I do not believe we can expect
it to remain so. As Alistor is so fond of telling us, we must not let slip our constant vigilance no matter how safe we
believe ourselves to be.”

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Harry was actually quite enjoying his “remedial” DADA with Bill Weasely. Bill worked him harder than any of his other
“guest” instructors, but Harry felt stretched at the end instead of beaten down. The whole mood of the lessons were
different, they seemed to be the one time that Harry could truly duel or practice tactics without a constant,
suffocating sense of doom. He attempted to convey this to Bill along with his gratitude as the second week of Bill’s two
week recuperation at Hogwarts drew to a close. They were both sitting on the floor at the time, backs to the wall,
trying to regain their breath.

“Thanks, Harry. It’s been a good break for me as well, to be honest. You’re a right handful now, you know; you’ve
sharpened me up no end. I’ve told Dumbledore I’d be happy to fit into the rota anytime the Order can spare me. I’ll ask
him to throw Tonks in soon, shall I? She’s tricky to duel and she’ll always give you a laugh in the bargain. You could
use it, I’m sure.”

“Thanks. I could,” Harry admitted. “Do you know who’s coming next?”

“I hate to be the one to tell you, but you’ve got two weeks of your least favorite greasy-haired git. Once Dumbledore
saw for himself how good you are with the more physical stuff we’ve been working on he decided it was time for you to go
on to the mental side of it. He told me you’ve gotten well along with your occlumency and Snape would be the best we
have to show you how the dark side thinks. It’s not easy to wrap your mind around that stuff, Harry. I know I’d just as
soon leave well enough alone, but you don’t have that option. Just be careful and tread easy around him. He’ll be making
it his personal mission to shake you up as much as he’s able.”

Fan-bloody-tastic. With the permutations of his schedule that made for Snape every day. Harry groaned.

“On a slightly happier note, I hope,” Bill asked with a grin, “How’re things going with you and Hermione?”

Harry felt an answering grin infiltrate his Snape-induced gloom. “Alright,” he admitted, re-tying a lace on the trainers
he favored for working with Bill. “Okay, amazing, actually. I keep waiting for the hex to hit or for me to completely
screw it up, but so far so good.”

“Ron said she’s been spending rather a lot of time in your dorm room. Most of it night time.”

Harry felt Bill’s eyes on him right through the top of his head and lifted his own from his feet. Uh oh. He’d had to
have learned that look from his mum…

“Ron’s got a rather large mouth for the size of his brain sometimes, doesn’t he?” Bill continued with an even wider
grin, and Harry felt certain bits of his anatomy stop trying to crawl into hiding.

“It’s not what it sounds, really,” he tried.

“Maybe not yet, but it will be.” Bill said. “Nothing wrong with it, you know. Just don’t let it get all twisted up with
the rest of this, though. She deserves better than that – you both do. Ask yourself what you’d do if Voldemort wasn’t
after you. And never forget your contraceptive charms, regardless of what you think she’s doing. They don’t cancel each
other out, you know, and the last thing you need now is to complicate life any more.”

“Thanks,” Harry said, finding that despite his embarrassment he was actually grateful for Bill’s advice.

“No problem. You’re an honorary Weasley brother, you know. If you’ve got any questions you only need to ask. I’m sure
I’ll be telling Ron the same once he decides girls really don’t have cooties. Oh, and Harry?” Bill rose to his feet and
extended a hand.

“Yeah?” Harry took it and felt himself hauled to his feet.

“It’s meant to be fun. Designed that way, actually Don’t forget to enjoy yourselves.”

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Harry wondered later how Dumbledore knew. Or was it Harry’s fault, had he somehow laid down a challenge, wondering if
Voldemort couldn’t reach him in Hogwarts? It was different than in the cave, perhaps the result of Snape’s potion. It
started as the usual dream, the sort Voldemort used to demoralize him. He was ensnared, tied up, not back at the
graveyard but somewhere else, he wasn’t sure where. He couldn’t move… he had to move; he ached with the struggle to try
and free himself. Nagini slithered up his leg, around his waist, steadily on towards his neck. She was preparing to bite
him, but she was like a fly, a distraction from his real peril. Voldemort was shooting bolts of orange light from his
wand; each time one struck him the affected limb glowed and went numb, useless. Harry jerked helplessly away from a
blast directed at his right arm and Nagini struck, sinking her fangs deep into his neck. He could feel her poison
seeping through his veins, moving inexorably deeper inside him with each beat of his heart. Voldemort approached him,
raised his hand, red eyes glowing.

Slap.

He awoke from the dream within his nightmare. He was aware of being in his own bed, arms stretched over his head in the
same position as the dream. He was paralyzed, utterly unable to move a muscle. He was not alone. His scar seared, his
head felt too full, there just wasn’t room for both of them in there.

Hello, Potter.

Harry closed his eyes again, every muscle in his body strained to expel the horror within him. Get out! Get OUT of me.

He felt his eyes struggle open against his will, felt them sweep the room. He could feel Voldemort sizing him up, trying
on his body for size. He seemed to swim through his veins, to force himself into every limb. Harry could feel himself
shuddering against the intrusion.

What’s the matter, Potter? Why don’t you move?

He constructed a barrier around the knowledge of Snape’s potion, felt Voldemort immediately slink to it and begin
testing its strength.

Move Potter. Sit up. NOW!

The pain of Voldemort trying to force his stupefied body to move made his eyes water. His breathing began to change to
gasps and harsh pants as the battle raged.

Call out for help, Potter. Cat got your tongue?

His own tongue began to try to force its way down his throat. He choked, fought back with what little control he had. He
could hear the horrible gagging and retching of it and realized too late that the noise would wake…

“Harry?”

He could feel Voldemort cease his torments and listen to her voice.

“Lumos. Harry? Are you alright?” Her eyes were almost more than he could stand, so familiar, so comforting, so safe. He
wanted to lose himself in her, but he was one with this horrible sickening thing.

Voldemort didn’t like that thought.

“Mudblood! Filthy Mudblood in your bed! We can’t have that, Potter. Kill her. Put your hands around that scrawny neck
and squeeze. Throttle her! DO IT! I COMMAND YOU!

His arms were quivering with Voldemort’s desire to move them. He braced himself against the effects of the potion. Sweat
was pouring off him now. He felt something in his forearm snap and howled somewhere deep within himself. Hermione heard
the sound and recoiled in horror. He could see the realization dawn on her that this wasn’t a dream.

Against every instinct she had to run, Hermione stretched out her hand and touched Harry’s. He could see her realize
that the potion was working. He could also feel Voldemort flee from contact with her; it was as if he withdrew from
Harry’s hand somehow.

Her hand slid gently up his arm toward his elbow as if testing the strength of the paralysis. Voldemort withdrew to his
shoulder on that side, but redoubled his efforts to reach for her throat with Harry’s other hand. Harry was torn between
the fear that he would break his other arm and the fear that if he didn’t resist he wouldn’t and Voldemort just might be
strong enough to break through the effect of the potion. Please don’t make me choose…

Hermione took his other hand. She was murmuring something now, her eyes intent on him.

Filthy slut. Undeserving. Destroying everything. Mugglestained whore. Kill her, echoed through his head.

Shut up! Harry cried within his own mind. Shut up. You are the filth, you are the corruption. You poison everything you
touch. Just shut up!

Her other hand slid to his other elbow, then his shoulder. She was trying to get his attention, to comfort him, but she
was also unconsciously gaining territory over Voldemort and Harry found himself desperate for her to continue. He
thought fleetingly of the night she had told him how he had underestimated his friendship with Ron, how he had
communicated with her then. Was it safe? He wouldn’t enter her mind, just leave her the idea… And expose her to this? If
there was even a chance he couldn’t. Ever.

Lower, he begged with his eyes, More, everywhere, touch me, you’re driving him out…

Her eyes met his, she was trying to understand, he knew. He could have wept with frustration. Voldemort was trying to
spit at her; Harry was swallowing desperately.

She kissed him. After a moment pressed against his lips he felt the sweet tip of her tongue slip between them. The Dark
Lord fled so fast Harry thought for a moment he’d taken the back of his head off with him. The withdrawal was almost as
painful as the initial invasion; he let himself drown instead in the lovely, lifesaving sensation that was Hermione.

So lovely, so lifesaving that if he couldn’t move soon, he was really going to die. He had to touch her.

“Chocolate Frog,” he gasped.

She drew her head back and gazed at him uncertainly. “Harry?”

“It’s me. Please let me go.”

“Are you sure it’s okay?”

“Did it feel like you were kissing Voldemort? It’s me, Hermione. Please.”

“What form does your patronus take?”

“That’s useless. Everyone’s heard about mine by now. Yours is an otter.”

She touched her wand to his forehead and gave the incantation that released him. As his muscles relaxed from the
paralysis the pain of the broken forearm hit him and he gasped.

“I think I heard it crack,” she said. “Can you make it to the Hospital wing or do you want me to wake up Ron to get
Madam Pomfrey?”

“I’ll go in the morning. It’s okay now; it was just the spell wearing off.”

“I can’t heal it, but I can make it hurt less,” she told him. She helped him position it comfortably with a pillow and
murmured a charm. “Just keep it still, okay?”

“Not a problem. Honest.”

Her eyes leveled on his, full of questions but full of compassion as well, and the touch of her fingers in his
sweat-soaked hair was almost unbelievably good. After years of indifference, that someone cared so about his condition
was heady stuff.

“I’m not going to ask you about it now,” she said softly. “I can tell it was bad, even without whatever happened to your
arm. I’m going to put you back under the sleep charm now, but I want to hear every single detail in the morning, Harry
James Potter. Do we understand each other?”

He nodded gratefully, and hoped morning was a long time coming. When she had returned her wand to the pocket in the
curtains and settled back down beside him beneath the blankets, warm and solid and safe, careful not to jostle his arm
but not too hesitant to slip her own around him, he reflected that it might not be a bad thing if morning never came at
all. He’d happily stay just like this forever.

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15. Chapter 15

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 15

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Hermione slept no more that night.

She kept watch, her eyes following his every breath, every movement. He had fallen asleep almost as soon as she had made
it safe for him and while she knew he was exhausted she… missed him. Wished they were talking to one another. Was it
possible to lay right next to someone and miss them still? Of course it was – her own tiredness was making her fanciful
when what she needed to be was rational.

Calm, rational and above all smart.

She knew she couldn’t begin to match Voldemort’s strength. Hermione, being a girl (well, woman really, wasn’t she, or as
good as… a mere technicality she intended to rectify on her own time table, thank you) wasn’t truly shaken by that fact.
She knew that Harry’s fears were more about being strong enough, fast enough, powerful enough to meet his predestined
fate. For herself she still intuitively believed in the power of knowledge to change that destiny. What she was only now
coming to understand, however, was the need for wiles to be able to use her knowledge to its fullest extent. Book
learning alone was clearly not going to suffice; she needed something more to be able to wield it as the weapon she
required.

Fate might have inextricably linked Harry to Voldemort, but Hermione had faith she could at least be a variable destiny
might not have counted on. She just needed to figure out exactly how.

She was glad now that she had turned in her prefects’ badge. Hermione knew that her nightly presence in Harry’s bed was
a complete violation of school rules. She also believed that those same rules were a blind violation of Harry’s safety,
compromising his ability to do what they were all counting on him to do. Nothing was absolute anymore.

She was immensely relieved that she had become his nightly guardian instead of Ron. He had clearly been struggling with
Voldemort beside her for some time before she awoke. What would have happened if Ron, sleeping comfortably behind his
own hangings in the next bed over, had never heard him? Why did Snape think that paralyzing Harry with Voldemort inside
his head was any kind of answer? It might keep the other students safe, but when the Dark Lord found out about the
prophecy and realized that Harry was much more than just an early failure it would be nothing less than tying on a bow
and making a gift of him. Which raised another question in Hermione’s mind: did Snape know about the prophecy? Exactly
who did? Hermione did not believe in secrets; secrets were like entropy, they kept struggling to fill the vacuum.
Voldemort would find out, sooner or later. There had to be a better solution.

Harry had successfully managed to throw him off again tonight. The questions that remained were how, and could he keep
on? Was it possible that he could manage to do it so decisively that Voldemort would find no profit in continuing to try
to use him that way? Surely that would affect the outcome of their final confrontation; one less weapon at Voldemort’s
disposal was one less thing for Harry to have to counter. Hermione was afraid that their current balance of power was
particularly detrimental for Harry. Voldemort had so far only been able to make use of the connection to demoralize him,
but Hermione knew that if he had managed to use Harry to kill Draco in the Forbidden Forest he would never have been
able to forgive himself. And that was Malfoy. What if it were to be Ron, or Dumbledore? Harry already ached with guilt
over his dreams of Cedric and Sirius; what he would do if his own hands were the weapons Voldemort chose to make use of
Hermione could not bear to imagine.

She slowly pulled back from her musing to become aware again of Harry’s sleeping form beside her. She gently
repositioned the pillow that cushioned his injured arm between them. He flinched but didn’t wake, shifting slightly. His
head drooped toward her and she noticed how even asleep his face retained its seriousness, the constant shadow of worry.
She wondered what he would look like if the burden he had lived with all his life so far was ever lifted. How would it
change him?

She rifled her memory for its happiest Harry and tried to add five years, then ten to his image. There wasn’t much to go
on; the few truly relaxed and happy moments were mostly back a few years now. She remembered his hopefulness when they
had first rescued Sirius, how the idea of living with his Godfather had seemed to give him some glimpse of a future
finally better than the past. She realized then how increasingly serious he had become even before Sirius’ death.
Cedric’s murder and the events ending the Tri-Wizard tournament had taken their toll. She could see the small pale slice
in the crook of his injured arm where Wormtail had taken Harry’s own blood to revive his enemy.

It suddenly came to her how much he’d grown since that fateful night, how tied his physical maturity had become to the
increasing threat. Ron, Seamus, Dean, even Neville had all become taller and more muscular gradually over the last six
years, their voices had deepened, their humor had slowly changed, metamorphosing from boys to young men. Harry had
always been noticeably out of sync with the others, diminished by his repeated trips to the hospital wing at the close
of each school year and summers of near starvation at Privet Drive. He came back to Hogwarts each fall thinner, smaller
and less self-assured then the rest only to rebound with a growth spurt made all the more obvious because of what
preceded it and how much it took out of him. The first months of school and the return to decent food, human
companionship and Quidditch practice usually yielded a healthier, happier Harry until the annual intrusion of Voldemort
tormented him again.

This year, it seemed, was somehow different. Even asleep he looked older than the others, as if he had only recently
been thrust past them along the road to adulthood by some implacable force. The bones of his face stood out sharper
against his skin, their configuration clearer, asserting themselves. He’d almost died in that cave, she reminded
herself, but thought there was more to it than that. His neck and shoulders seemed stronger as well, more defined, as if
trying to meet the weight descending upon them. There had been other, more subtle signs as well, bits of wandless magic
almost unnoticed, the night that he had so tentatively shown her that he could reach her mind. Hermione was sure that
Dumbledore had pulled him from the advanced DADA class to hide what he was learning. What if he had also chosen to
shield Harry because of a significant change not just in the way he was wielding his magic now, but the very magic
within him? Voldemort had certainly seemed pleased with what he had found in Harry in the cave that night. She
remembered, “Ahh… Potter’s growing even stronger than I knew!” coming from Harry’s own mouth, those horrible black eyes
alight in his face.

It was as if this year something was consuming him from within as well, energy drawn from an already diminished supply.
How could Dumbledore be clever enough to guard Harry’s growing magic but not perceptive enough to notice that all that
magic was contained within a young human frame that bore watching as well?

Or was that what she was for? He hadn’t fought her when she’d dropped the prefect badge on his desk. Then, in the
Infirmary, when Madam Pomfrey had been so incensed to find her kissing the patient… “I’m certain Miss Granger meant Mr.
Potter no harm. Quite the opposite, I should think.”  He’d known. All along. He’d admitted as much after the Quidditch
match. “I can rather imagine this is an exciting and yet somewhat frustrating time for you both. It is not easy to
change the footing of any relationship with the eyes of the whole school upon you.”

It made sense of Harry’s worry.

“What if he already knows what I think I felt that night in the cave? He’s already told me that love is a power
Voldemort has forgotten, or forsaken. What if he’s encouraging us just because he thinks that you can help me somehow?”

“What if he is? I want to help you Harry.”

“And I want your help, I honestly do. Your help. Not what Dumbledore might think you need to do to help me. Do you see
the difference? I admire him, I’m grateful to him. But he scares me sometimes, Hermione.”

That put Dumbledore’s glowing words in something of a new light for her.

“I can do little more than wish you both well, but if I can be of any appropriate assistance, I hope you will come to
me.”

Maybe it was time for a little… heart to heart with the Headmaster. And perhaps a new training regimen for the Boy Who
Needed To Live.

Hermione Granger began to plan.

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“What kind of kinky stuff are you up to, then?” Ron asked doubtfully when Hermione crept to his bed and woke him to ask
him to take Harry to the Infirmary in the morning. “You’re not supposed to break him, Hermione.”

“Now you tell me!” was all she said, and scurried off to the girls dorms.

Harry was sitting on the edge of his bed trying to ease his arm through the sleeve of his robes.

“Never mind,” Ron told him on his way through to the loo. “I’ll carry them. Find your tie and get your books. We can
still make breakfast if Pomfrey gets right to you.”

This Hospital Wing thing was really getting old, Harry decided.

“So what happened?” Ron asked as they made their way across the Common room and out through the portrait hole. Harry
waited until they were well out of earshot of the Fat Lady this time.

“Well, the good news is that the potion works,” he said tiredly.

“Bloody Hell! No way! Are you telling me that… last night… you, I mean he…”

“Yeah.”

“But I didn’t hear a thing… did I? What did he do? What did you… Holy crap, Harry, what did he do when he found out
Hermione was there?”

“He wanted me to kill her,” Harry had to force the words from his mouth. “He was furious, just disgusted. Went from
playing cat and mouse games with me to spouting the usual twisted rubbish. ‘Filthy Mudblood in your bed!. Kill her.
Throttle her! DO IT! I COMMAND YOU!’ You know, that kind stuff.”

Ron squeaked.

“I actually felt a little… erm, like for Snape for a couple of minutes there,” Harry admitted. “The one and only time
I’ve ever been happy I couldn’t move. He kept on trying, though. Something just snapped in my arm while we were fighting
about who it really belonged to. Hermione heard it, and I could tell she was grossed out. She started checking me over,
as if to make sure the potion was really working and you know what? He was either really and truly disgusted by her or
actually afraid, because wherever she touched me, he moved away.”

“Hate to say it, but I’d be afraid of her about then as well. How did you manage to get rid of him? You did get rid of
him, didn’t you?”

“No, I’ve always wanted a Weasley for breakfast!” Harry hissed.

Ron started violently. “NOT funny, Harry. You have one sick sense of humor, mate.”

“Sorry. I’ve got no sense of humor anymore, really.”

They were almost to the door of the infirmary. Ron stopped. “Harry? How did you get rid of him?”

“I didn’t. Hermione did. I’m really glad you weren’t interested in the whole dream keeper thing, Ron, because you know
what she did? She kissed me. Full frontal snog, and he almost took the back of my head off trying to get away.”

Ron’s look of stupefaction almost restored Harry’s lost sense of humor.

“What are you going to tell Pomfrey? Better still, exactly how much are you going to tell Dumbledore?”

“First things first. We’ve got to quick think up something plausible for Madam Pomfrey. I’ll cope with Dumbledore later.
What do you reckon? Arm wrestling Millicent Bulstrode? Tripped over my own broomstick? Fell out of bed?”

“Any way we can implicate Malfoy? It was his hero, after all.”

“Um, Ron, if we’re trying to be the good guys we aren’t actually supposed to lie about him, right? Did you know Bill
calls Voldemort the Dark Wanker by the way?”

“Bill always did have a bit of a death wish. Bet he wouldn’t call him that if he were sleeping in the next bed to you.
And for your information, if you don’t own up to Pomfrey that it was Voldemort trying to choke Hermione in your bed last
night that broke your arm, you’re still technically lying anyway. Just a thought.”

“Thanks. I prefer to think of it as relatively harmless, self-preservation-minded bending of the truth myself. How about
falling down the stairs?”

“No thanks.”

“Ron?”

“You’re not exactly graceful, mate, but anyone who can catch the snitch like you do isn’t likely to be unable to manage
stairs. By sixth year I think they stop believing you about the missing steps as well. That broom won’t fly.”

“Ron, whether or not we make breakfast this morning is resting on a good excuse to get Madam Pomfrey to fix this now.”

“Okay. Leave it to me. Just follow my lead.”

Ron stepped ahead of Harry into the infirmary.

“Madam Pomfrey! Quick! Harry was in the shower and we heard the strangest screaming. I think he’s actually broken it! “

“Prepare to die a truly humiliating death, Ronald Bilius Weasley.” Harry told him softly as three fifth year Hufflepuff
girls awaiting relief from skin-clearing charms gone wrong (they’d seemed to have removed their noses altogether along
with their spots) forgot their woes, burst into hysterical giggles and gave him a rather avid once-over. “Just remember,
the smartest witch of our age is on my team now.”

Madam Pomfrey rushed from her office looking just a tad flushed. Harry quickly pointed to his arm. She visibly relaxed
and gestured down the aisle to the next bed but one. “You’ll just have to wait your turn, Mr. Potter. Quite the morning
this has turned out to be already!”

“Sweet Merlin let that not be Potter and the Weasel,” groaned a voice from the second bed as they passed, “Is there no
place safe from you two?”

Draco Malfoy sat holding a rather pungent poultice to the beginnings of a brilliant black eye.

“What happened to you?” Ron laughed. “Mobbed by your fan club?”

“Sort of,” Malfoy sneered. “Your little sister’s got a hell of a right hook.”

Nope. Today wasn’t looking to be Harry’s day either.

“Ron, why don’t you go ahead and get yourself something to eat? Looks like it’s going to be a while,” Harry tried,
sitting on the end of the bed.

“Why’d Ginny punch you?” Ron asked. “She usually goes straight to the old bat bogey hex. You must have really ticked her
off.”

“I made the mistake of assuming she had more class. Being a true Weasley she went straight for the Muggle method.”

“Ron, really, get yourself some breakfast. I’m fine. I’ll see you in class.” Harry told him.

“You’re such an annoying git I’m surprised she didn’t hex you on top of it. Here’s a hint, she doesn’t take kindly to
red head jokes,” Ron laughed.

“I rather like red hair actually. It’s the temper that goes along with it. So unpredictable. One minute they love you,
the next you’re wearing murtlap and alloburry poultice.”

“Ron, could you GO TO BREAKFAST and ask Hermione to meet us in the library after Arithmancy? Please?”

“Well, at least you’ll never have to worry about the first bit.” Ron said, a small, puzzled frown starting to form
between his eyes.

Harry needed a distraction. Was it worth hinting to Draco that he’d spent some quality time with Voldemort again last
night? No, he’d only go and tell the whole school again… unless he already knew. But then he’d know about Hermione being
in his bed also. Bugger.

Draco was grinning behind his poultice, although that could mean almost anything, really. What the hell was Ginny
thinking? More importantly, what was Ginny up to, punching him out?

“Well, Mr. Malfoy,” Madam Pomfrey said, finally finished with the Hufflepuffs and bustling round his bed. “What happened
to you?”

“Potter punched me. Completely unprovoked. Just hauled off and punched me, babbling something about Cho Chang and
Granger.”

Harry felt as if someone had punched him, in the stomach.

“Bloody he… He never did! You lying Slytherin sack of…” Ron gasped.

Harry saw Malfoy’s eyes glitter purposefully into his own. ‘Admit it or I’ll tell him,’ they said, clearly as if he’d
spoken the words. Harry ached to send a few wordless words Malfoy’s way, but knew that Dumbledore would have his stones
for it; he was meant to be learning control, not giving the game away. There was nothing for it but to go along and take
whatever came his way this time, but he’d well and truly had it with Malfoy’s habitual blackmailing. Ginny Weasley was
going to do some talking whether she felt like it or not. Today.

“I was upset about what happened to Hermione at the Quidditch match,” Harry cut Ron off miserably. “I know it was wrong,
I just … I said I was sorry.”

Ron turned on Harry, his mouth opening and closing silently.

Madam Pomfrey tutted and pulled the poultice away from Malfoy’s face, flicking her wand diagnostically back and forth
before his eye.

“That must have been quite a blow. Fortunately you missed his eye and mostly contacted the cheek area. I see no damage
to the eye itself, Mr. Malfoy. The poultice will probably do as much good as any healing charm. A masking charm could
cover the bruising if you wish, but a black eye always shows some shadowing. A matter of choice rather than healing,
really. Of course your Heads of House will have to be informed. You both must be quite familiar with the punishment for
fighting by now.”

“I’ll leave it, thank you.” Malfoy told her. “Does Professor Snape really have to be involved?” He grinned at Harry
maliciously behind her back as Madam Pomfrey turned to Harry’s bed and took hold of his arm. Harry tried to remain quiet
but she was twisting and turning it, stretching his fingers and looking for the source of the problem near his wrist.

“S’up a bit, really,” he hissed, pushing the unbuttoned cuff of his school shirt up over his elbow. She caught sight of
the bruising on his forearm and ran a well practiced hand along it before following up with a wave of her wand.

“Broken, Mr. Potter. Really…” She murmured a series of charms, nudging the bones into alignment with flicks of her wand
and then pouring him a dose of the potion that would begin knitting the mend together. Harry fought the fierce itching
sensation he always felt when a bone was magically healed. “Odd place to break while inflicting a black eye,” she said
thoughtfully with the final movement of her wand over his arm. “Usually one sees damage to the opponents’ fingers or
wrist.”

“I, erm…” He lifted his eyes to Malfoy. It’s your lie, slug bait, he thought. Got any good ideas?

“Oh, punching my eye didn’t hurt him,” Malfoy said smoothly. “I used a reductor curse on his second swing. Self-defense
of course. Pureblood wizards don’t fight with their fists, after all. I could have stopped the whole thing without
bloodshed if he hadn’t attacked me from behind. Result of growing up muggle, I guess.”

Oh yeah. I punched you in the eye from behind. Always were backarseward you…

“Harry? What are you doing? Are you going to let him get away with that?” Ron hissed furiously.

Madam Pomfrey glared at him. “Mr. Potter is in quite enough trouble as it is, Mr. Weasley. I suggest you stay right out
of it. I’ll just pretend I didn’t hear your little cover story about the… about how he hurt himself. Now off you go, the
three of you. Professor McGonagall and Professor Snape will take it from here.”

“It’ll save Ginny a detention or worse, won’t it? What did you want me to do? Turn her in?” Harry whispered back as they
left the Hospital Wing behind Malfoy. He was in a sling once more.

“Guess I’ll still have to watch my back, shall I?” Draco sneered. “Hard to find some stupid window when I’m always
having to look behind me.”

“How will you know the difference, you snake. You’ve always had your head stuck up your arse anyway.” Harry told him,
unleashing the anger he’d worked so hard to contain before Madam Pomfrey. “Just try that again, Malfoy. I’m through with
that particular game of yours. Done. I’m going to have a little talk with your… friend. Tell whoever you want.”

“Weaselbee doesn’t seem quite ready for that, does he? Clueless as usual. Guess you’ll have to sic your little bed buddy
on me then, won’t you, Potter.”

Harry froze, and Ron careened off him. Draco smiled. “Oh yes, Potter. I know.”

There was only one way he could, wasn’t there? He didn’t believe Dean or Seamus or Neville would do that to him; or to
Hermione when it came down to it. Still, no one else knew… Only Voldemort. But Hermione’s jinx… wouldn’t that have set
it off? Something was very wrong here. Nothing Draco had said since the night in the cave had ever added up the way it
should. Harry’s mind was racing and he knew that Draco was watching him closely. Time for a quote straight from the old
man, then.

“Why don’t you prove it, then,” Harry said, channeling his memory of Lucius threatening him with Tom Riddle’s diary
second year. He pushed past a suddenly disconcerted Draco and headed down the hall. “Come on, Ron. We’re going to be
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Harry caught up with Ginny Weasley on her way back from Care of Magical Creatures. She was walking up the hill in a
group of Gryffindors and Slytherins. How perfect that Ginny’s year shared Hagrids’ class with the Slytherins as well;
perhaps word of his preemptive strike would wend its way directly back to Malfoy.

He waded through the fifth years and stopped directly in front of Ginny, forcing her to stop as well.

“You and I need to have a little talk,” he said.

“I’m busy just now Harry. Maybe after Quidditch tonight,” she replied, avoiding his eyes.

“No, Ginny. Now. No more excuses, no more games. It’s gone too far. Right now.”

Harry didn’t often get really angry. He was really angry now, and it showed.

“Bullying pig,” she accused him, but it was so half-hearted, so un-Ginny-like that he didn’t know whether to laugh or
scream out of sheer frustration.

“Shut up and come,” he insisted, diverting her in the direction of the lake.

He could hear the silence of the fifth years behind them, knew that it would only last until they were out of earshot.

They walked toward the lake. Harry reached over and took her book bag for her with his good arm and she laughed; a
single dry bark that sounded more bitter than amused.

“Prince bloody Valiant, aren’t you. God forbid I carry the heavy burden of my own books while the great and noble Harry
Potter accuses me of betrayal and wanton behavior.”

“Sounds like guilt talking to me.”

“You wish.”

“Oh yeah, Ginny, that’s what I really want.” He rounded on her. “Don’t pull this crap on me. Everything else aside, I
risked my life for you once and now you’re… doing Merlin-knows-what with someone who hates me and whose sole goal in
life is to make mine even worse. Someone who hates Ron, too, and disparages your entire family at every opportunity.
Why? Could you just tell me that one thing? Why?”

“Why don’t you ask Hermione?”

“Why don’t you just quit playing games and tell me yourself? It’s not about me, or Hermione. It’s about you and Draco
Malfoy.”

“Oh, but it is about you. And Hermione knows all about it too.”

“Ginny. You. Malfoy. You and Malfoy. Why. Now.”

Finally backed against a conversational wall her face twisted alarmingly, tears welling in her eyes. Harry just knew he
wasn’t going to like what was coming. At that moment he would have gladly faced a hundred Hungarian Horntails to have
been somewhere, anywhere, else.

“Because I loved you,” she wailed. “It wasn’t funny, it wasn’t just a school girl’s crush. It was real, and I wanted you
so much I thought I would die from it and I couldn’t let on to anyone. My whole family embraced you, took you right in.
There was no escaping the fact you didn’t love me back because there was no escaping you. My seventh brother.

You saved my life alright, but because it was the right thing to do and God forbid Harry Potter not do the right thing
and save his best friend’s little sister. I came back from the brink of death at the hands of Tom Riddle and there you
were, bleeding and trying to hide that you were dying from me. I loved you so much at that moment, Harry, and it
wouldn’t have made the slightest difference to you if I had been Pansy sodding Parkington. And that hurt. And it didn’t
get better, and it went on not getting better right through seeing Michael Corner and then with Dean. There was no
comparison. They were just… boys.

Everyone calls you the Boy Who Lived but you’ve never been a damned boy in your whole life. God only knows what you are,
what the muggles and Dumbledore and Voldemort have made you, but you left a… a hole inside me, an emptiness that no one
else could fill. Until I got to know Draco. Until I got past the Slytherin on the surface and really got to know him. I
thought I could make him happy. I thought I could make him turn away from Voldemort. I thought I could make a
difference, make something good happen for once. Make you see me.”

Harry was dumbfounded. What had he ever done to deserve this particular nightmare? He’d never once done anything he’d
been aware of to make Ginny love him, knew that she didn’t really, she couldn’t. The fierceness of his newfound feelings
for Hermione at least gave him a sense of what she was talking about, but he was still lost somehow. How did she make
the jump from thinking she loved him to Malfoy?

“I’m sorry. I’m so very, very sorry if I did anything at all to hurt you. I never meant to, honestly. But if this is to
get back at me or something Gin, hit me, hex me, do whatever you have to do, just don’t do this.”

“This has nothing to do with getting back at you. It’s not to spite you, it’s despite you. How do you think it makes me
feel that the one person I want now is someone you and Ron and Hermione all hate. “

“I would think it would make you feel awful. And confused, unsure, probably angry. I’m no genius when it comes to
feelings but even I know those don’t add up to love. So why?”

“Why do you love Hermione?”

“Please don’t. Don’t even try to compare them. That’s so unfair the thought just makes me sick.” Harry said.

She just looked at him.

“Ginny, he’s… damaged. Worse than me, if that’s possible. He’s evil. He uses people, he cheats, he lies, and he truly
thinks he has a birthright that excuses all of it. Tell me, show me, what is there to love? “

“He was those things. I won’t deny that. He was born and raised and bullied into those things. You’ve seen his father,
you can guess the way Draco was brought up. He’s changed now, but no one will let him, no one will see. He wants to be
different. I can help him. He needs me.”

Harry’s blood ran cold.

“Ginny, no. Nothing’s changed. He’s…”

“He’s what? Using me? How can you say that? He saved your life, Harry. He said you’d never admit it, and he was right.”

“I’ll admit it. I’d stand up and shout it to the whole school if it would change your mind. Draco Malfoy saved my life!
Of course he told me it was for you, if it weren’t for the fact it would please you he would have enjoyed watching me
die. Is that how you think you can help him? Trying to remind him not to enjoy pain, not to kill just for the sake of
killing? He’s not a little boy anymore, Ginny. It’s not about teasing the weaker kids and making them cry, or getting
someone into detention. Even if he does bolt from his father and Voldemort, the stakes for all of us have changed. He’ll
end up in the middle of things whether he wants to or not and I don’t see him having to rehearse the unforgivables to
work up his nerve to use one. It’s second nature to him. Is that really what you want for yourself?”

“It doesn’t have to be that way. He doesn’t want any part of Dumbledore’s war with Voldemort. You’re the one who’s going
to be the killer, Harry.”

It was said without malicious intent, almost as if she were pointing out something patently obvious that she thought
he’d failed to grasp. That small thought was important to him; it suggested that she wasn’t quoting the prophecy somehow
but simply making an observation. She didn’t know, Draco didn’t know, Voldemort didn’t know. That point acknowledged and
filed away, he felt time resume and her words tear through him with a pain that pushed him right over an edge he’d been
close to for far too long.

He turned from her and walked away, up the path toward the castle. His legs were shaking, he badly needed to pee. A loud
roaring sound accompanied him; at first he thought it was the sound of his own blood rushing, echoing in his ears. But
then his fringe flew in his eyes, his robes swirled round him as if racing him back to the doorway. His hands ached, as
if his bones had grown too big for his skin to hold. For a moment he feared that Voldemort was back but in another
moment’s time he knew true fear; this time of himself.

This was him. Something in his heart was clawing its way out and he couldn’t stop it. He picked up his pace, stumbling
forward, toward what he could not tell. There was something he needed to tell before… someone needed to know… What? It
was so important, everything depended on it, but he was keeping too many secrets, they were all running together and he
forgot who it was safe to tell what. Dumble… No!

Hermione! He had to find Hermione.

His hands grasped the latch to the door and pulled.

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16. Chapter 16

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 16

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Hermione was in Arithmancy when the little second year Gryffindor girl made her way breathlessly to Professor Vector’s
desk bearing a note from Professor McGonagall.

“Miss Granger, Professor McGonagall requires your presence immediately in the entry hall,” Vector informed her.

She gathered up her books and began returning them neatly into her bag when she had a faint sense of foreboding, as if
an ill wind had blown swiftly by her. She looked up at the messenger leaning against the door to wait for her, catching
her breath. She thrust the remainder in helter-skelter and made for the hallway.

“I’m not a prefect any longer,” she told the girl as they hurried along. “Are you sure Professor McGonagall wanted me in
particular?”

“It’s Harry Potter,” the girl told her, eyes enormous. Hermione noticed a thin layer of dust or fine grit coated the
child’s robes and hair. “He’s made a great big bit of the wall come down in the entry hall.”

Hermione couldn’t believe the sight that met her eyes as they descended the stairs. A cloud of stone mortar particles
hung in the air like a descending fog. Everything in sight was covered with a layer of gritty pulverized stone. Chunks
of rock from fist size to small boulders were strewn about. In the middle of it all was Harry, crouched down on the
balls of his feet with his head buried in his arms, gently rocking. Dumbledore and McGonagall stood at the foot of the
stairs, neither making any obvious attempt to approach him.

“Miss Granger,” Professor McGonagall greeted her. “You may go,” she told the second year. “Please remind Mr. Filch that
no one is to come this way until Professor Dumbledore sends word.”

“What… what happened?” Hermione asked. “Is Harry alright?”

“We can not at the moment safely ascertain that, Miss Granger,” Dumbledore told her. “We were rather hoping you might
help us toward that end. He does not seem to want either Professor McGonagall or myself near, and I would not wish to …
upset him, unless there was no other option.”

She looked wonderingly from Harry’s hunched form to where the two professors stood. He seemed oblivious of their
presence, what could they mean he wouldn’t… She moved past them to the end of the staircase but as soon as she set her
foot on the floor of the entry hall she could feel it. The Muggle part of her mind likened it to a live electrical wire
fallen into a puddle after a violent storm; a current of magical energy unlike anything she had even experienced
crackled threateningly across the floor. It seemed to be coming from Harry.

Was it Harry? Or was it Voldemort?

She took another step further onto the floor and felt the magic lick and flare around her like flames. She stood still
and let it flow around her, hoping against hope that it was Harry, that he would recognize her, know that she wanted to
reach him. She took another step, and then another. The energy pulsed and then seemed almost to caress her, sweeping
softly from her feet to her head and back down again.

“Harry?”

He stopped rocking and she heard Professor McGonagall’s breath catch; when she looked back toward the staircase she saw
Dumbledore’s wand was raised. She realized with a shock that it was a sight she had never seen before; Dumbledore never
openly carried a wand in the school and seemed not to need it for the mostly trick-magic he did before the students. She
frowned and shook her head, but his stance and expression remained unchanged.

“Hermione?” she heard, but when she turned back to him his head was still buried in his arms.

“Harry, are you okay? You’re scaring us, can we help? What’s the safe word? Please say it, show me it’s just you.”

She heard a gasping that sounded like strangled tears.

“Look at me Harry. Please.” she pleaded.

“I can’t. Hermione, there’s something wrong with me. It’s not Voldemort, it’s me. Can’t you feel it? I can’t take
anymore. I can’t stand one more thing.”

She glanced over at Dumbledore and McGonagall to get their take on his words and realized with a start that she was
hearing him inside herself. The hall was silent.

“Please look at me, Harry. I need to see you. Whatever it is I’ll help you, we’ll figure it out. Please trust me.”

“I do trust you. Can you still trust in me?”

He raised his head and met her gaze at last.

She was so relieved that it took her a moment to realize something was different. The face she loved, lined with worry
but undeniably Harry’s, the wild black hair, the jagged scar. All were the same, except…

His eyes had changed. They were the pale silvery gray color she knew so well from a face she utterly loathed.

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“Say it, Harry,” she said, backing away from him, voice shaking. She looked down at the floor, back at Dumbledore and
McGonagall, anywhere but at the perversion of Malfoy eyes in Harry’s face. Professor McGonagall appeared shocked; never
a good sign. It wasn’t easy to ruffle the transfiguration teachers’ fur, she’d had years of practice masking her own
rather strong emotions from her students. Heading Gryffindor House was a volatile occupation after all. Dumbledore’s
eyes were narrowed and distinctly un-twinkley.

“What?” his voice was anguished and it shook her. She knew her backing away might frighten or hurt him, but the real
Harry would understand, would want her to be cautious. She sure hoped so, anyway.

“The safe word. What is it?”

“Chocolate Frog.” She turned back to him, but had to drop her eyes again. As she did so she saw him pass a shaking hand
over his face as if feeling for what she couldn’t bear to see. He doesn’t know! She thought. But then what was he
talking about, asking if she could trust him? What in the world was going on? Was it really Harry?

“Tell me something only you would know,” she said softly. She still couldn’t look at his face. She realized how the line
of unspoken communication she had developed with him over the years relied heavily on his eyes as a window to his
thoughts.

“Why? Hermione, why won’t you look at me?”

“Just do it. Tell me. Anything. Something Malfoy wouldn’t know,” she added pointedly.

The name certainly brought a reaction, she was almost certain she had heard him growl. “You smile in your sleep. You
always braid the left side of your hair first. You keep your wand in the bed hangings…”

“Harry,” she cut him off. “Harry, what’s wrong with your eyes?”

She heard footsteps, found McGonagall and Dumbledore beside her. Harry climbed slowly to his feet.

“My eyes? Hermione, I just lost complete control of my magic and blew a hole in the wall. The hall was full of little
kids and I couldn’t stop it. I was terrified I’d killed someone. Why are you on about my eyes?”

McGonagall transfigured the pendant around her neck into a mirror and held it up before him. Harry peered into it and a
look of horror joined the strangers’ eyes on his face. His fingers rose, shaking, then began almost convulsively to claw
at them.

It was Dumbledore who swiftly caught his hands and held them away. “Harry, don’t. I think that I have a good idea of
what may have happened. You’ll only hurt yourself. Professor McGonagall, may we use your office? It is considerably
closer than my own and I think we all need to sit down.”

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When they reached Professor McGonagall’s office Dumbledore motioned for Harry to sit in the chair before her desk and
conjured another for Hermione.

“Harry, close your eyes. Empty your mind, as if we were about to embark on one of your Occlumency lessons. Take your
time, please. I’m sure there’s quite a bit to shut the door on.”

Once his eyes closed Hermione found she could look on his face quite comfortably again. It would seem to relax then
suddenly tense with the flicker of an eyebrow or quiver of a lip as his thoughts struggled back. The ticking of
McGonagall’s clock was the only sound in the room as they sat silently, waiting. When he had been quite still for
several minutes she saw Dumbledore stare at him intently for a moment and guessed that he was probing to see if Harry
had managed what he requested. It both fascinated and repulsed her; she found that she did not morally believe in
Legilimency but still could not stop herself from thinking of more then a few ways it would come in handy.

“Picture your own eyes, as you have always seen them. Color, shape and size. Picture them in your own countenance, as if
you were looking not into a mirror, but out of one.”

She saw his eyes move under pale lids, swiftly back and forth, the way they had the morning he had dreamed of the
snitch.

“Open them now, Harry.”

They were green again. She noticed other slight differences that she had missed when she couldn’t make herself look.
Their shape was quite different; Harry’s pupils were larger than Malfoys and his eyes now bore the slightly-out-of-focus
look that meant he was wondering what he’d done with his glasses. She realized he’d not had them on in the hall.

“Albus, do you really think it could be....” Professor McGonagall asked, her own eyes thoughtfully examining Harry’s.

“Perhaps. Perhaps not. I think there were quite a few forces at work here, and only time will truly tell. I would say
that it is most likely an excellent time for Harry to begin his animagus work with you, however.”

“What,” Harry asked pointedly, “was that all about?”

“Before I answer your question, Harry, I must ask you one of my own. Where were you before you entered the castle? What
were you doing, and who, if anyone, was with you?”

“That’s three questions, actually, Professor,” Hermione said before she could stop herself. She blushed.

“Too right, Hermione. I’m afraid I must still ask, however.”

“I was talking to Ginny Weasley on the path to the lake,” Harry told them. Hermione saw his fingers begin to worry at
the wood of the chair between his knees.

Dumbledore looked almost disappointed, as if a promising theory had been disproved.

“What were you talking about?”

“I’d, erm, rather not say.” Harry said without looking up.

“Perhaps if Miss Granger and I were to…” started Professor McGonagall.

That brought his head up with a snap. “It’s not like that at all. It’s got nothing to do with… I want Hermione to stay.
There’s nothing I couldn’t tell you in front of her.”

Hermione felt a small, fierce tug at her heart and she smiled at him. He seemed to see that she had and she could see
him try to return it, a half-hearted effort at best. It dawned on her suddenly what he must have been talking to Ginny
about. Equally suddenly a suspicion bloomed in her gut about where Dumbledore had been going.

“You thought he had been fighting with Malfoy!” she said to Dumbledore. “Why? How would that affect what happened?”

“It appears I was wrong in my deductions, Hermione.”

“Maybe not. What if he were talking about Draco with someone else, or thinking about something to do with him? Would
that still have worked in your hypothesis? What do you think happened?”

“Really, Miss Granger, you have no business questioning Professor Dumbledore, let alone in that tone,” Professor
McGonagall cautioned her.

“Never mind, Minerva. I think perhaps Hermione is on to the heart of the matter, and I am sure it is not her intention
to be rude. She is simply trying to assist Harry. My hypothesis, as you call it, is nothing more than this: Harry
experienced a power surge of sorts. Nothing new, we know that he has had them before, primarily before he came to
Hogwarts and found an outlet for his magic. I believe there was an incident with your cousin and a boa constrictor just
before you arrived if I’m not mistaken, Harry, a little parseltongue and a disappearing window, wasn’t it? And third
year I do believe you blew up your Aunt.”

Harry nodded numbly, his eyes on Hermione. “This was worse though. By far.”

“This is proving to be another rather intense period of time for you, Harry, is it not? You have survived a serious
poisoning, been physically possessed by your greatest enemy and forced to bear the fear of your fellow students. I’m
quite sure it is no secret to Hermione that your defense training has taken on a rather different aspect this year; I
suspect that she would be quite impressed if she knew the half of what you have mastered these last few weeks. And then
there is Hermione herself. Delightful though the emotions of one’s first love may be they are none the less powerful or
complex for being so pleasing. Combine those facts with your age in general and your natural predisposition to do
nothing by halves and you have the perfect recipe for a magical…eruption.”

Dumbledore eyed Professor McGonagall’s ginger newt tin longingly and she took the hint, opening the lid and passing it
to him. He extracted one, munched thoughtfully a moment and continued. “You have quite a bit of unusual magical energy
in you, Harry. You told me once about your failed haircuts as a boy. Your father taught himself to become an animagus
when he was just your age, wasn’t it? And you’ve met Nymphadora Tonks, I know. She was a true rarity displaying
Metamorphmagus abilities as young as she did. These things happen occasionally, and perhaps the best we can expect from
you for awhile is the unexpected.”

“So you think that Harry basically tripped a magical circuit after talking with Ginny and when the energy got away from
him part of him unknowingly acted like a metamorphmagus and took on a characteristic of the person he was upset about.”

“That sums it up rather concisely, although I must confess my… curiosity as to the connection between Miss Weasley and
Mr. Malfoy in Harry’s subconscious. Yes, Hermione, that is my suspicion. Once he provided you with the safe word – and
may I also say that I was quite relieved you were familiar with it, I was certain we were going to have to send for Mr.
Weasely – it seemed clear that it was a physical change in Harry rather than an incomplete change in someone else.”

Harry squirmed in his seat and exhaled softly. “Professor Dumbledore, there’s something I… something Hermione and I need
to tell you.” He stole a look at Hermione and she nodded encouragingly. If Dumbledore already suspected there was
nothing to be gained from attempting to deceive him, and everything to lose.

“Hermione knew the safe word because she’s been my dream keeper, Sir. We all talked about it and she wanted to, and Ron
was nervous about it, and I just feel… safer that it’s her.”

“It was very dangerous not to inform Professor Dumbledore or myself that you three had made such a change. What if
something had happened when Ron wasn’t there and no one knew to send for Miss Granger to release you? A foolhardy risk
indeed!” Professor McGonagall remonstrated.

“Unlikely, Minerva,” Dumbledore said mildly. “Once the potion is ingested the enchantment requires the dream keeper to
allow sleep and then wake the sleeper. My guess is that Miss Granger has been spending rather a lot of time in the sixth
year boy’s dormitory of late.”

McGonagall’s mouth fluttered open and closed again, aghast. She looked a bit like Ron, and Harry had to look away
quickly to keep that thought to himself, stifling a smile.

Hermione was finding nothing the least bit funny. “As a matter of fact, I have. And it’s a good thing, too, because Ron
slept like a baby last night while Voldemort tried to kill Harry! If I hadn’t been there he would have laid there
paralyzed while that evil thing did whatever he wanted to him. He broke Harry’s arm. It could just as easily have been
his neck!” She had built up a sense of righteous indignation as she went along and by the time she reached the part
about his neck she was well and truly crying, tears streaming unnoticed down her cheeks. Harry wished desperately for
some means to comfort her but felt pinned to his chair by Dumbledore and McGonagall’s dismayed expressions.

McGonagall turned on him. “Madam Pomfrey reported that she had you in for a broken arm this morning, but she said you
started a fight with Malfoy. I’ve had Professor Snape after me all day to settle punishment for you.”

“Malfoy lied,” Harry admitted. “I went along with him because… because he was being a Malfoy. He’s playing one of his
nasty mind games on someone I don’t want hurt, and probably on the rest of us as well. He knows things he shouldn’t, I
don’t know how, but I just want it to stop. He said he knew that Hermione was sleeping… well, that she was in my room.
It’s bad enough dealing with Voldemort right now, but I’m starting to think that Malfoy held off on the dark mark just
to make himself more useful as a spy as well. I don’t want him to have any more ammunition against Hermione or Ron.”

“But Voldemort actually physically possessed you last night, here in Hogwarts itself?” Dumbledore asked dispiritedly.

Harry nodded, avoiding his Headmaster’s gaze. He hated it when Dumbledore seemed diminished and merely human, hated it
more when he himself was the cause. It frightened him, made him realize anew how much of the responsibility for
Voldemort’s ultimate end was passing on to him.

“Did he make any specific threats? Did he manage to get to the Prophecy?”

Harry shook his head. “No. I’m certain. I’m much stronger with the Occlumency now, and he was distracted fairly
quickly.”

“By what, may I enquire?” Dumbledore asked.

“Erm… Hermione. He was very upset to find her there.”

“What exactly did he say, Harry. Do you remember?”

Harry almost wished Voldemort would possess him now and get him the hell out of McGonagall’s office before he got
himself in any deeper. He had so wanted to explain all this to Hermione without the Headmaster and their Head of House
joining in… “He, unh, said…” Harry sighed. “He said ‘Mudblood! Filthy Mudblood in your bed!. We can’t have that, Potter.
Kill her. Put your hands around that scrawny neck and squeeze. Throttle her! DO IT! I COMMAND YOU! ‘ And that’s how I
broke my arm, fighting him off.”

Shocked didn’t begin to describe the three around him. Appalled, aghast, sickened, revolted, dismayed; a whole thesaurus
of emotion lapped the room like an angry tide.

“You never said…” Hermione whispered, still streaming. He pressed his hands beneath his knees; they ached to wipe her
tears away.

“I couldn’t, could I? I should have before you put me back to sleep but I was so tired and then I chickened out and lost
my chance. You always have to run out in the mornings or I would have told you then. I meant to, I did, Hermione. I
would have.”

But Hermione seemed positively approachable compared to Dumbledore. He was so livid Harry wondered for a moment what
would happen if Dumbledore lost control of his magic. It appeared that perhaps Dumbledore were considering the same
thing.

“I will not have that in this castle. I will NOT have that evil amongst these children. I WILL NOT have those words
spoken here,” he intoned in a voice Harry had heard only once before, when he had seen him square off against Voldemort
in the Ministry of Magic last year. “Voldemort should not be able to enter this school in any form.”

“Albus!” warned McGonagall shakily, and he seemed to come back to himself.

“Harry, Hermione, forgive me, please.” He sighed deeply and seemed to be lost in thought for a brief moment.

“It seems I have made a grievous error in underestimating you both. My prideful protection has been less than useless to
you; indeed it has exposed you to things I would willing have laid down my own life to keep from you, and for that I am
truly sorry. There is something I must take care of now; it will clearly wait no longer. I will have to keep odd hours
in and out of the castle for a day or two. Fawkes will always be able to reach me; I am going to ask you to keep him
with you each night, Harry. Do not hesitate to enlist his aid.

Hermione, you have my express permission to be out of your own room as necessary during the night. The appropriate
authorities will be informed as to your location. Notice I say you; and I mean you. Harry himself is to be tucked up
tight in the sixth year boys by the usual curfew hour. I will leave the rest in Professor McGonagall’s capable hands.

Minerva, I regret to have to do this, but please do not challenge Professor Snape in regard to Harry and Draco’s
supposed altercation. I do not wish Mr. Malfoy to have any more idea of what is going on than he may already have. If
you believe the punishment to be dangerous or unreasonable send Fawkes for me. And lastly, Harry, I am going to ask you
to keep on with your special defense lessons, but I will send Tonks to you tomorrow as well. You are most likely not a
metamorphmagus as she is, but she has had to learn to control a tremendously strong magical force from a very young age
and I’m sure she can give you some insight with your difficulties in that regard.”

Just when Harry thought mercy had finally found him and the whole strange incident was drawing to a close there came a
sharp knock on Professor McGonagall’s door. She opened it to reveal Filch, Mrs. Norris tucked under his arm and his
usual glare intact but somewhat subverted by another emotion Harry couldn’t place. The way things were going, however,
it was hardly likely to mean good news for him.

“Started to clean up the mess Potter made of the hall before the little beasts will be coming through it for their
dinner. Had that seventh year Hufflepuff to help me, the one I caught…”

“Yes, Mr. Filch, I know just who you mean. Was there a problem?”

“Had him putting the wall back together while I started on the dust. Potter should be down there on his hands and knees
if you ask me, I could give him a good switching while he cleaned up his own sodding mess.”

“The problem, Argus?” McGonagall asked sharply.

“Wouldn’t go back together, would it. Nothing doing. No Merlin, that Hufflepuff boy, but he must’ve tried twenty spells
if he tried one and the stones just weren’t going back. Then the last one he tried, bang. The rest dropped out and,
well, see for yourself why don’t you?”

Exchanging looks of concern McGonagall and Dumbledore filed out after Filch. Dumbledore turned briefly in the doorway
and indicated Harry and Hermione should follow. Harry felt for Hermione’s hand as they passed through the door and was
hugely relieved when it slid willingly into his grasp; he moved close beside her so that their joining was engulfed by
their robes. He could still clearly see the tracks of her tears although they seemed to have ceased.

Filch led them to the top of the staircase down to the entry hall and stopped. There, high in the wall where Harry’s
errant magic had blasted quite a number of stones loose of their mortar was a larger, circular hole. The castle walls
were quite thick but in the dark shadows of the hole a darker form was revealed spanning out like… spokes on a wheel.
Harry felt Hermione tighten her own grasp on his fingers. Good Lord but she was strong when she was excited.

“Mr. Filch, please go outside and make certain that there are no students in the courtyard. Come back inside and tell me
when you are quite sure all is clear.” Dumbledore requested. Filch grumbled his way down the stairs as the Headmaster
turned to Harry and Hermione. Harry saw that he appeared quite hopeful now, some of the gloom of the confessions in
McGonagall’s office lifted.

“It appears that Hermione may indeed have been correct in her guess about the ‘rose that never dies,’’ he said. It
struck Harry how alike Dumbledore and Hermione were at that moment, joined by their mutual excitement of an abstract
possibility proved true. Harry himself really felt like a nap, he was dropping, and he felt no excitement whatsoever
about uncovering any part of the barmy old riddle after all that had occurred. A flare of pessimism reminded him that
like everything else it was unlikely to end up positive for him, it probably revealed him being blasted into smithereens
by a laughing Voldemort. A least Ron would be happy about the return of their Hogsmeade privileges.

Filch reappeared in the doorway and gave the all-clear sign. Dumbledore motioned him to the other end of the hall toward
the entrance to the dungeons.

“Let no one through,” he boomed, then raised his wand. A complicated series of movements and muttered spells ensued, and
slowly, with a great crashing and smashing from outside the castle, the hole began to grow lighter and brighter. Several
grating rumblings later a weak beam of light shone through. Dumbledore renewed his efforts; McGonagall wordlessly lifted
her wand and began assisting him. The light broke through at an increased pace, bringing a rainbow of colors with it. It
took almost a quarter hour of ceaseless effort between the two to uncover the whole thing, but when they had finished an
enormous round window with delicate stone and lead tracery forming a center and two rows of outwardly spiraling petal
forms was revealed. The colors were glorious; brilliant cobalt, deep ambers, lush greens, royal purples and blood reds
lit with an unearthly light. It was breathtaking, a truly beautiful thing.

There were, however, no recognizable pictures at all within its design. The leaded shapes of glass were as random as the
brilliant bits of a kaleidoscope.

As disappointment flooded the faces around him Harry felt an odd surge of relief.

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They received permission to skip the evening meal from Dumbledore. They found Ron and went to the kitchens to scrounge
food from Dobby, then took the enormous basket the little house elf gave them to the Room of Requirement, pacing back
and forth three times before the door. They didn’t talk about what they thought they needed; Harry himself envisioned a
refuge. He simply wanted, no craved, a safe haven to sit alone with his friends for an hour or two. Or two hundred, if
it were up to him… He had no real desire to wrestle any meaning from the days events, if given the chance he would ask
for a time to ignore them, let them fade a bit first. He accepted, however, that Hermione would find the very idea an
anathema and that what remained of his life was going to hold a certain amount of sucking it up.

Worth it, after all.

The room when it admitted them bore some resemblance to its DA configuration; shelves of books for Hermione, a thick
pile of cushions on the floor probably supplied by Ron, who immediately flopped down on them. Harry could see no
immediate evidence of his own wishes, then realized as Hermione shut the door and he set Dobbys’ basket down beside the
cushions that all he needed was already there. Hermione and Ron.

They ate first. Even Hermione seemed famished. Their conversation over the food was desultory, secondary to their
hunger. Harry realized that he had eaten neither breakfast nor lunch, which explained a lot, really. Ron’s happy
babbling covered up quite a bit for Harry’s silence and he was grateful just to listen to him bicker mildly with
Hermione about a Transfiguration assignment he’d forgotten and would have to finish by nights’ end. Harry realized
thankfully he’d done the assignment with Hermione the other night after Quidditch practice when Ron had fallen asleep.
He’d never felt less like having to deal with school work.

Finally satiated, they settled back against the cushions. The basket contentedly repacked itself and popped back to the
kitchen, happy to report its depleted condition to the house elves. Harry was wondering idly the best method of sussing
out Hermione’s mood when she crawled across the cushions and settled herself beside him, her hand rising to the back of
his neck. Her fingers kneaded gently at the taught muscles and his head drooped forward as he shut his eyes,
relinquishing himself. The room was quiet behind his closed eyelids; he figured Ron must be happily digesting if he
wasn’t making retching noises or suggestive comments about Hermione’s blessed administrations.

“What happened in the infirmary this morning?” she asked. There was an almost dreamy quality to her voice. Soothing him
seemed to be working for her as well. Harry waited, hoping Ron would answer her.

“Effing Malfoy!” Ron exclaimed, his own post-meal somnolence shattered by the memory. “We were waiting for Madam Pomfrey
and he admitted that Ginny had popped him one, but as soon as Pomfrey came over to check him out he had a story all
ready about how Harry punched him in the eye and he’d broken Harry’s arm with a curse because REAL wizards don’t use
their hands. He’s so full of crap it’s mind boggling.”

“Anything else?” she pursued.

Ron seemed puzzled. “What do you mean? What else?”

Harry fervently hoped the fingers currently working magic on his neck didn’t change their minds and start to strangle
him.

“I told him I wasn’t going to play his little game anymore,” he told her. “So he started in on you. He called you my bed
buddy and as good as said he knew what you were doing there. Only, there was no way he could know that unless Dean or
Seamus ratted us, which I don’t believe, or he was in contact somehow with Voldemort. I can’t figure where he’s going
with any of this. Wouldn’t the jinx you put on the paper he signed be activated if it was Voldemort?”

“I’ve been worried about that,” she admitted slowly. “I don’t think I was evil enough considering the possibilities,
Harry. The jinx was all about Draco feeding information about what any of us was doing to Voldemort; it wasn’t designed
to activate if Voldemort was the one providing Draco with ammunition. I didn’t realize how far it could go. Draco could
seriously undermine you with the other students if he wanted to. So far it’s just been his usual poking-your-wound type
of thing, but if he takes Cho’s Great Hall approach and comes up with something really damning about Voldemort’s ability
to possess you, if they worked in tandem somehow and proved what he can do to you, the parents really would be after the
Ministry to have you carted off to Azkaban. For your own good, of course.”

“You know, I kind of don’t mind that you couldn’t get your mind down into to Malfoy’s sewer, Hermione,” Harry told her
quietly. “Hardly a failure when you consider it. Ginny said…” he stopped and gazed at Ron.

“You haven’t seen her, have you?”

“Ginny? Not since yesterday dinner, no. Sounds as if she’s been busy, popping Malfoy and winding you up. Is someone
finally going to tell me what’s going on?”

Harry straightened up reluctantly. Hermione’s fingers had stilled against his neck and he knew he needed a good view of
Ron’s face to broach the subject safely.

“Ron, I didn’t know how to tell you before. I didn’t want to see you hurt and I thought it was a family thing, really,
none of my business. I mean, I’ve never had a family or a sister. But if I did, I do know I wouldn’t want her messing
around with Malfoy.”

“Fairly safe intuition. Who would?”

“Erm, Ron, I’m trying to tell you that your sister is messing round with Malfoy.”

Ron’s eyes grew wary. “Harry, exactly what are you on about?”

“Do the math, Ron. Remember when Malfoy told you he quite liked red hair, that it was the temperament that got him, one
moment they loved you and the next they socked you in the face? Sound familiar? Like someone you know? He was speaking
from experience there.”

“Shut up! “ Ron stormed, but his face gave him away. He was indeed doing the math and not liking the outcome of the
equation at all. “Why? How could she? You must have it wrong, Harry.”

“She thinks she’s in love, Ron,” Hermione said from beside Harry. He could feel her shoulder against him well below his
own, solid and comforting. “She honestly believes she loves him, she thinks he loves her. She thinks she can save him,
change him. She believes every word that he says. She’s every bit as possessed by him as she was by Tom Riddle, just in
a different way. Don’t be mad at Harry, he’s only just found out. I’ve known for awhile, she told me herself. I couldn’t
figure whether to tell you at all at first, then how to tell you once I hadn’t. I still don’t know what’s right. Maybe
she does love him, maybe she can change him. Maybe she’s meant to save the world from him. How do we know, and who are
we to judge?”

“I’m her BROTHER Hermione. I’m her older brother. It’s supposed to be a part of what I am to not let this happen!”

“Isn’t that just a bit of a stereotype, Ron?” Harry said slowly. “Does Ginny really need you to come rushing in to save
her? She’s not stupid, she’s not helpless and she’s got a heck of hex when she wants to.”

“He must have used a potion or a charm on her if she actually thinks she’s… she’s…”

“If we can find out that he has, I’ll be the first to try and help you break it,” Hermione told him. “But if you talk to
her you’ll find she has a fairly well thought out defense of her feelings. Because they’re just that, Ron. Feelings.
Hers, not yours or Fred or George or Bill or Charlie’s. The heart isn’t always rational. The human race couldn’t go on
if it was.”

“What the hell defense could you have for having any sort of feelings for Malfoy?” Ron asked, agonized.

Hermione glanced sideways at Harry and he knew that Ginny had told her some version of what she had finally confessed to
him.

“Ron,” she said gently, “Ginny told me she had really strong feelings for someone who didn’t feel the same for her. She
was desperately unhappy and she tried to hide it by not telling anyone and trying to forget about it with other boys,
like Michael and Dean. It didn’t work for her. I never heard the exact story about how or when she started to get to
know Draco better, but she isn’t blind to him. I do think he manipulates her feelings to his advantage, probably lies to
her, but there is something between them. Can you imagine even for a second what it would feel like to love someone with
all your heart who doesn’t love you, and then when you finally get over them find that it’s with someone no one wants
you to be with?”

“No,” said Ron, positively.

Harry tried. What if Ron had told him to keep his hands off Hermione or risk losing their friendship? What if Hermione
were Pansy Parkinson’s best friend in Slytherin? Feeling what he felt now, he reckoned he’d go through anything for her.
But he felt what he did in great part because of all they had been through together, he felt as if he’d come to love her
bit by bit, drawn deeper and deeper as his knowledge of the sort of person she was had grown. It was like something she
had said; he hadn’t looked across a crowded room and somehow chosen her; she’d taken up residence in his heart before
he’d even known she was there. None of that could have started; it wouldn’t have grown if they’d had to change
themselves too much to fit along the way. There was no way Ginny could feel the same for Malfoy. Or could she? He was
hardly expert in the area of human affections.

But even if she didn’t, was it really up to him to judge her? He wished desperately that she too had a safe word, that
she could just tell them all to go chocolate frog themselves and fight her own battles. If she chose to go down clinging
to Malfoy, it was her life after all.

Except it was his fault, because he didn’t love her.

“Harry, stop trying to pull your hair out. It’s not your fault.” Hermione said softly. “Not everything is.”

He turned to her and clung to her blindly, finding her lips with his and kissing her like he never had before, not in
comfort but in an overwhelming need to affirm his connection to her, to imprint himself on her in some permanent way
that would settle the matter for all time.

“Fucking hormones! That’s all any of this is, all of you,” Ron raged. “Get a room. Better yet, have this one.” He rose
to his feet and stomped out, slamming the door.

Harry knew that it was a hopelessly insensitive thing to do to his best friend, especially when his best friend had just
found out that his sister was in love with Malfoy. But if it wasn’t his fault, if not everything was, then for perhaps
the first time in his life Harry was going to come first.

Well, actually, he knew that he was supposed to at least try and make sure that Hermione did, but he wasn’t going to
fight about it either way. He was done talking, done arguing, done fighting, done feeling guilty for awhile. He slid
down onto his back and drew Hermione on to him with a small, helpless surge of glee. She seemed equally happy to be
there and smiled down at him. She lifted her wand and murmured Colloportus at the door.

“Close your eyes, Hermione.”

“Why? I want to see everything. I have no intention of going into this with my eyes closed.”

“Just for a minute. Have you noticed where you are? I know you like to umm… keep things under control. Just let me do
one thing for you and then I’m yours to do whatever you want, okay?”

“Okay.” She obediently closed her eyes. He didn’t seem to move, other than the hand that had been gently running up and
down her spine as they spoke. She didn’t hear anything at first other than the sound of their breathing, both faster
than usual. There was a faint chirp first, and then a soft flutter of wings.

“Keep them closed, just another moment.”

Now she could hear more and more sounds, growing slowly more distinct. Running water, the soft sigh of tree branches.
The repetitive chirrup of some sort of insect. She felt a breeze against her skin and shivered, not from cold. She knew
what he’d done.

“You can open them now.”

The room was transformed, unrecognizable as the Room of Requirement from before but a perfect duplication of Firenze’s
enchanted woodland.

“You were listening to me.”

“I’ll always listen to you. I promise. I learned my lesson fifth year. I may not like that my conscience sounds like
you, but I know what it means.”

She kissed the tip of his nose, ran her fingers freely through his hair, and laughed.

“What?”

“There really is something going on with you, Harry. When you were pulling on your hair with all your troubles, it
grew.” She took his hand and showed him.

“Should I try and make it go back?” he asked, faintly nervous.

“Oh, no. I like it. More to hold on to. I just thought you should know.”

The room chirped and gurgled around them as they kissed again, reveling in the sheer friendly aloneness of finally being
together.

Hermione found that Harry had meant what he said; he seemed perfectly agreeable to let her take the initiative and
explore. Research was good. Knowledge was power, and it didn’t take her long to figure out what pleased him. He appeared
to thoroughly enjoy soft kisses to his closed eyelids, his ears were ticklish, and exploring the little hollows beneath
his jaw with her tongue earned her her first lovely little groan of appreciation. She found she liked that quite a bit,
the sound produced a portkeyish flutter inside her and she loved that she seemed to have been able to coax it out of him
quite despite himself. Repeated experimentation produced a similar result. Her confidence surged exponentially.

She ran her hands up under his shirt and felt the scurrying thump of his excited heart. It occurred to her that clothes
were supposed to come off. It seemed at once a really good idea. She sat up, straddling his hips and pulled her robes
over her head. As they came off she saw for the first time the inky black sky above them, the brilliant pinpricks of the
stars.

“Harry, it’s just beautiful.”

He sat up as well; drawing her onto his lap and helping her free her hair from the neck of her robe. They began to undo
each other’s ties, eyes level.

“That’s all credit to Firenze. I just tried for a duplicate. You know how Centaurs watch the stars for everything.”

She was faster than he was with buttons; she’d finished his while he was only halfway done hers. She stilled his hands,
pulling the shirt down over his shoulders and off. She finished the rest of her own buttons herself, and pulled the
shirt off. She unhooked her bra, feeling the first shyness start. Uncharted territory. She shrugged her shoulders and
let it slip down her arms.

There was a moments’ silence and then his eyes met hers, equally shy but shining.

“Brilliant,” was all he managed, but Hermione had never felt as beautiful in all her life.

“You’re not so bad yourself,” she whispered back, and they slid together to the enchanted forest floor. She could feel
his warmth everywhere through her own skin, infinitely different than touching with hands. And yet the feel of his hands
was delicious too, she loved the brush of his broomstick calloused fingers against her, the way they explored slowly,
tracking across her ribs and down beneath the itchy waistband of her skirt. And there. Right there. She really loved the
way they felt right there.

She let her own hands travel as well, tracing the contours of her best friend’s chest and marveling that she could
possibly have missed – or resisted - this all that time. It was amazing, but it was more amazing still that it was Harry
beneath her fingers, Harry whom she knew so well and with whom she yet had so much still to learn. She fumbled with the
button of his trousers and then the zip. They were touching each other, eyes fixed on each others’ expressions,
searching.

He was lovely there; there was no other word in Hermione’s mind. She knew if she were to say it aloud she should
probably come up with some more reassuringly masculine expression for it, but what she felt was lovely, she had a
distinct and instinctive fondness for the feel of this part of himself she had never shared before.

It seemed to like her, too.

“Hi there,” she said, unable to hide her grin.

“Hi back,” he said, and did something with his fingers that made her eyes roll back in her head.

She surprised herself with her own responses; how in the world had she suddenly ended up on her back with her legs
hooked round his waist? His pants had to go, and the boxers as well. Her skirt had rucked up around her but it was still
in the way.

“Time out,” she requested breathlessly, tugging at his trousers.

“I will if you will,” he gasped back. “On the count of three.”

Their remaining clothes were shoved heedlessly aside.

Much better. Except now the look in his eyes had grown more serious somehow. A good serious, intent and unquestionably
interested, but she missed the delight in the little-boy grin.

“You are beyond beautiful. Beyond words,” he told her, and suddenly serious proved to be better. When they kissed again
she let her tongue run against the delicate ridges along the roof of his mouth and she got to taste that delicious
little moan, sweet against her lips. His breath was definitely coming faster now, the movement of his hips against hers
more insistent. Words were running through her head and she suddenly realized they were all about getting him inside
her. It was time, past time, right now was definitely the right time. Right now.

“Harry?” she said softly, and knew it was all she needed to say. Loved that it was all she needed, that this was Harry
and nobody else, and he knew her. She felt him reach over her shoulder, fumbling amongst their clothes for a moment
until he came up with his wand.

Duh, Hermione. “And they say I’m the smart one. Thank you,” she told him gratefully.

“Thank Bill Weasley,” he replied somewhat cryptically, and muttered the charm. She heard the wand roll away again across
the floor.

“Help me,” he asked softly, still shy but growing surer. “Show me what you want; I don’t ever want to hurt you. I do
love you, Hermione.”

She took hold of him, unfamiliar and enticing in her hand, and helped him find the way. The discovery in Harry’s
familiar green eyes far out weighed the discomfort of their joining; the sweetness and gratitude in his first kiss while
inside her brought tears she fought desperately, not wanting him to think for a moment that he had hurt her when what
she felt was exactly what she had wanted; him. There. Absolutely perfectly right, as if something long lost was returned
to her.

She was glad at first of his stillness as she adjusted to him…but if he didn’t move soon she’d surely die of wanting him
to. Never mind, then. She drew her arms closer around him and arched up against him, startling him from his reverie. He
quickly got the idea, picking up the rhythm of her need and filling her with it. At some point he grabbed her hand,
threading his fingers through hers and she wondered how they could be doing this and yet that familiar touch of a hand
she’d known since she was eleven could still seem so important. He was her lover now. They were holding hands while he
loved her. She felt her muscles contract at the thought like an involuntary shiver and heard his swift intake of breath.
He likes that. She experimented, tightening, squeezed and held. He let out a strangled gasp that sounded like ‘again’
and went from serious to rapt, focused entirely on her. She sensed his perception drift from the simple wonder of her
body to the knowledge that she too could influence and control his pleasure. He shifted his weight, changing their
joining just enough that his next movement brought Hermione to a sweet rush of stars behind her heavy lidded eyes. She
wondered what the Centaurs would make of these… she predicted that if he could make her see them on any sort of a
regular basis she’d never in her lifetime get enough of Harry. The thought made her hold tightly to him, more determined
than ever that he would survive, if nothing else than by the sheer force of her love and will. The onslaught of him left
her boneless, unable to do more than hold on until he buried his head into the crook of her neck with a single sharp cry
of her name. She felt him shudder into her.

And he was hers. Intellectually, little was different. Intellect simply meant little at that moment to Hermione. Her
heart told her that she had sealed a promise and received one in return, and she meant to keep it for the rest of their
lives together. Whatever that might bring.

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Here With Me

Chapter 17

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Hermione’s internal alarm clock still worked; that or Fawkes awoke her. The Phoenix uttered one warbling note and cocked
its head, blinking amber eyes. It was a quarter hour until curfew and Dumbledore had been quite clear that he wanted
Harry in the sixth year boys’ dormitory each night. She wondered how it could change anything that he was there; it
obviously couldn’t stop Voldemort from dropping by for one of his nightly visitations. How were Neville, Seamus, Dean or
Ron any better equipped to fight him off if anything happened? He probably just wanted to keep track of Harry.

That, or he was trying to make what had just come to be less likely, allowing her to stay with him but surrounding them
both by a bunch of Gryffindor boys. She stretched, cherishing the faint soreness that bore evidence of the failure of
that particular scheme. It had been so much better even than she’d ever managed in her own imagination. He was asleep
beside her, one arm flung protectively across her still. As she watched him her heart surged; his lips were curved into
the faintest of smiles. His face was every bit as tired as the night before, the bones just as sharp, but some portion
of the weight seemed lifted and she was fairly certain she had done that. She’d been uncertain about letting him fall
asleep after without invoking the dream keeper charm, but he’d really seemed to need it and she felt some small part of
her was almost ready to dare Voldemort to try and take him back after that.

“Harry,” she whispered, sitting up and shaking his arm gently. “Harry, wake up.”

His eyes struggled open and blinked, attempting to focus. She found his glasses and put them into his hands. “We need to
get back to the tower. It’s almost curfew.”

He sighed and sat up as well, attempting to stretch the stiffness from his shoulders. Hermione felt a familiar interior
shiver of pleasure watching him now, knowing how else he could move. How much she wanted to see him move that way
again... She wouldn’t have changed a thing, but the forest clearing was certainly less forgiving than cushions or a
mattress. Next time.

“Okay?” he asked with more than a little trepidation, sorting through their scattered clothing. She’d seemed pleased,
he’d thought it was fantastic, but he so often got things wrong…

“Lovely, Harry. Really. Thank you. I’ve never been so happy,” she said softly, and flashed him a gentle smile as she
buttoned her shirt.

He certainly liked it better when her fingers worked those buttons the other way round, but he managed to smile back.
“Me, too.”

She finished her buttons and crawled into his lap for a kiss. The meeting of their lips was far more confident and
accomplished now, a clear reflection of their deeper knowledge of each other. Harry knew that with the way the rest of
the school seemed to watch him these days, as if waiting for him to transform into the Dark Lord at any moment and
rampage through the halls, any difference in their behavior would be immediately noticed and probably speculated upon.
He hoped Hermione didn’t mind. It might have bothered him once, before, but he found it didn’t now.

“We really owe Ron, Harry. That was a bit over the top, timing-wise.”

“Sorry. I honestly don’t know… no, I do actually. It was you, saying not everything was my fault. So it’s your fault,
really.”

“Nice try. Takes two; and I believe you rather enjoyed your half of things. You started it, snog-wise, so it actually is
your fault this time. We could talk to him together, but I think it would seem less overwhelming coming from you first.”

“He’ll ask about us, if he gets over being mad about Ginny.”

“So what else is new? He’s been acting as if we have since the moment you told him we wanted to be together. He’s got to
get over the little-boy fixation on sex. We need to find him a girlfriend.”

“I have news for you, Hermione. It’s not a little boy fixation, it’s an every sort of boy fixation. That’s what we want
girlfriends for. Er.. that’s what most, erm other, not me… Anyway, isn’t it a bit presumptive of us to assume that’s
what would make him happy just because it’s what we wanted?”

She stared at him for a moment, dumbfounded. Fawkes warbled again anxiously, clearly wanting them to be on their way.
Harry scrambled to his feet and helped her up only to find himself engulfed in a old-fashioned, wild-haired,
bone-crushing Hermione hug.

“Harry James Potter that was actually perceptive. And absolutely right. You really should be the one to talk to him.”

“Hey!”

Fawkes fluttered on to Harry’s shoulder. Harry stroked his feathers gently. “Next time you’re ready to go up in flames
let me know first, okay? Ron’ll be more than happy to help me join you, I’m sure.”

Hermione held open the door with a smile.

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In retrospect, perhaps brushing their teeth in the boy’s lavatory the next morning wasn’t the best time to have chosen
to speak to Ron. Harry was so much better at hindsight he sometimes wondered if his brain had somehow been shaken back
to front by Vernon Dursley over the years. If it hadn’t, Ron was doing his best to try and rectify the situation now.

“Oi, Weasley, get off him you idiot!” Seamus came through the door and thankfully interceded. The gaggle of younger boys
who had backed themselves against any available solid surface to avoid the two of them lurching around the room began to
slink gratefully towards the door.

Ron threw Seamus off and resumed pounding Harry. “Get Thomas!” Seamus growled at one of the young ones, and resumed his
efforts.

“You could help, you know, Potter,” he grunted as Ron swatted him off like a bug again. “You’re not bloody enjoying this
or anything like that are you? ‘Cause just so you know, you look a right mess.”

Harry had about reached his limit as punching bag by that point, but found that he wasn’t quite ready to hit Ron back.
It was a near thing, but the level of anger and frustration in his friend’s eyes literally hurt more than his fists did.
He was definitely feeling like he deserved most of what was coming his way, or someone did, and it was the least he
could do at this point to help Ron get it out of his system.

Unfortunately, Ron sensed this too.

“Awfully bloody cooperative when you’ve finally gotten your stones off, aren’t you, you sodding great heap of … of….”
Ron’s imagination failed him and he slumped, exhausted, to his knees just as Dean crashed through the door.

“What in Merlin’s name is wrong with the two of you? You’ve already got detention every bleeding night of the week;
you’ve lost your Hogsmeade privileges. What’s next? Get thrown off of Quiditch and I’ll kill you both myself, it’s the
only way you’ll get us back any of the house points you’ve lost us,” he told them indignantly. He threw a towel at
Harry. “Your nose is bleeding. Incidentally, it is still a nose is it? No wands involved, right?”

Harry shook his head and shoved the towel under his nose. “I’b bine,” he said. Except for the fact I sound just like
Hermione after the bludger hit her…

“Oh shut up. Just quit trying to be noble or whatever and shut up for once, will you?’ Ron snarled.

“I thoughbt you bere bissed off at be for nobt tellbing you stubff,” Harry snarled back. “Bake up your sobding bind
alreaby.”

“Out!” Seamus howled. “You’re worse than the girls. I was going to clear out the room for you, but you can just take
yourselves down to the effing lake to sort it because I swear if either one of you manages to get more points docked for
this, Dean and Neville and I’ll be down to drown you ourselves!”

Harry and Ron stared at one another steadily for a moment. Neither blinked.

“We’ll need the cloak,” Ron said at last.

“I’ll gebt it,” Harry told him. Seamus and Dean each gingerly took an arm and hauled him to his feet, jumping back as
his nose gushed again. “Doebn’t anybody hab their wabd?” he asked pitifully. “Bad Eye Boody woulb habe your arses.” He
lurched toward their dorm room for the invisibility cloak.

“Don’t generally need it to brush your teeth, unless you’re Harry bloody Potter.” Dean said, following him. “Did Ron
mistake you for Voldemort again or did you actually get him that mad yourself? You are Harry, aren’t you? That was a
pretty wussy defense for the Boy Who Lives In Remedial DADA.”

“Biss off alreaby. You thinbk you ban do better… Arghhh!” Harry had found his wand and attempted to fix his nose.
Merlin’s stones but that stung! Hermione’d made it look way easier than that. At least it had stopped bleeding. “You
think you can do so much better, you take Voldemort on. Job’s always up for grabs, help yourselves.” He located the
cloak in his trunk and slunk back to the loo.

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It’s not easy managing to stay quite so angry with someone when you’re both huddled under a cloak made for one. Harry
and Ron had both grown since their early wanderings, in Ron’s case quite a lot. There wasn’t much left over for Harry
anymore and Ron was forced to sort of hunch over his shoulder as they made their way through the entry hall, now
brilliantly lit by a rainbow of color from the newly uncovered rose window, and out the door. The minute they cleared
the sightline of the castle they threw it off and mutually withdrew a good bit, bristling like dogs. Both of their
shirts were liberally spattered with blood from Harry’s nose and they drew their robes tightly around them to hide
evidence of the fight. Thankfully the rest of the school was still caught up in the process of beginning to think of
breakfast. There was no sign of life save for the smoke from Hagrids’ chimney.

They set off wordlessly down the path to the edge of the lake, breath streaming in the chill early morning air.

“Ron, I’m sorry, but I’ve got to sit for a bit,” Harry finally gasped and dropped on to a rock near the water’s edge.
He’d taken a few good solid hits in the solar plexus after his nose got slippery and the soreness was catching him up.

Ron frowned but stopped as well and began kicking at stones along the waters’ edge.

“No one ever meant to hurt you, you know,” Harry started reluctantly. “We knew what was going on with Ginny would get to
you, but we just didn’t know how to say it, or whether to say it at all. I kind of hoped it would just go away. And
telling you that way… Ron, we never meant for it to happen like that, honestly.”

“We, we, we. I’m so sorry to interrupt your little snog party with Hermione over a tiny insignificant issue like GINNY
HAVING A THING WITH MALFOY!”

Harry sighed. “Ron, help me out here. Are you angrier with me for not telling you Ginny was seeing Malfoy, or for having
a relationship with the girl I ASKED YOU FIRST IF IT WAS OKAY TO BE WITH? Do you remember ever saying anything like, oh,
I don’t know ‘You mean love like snogging-in-love, don’t you? Hermione? I mean, she’s like my sister or something. I
think I thought I was in love with her in third year until I started to realize that actually being afraid of her as
well would seriously affect my follow through. I couldn’t even, umm, think about her that way, if you get me...’ Well, I
THOUGHT I got you, okay? So tell me, exactly what the hell is so wrong then if I do think about her that way? No follow
through complaints at all. I told you I loved her, what did you expect would happen? Which is it, really?”

“Both! It’s both, okay! Do you happen to remember saying, ‘I’ve never had a family or a sister. But if I did, I do know
I wouldn’t want her messing around with Malfoy.’ You’ve no idea what it’s like to be responsible for anyone but
yourself. You have no idea what it’s like to be part of a family, you walk around whinging how it’s all been taken from
you but it’s not so damn easy on the other side of it, either. You’ve no idea what it’s like not to be the first or the
best at anything, ever, and to still screw up the one thing you think you can do, even when it’s as simple as keeping
your own little sister safe. She’s MY sister, how the hell is it that she told you and Hermione everything and not a
word of it to ME?”

“Perhaps it was because she thought we might not GO COMPLETELY SPARE AND YELL THE WAY YOU ARE! Just a thought.”

Ron glared at him, but lacked a ready comeback.

“You want to know what she said to me?” Harry told him furiously. “Okay, then. I was the one she loved, Ron. The one who
broke her heart. Go ahead and hit me again, because apparently I’m the reason she’s with Malfoy now. How was I supposed
to know? You and Fred and George joked about her having a crush on me when we were eleven and then after the whole
Chamber ordeal was over she started talking to me instead of goggling at me and it seemed like everything was alright
again. I had no idea anything was going on until that night in the Forbidden Forest when Malfoy started saying things. I
thought he was having me on. According to her Malfoy and I have ‘more in common than I know.’ Try that on for size
without gagging. I blew a hole in the entry hall, if you hadn’t noticed.”

Ron turned on him and Harry abruptly regretted the invitation to take another swing, because it looked for all the world
like Ron was about to take him up on it and he really wasn’t sure he could absorb one more.

“How were you supposed to know? Try how could you be so bleeding thick? Do you really not get the way people see you,
Harry?”

“Which ones, the ones that want to kill me themselves, or the ones that just want me dead?”

“The ones like Ginny, who see someone special. All I see at the moment is a wizard too dumb to know how powerful he
really is, an idiot brave enough to choose Gryffindor, not just be sorted there. A muggle-raised starved little runt who
gets chosen seeker the first time he sits on a bloody broom. Plonker who has a Gringott’s vault full of gold and no clue
what to do with it. The one who even after all that, every witch in school would jump if he so much as lifted a finger
in their direction.”

“Jump with their wands set to stun, maybe. Walking around with a great ugly scar connecting you to Voldemort night and
day doesn’t seem to be so much of a turn-on as you’d think. The one girl who ever jumped my way half drowned me crying
over the last bloke I’d managed to bring home dead.”

Harry stopped short, suddenly realizing this was no longer true. Well, the bit about Voldemort and his scar still was,
but now Hermione… even though it probably qualified as a mutual jumping at, or on, or whatever. The point was, he was
more confident then he’d ever been before that none of the things Ron was talking about had had the least effect at all
on the one girl he wanted.

“Even if it was true, Ron, it’s still not what we’re really arguing about. I’m sorry Ginny felt that way, truly I am. I
just didn’t, I couldn’t, and now I know why. And it’s not like it would have made you much happier, would it? What
should I have done?”

Ron’s face worked and he turned away from Harry toward the lake. It took Harry a moment to grasp that his best friend
was either crying or trying rather desperately not to. Perhaps girls got something of a bad rap; it wasn’t any easier
watching Ron break down and he had even less idea of what to do. Suddenly the simplicity of being able to hold Hermione
seemed infinitely easier than finding the right words for Ron. Life just refused to let up on him.

“I can’t bear it. I can’t bear that she even thinks she wants to be with that... Merlin, Harry, what if she really means
it? Think of what he could get her into. Percy was bad enough turning into a mindless ministry prat, this would just
kill Mum. Her only daughter involved with a Malfoy.”

Harry struggled stiffly to his feet and moved beside Ron, tentatively lifting a hand to his twitching shoulder.

“I know what you mean, Ron, honestly. I wish that I knew what to tell you. And if we both think it’s so bad and we both
can’t think of what to do, maybe it’s time to go to Dumbledore. I don’t know what he’ll do, but it can’t be any worse.”

“Thought you said Dumbledore was gone.”

“For a day or two, he said. He’s left Fawkes if things get really bad. On the bright side, I’ve never actually seen the
two of them together anywhere; whatever they get up to can’t be too bad. A day or two shouldn’t make it any worse.”

Ron turned toward him again and Harry’s hand fell off his shoulder as he moved. “Yeah? Tell that to Hermione. From the
grin on her face this morning I’d guess it took you less than thirty minutes to do a fair bit of damage there last
night.”

Harry felt impatience and anger both scissor through him. “What is it you want me to say to that? I’m sorry? Well I’m
not, not a bit of it. And you can bloody well apologize any time in the next sixty seconds before I start taking the
snot right out of you for a change.” Harry’s voice shook and every muscle in his body tensed painfully.

“So you’re not going to deny it?”

“Merlin! No, okay, Ron – Hermione and I made love last night. Did you need it spelled out for you? It was…” it was
brilliant… amazing… better than anything in my miserable life so far… and too new to share yet, even with you… “between
the two of us. It wasn’t about you; we didn’t do it to hurt you. You didn’t actually come in to it at all. That’s just
how it works. Not because you’re not our best friend, or because we don’t care about you or anything, it was just…
between us.”

“So what happens now?”

Harry stared at him, puzzled. “Nothing, I hope. Bill reminded me about not forgetting the charm…”

“So it’ll be… all the time, then.”

Harry was about to say he rather hoped so when he suddenly caught the drift of Ron’s anxiety.

“I’ve tried to say sorry. Not about all of it, mind you, but the timing. I never planned that, honestly. It can’t be all
the time, can it, and it certainly won’t be in the middle of anything with you again. I promise.” Harry gingerly
scratched at the back of his neck. “Tell me though, will you, why does the idea of us bother you now? You seemed okay
with it when we started. What have we done so wrong?”

It was Ron’s turn to veer back away toward the water. He picked up a stone and hurled, too angry still to try and skip
it.

Harry shoved his hands in his pockets and rocked on the balls of his feet, waiting.

“Nothing.” Ron said at last. “You’ve done nothing I shouldn’t have expected you to do. It just… hurts somehow, seeing
you and her like that. I guess I’m jealous after all. Not of you being with her, but what you have with her, if that
makes any sense.”

Harry almost told him about what Hermione had said about finding him a girlfriend, but thought better of it and didn’t.
He’d see it as pity or as patronizing, Harry was sure, and he couldn’t exactly blame him. “Give it time, Ron. It’s
everything going on at once as well. I feel kind of the same; it’s all changing and it’s hard to know who or what to
trust. Only I trust you, no matter what, you were the first person I really ever could. The first kid I’d ever met who
either didn’t pity me for being related to Dudley or want to steal my lunch money, anyway. I’d never willingly do
anything to end our being friends.”

Ron hurled another stone, silent. He stole a sideways look at Harry, who saw him do it. “I guess not everyone would say
that after having their nose rearranged for them,” Ron admitted with the beginning of a smile. “You don’t look quite so
ready to take on Lockhart for the Witch Weekly polls at the moment.”

“Lockhart’s smile is so much more genuine now that his mind is completely blank,” came a voice from behind them, and
they both turned to find Hermione standing on the path, eyeing them. “Everything all right, then?”

Ron noticed that she was studiously not looking at Harry, and knew then that she loved him still as well. Not having an
enormous mothering fit over a bloody Harry was an act of will she would not have mastered for just anyone. Especially a
freshly post-shagged bloody Harry. He was a total idiot. He held open his arms shyly, feeling as if he was standing on a
precipice.

She flung herself at him fiercely, catching him up, all flying hair and determined eyes. Revenge was hers; she probably
hugged harder than he’d hit Harry anyway. “We love you, you useless git. We’ll help sort things out with Ginny, we’ve
always managed to work things out as long as we do it together.” She drew back slightly and gestured impatiently for
Harry, who Ron noticed was looking distinctly reluctant with the whole group hug thing. He re-maneuvered slightly so
that it was Harry in the middle, rather than Hermione. He saw this seemed to rather please Hermione and felt right to
him somehow now. A change in the triangle, but just the points. Plus, there was no getting away for the
Boy-Not-So-Used-To-Affection.

“You guys are the best. More than I deserve,” Ron said happily.

“We know,” Harry and Hermione said at once.

“But we need you to make the magic work, Ron. Don’t give up on us. Not because of me,” Harry said, suddenly serious.

They both looked at him, surprised.

His gaze had turned to the depths of the lake.

Ron reckoned he wasn’t worrying about the squid.

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Here With Me

Chapter 18

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The return of the newly agreeable triumvirate of Gryffindors to the Great Hall for their mid-day meal after morning
classes was not met with universal delight. While their housemates were reasonably appeased with a muttered apology and
a quick check of the hourglass to determine that no further house points were lost, several other pairs of eyes
registered emotions strong enough to draw Harry’s attention from his soup.

And having missed breakfast to have it out with Ron, Harry would really have rather just gone on happily wolfing down
his first meal of the day.

Professor McGonagall was the first he caught on to, probably because the hair on the back of his neck prickled with the
electricity of her gaze. She appeared assessing rather than outright disapproving; Harry reckoned he was in some sort of
trouble about Hermione with her, then, rather than the fight with Ron. Down the Gryffindor table he noticed Ginny
Weasley was watching them as well. Word traveled fast within the houses and she knew him well enough to have expected
that Harry would have told Ron when she didn’t. A quick flick of his eyes across the room revealed her Slytherin cohort
to be clearly unhappy about something himself and taking it out on Pansy Parkinson, who wasn’t having any of it. If
Malfoy didn’t watch out he’d be wearing his lunch in another minute…

Or less. Except that Pansy Parkinson would never stoop to dirtying her hands with food.

“That’s it. THAT IS IT. I’ve had it with you Draco Malfoy. Enough of your lies and excuses. You’d think you’d taken the
dark mark on your dick from the way you’ve been whinging around. Or did your little pet Weasel forget about her teeth?
We’re through. For good this time.”

“MISS PARKINSON!” Snape howled from the teacher’s table. Harry had long ago noticed Snapes’ face got paler the more
furious he was, quite unlike your average human being who required blood to suffuse the area doing the work. (Vernon
Dursley being a prime example and the opposite end of the spectrum, of course.) Harry didn’t like to think about where
else all that blood might be going, because it was him Snape was usually yelling at and the idea totally grossed him
out.

“WHAT?” Parkinson howled back. Even her fellow Slytherins recoiled. Pansy usually played the perfect feminine
counterpart to Malfoy; cool, sneering, starting it all but giving nothing away. She was obviously past some point of
inner reserve.

“Go Pansy!” Seamus cheered softly across from him. “This ought to cost them a lot more than the eighty he docked us!”

“Sad when Pansy Parkinson makes us look good,” Harry agreed just as softly, enjoying the chance to watch just for once,
well out of the front lines.

Of course Harry was operating on something of a sleep deficit and his brain had taken rather a good shaking that
morning, too.

“You take that back you Slytherin slut or I swear I’ll…” Ron was climbing over Harry and across the table the better to
launch himself at the Slytherins.

“Sit down you useless git. I can handle this myself!” Ginny snarled at him, nearly knocking Pavarti Patil off the bench
in her attempt to extricate herself from her seat and beat Ron to his goal.

Harry made a grab for Ron and pulled him back onto the bench, motioning frantically to Dean to hang on to his other arm.
“Silencio!” he cast quickly, utterly forgetting in his moment of panic that he ought to need a wand to do so. Dean and
Ron’s eyes both went round at the same moment as Ron’s mouth flapped wordlessly. Harry missed their exchanged looks as
he suddenly realized none of the Gryffindor girls were doing the same for Ginny.

“Gin…” he started, rising from his own place, and felt Hermione’s hand clench rather painfully just above his knee.

“Sit, Harry.”

Harry sat, but felt anger start to flare through him at her tone. ‘I may love you, but I’m not your bloody lap dog!’
flashed through his mind resentfully. And obviously right on to hers. He felt it go, like a ball slipping through his
fingers he had no hope of retrieving before it hit a window.

He saw her eyes widen and then just as quickly narrow.

‘Oh, shite.’ he thought desperately. ‘I’ve really got to get a handle on this stuff.’

Thankfully Ginny had at exactly that moment managed to hurl herself past the whole of the Ravenclaw table and reach the
Slytherins.

“You promised!”

There was a moment’s silence as the entire Slytherin table considered her like an exotic bird from a foreign land where
it somehow wasn’t clear that Slytherins never kept their promises, even to each other.

“Duh,” laughed Millicent Bulstrode, who suddenly found herself wearing her soup bowl.

Draco had sat quite still through all of this as far as Harry could tell, his eyes shifting from Pansy to Ginny,
calculating. He seemed to reach a decision just as Ginny reached his end of the table.

Unfortunately, the teachers had obviously recovered from their moment of shock and managed at last to intervene. Snape
had reached the Slytherin table at exactly the same moment McGonagall got to Ginny.

“Miss Parkinson, my office. This INSTANT!”

“Miss Weasley, likewise.” McGonagall said firmly, although her grip on Ginny’s shoulders was gentle and her arm curved
around her as she turned her toward the door. “I would also like Mr. Weasley as well, please. And perhaps Mr. Potter and
Miss Granger while I’m at it.”

Harry wondered what Draco had been about to say.

“Come on, Rover,” Hermione whispered in his ear before rising and following McGonagall and Ginny. Thankfully she didn’t
sound all that angry. Yet. Harry kept Ron in front of him so he’d have no chance to double back for Malfoy. As soon as
the door to the Hall closed behind them he removed the hasty silencio that had kept Ron wordless through most of the
action.

“What the hell was that, Harry?”

“My guess is Parkinson’s had enough of Draco. I’m no fan of hers either, but who could really blame her? On the plus
side, it’s seemed to take some of the shine off him for Ginny, hasn’t it?”

“No, Harry. I mean, yes, I hope so for Gin’s sake, but I was talking about the silencio. Right strong little spell
there. I’m sort of an expert on those with five older brothers, you know.”

“Sorry. If someone was going to lose Gryffindor more points I thought it ought not to be one of us for change.”

They had almost reached McGonagall’s office and Ron grabbed hold of Harry’s arm to slow his progress.

“You forgot your wand, Harry.”

Harry stared at Ron for a moment and ran back over their altercation that morning. Nope, no blows to the head for Ron.
Hadn’t hit him once. “Unh, Ron?” he produced it from his pocket and held it up.

“The silencio, Harry. You, unh, “forgot” to use your wand. Thought you should know. How long have you been doing that,
then?”

McGonagall’s head poked back through the door to her office. “Anytime now would be fine, gentlemen.”

They sat in a row before her. She had conjured stools rather than chairs. Harry figured they were in for it.

“Miss Weasley? Would you care to begin?”

“That was a very rude thing Pansy was suggesting. And not very nice to have involved a fifth year in it.” Hermione
stated. Harry could barely believe his ears. Hermione loved McGonagall.

“Not at all nice. And shockingly creative for Parkinson, who probably isn’t clever enough by half to have come up with
it on her own.” Professor McGonagall countered.

The terms of the battle were set, then. He’d happily leave them to it.

“I believe I asked Miss Weasley for her thoughts on the matter, however.”

Ginny’s eyes overflowed. For the first time since the whole thing began Harry found he could feel more than disbelief
and impatience for her. Sitting on a stool in her Head of House’s office with Ron right there beside her she had finally
had all her escapes cut off and the enormity of what she had been doing seemed to be sinking in. Ron was staring at her
as if she needed a bath and Harry, who had accumulated rather a lot of experience with self loathing over the years,
found himself wishing it would be that easy for Ginny to rid herself of those thoughts.

McGonagall handed her a handkerchief. Hermione supplied the next. Ron and Harry exchanged glances and felt uselessly
through their pockets.

Finally resigned to the fact that Ginny wouldn’t be telling anyone what she thought anytime soon, Professor McGonagall
turned to the remaining three.

“Mr. Weasley, I quite understand and admire the impulse to defend your sister, so no house points will be deducted for
your outburst. However, in an effort to remind you to curb your colorful and descriptive language you will be polishing
the trophies tonight for as long as it takes to get a nice shine on each and every one.”

Ron said, “Yes, Ma’am.” He knew it could have been considerably worse.

“Perhaps you will take your sister to Madam Pomfrey now. Please give her this note. Ginny, you are excused from your
classes this afternoon, and I’ve asked Madam Pomfrey to see that you have a nice undisturbed nap. We’ll finish our
discussion later.”

Ginny continued to sob silently but nodded her head. She got up to follow Ron but after a step or two turned back and
threw herself at Harry, who found himself once again in possession of an armful of exceedingly tearful girl. He managed
not to fall off his stool. Just.

“I’m sorry, Harry,” she choked out. “I never should have said those things to you. I don’t know why I did.”

“It’s okay, Gin,” he whispered, stroking her back gently and hoping that it was. That she would be. The hurt of being
called a murderer if he took Voldemort’s life seemed to have subsided greatly since the ties that bound him to Hermione
had altered as well. It felt a different issue altogether; not just that she would miss him, or he her, if Voldemort
proved the victor but that he would willingly, knowingly, use every power within him and then some to remain with her
now, and always. He had no intention of seeking Voldemort out for himself, but if fate or his enemy’s intentions brought
them together Harry was pretty sure he knew at last how he felt about taking that final step.

Her arms convulsed wetly around his neck a final time and she fled. Harry heard Ron call, “Wait up, Gin!” and the door
closed behind them.

Professor McGonagall sighed and conjured a steaming tea pot and three cups and saucers on her desk. She poured out and
prepared a cup for Hermione and himself, two sugars in his, honey and lemon in Hermione’s. She looked very much as if
she were wishing for a rather different type of additive for her own.

“There have been far too many instances requiring a bracing cup of tea over the last five and half years with you two,”
she said at last. “I don’t suppose either of you would care to share your thoughts with me?”

Harry thought sharing their thoughts about Ginny having a thing for Draco Malfoy was an infinitely superior idea to
having to do the same about anything closer to home. He snuck a look at Hermione, who seemed to be deliberating.

“Which matter exactly, Professor McGonagall?”

No, no, no! You’re giving her a choice!

“I went looking for you both last evening. Not for curfew, just to check and make sure all was well after Mr. Potter’s
earlier incident. When queried, the house elves told me that the dinner basket they had provided the three of you
returned quite depleted. Mr. Weasley was accounted for in the sixth year dormitory, although Mr. Finnigan reported that
he was in something of a mood and if I wanted a pleasant word with him he wished me luck. No one, however, could point
me in the right direction to find the two of you.”

Given the state of things in Gryffindor and the imminent fear of losing yet more enchanted rubies from the top of the
hourglass Harry rather imagined she’d been pointed in all sorts of directions. For all it was designed to help modulate
behavior the house point system tended to have its own negative impact as well.

“We were certainly back for curfew.” Hermione mused, as if where exactly they had been before that had somehow slipped
her mind.

“Indeed,” said Professor McGonagall. “You were.”

Harry’s eyes shifted from the watchful countenance of his Head of House to the calm, self-possessed Hermione. Neither
woman blinked.

If he hadn’t felt that her tears were genuine he would have said Ginny knew what she was doing breaking down quickly and
getting well away from this office.

“Sixth is something of a difficult year for most Hogwarts students,” McGonagall said slowly. “Some of you have reached
your maturity, some have not. Some are planning to go on to highly specialized training…”

“Some are worried if they’ll live that long. Or if their best friends will. Or if there’ll be a need for specialized
training if their best friends don’t.” Hermione cut in quietly.

“Miss Granger, I am no Dolores Umbridge. I am in no way pretending that the danger facing Harry is neither great nor
real…”

“Then why pretend anything at all? Why make us pretend?”

“Because fear of death is not a reason to throw standards to the wind! To do so would award those who seek to wield it
as a weapon victors before the battle has even begun!” McGonagall told her heatedly.

“I think I can speak for Harry when I say neither of us is trying to do that. But Professor McGonagall, the
one-set-of-rules-fits-all approach only works if everyone is also equally invested in the ultimate effort. That’s not
the case here. Some of us are trying to go on with our whole lives at stake while others are arguing technicalities and
house loyalties or pretending if they just keep their heads down the ill wind will blow right by them and they’ll still
be able to get that ministry job at the end of it. It’s not fair. It’s also not fair that the majority of the professors
here were more willing to let Harry lay alone and paralyzed with Voldemort inside his head than change one stupid rule
that could at least give him a fighting chance. We’re not asking for special dispensation to flaunt the rules, but I
turned in my prefects’ badge for a reason. I respect you greatly, Professor, more than you can know, but I won’t be
obeying any rule that tries to penalize Harry for trying to fight for his life and defend ours as well....”

Go Hermione...

“or any that try to stop me from loving him.”

Except there. Maybe don’t go there just yet. Because I don’t think I can stand it if they separate us now, so maybe we
should just… Harry thought for a moment. What? Run? Hide? What the hell could they do? Clearly Hermione had been down
this road before him and already seen the view he was just glimpsing now. Fighting for it was all he saw, no matter
where he looked.

“I wish she’d speak for me more often, she’s so much better at it. But I feel the same way, Professor. Please, please
don’t make us choose,” he said.

McGonagall’s eyes appeared suspiciously bright, but even Harry’s somewhat benumbed emotional barometer could read
genuine affection and something that seemed painfully like sadness along with the anger, which had to at least mean the
anger wasn’t entirely aimed their way.

“I told Albus this would happen,” she said after a moment. “He ‘now, now Minerva’‘d me. Yet if you told me he’d sat the
two of you down and told you just how to go about it I wouldn’t be the least surprised.”

Harry carefully set down the tea he’d been holding all this time. “No, Ma’am,” he said, feeling a bit like Ron.

“I can not in any official manner tell you I condone what I suspect you have been doing. Nor can I give you any sort of
dispensation if you are caught at it, although you can count on your Headmaster hearing my thoughts on the subject. I
suppose I must at least applaud your judgment for finding somewhere else and not flaunting the clear bend in the rules
that allows Hermione to stay with you as your dreamkeeper, Harry. But as one who has come to respect and care for you
both a great deal, I must beg you to be careful of each other as well. You were both Muggle raised, so perhaps the best
advice I can offer you is this: the physics and biology of what you are doing can be achieved by even the simplest of
organisms. It is in the rest of it that the magic truly resides. Never forget that if you can. You are both excused.”

“Thank you, Professor,” they both said at once. Harry turned back as he held the door open for Hermione, but Professor
McGonagall was looking out her window, staring in the direction Dumbledore had gone.

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“It would be extremely disrespectful of us to go and have ourselves a nice cold snog down by the lake about now,
wouldn’t it?” Harry wondered.

“I’m in a really disrespectful mood,” Hermione countered. “Why not?”

“I’ll get our cloaks and meet you at the top of the stairs, shall I?”

“Yes, please.” Hermione handed him her book bag

She wandered down to the entry hall lost in thought. She wondered about Ginny, wondered if she’d asked for dreamless
sleep or if her dreams were the only place Malfoy wouldn’t cross her. She hoped Ron had been patient with her, thought
again that Ron needed a girlfriend. She understood what Harry had meant about leaving it for Ron to work out, but there
was still a part of Hermione that wanted to believe she could make a world of difference for Harry and that someone
could do the same for Ron. Luna Lovegood had always had a bit of a thing for Ron last year… She annoyed Hermione in a
mild way with her vague non sequitors but she also knew that Harry liked her. She’d have to be prepared to nudge Ron if
the right opportunity came along.

When Harry found Hermione with their cloaks she was sitting on the top step of the stairway down to the entry hall
staring intently at the rose window. The sun had passed over the front of the castle and the window was in shade now,
its colors still brilliant but deeper, no longer glowing and projecting rainbow shadows on the wall. He settled her
cloak around her shoulders and sat next to her.

“It’s just not right that there’s no pattern to this window, Harry. That was the whole point of building them that way,
they were meant to tell stories. If there were pictures that bore no obvious relation to each other I’d believe we’d
just got the wrong thing and we should keep looking. This window is like a riddle in itself, it just doesn’t make sense
anyone would fashion all that tedious stone work and then just fill it with random bits of glass. It must have taken
ages just to design and carve the shapes, let alone piece the glass together.”

“Two thoughts. You’re thinking like a Muggle. Hogwarts is magical. It wouldn’t take a wizard like Dumbledore too long to
make something like that once he’d figured what he wanted it to look like and the properties of the stone he was using.
Maybe it was just a copy of a Muggle one they’d seen and liked the effect of, not knowing or caring about what Muggles
used them for. Circles are powerful shapes in and of themselves.”

She grinned at him and he grinned back completely involuntarily, without even realizing he had.

“I can’t give you house points, but you’ve just earned yourself twenty snog points for that brilliant answer, Mr.
Potter. What’s your second thought?”

“I think I may have forgotten it in my joy at the discovery of snog points. How exactly do those work?”

“I’m not sure yet. We’ll just have to work it out as we go along. Twenty points ought to be enough for something good,
shouldn’t they?”

Harry agreed. Harry rather thought it was time they were going, actually.

“Maybe it’s a code, or a pattern. It seems entirely random, but the juxtaposition of colors could be significant…” she
mused.

“Maybe there was a Quidditch accident and a bludger bludgeoned it and no one knew how to put it back.” Harry guessed.
“Maybe that’s why it was covered over.”

“But then we’d never figure it out!” Hermione seemed horrified by the very idea. Harry shrugged. “I have a feeling about
this, Harry. We’re meant to figure it out.”

“Since when does Hermione “divination is such a woolly subject” Granger have feelings about things?” Harry teased,
hauling her to her feet in an effort to get her moving toward the lake. Classes were due to change in ten minutes and he
wanted to be well clear of the castle so no one got the inspired idea to join them. Hermione was done for the day but he
had to be back for remedial DADA in an hours’ time. He was rather hoping Dumbledore had remembered about Tonks before he
left. The idea of Snape post-Pansy was terribly unappealing.

“Since my heart overruled my head and I fell for you.” Hermione told him, and started down the stairs.

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Snog points turned out to be a bit of genius on Hermione’s part. They decided between them they could be redeemed for
the exact number of the point earner’s favorite things, but could be broken down into units no smaller than five. (“It’d
be too hard to keep track of twenty different places and ways to kiss you,” Hermione decided. “Five of the same type in
four different places is much easier.”) They could also be saved and the total accumulated for other, more involved
things. Particularly good performance fulfilling them could earn points as well. Just trying to agree on the amount
required for various activities was making Hermione feel like a hundred points right then and there. They also agreed on
the importance of inspiration and not keeping count on each other too closely. Hermione had actually made that
suggestion when Harry deviated from her proscribed path in a particularly enjoyable manner. He’d never been that good
with rules, anyway.

The sun had warmed the flat rock they had chosen before it had moved on, so that it was at least not cold to the touch.
Hermione had settled into Harry’s lap, and with his cloak encircling them both as well as her own beneath it she was
comfortably warm. Her fingers traced numbers and added point totals against his chest as they constructed their own
private game and Harry was having a progressively harder time remembering what things were worth. And that wasn’t the
only thing getting progressively harder, either.

“Can I use my points to get to do things to you if I want?” she asked.

He just loved the way her mind worked.

“I sup…pose that would be hmmmokay by me,” was the best he could manage before her hands had finished work on his
zipper. When they found what they were looking for he had to lean back against the outcropping of rock behind them,
jutting into his shoulder blades.

“D’you know what I thought when I first touched you here?” Hermione asked softly leaning forward and resting her cheek
against his chest.

Harry sincerely hoped this wasn’t a trick question. “What?”

“I thought you were lovely. And then I thought I shouldn’t tell you because it didn’t sound very, I don’t know, manly I
suppose. But you are, it’s just the same this time. Friendly and warm and…”

Harry kissed her; all the description was making her overly enthusiastic and he needed her to slow down just a bit. By
the time he’d regained some control and letting her talk seemed safe again, she appeared to have lost the inclination.
And possibly the mental capacity. Harry noticed an almost mesmerizing connection between the movement of his tongue in
her mouth and her hand on him. He played with it; first slower, then deeper, then faster… Just when he knew he was lost
she pulled back from him, watching, eyes intent. It was too late to feel self conscious. Harry had only ever been to the
ocean once as a child, brought grudgingly on a trip meant for Dudley. He’d played alone at the water’s edge, thrilling
to the power of the waves over his small frame and learning to read their rhythm. The stronger the pull toward the
ocean, the greater the force of the next wave. He struggled to gasp out her name at the crest of it.

Hermione was still watching him when he opened his eyes again. Her gaze was somehow less predatory and more possessive
in its gleam; Harry realized he’d seen that look before. She was learning him.

“Er..thank you,” he managed a little shakily, uncertain of the etiquette involved.

She relaxed and snuggled closer against him; Harry fought a wince. The rock behind his shoulder felt like it was about
to come right through.

Hermione fumbled for her wand and cast a cushioning charm. “You use the same one on your broom, silly.”

Comfort flooded Harry’s already satiated mind. Hermione’s head nestled back into the crook of his shoulder again. “What
would you give that?” she asked curiously.

It took him a moment to figure what she was asking. “Oh! Oh…like mmmm one million, eight hundred and twenty-five
thousand points.”

She laughed, pleased. “That’s very nice, but suspiciously specific for someone in your present frame of mind.”

“One hundred points a day for three hundred and sixty-five days a year for the next fifty years,” he explained. “Don’t
look too closely at the math, just go with the idea, okay?”

She smiled his very favorite smile. “Okay. I’d like to cash some in. What did we say this was worth?” she asked, taking
his hand and guiding it beneath her school skirt.

“No idea, but it’ll be free if you’ll just invent some knickerless wool tights for winter. You’d make your fortune
marketing them round the castle, I’m sure.”

And he set about helping her find the waves for herself.

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19. Chapter 19

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 19

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“Hey, Scarface.”

Harry looked up from the floor to find Draco Malfoy in front of him. The last effing person on earth he had any desire
to see.

He’d ascended a few minutes before from his own private little hell of ‘remedial’ DADA with Snape and only just managed
to hold off sliding to the floor until the door to the warded classroom had shut behind him. He was still breathing
hard; a mixture of fury and loathing pumping adrenaline into his heart. Snape’s likely intent, of course.

It had been worse battling him today than ever before, and Harry had a sneaking suspicion that was due in great part to
Dumbledore’s continued absence. No holds had been barred in this lesson, and Harry’s eyes had been opened quite a bit to
Snape’s willingness to hurt him and his extensive knowledge about how to go about it. The only problem was that Harry
already knew his enemy was capable of everything Snape had thrown at him and more. Harry also knew with a growing
certainty he was in some truly deep shite, because fighting Snape ultimately only taught him that he honestly didn’t
feel himself able to go there. Snape had kept taunting and goading him, spells cracking like relentless whips. Harry
needed to mean it even when the curse wasn’t an unforgivable, he had to think like his enemy if he meant to win.

Harry just couldn’t mean it like that. He could get righteously pissed off. He could manage a very personal anger,
thinking of his Mum and Dad. He could feel his blood boil. He could sense disgust and loathing and revulsion course
through him and seek a way out. He simply didn’t have Snape’s bent mind; Harry’s creativity refused to flow when it came
to punishing the one he fought against, wearing them down with psychological games and painfully maiming curses. Harry
just wanted it to be over, honestly. Kill old snakeface and get on with his life. Snape had pretty much flailed him when
that thought became apparent. The impertinence, the fatal ego of you, boy! Voldemort will wipe the floor with you, he’ll
make you beg for death. You’ll never even get the chance to try for a killing curse if you can’t handle this!

Bastard.

Harry was beginning to wonder if he could even hate Voldemort quite as much as Snape. He was desperately worn out as
well, and so twice as vulnerable. A great part of that was his own fault; he knew he shouldn’t have been with Hermione
before facing Snape and he’d paid for it.

And now there was Malfoy, waiting to pick off the zebra his master had winded for him. If Harry wasn’t mistaken there
was hunger in those eyes.

“Go away, Malfoy.” Harry dropped his own eyes back to the floor and focused on an image of Draco doing just that. “I’m
not in the mood.”

“I need to talk to you.”

“Funny, I’m having a difficult time right at the moment coming up with a single thing you could tell me that I’d give
half a rat’s ass about.”

“How about Dumbledore. Want to hear about what he’s up to?”

Harry shook his head. “Not really. He does what he does, and he’ll tell me if he thinks I need to know. After the fact,
of course. The question is why would you care what he was doing?”

“Maybe this is my way of… proving to you that I’m not what you think.”

“I already know you’re a sneaky, lying ferret. There’s no disproving that anymore. I know I owe you, don’t get me wrong,
but all the crap you’ve put Ginny through, no one with a shred of human decency could do that.”

“Hmmm, attempting to deal with the affection of two girls…. Seems to me the Gryffindor common room’s seen its fair share
of that little human drama. Unconvincing, Potter. What about you? You seem to be having some trouble of your own
balancing the feelings of your boy and your mudblood. Go both ways, do you? That was quite the little display of
affection Weasley placed on your face the other morning.”

Harry laughed. “See, you try so hard to convince me that you’re an actual human being and then you put your foot in it
with that kind of thing. You have no idea how someone with an actual functioning heart really feels, do you?”

Something was going on behind those icy eyes. Looking at them revolted Harry; the image of them floating in his own face
in McGonagall’s mirror would haunt him the rest of his natural life. However long that lasted. Come to think of it, it
was well past time to ask to borrow Dumbledore’s pensieve. Harry had some serious baggage to dump; his head felt like it
was going to explode.

“Drop the act, Potter. Don’t tell me you haven’t been wondering where Dumbledore was.”

“He told me he was going. I was there when he decided to. He’ll be back. End of story.”

“What if it’s not?”

“You seem to be the answer boy. You tell me.”

Okay, if the truth be told, Harry was starting to get more than a little nervous. Dumbledore out of the castle and Draco
baiting him with information wasn’t good, no matter what was really going on.

“Dumbledore’s in trouble. Voldemort hasn’t got him yet, but he knows where he is and he has inside information that will
allow him to attack when Dumbledore least expects it. He needs to be warned.”

“Maybe that’s what Dumbledore wants Voldemort to think. He was right ticked off when he left; maybe he’s trying
something on.” Even as he said the words they rang hollow; the wretched prophecy dictated the parameters of Dumbledore’s
actions against his old student. Why would he place himself in danger for a battle he thought Harry had to fight?
Harry’s heart gave an off-rhythm thump.

“I can’t tell you how I know what I know, but why would I tell you if not to prove myself.”

‘Cause you’re a slimy little wanker?’ Harry so longed to say the words, but fear was definitely lurking around the edges
of his mind now.

“Okay, well, thanks. I’ll err, make sure someone who’ll know what to do hears that. It should make sense to unh,
someone.”

Malfoy laughed his nastiest, most cutting laugh. “Are you really so feeble that you’ll just turn that over to
McGonagall? Buy yourself a clue, Potter. For whatever reason, and I do hope that you know what it is, the whole of
Dumbledore’s fogey old support group think you’re the only one who can do anything. If you like being treated like light
shines out of your arsehole Harry, you have to be prepared to be used as a flashlight now and then. Voldemort will get
to him long before they do anything.”

Cold sweat broke out over the whole of Harry’s tired body. It was fifth year all over again, panic warring against
sense. Harry swiftly came to yet another realization about himself. He was an instinctual thinker. Instinctual
un-thinker, really. He wanted to do what his body told him, felt he had far less in the mental capacity department. His
body so rarely failed him; his brain let him down almost hourly. He needed Hermione. He hauled himself to his feet,
pushing off the wall behind him.

“It’ll have to be a start, at least,” he said. “Can you find out any more?”

“What more do we need? We can go now, Potter. We can probably save the old fool’s life while the other old fools argue
about what to do,”

“You’re in need of some glory to take with you across the lines, Malfoy,” Harry pointed out suspiciously. “Why come to
me? Why don’t you just handle it? Be the hero yourself, that would convince everyone.”

“Dumbledore won’t trust me, Harry. He’ll believe you.”

Ha. Dumbledore could probably flip through every treacherous thought in Draco’s head in the time it took him to blink.

“You’re okay, Malfoy. He can tell what you’re thinking, you know.”

Draco laughed. “You two aren’t the only ones who play mind games, Potter.”

Harry felt something cold and foreign at the edge of his consciousness. It snaked stealthily forward. He let it get its
revolting head in what he always envisioned as the door to his thoughts and then slammed it. Hard.

Malfoy staggered back, swearing.

“That’s a little warning, Draco. Try that again, ever, and I’ll make sure it’s your psychological dick that gets
slammed. Your old friend Snape’s got my reflexes nice and tuned in that department. And if that hurt, I can’t imagine
you’d get anywhere with Dumbledore.”

“Not in. But I can lock the old fool out. He doesn’t even try me anymore.”

Harry suspected that to be far from the truth; he reckoned Dumbledore was just far more subtle about how he went about
it.

“The more you argue, Potter, the less time we have to warn the old goat.”

“I need to think about this.”

“You wussy. You mean you need to go ask Granger if you can go.”

“Umm, yeah, actually that’s pretty much it. That a problem for you?”

“Why involve her? You’re only setting her up to be Voldemort’s voodoo doll. Before you know it he’ll be sticking her
just to watch you dance.”

Why, look at that! Harry could still manage a step or two more in the mind-melting anger department. Snape would be so
proud.

“Shut the hell up, Malfoy.”

“Come the hell on then, Potter.”

Harry’s mind raced. Two trains of thought were heading through his mind at top speed on the same track. In opposite
directions, mind you. Stupid-don’t-make-same-old-mistake-same-old-mistake was just about to collide with
Go-do-it-end-it-go-do-it-end-it.

His hand grabbed the baby dragon’s tooth, nestled on its cord around his neck ever since the summer day Charlie’s gift
had arrived. It had become so much a part of him he’d forgotten he had it; it had even stayed on the night he’d bared
himself to Hermione. Suddenly he somehow knew just what he could do with it; perhaps even what it was for.

He stared Draco in those menacing eyes and whispered a charm, more subtle by far then stupendo. Malfoy was briefly
suspended without the slightest consciousness that time went on. It was a difficult one to hold, particularly wandless.
Harry had a minute or two, maybe less. He quickly gathered his thoughts, focused on the tooth in his palm and pushed. It
was hard; he’d never tried anything quite like it before, only with Hermione. If Riddle could manage it with a bloody
book he could do it with this… Please, oh please, he needed this to work. He prayed she would find it and read its
hidden message; she was the only other person who’d ever touched it without being burned. It had to work.

He pulled the tooth on its cord over his head and backed down the hall, trying desperately to keep his hold on Malfoy.
His hand reached out behind him and scrabbled until it found one of the stone gargoyles that guarded Dumbledore’s door.
He stuffed it in the gargoyles’ open mouth.

Pathetic, really, that he’d gotten so good at this sort of sneaky marauder magic when he just couldn’t master the kind
that might stop him from actually needing it.

He moved swiftly back toward Malfoy, just beginning to break through Harry’s hold. Unfortunately Harry found himself
even more drained. What he really wanted now was a nice nap.

“Alright, then.” Harry said. “Let’s do it.”

Malfoy blinked, but seemed unaware of the missing time or what Harry had done.

“Follow me.”

Follow me. Follow Draco Malfoy. And he was. What the hell was wrong with him?

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The two boys made it out of the castle undetected, walking along just behind a cluster of Hufflepuffs heading for
Hagrids’ but breaking off before they reached the hut.

“Malfoy, you’re not seriously headed for the Forbidden Forest.”

“There’s an apparition point in there if you know where, you know. One of the reasons it’s Forbidden.”

“Hmm, fascinating, only I can’t apparate yet, you know. My birthday’s not ‘til summer.”

“I always thought you were a bit of a baby. Well, never mind, of course you can apparate, you simply haven’t got a
license. Not a problem considering we’re not anxious for the Ministry to keep track of our movements anyway.”

Harry stopped walking. “No, I mean I can’t apparate. I haven’t ever. Not a clue.”

Draco stopped as well and stared at him. “You never just snuck out in the summer and…”

“Oh, I see… I get arrested and brought up in court for using underage magic to defend myself against a bunch of
dementors, but you can sneak off and apparate in the summer. How fair is that?”

“What about your friends? Surely you…”

“Malfoy, I don’t get to see my friends over the summer. I get stuck home with my magic-hating muggle relatives mowing
the lawn with a push mower and trimming the shrubs with a cutter.”

Draco’s patrician nose wrinkled. “Explains so much, really. Not much help under the circumstances though. Can you make a
portkey?”

“No. Can you?”

“Of course not. Why would I bother when I can apparate? Idiot.” Malfoy seemed truly annoyed now. “As powerful as you’re
meant to be, you can manage a little apparition. All you have to do is envision where you’re going…”

“Which would be?”

“The Shrieking Shack. Just outside Hogsmeade.”

Harry sighed in relief. “There’s another way. Go ahead if you want to, or follow me.”

He set off again across the grounds towards the Whomping Willow. The Shrieking Shack held some powerful memories for
Harry, but it seemed a highly unlikely place for Voldemort to ambush Dumbledore. At least it wasn’t far. It was late
afternoon, however, and drawing close to the shortest day of the year; this far north the light died early and it was
well into dusk. Harry’s breath blew dragons’ plumes; he was glad he had his heavy cloak from earlier in the day.

He told Malfoy how to find the swirled knot that ceased the Willow’s flailing and both boys waited just out of reach of
the branches looking for an opening.

“Go!” shouted Harry, seeing a clearing. He was struck only by several smaller branches; they stung like whips but
managed little more than a few scratches. He reached the knot and pressed hard. The Willow seemed to groan, straining to
defend itself, then slowly stilled.

Malfoy walked coolly forward. He’d simply waited for Harry to do the hard part. Jerk. No, wait a minute, that would be
me for falling for this.

“I take it you’ve been this way before,” Malfoy said.

“Yeah. It doesn’t have such pleasant associations though, so don’t make any unnecessary sudden movements if you like
your bits the way they’re hanging. I really don’t have such a good feeling about this, Malfoy. Why would Dumbledore be
at the Shrieking Shack?”

“He’s not, stupid. He’s going to use it as a meeting point. He’s been a good few places since he left, constantly on the
move according to observation, but there must be one person he couldn’t meet with wherever they were, and he’s arranged
to meet them here, probably to get them into the castle since you can’t apparate into Hogwarts.”

It didn’t make sense to Harry, but since Dumbledore never told him anything about what he was doing it couldn’t really
not make sense, either.

The passage narrowed, and Harry made sure that Malfoy moved ahead first. He might be dumb enough to follow him, but he
wasn’t stupid enough to leave him his back. He remembered traveling this way with Hermione in search of Ron and wished
desperately that both were with him now.

They reached the stairs up into the shrieking shack itself and Malfoy drew his cloak around him fastidiously, avoiding
the swaying cobwebs. They crept upward. Harry could see a flickering light coming from the second floor and the soft
murmur of voices.

“I had so hoped that she would be the one, but the invasions on the castle continue through him despite her…
companionship. Alas they must be separated, or we will fail to discover the love that will truly protect him when we
have need of him most.”

Harry froze, stunned. That was Dumbledore’s voice. And he was talking about … Hermione?

Alas they must be separated, or we will fail to discover the love that will truly protect him when we have need of him
most.

He must have been ready to scream the “NO!” that his brain had already cried out, but Malfoy’s hand clamped firmly over
his mouth.

“Can you do that effectively at the castle, or will she need to be… removed?” came another voice. Moody. It was Mad Eye,
Harry was sure of it. How could they do this to him?

“We have several options at hand. I believe her mind could be subtly altered to transfer her affections to Mr. Weasley
with out too much difficulty, and such a change would require fairly little explanation given the frequency with which
it occurs naturally at that age.”

“What about Potter?”

“If we can identify the correct partner he should quite forget about her. Actually, he should be the easier of the two.
Miss Granger is quite clever. If she suspects anything she will of course have to be handled appropriately.”

Harry could stand no more. His first instinct had been to rush in and confront the two, now all he wanted to do was find
Hermione and run. He turned to start down the stairs and suddenly found himself airborne, the force of a sharp shove to
his back driving him over the edge of the rail. The last thing he knew was a promise to kick himself for turning his
back on Malfoy. Assuming he lived.

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“Where’s Harry?” Hermione asked Ron as she settled herself across from him at dinner.

“No idea,” Ron said succinctly in between mouthfuls. “Maybe his DADA ran over. Did he say who was teaching him this
week?”

“He was supposed to have Snape, but Dumbledore promised to send Tonks at some point while he was gone. Maybe he’s turned
out to have some metamorphmagus in him after all.” Hermione said. She served herself, but found she had lost her
appetite once her plate was arranged. Something wasn’t right. She didn’t want to seem paranoid, knew that Ron would
think she was just being clingy and controlling, but she really had a strange, empty sort of feeling without Harry
there. In fact, just thinking about him at the moment felt the same…

“I think I’ll just run up there and see if he’s on his way back,” she said.

“You haven’t eaten a thing,” Ron pointed out. “Finish up and I’ll go with you. We can have seconds when we find him.”

Hermione pushed her dinner around her plate, thankful for once for the speed and alacrity with which Ron could put away
his food.

“There. Let’s go, then,” she said as his last mouthful disappeared, handing him a napkin and ducking his wondering eyes.

“What’s gotten into you? He’s a big boy, he’ll be fine. Any damage Tonks can do is less likely permanent than Snape’s.”

“Malfoy’s not here, either,” Hermione pointed out in an undertone as they exited the Great Hall. Ron turned to look and
she grabbed his arm to keep him moving forward. “Take my word for it, Ron. Really.”

“Could be a complete coincidence, that,” Ron said with a disheartening lack of conviction.

They made their way to Dumbledore’s office, and along the corridor. They knew that the classroom was somewhere close by,
but even Ron could feel the flickering of extra wards warning them off. There was no sign of Harry. Hermione sighed.

“Let’s go check the common room. Or your dorm. He was sort of tired this afternoon… Ron you don’t think he forgot about
the spell and fell asleep without it!” Hermione suddenly panicked.

Ron’s face remained calm but she could see his eyes turn a little panicky as well. “Merlin, I hope not. Suppose we’d
better check though.”

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Forty minutes later real fear was starting to set in. Harry was no where to be found in the castle.. Hermione had even
made the trip down to see Hagrid, which had yielded the information that Hagrid had seen Harry and Malfoy not far from
his hut late enough in the afternoon to be after Harry’s DADA class, but he had no idea where the two had gone.

“He thought they might have been working off the detention. He said it didn’t seem like anything was too off, they were
just waking along,” she related, no longer bothering to mask her concern.

“Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy were just walking along AND NOBODY THOUGHT ANYTHING WAS TOO OFF?” Ron raged.

“Dumbledore left Fawkes to contact him if he was needed. I think we should take Fawkes to McGonagall and tell her what’s
going on.” Hermione set off determinedly toward Dumbledore’s office. Ron jogged to catch up.

“Why bother with McGonagall? Can’t we just send Fawkes ourselves?”

“No, Ron. We always try to handle these things ourselves and lately they’ve been blowing up in our faces. Luck has its
limits. And if you don’t think I’m going to hex young Mr. Potter within an inch of his sorry life when we find him you’d
be sadly mistaken.”

Ron winced and wondered again why his friend had ever worried about the Sorting Hat’s offer to put him in Slytherin.
Only a true Gryffindor could ever be in love with Hermione.

They reached Dumbledore’s office and pronounced the password. Nothing happened. A second try produced no further joy and
Ron kicked the door in frustration. “He’s changed the password!”

“No reason to kick the door young man! Mind your manners!” snarled one of the pair of gargoyles.

“Murmph!” gargled the other in agreement.

“Oh, lump it, you bloody great downspouts,” Ron told them both.

“Weasley, isn’t it. Haven’t seen much of you. The others were all Head Boys and Quidditch Captains except for those
wicked twins. Blew one of my ears off and now I’m hard of hearing. You only ever come with Harry Potter,” sneered the
left one.

“Murpmh!” agreed the right one.

“Have you seen Harry today?” Hermione asked anxiously. “Did he come looking for Professor Dumbledore?”

“Oh, he came by alright. Not looking for Headmaster, he wasn’t.”

“Murump!” chorused the other. Hermione looked closer and realized that the second gargoyle had been muttering the whole
time because something was stuck in his mouth.

“What’s that you’ve got?” she asked it. “Ron, see what it’s got in its mouth.”

Being taller Ron could see the object at eye level, but he couldn’t quite make out what it was. He reached out his hand
to pluck it from the gargoyles’ mouth but recoiled sharply when his hand came in contact with it.

“Bit me! The bloody thing bit me!”

“Murmf mot!” protested the gargoyle.

“Says he didn’t. Never lies. Known him for centuries,” said the other.

“What was it? Could you see?” Hermione asked, taking his hand and looking at the wound. The mark looked more as if the
skin had been burned somehow than bitten. She took out her wand and healed it easily.

“Wow! Thanks. You really are good at that, you know. Hurts lots less than when Mum does it, anyway.”

“So what did it look like?”

“Something white and black. The black bit looked sort of coiled up, like cord.”

“Pick me up!” Hermione commanded, suddenly excited. “Ron, hold me up so I can see!”

Ron obediently picked her up and held her level with the Gargoyles’ mouth. He couldn’t believe how light she was. Or how
soft, somehow; no, make that fragile. And she smelled good, all that hair in his face, silky and… Holy crap, was this
what Harry was on about? Maybe he had a point!

“It’s Harry’s tooth, from Charlie!” she said.

“Well, whatever you do don’t touch it. Burns like acid, it does. How d’you think it got there?”

Hermione reached out and plucked the necklace gently from the relieved gargoyles’ mouth. Ron let her down quickly in his
haste to be well clear of it.

“He put it there, didn’t he?” she asked the gargoyle.

“That he did. Harry Potter himself. Glad to be rid of it,” the gargoyle agreed.

Hermione had been holding the cord; she reached out then and enclosed the tooth in her other hand.

There was no burning sensation at all. The tooth felt smooth and warm to her touch, welcoming as Harry himself. Almost
at once a flood of images began to make their way into her consciousness. The first were of herself down by the lake;
she was seeing herself through Harry’s eyes and felt tears prick her own. She could sense his tenderness toward her, his
utter content when they were done. They walked to the castle door, kissed, and separated. Harry went on to DADA. She
could feel his disappointment when he discovered Snape waiting for him, and then the twist and surge of anger and
frustration that was his lesson, the sting of spells and the goading voice: The impertinence, the fatal ego of you, boy!
Voldemort will wipe the floor with you, he’ll make you beg for death.’ She felt a flicker of fear for him, then Harry’s
realization about not wanting to have to wear Voldemort down with dueling and mind games, his desire to simply render
him powerless once and for all and be done. Yes! She thought. Snape railed on in his memory. Harry slunk from the room
when he was dismissed, slid down to the floor as soon as the door closed. She heard Malfoy’s voice ‘Hey, scarface.”
Hermione felt Harry’s dislike and disbelief slowly turn to fear for Dumbledore. She clearly sensed the point at which
Harry recognized the war between his instinct and intellect, felt with a swift surge of joy the strength of his longing
for her then. Heard Malfoy call him names and Harry admit that he would ask her permission to go, until… ‘Why involve
her? You’re only setting her up to be Voldemort’s voodoo doll. Before you know it he’ll be sticking her just to watch
you dance.’ The surge of fear and love and protective anger was so strong she gasped and opened her hand around the
tooth, seeking release.

The next thing she knew she waking up on the floor. Her head hurt terribly and her limbs felt stiff and cold. Ron was
shaking her.

“You’re going to have all my teeth out if you don’t STOP Ron,” she told him irritably, and sat up.

“You just passed out. You were holding the tooth and muttering and then you made this awful sound and dropped it and
passed out.”

“Harry went with Draco. He told him that he knew where Dumbledore was and that Voldemort was going to ambush him and he
needed to be warned.”

“And Harry fell for that?” Ron said in disbelief.

“Yes,” Hermione said sadly. “Do you know, Ron, he left me all his thoughts from the afternoon here, not just the last
moments with Malfoy. He knew it could have been a trap, but he didn’t know for sure and so he went. After the Department
of Mysteries, after what happened in the Forbidden Forest, he still went. He’s just always going to go, until it kills
him.”

“Well, let’s go find out where he is so you can be the one to do it.” Ron told her. “Up you get.” He helped her to her
feet. “I think we need to find out if a certain little ferret is back in his hole.”

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Ron found the Marauder’s Map in Harry’s trunk. Sure enough, the moving spot marked ‘Draco Malfoy’ could be found down in
the kitchens. He’d missed dinner after all. ‘Harry Potter’ was still nowhere to be found.

They borrowed Harry’s invisibility cloak and made their way as swiftly as possible to the kitchens, tickling the pear
and quickly slipping in through the door. Draco was waiting near one of the scrubbed work tables while one of the house
elves put together a plate of food for him. Hermione could see Dobby sitting, no lounging, really, by the fire and
studiously ignoring his old master. The bobble on his tea cozy hat was all that gave him away; it quivered with
indignation and animosity.

They pulled off the cloak as Ron thrust his wand firmly into Draco’s back.

“Where is he, Malfoy?”

“Where is who?” Malfoy asked. He was going for bored indifference but failed ever so slightly.

“Harry. Harry Potter. About so high, black hair, green eyes, hates your guts almost as much as I do… Ring any bells? You
tried to kill him a couple of weeks ago.”

“Oh, Potter. About so high…” Malfoy dropped several inches off Ron’s estimation, “big ugly scar, that the one? He’s
still breathing because of me; by the way, I just have no idea where he’s doing it at the moment.” He looked at Hermione
pointedly, “Or who he might be doing it with if you’re here. Ever reconsider my advice?”

Hermione’s wand work was so fast she even amazed herself. Draco was hanging upside down from a meat hook in the ceiling,
hands neatly bound behind him before he knew what hit him.

“Get me down. NOW!” he howled, pale face flushed with blood from his inverted position. And rage.

“Tell me what you’ve done with Harry, NOW!” Hermione countered.

“You’ll get bloody nothing from me unless you get me down this instant!” Malfoy retorted.

Hermione’s wand began flicking. Cooking utensils, pots, pans all flew across the kitchen with Draco as their target. He
was swinging and twisting, unable to avoid the onslaught. A cast iron skillet caught him a stinging blow and he
screeched, “Alright! He’s at the Shrieking Shack! In Hogsmeade!”

Ron held up his hand and Hermione ceased the bombardment. “What the bloody hell is Harry doing at the Shrieking Shack?”

“Let me down and I’ll tell you.”

Ron flicked his wand with a charm and Malfoy was abruptly released face down onto the brick floor. Ron leaned down and
helped him to his feet, and when they were well and square under him punched Draco solidly in the face. Hermione
reflected on Malfoy’s taunt to Harry in the tooth’s memory. What about you? You seem to be having some trouble of your
own balancing the feelings of your boy and your mudblood. Go both ways, do you? That was quite the little display of
affection Weasley placed on your face the other morning. She hadn’t told Ron, quite on purpose, but his revenge was
sweet none the less.

“You’ll tell us anyway, you filthy little ferret. You’ll take us there, because we’re not near as trusting as Harry. And
you’d better hope he’s okay. Because if he’s hurt and you did it any wizard’s debt rubbish is out the window as far as
I’m concerned. And then there’s the little matter of my sister…”

Malfoy wiped his face and spit. Something that sounded suspiciously like a tooth hit the bricks.

“You are so dead, Weasley.”

“You are so not in a position to make threats, ferret boy.”

Hermione swiftly returned the kitchen to its pre-bombardment state and lured the little house elf who had been serving
Draco out from under the table.

“Harry showed you the passage way to the Shrieking Shack, didn’t he.” she guessed. “So you know the way.”

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A/N: Okay, where do I start on this one… I screwed up on the Gargoyles. There’s really only one outside Dumbledore’s
office, but I liked them too much to kill one. Sorry! And a big reminder – this was written before HBP came out. Harry
had no idea the diary was a horcrux when he compared what he was doing with his memories to what Riddle did with the
diary. Lastly, there is a three chapter ‘prequel’ to this in which Harry receives the dragon tooth he wears and uses
here. If anyone wants I will repost that too – I think I finally got the missing chapter back from Dell.

Thanks for reading! Have a nice weekend.

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20. Chapter 20

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 20

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(refresher from chapter 19)

“Harry showed you the passage way to the Shrieking Shack, didn’t he.” she guessed. “So you know the way.”

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Ron put a silencio on Malfoy and prodded him along with his wand. Hermione followed them, but wished desperately she
could push past both boys and just run until she found Harry.

It occurred to her then that they were no better than he; they had no real idea if Malfoy was telling the truth or
walking them into a trap, perhaps the same one he had used on Harry.

“Ron, wait.”

He stopped, clearly puzzled. “Thought you’d be the first to want to get him.”

“How do we know this isn’t just another Malfoy trick?”

Malfoy sneered silently.

“Because we’re making him go first?”

“And if Voldemort himself were waiting, he’d just wave Draco aside and Avada Kedavra us.” Hermione pointed out. And Ron
was meant to be the tactician...  “The problem is, whoever turns out to have Harry will have something we want but we’ll
nothing they want except Malfoy, and I doubt they could care less if a stray spell went his way. I’m sure he annoys them
as well.”

“So what do we do?”

“We stop here a moment and think fast before we blunder what may be our one and only chance.”

She turned to Malfoy. “I’m going to remove the silencio, but if you make any fast moves or speak when you aren’t spoken
to I will incinerate your family bits. Quite clear?”

He nodded once.

“Finite Incantatem. What exactly happened when you came here with Harry? What did you do to him?”

“I didn’t realize where the passage led until I came out at this end. Potter seemed to know right where he was going. We
heard voices on the second floor, so he climbed up to see who it was. I heard him go running into the room overhead
yelling spells like a banshee out of hell. There was a thump and a bunch of apparation sounds. I decided to stay well
out of it and head for home.”

“You snake. You took him here to be ambushed and went whistling home for dinner!” Ron’s sense of honor was pushed beyond
outrage and into complete disbelief. “You never thought to at least tell someone?”

“I was hardly going to get myself killed because Potter flew off half-cocked,” Malfoy said calmly.

“You’re lying.” Hermione told him. She was shaking inside with a potent combination of fear for Harry and rage at
Malfoy, but she also smelled a rat.

“Have it your way.”

“I think I will,” Hermione said softly. “You know that we know that Harry’s gone missing. You don’t know what else we
know. You weren’t just the logical suspect this time, we were sure Harry’d gone with you because he left us his memories
of you confronting him in the hallway. He was tired, he barely wanted to talk with you, let alone go anywhere with you.
You convinced him Dumbledore needed to be warned about a potential ambush, but it took you an awful lot of persuasion.
Sound familiar? I don’t believe Harry went rushing in to battle anyone unless Dumbledore was actually there, threatened.
What really happened?”

Malfoy looked momentarily discomfited; it seemed to Hermione he was playing back his conversation with Harry in the
hallway, although whether it was to keep his story straight or to see if he had already contradicted himself she
couldn’t be sure. There was no hard evidence of anything either way. She simply felt in her bones that he wasn’t telling
the truth and the desire to hex it out of him was almost overwhelming.

“The information was good, the timing must have been off,” he said. “I think there must have been someone up there
already waiting for Dumbledore. Whoever it was apparated away. Maybe Harry followed them.”

“Harry can’t apparate, Malfoy.”

“Well then I have no idea where the hell he is and I care even less.”

“I’m right here, actually,” a voice said from behind them, and they spun around. He was covered in dust and dirt; a
spider web clung to his hair. His glasses were broken and a goose egg blossomed from a bruise on his forehead. He was
unsteady on his feet, weaving slightly like a drunk, but blessedly whole and alive. “’Scuse me, Ron, Herm.. Herm…miny.”
He launched himself between them at Malfoy.

It shouldn’t have been a fair fight. Ron was ready to jump right in but realized quickly that despite his apparent
condition Harry seemed to be holding his own nicely. Malfoy had given away a tad too much information in his lie to
Madam Pomfrey the last time he’d accused Harry of attacking him; now that he actually had the opportunity to pound him
Harry hadn’t made the mistake of going for his wand.

“Lying sack of ferret crap, I will never believe another word that comes out of your mouth,” he gasped. They had their
hands on each other’s throats and were rolling for dominance; as soon as one managed a good choke hold the other would
flip them over and gain the upper hand. Hermione sighed and stuck her wand between them, muttering a spell. Harry found
himself holding a white ferret round its furry little neck. The ferret squealed, bit his thumb and raced away across the
passage. Hermione stepped firmly on its tail and stupified it.

“This has been such an outstandingly bad term for you, mate,” Ron commiserated.

“And you don’t know the half of it, yet,” Harry moaned, not bothering to move from where he lay, prone on his back on
the packed dirt of the passage floor, sucking his now bleeding thumb.

“What could be worse than what Hermione’s going to do to you for this?”

Hermione saw Harry’s eyes fly open. “You found it, didn’t you? I left you…”

She held out her hand so that he could see the dragon tooth hanging from its cord. “And you think leaving me a message
makes it all okay?”

“I tried to show you why I went, at least.” Harry managed, and then to her absolute horror his eyes shut again and she
saw what looked suspiciously like tears leak silently from the far corners, dripping toward his ears. His face remained
almost impassive.

“Harry?” she said softly, and dropped to her knees beside him. “I’m not that mad, honestly. You did show me. I
understand.”

He shook his head and rolled away, drawing himself up stiffly to lean against the passage wall.

“Dumbledore was here. He was talking to Mad Eye and someone else I didn’t hear. He… I…” Harry raised his eyes to her
face, unable to finish. What he saw there finished him; he could see her desire to comfort, her will to resolve the
problem, her honest and unstinting affection despite every stupid thing he did. How could she not be the one? How could
anyone possibly love him more than that? How could he ever love anyone else? The thought terrified him, nauseated him.
If that was what he had to do to defeat Voldemort it was beyond him.

“Harry? What is it? What’s happened?”

The familiar desire not to tell her, to keep it inside, pretend nothing had happened and wait out the impending disaster
filled him, but he understood, too, that acting on his other desires had brought him to a place where it was simply no
longer an option to do that to her.

“Dumbledore told Mad Eye that you… that we weren’t right for each other, that I wasn’t holding Voldemort off the way I
should. They were talking about… they want to…” Harry watched realization dawn and the familiar flicker of self-doubt
shadow Hermione’s eyes. “Don’t.” he begged fiercely. “Please, please don’t.”

“Don’t what? What did Dumbledore mean you weren’t right for each other; that’s crazy,” Ron protested. “What’s it to him,
anyway?”

“Harry thinks he heard Dumbledore say that I’m not the one he’s supposed to love in order to understand the power
Voldemort knows not. That the reason Voldemort was still able to possess Harry after I became his dream keeper was that
I’m not the one he’s meant to be with,” Hermione said, her voice carefully deliberate and even.

“But we know that’s not true,” Harry insisted. “Even before I understood about loving you Voldemort shrank from you
touching me. In the cave, remember? And that night in the dorms, he couldn’t bear it and you kissed me and it was almost
like Quirrell crumbling away to dust. I think he felt the way I did in the Department of Mysteries, like his head was
going to explode from the connection.”

“Unless you’ve shared a lot more of what you two have been up to with him than you have with me, there’s no way
Dumbledore can know any of that. How could he tell if it wasn’t working without knowing stuff you wouldn’t, umm,
normally want to be sharing over lemon drops with the Headmaster?” Ron asked. “He’d have to know exactly what you were
doing with Herms first to know doing it scared him off. There’s a conversation I don’t envy you guys.”

“The whole thing is just wrong, anyway. He can be right about everything else, he may be Head Warlock of the Wizengamot,
but how can he possibly know what Hermione means to me? The prophecy didn’t say anything about the power to date or the
power to have sex. Voldemort could do either, I’m sure, repulsive as that thought is. It said ‘the power he knows not,’
and if even Dumbledore can’t understand what you mean to me, Hermione, how could Voldemort?”

He saw a small glimmer of something light her eyes; it looked like hope. He wanted it to be hope, he wanted it to be
more, actually, but hope would at least get them through, keep her from pulling away just yet. Harry knew that she would
actually do it if she truly believed it would change the outcome of that final battle and save his life. The wizarding
world might be saved, but what the hell would be the point of it all for him without her? He supposed he should be noble
and think about how she could live a peaceful life with someone else then, watch her go on with her life from afar.

Screw that.

She crawled next to him and sat down, leaning her own back against the wall. Ron moved to his other side and slid down
as well. The white ferret stirred and almost as one all three pointed their wands and stupified it again.

“So what do we do now?” Ron asked.

Harry’s eyes shifted to Hermione. She appeared to be deep in thought. He was afraid to touch her, afraid to make any
move that might tip the balance of her belief in her irreplaceable importance to him in either direction before she’d
made up her own mind.

“Prove that he’s wrong, I guess. He was talking about some scary stuff though, there’s part of me that still doesn’t
want to believe it was Dumbledore. Maybe I’ve just never been on the other side of what he wanted before. ‘Alas they
must be separated, or we will fail to discover the love that will truly protect him when we have need of him most.’
He’ll get a great big surprise when he has need of me most if he tries anything on with us.”

“Tries what?” she asked.

“’We have several options at hand. I believe her mind could be subtly altered to transfer her affections to Mr. Weasley
without too much difficulty, and such a change would require fairly little explanation given the frequency with which it
occurs naturally at that age.’”

He had the voice down, the cadence of speech. It sounded eerily like their Headmaster… except it just couldn’t be right.

“What the bloody hell?” Ron choked.

“Harry, Dumbledore wouldn’t say that!”

“Even if he truly believed that’s what he needed to do to prime his only weapon? Nine years with the Dursleys as my only
reference point for human kindness isn’t much of an argument for his judgment on that score,” Harry pointed out. There
was more than a trace of bitterness in his tone.

“Dumbledore has his regrets about that. You don’t see how he looks at you sometimes, Harry,” Hermione said sadly. “As
much as he may need you, I think he genuinely feels for you too. I think he sees something of himself in you and wants
things to be different for you. Even if separating us really was what he thought he had to do I don’t think this is how
he’d go about it anymore. Not after Sirius.”

All three were silent for a bit, working it over in their heads. Ron was puzzled. Harry’s heart felt like it was being
ripped to shreds with every beat, agonizing alternately over Dumbledore and Hermione. Hermione herself was being
deliberately careful in her thoughts, pushing anger and fear and loss away for later examination.

“What if it wasn’t Dumbledore? What if it was just someone polyjuiced to look like him?” Ron asked.

“I would think it would be almost impossible to pull off, Ron. He’s not as paranoid as Mad Eye, but he is the most
powerful wizard alive. I suspect he’s pretty careful,” she said.

“The man’s got hair like an alpaca, how careful can he be?”

Hermione sighed. “Ron, there are….”

“I didn’t actually see him,” Harry cut in thoughtfully. “I didn’t see either of them. Malfoy was in front of me on the
stairs, I only heard their voices. I just know those voices so well that I never doubted it could be them until I
realized what they were saying.”

“Malfoy said you went up the stairs alone. I thought you saw them.” Ron said, surprised.

“Malfoy said,” Harry mimicked. “You called that right from the start, Ron. He’s a bloody unredeemed liar. I think he’s
trying to play both sides and he’s so far over his head he’d grab on to anything to keep from going down. I tried to
turn back on the stairs, to get back to the castle and warn you both and he pushed me over the railing.”

“It could have been anyone then, altering their voices!” Hermione’s mind jumped eagerly along this far more hopeful
road.

“The question is; why?” Ron asked.

“Here’s an even better question,” she said. “When Malfoy pushed Harry over the railing he must have made noise falling.
Why didn’t they come down and obliviate him, if it truly was Dumbledore and Mad Eye? Why would Malfoy risk hurting Harry
with Dumbledore right there? And why, if it were Death Eaters or someone working for Voldemort, wouldn’t they have just
finished Harry off or taken him away with them?”

“That’s three questions, actually.” Harry reminded her, and she remembered chastising Dumbledore in his office.

“Still, think about it!”

“She’s got a point there, actually,” Ron agreed. “You’re obviously supposed to remember what you heard and take it back
to the castle. Maybe even confront Dumbledore with it.”

The three eyed each other, warily.

“What did you feel when you heard them talking, Harry?” Hermione asked slowly.

His eyes dropped to the ground. “I tried to scream something but Malfoy covered my mouth. At first rush all I wanted was
to go in there and let loose on them both, I’d just had my DADA class with Snape and I was primed. But then I realized I
had to get back to you before they did.”

“Hardly a fool proof plan, but the possibilities are all there. Malfoy stopped you from making any noise so you wouldn’t
wonder why they didn’t come out to see what it was, because it wasn’t Mad Eye or Dumbledore. He knocked you down and
probably stupified you to buy time so you would wake up believing it was too late. You’re supposed to go back to
Hogwarts and either have it out with Dumbledore or walk around second-guessing and being jealous of everything Ron and I
do. Either way…”

“Either way I’m a loose cannon in my own camp, questioning the loyalties of my friends and ignoring my enemies.” Harry
finished for her.

“Except you’re older now, and wiser, and we’ve managed not to let anything come between the three of us so far and we’re
not going to start now,” she said firmly. “Right?”

“Right,” he replied gratefully.

“Right,” Ron agreed.

“And this is what we’re going to do instead…”

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They had to sneak back in to the castle with Malfoy still stupified in ferret form in the pocket of Hermione’s robes.
They only just had time to unload him somewhere and make it back to Gryffindor in time for curfew.

“Oh let me, please,” begged Ron. “I’ll be in by curfew, I promise.”

Hermione was in no mood to deal; she handed her furry little burden over and headed up the main stairs with Harry. They
parted company finally in the common room as each headed to their respective stairways.

“I’ll see you in a bit, won’t I?” Harry asked softly, uncertain, and she vowed to herself once again to get to the
bottom of whoever had come up with this newest assault on his confidence. And then to hex them into utter oblivion.

She nodded. “Twenty points if you wear those nice, soft flannelly ones. I’m freezing.”

She decided she really liked the way his eyes kind of crinkled up at the corners when he grinned like that.

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The boys might be quite used to Hermione in their room now, but things had never been as clear in her own. Hermione was
a creature unto herself to begin with; she got on well enough with Lavender and Parvati and the others, but she had
never exactly bonded with them. She attempted to be a considerate roommate, leaving her things neat and coming in
quietly after a late night spent studying. She tended to rise early, but always dressed quickly and quietly not to rouse
later sleepers. She simply had no real patience for most of the girlish sharing the others craved; she knew more than
they thought of their various exploits from absorbing the chat that went on around her but seldom entered into it
herself. She co-existed with her roommates well enough, but Harry and Ron were her friends.

She could tell something was up as soon as she entered the room. Lavender and Parvati both bounced back guiltily from
the area around her bed and Lavender quickly tried to make it appear that she was teaching Parvati about Muggle
stretching exercises.

“Don’t let me stop you,” she told them politely, and went about changing in to her pajamas. She brushed her teeth and
braided her hair in the girls’ lavatory and returned to find them still up, now sitting on Lavender’s bed seemingly
absorbed in some Witch Weekly quiz. Hermione dug through her books and found her Arithmancy text and some parchment.

“Guess I’ll just work on this a bit downstairs. ‘Night.”

Lavender and Parvati burst into helpless giggles. Thinking it was their reading they found so funny Hermione shrugged
and headed toward the door.

“We….we….we….we…” Lavender tried.

“We wort…she wort …” Parvati gasped.

Hermione waited patiently for one of them to gain control.

“We short sheeted your bed days ago,” Lavender finally managed to get out. “Unless you really like it that way you
haven’t slept in here in almost a week. Now spill!”

It was the moment she’d so not been looking forward to.

Their lack of Muggle film knowledge precluded ‘I could tell you, but then I’d have to kill you.’ She was going to have
to rely on their solidarity as girls. Or obliviate them.

“I’ve been with Harry,” she admitted. “But it’s not what you think.”

“Hermione, even you couldn’t spend that much time with Harry and not get up to something interesting.”

Now what the heck did THAT mean?  Hermione’s eyes narrowed slightly.

“I mean McGonagall knows about it, that’s why I haven’t been caught. I’m not really supposed to talk about it. I’m
helping with a spell that’s supposed to keep Voldemort from being able to reach him.”

Both girls winced. “That’s his one downside, I suppose,” Lavender said. “The Voldemort thing.”

“That and the fact he can’t dance,” Parvati sighed. “The eyes almost make up for it, though. And he really can be very
sweet.”

“Damn fine on a broom, too.”

“Ummm, Hello?” Hermione reminded them. “Can I ask you two to please keep this quiet?”

“Absolutely,” Lavender said with a grin. “You can always ask.”

“Implore, beg, plead…” Parvati agreed.

“So is he, you know, any good?” Lavender wondered aloud.

For the very first time in her life, Hermione found herself torn between the “good girl” answer (well I never!) and what
she honestly believed to be the “real” answer (Hell yes!). ‘I actually almost want to talk to them about… well not in
detail, but I want… because I’m… happy. I’m happy and excited inside about him and I sort of feel… girly? Merlin, Harry,
what have you done to me?’

Hermione Granger nodded shyly and then blushed brilliantly. “I’ve got to go. I’d really appreciate it if you’d not tell
anyone, okay? We’ll, ah, maybe we can all, erm, talk, or something, tomorrow. Thanks!”

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The boys’ dorm seemed familiar and welcoming somehow after the strangeness of the encounter in her own. Neville smiled a
shy greeting, Dean waved vaguely, immersed in the news of his favorite football team. Seamus didn’t even flinch that
she’d caught him in his boxers.

“Put on your pants, Finnigan, you exhibitionist.” Ron nagged him.

“Like she’s looking,” Hermione heard him yawn in reply as she climbed onto Harry’s bed. “Straight up to Potter like
always, never a thought for the rest of us, poor helpless Dark Lord fodder though we are. It’s a pity, I tell you.”

Harry was actually working, reading his potions assignment. “I figured I’d better, after the DADA disaster today,” he
sighed, and moved to shut the book. She stilled his hand.

“No, go ahead and finish. You really should. I don’t mind.”

“Thanks a heap,” he laughed, but returned to the assignment without further persuasion. Hermione stretched out beside
him and began puzzling through the loose ends of the day, trying to sort through events. Across the room the boys
continued to talk quietly amongst themselves until one by one they began to succumb to sleep.

Harry finally closed his potions book with a sigh. “Done,” he groaned; tiredness heavy in his voice. “For some reason
reading potions always makes me desperately need to pee.”

“Really? How useful. Go on then. I’ll remember that,” she teased. He padded off to the loo. He’d left the hangings open
and as Hermione shifted her position after a bit she abruptly caught the gleam of an open eye across the darkness.

“Good night, Ron,” she called softly.

“G’night Hermione. I, um, I’mgladyou’rehere. Actually. Glad.”

High praise, coming from Ron.

“Thanks.”

“Me, too,” whispered Harry, climbing back up onto the bed. “’Night, Ron.” He pulled the hangings closed and settled down
with a soft exhalation of relief. “Another day I’m not sorry to see the end of.”

“It had its good points, didn’t it?” she inquired mischievously.

He had worn the pajamas she loved. She hooked her legs round his, snuggling in. “These weren’t Dudley’s were they?”

“’Fraid so. From when he was twelve or something. He was always such a big, unh, boy. I’ve had them at least three or
four years though, if that’s any comfort.”

“It’s just they still feel like they practically want to fall off.”

“You seem to be helping. A lot, actually.”

“You could help as well.”

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Hermione was the one with restless dreams that night. She awoke from a dead sleep to the horrible suspicion that she had
become so distracted fooling around with Harry that she had forgotten altogether to activate the dream keeper spell
before they drifted off. He seemed so peaceful; should she wake him? How could she sleep if she didn’t? It was her own
fault, maybe she should just stay awake the rest of the night and watch. She could petrify him if anything looked off…

“Have I grown another nose or something?” he asked sleepily, and she almost screamed aloud.

“I thought, um, I, did we remember to do the spell earlier?”

“Oh, sod it, I thought you did, you were the one with the wand out,” Harry said anxiously, as awake now as she.

“Not THAT one, idiot, the other one. Did I do your spell for you?”

“Oh. Yeah, you did. Yeah. No problems, then?”

“No, no problem.”

Except they were now both wide awake.

“Harry?”

“Hmm?”

“Do you think he knows when you’re ummm, when you’re really, really happy? Through the scar?”

He shifted restlessly, eyes avoiding her, but he knew what she was getting at. “I don’t know. But probably yes. I mean I
always think he’s killed someone or something when he gets that sort of triumphant, happy feeling, but for all I know
he’s getting off. I have no way of knowing really, I’m sorry. I know it’s…gross.”

“No… I mean yes, it sort of is, of course, but I’ve thought of something else. No one else but Dumbledore should know
about the prophecy, right? And we’re pretty sure now that it wasn’t Dumbledore you heard today. So how would anyone else
even think of love protecting you if they didn’t know about a power that he knows not?”

“Voldemort shouldn’t know about a power he knows not, but he does know about you.”

“Right. He saw me with you the other night, you said it infuriated him and when I kissed you he backed off, right? He’d
want us split up then, if it meant a clear shot at you. It makes so much more sense than if it were Dumbledore. What I’m
not sure of is what exactly gets to him. Is it you loving me, or you being able to love at all?”

“I don’t see the difference.”

“If it wasn’t me, then it wouldn’t matter if he broke us up, you’d have the same protection from anyone else you loved.”

“Hermione, I don’t care about anyone else. I don’t want anyone else. Only you.”

“But maybe I really could be the power after all then. If Voldemort was the one behind whoever was pretending to be
Dumbledore, than maybe it’s because I really am what you need. He doesn’t know anything about the prophecy; he just
knows what’s happening when you’re here with me.”

“Hermione, you are what I need. All that I need. Trust me, I should know by now,” Harry said patiently. “You do so much
more for me than just revolt Voldemort.”

Hermione stared at him a moment, her velvety brown eyes unreadable. It occurred to him then that perhaps he hadn’t
worded that last bit quite so well.

“Sorry,” he said softly.

“Never mind,” she said, nestling down and slipping her arms around him again. “That was, dare I say it, quite romantic
coming from you.”

Not just any girl would say that.

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21. Chapter 21

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 21

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Entering the Great Hall for breakfast the following morning Harry found his path impeded just inside the door by Snape
himself. Hermione had cured the physical evidence of the bruise but his head still ached and his stomach was rumbling
empty from missing yet another meal. He was not feeling especially charitable or in control, never a good start to any
confrontation with the Slytherin Head of House.

Snape’s eyes were as angry as Harry had ever seen them, black and fathomless.

“Ah, Potter. You wouldn’t happen to know why Mr. Malfoy was discovered in the Ravenclaw girls’ lavatory this morning
would you? Or why he might be sporting that particular fashion statement?”

Harry’s eyes shifted to the Slytherin table. Malfoy was once again sitting on the end, far from his usual place in the
thick of things. He seemed quite absorbed by whatever was in the bowl in front of him, providing a perfect view of the
top of his head. And aw… weren’t those a little baby set of horns just poking through? Draco looked up to snarl
something at his nearest neighbor at the table (probably asked him to pass the salt, Harry guessed gleefully) revealing
that his tongue was now rather enlarged and… forked.

“I can quite honestly say, Sir,” Harry said truthfully, “that I had nothing to do with that.” But oh, how I wish I had!

“Strange,” Hermione commented, brushing past them, “If he was as competent a wizard as his continual high marks in
Potions would lead one to believe, that he hasn’t just changed it back.”

Snape grasped Hermione’s upper arm, stopping her in her tracks. Harry surprised all three of them by hissing something
alarming in Parseltongue. A relief, really, because he quickly realized he would have been in a way more trouble had
Snape actually understood his words. His meaning was clear enough, however, that Snape removed his hand. Quite quickly.

“The change has… resisted removal,” Snape said furiously. “I should have known it would have been beyond you, Potter.
Now, Miss Granger…”

“Had nothing to do with it, either.” Harry informed him. “She was with me.”

“Was she really?” Snape asked triumphantly. “How interesting.”

“I think you’ll find it interests no one anymore but you,” Hermione told him witheringly. She tugged at Harry’s sleeve.
“We’re blocking the door.”

“Indeed,” said a deep, good-natured voice from behind them, “And I am quite looking forward to my breakfast.”

Dumbledore had returned.

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“You realize where those horns came from, don’t you?” Hermione said softly as they took their seats across from Ron at
the Gryffindor table.

“Well it wasn’t me,” Ron said through a mouthful of scrambled egg. “I gave him to Ginny. I thought it was only fair.”

“Whatever Ginny did, it wasn’t the horns or the tongue. That’s the jinx he signed. He’s crossed the line somewhere
between acting on Voldemort’s orders and providing information to him. He betrayed at least one of us last night. And
it’s going to take them a good long time to figure out how to get them off, too. I may not have thought about Voldemort
working it the other way round, but I was very thorough when it came to the jinx itself.”

“Guess that explains the Ravenclaw girls’ shower bit, though.” Harry offered. “I bet Ginny got Luna to help her. And
knowing the two of them I’d wager there was a good bit more to it than that. Almost makes me wish I was a Ravenclaw this
morning.”

“Except for the Cho side of things and the fact neither of us have a hope in the brains department, I’m with you,” Ron
agreed.

“I think Luna would love to see you as a Ravenclaw, Ron.” Hermione told him, seizing the opportunity.

“I think Luna’d like to see Ron just about anywhere, actually,” said Harry, buttering his toast with a grin. “Better
than a Crumple-Horned Snorkack, you are.”

Hermione chose to see hope in Ron’s fiery red-headed blush. Perhaps girls were losing their cooties at last. Or at least
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Harry received the inevitable summons on his way to Transfiguration. The methodology was different; Dumbledore had never
before sent Fawkes to find him within the castle walls. It also troubled Harry somewhat that the note specified that the
Headmaster wished to see him but said nothing about Hermione or Ron.

“It’ll have nothing at all to do with anything, for all that,” he muttered. “I’m probably in trouble for something else
entirely now.”

“Harry, remember, tell him everything. He needs to know what you saw and we need to know what he thinks about it, or
what we decided to try will get us into more trouble than we can handle. Don’t get put off.” Hermione was watching him,
anxious.

“I will. Honestly. I’ll meet you and Ron after. In the library?”

She nodded and watched him head off toward the staircase to Dumbledore’s office with a feeling of trepidation. It used
to comfort her when she thought he was letting the teachers know what was going on. Life was altering immeasurably now.

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The gargoyles hailed Harry like an old friend and inquired whether Ron and Hermione had caught up with him. Upon
learning the message had worked they promptly congratulated each other, drew themselves up proudly and opened the door,
utterly forgetting to wait for the password. Harry reckoned Dumbledore really needed a better security system.

The headmaster was pacing the confines of his office as Harry had so often seen him do on the Marauders’ Map.

“Ah, Harry. Sit down,” he said gravely, turning to meet him. There was no sign of a twinkle in those blue eyes now;
something had detoured his good mood of earlier that morning in quite another direction. Harry sat.

“We have something of a problem to sort out,” Dumbledore began.

‘When have we not?’ thought Harry.

“Where were you yesterday afternoon, Harry? After your Defense class with Professor Snape.”

“I went to the Shrieking Shack with Draco Malfoy.”

Dumbledore’s eyebrows rose inquiringly.

“He cornered me outside the classroom. It seems letting Snape into it means all of Slytherin’s going to know.”
Dumbledore shook his head, whether to deny the fact or in resignation Harry could not tell. “He told me that he wanted
to prove himself, that you were in danger and he had solid information that Voldemort meant to attack you and that we
could warn you. He thought you wouldn’t trust the information coming from him, he wanted me to come along.”

“And you believed him?” Dumbledore questioned, sounding very much like Hermione.

“I couldn’t disprove it. You never tell me anything real, how can I know? I think I’ve finally come to realize I can
live with the accusations of stupidity easier than the thought that I could have done something and didn’t.”

“Assuming, of course, you do live.”

“Yeah,” said Harry, but without remorse. He felt quite done with that particular battle now.

“Harry, Miss Parkinson claims that during that same period of time yesterday you were possessed by Voldemort and took
her to the Shrieking Shack where you attacked her and forced her to accept the Dark Mark, which she does indeed now
bear. Mr. Malfoy claims he went nowhere, and there are five students who are willing to testify that he was in the
Slytherin common room with them.”

Harry stared at him, dumbfounded.

“Indeed,” said Dumbledore.

“Draco knows…”

“Draco is quite probably lying.”

“Quite probably?” Harry said furiously.

“It is not that I do not trust you or believe you, Harry. One of the things I am proudest of in you is how hard it is
for you to open up your mind to the true possibilities of evil. The other side of that equation, however, is that many
things simply do not occur to you until you are forced to accept them. It is possible, for example, that someone else
used polyjuice potion to appear to you as Draco.”

“Highly unlikely. I know that pr, er jerk too well by now. Better than I ever wanted to.”

“Still, we must rule it out before we respond in an accusatory manner.”

“Hermione and Ron were there. They saw him as well. And even if it wasn’t him, they know Pansy wasn’t with us.”

“Perhaps you had better start at the beginning,” Dumbledore suggested wearily. “This appears to be a more tangled web
than first I thought.”

“It’s more than just tangled,” Harry responded angrily. “It’s knotted like a net and it’s snaring me. When Draco and I
reached the end of the tunnel from the Whomping Willow we heard voices. We climbed up the stairs to hear. I kept Draco
in front of me the whole time; it wasn’t like I trusted him or anything. It was you I heard. You and Mad Eye. Talking
about separating Hermione and me. You said Hermione wasn’t what I needed and that you would refocus her feelings toward
Ron so that I would be ready when you needed me.”

Harry watched Dumbledore closely as he spoke; saw the range of emotions begin and be quickly shut down under his gaze.
Something surged blindly in him, a need to know for sure, and he cast a desperate wordless legilimens almost before he
realized what he was doing. Images began to flood him, random things, people he did not know, snippets of conversation.
He sought desperately to hold on to something as the current swept through him with the force of a flood-swollen river,
pummeling him, until he suddenly made out a voice he did not recognize intoning “It can not be the girl then, Albus.
Only you can know if she does more harm than good.”  He felt Dumbledore’s power then, thrusting him away from the
thought. He clung, fought with all that he had to know more, to hear Dumbledore’s response to whomever spoke. He had to
know…

A sudden fierce pain lanced through him. He heard a dull roar… that slowly became a distinctly furious “HARRY POTTER!”

Dumbledore stood before him, trembling, wand pointed directly at him. Every muscle in his body suddenly knotted
painfully. Holy Aslan… he’d actually managed to…

“Yes,” Dumbledore finished for him. “You have indeed been undergoing a growth in your abilities. Now you must hurry up
and mature in the knowledge of their judicious use.”

“I’m sorry,,,” Harry began.

“No, you are not,” Dumbledore said resignedly. “Nor would I truly expect you to be. You felt you needed to know what you
sought, not for yourself but for Hermione. This should reveal to you something about the power that acting on your
feelings for her invokes in you. Isn’t that what you really wanted to know?”

“Is it? I wanted to know for sure it really wasn’t you I heard, but there in your thoughts is exactly what I was afraid
to find.”

“Was it? Exactly? I think not, Harry. I was not at the Shrieking Shack, nor have I discussed your relationship with Miss
Granger with Mad Eye Moody. Of that, at least, you can be certain.”

“But then who said, ‘It can not be the girl then, Albus. Only you can know if she does more harm than good.’?”

Dumbledore smiled sadly and sat down in the chair beside Harry. “You truly do not know your own strength, Harry. What
you discovered in my memory had nothing to do with you or Miss Granger. It was a memory of my own, from long, long ago.
One I had buried, I thought quite deeply. One I have never allowed myself to pensieve so I do not forget. A story for
another time, perhaps. I will be entirely honest with you about this matter, Harry. It was not I you heard in the
Shrieking Shack, but if you asked me the question that burdens you so, you might not like my answer, either.”

“I am asking it,” Harry said, “whether I’ll like it or not. I need to know.”

“I believe that you love Hermione with all your heart,” Dumbledore began. “That you both wish to love and can after all
that has befallen you is a credit to you, and to Hermione. The connection that was forged between you and Voldemort on
the day he killed your parents is indeed powerful and could easily have overcome you. Between that portion of
Voldemorts’ powers latent within you and the Dursleys’ mistreatment, you could well have made Draco Malfoy seem quite
the amateur in comparison.” He smiled, as if amused now by the thought.

“Yet you arrived at Hogwarts… yourself. You have inspired the love of at least two good souls, Harry, no mean feat for
any one of us. I was pleased for you when you and Ron and Hermione befriended each other so quickly your first year; I
had feared that your years at the Dursleys would have made the transition to Hogwarts difficult, yet you took to it like
a duck to water and proved to us all that you are indeed a wizard to be reckoned with. I am likewise delighted with what
your union with Hermione is awakening in you now. It has come in due season and I do believe that it is helping to
strengthen you in some ways. Sirius’ death was a painful blow, and I am quite sure Voldemort thrilled at the despair he
sensed in you. I can only guess at the extent of it, but a relationship such as the one you are forming with Hermione is
more than likely to produce a redoubled will to live, if only for her. That has quite probably likewise been a blow to
Voldemort, one he rightly fears. The truly good, Harry, fight far stronger for those they love than ever they could for
themselves. He experienced that once already with your Mother.”

“Then how can Hermione not be what I need? I love her. I’d fight for her, die for her. He knows that. Because she’s not
pureblooded, it really seems to disgust him and pain him that she can achieve all that she has. When he has control of
me and she touches me he can’t stand it. He’s literally so repulsed and frightened of the two of us together he leaves
me. She’s not afraid to help me. How can it not be her?” Harry was confused as well as angry; all that Dumbledore had
related so far had done nothing to change his mind.

“I am not saying Hermione is not a powerful witch, Harry. Nor am I saying that she is not awakening a sense of power
within you. I do not believe, however, that what you are experiencing is the power referred to in either the prophecy or
the Sorting Hats’ riddle. The difficulty with the connection forged between you and Voldemort, Harry, is that I think it
happened long before it was meant to. I don’t think the soulless depth of evil it takes to cast a killing curse on an
eighteen month old child is what the universe ever had in mind for you. I have long believed what took place was meant
to happen when you were of age and confronted him. You alone would have power enough to kill him, but your burden for
taking his life would be that portion of his power you would then have to carry within you and control for the rest of
your own. Voldemort cheated, thinking he would kill you before you ever grew strong enough understand your destiny.
You’ve had to bear his unwilling gift to you ever since, and you are unquestionably stronger for it. What now will
happen if you are successful in taking his life? When that part of you is torn from you with his death will you truly
welcome it? What if he were in turn to take all your magic with him and leave you a squib? Have you thought of this?
What if you were to claim the rest of his powers? Could you keep from being consumed by them? No one, Harry, takes a
life without consequence, no matter how evil the life force that is snuffed. I have come to believe that the power you
need is one that will let you survive not just Voldemort himself, but the vanquishing of him.”

Harry felt as if the Centaurs’ poison had reawakened within him; breathing seemed to be all he was capable of and was
difficult at that. He had been struggling just to come to terms with ultimately confronting Voldemort; Dumbledore’s
suggestions opened up a chasm beyond the mountain he had yet to climb. A squib?

“I…no. I never thought…”

“And why should you have?” Dumbledore asked gently. “I’m sorry, Harry, so sorry to have to lay yet more to cope with on
top of what is already a considerable burden. I would not have unless I believed you to be either ready or needful, and
I think present circumstances dictate a bit of both.”

“But then what is it? What can it be that I have to survive him with?”

“I could only hazard a guess at this point, and I will not. I truly believe the answer to the riddle of the window is
meant to help you, but I also sense you have been… resistant to the idea. I suggest you revisit your reasoning. In the
mean time, however, we must determine our response to Miss Parkinson’s accusations.”

A thought suddenly occurred to Harry’s overburdened brain.

“The dragon’s tooth! I left Hermione a message in the dragon tooth Charlie Weasley gave me this summer. It only goes up
until the point that Draco and I left, but Hermione and Ron used it to figure out how to find me. Draco pushed me when I
turned my back to go down the stairs in the Shrieking Shack. It must have knocked me out, or he stupefied me. He left me
there and went back to the school and Hermione and Ron found him in the kitchens. The house elves saw him there too,
although no one will take their word for anything, will they? But the tooth should at least prove that I wasn’t
Voldemort then and that Draco’s lying.”

Dumbledore looked at him uncertainly over the tops of his half-moon glasses. “You left a message in a dragon’s tooth?
What sort of message?”

“My memories, like your pensieve. I put my memory of what happened into the tooth for Hermione to find.”

“You removed them?”

Harry realized the Headmaster was looking at him quizzically. “No, just an image of them, like this.” Harry collected a
bit of their earlier conversation and shoved it to the edge of Dumbledore’s consciousness, careful to stay politely
outside. He could still feel the sting of whatever Dumbledore had hit him with to break the legilimency bond.
Dumbledore’s expression never changed and Harry was afraid it hadn’t worked until he spoke.

“Harry, that is indeed extraordinary. Neither truly legilimency nor telepathy nor… well. Nothing I have ever seen done
quite that way. So you created an image of your memory and imbued the tooth with it?”

“I thought if Voldemort could do it as Tom, with the book, it should be easier on something already magical, like the
tooth. It kind of wore me out, but it worked. I have no idea how he did what he did with his whole essence, but just the
images seemed to work out alright.”

“You must see how this is born of that same connection that he uses though, Harry. The power you drew on there would be
betrayed to him by the recognition of his earlier usage of it, just as drawing on his physical condition to slow your
heartbeat in the cave allowed him further access to you. Each time you make use of what was passed to you through the
scar, he knows.”

Harry felt stricken, numbed by his own obliviousness once more. “I didn’t think of that,” he admitted. “It’s hard,
sometimes, to know where things come from. It’s all inside me, how can I know what’s him and what’s me other than by
knowing when it’s just… wrong?”

“You quite probably can’t, Harry. This is one of the dangers you face in confronting him. If you choose to use a power
that comes from him, he will know. The more devastating the power, the more likely it is that you inherited it from him.
It doesn’t mean you will not be able to use it, but he will know it well and be prepared. The pleasure of the strength
you find through Hermione is that it is one he doesn’t share. The ability to utilize Avada Kedavra is one he knows only
too well.”

“So you think he knew what I was doing when I left the message for Hermione? Will he have known what the message was as
well?”

“Perhaps we can determine that. What exactly made up the message?” Dumbledore asked.

“The first bit was, erm, just for Hermione, in case anything happened to me. It was the sort of thing he hates, perhaps
he tuned out then. The rest was… oh cr…” Harry raised worried eyes to his headmaster. “I let her see my DADA class with
Professor Snape. It was…awful. I thought he was coming down on me because you were gone, I can’t duel the way he wants,
I’m not half as nasty as he thinks I should be and I’m just too stupid at faking it. I kept thinking how I didn’t want
to duel Voldemort, I just wanted to kill him and be done with it. Get on with my life. Snape went off. ‘The
impertinence, the fatal ego of you, boy! Voldemort will wipe the floor with you, he’ll make you beg for death. You’ll
never even get the chance to try for a killing curse if you can’t handle this!’’

Harry saw Dumbledore actually wince at his Potion Master’s words.

“I’ve killed him, though, haven’t I? If Voldemort saw that he’ll know all about Snape!”

“Calm down, Harry. If it is done, it is done and nothing will change it now. Severus has been striding a fine line for
years, it was bound to come to an end at some point and at least we will know in time to ensure he would not be caught
out in Voldemort’s presence. What else was in the message? How exactly did you leave it for Hermione, and more
importantly, how did you ensure that no one else found it? Is it possible Miss Parkinson got hold of it?”

“The rest of the message was the conversation with Malfoy, so she’d know why I was going. I put a suspending spell on
Draco for a couple of moments so he wouldn’t know what I was doing and left it in one of your gargoyles’ mouths. Ever
since I got the tooth Hermione’s been the only other person who seemed to be able to touch it. That’s why Uncle Vernon
finally let me alone when you sent Bill to help me this summer; he grabbed the tooth and it burned his hand. Everyone
else who tries to touch it says it feels as if it burns or bites them somehow, but when Bill took me to the Burrow and
Hermione cleaned up my eye she touched it and nothing happened. I thought it would be safe because no one else would be
able to easily retrieve it.”

“Do you still have it? May I see?” Dumbledore asked. Harry loosened his tie further and slid his fingers beneath his
collar, fishing for the leather necklace. He pulled it over his head and carefully handed it over by the cord.

Dumbledore examined it closely, carefully extending a long boney finger to the tip. He withdrew it again quickly.

“Quite the stinging sensation. Interesting, indeed. Miss Granger affirmed for you that she received the information you
intended?”

Harry nodded.

“Well, I think we can safely assume that it is unlikely the message within the tooth itself was intercepted. The
question remains however, whether Voldemort was, as you suggested, uncomfortable enough with the first part of the
message to disregard the rest as you planted it. How… detailed was your memory?”

Harry blushed, remembering giving Hermione a lifetimes’ worth of snog points for her efforts down by the lake. “Erm,
very. Quite detailed. He was so utterly repulsed by a so-called mudblood kissing me the night he found us together that
he almost took my head off getting out. This would have, erm, sent him right round the bend.”

“I see. Well, let us hope you, er, succeeded. It would be a most beneficial outcome, though I fear we should proceed as
if he had full knowledge of the message, particularly where Professor Snape is concerned. As far as Miss Parkinson’s
claim, I am afraid the tooth will do us little good if others can not examine its contents. There must be a way to alter
the protection upon it. You said Charlie Weasley gave it to you?”

Harry nodded. “Do you think he’d know? He sent me a note with it. He said it was from one of the hatchlings of the
Hungarian Horntail I drew for the first task of the Tri Wizard tournament. He said the baby seemed to want me to have
it; he spit it at Charlie and wouldn’t look away until Charlie said my name. He said it just kept popping into his mind
until he said “Harry Potter?” to the dragon, and it sort of nodded at him and went away again. Charlie wrote that the
‘tooth of a dragon, willingly given’ was supposed to be very potent and used in powerful charms. He never said anything
about touching it. I was as surprised as Uncle Vernon when it burned him. It left a mark on his hand.”

“If memory serves, Vernon Dursley had just attacked you to get at the tooth. Was his reaction more marked then the
others?”

“More noticeable you mean? Yes, I guess it was.”

“You wanted him to leave you alone, did you not? You did not wish for him to take the tooth from you?”

“Actually, I wanted him to have the massive coronary he deserves, but that’s a bit beyond the scope of what you’re
asking, isn’t it?”

Dumbledore’s lips twitched. “I meant only that the most severe response was to one you wished very much not to have the
tooth. Hermione, whom you have always trusted and wished to have it, touched it without incident. I wonder if the
potency is in fact linked to you.” He handed the cord back to Harry. “When you handed it to me before, you were willing
to let me see it. What might happen if you actually wished for me to be able to view your message as a means to help you
defend yourself against Miss Parkinson?”

Harry held the tooth itself in his palm, focusing on Dumbledore being able to view the memories it held. It grew
slightly warm, then cooled within his palm. He handed it back hopefully. Dumbledore took it by the cord and again
extended a finger to tentatively touch the tip. When nothing appeared to happen he slowly closed the rest of his fingers
around it. Harry watched his old blue eyes take on a slightly dimmed, inward turning gaze. He also realized his
headmaster was watching he and Hermione…

Could his life possibly get any more humiliating? Was that Voldemort’s secret weapon? Never mind about young Harry,
Wormtail, I’ll just let him embarrass himself to death!

He reverted his eyes to Fawkes, who eyed Harry sympathetically and promptly burst into flames.

“Well,” said Dumbledore, several very long minutes later. Harry noticed the hand that held the necklace was shaking
slightly. “You are not just recording images of your memories, Harry. The emotions you experience are inextricably
attached and fully recorded as well. Hermione must have received quite a shock when she relived your response to Draco’s
taunt about using her as a voodoo doll.”

Harry felt a pang of remorse; he’d never meant for Hermione to feel that.

“And I admit to entirely forgetting quite the… surge of teenaged hormones.”

Harry felt another pang, and it had nothing to do with remorse. “But you do believe me?” he asked.

Dumbledore met his anxious gaze directly. “Harry, I did not need to see that to believe you. Still, I think we must at
least try to build you a defense based upon other evidence.”

“What do you think she’s trying to do?”

“My best estimation would be that Voldemort seeks to see you expelled through Pansy. I imagine he has somehow learned of
the incident at your Aunts’ house and realizes you no longer claim Privet Drive as home. He may also have come to the
same conclusion that I did, that your protection from him there was weakened by his own use of your blood to reanimate
his body. Either way, without your Aunts’ home to return to, you could be at a serious disadvantage if you were in fact
turned out of Hogwarts. He has seen that you grow stronger as well, he may wish to strike at you before you understand
your new power.”

“How do I fight that? Cho’s made half the school believe I’m nothing but his puppet, and the other half either already
believed it or thought he was still dead and I’m an attention seeking liar. What can I do?”

“I would throw the onus of proof upon Miss Parkinson. Other than the Department of Mysteries when he was actually in
your physical presence, Voldemort has only ever taken you over through the scar when you are asleep. Since he has
already discovered you petrified we can surely reveal the Dream Keeper potion and its effect. You could hardly have
taken her to the Shrieking Shack fully petrified. Professor Snape can attest to making it and to your taking it. It
comes down to word against word, and while your position here is indeed tenuous as far as the governors are concerned,
this hardly seems conclusive enough to break the Snorkack’s back.”

“Wait a moment. If Draco wasn’t with us, why did he wake up in the Ravenclaw girls’? Hermione turned him into a ferret
and Ron gave him to Ginny. We’re pretty sure Ginny and Luna let him loose in the showers. How does he explain ending up
there?”

“I can not answer that, but I must suggest that turning Draco Malfoy into a ferret is hardly behavior you should wish to
advertise in defense of anything.”

“He pushed me down the stairs. It hurt! Besides, Hermione did it, to stop us fighting.”

Dumbledore sighed. “Go back to class, Harry, and please, at least attempt to stay out of trouble until I can sort this
out. I promise to keep you informed as things progress and to warn you if need be. In the event it becomes necessary you
shall go to Grimauld Place for a bit, but I will do my level best to keep that nothing more than a last ditch option.”

Harry said, “Thank you, Sir,” but it came out as little more than a whisper.

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Harry found Hermione and Ron in the library as he had promised, but knew there was no way he could begin to relate all
Dumbledore had told him there without an outburst from at least one of the three of them resulting in their expulsion by
Madam Pince.

“We need to take a walk,” he told them. “Outside. I’ll get our cloaks and meet you back by the stairs.”

“Bloody cold for a walk today,” Ron grumbled, gathering up his books.

“He wouldn’t ask us unless he thought we had to,” Hermione pointed out. “Either he doesn’t want to be overheard or he
thinks Madam Pince is going to kick us out when we hear what he has to say.”

They trailed out of the library and headed slowly toward the door. Harry had a lot of stairs to climb.

“So…” Ron said.

Hermione raised a single eyebrow at him.

“So, Harry. How’s that going?”

“Fine, thanks.”

“Is it… I mean, I kind of thought that… well, everyone sort of thought that you were going to get together sooner or
later. Is it what you… I mean are you, unh, happy?”

She started to give him her mini-McGonagall glare, but spoiled it when her lips quivered. She gave up and let a Cheshire
cat grin light her face. “Do you know, Ron, the usual evil dark lord baggage aside, the answer is yes. I really am.”

He let out a relieved breath. “That’s a break then. He’s been doing some pretty heavy stuff lately, the wandless thing
and all that. I really wasn’t looking forward to having to yank his chain if you weren’t.”

“Not very nice, either, yanking his chain after you flattened his nose.”

“It still looks a bit off, doesn’t it? I told him he should get Madam Pomfrey to fix it, but he’s fed up with the
Hospital Wing just now.”

“It doesn’t seem to bother him, anyway. But thanks for asking, Ron. I’m really glad that, well, that you’re okay with
it. He needs you, too.”

“Thankfully not quite the same way,” said Harry from behind them, holding their cloaks.

“Quit crushing a boy’s dreams, will you? Where to?” Ron asked, taking his.

“The lake, I guess,” Harry told him, holding Hermione’s out for her.

They made their way out the door and down the path toward the choppy blue water. The afternoon sunshine was weak and
overruled by a gusting wind thrusting clouds in its way and tugging at Hermione’s hair. They seemed to almost
automatically find their new configuration with Harry sandwiched between them and walked for awhile without need of
words. Harry felt himself relaxing to the rhythmic sounds of their foot fall on the path and the warmth of Hermione’s
hand in its soft, woolly mitten in his own. He hated to spoil it, but knew that time wasn’t waiting around for him,
either. It never did.

So he told them everything he’d learned.

Ron was predictably outraged at Malfoy and Pansy.

Hermione unpredictably ignored Dumbledore’s assessment of her role, (‘but if he ever tells you the story about the girl
that wasn’t me, Harry, you have to promise to tell. I always wondered about that’) and focused instead on the riddle. “I
think he’s right, there’s something there in that window. I just can’t get any kind of brainhold on what.”

“Maybe we’re looking at the wrong time. Remember how it said; So seek me through these castle walls/ Search where the
light of morning falls/At break of day. Maybe it was a fluke Harry blew it out when he did and it only shows something
at dawn. Mrs. Norris and Filch’d be the only ones to see it then, and they don’t seem to look up much, if you see what I
mean.” Ron suggested.

He slowly noticed Harry and Hermione were staring at him with distinctly quizzical expressions.

“What?”

“You just quoted poetry, Ron. By heart,” Harry informed him.

“I really want to go to Hogsmeade, Harry. I’m right out of Chocolate Frogs and just about everything else as well. It’s
been a long friggin’ fall, mate and I’m ready to bust this stupid riddle and be done with it. If it’s going to help you
defeat Voldemort, I could likely spout that Shakesword guy,” Ron retorted.

“Shakespeare, Ron,” said Hermione. “And it says search where the light of morning falls. It may just have been pointing
us to the eastern side of the castle. But you do have a good point; we’ve strayed away from our two most important
clues. The words themselves and how they were hidden to be found. Remember how it said; ‘Obscured from those who seek in
wrath/But waiting on the righteous path.’ And ‘Seek me in faith and you shall find/Answers hidden long in time.’ Maybe
we’ve got to go about it not at the right time so much as in the right frame of mind. Particularly you, Harry, you’ve
been very down on the whole thing from the first.”

“So I’ve got to walk around the castle thinking righteous thoughts now, have I?” he questioned. “That should attract
Slytherins like a magnet.”

“You need to stop being so bloody cynical about something that could help you, is what you need to do,” Hermione scolded
him. “And Ron and I need to follow up on why and when the inscription beneath the divination tower got erased. Now seems
like a perfectly good time to me.”

They turned around on the path and headed back the way they’d come, the sun setting behind them.

“I still can’t believe you used legilimency on Dumbledore, Harry,” Ron said wonderingly as the approached the castle.

“I still can’t believe I lived to tell you about it,” Harry replied. “He was that angry. I’ve never been on the business
end of a wand I dreaded more, including Voldemorts’. He zapped me with something to stop me and I have no idea what it
was, but I can still kind of feel it. Like an electric whip. Won’t let happen again anytime soon, I can assure you.”

They saw Malfoy and Snape leave the castle, heading toward the greenhouses.

“Have you noticed his horns are growing?” Ron snickered.

“I’ve got to credit you, Hermione. Is it a sort of Pinnochio effect, like every time he bullshits someone his horns get
a bit bigger?” Harry wondered.

She nodded and grinned wickedly. “From the look of things he won’t be able to hold his head up by tomorrow.”

It was the best laugh the three had shared in what seemed like forever.

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22. Chapter 22

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 22

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Hermione wrapped her cloak more closely around her as she found a seat in the Quidditch stands, watching the end of the
Gryffindor practice. Ron had been driving Ginny, Vicky Frobisher and Katie Bell hard until Katie had found a weak spot
in his defense of the left most hoop and begun exploiting it mercilessly. His frustration level, both with them and
himself, was almost off the charts. Kirk and Sloper were idly watching the show, having returned the bludgers to the
trunk below already. Harry was at the far side of the pitch playing catch-and-release with the snitch.

She observed carefully, delighting in a rare opportunity to enjoy him so utterly absorbed in something other than gloom
and survival until he spotted her and pulled up. He motioned to indicate that he was just going to catch the snitch and
come over to where she waited and took off at top speed. Almost as if it knew the game was up the snitch hared off down
the pitch, feinting high and low. Harry followed its movements, never more than a fingers’ breadth away. He crisscrossed
the pitch twice in hard pursuit and Hermione watched, holding her breath, as it darted in over the stands and he
determinedly followed it. She saw it zoom along a line of seats directly towards her, heard a buzzing zip as it whipped
round behind her. Harry pulled up hard, stopping his broom within inches, out of breath but grinning.

“Turn around, slowly, nice and smooth until you’ve got a bead on it. Stay real still and then snatch. Go on, you can do
it,” he coached.

She rolled her eyes but eased around, hearing more than seeing the buzzing golden-winged ball. She hesitated a moment,
stilling herself and trying to get a sense of its motion; then lunged.

She had it! She’d got it! The Snitch! It felt even smaller then she would have thought and continued to flutter
valiantly between her fingers, quivering.

“Good girl!” Harry laughed, green eyes alight. Hermione thought she’d catch a thousand snitches to keep them that way.
“I always knew you had the speed. If we could only get you on a broom…”

“I can sort of see what you like about that,” she told him. “Very satisfying somehow. But you can just forget the whole
broom bit, Potter. Not happening.”

He shrugged and dismounted into the stands to sit next to her, eyes on Ron. “He’ll be ages yet. He won’t stop until he’s
stopped Katie. Do you want to go ahead?”

“No. I’ll wait. Why can’t the rest of you go, though? Kirk and Sloper have been circling for a quarter hour already.”

“Team solidarity, or so he claims. Doesn’t want the Slytherins to see us come off the pitch except as a team. Daft git.
They’re only looking for an opportunity to cheat, that lot. They could care less what our morale is like.” He sighed and
scrubbed at his eyes, rather uselessly with his Quidditch gloves on. “He’s a great captain, though. Far better than I
would have been.”

“You look tired,” she told him softly, and suddenly inspired, shifted to the row of seats behind him and moved her
fingers to the back of his neck. Talk about tense. “Make that wired. Nice knots. No wonder you’re so cranky.”

“Am not cranky,” he said, his head literally falling forward. “When’m I ever cranky?”

“Harry, you blew a hole in the wall for goodness sake. Not to mention trying to legilimens Dumbledore,” she informed
him, lowering her hands to his shoulders. Goodness. Even tighter.

“That wasn’t cranky, that was defensive. It’s your fault, really. Aren’t you, in your role as official snoggee to the
Boy-Who-Lived, meant to be, erm, relaxing me?”

“Isn’t that what I am, in fact, now doing?”

“Yeah, well… yeah. Umm, yeah, I would have to admit that in fact you are. Very ummhmm nicely, too.”

Once he got over that whole uncertain-about-being-touched thing he really got over it, she decided. Either that or no
one had ever actually given him a back rub before. Although, come to think of it, who would have? Hardly one of the
Dursleys. She thought of all the moments of comfort in her own life; her mother tracing the alphabet on her drowsy four
year old back at nap time, her fathers’ famous foot rubs. Adoring pats on the head and hair ruffling from her
Grandfather while he praised her report card, her Grandmother’s enveloping lavender-scented comfort. While small Harry
was shut up in his cupboard alone.

Grown Harry was pretty much putty in her hands at the moment.

She kneaded the tightness on either side of the base of his neck until she sensed him unwinding, then ran her thumbs
down beneath the ridge of his shoulder blades to the spring of his ribcage below, slowly convincing the bunched muscles
to relax. There was a particularly knotty bit on his left side but he sucked in his breath and shifted away when she
tried to press against it. For a moment she thought it might be where the arrow had struck him, but it was the wrong
side and too far back. And she had healed that pretty well, if she did say it herself. “What’s that, Harry?”

“D’nno,” he said, settling back against her again like a dog seeking a good scratching. “Never mind.”

She slipped her hand underneath his jersey and easily found the spot again, a hard lump spanning two ribs, two or three
fingers breadth from the ridge of his spine. He didn’t pull away when she probed this time, but still stiffened beneath
her hands.

“Harry? What is that?”

“Voldemort. He’s growing out my spine the way he did Quirell’s head.” He pretended to hiss.

“Not funny, Harry. Not even a bit.”

“It’s where Uncle Vernon jumped on me, when I was trying to get my wand out from under the mattress the night I left
Privet Drive. I couldn’t get up fast enough after he left and Dudley kicked me in pretty much the same place. It’s
alright, Hermione, it doesn’t hurt unless you push on it. I’d forgotten it was even there. Really.” He sighed, figuring
the admission meant an end to the happy trance her fingers had been invoking.

Juxtaposed against her earlier thoughts it set her blood steaming and her fingers trembling. ‘They aren’t muggles, those
people,’ she thought. ‘They’re not even human.’

“Ow! Merlin, Hermione, you’re the one who needs to relax now. Yikes.”

She shook off her thoughts and slipped her arms round him from behind, nuzzling apologetically at his neck. “I’m sorry,
Harry. For all of it. For not having your own Mum and Dad to grow up with, for your nasty relatives and now for ruining
your back rub.”

“S’okay, Hermione,” he reassured her, letting his head fall back against her shoulder. “Really. I… we’ve got so much
going on ahead of us now it’s just not worth looking back anymore. It’s done. If I beat Voldemort I’ll never have to go
back there, and if I don’t, well… I’ll never have to go back there. Dumbledore knows that if I make it through this year
I’m not going back next summer. The protection may not be worth anything now that Voldemort shares my blood, anyway. And
if I never see Vernon or Dudley again it’ll be too soon. When I die I’ll know I did okay in my life if they’re not
wherever I end up.” He leaned in to kiss her gently just below her ear and she was sure he could feel her pulse racing
there. “Actually, I’ll know I lived a worthwhile life if I end up wherever you do,” he whispered; she could both hear
the words and feel them reverberate beneath her fingers. She shivered and tightened her hold, unwilling to consider
relinquishing him even to the thought of finding him again later. Not now. Not yet. Not willingly ever.

The sun was setting and the evening’s chill setting in. It had finally occurred to Katie Bell to start faking it, and
she lobbed a couple of sneaky ones Ron’s way, attempting to look crushed when he saved them.

“All right! Nothing’s going through there anytime soon. Let’s call it a day, team!” he called happily. Kick and Sloper
whooped and headed for the pitch while the girls exchanged smiles of relief. Ron noticed Harry and Hermione in the
stands and flew towards them. Harry reluctantly pulled himself back upright and Hermione equally reluctantly let go.

“You’re supposed to be practicing,” Ron chastised Harry.

“Couldn’t,” he grinned. “Hermione caught the snitch.”

Ron’s eyes narrowed. “Is that another one of those double entry joke thingies for snogging your girl on team time?”

Harry and Hermione met each other’s eyes and gave in to the urge to laugh themselves senseless.

Ron groaned and flew back alone toward the broom shed.  Now what had he said that was so damn funny?

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They reconvened in the library after dinner for another meeting of the detention of doom. Malfoy was not invited.

“What if we actually need him?” Hermione fretted. “The Sorting Hat did say, ‘Four again must walk these halls/And wake
me from my rest.’”

“We’ve walked the halls with him.” Harry said darkly. “And I couldn’t have blown out the hole to find the stupid thing
without his….help. I think his bit’s done.”

“Unless he’s meant to wake it from its rest. It certainly hasn’t seemed to do much, has it?” Ron pointed out.

“It’s a window, Ron. What’s it supposed to do?”

“Wake up! How the hell do I know? This isn’t exactly my thing, you know.”

“Oh no, it’s my thing, isn’t it?” Harry flared. “So sorry it’s boring you, having to figure out something that’s meant
to help defeat Voldemort. Let’s all just leave that to Saint Potter and get back to Quidditch.”

“Whoa, Harry. That’s not what I meant, mate. What’s eating you?”

Hermione almost fell out of her chair. She’d been certain that Ron would rant right back at Harry and the two would
stomp off to their separate corners effectively ensuring nothing got done once again. Yet there was Ron, being downright
sensitive and concerned. What was up with that?

Harry, being Harry, was oblivious. “Excuse me? What’s wrong? We’re stuck in this crap detention that’s going to last
forever while we all wait for some bloody window to wake up. Now Hermione thinks I’m supposed to feel righteous and
faithful every time I go through the front hall just in case something decides to happen. Like what? Malfoy and his
goons will faithfully push me down the stairs while I’m righteously staring at the sodding thing is the most likely
result of that plan. That’s what’s wrong, Ron.”

“Maybe Ssstaint. Potter needsss to get a clue,” came a voice they knew only too well. Except it did sound a little
different with the forked tongue…

“Piss off, horny,” Ron snarled, sensitivity and concern diving for cover.

“I have a deal for you,” Malfoy lisped, eyes on Hermione.

“We’re not interested,” Harry told him.

“I sssuspect you would be, if you knew what I found out about your precioussss riddle.”

“Yeah, because you’re Mr. Reliable Research. I’m ssssure you sssspent hours coming up with ssssomething. Did Sssnape
help you?” Harry taunted him, eyes hard. “What kind of idiot would it make me to deal with you after you and Pansy try
to get me expelled?”

“The sssame kind asss alwaysss, idiot. I want thessse effing hornsss off. And the tongue gone. I’ll trade for who
erassssed the riddle from the divination hallway and what the messsssage they were trying to remove ssssaid.”

“Yeah, right,” Ron scoffed. “How would we know you weren’t lying to us like every other time we’ve been sssstupid enough
to trust you? Forget it.”

“Because his horns wouldn’t grow!” Hermione pointed out, eyes lighting up. “If he lies to us they’ll just get bigger.”

“Issss that what doessss it? Damn!” Malfoy appeared furious. “You evil little bitch.”

Harry prepared to lunge, but Hermione was laughing so hard he couldn’t quite see leaping to her defense.

“Sssso go on, Malfoy,” she gasped. “Tell ussss your little ssssecret!, Wait, should we measure them first? How big a lie
is it?”

“Look, at leasssst take the damn tongue off. If you don’t believe the sssstory you can leave the hornssss.”

“Can’t. They’re linked. It’s all or nothing,” she told him.

Malfoy rolled his eyes and pulled out a chair, scoping out the room as he sat.

“It turnsss out it wasss a Sssslytherin that wrote on the wallsss over the ssstone where the riddle wasss written.
Thatsss how I found out. I asssked Ssssnape. There’sss old files in the Ssssslytherin head’ssss office that lissst
dentionsss and punissshmentss..

Professssor Forthcombe wasss the divination teacher then. Sssshe went into a transssse during one of her classssess and
predicted thissss.” He produced a slip of paper and handed it to Hermione. “You read it Granger. Too many ssstupid sss
words.”

Hermione took it and read aloud: “When the wheel of life spins once more a lion scarred by death itself will rise, who
speaks the language of snakes and bears the fangs of a dragon. He will follow its path to begin his journey and he will
strike down an immortal evil where it lies five times, but the sixth time he will find it within himself. Only if the
lion can vanquish his own darkness will his seventh strike save him. If he cannot, the pretender has won, and by all
that is sacred in this world magic must die.”

“A group of Sssslytherins figured sssshe meant a Gryffindor and got together and wrote ‘fraud’ and ‘hoax’ and
‘charlatan’ and sssome other choisssse thingsss about divination in magical ink on the wallsss of the hall that night.
Professssor Forthcomb wasss very upssset when sssshe sssaw it next day. Sssshe tried to evenesssco the ink and blam. No
more wordsss, no more riddle, no more Professssor Forthecombe. Sssshe walked out that very day.”

Ron’s mouth was gaping, stunned. Harry felt sick.

“What a load of utter nonsense,” was Hermione’s assessment, but her voice shook slightly and Harry thought she did not
sound quite as confident as he would have hoped.

“Hornsss!” said Malfoy. “Check them. Every word issss true.”

“I didn’t say you weren’t telling the truth, I said the whole story was the typical heap of feeble rubbish whenever
divination comes into the picture.”

“Sssstill, that’sss what happened to the inssscription in the hall. Asssk Dumbledore. Remember, he didn’t sssay he
didn’t know what happened to the inssscription, jussst that it wasss ‘curiousss.’ He’sss known all along. He just
hasssn’t told you.”

“It must have happened long before Dumbledore was Headmaster,” Hermione pointed out.

“It happened long before Dumbledore wassss even here. Doesssn’t mean he doesssn’t know about it. And now, I believe we
had a deal?”

Hermione sighed and reached for her wand. “Finite incantatem.”

Malfoy’s horns fell off with twins clunks onto the table. He stuck out his tongue eagerly, almost going cross-eyed
trying to look down on it.

“It’s fine,” she said waspishly. “And you were just leaving.”

“My pleasure!” he snarled happily. See you later, scarface, Weaselbee. Happy window watching, idiots.” He moved away
quickly, heading for the door before she could change her mind.

“What the hell?” Ron said.

“We need to ask Dumbledore,” Hermione said decidedly.

“Not tonight,” Harry said. “I’m shattered. Let’s just call it a night, okay?” He began piling up books and parchment,
avoiding their eyes.

“You don’t believe a word of that nonsense, Harry?” Hermione asked.

“What does it matter anyway?” Ron said.

“A lion that speaks the language of snakes and bears the fang of a dragon? Hullo?” Harry rolled his eyes at him.

“But it doesn’t really say anything. It’s just divination-speak for ‘bad things might happen to you.’ Then again, a lion
with a lisp and a dragon bite might have already done it.” Hermione said. “So it just as easily might not.”

“And we sort of already knew bad stuff might happen to you,” Ron agreed. “Although the whole ‘magic must die’ stuff is a
bit creepy to be sure.”

“Ron, if I fell off the astronomy tower tonight and Dumbledore came to you and said, ‘well, you were his friend, it’s up
to you now to defeat Voldemort,’ how would it make you feel?”

“But it’s not…, I mean, none of the prophecies or stuff like that is about me.”

“They’re not about me either. Maybe they’re meant to be about another Potter. Probably one that was supposed to be born
into a regular wizarding family and brought up prepared and knowing about all this, not stuffed into a cupboard by
muggles until the age of eleven. What possesses anyone to think I can do this? Unless it really is so simple an idiot
could do it, unless there’s some missing piece of the puzzle like that window jumping into action and spelling out
“duck!” at just the right moment, we’re all toast and somehow you know it’ll be all my bloody fault.”

The library had grown quiet as he spoke this last bit, Madam Pince and the rest of the students slowly becoming aware of
what he was saying. Into the silence at the end of his words there came the distinct sound of a whimper, and a first
year girl burst into tears. Hermione flashed him a furious look and made her way to the table where the girl sat,
crouching down beside her.

“He doesn’t mean it, any of it,” she said reassuringly. “It’s like before a potions exam, when you feel all nervous and
cranky because you can’t wait for it to be over. He’s just tired, really. It’s okay.”

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The best part about having Hermione as his dream keeper had been having her to himself every night. The down side was
not being able to flee to his bed, pull the covers over his head and hide from the world. Harry wanted to be alone for a
bit. The Room of Requirement was right out. His choices within the castle were limited to braving the snoggers up the
Astronomy tower or the layer of droppings and busy nighttime comings and goings of the owlery.

Harry figured his appearance sans Hermione on the Astronomy tower would lead the other inhabitants to believe he was
actively channeling Voldemort and induce them to flee for their lives. He wasn’t far off. He walked briskly out to the
wall and stood quietly for a few moments in full moonlight where he could be seen. There were numerous stirrings in the
dark, like the scrabbling of partially clothed mice upon the appearance of a hungry cat. The door slammed after the last
departing couple.

He sighed and moved away from the puddle of moonlight into the darkness and slid to the ground, eyes filled with stars.

That was the second time today he’d heard a prediction of a future as a squib if he lived to defeat Voldemort and he
forced himself to look squarely at it now that he was alone. Being a wizard had been the best thing that had ever
happened to him; Hagrid’s assertion that he was ‘a wizard o’ course, an’ a thumpin’ good’un once yeh’ve been trained up
a bit’ had changed his life forever. He had secretly reveled in the power growing within him these last years, had loved
learning to channel and use it. It seemed to be a living part of him, no different than his heart or lungs. Could he
stand to have it ripped from him? Could he live without it? If it meant the lives of his friends and the innocent people
that Voldemort intended to kill he reckoned he’d have to… but it sure made death a more enticing option after. He’d been
envisioning living for Hermione. Would she, could she, still truly love him if he lost his magic? Would he be little
more than tolerated by the Wizarding world, pitied for his uselessness? Would he be forced to live as a Muggle? Fear and
grief warred for his heart and the battle seared him. Tears welled and fell unnoticed from his eyes, blurring the paths
of the stars.

Why? Did it have to be? Dumbledore hadn’t seemed certain; he’d been suggesting that it wouldn’t be possible to eradicate
Voldemort without cost, but Harry felt as if by this point he could stand almost anything other than losing Hermione or
his magic.

But what if that’s what it takes? Then take the magic, he supposed. And Hermione? She’d understand. Wouldn’t she? Sure
she would. She’d pity you, too. ‘Oh, here, Harry, let me… Children, don’t pester Daddy, you know he can’t do magic.’

Children? Where the hell did they come from?

Without magic, he’d never fly again.

He heard the door open and close; saw the brief flickering shadow cross to where he sat.

She sat down beside him.

“What is it? It seems stupid to ask with everything you’re worried about, but there’s something new, isn’t there?” she
asked softly. Her eyes probed his face through the darkness.

“Hermione, don’t answer this right off, think about it. Really think. If something happened to my magic, if I survived
Voldemort but my magic didn’t and I was for all intents and purposes a squib, could you still love me?”

He’d asked her to think about it, but her quietness hurt him nonetheless. It could only have been minutes; it felt like
hours.

“Harry, I’m trying to be as honest as I can. I won’t say it wouldn’t hurt me, that I wouldn’t have regrets for you or
wish it could be different, but yes. I love you, not your magic, and not because you’re a wizard, weak or strong. I feel
as if it’s all tied up in you and I wonder what it would do to you to lose it, but I don’t think I could stop loving you
now, even if I wanted to. Does that help?”

It should have been a relief but his heart still felt heavy, weighted with the knowledge of what it would mean to both
of them.

“It’s no different than the prophecy, Harry,” she said at last, her voice low and urgent. “It’s not what will be, it’s
what could be. The truth of what your life will be is up to you; and me if you’ll let me help. Maybe there’s a way to
make sure that’s not the outcome. Don’t just accept it until there truly is no other choice.”

“I’m not,” he told her. “But Dumbledore said almost the same thing earlier today. Actually that was only part of it; he
seemed to think there were all sorts of possibilities, like ending up with all of Voldemort’s powers and being consumed
by them. I never really thought past being scared shiteless or dying before this, I don’t know what to think now. I
don’t know which is worse, what to want anymore. None of it seems any good; being a squib might be the best of a bad
lot. I don’t want to beat him just to become him, I know that.”

“You couldn’t. I honestly don’t believe you could. There’s too much in you that’s good for that.”

“Hermione?” he found her hand in the darkness and held it, forcing his fingers not to tighten. “If anything goes wrong,
if you see me…becoming what you know I hate…”

“No!” she said fiercely. “Don’t ask me, because I can’t. I will do anything else for you, Harry, but not that. Ask Ron
if you have to. I can’t promise you that.”

“Okay.”

She crawled into his lap and slipped her arms around him, tear streaks reflected in the faint light. “No! Don’t ask him.
Please don’t.”

“Dumbledore would, I think. I’m just afraid the first person I’d… I broke into his mind, Hermione, what if I could hurt
him? I need someone to do it fast and sure if anything goes wrong. That’s just not Ron’s style.”

They were both silent a moment, forehead to forehead.

“Maybe I should ask Malfoy. He’d do me in right quick.”

She hit him, surprisingly hard, thumping both fisted hands against his chest. “Shut up! Shut up. It’s not funny, or
brave or anything. It’s…”

“Realistic. Logical. All the things you’re supposed to be.”

“Yeah, well if you don’t have to be that Harry Potter all the time I don’t have to be that Hermione either,” she
informed him, and with the same reflexes she’d used to capture the snitch captured his mouth instead. Nothing else about
squibs or Ron finishing him off before he could succumb to Voldemort’s magic was coming between those lips the rest of
that night if she had anything to do with it. She had a limited range of permissible sounds in mind and he was making
one of them right now, a low sort of growly-pleased noise that she really liked and was determined not to lose to any
freaking reconstituted Dark Lord. It was her second favorite, right after that one, the sort of pleading oh-don’t-stop
one that she also felt very possessive of. Or there was always the one where she reached down and touched him right
there… Maybe that one was her favorite after all. That one had a particularly nice bodily response to accompany it. No,
this was infinitely preferable to their previous discussion, and the nagging little voice in her head that said he had
been the mature one for once, considering the possibilities, and she was doing what she so often accused him of and
dodging the future could just get stuffed.

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A/N: Those of you that read this chapter before will notice a change here. I’ve left this story almost entirely as it
was except for cleaning up typos or inaccuracies where I could spot them, but first time round the inimitable and
awesome Anne U found a major goof here. I needed to fix it, but I have fixed it with the inescapable knowledge of HBP
now firmly entrenched in my brain. So no – I was in no way prescient. The new verbage ‘When the wheel of life spins once
more a lion scarred by death itself will rise, who speaks the language of snakes and bears the fangs of a dragon. He
will follow its path to begin his journey and he will strike down an immortal evil where it lies five times, but the
sixth time he will find it within himself. Only if the lion can vanquish his own darkness will his seventh strike save
him. If he cannot, the pretender has won, and by all that is sacred in this world magic must die’ is meant to mean
Voldemort’s seven horcruxes. It won’t change any of the major facts of the story though, because we sort of knew what
was coming anyway, just not the specifics

Of course it’s going to turn out all right in the end anyway, because we all know that Magic Never Dies.

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23. Chapter 23

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 23

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Harry was dragging the next morning, his brain worn down with sorting through the various permutations his fate now
seemed to offer and his body feeling thoroughly worked over, if not necessarily in the usual Quidditch-practice-type
places. He felt as if he was trying to make his way through a misty marsh, slogging knee deep through uncertain waters
into places he could not quite see. He was for once quite glad to find his next class to be History of Magic.

“You are such a goner, mate,” Ron laughed at him as they claimed their usual seats. “I give you less than five minutes
awake and aware after Binns gets warmed up.”

“Optimist,” Dean Thomas chipped in from Ron’s other side. “I’d put my money on three, starting the minute Binns floats
through the wall.”

“How is it that you aren’t falling over?” Harry asked Hermione suspiciously. “You were up er, studying every bit as late
as I was.”

“Quidditch training clearly isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. You simply have no endurance,” she replied sweetly, pulling
fresh parchment and a quill from her bag.

“Cough did all the work cough just lie there and scream cough,” hacked Harry into his hand.

Her lips twitched. “We’ll see about that, then. I think I can manage to top your astronomy skills next time.”

“I thought you guys left off astronomy last year,” Neville said from Hermione’s other side. “I heard they were going
easier since so many people trolled the practical fifth year. D’you think I should try it for an elective next term?”

“Absolutely. I’ve found it very fulfilling up there this time round.” Harry told him, straight faced. “I keep telling
Ron he should give it a go.”

“La la la,” said Ron, his fingers stuffed in his ears.

“It’s Luna, Ron, not Lala. L-u-n-a. She won’t like it if you get her name wrong.”

Dean seemed to perk up and Neville looked bemused.. “Lovegood? The Ravenclaw? You dog, Ron. Since when?” Dean asked, and
Harry leaned back in his seat, his work done. Binns drifted through wall notes in hand to begin his lecture and Harry
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She’d noticed Harry drifting, saw that his forehead was propped in his hand, looking down as though studiously taking
notes. His quill had stopped moving some while ago, but she noticed his hand twitching oddly now, as if not quite in
control.

“Harry!” she whispered fiercely, and surreptitiously thrust her right elbow against his left. It knocked the arm that
propped him out from under him and his head hit the desk with a solid thunk that echoed throughout the classroom. Even
Professor Binns looked up from his notes.

“Wake up!” she hissed.

His head came up off the desk and turned toward her, eyes black and fathomless. “Are you really so sure you want him to,
MUDBLOOD?”

Hermione knew those eyes; Harry’s worst nightmare had come to pass. Voldemort was loose in Hogwarts. Inside of him.

There was no point in being subtle; this time Harry had two functional arms and a wand he didn’t even really need.
Hermione scrabbled for her own wand in her bag beneath her desk while loudly and shakily declaring, “VOLDEMORT! It’s not
Harry, it’s VOLDEMORT! RUN!” even as he reached across and grabbed hold of her by her hair.

Pandemonium should have ensued but it took Harry’s body physically wrenching Hermione from her seat and pointing his
wand directly at her heart for her words to actually bear fruit. Students suddenly ran, crying and screaming from the
room, some actually dropping their wands in their haste just to get out. Binns faded quietly back through the
chalkboard. The empty black eyes never wavered from her own.

Ron, deeper asleep than Harry, came to as the stampede began and blearily took in Harry’s wand and its target.

“What the hell, Harry?” he asked, eyes widening.

“It’s not Harry Ron!” Hermione said fiercely. “Run!”

“Let her go!” Ron protested, only beginning to understand the danger,

“I think not,” said a voice that was definitely not Harry’s, though Harry’s lips moved. This voice was high and cold and
devoid of anything identifiably human. “Be a good little Weasley and go and tell that doddering old fool that his
precious Potter is dead, and the mudblood is next unless he brings what I want to the Entrance Hall. He’ll know what you
speak of.”

“I…I…I…” Ron babbled, then took a deep breath, his eyes on Hermione. “I’m not…”

“GO!”  hissed the awful voice in Harry’s body.

“Ron, go, please!” Hermione begged, and he heard in her voice her faith that Dumbledore could do something.

He went, backing out of the History of Magic classroom.

“I’m sorry Hermione, I …”

“NOW!”

Harry’s wand pointed in his direction and a sharp pulse of red light splintered the desk in front of Ron. The sound
frightened him but at the same time managed to awake all the dormant instincts Harry had been attempting to foster in
the DA. Without actually pausing to think, more of a reflex, Ron whipped out his own wand and fired off a blasting curse
directed at Harry’s left leg, as far from where he held Hermione as he could get. Voldemort was unbelieving that he
would have dared and thus unprepared; the spell hit Harry and Hermione heard his cry of pain mixed with Voldemort’s
scream of rage. Taking a still firmer grip on Hermione’s hair he pointed Harry’s wand after Ron, performing a series of
vicious swishes and slashes. Spells shot across the room with the swiftness of gunfire; Ron ducked and disappeared
through the door.

“You liar,” she hissed. “He’s not dead. I heard him. Leave him alone!”

Harry’s body looked up from inspecting the damage to his leg and without speaking or allowing the tiniest flicker of
emotion to cross his face dropped her hair and flicked a wordless spell at her, flinging her weightlessly into the desk
behind her. Not stopping for an instant to register her pain or fear Hermione rolled and dove for her book bag and her
wand.

No words were spoken again, no spell shouted; she was suddenly simply paralyzed and fell woodenly forward to the floor.
Her wand rolled along the ancient boards, warped and worn through centuries of use, and disappeared under Binns’ podium.

Voldemort/Harry limped forward and pulled her up by the hair again. “Finite incantatem” he snarled. “Look at me.”

Hermione felt what must have been a petrificus recede and dizzily lifted her head to see a face she dearly loved
contorted by hate.

“This is for you. This is what you wrought, thinking you know what magic is, or that you have even the smallest right to
use it. Cleverest witch of your age, show me your power now. Show me what good your precious love can do against real
magic.”

The staring black eyes blinked and the blown pupils slowly retracted, revealing green. Harry’s own hand seemed to fight
with itself, wrestling down to the desk before him to splay flat against its surface while his other hand leveled his
wand toward it. His whole body began fighting itself now, jerking and reeling. Twice he managed to pull back from the
desk, twice more he was forced close. He was sweating now and his leg bleeding profusely with the struggle.

Hermione inched her way a long the floor toward her wand, moving only when it seemed the battle within him was going
Harry’s way. She was almost there when the flare of red spellfire crackled toward her. She heard Harry’s voice call out
her name once in panic and turning toward him surely saved her; she smelled singed hair and felt a lash of pain in her
shoulder, heard rather than saw the power of the spell slice through the podium with enough residual force to sever it
from its stand. The top crashed to the floor, further blocking her path to her wand and tears of frustration joined the
ones of pain already stinging her eyes.

The battle for Harry surged on; Voldemort forced him toward her where she lay, Harry threw his body backwards into the
long, glass-doored bookcase that housed all Binns’ treasured histories, shattering them and toppling the combined weight
of wizards noble deeds and their callous misuse of magic over them both. They wrestled amongst the books and broken
glass and Hermione took her chance to try and move the heavy mahogany book rest of the broken podium clear of her goal.
The verbal fight at least was growing somewhat more even; Hermione heard Harry responding now to more of Voldemort’s
rhetoric as control wavered between them.

“Pathetic accident of nature, it is my power within you.”

“Get out of me. Get out. If you’re so all bloody powerful why’d you have to sneak into Hogwarts inside of me, you great
slimy…”

“Be silent, you filthy corruption. I will have it back today. I will know what Dumbledore has kept from me for all these
years…”

“He’ll tell you nothing. Kill me and he’ll tell you the same…”

“He thinks to influence me with the feeble threat of you, when his only real secret is the founders’…”

“He’s worth two of you without any secrets at all…”

Voldemort won control of Harry’s wand hand then and turned it on Hermione just as she had managed to snake her hand
under the fallen podium. Her fingers scrambled desperately for her wand, there was no way to pull her arm out fast
enough to escape; perhaps if she could manage a blasting charm to blow away the…

“Avada…”

“No…” she whispered, unable to stand that this should be her end.

“No!” Harry howled, and hurled his wand across the floor, toward her.

She reached her other hand toward it just as another silent spell sent it careening off out of reach.

Her fingers closed on her own wand beneath the toppled stand and she closed her eyes so that she could not see it was
Harry who was her target. Her lips moved to the words as silently as possible, to anxious to even attempt a wordless
incantation. “Petrificus totallus.”

Time slowed as she heard Voldemort laugh, as she saw him almost effortlessly despite Harry’s struggles to stop it lift
Harry’s hand in the line of her spell. It glowed briefly as it hit and rebounded back upon her, seemingly returning the
speed and force of the earth’s rotation with it. It hit before she could begin to move and she was frozen once more.

It wasn’t fair. How could they fight that, how could anyone? How was it possible to be that evil and yet that… lucky?
Suddenly Harry’s dreams, his terrors of failing strength and feeble spells, of crying ‘time out’ to gather his wits and
breath made so much sense. How had she though she could ever best this? And how unfair was it that only her eyes could
move, so that they could not help but take in what he was doing now.

Harry was on the floor, still fighting. One arm was shuddering its way across the floor towards his wand, the other was
around his own throat, tightening convulsively. His lips trembled but no sound came out. His eyes were focused
unflinchingly on her own, and she was both hopeful and totally repulsed to see that one was now green, one blown and
black. It was as if they had each claimed a portion of his brain; the arm opposite the green eye was the one inching its
way to the wand, the one opposite the black slowly strangling him.

She was sure the green one was trying to tell her something as his body arched in agony off the floor. The black one
sparked in victory.

“Mine!” Voldemort cackled at her. “Not yours. Mine.”

“RIDDLE!” came a thunderous cry from the hall outside the classroom. “SHOW YOURSELF!”

Dumbledore… Hermione almost sobbed with relief but cut herself short, determined to understand what she thought Harry
was trying to tell her before he was submerged by Voldemort again. His fingers only reluctantly released his throat,
leaving swiftly purpling marks behind and it occurred to her Voldemort could not be planning to engage in much of a duel
with Dumbledore if he was so willing to incapacitate his already injured host. What was he up to? Harry’s eye implored
her but she could already see him slipping from the forefront of his own mind. His body drew itself to its knees and
crawled across the glass and ruined books toward her, retrieving his wand. She felt herself wrenched forward, her hair
snared once more in an iron grip. That the hands that could touch her so gently and bring her such pleasure could exert
such cruel force as well was almost more than she could bear.

“Finite,” Harry’s lips hissed, and he pulled her to her feet.

She made her way struggling fiercely out into the hall, found herself pushed along the hallway to the head of the stairs
down to the Entrance Hall. Dumbledore and the four Heads of House stood across the landing at the foot of the stairs to
the hall that led to Dumbledore’s office. Hermione could make out Ron behind McGonagall and Snape, who at least made an
imposing backup for Dumbledore. Flitwick and Sprout, able wizards though they might be, were hardly likely to intimidate
on looks alone. That fact that both were visibly shaken was no help at all.

“You break faith already,” Dumbledore asserted, his voice reverberating across the empty Hall. “The boy is not dead.”

He knows! she thought.

“Would you have come for any other?” sneered Harry’s empty face.

“Any other. I would come for any of them. They are children, Tom.”

“They are corruption in the act, if not accomplished. It makes no difference. Though I credit you Albus, this one is a
pleasure to… inhabit. Such power for an empty-headed means to an end.”

“He’s not a means to an end!” Hermione spat. “He’s Harry.”

The wand raised toward her again but faltered once more, and Hermione did not miss the flicker of annoyance in the black
eyes. Harry was in there, he was still struggling to fight back, she thought. Make sure they all remember that, they
haven’t seen what you have.

“Mr. Weasley told me I was to bring what you wanted to the Entry Hall, Tom. But what is it? “

“I am not Tom Riddle. He is as dead as your puppet will be. And you know what I seek, Dumbledore.”

“I am afraid,” Dumbledore said firmly and quietly, “that I do not.”

“The pageless story! The Founder’s secret. I will be done with this meddlesome brat at last.”

“Ah,” said Dumbledore calmly, nodding. “I see. It is before you.”

Harry’s face with the burning eyes so not his own swung from side to side, searching.

His wand quivered in trembling hands, swung up and released a bright burst directly at his own face. Hermione saw his
head manage to dodge just before the beam hit, glancing off beneath his ear. Harry is going to be a mess when this is
over. But it WILL be over. He’s fought so hard, we’ve made it this far. There must be a way to make it stop. Think,
Hermione, THINK.

“I will kill him!” Voldemort howled.

“You will NOT.” Dumbledore howled back, and raised his own wand with a singing, metallic ping that rang throughout the
halls. “It is only his body you control. Only one soul can go free if you do. Are you so certain it will be yours, Tom?
Is this truly the way you wish it to end?”

Voldemort began to laugh then. It was the most hideous sound she could ever remember hearing, high and mirthless and
only too sure.

“Oh yes, Dumbledore. It is. And I am quite, quite certain that I shall go on long after your mortal little toy is but a
bloody husk.”

She saw the Headmaster seem to blanch and his wand lowered slowly. He knows something, she thought. Or suspects it.

“It is before you. The window. Do you remember one there when you were at Hogwarts, Tom? That is the pageless story they
found, although what tale it tells I can not say.”

The black eyes swung to the window. The light streaming through for a moment turned the black eyes red with in its
reflection and Voldemort’s face was fully revealed in Harry’s, as if the bones and skin themselves gave way. There was a
moment of absolute silence as he studied it; Hermione seized the opportunity to try and jerk away. The iron grip upon
her hair never faltered, the eyes never turned from their mark. She turned toward Dumbledore and the others, trying to
discern their plan. It was certainly well masked if they had one. Ron met her gaze, looked purposefully away down the
stairs and back. She followed his lead in hope, but saw only Malfoy starting to climb them from below. She had thought
the students all cordoned off in their houses; Malfoy, as always, clearly had to be special. Voldemort appeared to take
no notice of him, eyes darting feverishly around the segmented shape of the window as if attempting to discern some
pattern in its myriad colors. If there was one there, she had never found any trace of it. Why didn’t they do something
now?

McGonagall’s wand twitched but to no apparent result; the others all hesitated.

Hermione felt the hand upon her hair suddenly shudder and convulse and seized the opportunity to pull free. That’s what
McGonagall had done! And Harry had seen it or felt it!

She heard Ron shout “Run, Hermione!” but turned instead and launched herself toward her best friend. He was covered in
glass and slick with both sweat and blood but she had become expert at capturing those lips, and swallowing her
revulsion at the thought of their temporary controller kissed him as she had done weeks ago in the cave, with everything
she had inside and for all she was worth. She remembered what he had said about Voldemort fleeing from her touch and was
only too aware he had only ever touched her willingly by her hair since possessing him. She ran her hands everywhere she
could reach, touching every inch of him she could. Glass tinkled to the floor, her hands prickled and bled. Harry. It’s
Harry. This is for Harry. Get out!

She sensed far more resistance this time than ever before; the body beneath her fingers seemed literally to be wrestling
with itself muscle by muscle and several times he seemed to gag almost to the point of choking against her lips. She
hoped that was a good thing. She clung to him harder when his hands seemed as if they would push her away, waiting,
dying, for a sign that Harry knew what she was trying to do.

He stumbled and they went down at the top of the stairs, rolling dangerously near the top step in a travesty of passion.
Hermione felt her strength waning, her faith failing; she wasn’t strong enough to fight him. Why wasn’t it working?
Please, please, couldn’t something go right, someone somewhere take their side for once? What was Dumbledore playing at?
Why did he wait?

There was clearly a battle raging inside Harry, she just had no sense that her own efforts were helping at all. Then she
heard a choked “Hermione,” followed by “filth, stinking, tainted, you will not,” then “I WILL!” in Harry’s own voice,
loud and clear.

He pushed her away. Harry himself, eyes green and frantic, pushed her away, hard, as the momentum of the battle within
his own body lurched the other way, down the long stone staircase to the door of the Great Hall. He fell backward with a
bone crunching thud, rolling and falling on before Dumbledore once more cast a spell to slow his fall. The first missed,
the second caught him just short of Malfoy, who had been watching open-mouthed from the lower steps. Instead of slowing
him the spell seemed to sharply halt his forward motion, like a dog abruptly reaching the end of its leash. He crashed
into Draco, bringing them both down, and was still.

“Miss Granger, do NOT move.” Dumbledore instructed, and he was suddenly behind her as quickly and smoothly as if he had
apparated there. Of course he couldn’t have, because Hogwarts, a History said so. Why didn’t it warn you about the rest?

He handed her off to McGonagall, who didn’t even attempt to lead her away, simply finished helping her to her feet and
straightening her robes, watching avidly right along with her. Snape pushed past them and followed Dumbledore cautiously
down the first two steps, wand extended. Ron came and stood at her other side.

Harry began to stir and rolled to his side clear of Malfoy, struggling to push himself upright on shaking arms, blinking
and peering nearsightedly up the stairs, glasses lost in the fall. “Hermione?” he called anxiously, just as Snape hit
him squarely with a stupefy.

“You BASTARD,” Hermione screamed, all sense of restraint and decorum shattered. McGonagall clapped her own hand across
Hermione’s mouth, knowing that to voice a rebuke at this point would be less than useless. Hermione pulled it away
angrily, unable to stop. “Traitor! How could you do that, it was Harry! He was trying so hard…”

“One can never be too sure with the Dark Lord.” Snape said smoothly to Dumbledore’s questing gaze. “And after that, he
would only leave Potter if he believed him dead. Clearly he is not, so I suspect something else. I suggest we mobile
corpus both of them up to Pomfrey immediately.”

Dumbledore nodded his agreement, but stepped forward before him to cast the spell on Harry’s immobile form himself.
Snape flicked his wand at Draco and led the way.

“If you three would be so kind as to join us,” Dumbledore requested tiredly of McGonagall, Hermione and Ron as they
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Harry had never been fond of the Hospital Wing on previous visits, but Ron reckoned this one would put anyone off for
life. For one, the atmosphere was undeniably dark, fraught and on-edge, with most of the staff gathered anxiously just
outside the door and asking unanswerable questions. Professor McGonagall was attempting to deal with them.

Madam Pomfrey was not at all happy with the general stress level invading her well ordered domain and appeared ready to
blow. Only Dumbledore, Snape, Hermione and Ron had been allowed in, Hermione because Madam Pomfrey insisted on examining
her as well and Ron because Dumbledore had requested it. All of which was insignificant, really, against the fact that
Harry had been magically bound to his bed in an extremely thorough manner by Snape. Madam Pomfrey kept having to send
Ron round the curtain to retrieve the Potions professor to loosen or remove one of the spells during the course of her
examination and treatment. It was probably quite a good thing he seemed oblivious to it all.

Madam Pomfrey finally threw back the curtains herself. “That is it! Professor Snape, I really must insist you simply
remove the spells until I am finished. For Merlin’s sake, the boy could hardly throw off a first year’s petrificus in
the shape he’s in, possessed or not! I can not work like this. I am quite capable of restraining my own patients.”

Dumbledore came over then and had a long look at Harry, who was still under Snape’s original stupefy as well as the
variety of binding and tethering charms and, as Madam Pomfrey had pointed out, was hardly likely to be able to move in
any case.

“Take them off, Severus. He’s quite out of it for the moment and it’s best Poppy care for him while that is the case.”

Snape removed the binding spells, shaking his head. “The Dark Lord does not play by others’ rules, Albus.”

“He doesn’t play by others’ rules? He doesn’t play at all. How can you even speak of him like that? There’s that little
bit of admiration you just can’t hide, can you, he still awes you. He is evil incarnate.” Hermione ground out at him
furiously. Ron heard himself make an inarticulate sound that could have been construed either as support or terror.

Snape looked at her with only too apparent contempt and continued. “He must be restrained, perhaps kept in dreamless
sleep until…”

“No! He begged you. You know that he’s helpless then…” Hermione interjected.

“If he is in a dreamless state there is no danger…” Snape spoke over her.

“It isn’t a dream, it’s not the dreams, it’s the vulnerability of sleep…” She raised her voice over his.

“Potter has proved he is no match…” Snape raised his voice as well.

“He’d done it! He’d done it by the time he pushed me back, it was Harry you stupefied…”

“WILL YOU BE QUIET! You have no idea what you are talking about. There is no textbook for this, you silly little girl!”
Snape finally turned on her and spat.

“What did you call me?” Hermione breathed.

Ron noticed, in the middle of it all, that Dumbledore’s worried eyes regained some of their spark at that exact moment.

“As if throwing yourself at him was any help at all, of all the hare-brained ideas…” Snape sneered.

“Think about it, you bitter, twisted little man,” she bit out, completely beside herself. “Voldemort hates mudbloods. He
despises me. He’s found Harry and I together before, and it disgusts him. What better way to force him out than his own
prejudice? He couldn’t even bring himself to touch me except by my hair, and then only because he wanted to hurt Harry.
Anything honest and selfless revolts him, but he fools himself to believe he won’t sully his hands with a muggle born.
What else could be more powerful against him?”

“She has,” Dumbledore concurred calmly, “an excellent point, Severus. While we have been attempting to arm young Harry
with warrior spells and skills, Miss Granger has been pursuing a different path with him altogether. As long as the
demon is in fact within him, all the weapons in the magical world will not assist him in his battle.”

“Albus, you can not be serious, she…”

“Deserves a chance. And I believe our respect,” he admonished gravely. “It took great courage, and great love, to turn
away from her own freedom and confront her worst fear in Harry. I think you underestimate Miss Granger.”

Snape’s black eyes burned, his face appeared paler than ever. “It is a ridiculous idea.”

“It is not, as we all know, any final answer, but it certainly was more effective under the circumstances today than
anything I myself could think of. Or you, Severus, if I may be so bold as to suggest it. She weakened Voldemort’s hold
on Harry without injuring him further. And it was Harry you stupefied, Severus; surely even you can admit that. I think
it is you who should enervate him now.”

“And bring Voldemort back into the castle?”

“It will be Harry,” said Hermione positively. Ron edged away from the bed.

“The blame will be mine if we are wrong, Severus. Please proceed.” Dumbledore told him firmly. Madam Pomfrey stepped
back as well.

Snape rolled his eyes and pointed his wand. Hermione noticed he did not move any further from the bed. He knows, she
thought.

“Enervate,” he intoned resentfully.

There was a harsh, rattling gasp of indrawn breath and Harry’s eyes flew open. Unfocussed and watery, but dearly,
familiarly green. He swallowed once, appearing to watch them watching him. His eyes wandered fretfully from Snape to
Dumbledore to Madam Pomfrey, and finally found what they sought.

“Hermione… Ron…” They closed again in relief, exhausted. Hermione moved forward anxiously, reaching toward him. Snape
prodded Harry’s leg with his wand and they flew back open, still green and now alarmed.

“Tell us, Potter, is he quite gone?”

Harry’s expression grew thoughtful, and one hand moved shakily to his scar. “He’s not with me. But he’s not far,
either.”

“It makes sense that Voldemort would attempt to draw close to Hogwarts if he believed he could use Potter as a stepping
stone, or diversion,” Snape said grudgingly. “We should prepare at once. Search Hogsmeade and reinforce the castle’s
defenses.”

Dumbledore nodded and said softly, “Perhaps you will notify the Order? We should see if any of our mutual acquaintances
have anything to report.”

Snape turned in a swirl of black robes and made for the door.

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Madam Pomfrey visibly relaxed after Snape left. She gave Hermione a cooling poultice for the lump on her head where she
had connected with the desk and another for the burn on her shoulder. She even allowed Ron to stay and sit on the end of
her bed beside Harry’s.

She tutted in her usual manner over Harry, repairing as best she could the damage Ron’s spell had wrought (‘nice one,’
Harry congratulated him, wincing,) and the results of tumbling down the stairs into Draco, who was still blessedly
silent and unmoving on the next bed. She cast an evenesco to rid him of the glass still winking and shining from his
clothing, ridding him just as swiftly of all its many splinters. His eyes watered and a string of curses hovered in the
air, powerfully thought if unspoken.

“All this having the Dark Lord in control is just not good for you,” she scolded him, handing him a dose of Pepper-Up
potion. Harry eyed her incredulously and she made fierce drinking-up motions. “It takes tremendous wear and tear on your
innards, young man. Whatever is keeping that… thing alive seems not to operate by any normal rules of the wizardly body,
and each time he has left his stamp on you.”

“That’s it then,” Harry said, laying back with a groan. “No more being the Voldemort hotel for me.”

“That was a damn scary thing, Harry,” Ron admitted. “I woke up in Binns’ classroom and you had Hermione by the hair with
a wand to the heart. Nearly stopped mine, you did.”

“That wasn’t Harry, Ron. That’s the point, isn’t it.” Hermione said, exasperated and sick to think he would
inadvertently start Harry on the road to self recrimination already.

“Erm, yeah, I know, I just meant…”

“It’s okay,” Harry told him dejectedly. “It was my body, anyway. I was just still too bloody feeble to kick Voldemort
out of it before he got what he wanted.”

“But he didn’t, Harry,” Ron said earnestly. “I don’t think he had a clue what the window’s meant to reveal either. He
certainly seemed confused enough and frustrated by it.”

“First good the bloody thing’s done. With my luck I would have thought it’d hear his voice and immediately start
spitting more glass.”

“He thought it was going to tell him something, like the prophecy, some missing piece about how to finally end the
struggle between you two.” Hermione told him. “He seemed very… frustrated. Or disappointed, perhaps, that there was
nothing to see.”

“That makes two of us, then,” Harry said. He let his eyes droop closed. “I just want this to stop, this bit of it more
than anything. I can’t stand it. I honestly think it will shove me off the deep end if he ever does it again. I’d jump
off the astronomy tower to get him out of me next time, and he knows it.”

His eyes opened again, flicked from Madam Pomfrey, who was checking over Draco on the next bed, and back to Hermione. “I
know what you were thinking, Hermione,” he whispered. “It wasn’t you. You did everything right, he was responding to you
the same as always. It was me, I just wasn’t strong enough. I don’t want… promise me you won’t ever try that again. He
will kill you, you really rile him. There’s disgust there, but there’s a tiny bit of fear and something else as well.
You’ve got his attention now and there’s no difference in him, killing is good as… as good as I think it gets for him.
You saved me this time, I couldn’t have done it without you loosening his hold, but promise me, promise, that you won’t
ever do it again. He’ll be ready.”

“Then we’ll just have to make sure that the connection between you is closed. For good.” Hermione declared, far more
firmly than she felt. She had begun to understand his fear today; so much of what he had faced alone, like the night in
the graveyard fourth year when Voldemort regained his body and Harry was forced to look him in those red eyes, was
clearer and far more immediate to her now.

“He’d better skip History of Magic for the rest of the term, then,” Ron decided.

There was a wooden thunk from the bedside beyond Harry’s; their eyes moved in unison to find Madam Pomfrey stupefied
upon the floor.

“Never mind, Potter,” came a voice they knew only too well from the bed. “I’ve found a willing volunteer to help me. And
we both think its past time for you and your little friends to die.”

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24. Chapter 24

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 23

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“Never mind, Potter,” came a voice they knew only too well from the next bed. “I’ve found a willing volunteer to help
me. And we both think it is past time for you and your little friends to die.”

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Even as his brain registered the danger of Voldemort dwelling in Malfoy’s body on the next bed over in the Hogwarts
infirmary, Harry simultaneously knew an enormous surge of relief. Finally the evil he was meant to fight was not holed
up in his own brain, it was over there. Harry could deal with over there. His scar throbbed with the closeness but did
not sear with the blinding knife-like pain of possession and even as he wrestled himself upright to block Hermione
behind him he began to feel that for once this year he just might actually have a fighting chance.

“First time a Malfoy ever volunteered for anything,” Ron said furiously. “Figures.” He whipped his wand from his robes
and ducked down behind Harry’s bed, maneuvering toward the end.

Harry realized it might actually be Voldemort controlling things but Ron saw Malfoy and he wasn’t afraid of the ferret,
a plus he definitely hadn’t counted on.

He slid off the far side of his bed, trying to stay in front of Hermione, his eyes darting around the room for anything
that could be used to their advantage. He decided they stood a far better chance just about anywhere else; the infirmary
was full of things he was quite sure he didn’t want flying at him – he’d tasted too many of them before and they had
some interesting effects. Best to make for the halls and see if they could lure him outside of the castle.

“You must be pretty desperate, to rely on Malfoy for transportation,” he said boldly, stalling for time. “As a chronic
liar – and you know I already know all about your Muggle Dad, Mr. Pureblood - how do you go about entrusting your soul
to another liar?”

“Oh, I know what’s inside this one’s empty little head,” Malfoy’s own mouth hissed. “Before you start thinking you have
any recourse Potter, know that I am here to finish you. You have far outlived any usefulness you may have had
distracting the Ministry from my movements now. Malfoy minor was always meant to be my escape when I destroyed you; it
was, shall we say, the very least he could do. You have changed nothing.”

“Still can’t quite risk that feeble excuse you call your own body, can you?” Harry forced out as a laugh, backing
slowly. Ron was still crouched down by the end of the bed, waiting. If Harry could maneuver Malfoy just a little
further…

“Enough!” Voldemort cried from Malfoy’s lips, and put his wand into action.

Hermione had already seen the scatter-gun effect of his spell casting in the History of Magic classroom. What she
couldn’t quite grasp was Harry’s response to it now. Shields and counters seemed to surge from his wand without a word;
he appeared to quickly visualize the thrust of Voldemort’s strategy in working the room around them and responded to it
without hesitation. She could see him maneuvering to find a way to both shield Ron and yet cover for him at the same
time even as he worked out an escape route, still keeping her behind him.

Clearly, whoever he’d been working with in that warded classroom had known their stuff, for she could see him making use
of things with a faith in his instincts she’d never seen more than flashes of working with the DA. Ron’s spells were
mostly blocked but they were strong enough and persistent enough to keep Malfoy pinned near his own bed and responding.
It bought them the little time they needed; she kept moving as smoothly and quickly as she could, hand clutching his
robes to guide him so that his own eyes could remain on the two before him.

“Door,” she told him tersely.

“Accio Ron.” She heard him whisper, and Ron’s body flew back to them with a surprised yell as they crashed back through
the doors.

“Colloportus.” Hermione cast quickly.

“Harry, you’ve got to tell a guy you’re going to do that. I didn’t know what the hell had hold of me.” Ron gasped.

“Next time,” Harry said distractedly. “Now run!” They tore off down the hallway, almost reaching the stairs before the
sound of the infirmary doors blowing out reached them.

“Ron, keep going, hopefully Dumbledore already knows something’s going on, explain about Malfoy.” Harry said quickly.
“I’m going to try to make him follow us outside the castle and away from everyone, maybe the Quidditch pitch, where it’s
more open. Meet me there, okay?”

“Okay, Harry. Watch yourself.” Ron’s worried eyes met Hermione’s for a moment. She could actually see his belief that
Harry would protect her with his own life if need be etched in his expression; Ron fully expected to see her again and
wasted no more words on her. He set off down the stairs at a run.

I will not be a liability! She thought determinedly. I can fight as well as any witch. Better!

A vine snaked like lightening down the hall from Malfoy’s wand and tried to twine around their ankles; Hermione chose a
severing charm for the branch around her own but was surprised to see Harry transform his into a snake and send it back
toward Voldemort with a series of hissed instructions. Voldemort met it quickly with another, larger one and the two
snakes coiled and rose, weaving, fangs exposed. They struck at the same time but Voldemort’s overpowered Harry’s,
sinking its fangs deeply.

Hermione heard Harry cry out and saw the fang marks appear, red and dripping, on his own neck.

She slapped away his shaking hand and quickly cast purging and healing spells, hoping it wasn’t too venomous and she’d
got them right. Harry’s green gaze never wavered from Malfoy’s borrowed body at the far end of the hall and when
Hermione had finished she looked up in surprise to find that he had charmed several of the suits of armor that lined the
hall to their aid. As Malfoy lurched after them he was accosted by various age-blunted spears and swords hacking and
slashing at him vigorously.

“Take that you vile and scurvy Sir!” Aethelred the Antagonistic’s haunted armor taunted, poking at him with a drawn
sword. “Halt and do battle! How dare you move so maliciously against a Lady! For shame!”

“Here, Here!” cheered the portrait of Horatio Angus Mac Aleful. Hermione knew that voice. A Scots wizard, he had be
renowned for wiping out his enemies by inviting them to dinner and feeding them exploding haggis; he was a great
personal favorite of Fred and George Weasley who had often spent hours conversing with him while still at Hogwarts. “At
least leave the Lass out of it. There’s never been a Malfoy here worth a pig’s bladder, but none of ‘em have sunk as low
as that, ye ken.”

“Pig’s bladder indeed, there’s never been a Malfoy worth the very product of a pig’s bladder in all my years. Useless,
sniveling creatures always looking for a cheat, can’t trust them, even at cards,” added the next portrait, a portly,
elegant wizard in green velvet dress robes.

“I am NOT A MALFOY! This body is NOTHING …” Voldemort shrieked, distracted.

He twitched Malfoy’s wand hand and Aethelred’s armor dissolved into a pile of fine red rust. Malfoy’s body claimed the
fallen sword and raised it with a sick, pleased grin. Harry twitched his wand as well and Aethelred’s dust flew into
Malfoy’s eyes and face, briefly choking and blinding him.

“Down the stairs, carefully,” Harry whispered. “Don’t turn your back on him unless you’re positive I’ve got him
covered.”

Hermione backed down a step and found the railing with her outstretched hand. It struck her then that he’d made a
choice, conscious or not, to send Ron for help and allow her to remain with him. He trusted her.

Down the hall the last of Harry’s valiant knights collapsed themselves across Voldemort’s path and his temper, not
helped by the clinging red cloud of Aethelred, blew. A violent wind burst through the hall, scattering the armor like
litter and rushing over Harry and Hermione, pelting them with helmets, visors and gauntlets. She ducked and lifted her
wand, choosing the largest, heaviest helmet and sending it back to crash down over Malfoy’s still blinking,
rust-reddened eyes.

“Nice one,” Harry whispered appreciatively, and sent a storm of stunners down the hall while the helmet blinded him.
Voldemort swiftly erected a shield around Malfoy as he struggled to remove the helmet; deflecting them, but Harry was
poised and ready when he lowered it to send another curse their way. It was countered, almost effortlessly. It seemed
impossible to hit him with anything.

“Duck, now!” he warned, crouching down before her as a blasting curse ripped over them and burst against the castle
wall. A crater bloomed, raining a shower of pulverized rock over them. Her hair was whipped fiercely around her face and
she was momentarily blinded, she leant forward, pressing her face into his back, hearing his choking cough through the
stone dust. It hadn’t stopped him from sending his own spell Malfoy’s way; when Hermione raised her head she saw a cloud
of vengeful Cornish Pixies, taunting and tearing at Malfoy’s clothing. Voldemort caused him to spin round, swatting
spells at them in a raging fury. It struck her how much more effective seemingly simple, annoying spells worked against
him than conventionally damaging battle tactics.

They moved stealthily backwards through the crunching grit. They were more than halfway down the stairs now.

Harry muttered and twitched his wand again; the steps above them abruptly disappeared and she had the dizzy sensation of
hanging suspended in the air even though she knew the bottom steps must still be attached to the landing behind them. At
least she hoped so.

“It is time to stop this school boy nonsense.” Voldemort snarled through Malfoy, stopping disappointingly short of the
top step. “You dare play at Cornish Pixies with ME?”

Malfoy’s immaculate clothing was in disarray, his fine hair snarled. He was focused on Harry and she saw his wand arm
extend; she turned quickly back to see how many steps were left and immediately knew her mistake when she felt herself
thrown swiftly sideways and hurled over the railing. Before she could even scream she saw Harry unhesitatingly launch
himself after her; she felt herself slowed by magical force while he continued dropping at full speed and caught her up.
He wrenched them both around in mid air so that he was falling beneath her. She heard him mutter desperately; felt him
arching back behind her. She saw he had managed to charm the stairs two floors down to twist their way and was reaching
desperately for the railing. She twisted quickly as well and they grabbed it together, arresting their fall and
momentarily blocking them from Voldemort’s view as they dangled, gasping for breath.

“I know it’s not really remedial DADA,” she whispered fiercely. “But just what the hell is going on in that class,
Harry?”

He grinned unsteadily, still visibly shaken by her fall and the adrenalin of going after her.

“We need to get him out of the castle,” he whispered back. “I’ll try to pull the next stairs to us. We need to drop down
on them and make sure he follows us out the front door.”

They heard Malfoy’s feet thundering down the flights above them; Harry cried, “Now!” and Hermione jumped trustingly,
landing awkwardly mid-step on the stairs as they swung past. Harry landed beside her and snatched her hand. They flew
down the last steps, turned and,

A blast of red light hit the final staircase. It glowed for a brief moment and pulverized, collapsing into heaps of
stone dust. They were poised now between Voldemort and a sheer drop to the main floor below. Hermione fully expected
Harry to jump and tensed herself to follow, already sorting through which charm would soften their landing best. It took
her several precious moments to notice that he had turned back and was holding his scar with one hand while using
wingardium leviosa on one of the hall torches to threaten Voldemort with setting fire to Malfoy’s robes. Voldemort
abruptly turned the flame into a galloping fire-dog and sent it back at him with a swish of Malfoy’s wand.

“This is what Black looks like in Hell, Potter,” he sneered. “Still running scared.”

Harry made an unearthly sound, almost more than Hermione could bear. The fire-dog exploded, and the shower of sparks
sparkled down to the entrance hall, shimmering like fireworks.

“I can still have you, Potter.” Voldemort insisted through Malfoy’s lips. Harry clutched desperately at his forehead;
she could see his fingers scrabbling at his scar. “If I desire it. I must admit we do make a better pair than… this one,
willing or not. He has not my power, as you do.”

“No. NO!” Harry ground out. He began to move back up toward Malfoy on the landing. “Never again.” Hermione grabbed hold
of the sleeve of his robes, tugging hard. He shrugged them off in a single twitch, leaving them in her hands like a
forgotten skin.

He reached the landing and sparks began to fly from the two wands, jets and bursts of magical energy crashed into
quickly cast shields or careened off the walls, leaving scorched stone in their path. Twice the paths of the wands
almost crossed; the spells they were issuing swerved off course toward each other like magnet to magnet, countering each
other explosively. She remembered what he had told them about their wands joining in the graveyard. Harry hadn’t had a
wand the first time; he’d been an infant, unarmed, and by all accounts Lily had never raised hers. Now that his own
magic had chose the brother wand to Voldemort’s was it even possible for them to use either against the other with
deadly force?

They were both eerily silent, neither seemed to need words to focus their magic when it came to the other and Hermione
knew she was seeing things from both that she had never even read of. It was not formal magic between them, but a
release of elemental feelings more powerful than any written spell. Voldemort conjured what looked for all the world
like a cloud of true dementors and sent them at Harry; they swooped down on him in delight as if hungry for their deadly
kiss. Harry called on Prongs, and the silvery stag bounded into their midst, flailing madly with his antlers until they
were dispersed and then bearing down on Voldemort, charging right through Malfoy before he disappeared. It appeared to
have a draining effect; Malfoy’s body staggered and Harry drove home his slim advantage, knocking the sword from his
hand with a spell that clearly burned and sending a roiling black mist to surround him, momentarily obscuring his view.

“You will never take me again,” Harry stated; his tone low and furious. Hermione heard six years of pain and revulsion
in his voice, but she also heard a new resolve that had not been there before; a steely determination to forever block
Voldemort’s access through the scar joined the loathing he had held so long for the one who had cost him his parents. If
only he could…

Voldemort laughed and cleared the mist with a wave of Malfoy’s wand. His power and darkness had begun to contort
Malfoy’s face closer to his own image, though the silvery eyes shone red instead of black as they had in Harry. Hermione
wondered at that, was it some indication of how fully he had submerged his victim? Was his power somehow increasing as
he affected his host? If so, then the longer they fought, the more danger Harry was in.

A quick swish of his wand severed the heavy link chain that hung one of Hogwarts many lanterns over the open stairways
and sent the iron lamp hurtling at them. Harry answered with a flick of his own, sending it veering of course. Voldemort
had clearly planned for this; another wand slash and the end of the chain snaked itself around Harry’s neck as the
lantern crashed over the side of the stairs. Hermione heard Harry’s choked gasp, saw his knees buckle as he was pulled,
grappling with the chain, against the railing. She winguardium leviosa-ed the lamp, just managing to hold its massive
weight aloft until he broke free of the chain. As it crashed heavily to the floor below she suddenly remembered his
dream, how he’d begged for a time-out to Bellatrix’s mocking laughter, needing that one minute more he never got.

That much, at least, she could give him. She took aim and cast a charm just before Malfoy as he leapt forward on what he
believed to be his triumphal journey over the missing stairs toward Harry. It was one she had learned third year using
the time turner. This one held time suspended in a small area for a brief period, it had been most helpful in assuring
more graceful transitions from one moment in time to another. Without it she’d had a tendency to wipe out her landings
like Harry on floo powder.

There’s your minute Harry. Use it, please! Don’t let him…

Even his voice slowed down as Malfoy’s body slowly sailed over the gap. “Yoooouuurrrrr miiiiiiinnnnne Potttttttttter.”

She saw Harry visibly struggle to rise from his knees, extend his wand and let loose a spell. Whatever he chose
intersected with Hermione’s timespell but ricocheted off as if it were a protective shield, racing through the empty air
above the entrance hall with a crackling sound like lightening…

Straight for the rose window.

Hermione felt herself tense, waiting for the explosion of raining glass. The spell slammed into the window with a sound
like a great, reverberating gong, but it held and then began to glow with an unearthly light. It was late afternoon now,
the sun long passed over the peak of the roof, but all at once the stained glass gleamed brightly and the myriad pieces
began to shift and click, whirring through their lead frames into new places. It was for all the world like the turning
of a giant kaleidoscope, the colored bits reforming in a new order.

She watched in unbelieving silence as each petal-form slowly came into focus as a distinct picture or symbol. She felt
she could watch it forever, the colors mesmerizing before her eyes. A story began to unfold there, far greater than she
could ever grasp in the brief time allotted her. She realized only one truly important fact.

Neither Harry nor Voldemort had anything to do with the central hub. They were there; both a recognizable ‘chapter’ of
their own in a timelessly unfurling story of good and evil, and there were blank ‘chapter’ segments still at the very
edge, where the petal forms bore only clear glass, or shadows of what was to come.

The difference was that Voldemort’s chapter was at the end of a concentric ring; Harry’s overlapped it in position but
began the next ring outward, the one containing the dimly emerging future and clearly moving ahead in the spiraling of
time.

“No!” hissed Voldemort, “This is just more of Dumbledore’s trickery and lies. NO!”

Hermione saw Harry mesmerized by the window as well. He was searching not ahead of himself but behind, for those he had
loved and lost before. Trapped in the past, he was clearly unaware of the portent for his future. Or the one who would
make it a lie if he but could.

“Harry!” she cried out, and raised her wand. She knew what spell Voldemort would choose this time around. The time to
taunt his prey was done. There was no shield that would withstand the killing curse, but Hermione could not bear to do
nothing, not to try.

Only belatedly registering the fear in her voice, Harry shifted his gaze and hurriedly cast a strange silvery spell she
did not recognize just as Voldemort let loose the unmistakable green light of the Avada Kedavra his way. Hermione’s
protection spell intersected the other two; both reached their targets slightly altered and diffused.

Malfoy’s body trembled, dropped to its knees and vomited a wraith of red mist. It rose in the air, writhing and twisting
on itself like a blood-colored snake.

Dumbledore’s voice arose suddenly from the ground floor like thunder. “Malefactoris Abi.”

The red mist dissipated with a high-pitched, enraged scream that seemed to go on and on.

Or maybe that was her.

Harry lay sprawled below, limbs unnaturally splayed and unmoving where the green light had finally caught him.

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A/n: Ok, I’m hard on Harry and all, but you MUST know by now that I could never do anything fatal to him… Hermione’s got
all those bazillion snog points still to call in! Relax already.

If you are not familiar with rose windows, do yourself a glorious favor and go to Google (or the image search engine of
your choice), choose images and search on Rose window. A feast of color for your eyes and soul. An excellent example of
what I am trying to evoke can be found here: .artlex.com/ArtLex/r/images/rosewndw_notrdm.par.int.lg.jpg Add an http://
and www before it. This is the famed rose window at Notre Dame You’ll get a sense of how they are shaped, the center and
rings radiating outward. The design and images and the way the magical window in this story actually moves will be
discussed more thoroughly next chapter, but if you can’t visualize what is going on it’s just my crappy writing and a
picture might help. ~ Lynney

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25. Chapter 25

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 25

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Hermione and Ron kept vigil in the infirmary. They both knew that the rest of the school beyond the magically repaired
(but now somewhat recalcitrant and squeaky) infirmary doors had already run the gamut from fear to relief to speculation
to benumbed exhaustion with the whole topic. Inside Harry remained oblivious, Madam Pomfrey remained concerned and
Hermione remained both frightened and fiercely determined.

Ron just remained, miserable and stunned. “He’s not usually out this long.”

“He’s not usually hit with an AK, either. We don’t really know how he was after the last one; he was so little and the
protection from his Mum was new. No one’s ever said just how long he was alone at Godric’s Hollow before Hagrid got him.
No one knows how it really affected him, because he was with the Dursleys then. They probably didn’t even notice. We
just have to be patient, Ron, and hope that the spells colliding diffused it enough...”

They had brought him back to the same bed he had just left, but Hermione had insisted he be moved to the other end of
the room so that if he was disoriented when he awoke he wouldn’t be looking out for Malfoy. Malfoy, who claimed now to
have been only unwillingly possessed. He swore to having agreed only to take Voldemort away from Hogwarts to save them
all from the Dark Lord’s wrath. He went on and on about the damage Harry had done to him, the assaults and pain he had
endured. He sulked anxiously in a bed near the door now; magically bound to the Hospital Wing. Professor McGonagall had
privately assured them he would still face charges if she had anything to say about it.

Hermione had something in mind for him to face, and while it did charge when angry there wouldn’t be much left of him
afterward. Surely Hagrid would know where to get one.

Madam Pomfrey had made a series of small, distressed sounds as she had examined Harry. Hermione had seen her eyes meet
Dumbledore’s more than once during the process, and she had wished desperately for legilimency abilities of her own
then. He seemed physically unmarked to her eyes except for a small, new lightening shaped scar on his chest where the
spell had connected. He appeared deeply unconscious and cool, almost cold, to the touch; his breathing shallow and
uneven.

Time dragged.

Ron climbed up on the bed next to Harry’s and slept. Hermione turned at one point to muffle his snoring with a silencing
charm but thought better of it; there was always the chance it might be a familiar, comforting sound to Harry even
though it sounded like a Nogtail with bronchitis to her.

She had pulled her usual chair close to the bed and laid her head on her arms beside him, waiting. His coldness
disturbed her; he was usually her source of warmth. It reminded her vividly of the night in the cave. She ran her
fingers down his forearm and threaded them through his. They were unresisting and unresponsive, and the combination cut
her to the quick.

She drifted into fitful sleep as well.

She awoke to find Dumbledore on Harry’s other side; his hand was resting on Harry’s head, fingers lost in the unruly
black hair; eyes closed. Her feelings were torn; part of her wanted to tell him he had no right poking around in Harry’s
mind, but another part ached to ask what he had found. The old headmaster opened his eyes as if he had felt her gaze and
smiled, gently.

“He is healing, Hermione.”

“Isn’t there anything we can do?”

“No. You are doing it. Waiting is, as you are finding now, hardly a passive activity. The rest he must go through again
alone.” Dumbledore conjured himself a comfortable armchair and sat down as well, with Harry between them. “I have
dreaded this day for quite some time, Hermione, but it turned out far, far differently than I had feared, thanks in
great part to you.”

“Voldemort wasn’t… he’s not gone, is he?”

Dumbledore shook his head sadly. “I’m afraid not. But he has been greatly weakened once more, of that I am certain. Far
more than he could have anticipated. You and Harry have quite likely saved many lives this day.”

“But Harry will have to fight him again,” she said slowly, “won’t he.”

“Yes, Hermione. He will.”

Hermione felt tears well up and fill her eyes against her will. So stupid. Like crying would help at all; make anything
different in the end. She willed them away.

“How many time,” she said angrily. “How many more times will he have to…”

“I believe the answer to your question,” Dumbledore said gravely, “is six,”

Her heart dropped, but her mind raced on and she eyed him suspiciously. “How can you be so sure?”

“I can not be positive,” he said. “I am giving you but one possible guess, one potential answer. Do you not recognize
the number?.”

She thought for a moment and then her eyes flared. “You did know all along. Malfoy said you did but Harry didn’t believe
him.”

Dumbledore inclined his head once, in acknowledgment, and then his deep old voice intoned words she already knew;

“When the wheel of life spins once more a lion scarred by death itself will rise, who speaks the language of snakes and
bears the fangs of a dragon. He will follow its path to begin his journey and he will strike down an immortal evil where
it lies five times, but the sixth time he will find it within himself. Only if the lion can vanquish his own darkness
will his seventh strike save him. If he cannot, the pretender has won, and by all that is sacred in this world magic
must die.”

“You said six,” Hermione told him. “How can that be? He struck down Voldemort when he was a baby, and again first year,
and in the Chamber of Secrets.”

“I have come to believe,” Dumbledore told her, “That young Harry was meant by Voldemort to be something quite special
that night. I know Harry told you of the prophecy that foretold his coming, and how it could have applied either to him
or to Neville Longbottom. Voldemort choose Harry, probably because Harry too was a half blood and might be more likely
in the long run to need to prove himself than Neville. He was trying to eliminate what he believed to be the more
dangerous of the two, so chose the one more like himself. He did not know about the part that said he would mark Harry
as his equal; his informant was thrown out of the Hogs Head before he could hear the rest. And in the end he did just
that; mark him. I don’t believe he ever meant to. I believe now that he went to Godric’s Hollow that night with quite
another purpose in mind.”

“I don’t understand…” Hermione said. “You don’t think Voldemort meant to kill him?”

Dumbledore smiled gently, and shook his head. “Alas no,” he said. “He always meant to kill him. But I think he meant to
make something special out of Harry’s murder. Avada Kedavra is a powerful curse, Hermione. There are other ways to kill
a wizard, particularly a baby Harry’s age. The Avada is unspeakable because it requires the true intent of the
destruction of another soul, not simply the disarming or elimination of an enemy. There is a cost to the wizard that
casts it, each time it is cast. I believe that Voldemort did not die when his curse rebounded off the protection of Lily
Potter’s selfless love because he had already found a way to make use of the destruction to his soul his willingness to
use the Avada had begun.”

Hermione’s head was spinning.

“I wish to speak of this to Harry, to warn him what he might face, but you and Ron will surely hear it too. But not now.
There is time enough still. Not now.”

“Professor, does the window mean what I think it might? I didn’t really have time to take it all in, but it seemed to
show Harry after Voldemort. Does that mean he’ll survive him or just that he came later?”

“I am counting on you to help me find out, my dear girl. It is a rich and mysterious thing, your pageless story. It will
bear a great deal of study. I, too, have not had the time to examine it that I would wish. Perhaps the placement of
their ‘chapters’ alone is not enough to guarantee Harry will defeat Voldemort, but there are other promising
indications.”

“How can it… I don’t understand the enchantment of it. How could the founders have known… I mean, is it divination or
prophecy that causes the images to appear or… what?” Hermione asked, deeply curious.

“When Harry’s spell set the window in motion it was in a way like winding a clock. It has continued moving and
ever-so-slowly changing all the while you have been watching over him. The striking of the spell and the focusing motion
of the window revealed an inscription I am quite sure was not visible before. From what I can ascertain, it was not the
enchantment or intention of the four Founders that brought the window into being at all. The central hub, as you may
have noticed, is not made of glass or stone. It is a substance I myself have never come across before or can name. It
was discovered by Godric Gryffindor near the shores of the lake while the castle was being built. He meant only for it
to be illuminated in the entry hall as a thing of beauty, but when it was mounted in the stone it began to slowly spin
and caused the window to be created by spiraling it out from itself. The founders watched the window grow before their
eyes until it caught up with their present day. It must now be significantly larger than it was, and will, I hope and
imagine, grow larger still.”

“I still don’t understand then. Who or what makes the images appear?”

Dumbledore’s face grew somehow both softer and yet more remote; the blue eyes over their half-moon spectacles met hers
gravely. “There is magic far beyond what we simple witches and wizards can stretch our minds to perceive, Hermione. It
is easy for us to grow flippant and too casually accept the greater gift that is given us. The best among us can harness
but a small percentage of the true magic in this world. I am certain there is far more to it than most of us will ever,
or can ever, know in one lifetime.

What gives life and meaning to the window is nothing you will ever uncover in a history book, although it clearly
reflects our history and I believe begs us to learn from it. It is the essence of magic itself. Muggles and Wizards both
have tried to name it, but it is so much more than we can explain that no one has ever discovered the one name everyone
can acknowledge. Take to heart, Hermione, that there is magic far greater than what your books can or will teach you.
You are wise to seek it there, but I have been hoping against hope that your… friendship with Harry would initiate you
both in one of the greatest truths of life; that there are things we can not logically understand without our hearts,
and were never meant to.”

“So the window is…” Hermione whispered.

“To marvel at. To remind us always to look up,” Dumbledore said gently. “To show us that time moves eternally on and we
must make the most of our portion of it. That good will always triumph over evil in the end. That there is a reason to
aspire to do great things. That there is meaning in the smallest shard of glass. That Harry’s struggle against Voldemort
is not, and should not be, all that his life is about. Or yours, or Ron’s. Do not forget to take joy in the life you
have been given, or evil will have won an unearned victory.”

Hermione looked down at Harry. He seemed unchanged, still unconscious, but his hand was warm now within her own and his
breathing seemed easier. Dumbledore sighed and rose to his feet, neatly disposing of his armchair.

She suddenly remembered one of the things she had been puzzling out before she had fallen asleep.

“Professor Dumbledore? What spell was it that Harry used on Voldemort?”

“One that he has been working for quite some time to master. I did not know that he had in fact perfected it; I’m not
sure he knew it would work himself. But it did, and I am most hopeful he will use it again.”

“The spell I cast, that went between them, it didn’t ruin it?” she asked anxiously.

“No, Hermione. It may indeed have had an effect, but Voldemort was still ultimately driven from his host in Malfoy and
from the school grounds. More importantly, it may have helped save Harry’s life, as it is equally possible, in fact
highly probable, that it affected Voldemort’s curse as well.”

Hermione felt as though something tight within her chest eased, her heart seemed to beat more easily. “Thank you.”

“You should sleep while he does. He is not likely to awake for some time yet, I think. If you would be so kind as to
tell Madam Pomfrey to notify me when he wakens I will go and see what I can do with the enormous pile of senseless
parchment the Ministry has burdened a flock of owls to bring my way in regard to all of this. Perhaps Peeves will have a
creative approach to the problem.” He moved off to the door, drifting deliberately wide of Malfoy’s curtained bed and
appearing deep in thought so as not to have to hear Draco’s litany of threats about what the Malfoy family would do when
they found out he was being kept a virtual prisoner in the Hogwarts Hospital Wing. The door squeaked shut behind him.

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In the end it was as Dumbledore had indicated; Harry required his own time to heal. It was a full forty-eight hours
after the Headmaster’s visit that he finally awoke.

The first thing he saw – fuzzily, of course – was Ron, sitting up on the next bed over and grinning. A blond blur was
seated on his far side and from the sound of things his weary brain very slowly came to the conclusion that it was Luna
Lovegood. The two of them seemed to picking through a large selection of Bertie Botts beans and having a rather
enjoyable time together doing so. Nice to see, but not what he really needed at the moment.

He felt as if his mind were slogging through some sort of thick sticky syrup. It was hard enough to think; speaking
seemed a task too monumentally complex to be considered. He wanted his glasses and something to drink; he wanted to be
understood without having to say a word. He wanted warm brown eyes like a puddle of spilt chocolate, sweet and
comforting … where the hell was Hermione? Had something happened to Hermione?

The remembrance of all that had happened hit him like a wave of cold water; he literally gasped for air and shuddered at
the impact of it, attempting to sit up in his horror. He managed to get upright but promptly succumbed to the dizziness
that follows prolonged unconsciousness and overbalanced. He slumped sideways but instead of meeting the comparative
softness of pillow or mattress collided with the sleeping head of the very one he was looking for. Roused from a deeply
unconscious state brought on by the sheer exhaustion of watching over his deeply unconscious state for the better part
of three days Hermione came up swinging and gave her attacker a mighty shove.

Harry flew off the far side of the bed, colliding with the night stand bearing the various potions and implements Madam
Pomfrey had been using and hit the floor with most of the contents. The cacophony of breaking glass, a bouncing metal
basin and one bonelessly tired young wizard hitting the floor brought the school healer at a run.

“What in the name of Merlin is going on here?” she demanded at roughly the same time that a sleep-dazed Hermione
shrieked “Harry!” and dove over the bed. Ron and Luna exchanged stunned, what-just-happened? glances and scrambled down
from the end of the other bed as well.

Harry looked up from the uncomfortably littered floor of his bedside to find himself engulfed in a tearful hug from his
best friend and at the business end of three wands. His arms seemed to find their way round Hermione like a reflex.

“It’s just me,” he managed to croak out. “Honest.”

“Welcome back, Harry,” said Luna calmly, tucking her wand back behind her ear.

“Sorry, Mate. The way she went at you I was sure you were back to you-know, um Voldemort.” Ron apologized, pocketing
his.

“Harry, I’m sorry, you scared me. I must have been asleep, I had no idea where I was, that it was you. I can’t believe
that I did that to you after… I am so sorry,” Hermione sobbed.

Perhaps it was the sight of Hermione full-out crying; she’d been known to tear up but wasn’t much of a sobber. Whatever
it was, Madam Pomfrey underwent an abrupt transformation from her usual Head-Nurseyness and was instead kindness itself.
She helped the still unsteady Harry to his bed and used her wand to clean up the broken potion vials and bottles. She
didn’t say a word about Hermione still being fastened securely to her patient’s neck and hiccoughing while she magically
scourgified his hair of split potions and glass fragments and otherwise checked him over. She was even extremely tactful
in the way she suggested Ron and Luna together go and tell Dumbledore that Harry was awake.

She handed Harry a glass of misting blue potion and nodded in satisfaction as he gagged his way through it. “That will
help, now that you’re back amongst the living,” she said with satisfaction. “I’m going to my office to finish up those
dratted parchments from the ministry Peeves keeps bringing. Hands above the waist at all times, both of you,” she
admonished, moving off.

This at least brought a snort from Hermione, although whether it was humor or humiliation he couldn’t tell; her head was
still buried in his shoulder and all he could see was the rather substantial fall of her hair. Of course he still didn’t
have his glasses yet.

“Hermione, would it be really insensitive or anything if I asked you where my glasses are?” he asked hesitantly.

She scrabbled around with her left hand and passed them to him without lifting her head; they had been in the pocket of
her robes for safekeeping.

He put them on. The rest of the room beyond her hair came into view, which oddly allowed him to focus more on her since
he wasn’t worried any longer what might be lurking beyond his line of sight. She was still hiccoughing sporadically, but
the intervals had grown longer and he could tell she was quieting. He found her very solidity and warmth comforting, he
was still profoundly cold. It felt nice just holding her and rubbing her back, entirely undemanding. He felt competent
and up to the task, something he could claim about very few other activities at the moment. It was as if Voldemort had
pulled some sort of cosmic plug on Harry; he literally felt drained of life force.

Hermione gave a giant sniff and drew back at last. Harry still wasn’t much of a fan of the tear-stained female look, but
he thought she wore it fairly well; she appeared sadly vulnerable rather than on the edge of outright scary. Besides,
the last time he’d seen her cry they’d actually finished up quite nicely. He was cautiously optimistic.

“Okay?” he asked tentatively. “Look, it’s okay about the pushing me off the bed thing, really. I understand.”

“I was waiting and waiting for you to wake up; it’s been three days, Harry.”

“I’m sorry. I…”

“No, no, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry about the spell, Dumbledore says he didn’t think I spoiled it but I had to ask you. He
lived, Harry, Malfoy coughed him up like some sort of red mist and Dumbledore said something that banished it, I think.
I didn’t know what you were doing; I was only trying to keep you safe. He… do you remember what happened?”

Harry shook his head slowly. “I remember my spell flying off of something and hitting the window. I can remember seeing
the window move, and all those little pieces clicking around and changing. I started to see people and places I
recognized; then I heard you call my name.” His eyes grew puzzled. “I think I saw…” \they shifted to her. “The last
thing I saw was green,” he said, realization dawning. “A flash of green.”

“You’re the Boy Who Lived Yet Again now,” she told him. “You sent some spell I didn’t know at him at about the same
moment he cast the Avada Kedavra at you. I tried to use a protego between you. All three spells collided.”

“So you saved my life?”

“Or cost you your chance to finish him and be done with all this.”

He shook his head. “The spell I was trying to use, Hermione, I’ve kind of been experimenting with… I’ve been trying to
master something that would finish him that I could still live with. I don’t think it’s anywhere near ready to work yet,
if it ever does. I only tried it because I wasn’t thinking clearly. I was so distracted by the window actually moving, I
just reacted. I wasn’t ready for him to AK me. You did save me.”

Hermione remembered seeing Harry’s eyes searching the window as if it held some answer to where all those who had loved
him had gone. In that moment she had realized her fear that he might be drawn more powerfully to follow them than remain
in a world that still contained Voldemort. Her speed in launching the protection spell had had quite a bit to do with
keeping him where she could see him. Death had never seemed to hold any attraction for Harry but she understood that
repeatedly facing it down was having its own effect.

“Dumbledore told me a little about the window while we were waiting for you,” she told him slowly, watching him. “He
said that once your spell hit it, it was like winding a clock. It’s still changing. He said they could see an
inscription after it first started to move, and that it wasn’t made by the Four Founders. He thinks that it was created
by the source of magic itself. We still don’t know what it really means, but I wish you could have heard what he told
me, the way that he said it. He said that it was to remind us that time moves eternally on and we need to make the most
of our bit of it, if we let our lives be dominated by Voldemort evil will win an unearned victory.”

She could see that Harry was puzzled. “I did hear that somehow. Or something like it. I remember hearing his voice
saying ‘do not forget to take joy in the life you have been given, or evil will have won an unearned victory.’”

“Were you asleep that whole time? I mean, I know you were unconscious, but did it feel like sleep or something else? Did
you dream? Were you aware of anything?”

His eyes retained their puzzled expression but their focus seemed to soften slightly, a look Hermione had always
interpreted as introspection on his part. “It was horrible, really. Not so bad at first, but I was more than ready to
move on by the time I woke up. It was like an unending mist or fog or something. I slogged on and on, there was just
this feeling that if I stopped moving something awful would happen, but it never felt as if I was really getting
anywhere. Like being trapped in between something, I guess, not being able to find my way back here or on anywhere else,
either.” She saw him shudder once, but it was almost reflexive and seemed to bring his gaze back to her. His eyes met
hers, green and trusting and somehow still hopeful, and she knew then that she hadn’t lost him as long as they could
still look at her like that. It was part of the miracle of Harry for her, that after the Dursleys and Voldemort and
losing Sirius and watching Cedric die and living through Umbridge and Malfoy’s treachery, he could still somehow turn to
her with hope.

Okay, so she realized as soon as she felt his lips on hers that no small part of it was also hopeful of a good snog, but
he was after all sixteen and really a boy still at, erm… heart. And that was a good thing, too. A very good thing.
Despite an uneven start and something of a rocky path to follow, Harry had actually turned out very nicely at the whole
boy thing. Nice and considerate and actually kind of creative, really. Like that… that thing with his tongue right
there. Nice, not gaggy or overpowering or anything, sort of sweet and questioning, and of course the answer to the
question was Yes!, wherever he was going with it.

Hermione heard the telltale squeal of the Hospital Wing doors admitting Dumbledore and Ron and Luna, and realized that
for once, entirely unintentionally of course, Voldemort had actually done them a favor by warping the doors. They drew
apart, reluctantly.

“Later?” she asked softly, attempting to straighten out his hair where she’d been at it, and quickly realizing the
benefit of his eternally wayward locks as well.

“Absolutely.” Harry grinned.

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26. Chapter 26

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 26

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There was something to be said for getting the whole appearance-of-the-Dark-Lord bit over before Christmas, Harry
reflected. He was actually looking forward to a holiday relatively free from the shadow of evil; and while it was not
technically impossible that Voldemort would make his presence known again soon, Dumbledore at least continued to assure
him that it was highly unlikely for some time yet. The Weasley’s had invited both Harry and Hermione to the Burrow for
Christmas and to his surprise (and gratification) Hermione had managed to convince her parents that skiing in
Switzerland would have a negative impact on her N.E.W.T. review schedule and so was Burrow-bound as well.

“They do understand N.E.W.T’.s aren’t until next year?” Harry asked somewhat suspiciously.

“Would you prefer me to go skiing, then?” Hermione asked sweetly. “It’s not too late.”

“Erm… never mind.”

“I’m expecting you to help me revise, Harry. There are several areas in particular where I could use your natural
strength with charms and wand movements.”

“Sweet Merlin, Hermione, there are four eleven-year olds sitting three seats down. I’m sure they’d be fascinated with
Harry’s natural wand movements, perhaps you’d care to make a school-wide announcement?” Ron groaned. “You two had better
behave over Christmas. The twins will be there.”

“Ronald Bilius Weasley!” Hermione scolded. “Get your mind out of the gutter, please. You’re going to be sorry when
N.E.W.T. time rolls around next year if your grasp of the situation remains stuck where it is now.”

Harry, who’d been on the receiving end of Ron’s amazement at his own increasing interest in a certain blond Ravenclaw
just that morning found Hermione’s phrasing suddenly gut-wrenchingly amusing and was forced to develop an intense,
quivering interest in the contents of his plate. Seamus and Dean, who’d begun following the conversation with Ron’s
original contribution about wand movements, broke into outright laughter.

“If Ron’s grasp of the situation gets any stronger he’ll peak way before N.E.W.T.s, Hermione,” Dean managed.

“The boy needs a firm hand to guide his revision,” agreed Seamus.

Hermione realized that perhaps she’d gotten to know Harry’s room mates just a tad too well. Being accepted by the boys
had its amusing side, but it made maintaining decorum in front of the younger students… oh right. She wasn’t a prefect
anymore.

“You boys have so much to learn…” she sighed. “When it comes to revision, study technique is always secondary to the
simple, healthy desire to master your subject.”

Professor Snape looked up from his pudding to observe an almost eerie silence at the far end of the Gryffindor table
where Potter and his sixth year companions tended to gather. He took in the back of Weasley’s neck (flaming red) and the
shuddering posture of Thomas and Finnigan. The Granger girl was turned toward Potter with a look Snape had never seen
before on her face, and one he was uncertain exactly how to read. Four young first years just down the table were
staring, wide-eyed, at the older students. He plucked his wand from his robes and leveled it as Potter lifted his head
from his unnatural fascination with what Snape held as an only a barely tolerable evening meal. Lily’s green eyes were
squeezed shut and James’ expressive mouth was open in a howl…

In was only after he’d stunned Harry that Snape realized it was laughter. He’d simply never seen the boy-who-lived laugh
like that before.

Oops.

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“You do realize,” Harry said furiously to Ron and Hermione as they climbed the rebuilt stairs toward the sanctuary of
the Gryffindor common room following his return to consciousness with Snape’s reluctant enervation and even more
reluctant excuse for an apology, (“Get up, Potter.”) “that this means war.”

“Harry,” Hermione sighed.

“Alright!” Ron agreed.

“For once I finally have the focus, the energy, and enough time to make up all the house points it’ll cost before the
end of the year. If you add in the fact the Malfoy has to at least lay low for a bit, it’s an opportunity too good to
lose. I may still have to battle Voldemort yet again, but Snape is going down.” Harry vowed.

Hermione reflected on her painfully clear memory of Snape stupefying Harry as he attempted to crawl back up the stairs
after wrestling Voldemort out of his mind, how her elation as the shaky, questioning ‘Hermione?’ proved he was alive
turned to horror as their Potions Professor coldly leveled his wand and brought him down again.

She saw Harry’s eyes glowing softly now, the tension that played across his face as his mind raced. He was breathing
quickly, flushed with agitation and freed from the usual constraints on his behavior put in place by the annual fight
for his life. The anger with Snape might be mostly displaced, but his instinct to strike back instead of his historical
numbed tolerance was telling. He had been slowly learning how to use his anger all year, beginning with Vernon Dursley’s
rampage over the dragon’s fang and continuing on with his determination to get Voldemort out of his head for good. He
needed this.

Not to mention that there really was something kind of …well, exciting about Harry when he finally got angry. She found
herself grinning and breathing a little quicker, too. Oh, this was not good. Not good at all.

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Hermione laid down the ground rules.

“First, whatever we do, we don’t strike until after Christmas. Madam Pomphrey said you weren’t supposed to get hit with
any sort of spell at all for two weeks, Harry, and Snape’s already stupefied you. We can’t take any more chances with
that.”

“Listen to yourself, Hermione. Under medical orders NOT to be spelled and Snape hits him before he can even finish his
nice restorative pudding first night out of the Hospital Wing. All the more reason to do it quickly, I’d say,” Ron said.

Harry nodded hopefully.

Hermione shook her head. “If you want my help, we wait at least the week. I’m leaning toward something potion-based,
anyway, less chance of Harry getting hit back with anything dangerous. A potion will take a bit of time and research.”

“I still like the idea of piercing his enormous nose and setting a niffler loose on him myself.” Ron volunteered.

“I think summoning a basilisk through the s-bend to his loo would be too good for him at this point, but if Hermione can
come up with something humiliating, disfiguring and untraceable I’d guess it’d be well worth the wait,” reasoned Harry.
“I feel a visit to the library coming on.”

“Follow me!” Hermione grinned, spinning and heading off, hair flying behind her.

“One of my most favorite places to be,” Harry said with satisfaction.

“What, the library? Have you gone mental?” Ron asked incredulously.

“No, idiot. Behind Hermione when she’s on a mission. Watch.”

Even Ron had to admit the swirl of Hermione’s brown locks and the determined sway of her purposeful pace was kind of
fetching from behind and well out of wands’ way.

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First they checked the syllabus to see if they were scheduled to make anything in class over the next couple of weeks
after Christmas that an extra ingredient here or a couple more stirs there would render useful. They had proceeded from
antidotes and healing potions on to potions for the future auror. Unfortunately Veratiserum and Polyjuice potion and the
like were unlikely to cause Snape any lasting damage and the penalty for playing around with them was steep. Aurors had
laws governing what they could use on dark wizards that would seriously cramp their style.

“Hermione,” Harry said thoughtfully, resting his chin atop the enormous copy of Perfect Potions Potently Poured he’d
been searching through. “Does it have to be a potion?”

“Hmmm?” purred Hermione, happily perusing a tome of her own and not even looking up. “No. I just thought it would be
more fitting for him and safer for you. He’d never suspect you of being able to brew something debilitating.”

“Thanks.”

She looked up then. “He wouldn’t Harry. I didn’t say we didn’t think you could. There’s nothing wrong with you when it
comes to potions except for the fact that Snape teaches it.”

“I wonder what Snape’s worst fear is,” Harry pondered. “I’d love to get a look at his boggart.”

“Easy. We get him to think he’s died and come back as a ghost and he’s doomed to teach Neville and the Creavey brothers
for all eternity,” Ron laughed.

“Don’t be cruel, Ron,” Hermione chided him. “Neville tries. And the Creavey brothers… well. Not everyone can be a
potions person.”

“Well, there’s one benefit of waiting until after Christmas,” Harry concluded. “We can pick the twin’s brains as well.
Bet they’ve got something in the shop that will give us a brilliant idea.”

“Now that’s probably taking things a step too far!” Hermione laughed.

“Why?” Ron asked, bewildered. “The slimy git has gone out of his way to make Harry’s life a misery for the last six
years!”

“Because we want Harry to graduate and still have a chance at being an auror if he wants to, even though he knows I’d
like him to consider something less dangerous,” she told him calmly.

“Harry! You’re not letting her talk you out of becoming an auror now, are you?”

“I haven’t decided anything. A week ago I was wondering if I’d see today. I’m not making any, er, many long term plans
at the moment,” Harry said, noticing the storm clouds building behind Hermione’s eyes and hoping to distract them. “How
about that hooked nose of his? Could we make it sort of curve around on itself or something every time he takes points
from Gryffindor?”

“Or make his hair go all blond and girly-curly.” Ron suggested.

“Girly-curly?” Hermione shot back at him. “What exactly is that supposed to convey? How embarrassing it is to be blond,
or a girl?”

They glared at each other. Harry held up a hastily scrawled scrap of parchment that read: “Have I mentioned that your
participation in this venture is worth many, many snog points?” behind Ron’s head.

Hermione refrained from hexing Ron’s hair then, but productivity to their cause had already been seriously affected.

“Let’s call it a day and have a nice game of chess or snap or something er, soothing before bed,” Harry suggested, eying
his two compatriots warily. And he had ever worried the two of them might seriously get together? Romantically? Idiot.

The Gryffindor common room was mostly empty, its few occupants working half-heartedly on back-logged assignments to free
themselves for the following days’ opportunity to Christmas shop in Hogsmeade.

“Here’s a question,” Harry asked as he and Ron set out their chess pieces and Hermione disappeared upstairs in search of
a book. “What can I possibly get your sister for Christmas that doesn’t say either ‘thanks for setting me up with the
death eater’ or ‘don’t take this wrong, I forgive you completely but please don’t ever love me again’ too unsubtly?”

“Damned if I know,” admitted Ron. “She’s still very moody about the whole thing; I never know what to say around her
anymore. What are you getting Hermione?”

“A secret,” said Harry, who hadn’t actually got a clue but knew that Ron couldn’t keep a secret from Hermione to save
his life. “What did you get her?”

Ron grinned. “I’m not totally stupid. I’ve never once managed to get her the right thing. This year I thought I’d just
make you go with me. You are technically her boyfriend; I thought you could figure it out.”

“What are you getting Luna?”

“You are, technically, the actual boyfriend of a girl. Wouldn’t that work for Luna as well?”

“You want me to pick out your Christmas present for Luna?” Harry asked doubtfully. “That has bad idea written all over
it.”

“Why?” Ron’s bishop stuck a particularly savage blow at one of Harry’s pawns. The next pawn over cringed and shook his
fist at Harry, crying “Stick to Quidditch! Chess just isn’t your game!’

Harry moved the pawn in line to one of Ron’s knights. “Because it’s supposed to come from you, it’s supposed to express
your thoughts and feelings towards her. I think.”

“Yeah, but you already know all my thoughts and feelings about her.” Ron said, as his knight made short work of the
complaining pawn.

“Painfully true, but not exactly the point.” Harry informed him. “Look at it this way. You are the one in line for the
gratitude induced snog, henceforth you are the one who should put the thought into the gift, other wise it’s like
stealing a snog by false pretences or something.”

“Did you just say henceforth?” Ron asked suspiciously.

Harry sighed. “Ron, take it from me, I’m without question the luckiest wizard who ever had a curse scar and a couple of
really unfortunate prophecies in regard to their future. I have no real clue what I’m doing from minute to minute with
Hermione, I just know that I love her because I couldn’t face any of this without her. Maybe I had to know now because
there won’t be that much time, or maybe that’s just the way it was supposed to be, but I wouldn’t change it, any of it,
not for anything in the world if it meant she wasn’t there. Not the Dursley’s, not the scar, not Voldemort’s mind games.
She was always there, right in front of my eyes and I was too full of self pity and doubt to let myself see her as
anything but a friend. Don’t miss something so… amazing, because you’ve got to go further out on your limb than you’d
like. Don’t look down, don’t look back, just go for it. Just the chance is worth it.”

“He’s far better at philosophy than chess,” commented Harry’s knight to Ron’s roving bishop before being dashed aside.

“Wow,” said Ron slowly. “Your knight’s right. So you think I should…”

“I think I have NO idea,” Harry explained patiently. “I think that I’m telling you you’ll just have to make it up as you
go along as well. The only thing I know is that it’s worth anything you have to give up.”

“All I have to say is that you REALLY are the luckiest wizard with a curse scar, because your girlfriend’s been standing
behind you while you poured your little heart out there and from the look on her face I’m guessing you know your stuff.”
Ron informed him at roughly the same time Harry found himself engulfed from behind by Hermione.

“That was really, really nice, Harry,” Hermione told him softly. “I know I wasn’t supposed to be listening and you
weren’t telling it to me, but thanks.”

“Oh, sure, He’s nice. Unless you play bloody chess with him, in which case he’s a menace!” shrieked Harry’s Queen from
the board.

“Mind your manners, you,” Harry told her, “or Ron’s likely to get a new chess set for Christmas.”

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Harry began to change into his pajamas, reflecting on the events of the day. The down side of facing Voldemort without
actually doing him in yet again had come to Harry that afternoon before dinner. Dumbledore had sent for him shortly
after his release from the Hospital Wing, requesting Harry’s presence in his office before their evening meal.
Hermione’s name on the summons being suspiciously absent, Harry reckoned he had a pretty good idea what the topic of
conversation was likely to be and dragged up the revolving staircase with a heavy heart.

Dumbledore had obviously been pacing; he had reached the furthest end of his well-worn path and had his back to Harry
when he entered.

“Harry. Good to see you up and about once again,” he said, without turning.

Setting the ‘I am an impressive Wizard who knows all; heed my words, young man,’ tone straight off, then. Harry remained
silent, waiting for whatever was to befall him yet again.

“Sit, Harry,” Dumbledore told him, turning and conjuring a chair. It was a cushiony wing chair; Harry wondered whether
he had earned it through his injuries or if he was about to be flattened by some new bit of divined wisdom about his
future. He hadn’t had a chance to examine the window yet, passing it by for the first time on his way here. He’d
reflexively ducked his head, not really ready to know if there was something else he’d have to live up to – or die for.

Dumbledore conjured Harry’s chairs’ twin for himself and sat down as well. Perhaps he was just in a wing chair kind of
mood at the moment.

“How are you feeling today?” he asked, with the disarming concern in his bright blue eyes that always made Harry feel
somehow acknowledged, even cared for.

“Still a bit on the worn-out side, but fine, really. Thank you,” Harry responded politely, hating the part of him that
hung back from Dumbledore’s kindness but unable to push past it. It sat there in his newly-roomy head, prodding him to
stay alert, ready for something he couldn’t name. He knew that his Headmaster truly cared for him, but he was also
suspicious that Dumbledore had traveled so much further down life’s road that perhaps nothing was inviolable at this
point. Quite likely including Harry.

“Not true, Harry,” the old Wizard said with a sigh.

Harry shifted uncomfortably and slammed closed his mind’s portals.

“My apologies.” Dumbledore inclined his head graciously. “Old habits die hard. You are not a child any longer.”

“What would make us really any different from Voldemort,” Harry asked quietly, “if there is nothing you won’t give up to
defeat him?”

“It will never be my choice to give anything up,” Dumbledore replied. “That is my burden in all of this Harry. I have
spent a great deal of my life becoming a powerful wizard, yet in this particular battle I am quite powerless. Oh, I can
plot, make suggestions, manipulate circumstances, but in the end I am utterly impotent to control anything at all. It
has been quite the painful lesson for me, I assure you. Perhaps part of fates’ retribution for my own taking of a life.”

“But…”

“You are right, Harry, in your assessment that I have made choices in my life to avoid making others. There are indeed
reasons Fawkes is my closest companion. You are wrong, however, when you believe that I am in any way willing to
sacrifice you to the cause of defeating Tom Riddle. I have played a game with fate to guard you thus far, and I do not
blame you for questioning my choices.”

Dumbledore leaned back in his chair and eyed Harry gravely. “Even if they had proved consistently to be the right ones
you would still find yourself having to do so to assert your independence now. It is inevitable, a fact of life’s
inexorable flow forward. The fact that some of them have proved painful for you only exacerbates the need. Unfortunately
for you, that same drive for independence and autonomy that has awakened in you now will make the choices from here on
your own. I believe that you might ultimately…miss me, Harry.”

Harry had the same sensation he’d felt falling down the stairs toward Malfoy until Dumbledore’s spell caught him; the
short, sharply painful jerk of reaching the end of one’s tether. Only this time the rope broke, and he was free. The
feeling both exhilarated and saddened him. Terrified was somewhere in the mix as well.

“But you…”

“I am handing you your own reins, Harry. Far too soon it will be up to you how you will go on. If you wish to take
Hermione and attempt to run from your fate, I will not stop you.”

The instinctive portion of Harry’s brain – that is to say the most powerful part – sniffed the idea like a wild animal
for several glorious moments, but ultimately rejected it. True freedom did not lie that way. The rest of him groaned and
threatened mutiny. He literally felt torn.

“It is not always…comfortable to have one’s fate handed back, is it Harry? You must take some comfort in knowing that
you have always truly held it, even when it has appeared otherwise. I do not need to fall back on legilimency to
understand the struggle you are feeling. The only advice I can give you is to continue to listen closely to exactly that
part of yourself we have all tried so hard to tame. Hermione calls it your ‘saving people thing,’ Mr. Weasley thinks of
it as bravery. Mr. Malfoy has repeatedly informed you it is idiocy. Professor McGonagall, I believe termed it your
propensity for rewriting the rules. Professor Snape has used less, shall we say polite, terms for it. Still, they are
all identifying the same thing. That which makes you Harry James Potter is that which Voldemort now must fear. ”

“Is this all from studying the window?” Harry asked, when he finally felt his voice wouldn’t betray him.

“Oh, no,” Dumbledore said calmly. “I’ve made it all up myself. You’re not the only one with instincts, Harry. It just
gets harder to turn down the volume on your intellect and hear them when you get old.”

Harry wished desperately for a bludger bat. He just wasn’t entirely sure which one of them he’d use it on.

“While we’re on the topic of instincts…” Dumbledore continued meditatively.

Making the choice so much easier…

“I would think that your need for a dreamkeeper is nearing an end, wouldn’t you?”

“Why?” asked Harry cautiously.

“I should think it obvious. While we have learned that even excellent Occlumency skills will not entirely close off the
connection of your scar, we now know what will.”

“We do?” Harry had no idea where Dumbledore was going with this and was extremely reluctant to follow him there. The
thought of losing Hermione’s comforting nightly presence seemed almost unbearable at the moment. He reasoned that they
could continue to exercise other options in the usual locations hidden throughout the castle that the upper years all
seemed to find for snog-related activity. What he would truly miss would be being able to whisper with her before
falling to sleep and waking under the watchful gaze of those warm brown eyes; the way she always smiled when he first
opened his own… No one had ever been truly pleased that he’d actually survived another night before now. He kind of
liked that, it had come to mean a lot.

“This part I am not making up,” Dumbledore said with a twinkle. “Of course, you haven’t really had a chance to view your
latest contribution to Hogwarts, have you? Come, Harry.”

Dumbledore rose and led the way from his office and through the corridors to the top of the stairs down to the Entrance
Hall. Across the wide expanse of the Hall the rose window gleamed dully, the sun having long passed over the castle. The
classroom corridors were quiet and the stairs empty, although shortly they would be flooded with hungry students. Harry
sensed rather than truly heard a faint, vibratory hum that seemed to emanate from the window itself. As he stood,
watching, it slowly changed pitch several times. He was reminded of something he had seen on television once when Dudley
had not been around to jeer and change the channel; a program about the songs of different kinds of whales.

“Ahh, you hear it,” Dumbledore said with satisfaction. “Not everyone does, it seems.”

Harry truly took in for the first time how changed the window was. It was as if a mask had been lifted; it no longer
looked like the picture Hermione had first shown he and Ron of the Muggle rose window, although a faint resemblance was
there. The center point was now revealed to be a single, opalescent substance set in a collar of carved stone. It was
slightly irregular in shape, not perfectly round, nor perfectly smooth. Its surface seemed to pulse with color and life,
like the play of clouds across a slowly turning sky, and Harry would have sworn that the stone, or whatever substance it
was, turned slowly as well.

Eight circular medallions of what appeared to be stained or colored glass formed a chain around the center, and sixteen
long slender spokes of stone splayed out from their joining points to form the long, narrow outlines of the petals of
the rose. Each of the sixteen petals was composed of what appeared to be innumerable pieces of leaded glass in a myriad
of colors. What differentiated this window most from the earlier one, however, was that in true wizard form the pictures
in the glass seemed to be moving, constantly reshaping an unending series of events. The rounded end of each petal
farthest from the center showed images in sharp focus, events unfolding, while the rest of the shape seemed to contain
records of the past.

One medallion and two petal forms that sprung beyond them were a dark, purplish black and devoid of images, as if
someone had simply removed all source of light. From the end of several lit petal forms two more still sprung outward,
so that if the pattern held true the next row would ultimately contain thirty-two picture chapters, though more than
half were still blank.

“From what I can ascertain so far, Harry, each of the eight medallions is a fully developed world. Ours is but one of
them. The two sets of images that spring from it reveal the best, and the worst, of our history. The four that spring
from those two occur when a marked change in the balance of good and evil is imminent, and play out the history of those
involved. Our world has reached that point, and you, Harry, figure in that story. But look – you are not alone. There
are whole worlds where others struggle on, as well as ours. And worlds where the story has ended. See the one where the
light has been extinguished? Then Aslan said, “Now make an end.” * Think of it all, Harry! See how small Voldemort
really is. But most importantly, see the words that encompass all the worlds.”

Harry squinted. Inscribed in a part of the outer frame were many symbols and runes, and several words in English that
read, “To Heal The Scar Evil Has Wrought In Time The Next Must First Forgive.”

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Harry said, outraged.

“Age old advice.” Dumbledore said calmly.

“I’d rather have Hermione be my dreamkeeper for the rest of my natural life, thanks. No matter how long that may be.
I’ll take my chances with Mr. Mindfu, er, Voldmort.”

“I’m not entirely sure that you have that choice, Harry. I think the point is that you can do it now, and take the
strength of knowing you have moved beyond his power over you into the final battle, or you can continue to struggle with
it for ages after he – or you – is dead and gone.”

“If I’m dead and gone, how can I struggle with it!” Harry forced through clenched teeth.

“Harry, death is but…”

“the next great adventure. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So you’re telling me that one way or another I have to forgive Voldemort to
be free of him even after he’s dead?”

“In a word, yes.”

Harry said a word he wasn’t supposed to in front of the Head Master, followed by “-ing marvelous.”

“I knew that this was not an idea you would obviously embrace with an open mind just yet, Harry. Remember that these are
simply words, the magic lies in their interpretation and the meaning you ultimately assign them. Just know them and be
forearmed.”

“Did you forgive Grindelwald?”

“No, Harry. But you are not me, and you do not know enough about the price I have paid for that to base any decision on
it.”

Students began to stream out of classrooms and pass them going down the stairs to the Great Hall. Harry closed his eyes
and pinched the bridge of his nose beneath his glasses hard. His brain had been swimming before, but now… fate or
philosophy had decidedly issued a loud flushing noise, and he was going down.

“I… I’ll…”

“Why don’t you discuss things with Hermione, Harry. I’m sure she will have some insights for you.” Dumbledore told him
gently. “But first, dinner awaits us!”

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Of course Snape had stupefied him at dinner, and Harry had happily sublimated his feelings about Dumbledore’s
revelations in the flare of his anger at Snape. Now that he was resting in his own bed waiting for Hermione, they rushed
back into the forefront of his weary brain with a vengeance.

“You look like somebody snatched your snitch, mate,” Ron informed him upon his return from brushing his teeth. “What’s
wrong?”

Harry took off his glasses and rubbed at the bridge of his nose again; it had never been quite the same since Ron wailed
on it that morning after he and Hermione had… “Dumbledore dumped a bucketful of philosophical dragon dung on me this
afternoon.”

“Hermione will figure it out for you,” Ron said confidently.

“That’s what I’m afraid of,” Harry admitted. “I’m fairly certain I’m not going to like any of it. In fact, having every
bone regrown with skele-gro sounds less painful.”

Ron appeared disconcerted and shook his head as he climbed into his own bed. “Or you could just shut the hangings, throw
up a silencing charm or four and do whatever you two do.”

Harry snorted. “Ron, you’ve grown. You’ve the emotional range of a soup spoon now.”

“Be happy for me. I’m still better off than you.”

“Your day will come,” said Harry confidently.

“Luna likes me this way,” Ron replied, stretching his considerable length. Professor McGonagall was clearly going to
have to issue an enlarging charm for someone’s bed next year.

“And she always will,” Hermione said, emerging from the invisibility cloak and climbing up beside Harry. “Until it’s the
wrong time of the month and her hormones are rampaging and you just don’t understand the importance relinquishing your
last chocolate frog. Then you’ll find out what love is truly all about, Ronald Weasley.”

“I’m not sure what you’re on about with the wrong month, but I’d split my last chocolate frog with Luna anytime.” Ron
retorted.

“Trust me, Ron. Just give her the whole frog. You’ll live long enough to never regret it.” Harry told him, while
Hermione began closing the hangings.

Ron heard her say, “Harry James Potter. ..” but she didn’t sound angry, and the silence thereafter was of the absolute,
silencio variety. He grinned and drifted off to dreams of his own.

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“So he didn’t actually say, he just sort of suggested it?” Hermione asked him carefully.

She’d known that something was wrong as soon as she’d closed the hangings; his face had given nothing away but his eyes
were wretched.

“What, that I was losing my dispensation to have you here with me, or that I had to bloody forgive bloody effing bloody
Voldemort?” came Harry’s miserable reply from face down in the pillow.

“Er… both, I guess.”

He rolled over. “His exact words on you were something like, ‘I would think your need for a dreamkeeper is nearing an
end, wouldn’t you?’ The Voldemort thing was more along the lines of knowing I wasn’t going to have an open mind and some
rubbish I didn’t understand about assigning my own meaning to the words and being forearmed with them. So no, he never
actually said I had to do either in so many words. But Hermione…”

“I know,” she told him. “I know.”

She lay down as close beside him as she could and felt him turn and gather her into his arms. The feeling as she slid
her own around him was fiercely protective and strong enough to bring tears to her eyes. Stupid, really, when it wasn’t
as if they were being separated or anything, but it seemed so very hard to turn back from the comforting familiarity
that had so quickly grown between them.

It wasn’t so much the physical bit, although that was certainly addicting and she had no intention of going without that
part of him. She had found, though, that being with him had done surprising things for her, as well. She felt calmer,
stronger, more sure of herself in all that she did. He made her laugh more. He knew when to distract her from her
thoughts and when to leave her alone with them. He was considerate and unwavering in his affection; he might not be
hugely demonstrative but she was quite certain that he was pleased with her and not thinking of anyone else.

In short, he made her feel more herself than she had ever been, and she was actually quite proud of the person she saw
in the mirror for a change. If she had to pick a single word to describe it she knew that she would be letting Lavender
and Parvati down. It would have to be content. She was happy, just not the wildly ecstatic happiness that inevitably
seemed to give way to a slide in the other direction that those two described as being in love. What she felt was
deeply, boringly content as if together they were settling in on the porch swing of familiarity. Rocking along gently
with him… and his little friend, the shadow of death.

He was right. If only Voldemort would get out of the bloody way.

“I can’t forgive him, Hermione.”

“Of course you can’t, Harry.” She stroked his cheek gently, watching those fathomless eyes as he took in her words,
waiting trustingly for her to explain it to him. If only she could. “I’m no expert on the subject, but it seems to me
there’s a lifetime’s worth of work there. Voldemort changed your whole life with two words before you were even two
years old. You’re not the sort of person who honestly believes you could just say more words and expect them to change
everything back. It’s like what Bellatrix told you about the cruciatus; words or spells alone have no power. You have to
feel them, to believe in them for them to work. You can’t just arbitrarily forgive Voldemort with words; you’ll have to
fully understand what his influence on your life has meant and be able to say you don’t hold it against him. If you
could honestly manage it now you’d even have to include forgiving him for the possibility of your own death. That’s a
lot to ask of yourself.”

“Then what the hell is Dumbledore asking me to do?” he asked, low and anguished.

It struck her how often he had let slip his ambivalence toward Dumbledore - respect and even love constantly warring
with his doubt over the Head Master’s intentions - yet even now he showed no real sign of wavering in his ultimate
loyalty.

“If I had to guess, Harry, I’d say it was more on the level of advice. That he feels like your final confrontation is
close and he knows that he can’t give you much more to go on with.”

“He told me today that he was giving me my reins, that if I wanted to take you and run away from it he wouldn’t stop
me.”

Hermione snorted and saw his eyes widen and a smile slowly start to form.

“Well, that was romantic. Do you always snort when someone offers to run away from likely death with you?” he asked.

“He only said it because he knew you couldn’t, Harry. Not wouldn’t even, the instinct is so over-developed in you that
it’s truly couldn’t. He’s bloody lucky that way and he knows it. If it was anyone other than you I’d jump at the chance
to…” She stopped, stricken. “That didn’t come out right at all.”

“He also told me to ‘listen closely’ to the part of myself that you think causes the whole ‘saving people thing,’ so
there.” he told her, and stuck out his tongue.

“Well, that’s mature. Tell me, do you always stick out your tongue when you’re trying to convince someone you can
actually defeat the Dark Lord and save magic itself?”

“Only when I already know they’re fond of it?” He was grinning his special grin, the one that she had come to associate
with so many enjoyable things. She could take him up on it, or yank him back to reality to try to find their way further
through the maze of words and ideas that only led to Voldemort in the end.

Forget that.

“So you think I actually like that big slobbering thing in your mouth, do you?” she asked, making a face.

“No, I think you actually like it in yours. Fifty points says so.” He was almost smug. It was cute really.

“I can do a lot of damage with fifty points,” she warned him happily.

“Let’s make it seventy-five then. I’m in the mood for something catastrophic. It’s just not going to be the same up on
the Astronomy tower in January.”

“There’s always the nice warm Burrow at Christmas.”

“Er, I sleep in a curtainless bed less than a meter from Ron’s there, Hermione. And you bunk in with Ginny.”

“Now what am I going to give you for Christmas?” she moaned softly, feigning disappointment. She felt him stir a little
at the sound, or maybe it was the whole idea. Either way things were… looking up. And starting to get friendly, too.

“Don’t worry, Harry,” she murmured into his ear. “Don’t worry about any of it now. It’ll be alright, I promise.” She had
no idea how, but the softening of his lips beneath hers and a compensatory hardening elsewhere were far more compelling
at the moment. They’d deal with it all, later.

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*From C.S. Lewis’ The Chronicles of Narnia: The Last Battle

A/N: If anyone was keeping track, I combined chapters 26 and 27 into one, because of the funky wraparound of Harry’s
day. If it wasn’t clear, Harry met with Dumbledore earlier in the day BEFORE Snape mistook him for being possessed again
at dinner and stunned him. On the positive side, this means that the new chapters will actually start next time with 27,
because I realized the old chapter 28 never got posted before. Hope you enjoy them.

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27. Chapter 27

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

This chapter is dedicated to Sannihun of Sweden – who waited so long. Happy reading!

Here With Me

Chapter 27

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Not only was it a Hogsmeade weekend, but thanks very much to their seemingly endless detention it was also their first
one of the year. Ron had had little difficulty arranging for third or fourth years to secure supplies for them in past
weeks; they were all going to HoneyDukes anyway. Extra incentives had had to be applied to lug books back for Hermione,
but Ron was resourceful that way, and they’d managed. Still, there was nothing like browsing for what you were spending
your money on, and Christmas was now less than a week away.

The air was sharp with the kind of cold that only abated with the first fall of snowflakes; so chilled that snow seemed
to warm it by comparison. The sky was grey but stubbornly holding back. Madam Pomfrey had fussed at first about letting
Harry go in such weather, but in the end even she didn’t have the heart to make him miss his only chance to do some
Christmas shopping. Harry’s grumbled, ‘it was stunner, it’s not like I’ve got the flu or anything’ allowed her to vent
her feelings in a lengthy lecture on the extensive damage he’d put himself through since the year began, which he sat
through in silence but with noticeably rolled and crossed eyes at the appropriate points. Having both played their roles
to completion they went on their separate ways, but Hermione noticed Madam Pomfrey’s subtle pat on his shoulder as she
half pushed him off the examining bed. A stand off had been achieved both sides could live with.

Bundled in their heaviest cloaks, scarves and mittens they set off with the general herd, but shortly broke down into a
smaller group that included Neville, Seamus, Dean, Parvati and Lavender as the journey progressed. Quite soon after that
Hermione noticed Ron seemed to have disappeared from the general chatter and a covert glance over her shoulder found him
several paces behind them, walking along deep in conversation with Luna.

“Don’t look,” whispered Harry, “He hates it when he gets all red in front of her. I can’t wait until he clues in that
she could bloody care less. She’s perfectly norm…, well, reasonably normal in other ways, but he just about walks on
water for her at the moment.”

“Oh, and you’ve never enjoyed that feeling, have you?” she told him. “Let him alone.”

“I missed that phase, you know, and it’s likely to be deeply damaging to me mentally at some point. I just went from
annoying boy friend to annoying boyfriend.”

“I take offense at that Harry Potter,” she told him in mock outrage. “First of all, you’re already so mental who could
tell if there was any more damage, and secondly I think you might just have been happy enough have been able to walk on
water yourself recently. Very recently indeed.”

“Erm,” said Harry, and shut up. Mental yes, complete idiot no longer.

Her hand snuck into his and both grinned companionably at each other.

“You two are truly getting nauseating,” Seamus observed. “Not to mention raising the bar considerably for the rest of us
blokes, Harry. You’re meant to be on our side you know.”

“Yeah, Harry,” echoed Dean “where’s the baiting each other and quibbling? The requisite spats? You’re making us look
bad.”

“Which side is that again?” Harry joked. “I like the view much better from over here, thanks. You ought to give it a
try.”

“Yes,” said Parvati feelingly. “More of you should. Pass the word, will you?”

“To whom,” Seamus asked her with a grin, “ought we be speaking? Give us a name, girl, and we’ll let him know.”

Parvati rolled her lovely eyes, but Lavender perked up and named names. Harry reckoned Seamus and Dean would have a busy
time catching all of them.

They’d reached the outskirts of Hogsmeade by this point and Dean adroitly changed the subject by asking who was heading
where. They began to break up into pairs and singles, agreeing to meet up at the Three Broomsticks for something warming
before heading home. Hermione took off with Parvati and Luna to search for her gifts, leaving Harry with Ron. Lavender
was still bending Dean and Seamus’ ears, so they headed off in the opposite direction.

“Come up with any brilliant ideas for me?” Ron asked, hunching up his shoulders to warm his reddening ears.

“What, for Hermione, or Luna?” Harry asked.

“Both, mate, and cheap.” Ron told him. “Its hell to be broke at Christmas.”

Harry reckoned it was, and not fair, either. For all his worries that was one he hadn’t had, thanks to the forethought
of his Mum and Dad. He didn’t want to be a total arse about it, but thought it worth a try to make the offer anyway.
He’d rather have had his parents then their money, and Ron was awfully good about sharing his.

“Look, Ron,” he said, “I don’t want to put my foot in it or anything, but what if part of my Christmas present to you
this year was to fund whatever you want for Hermione and Luna? No worries then; and it ought to make it lots easier to
find something. It’s not as if you can’t do it or anything, I just thought…”

“That’d be great, Harry,” Ron cut him off gruffly. “Make it the whole present and we’re square. Big relief, that.”

Harry bumped him gently as they walked along. “Deal, then.”

“Deal.” Ron bumped him back, and Harry almost went flying through the window of Coriander’s Cauldrons and Crucibles.

Hmm. Cauldrons. What about a curse on Snape’s cauldron? What if he could fix it so that the slimy git’s potions went
wrong every time for a while? Let him see how it felt. It would likely be next to impossible, but that meant Hermione
could still do it. The thought of the contents of Snape’s cauldron roiling into the perfectly wrong color for once and
exploding more violently then Neville’s ever had filled Harry with a rush of simple joy. Merry Christmas indeed, you
great pile of animated bat dung!

Harry was so happy he thought he could break into song. His Christmas gift to Hogsmeade was that he didn’t.

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For all that girls genuinely seemed to require a great deal more stuff than your average guy to get through life; they
were astonishingly hard to buy for. Ron and Harry were finding it so, anyway.

Harry had never actually found it all that hard to shop for Hermione before; she was usually quite pleased with a
thoughtfully chosen book or something useful for school like an ever-sharp or self-inking quill. This year, however,
things were decidedly different between them and he felt the stakes were upped a bit in terms of getting it right. His
dilemma was deciding between a really, really thoughtfully chosen book, or entering that other frightening end of the
girl gift spectrum, namely jewelry.

One of the things Harry liked best about Wizard shops as opposed to Muggle ones was their individuality; Wizards frowned
on mass production and preferred either ancient objects with a past or ones designed to be singular or personalized by
the user. Even by those standards, however, the shabby little shop at the head of Frogsmarsh Lane in Hogsmeade was
different; you never knew what you were going to find in Serendipity’s Storehouse. It was an entirely useless place to
shop if you had something specific in mind before you went, but if you went in for a spot of browsing the perfect thing
had a way of appearing almost like… well, magic. It was there that he turned now; and there that he dragged Ron as well.

The cheerful old witch who owned the place sat at her usual worn and stuffing-spewing chair behind the ancient till,
knitting and chatting away to a rather bedraggled looking parrot who had the run of the place and liked to comment on
potential purchases. ‘Don’t buy that! It’s poisonous!’ chirped in a disconcertingly perky voice, was a favorite remark,
regardless of the item in hand.

“Help yourselves dearies,” she said without looking up from her needles. “Best to think of the person you’re looking for
while you poke around. Never know what you’ll find in here.”

“There’s more stuff in here than the attics at Grimmauld Place,” Ron whispered to Harry as they set off down one narrow
aisle between piled shelves, “and that’s saying something.”

“Watch yourself,” Harry advised him. “I wasn’t paying attention once and it took me the rest of the afternoon to find my
way back out. Try what she said, though, and think of Luna while you walk around. It’s worked for me before. I found
that replacement bishop for your chess set here fourth year, and we both thought that was impossible.”

They browsed about for twenty minutes, never straying far from each other, when Harry found it. It was in a box of odds
and ends that seemed to have been cleared out of someone’s sewing drawer; there was a packet of needles, a variety of
buttons and an ivory button hook, and a small silver object in the shape of a book, not more than two and half
centimeters square. He lifted it gingerly with his fingers to find it was attached to an intricate silver chain. A small
clasp kept it closed and he wondered if he dared open it.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained; it looked as if it could be quite nice if it was cleaned up and Hermione would love
it. He just needed to make sure it didn’t have a picture of Hitabel the Hideous pasted inside, or some disfiguring curse
waiting for the next wearer. Wincing, he flicked open the little clasp and the covers fell open.

Several seconds later when nothing untoward had happened he resumed breathing and opened his eyes to examine it closer.
There were tiny oval openings in both the interior front and back covers, clearly fashioned to hold small photos like a
locket, and a reef of real bound parchment pages in between. The pages were so small Harry couldn’t imagine they were
meant for anything but to maintain the illusion of a book, but when he gently ruffled them with his finger he felt the
subtle electric tickle of magic and they fell free of the book onto the shelf below. There was the briefest of hissing
noises, and they enlarged to a notepad about the size of his extended palm. He picked them up cautiously and thumbed
through each one; the last bore the explanation he was searching for.

It was a lover’s locket, meant for communication between a socially discouraged couple, small enough to be passed back
and forth and charmed so that it could only be open and read buy the two whose pictures were kept inside the front and
back covers.

He closed his eyes and concentrated on the locket itself in his hand; it felt benign enough to him, but he reckoned he
could get Bill Weasley to check it for him Christmas Eve. He’d be without a gift if it was cursed and Bill couldn’t
break it, but he couldn’t help thinking that it was too perfect for Hermione, too exactly what he wanted to give her to
have anything really wrong with it. It was more than a book, more than just jewelry, and just right for someone who was
so much more than just a girl. And Merlin know Voldemort had already used up his diary, so it couldn’t be his!

He placed the too-large pages back between their covers and they shrunk back down to their original miniature size to
fit neatly back inside. He closed the little latch again, curling his fingers around it with a grin and setting off in
search of Ron.

He found him in the very next aisle of shelving over, staring with a perfectly incredulous expression at the item before
him. Harry moved cautiously closer and stared round his shoulder.

“Just what,” he asked, “is that…thing?”

It looked like a rock. Not a particularly attractive rock, either, but a sort of wound-up-like-a-snake ugly rock. Only
when Harry looked closer and poked it gingerly with his outstretched finger he realized in wasn’t a rock at all. It was
lighter and smoother and when rocked on the shelf made a partially hollow sound.

Recognition dawned. “You were thinking about Luna when you found it, right?” he asked.

Ron nodded numbly. “And once I saw it, it was like I couldn’t look away. I kept trying to look at other stuff, really I
did. There were some nice hair thingies over there, she’s got gorgeous hair, really, but it was like my eyes wouldn’t
focus on anything else…”

Harry laughed. “You realize what you’ve found, Ron? I could be wrong, but knowing this place I doubt it. I’ll bet you a
year’s supply of chocolate frogs that that, my friend, is the horn of a Crumple-Horned Snorkack.”

Ron looked skeptical. “I thought Hermione said they weren’t real.”

Harry shrugged. “Maybe they just haven’t shown up in a book yet. Maybe they’re shy. Maybe they’re extinct. Even if
Luna’s father made them up completely, I’m still willing to bet he’d say that’s what that is.”

“So you’re saying I should actually get it?” Ron said. “Are you daft?”

“It says you believe in her. It says you don’t think she’s loony Luna. It says you’re willing to take a chance to make
her happy.” Harry told him.

Ron wasn’t ready to be convinced just yet. “What if she thinks it’s awful, what if they killed it for the horn or
something?”

“What if two male Snorkacks locked horns fighting for a female Snorkack and it came off that way? Sacrificed for love.
That’s probably a very potent potion ingredient right there.”

“Harry, you need to come up for air more when you snog. It’s affecting your brain.” Ron laughed. “It’s ugly as sin.”

“That’s the thing about Luna, though. The best thing. She doesn’t care what things look like, she cares who or what they
are. Do it, Ron. I have a very good feeling about this.” Harry told him.

“Well, at least I can blame it completely on you if it goes wrong,” Ron conceded.

“And snog your way to glory without mentioning me once if it doesn’t. What’s there to lose?”

Ron picked it up and turned it over, examining it. “It does look sort of crumpled….”

“Come on, then.” Harry led the way to the front of the shop where the old witch was still knitting away and chatting up
the obviously bored parrot. Its beady black eye fixed on Harry and Ron with the consuming interest of the sole survivor
of a shipwreck marooned for months alone at sea.

“Whatcha got? Whatcha got? Whatcha got?” it squawked, walking carefully along to the edge of its perch.

The witch set her knitting on her chair and made her way to the counter. “Any luck then, boys?”

“We’ll take these, please,” Harry told her, nodding to Ron to give her the horn and setting down the locket. Ron groaned
when he saw it.

“That looks normal enough,” he said. “How is it that you something like that, which Hermione will love, by the way, and
I end up with this?”

“If it’s lockets you want, young man, there’s plenty to be found. I’ve got a good lot of them right here,” the old witch
informed Ron kindly. She reached beneath the counter to remove a faded velvet tray and set it before him. Lockets of
every shape and size and material flashed and winked at them, far outshining Harry’s little silver book. Ron appeared
mesmerized. Some had gemstones set in them; some were inscribed with initials or runes.

The witch’s twisted old fingers sorted through them, straightening their chains and setting them apart from each other.
Harry had just noticed something oddly familiar about a heavy-looking old gold one with an elaborate S engraved on it
when his scar burst into brilliant aching flames of pain, the sharpest it had ever hurt since Voldemort had stolen his
blood to reclaim a human form. He reeled back from the counter, doubling over and trying rather desperately not to be
sick.

“Harry?” Ron crouched down beside him. “Mate? Is it…”

Harry nodded and scrabbled in his robes, handing Ron his money bag.

“Pay,” he gasped. “I’ll meet you outside. It’s okay. I don’t think it means he’s close.”

He stumbled through the door of the shop, the bell tinkling madly behind him. It had begun to snow while they were
inside, and he lifted his face up to the sky, half expecting to hear the snow flakes hiss when they struck his scar. It
was so much better out here; in fact it was almost…gone. It was gone.

He wheeled around and pressed his face to the glass of the door, watching Ron counting out the galleons and sickles as
the witch wrapped their purchases in scrap paper and tied them off with bits of string. The velvet tray was still on the
counter and he could see the lockets displayed on it. Where had he seen the one with the S before? It wasn’t recently;
he didn’t seem to remember anyone wearing it. It was very ornate and obviously old, not the sort of thing Hogwarts girls
wore at all, and he couldn’t really see a teacher in it either. It was hardly Professor Sprouts’ style, and though
Professor Sinistra’s name began with S as well Harry was sure he’d never seen anything like it on the astronomy teacher.
Of course, it had been dark most of the time… No, he’d very definitely seen that somewhere before in the light of day.

He was fairly certain that something about that locket had set his scar aflame, and he wished desperately that he knew
what it was.

Ron emerged through the door, the cries of the parrot squawking “Nevermore! Nevermore!” like a demented raven following
him.

“Bloody bird. Are you all right, then?” Ron handed Harry his money bag and the smaller of the two packages.

“Yeah. I don’t know… did any of those lockets look familiar to you?”

“Nope. They all looked like a better present than this stupid horn, though.”

“Did you ask her about it? The horn.”

“Looked at me like an idiot when I did. ‘It’s from a Crumple Horned Snorkack, of course!’ she says. Came from Sweden and
everything.”

“Well, there you are. Your Christmas snog is assured, so long so you don’t put your foot in it. Now what in Hogsmeade
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They completed the rest of their shopping in significantly less time than it had taken to find their first gifts. The
twins were generally easy enough, Bill and Charlie undemanding, Mr. and Mrs. Weasley fairly conventional in their
desires. Harry split off from Ron for the last bit it so that he could find something for him, promising to meet up
again at the Three Broomsticks at the appointed time.

The Quidditch supplies in Hogsmeade were usually slimmer pickings by far than Quality Quidditch in Diagon Alley, but
Harry found a book he’d never seen before, quite new from the look of it. “17 Spells to Supercharge the Older Model
Broom: How to Get Firebolt Speed and Response from Your Cleansweep 5 and Above” had Ron written all over it; and his was
even a Cleansweep 11. The spells all made sense to Harry and looked as if they just might work if you got the
combinations right. At least Ron could have fun trying it out. He was amused at the thought of giving Ron the book this
year and Hermione something else altogether, but that was just the sort of year it was turning out to be.

He bought Ginny a small, marble-sized glass ball that looked like a cross between Neville’s Rememberall and Mad Eye
Moody’s foe-glass and was meant to be just that, it was advertised as an “Intention Indicator.” The spell sheet that
went along with it explained that if you wore it against your skin, it would change color from it’s natural green (which
he thought would look pretty enough for her to not mind wearing, very becoming to her coloring) to a stormy red if
someone directly in contact with you was harboring malign thoughts.

He hoped that she was done with Malfoy, but he’d seen the sort of helpless, moth-to-a-flame look she’d had for him and
remembered keenly her belief that there was something worth saving there. Harry couldn’t agree less, but if she felt
compelled to keep trying at least this would warn her off if he was right. He was still desperately torn about what had
happened and felt vaguely at fault although he’d done nothing, as far as his mental reconstruction of the whole thing
could reveal, to encourage her feelings when it came to him in the first place. Except be an oblivious git, which ought
to have been off-putting rather than attracted her. Perhaps she really did have a saving people thing too, and that was
the connection she felt?

Harry shoved the whole thing mentally into a corner and speeded his steps back toward the comfort of Hermione. He was
battling the by now more determined snowflakes and dodging many a shopped-out Hogwarts student along the lane to the
Three Broomsticks when his eye caught just a flash of something in a window and he slowed, then came to a halt.

It was an apothecary and potions supply shop, and at first he thought his weary brain had obediently worked its way back
to a convenient curse for Snape’s cauldron, but as he thought about it he knew he’d still need Hermione’s help for that.
They’d covered cauldron issues and how to guard yourself from them early on this year at the NEWT level, and Harry, as
was so often the case, had simply been too preoccupied with some other pressing danger in his life at the time to pay
sufficient attention.

So what was he looking for, then?

There was a display of “Magically Useful and Most Potent Objects” in the window, bezoars and fire-crab shells in a
variety of sizes, great nuggets of amber, lumps of obsidian, stalagmites of hand grown crystals in a wide range of
colors and stages. His eye had caught a collection of small geodes and nodules, though, none bigger than a snitch. The
rocky exterior looked ordinary enough, the sort of thing you’d kick along a path without a second look, but the ones
that were split open already revealed a remarkable variety of colors and types of crystals within. There were common
quartz, amethyst and calcite ones priced quite cheaply; and even Harry knew that they were called for, ground and
pulverized, in a variety of basic enough potions.

There was also a larger wooden crate in the back of the display, packed with straw and containing much bigger whole
ones, each labeled individually as to their provenance and predicted contents. It was toward these Harry felt his
attention inextricably drawn like a magnet. His face pressed against the freezing glass, eyes searching amongst the
spidery writing, for what he was not sure. His heart seemed to be beating slightly faster and every instinct he had told
him there was something there he was meant to understand…

Agate Creek and Monto and Murgon in Queensland; Narrabri, Boggabri, Merriwah, Werris Creek and Bellata in New South
Wales. Some were from watery areas, some from mountains; but all were labeled as “naturally created” and their uses
limited to potions. The last two were different; one was called a “thunder egg” and was said to have been created within
volcanic rock, the other was called “dragon’s breath” and explained to have been formed by an existing nodule being
superheated while lying in the path of a dragon’s flamestrike.

The thunder egg was already split to reveal a star-shaped interior filled with long crystalline projections; beautiful,
but not what Harry was looking for. Not that he knew what he was looking for, mind you, so what was he thinking? The
dragon’s breath nodule was still whole, and Harry’s desire to know what its interior looked like was almost
overwhelming. He reckoned that this must be what most wizards felt like under the Imperius curse, and his helpful little
voice didn’t seem to be kicking in, either. He looked to the bottom of the tag beside it for the price and almost cried.

250 galleons? For a rock??

He dragged himself away from the window, determined to find out what was so bloody special about a Dragon’s Breath geode
that would require one to fork over 250 galleons for it. Why he actually really, really wanted to was going to be harder
to address; he was unlikely to find that answer in any book.

Thank goodness for Hermione, then. In so many, many ways.

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The trip home turned out to be great fun. A nice warm butterbeer or two had restored most of the energy Christmas
shopping had drained from them, and the snow was sticking now and layering itself insistently ever deeper on the ground.
There were snowball fights amongst the boys and a great deal of snow shoved down warm necks under scarves for the girls.
Harry learned Hermione could throw a snow ball as well as any boy after he’d managed to get a bit down the actual neck
of her cloak as well, and hence in a nice cold drip down her spine.

“You are so in trouble, Harry Potter!” she warned him, biting her lip to hold back a squeak as the wet back of her shirt
touched skin again. “That was absolutely freezing.”

“That was the point,” he told her, and grinned.

“Speaking of points, then, that’s going to cost you,” she informed him primly. “I’m going to be calling in, oh, at least
thirty in retaliation,” she said in a much softer voice, for him alone.

“Oh, I’m so scared,” he whispered back. “Anything but that! You’re too good to me, Mistress.”

“Now there’s a thought,” was all she said.

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Inspired, perhaps, by the snow settling over the castle and the knowledge that roughly half the student population had
spent the day in Hogsmeade Christmas shopping, the house elves outdid themselves at dinner. There was hot soup and a
warming lamb stew with fresh rolls for sopping up their bowls, and warm apple cobbler for afters. Ron looked happy
enough to sleep right there on the bench at the Gryffindor table, and he was not alone. All across the Great Hall
students (and not a few teachers) gave happy sighs of complete satiation as they rose from their seats.

Harry was taking Dumbledore’s suggestion that he had outgrown his need of Hermione as dream keeper as starting with the
new week, meaning Monday. None of the boys knew one way or the other; indeed, none of them seemed to mind her presence
now in the slightest so he saw no reason to push the issue. He’d expected some at least token resistance about following
the intent if not the word of the ruling from the ex-prefect in Hermione, but the fact that none was forthcoming when he
mentioned it to her was chuffing indeed. It was nice to know she was looking forward to their imminent separation as
little as he was.

They parted as always at the split landing of the stairs. Harry began heading up the stairs to the boys’ dormitories
behind Ron when he heard a distinct throat-clearing behind him. He turned to find Hermione still on the landing.

“What?” he asked.

She motioned him down the steps, and he had to dodge two third year boys to make it.

“If we’re going to make this look legitimate to anyone else at all,” she whispered, “we’re going to have to start acting
like a normal couple would.”

Bloody hell, as Ron would have so aptly put it. What did that mean? What did normal couples at Hogwarts do that they
weren’t? He glanced out over the common room trying to look as if he’d understood perfectly but was just checking if
he’d left anything vital in a room he hadn’t effectively been in at all in the last twelve hours. As he did, his eyes
glanced (as quickly as they could) off of Lavender Brown, lip locked with Cormac McLaggen of all people. Ewwww.

He glanced back at Hermione, but as he did, her meaning became clear. Cormac and Lavender were hardly about to… nope. Go
away! Merlin, his brain was repulsed at the mere thought of the two of them kissing. Anything else was too deeply blech
to consider. Mental spit. Anyway, they weren’t likely going to see each other again once they went up stairs, as both of
them were essentially too lazy to go to the trouble of putting on an act for anyone else if they were just going to
sneak out later. That, and the fact that Lavender was on the vain side and like to look her best; she wasn’t going to
wash off her make up and put on pajamas warm enough to cope with Hogwarts in winter in if she was due to be meeting
someone. So they were kissing good night. And Hermione thought it would look suspicious if they parted without kissing
good night as well!

How did things get so complicated? Harry thought, as three fourth year girls sidled past them and continued on up the
girls’ stairs. This must have been going on forever, year after year, how come he’d never noticed a thing when he was in
third or fourth or fifth? There was an unspoken rule about minding your manners in front of the firsties and seconds,
but the prefects left well enough alone after that. The only apparent answer was he’d just been oblivious; it was a hard
thing to disprove given his general obliviousness to other even more obvious things. It was another of those
wand-pocket-in-the-curtains moment when Hermione explained the finer points of Hogwarts for him.

There was, therefore, a healthy dose of gratitude mixed with his desire when he kissed her then, and it must have
showed. The fourth years broke out into wolf whistles from the top of the stairs. Surprisingly good ones, considering
they were girls. Harry felt himself blush, but kissed her once more to cover it.

“See you later?” he whispered.

“Count on it,” was her reply.

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A/N: And that, beloved readers, was the first of the long overdue new chapters of this story. To be quite honest, when
HBP came out and I started MND, the attempted endings I wrote to this reflected the angst of the times. The first was a
sort of comedy, where Harry woke up with Hermione by his side and realized all the events of Half Blood Prince were all
just a very, very bad dream. The others were equally reactionary. I’m really glad now that I waited until I finished MND
to update this, because I see things MUCH more calmly through my self-induced rose-colored glasses and I can actually
work my mental way back to where they were here. Now I can see more of this story finishing out Harry’s sixth year in a
happily AU universe where some things are the same, and others (like the monster in Harry’s chest) just never happen. So
that’s pretty much the scope of things if you’re interested, and fair warning where this is going. It looks like this
could well cover the whole second half of Harry’s sixth year. Horcruxes will (obviously! Bad Mundungus Fletcher! Naughty
Aberforth Dumbledore! ) be discovered and come in to play, but the lessons of the Rose Window are clearly not finished,
especially where Harry is concerned and will play a large part as well. Voldemort will re-exert his influence and new
stuff will happen. Hope you enjoy if you choose to stay and read. I am re-posting the original first three chapters to
this story over the next several days as well, if you’d care to read those. We’ll rejoin things up in the sixth year
boys dorm next time.

Thanks!

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28. Chapter 28

Official Fine Print: Nope. Not mine. The brainchildren of the mighty pen of JK Rowling. Just playing with them. Honest.

Here With Me

Chapter 28

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The following morning was quite thankfully a Sunday; and while Hermione had her usual strict schedule of reading,
revising and getting ahead on her homework planned, even she could allow herself the rare luxury of a lie in with only
one day of classes this week. They left for the Burrow day after tomorrow, and Christmas was the next day. She poked her
head out of the curtains of Harry’s bed to find a silence so deep it seemed almost unnatural. Even Ron wasn’t honking
away in the next bed; he appeared too completely relaxed to snore. Or perhaps he was dreaming of Luna… If that worked,
Luna’d have won herself the undying admiration of four other boys as well. Outside the window the snow fell on thickly,
obscuring the sky.

She pulled the curtain closed again and snuggled back into the warm comfort that was Harry behind her. He’d been spooned
against her back when she moved; now as she settled herself into him carefully, seeking out exactly the right alignment
for maximum heat transfer, his arm closed around her and he made a small, unconscious sound of relief. Hermione fitted
her own arm over his, sealing the bargain of their contentment.

Bloody school rules.

She could entirely see the reason for them if you were Lavender Brown and Cormac McLaggen and the whole point of the
exercise was figuring out who you could do it with and what you were actually doing and what other people thought about
it you doing it. She’d listened to enough of Lavender’s end of things to know she was trying out as many boys as she
could so that she wouldn’t regret things when she settled down to just one. At least her ultimate goal was
semi-admirable, although it made Hermione’s head spin to think of doing it that way.

She felt very differently (and quite sure) about what she was doing with Harry, and she was deeply regretting now the
idea of returning to the more normal confines of a sixth year relationship. She knew the logic of it, could hear exactly
the words the adults in charge of them might use if they were to speak of it (which she dearly hoped they weren’t, but
felt had to have been inevitable, at least between Professor Dumbledore and Professor McGonagall. Her skin crept at the
thought.)

Was it normal, though, to be their age and to know such uncertainty about what the future held for you? At least it was
uncertainty on her part; Harry had the fairly inevitable shadow of Voldemort’s hatred hanging over him still. She knew
that he thought it inescapable and she felt sure that knowledge still colored everything he did now. Part of her, the
part that was now settling her spine slightly more insinuatingly against his chest and allowing her hips to shift back
into his, was increasingly sure that they would have found themselves together like this one way or another even without
the opportunity being his dream keeper had afforded. A clock was ticking ever more insistently over his head; it seemed
only right somehow to drown out the sound with something more.

His lips had come to slow life on the back of her neck and every nerve in her body was awaking underneath them, running
a relay race to tell each other that he was awake, that he was touching her there, and there and there. She could feel
the evidence of his wanting her both in every touch and his steadily growing presence against the small of her back. As
much as she loved the wicked private humor that had sprung up between them, there were equally times like this when the
very idea of laughing at that sensation seemed irretrievably distant and juvenile now. It had begun to strike her on
such occasions as too incredibly precious to waste a moment of him even to laughter, when the future might equally hold
the eternal absence of him against her there, like that.

She rolled over in his arms then and tried to tell him so, how singular and lovely and irreplaceable every inch of skin,
every thrum of pulse, every instinctual movement and sound he made was to her. It was hell to think of losing him, ever;
it would be heaven to be able to simply give herself over to him without imagining the bitter taste of loss one day upon
her lips. She lived now to sense for that moment when the rest of his preoccupations all fell away from him as they came
together, when she managed to draw him so certainly into their private cocoon of touch that the only thing he really
cared about was where the next one would come and what it would feel like and how he could mimic its sensation back for
her.

Harry had proved surprisingly adept at that; she wondered if they were usual or not, if the slow, slow dance they’d
begun to favor lately to draw each other out was something that everyone did, or not. She had nothing to compare it to,
wanted nothing to compare it to, felt certain nothing ever could. She knew somehow it would be held against her to think
that way, chalked up to her youth. She shoved violently away the knowledge of how she would be counseled to set those
memories aside if anything happened to him; to move on, accept what else life had to offer. How could she? How could
anyone? Would they tell Molly Weasley to do that if Arthur died now? Age was an indicator of maturity in all but the
heart; hers felt as if it had grown well past her numerical years, stretched and full of him.

Had any part of Lily’s love left in Harry been born of the certain knowledge that James was already dead? Had it been
any different to give up her own life for her young son knowing that? Hermione thought it diminished nothing from the
gift of it but brought her suddenly closer to Lily and the decision she had made, closer to understanding why exactly
her love had been so destructive to Voldemort as it suffused through Harry’s veins. Perhaps it was not after all the
magic of her love alone; a mother’s love for her child, but by extension the equally old magic that was a family, love
made flesh and whole.

It must have taken tremendous faith in magic itself to believe Harry would be protected without her, and tremendous love
for James for Lily to follow him even into death and in doing so leave Harry to that precious protection. If any one of
the parts of the triangle had been less strong, might the magic have failed?

The thought brought a new, more electric urgency to her need to join with him somehow, her imperative need for that
sense of being whole he brought with him. And being Harry, her lovely Harry; when her movements became almost blind and
frantic against him with all her wild thoughts of love and loss lurching around her brain, allowed his own mind shut
down and instead of questioning her simply took up his part in their coupling, stilling and soothing her with the
strength and weight and insistent movement she craved.

She had never felt quite this way before. She was neither truly the instigator nor the aggressor, because both of those
indicated a degree of self control she couldn’t begin to claim and he was meeting her every move. There were vague,
half-formed notions of claiming him, marking him indelibly as her own before they were forced further apart, of burning
herself into his memory so that there were no possible questions left unanswered when it came to how she felt. She
spurred him on; pinned firmly against the bed by the desperately controlled rocking of his hips and caged by the arms on
which he balanced himself above her she could still manage the use of both her lips and fingers. She touched and stroked
every particularly responsive or sensitive stretch of skin she knew or could find over and over, in tandem and then
counterpoint to each other, lips and fingers, fingers and lips until he was almost as far gone as she was, his breath
coming in fast, tender sobs against her neck.

He found his voice when she had thought it long gone, the sound of his words like the sweetest, most perfect pressure
placed with perfect rhythm in just the perfect place.

“Hermione,” he begged softly, his head hanging close to her ear. “please, what? Tell me… I want to…anything… let me…
tell me what… you need.”

“That,” she told him; bearing down to hold herself together just when everything inside her gave way. “Just that,” she
whispered back into his neck, feeling the pounding of his heart in the vein beneath her lips. “You,” she said, and he
was just as lost as she, and it was beyond everything to be able to hold him safe while he fell too, because she knew it
was never going to be quite that way again.

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There were thankfully now only two more nights before they left for the Burrow, and only one full day of classes. The
nights were some of the loneliest of Harry’s life; endless, miserable toss-and-turn affairs free of bad dreams mostly
because they were free of sleep. He could not get comfortable without Hermione. The bed was too big now, too cold; too
empty by far and his pillow still smelled like her. It was maddening. The day of classes was marginally better, mostly
because he slept though it.

Since it was something of a secret that Harry was being allowed to the Burrow for Christmas in the first place he wasn’t
allowed to join the other students in their leave taking or on the Express. In the interest of not being entirely
obvious about revealing his holiday location to the Death Eaters, Ron and Ginny were to take the train and be picked up
in Kings Cross, while Harry and Hermione were set to portkey in that evening. This last was only because Harry had
insisted on Hermione remaining there with him; he’d had to point out that the two of them were a pretty well known fact
now amongst the Slytherins most likely to report home to Death Eater parents and they could no longer act as thought it
didn’t matter. She was as good a target alone without him now as with; there was less safety in separation then ever
before. He was significantly less forthcoming about revealing his secondary reason, which was that he bloody well wasn’t
going to spend the whole day stuck here alone without her.

So it was that Ron made his good byes with a grin at the thought of what the two of them could get up to in a day mostly
alone in the castle, and joined the throng heading out into the still falling snow to Hogsmeade with Luna and Ginny. It
took Harry’s returned grin and Hermione’s subtle thumbs up for him to realize his opportunities were almost as bright.

They turned together to climb the stairs, but their thoughts must have been a beacon entirely too evident because they
found Dumbledore before them with a face rather tired and serious for the start of holidays and a request that they join
him in his office.

Harry felt his cautious happiness pricked, and settled back to earth.

Once settled in Dumbledore’s rooms and having refused lemon drops and accepted hot cocoa, they were treated to the issue
at hand. It left them both reeling.

“I know it would be kinder to save this talk for after the holidays,” Dumbledore began, “but I have had to learn some
hard lessons these last few years, and one of them has proved to be that much as it saddens me, it does not benefit
either of us to be kind to you, Harry.”

“No,” said Harry, remembering the results of Dumbledore’s past kindnesses. “I reckon not.”

“I have spoken to both of you separately about the connection of the window awakening and the second prophecy, but it is
time, I think, for us all to put our heads together to good use. Have you come to any conclusions, either of you, of
what it is the prophecy refers to?”

Hermione, as was her nature, jumped to the challenge with a line by line exposition.

“’When the wheel of life spins once more a lion scarred by death itself will rise, who speaks the language of snakes and
bears the fangs of a dragon.’ That’s Harry, isn’t it? A Gryffindor for the lion, and his scar coming from surviving the
Avada Kedavra. He’s a parselmouth, and Charlie sent him the dragon fang this summer.”

“It says fangs,” pointed out Harry hopefully, “and I’ve only got the one. Maybe it’s not me.”

Dumbledore and Hermione both shot him a long look and he sighed, waving her on.

“‘He will follow its path to begin his journey and he will strike down an immortal evil where it lies five times, but
the sixth time he will find it within himself.’ ‘Its path’ must mean the window, surely. It’s turning, slower than the
earth butstill clearly moving with time, and the riddle the sorting hat told us talked about how it was ‘Obscured from
those who seek in wrath, But waiting on the righteous path.’ I took that to mean it had been hidden from those who
sought to use the events unfolding there to do evil things, but if you went looking for honest reasons you’d find it.
Only, that didn’t happen. Or did it?”

Harry reckoned that Hermione confused was one of the world’s cuter things; the sheer rareness of it and the little
furrow between her eyes…

She kicked his ankle hard enough to put an end to that thought.

“Ow. How would I know?”

“You were just the one who did it, after all,” she told him.

“Well, I was more hacked off than anything the first time, and then it was just a window, wasn’t it? It didn’t really
show us anything until the spell hit it when we were fighting off Voldemort.”

“And there was the difference, Harry,” Dumbledore pointed out. “The first time you were indeed wrathful, although not
without good intentions, and you weren’t actually seeking it. Clearly, though, you or something about you was the
trigger to uncovering it. The next time, you were using a spell intended not to kill but to banish evil. Had Voldemort
not been malicious, the spell you choose would have been harmless. It was a righteous choice, and it connected and
reacted with an obscure timespell. We have accepted that this returned the window to normal but I wonder if we aren’t
making a rather large assumption. How do we know if the window ever revealed such secrets before? Was it moving when it
was hidden so long ago, or did you in fact actually set it motion?”

Hermione’s eyes glowed; clearly that particular thought had not occurred to her before.

“It just says ‘He will follow its path to begin his journey.’ It might well not have been moving at all before then! But
what does that mean? And what about the part where ‘he will strike down an immortal evil where it lies five times, but
the sixth time he will find it within himself.’ Is Voldemort an ‘immortal evil’ because he didn’t truly die when he
tried to kill Harry? Do the five times mean the five years he’s been here at Hogwarts, and the sixth this year when
Voldemort possessed him?”

It was here Dumbledore let out a sigh of his own.

“Alas, I wish it were, Hermione, but I have become increasingly certain it is not, tempting though that explanation is.
I’m afraid the answer is a far darker thing, and puts Harry back at the beginning of his journey rather than nearing the
end.”

Harry felt as if he’d been punched. One of Vernon’s particularly vicious sucker punches; unexpected and below the belt.
His stomach lurched, and his brain screamed ‘No way! I am NOT starting this all over!’”

“How?” was what he managed to get out. They both looked at him somewhat anxiously and Dumbledore’s hand twitched,
refilling his cocoa.

“The answer lies in the history and science of magic. It is not, as you know, simply wand waving and wish fulfillment.
There is a responsibility that comes with this greater gift we are allowed, and without upholding that responsibility we
are a long way from being any better than the Muggles that so out number us; indeed we would be lower and baser by far,”
he said thoughtfully. He sat back in his ancient, creaking chair and steepled his fingers in his beard beneath his chin.
Harry got the feeling for a moment or two that he was seeing another room entirely, or recalling another conversation.
Or both.

“We have the capacity to do wonderful things, but I myself believe our numbers are shrinking and our world is in turmoil
because we have responded to the fear of those who do not understand us with fear ourselves. Throughout history the
witch hunts, the dunkings and beatings and burnings, the outright killing of innocent witches and wizards because their
abilities were either feared or envied, has caused us not to seek to explain ourselves but to turn inside ourselves like
wounded children, to shut ourselves amongst our own kind and let the feelings fester. It is there Grindelwald and
Voldemort have found their footholds amongst us.”

Holy hell, thought Harry. That made frightening sense, even to him. He’d never associated himself or his magic with that
particular part of history. He’d learned it in Muggle school after all; History of Magic at Hogwarts focused on magical
uprisings, Goblin rebellions and the like. It skirted the issues Dumbledore raised here entirely. To be hated, hunted,
killed because you were magical… he knew the Wizarding world hid itself because the Muggles feared and didn’t understand
magic, but he’d forgotten all about the history between them before the separation had occurred. It made sense – sad,
twisted sense, but sense none the less – of some of the pureblood hatred of Muggles. Not just for the differences
between them now, but the fear and mistrust of the past.

“I believe,” said Dumbledore, “that Voldemort long ago set out on a path so wicked and twisted that were it left
undiscovered and uncorrected, it would surely mean either the end of our world or magic on earth as we know it. It took
intelligence and power to uncover what he needed; and great evil and resolve to carry out. And because of the prophecy
that foretold the birth of one who could put an end to it, you, Harry, became a part of it. I still maintain it could
have just as well been Neville or in fact could have meant another altogether, and it is important you understand that,
Harry. It was not the force of magic at work that night; it was the will and choice of a magical man. There is a
difference.”

Splitting hairs, as far as Harry was concerned. Greasy ones, since it was Snape that clued Voldemort in to it.

“When Lord Voldemort descended on your parents’ house that night, Harry, he had not been Tom Riddle in a very long
while. He was no longer human, a precious gift we bear along with our magic. He had cast that gift aside, rendered it
along with his soul. He entered your house with only a shred of his own soul left, and he meant to use killing you that
night to ensure what he perceived to be true immortality.”

Harry was lost. He saw that Hermione was rapt, but confused as well.

“There is a creation of dark magic so perverse you will not find its name in any book in Hogwarts, Hermione. Not even in
the restricted section. Much as they have with Voldemort himself, wizards sought to deny its existence by refusing to
acknowledge it or speak its name. And like all attempts to hide from evil, it has come back to haunt us with a
vengeance. It is called a horcrux, and I fear Voldemort has made not just one, but six of them.”

“What is it then, some sort of weapon? And why does he need six of them?” Harry asked, uncertain he actually wanted
there to be an answer.

“And what sort of weapon,” mused Hermione, “ensures immortality? What kind of weapon can never be turned on its
creator?”

“The kind that is nothing less than its creator. A horcrux is a truly accursed object. The wizard who creates it uses
the premeditated evil of the murder of another to rip apart his own soul. At the moment of separation, the torn portion
is pulled from the body and implanted within a prepared vessel. The hiding place can be anything; hollow or solid, large
or small, valuable as gold or apparently worthless as an old, used book.”

Harry stomach took another hit; he knew.

“That wasn’t a memory of Tom Riddle I fought with in the Chamber,” he choked out. “It was really him.”

Dumbledore nodded grimly, but his eyes were watching Harry avidly now. “Yes. Exactly my thought, Harry. I have been
puzzling away at the magic of that for years now, and a horcrux is the only true answer that accounts for it. A journal
could be cursed, but a curse alone could not have forced Miss Weasley to undertake all that she did, or brought you face
to face with the young man you fought. The way that you described him in such detail made me sure he was no mere memory.
It was more than likely the very first horcrux he made. Ginny Weasley was possessed by a portion of the soul of Lord
Voldemort as surely as you were, Harry, and he walked among us all that time without our knowing.”

Harry felt cold and dizzy by turns as his mind tried to accept and integrate this new information; Hermione’s warm hand
creeping into his own amongst the folds of his robes was the only thing that grounded him.

“But it was so different, with Ginny…”

“There are several important events that account for that difference, Harry. When you first met Lord Voldemort in the
back of Professor Quirrell’s head, what you saw there was a type of possession as well. It was a parasitic relationship;
Voldemort’s unembodied soul was living off Professor Quirrell, and his one goal at that time was to regain a body of his
own. He sought the Philosopher’s Stone not for immortality, which he had already achieved, but to use it to regain his
strength and a corporeal body with it. Your touch was his undoing from his host, but his soul fled unharmed.

What you met in the Chamber was indeed Lord Voldemort, Harry, but a different portion of him. It was the true Lord
Voldemort in Quirrell’s head; the portion of his soul that fled his mortally wounded body the night the killing curse
rebounded from you to him. It later took up residence in Quirrell during his wanderings in Albania and came back here
with him. What you saw in the Chamber was a portion of his soul torn from himself years before and stored within the
pages of the diary. A horcruxed soul is not a true soul; it is nothing more than a portion of a true soul’s essence.

It is possible for a mad and powerful wizard to make a cheat at Godliness by tearing his soul through murder, but only
love has been blessed by our creator as a source of true life; only two souls coming together in the act of procreation
can create a new soul amongst us. The hope and intent of that, I am sure, was to nurture that soul’s creation in what is
best about us, our one true image of that creating force. Unselfish love for another. In violating that, Voldemort has
set all that created us against himself.

“But Harry destroyed it; the book and the image of Riddle that went with it,” Hermione said slowly. “Was that a portion
of Voldemort’s soul he destroyed?”

Dumbledore nodded gravely.

“You told me he had to do it six more times in the hospital wing. Face off with Voldemort. But you just said he made six
horcruxes; wouldn’t that mean five more soul pieces?”

“Voldemort has always respected power above all. I am just guessing, based on the fact that he survived the destruction
of the diary without further repercussions, that he made more than one. We are tossing off numbers here as if they are
just that; numbers. Ripping apart one’s very soul is a terrible thing. In their limited history that we know of, no one
has ever done it more than once. Tom Riddle was never content to do just what had been done before. It is my suspicion,
based in part on Professor Forthecomb’s prophecy; that he sought to achieve the highly potent magical number of seven.”

Harry tried to do the math on that and failed miserably. No matter what he did he was off by one.

“I don’t…” he started, but Hermione squeaked and clasped his hand so tightly his fingers numbed.

“He is the seventh, isn’t he? Voldemort himself! He had to start with something to split from; if he wanted to end up
with seven he had to tear off six pieces!” Her pleasure in solving the problem turned abruptly to horror, however, after
her mind took the next logical step. “That means he killed six people, doesn’t it? For nothing more than…”

There was silence between the three of them for a moment as they each reflected on the waste of six lives, six innocent
souls lost for that.

“How does it…” Hermione’s voice trailed off, as though she found it almost too distasteful to ask, and Harry knew then
what she was asking.

Dumbledore knew as well. “I told you that no man can create a soul alone; nor can he recreate one. It is what it is,
what it was created to be. It wishes to be whole; it can not leave this world for any other if it is not. Regardless of
the judgment of good or wicked, which is never truly ours to make, a soul must be whole to go on anywhere. A horcrux
creates a false immortality by insuring the horcruxed soul can not leave the bounds of this earth even if the body it
was born to is destroyed. It wanders, seeking to reunite with its missing piece. In Voldemort’s case, the goal was never
to unite the missing pieces, but to scatter them around widely to make sure that no matter what happened to his body,
there would always be a fragment of his soul left to ensure Voldemort need not face death.”

He turned on Harry then, his blue eyes boring in without the intrusion of his magic behind them, underscoring the
obvious intention of the whole conversation. “Know this, Harry. Commit it to your memory and never forget it. That is
how badly the mighty Lord Voldemort fears death. Enough to shred his soul to try and keep it at bay. That is why when
you embraced death as preferable to sharing your body with him in the Department of Mysteries you were able to drive him
from you. He is terrified of something you could accept with grace and equanimity because he was never loved as you
were, can never hope to be loved as you are now. You may be just a boy, although I think we three know you to be more
than that now, but you are far from defenseless against him.”

“But if the prophecy he believes in says ‘and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the
other survives,’” Harry asked, “what does that have to do with horcruxing himself? If he’s made himself immortal I can’t
kill him, so what’s he so bloody mad about? He’s had my blood, he’s got his body back, he can touch me… what more does
he need? Why can’t he live while I survive?”

“Because he is not truly immortal, Harry. It is but a corruption of life, and he knows it. Horcruxes are nothing more
than objects with fragments of soul hidden within. They are dark, destructive things, but with only a pale imitation of
their creator’s power. That is one reason why Ginny’s experience of being possessed was more like a persistent imperius
curse than the more physical possession you knew.

Voldemort can still be defeated if each of his horcruxes, how ever many there truly are, are destroyed first. I do not
mean to make that sound easy; even if we knew where to find them destroying them is not, as you discovered with the
diary, an easy thing. You had the potent magic of the basilisks’ fang to hand; without it the tale might have ended
quite differently. But there is a beautiful symmetry to being destroyed by the very beast he commanded, too. Never
forget to look for that circle closing around you, Harry, for that is where the magic lies. That’s the surest sign you
are acting with the power of both magic and creation itself behind you, and with it you can not fail.”

“You mean I’m meant to find and destroy at least six horcruxes before I can finally confront him?” Harry asked numbly.

“Five now, for I think that we have agreed here you have quite probably destroyed one, and he himself is the seventh
portion.”

“Professor,” Hermione questioned, “when the first prophecy says Harry will ‘strike down an immortal evil where it lies
five times, but the sixth time he will find it within himself.’ What does that mean? It says ‘only if the lion can
vanquish his own darkness will his seventh strike save him. If he cannot, the pretender has won, and by all that is
sacred in this world magic must die.’”

“I believe it means just what you think it means, dear girl,” Dumbledore informed her. “And I confess to being at a loss
either to entirely explain it, or yet what to do about it. But I think we have wrestled with enough of the worlds
problems for the moment; the magic of this coming holiday is the reminder that it is not ultimately up to us after all.
We are but grains of sand in a cosmic sea, loved and set adrift. If we remain true to our purpose and the eternal truths
that created us, all will be well in the end. We always have the choice to believe that our choices matter.”

Harry’s head hurt, and none of this last was helping; he was less adrift in a cosmic sea than drowning in it.

“Erm, thank you,” he said, because ‘thanks a bloody heap you raving great loon,’ just seemed rude.

Dumbledore’s mercurial mood was seemingly blown in yet another direction by some gusty cosmic breeze, and he smiled with
an almost child-like glee.

“Before you go,” he informed them, “I confess that I thought it best that after our conversation you two kept yourselves
busy until it was time for your portkey. I thought some nice exercise might do you both good and keep you out of, well
keep you occupied, shall we say. So I have taken the liberty of hiding your Christmas gifts somewhere inside the castle
at the end of a trail of clues. Nothing like a good treasure hunt, is there? You can work together, but I promise you
it’s not in any of the broom closets or supply stores. Off you go, then, Happy Christmas!”

“Happy Christmas,” they chorused dazedly, and made their way down the revolving staircase. They made it as far as the
staircase above the Entrance hall before they were both laughing so hard they had to hold each other up, and sat instead
on the top step across from the window.

“You would’ve thought we’d never find anything funny again after all that,” Hermione managed, and Harry thought that her
eyes were especially beautiful when she laughed, warm and brown and inviting. “How does he do it?”

“By being a barmy great daft totally mental mad gormless twit,” he informed her, but he was still grinning helplessly
himself. “And not altogether bad in the legilmency department either, I suppose.”

The thick snow outside gave the window an eerie, muffled sort of look, but its faint keening sound still occasionally
wailed on.

“D’you hear it?” he asked her, suddenly realizing they had never discussed that part of it. “It spooks the hell out of
me, that sound.”

“No,” she admitted, and he could see the faint hunger in her eyes that meant she wanted to know something. “I haven’t
yet. I’ve never been in the hall like this before when it was so quiet, though. Do you hear it now?”

He nodded, and watched while she closed her eyes intently. He could see her begin to grow frustrated after a bit, and
her eyelids twitched restlessly. He thought she was about to give up and searched quickly for a way to describe what to
listen for, wondering if she’d know what he meant by whale song. It struck him only another moment on what a totally
mad, mentally deficient twit HE was capable of being the other way round; just he never liked to do the whole legilmens
thing himself didn’t mean it couldn’t come in handy.

He gathered up the sound and pushed it at her, gently but insistently. Her eyes flew abruptly open, wide and delighted.

“It says different things to different people!” she exclaimed.

That would make the three of them completely mental then. There must be something in the pumpkin juice; he half wondered
if the house elves were less happy than they let on and getting even their own way.

“What do you mean?” he asked. “What did you hear?”

“When I was listening, it sounded like an old record player on the wrong speed, very slow and haaaaarrrrrrddddd tooooooo
understand,” she said, demonstrating. “It’s so soft and low it’s just on the verge of being able to be heard at all, but
it was still distinctly words or sounds meant to have meaning, they didn’t feel random in the least. And there was more
than one voice in mine, sort of like you were in a room full of people with several conversations going on in the
background. But when you gave me your bit it all sounded different. Yours was just one sound, over and over. No wonder
it freaks you out. Absolutely fascinating. I wonder what it means?”

The stairs beneath them abruptly pulled a girls’ dorm maneuver and turned into a slide, swooshing them down and dumping
them breathlessly at the bottom before changing innocently back.

“No idea,” Harry found himself laughing and light-hearted again, almost against his will. Bloody Dumbledore. “But I
reckon we’re meant to get on with our treasure hunt and that was our first clue.”

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“So he made us do a sort of treasure hunt, with hidden clues and everything, to find them,” Harry heard Hermione
explaining to Ron as they made their way up the stairs at the Burrow.

“Seriously?” Ron asked not even pausing in his procession up the steps to grin at them over his shoulder. “He must have
really thought you were up to no good to sink that low to keep you busy.”

The Burrow appeared to Harry to quite literally have been attacked by Christmas; every surface, horizontal or vertical,
bore some reminder of the season. Mrs. Weasley was in her element, Mr. Weasley was hiding in his little closet of a
study, the twins were home and at work stringing fairy lights and charming them into Christmas colors (“Nothing like a
dash of purple to really say Christmas,” Fred had reminded them merrily.) Bill was due in later that evening, “and he’s
bringing Fleur Delacour,” Ron had told them, more than just a trace of wonder in his voice. Charlie was coming in with
his new girlfriend as well the following morning. The only Weasley country not heard from was Percy. “Mum asked him of
course,” Ron said stiffly, “but he didn’t even bother to owl her back, the lousy git.”

Actually, Harry realized, he’d either subconsciously or willfully pushed Ginny from his mind in that assessment. When
Ron toed open her bedroom door to deposit Hermione’s stuff inside he could see that she was sitting in her window seat
writing something, clearly enjoying a moment alone. He had a flash of sympathy; it couldn’t be easy to find time for
yourself in the middle of a Weasley Christmas. Hermione seemed to share his impression; she smiled and waved a greeting
and told Ginny she’d catch up with her later, and proceeded to follow after the boys.

“She’s not nearly as moody, actually,” Ron told them as they went. “She’s gone over all cheerful about something since
the train ride home. I expect that’s Father Christmas’s gift to us all.”

They reached Ron’s room at the top of the house and deposited Harry’s things at the foot of the camp bed by the window.
Ron flopped wearily on his bed. “We didn’t get home much before you; wish they’d just Portkey us all for holidays.”

Harry reckoned Hermione was tired as well when she refrained from launching into a lengthy explanation as to why the
idea was impractical; that or she was re-immersed in thoughts on the horcrux theory. They were going to have to explain
it all to Ron but Harry was certain that now was not the moment; there’d be plenty of time after Christmas day. He lay
back on his camp bed with a yawn then felt it sway precariously as Hermione crawled over him and settled down beside
him. He felt her pull out her wand and heard a series of murmured incantations. The cot widened slightly, the mattress
plumped and firmed beneath him and the legs stabilized. All the years he’d slept on the stupid thing, and it had never
occurred to him to do that. Oh yeah, he was a powerful wizard in training. To be an idiot.

He turned to find her lying on her side facing him, her head propped on one arm and he leaned in to give her a kiss.
“Thanks.”

“None of that now, you two,” Ron cautioned. “You’re not going to get me grounded for Christmas or anything.”

Hermione flared slightly then. “None of what, Ronald? You were expecting me to sit on the floor perhaps? I’ve sat on
Harry’s bed here hundreds of times.”

“You’ve never felt the need to enlarge it before,” he pointed out. “And I don’t remember you lying down.”

“Oh for goodness sake,” she muttered and sat up again beside him. Resting her hands for balance on his chest she drew
both her black stockinged legs in and crossed them before leaning back against the wall and smoothing her skirt. Harry
wasn’t normally a huge fan of Hogwarts uniforms, but they still had their moments.

“You didn’t have to touch him all the time then, either,” Ron pointed out. “Was that strictly necessary?”

Harry winced; Hermione blew.

“You know what’s bothering you? It’s not that you truly think either of us is going to do anything inappropriate in
front of your family, because you know we won’t. It’s that you’re finally starting to get it, what it means to care for
someone else. You’re missing Luna, you wish she was here because she makes you laugh and she makes everything seem new
and different to you because you’re seeing it through her eyes – and good lord what a view that must be. I highly doubt
we even make you the slightest bit uncomfortable anymore, except for the fact that every time I touch Harry you’re
wishing it was Luna touching you.”

Harry tried desperately not to grin, rolling in towards Hermione’s knee. The sight of Ron gasping at her like an angry
fish would surely do him in. She’d hit the nail on the head; Ron had said as much to Harry in the dorms the night before
vacation, but he knew that particular fact wouldn’t change Ron’s discomfort with being pegged so accurately. Luna was
coming over Christmas day and Ron was fairly torn up about it; both excited to see her reaction to his gift and
apprehensive about his family’s reaction to what was going on. He was certain the twins would be merciless and he was
probably right. Harry thought it would probably be kinder if he and Hermione went ahead and snogged for Britain in front
of his entire family; at least they might get Ron off the hook.

They were saved from further argument when Ginny burst through the door to announce dinner was ready. She did seem a bit
more her old self, fair erupting with energy. “Bill’s arrived!” she informed them with a grin, “and Fleur is vair
‘ungry. She didn’t say if it was for you, Ron, or dinner. You’d best go and find out.” Her eyes had made their way from
Ron to Harry and Hermione without dimming; Harry hoped that meant she was on to bigger and better things.

Ron followed her out, grumbling threats of retribution, to wash his hands. Harry spent several highly enjoyable minutes
helping Hermione off the cot to her feet and regretting he wasn’t going to be helping her back into it later. He left
her to the bathroom upstairs and proceeded down to the pantry to wash his own hands, needing the moment of relative
solitude to pull his ragged emotions into something resembling himself. He could hear Bill and Fleur laughing with Mr.
and Mrs. Weasley in the kitchen. Fleur’s “but it is Ronald!” was followed by two kissing sounds too solid to be air and
when he stepped into the kitchen he saw twins spots of flame on Ron’s cheeks.

“And ’arry!” she squealed happily. He got the full body hug instead of the cheek treatment and a gush of heartfelt,
feverish French he understood about three words of. It shocked him to realize he was mentally comparing the feel of her
to Hermione; irresistible as her Veela charms were meant to be she was very different against him and surprisingly not
nearly as enticing as Hermione had seemed only moments before. He heard footsteps on the stairs and pulled back, but not
before Hermione’s level brown gaze had found them. To his enormous relief she seemed utterly unperturbed and move to
join them without hesitation, greeting Fleur with a stream of what appeared to be hospitable French and hugging Bill.
The twins came in from fairy light duty, shaking snow everywhere like dogs, and Molly began herding them to the table.

Harry spent most of his typically filling Weasley meal (Molly made sure he sat near her and kept up a running commentary
on his need to eat more) talking to Bill on his other side and watching Hermione across the table between Ginny and
Fred. It had been a productive year curse-breaking at Gringott’s and Bill had got a bonus; he seemed buoyed and happy at
once. During a particularly loud moment when Molly was chastising the twins for some rather off color substitute lyrics
to a Christmas tune involving Percy, Mistletoe and the Minster for Magic’s unclothed bum, Bill managed to ask Harry in
an undertone if all was going well with Hermione and had he remembered his advice during their DADA sessions. Harry
indicated that it was and he had with an abashedly feral grin and an eager nod, and found them both returned.

“Thought so,” Bill said. “She looks a happy woman, and she’s here. Knowing what chaos this place can be at Christmas,
that’s true love.”

“And Fleur?” Harry asked softly, rather startled by his own boldness.

“Oh, she’s a happy woman as well,” Bill told him, ducking his head closer to Harry’s. “And with any luck she’ll be a
happier one tomorrow. The Goblin’s couldn’t have done better with their timing for me, took it right up the street in
Diagon Alley.”

Harry realized after several moments (and was rather proud of himself when he did) that Bill had likely bought Fleur a
ring for Christmas and meant to propose.

“Brilliant,” he said. “Good luck, not that you’ll need it. And just so you know, I think you’ll be Ron’s favorite
brother this Christmas.”

Ron and Luna getting together would be small potatoes in Mrs. Weasley’s cooker after that.

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The Christmas tree had been erected in the front room but remained undecorated; the evening was spent hanging more
boisterously uncooperative fairy lights and a multitude of ornaments hand made by various Weasley offspring over the
years. There was a wide range: some were ancient nuts and pinecones once obviously liberally spread with glue and
glitter but now mostly having lost their sparkle, others were intricate confections of folded gold and silver paper.
Fred and George had the previous year used their newly achieved status as wizards to concoct two cotton ball-and-pipe
cleaner snowmen charmed to hurl cotton ball snowballs at each other as they ranged round the tree; they added two more
this year “just to make things more interesting.” Harry found himself unable to look away, never sure where one would
pop up next.

Hermione helped Ginny make paper chains while Fleur concentrated on a perfectly accessorized angel for the treetop that
ended up looking very much –surprise! – like Fleur herself.

“She is perfect, non?” she asked, modeling her for all to approve. Harry found himself touched how quickly Bill agreed,
and amused how the twin’s gagging noises became real with only the most subtle flicks of his wand.

Ron and Harry had been enlisted to hump all the boxes of decorations down from the attic, most likely because Molly knew
they’d have to do it by hand and didn’t trust any of the other boys with it magically. It had taken a good deal of
climbing, plus the effort required to actually find the stuff amidst the detritus of generations jam packed from floor
to rafter up there, far more strenuous than carrying the boxes themselves. They’d moved what seemed half the contents
just to get to them, and then negotiated a total of eight trips on those stairs, four up and four down. They were at
present both collapsed in front of the fire, watching the others and hoping not to be drafted for anything else.

“So what did Dumbledore give you?” Ron asked.

“Other than the pep talk from hell, which we’ll have to tell you about after Christmas in order not to spoil it for you,
I know you’ll be amazed to learn they actually weren’t books.”

Ron’s eyebrows raised. “Month’s worth of sherbet lemons? Meaning a two year supply for the two of you, of course?” he
guessed.

Harry grinned. “Close, but wrong kind.”

“Chocolate Frogs? Peppermint Toads? Licorice wands? Chocoballs? Ice Mice?” At each shake of Harry’s head Ron became more
intrigued. His list changed more to the types discouraged at school, then. “Fizzing Whizbees? Pepper Imps? Canary
Creams? Surely not exploding bon bons? I give up then, what?”

In answer Harry pulled a wrapped piece from his pocket and handed it to Ron.

“Madam Puddifoots Marvelous Made-to-Share Mints – totally refreshing, tooth-flossing, tongue tingling and terribly
romantic. 100% Irresistible and Guaranteed to Please.” Ron read off the wrapper. He looked at Harry. Harry looked back.

“Good gracious, Ron… are you choking?” asked Mrs. Weasley, and hastily applied a back-thumping charm from across the
room that sent him face first into the floor. It was several moments before Ron removed his nose from the carpet.

“I have to reckon,” he managed to choke out, “that this is the first time he’s given those to a student instead of
taking them away. Only Dumbledore would keep you so busy finding something to make what he’s trying to stop you from
doing even more fun. What’s he thinking? Never mind. I reckon McGonagall’s head would explode if she knew.”

“You have to wonder, anyway, unless that’s how he got them in the first place, off a student. He’s a barmy old coot, but
alright with it. Of course we felt we ought to try them out once we found them, just to express our sincere gratitude,
you know. They’re really interesting. And seeing as you’re our best friend, Hermione and I shared ours out and stuck a
supply in with your present as well. It’s the irresistible part that’s so worth it, but just mind you don’t have
anything else going on at the time. You can’t think of anything else. At all.”

Ron’s mind seemed to melt at the thought; Harry was sure he didn’t need any help in that department about now, anyway.

“Well that’s the tree done,” said Mrs. Weasley in satisfaction. One of the twin’s snowmen lobbed a tiny snowball at her,
but she rounded it back at him with her wand with nary a flinch. “Off to bed then, you lot. The faster you go, the
faster the day will be here.”

They trouped up the stairs; Harry and Hermione trailing carefully last. The twins and Bill cooperatively headed on up to
their own rooms with cheery good nights and wolf whistles after Bill gave Fleur a chaste and gentlemanly goodnight kiss.
Well, chaste if you were blind, and Harry was sure it was only gentlemanly to make sure one’s potential life-mate’s
tonsils were in working order before sending them off to sleep alone. In a room full of now-envious younger girls. Ron
moved almost hastily on into the boy’s room, but Ginny hovered at the girl’s door as if somehow determined to thwart
Harry.

“Night,” he said regretfully, but Hermione resolutely ignored her room mate and gave him a swift but thorough goodnight
kiss. If she was going to listen to Fleur go on about Bill for hours into the night, she wasn’t going to do it without
memorizing Harry first. ‘Miss you,’ she whispered, and disappeared into Ginny’s room. Harry’s eyes met Ginny’s as he
moved past and she shut the door, and he thought he recognized not animosity or loss but what almost appeared to be
sympathy.

For a moment it warmed him, still stupid with the lingering feel of Hermione in his arms, and he smiled at her. It was
while he was putting on his pajamas that he realized Ginny even remotely sympathizing with his situation wasn’t
necessarily anything to smile about. Who was she yearning for now?

As long as it wasn’t Draco Malfoy, he supposed, more power to her and good luck.

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Christmas dawned with no apparent difference than the day before. It was still snowing heavily, the sky obscured by the
relentless flurry of flakes. Breakfast was a cozy, rowdy affair; Harry realized how blessed Wizards were when it came to
the weather. The roads were likely impassable in a car, but Lupin and Charlie and his new girlfriend still arrived to
join them without a hitch. It seemed at least fifty conversations were taking place at once; teasing, greeting, catching
up. He hadn’t spent Christmas at the Dursley’s since he was eleven, but he’d never been quite this glad before. He let
it all swirl around him like the warp and weft of a blanket, sinking warmly against his skin. One more thing he might
never be able to hold on to, but felt grateful none the less to have known. He watched Hermione out of the corner of his
eye talking to Charlie and caught her own surreptitious glance at him.

Charlie’s girl was the exact opposite of Fleur in looks, her hair as black as Snape’s, her eyes an almost indigo blue.
She had something of Fleur’s allure, although Harry found that he had difficulty focusing directly on why; his attention
seemed to want drift somehow. She clearly doted on Charlie and clung to his arm at every opportunity as if determined to
out-charm Fleur with Mr. and Mrs. Weasley. This turned out to be a golden opportunity for Harry and Hermione, as no one
paid the slightest bit of attention to any of them throughout breakfast while Fleur and Annika vied for the role of
perfect potential daughter-in-law. They sat side by side at the far end of the table across from Ginny and Ron and
managed to enjoy themselves thoroughly by trying to guess which girl would be pranked by the twins first, and who would
provide the most satisfactory response.

“Annika looks like she could be quite the squealer,” Ron commented, chasing the last of his eggs with a toast crust.
“Fleur’s at least forewarned. She knows what they’re like.”

“They’ve had time to plan for her, though. Sort of personalize their strategy. Annika will have to be more of a shot in
the dark. She might turn out to actually like exploding fruitcake or having her teeth turned green or being attacked by
charmed gift paper. You never actually know,” Harry offered. “Either way, there’s less attention on you and…”

As if simply thinking her name had called her into being it was Luna who appeared behind the knocking at the kitchen
door. Her cheeks glowed pink and there were several inches of snow atop the lumpy hand-knitted bobble hat atop her head.
In honor of the day her earrings were actual Christmas balls of red and green (or port and starboard as Fred and George
instantly dubbed them.) Ron and Ginny both hopped up at once then stared at each other awkwardly as if uncertain whose
friend she was meant to be now. Luna solved the problem by handing her coat to a bemused Mr. Weasley and drifting to sit
at the chair Mrs. Weasley popped between the two of them, eyes on Fleur and Annika.

“Daddy says to wish you all a Happy Christmas,” she said, gazing round them and taking in the newcomers. “He’s going to
come by later himself, he went to take a fruitcake to the Diggorys.”

Harry felt the usual wash of misery that came with the very mention of Cedric’s name. The words ‘kill the spare,’ echoed
through his head in Voldemort’s awful, high voice. He remembered vividly the hideous thing he’d been, propped in
Wormtail’s arms, and what Harry’s blood had helped him to become.

He felt Hermione’s hand fall warm and reassuringly on his leg beneath the table.

Harry was fairly certain that Charlie must have been explaining Luna and the Diggorys to Annika, because she suddenly
gave him a very assessing look. He twitched his head to let his fringe fall further into his eyes and slunk down a bit
into his chair, unconsciously causing Hermione’s hand to end up more or less in his lap. Holy hell but that felt good.
He shot up straight again, trying to breath normally.

“Then Ron’s friend Harry is that Harry?” she said, seemingly aghast. “Harry Potter? But aren’t you all worried that…”

“No,” said Charlie quickly.

“We’re not,” finished Bill stoutly. “Far safer with him around. Harry’s been training hard all year.”

“But he is just a boy, and we heard the Death Eaters were…” she began again, starting to look almost ill.

“Really nasty blokes?” George asked.

“With no sense of humor.” Fred agreed.

“Nevair mind. We have ze Constant Vigilance,” Fleur told her with a superior smile.

It seemed someone had absorbed Mad Eye’s mantra. Harry bet she didn’t carry her wand in her back pocket. Then again, if
he had her bum, he probably wouldn’t risk it either.

Hermione’s hand began to slide gently up and down in what he was quite sure was intended to be a soothing motion, and
any passing thoughts of Fleur’s bum vanished entirely. Oh, but that was so… reassuring. For instance, he was now
absolutely sure that bits of him that would be entirely useless fighting off Death Eaters were in perfect working order.
Really quite positive, thanks.

“They won’t strike until sometime in the New Year, at least according to Firenze. It’s lovely having a Centaur for
Divination, you learn the most fascinating stuff,” Luna continued, her baubles bobbing beneath her large, pale eyes. Ron
appeared utterly mesmerized by them. Or maybe, thought Harry, (quite caught up in his own inappropriate thoughts) it was
her medieval milkmaid sort of dress, with its corset -ish thing and… uplifting effect. “Mars isn’t in the right quadrant
for violent uprising right now.”

“Time for presents, then,” Mrs. Weasley said decisively.

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It was endlessly surprising to Harry what a morning spent consuming an enormously satisfying meal and followed up by
exchanging gifts could do to one family. Bill’s ring and proposal to Fleur had been Mrs. Weasley’s favorite Christmas
gift by far, and the general mood of love in the air had allowed Ron to feel himself somewhat under the Weasley radar
with Luna. She had been quite beside herself over the Snorkack horn, too, wordless for once in her delight. She’d even
kissed him, demurely but evidently with enough promise for later to leave him with a wide goofy grin of happiness.

“She didn’t see that coming, then,” Hermione had said with some satisfaction.

From her reaction, Hermione hadn’t seen his either. He’d explained in her card the function of the locket in slightly
more… intriguing terms than the original. (Among its suggested uses he’d put tallying their snog points and keeping
track of what they proposed to use them for.) But he’d also written -very quickly, before he could fuss too much about
the wording or feel too sappy and foolish- a little note in the very beginning she’d see as soon as she enlarged the
pages.

Hermione ~ I know how much
you’ve always loved books.
I hope this one has room enough
to remind you in years to come:
How smart you are.
How hard we fought.
How we won - because we will.
How much I’ll always love you,
for everything you are and all you’ve done
no matter how, or when, our story together ends.
~ Harry

He hoped that tears in her eyes were a good thing. He was beginning to be able to tell the difference and he was fairly
sure it was a positive sign, but then again girls could be awfully confusing and even thinking you understood them could
well be inviting disaster.

“Harry, it’s perfect,” she whispered. “Help me put it on?”

She held the chain out to him and turned her back, scooping up her hair and presenting her bare neck. He’d never been so
glad of Goblin generosity and vowed to listen at least a little bit more in History of Magic, because Mrs. Weasley was
still ‘oh’ing and ‘ah’ing over Fleur’s ring and paying not the slightest bit of attention to either Harry or Hermione.
He pressed himself along her back and nuzzled under her delicate earlobe under the guise of positioning the necklace
around her slender neck and pressed his lips gently against the back of it as he did up the catch.

One benefit of a locket a Snorkack horn didn’t have, he supposed. Although he wouldn’t put it past Luna to find some use
for the thing the way she was eyeing Ron.

Hermione’s fingers closed around it as she turned, and her eyes glowed with happiness. He tried to slow time and
preserve her image in his brain with fierce incantations to remember it no matter what, always.

In turn she gave Harry two books.

“Don’t look so surprised,” she teased. “At least look at them.”

The first was book of photographs of stained glass windows entitled “The Magic of Light.” It seemed to cover the history
of Muggle stained glass and the evolution of the rose window with picture after picture of various examples. “Very
nice,” he said admiringly. The colors really were beautiful, and the way the passage of light transfigured them was
evocative even to Harry, who had no religious experience whatsoever.

“If you leave it at that you’ll be missing a lot,” Hermione said both softly and urgently. “There’s more to them than
meets the eye. That book was written by a squib; a wizard’s mind without the magic to back it up, but a wizard’s way of
looking at things, still. I think the window at Hogwarts has more to tell us than just what’s written around it, I think
it makes the things just suggested by some of the muggle ones real. It’s more than just to look at. I know you want to
run off and start looking for the horcruxes right away, but you really need to read this, Harry.”

“Okay,” he agreed. “I will. I… thanks, Hermione.”

“Look at the other,” she told him, smiling.

It was called “Why You Fly: Quidditch and the Extraordinary Wizard.” It drew parallels between the positions of
Quidditch players and what those intrinsic skills might mark a wizard as potentially better at magically and
professionally in life. She’d bookmarked the bit where Seekers were noted to make excellent Aurors due to the fact they
were required to be patient, secretive, have quick reflexes and not be put off by risk.

“I know I said I wished you’d consider something other than being an Auror, but I think you should be whatever you
really want. I just want you to want something because I think it will give you strength, something to look forward to
while you sort out this horcrux business. You need to think about what happens after like there’s going to be an after,
or…”

“There won’t be. I know. Hermione, you’re my after. The only future I care about is with you. Truly.”

Unfortunately, this last happened to come out rather passionately and in the midst of a sudden lull in the general
conversation. Harry looked up in horror to find the entire Weasley clan staring at him avidly.

“Erm,” he managed, and cleared his throat desperately. “I, I’m…”

“The word you’re looking for there, Harry, my boy, is…” Fred started, but Mrs. Weasley’s silencing charms were nothing
if not stealthy and powerful. She found them infinitely preferable to the soap- in-the-mouth hexes for both simplicity
of cleanup and generally keeping the peace. She beamed at Harry and Hermione beatifically.

“Dumbledore keeps so many secrets he just can’t manage all of them. He told us about the two of you getting closer this
term before you came, and while you’re too young to be taking these things seriously just yet we’re all delighted for
you. You’ll make the loveliest couple someday; I’ve always thought so.”

Harry felt both relieved and betrayed at once; relieved that the secret, such that it was, was out; but betrayed that
Dumbledore had felt it necessary to inform the Weasleys without telling them. Honestly, was it such a bloody crime? Did
he not trust them at all? It only made Harry want to do exactly what he was meant not to whenever it happened. A glance
at Hermione showed her jaw set, a quite similar expression in her eyes. She’d never liked being told she couldn’t do
something, no matter what it was.

The twins looked as if they’d eaten something delicious, even the silent Fred. Mr. Weasley was blushing furiously.
Charlie was grinning, but swiftly pulled into a whispered conversation with Annika, explaining it all, probably. Ron
appeared sympathetically horrified; Luna was happily oblivious, stroking her horn.

Lupin was smiling, really smiling, the likes of which Harry hadn’t seen since Sirius died, and suddenly it all seemed ok
because he was.

Bill winked and then said “So what’s your advice for the wedding then, Mum, ponytail, or down loose? No, not Fleur, me.
Fleur’s had hers all planned for ages, haven’t you, love.”

Mrs. Weasley’s attention was quickly diverted and conversation flowed on.

Harry felt himself start to breathe again.

“If you don’t meet me in the broomshed after dinner,” Hermione whispered lovingly, “I’ll strangle you myself.”

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A/N: Okay, I know this is probably a tough place to be doing this, but I have to say that this story is wrestling with
me pretty hard right now. I am just very, very into both Fixing Harry and an original piece of my own, and while I know
just where this needs to go all my creative energy is pretty tied up in those. I forced myself to work on this – I’d
hoped it would be up Weds, sorry, WileyCoyote! I apologize profusely. I been having some computer issues, and when
Microgack Word ate half this, without saving even to a recover file I had to recreate it. Yech – hate that. Never seems
as good the second time around, and it’s hard doing snow and Christmas when the lawn is mocking me to go mow it out the
window.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that please expect updates on this to be slower until I get through the next big bit
of Fixing Harry. I promise you the quality of both will be better if I do. It’s hard to write two such different
scenarios at the same time and not have things bleed over where they shouldn’t. My OW is pretty absorbing right now too,
but at least I can say that won’t run into this! If I can just get through the next bit of Fixing Harry I think I can
get back on track to move this quickly, and I’ll try to post a couple of chapters at once. Sorry, and thanks for your
patience! ~ Lynney
