Rating: PG13
Genres: Angst, Drama
Relationships: Harry & Hermione
Book: Harry & Hermione, Books 1 - 5
Published: 29/02/2004
Last Updated: 02/05/2004
Status: Completed
A tale of crime and punishment, wizard-style, wherein Harry Potter learns that, in the wizarding world as in the Muggle world, all actions have consequences, and if you commit a crime, you must pay -- The Price.
Disclaimer: Characters and trappings borrowed from the Harry Potter books are the
property of J.K. Rowling, and no copyright inftringement is intended.
A solitary figure sat in hushed darkness. The stone walls of his windowless cell were dank and
chill. The blackness was complete save for a feeble rectangle of flickering amber which was the
torch burning in the corridor just beyond the tiny view slit in the heavy iron door. It was by
choice that the cell's lone occupant sat thus. A gnarled candle, Charmed to ignite by wandless
command (and enchanted to burn with a harmless cold flame), reposed in a rusty iron bracket above
his cot, its wick cold and layered with dust.
Without warning, the slit of light winked out, blocked by the face of the guard who peered blindly
into the darkness, his piggy eyes watering. "Visitor," he grunted in an emotionless
monotone, quoting from rote. "Stand back from the door, please."
The magical lock on the door clicked. Pale light flooded the small cell, glinting dully on the
rivets ringing the door. A dancing shadow fell across the threshold, followed by a tall figure
whose features were obscured by the darkness. The newcomer held an oil lamp in an outstretched
hand, its chimney raised. The guard extended his wand (the other's wand having been
confiscated), and the lamp sprang to life. The flame brightened as the chimney was slid home,
illuminating a long, freckled face and a shock of red hair nearly as bright as the lamp in its
owner's hand.
"Leave us," the visitor said. Without a word, the guard closed the door. The lock
clicked.
Setting the lamp on a shelf next to the lifeless candle, Ron Weasley sat on the edge of the cot,
the ancient springs of which groaned in protest. The prisoner had not moved in all this time, nor
betrayed even the smallest sign of acknowledgment that he was no longer alone. Ron felt the skin
between his shoulders crawl. It was as if he were sitting next to an upright corpse.
"Tell me you didn't do it, Harry," Ron said without preamble. "I told them
they're all mental. You couldn't possibly have done what they say you did. Tell me,
Harry."
Harry did not move, did not so much as turn his head a millimeter in Ron's direction. But his
glassy, far-seeing eyes came to life as at the flicking of a switch. Those eyes, pale green in the
lamplight, jerked suddenly as if tugged by invisible wires as they pierced Ron's like emerald
icicles.
"Merlin," Ron swore softly, his throat tightening. "It's true. You did it. You
really did it! You killed Malfoy!"
At last Harry moved. Snatching his eyes from Ron's, he stood slowly and turned away, staring
into the dark corner of the cell where the lamplight could not reach. Ron saw the slight hunch in
Harry's shoulders, their eloquence wordless testimony to some great weight pressing upon his
friend's soul. He dreaded the question he knew he must ask.
"What happened, Harry?" Ron croaked. "No one will tell me anything. You had to have
a reason -- "
Suddenly Ron went white beneath the embers of his abundant freckles.
"Wh-where's -- where's Hermione? Why isn't she here? Why --
"No...oh, please, no..."
"She's alive," Harry said at last, his voice dry as dust from a tomb. Ron waited for
Harry to continue, his heart filling with dread, but Harry said nothing more.
"Malfoy -- " Ron framed the syllables as if they were an obscenity. "What -- what
did he do to her?"
Only silence answered him.
"What did he do?" Ron demanded, bolting up with knotted fists churning the air.
"What did that son of a bitch do to Hermione?"
Ron saw Harry's shoulders drop almost imperceptibly, saw his friend shudder as if in silent
agony.
"He raped her," Harry rasped, his hand rising to cover his face, as if to block images
dancing in the darkness which only he could see.
As Ron gaped in horror, Harry rounded explosively, his eyes ablaze with green flames. Ron recoiled
as if he had been struck a physical blow, the flesh between his shoulders crawling with a sensation
as of ice water trickling down his spine.
"He tortured her!" Harry half screamed, half sobbed, his rage spilling out like lava from
a poisoned volcano. "He chained her to a dungeon wall -- beat her savagely, whipped her until
she cried for mercy! And then he ravaged her -- like a MAD DOG!"
As Ron began to tremble with unspeakable anguish, Harry's voice fell to an icy whisper.
"And I killed him like one. I put him down like the animal he was -- like a rabid wolf.
"But first, I made him suffer."
"You -- " Ron stammered fearfully, " -- you didn't use an -- an Unforgivable
Curse -- ?"
Ron knew, as did most every person in the magical world, that use of any of the three Unforgivable
Curses on a human being -- even a slime like Malfoy -- resulted in a life term in Azkaban. If Harry
had tortured Malfoy thus, his fate was sealed. But Harry shook his head slowly.
"I put a Body-Bind on him," Harry said thickly. "I took him to...the Shrieking
Shack. It was perfect. I knew no one would investigate if they heard anything. In fact, the more
screaming they heard, the faster and farther they'd run away.
"And he did scream. Oh, yes..."
Harry's eyes took on a feral light before which Ron retreated another step.
"I intended to make him pay. Not just for that night, but for fifteen years of sneers and
torments, of a thousand "Mudblood" taunts and racist, pureblood garbage.
"I conjured manacles and chained him to the basement wall," Harry said with a distant
look in his eyes and a hint of ghastly savor in his voice. Fastening his eyes on Ron, he tittered,
"Do you know what I did then? Do you?"
Ron shook his head, his tongue frozen to his palate.
"I exploded his bones," Harry hissed with malevolent glee.
Ron recoiled, horrified.
"I used a focused Incendio spell," Harry said, speaking not so much to Ron as merely
reveling in a cherished memory. "I made his marrow boil until the bone popped like a wizard
cracker. He screamed like a baby. It was exquisite.
"I began with his fingers. The fingers that desecrated my wife's flesh, profaned her
dignity. The fingers that chained her to that filthy wall, that held the whip that drew her blood
-- the dirty 'mudblood' that he so despised. And I made him watch! I Cursed his eyelids off
and held him by the hair so he couldn't look away. And he watched as the bones in his fingers
splintered, one by one."
Harry laughed insanely, the sound chilling Ron's blood and making his knees weak.
"He lived for three days," Harry whispered. "I fed him a potion that kept him
conscious through the pain. Aurors carry it with them, so they can function in battle while
wounded. I brewed it myself...learned it in Advanced Potions ages ago...Snape would have been proud
of me.
"As the pain increased, he nearly went mad. For the first two days, he pleaded with me to
stop, to have mercy. Mercy! I told him I'd show him the same mercy he showed Hermione."
Harry barked a short, bitter laugh before his eyes hardened again. "On the third day, he
begged me to kill him. At least once every five minutes, he sobbed, 'Kill me, Potter! For the
love of God, kill me!' It was rather funny, actually -- Voldemort's lapdog invoking God
after all those years of worshipping the devil himself. Truth to tell, the mantra became rather
tiresome after a while. So, as much to shut him up as anything, I suppose...I gave him what he
wanted."
Ron was sobbing mournfully, his face buried in his hands. Harry's voice grew strangely calm
even as it assumed an edge as of tempered steel.
"He wasn't human. He was a monster -- a vampire. He sucked the lifeblood from everything
he touched. And, well, there's only one proper way to sort out a vampire, isn't there? A
stake through the heart. So I took his own wand and drove it through his ribs with a narrow-beam
Banishing Charm. I nailed him to the wall like a cockroach.
"And the look on his face! Even at the last, he couldn't believe that goody-goody Potter
had it in him! He just stared at me in astonishment as the light in his eyes faded and went out.
Sort of like blowing out a candle flame, it was.
"It was too easy, you know," Harry said with a touch of disappointment. "After
everything he'd done, all the lives he'd ruined, the death and misery he'd sown...I was
far too easy on him...far...too easy..."
Ron did not hear Harry's last words. He had sunk to the floor, sobbing like a lost soul;
weeping for his friend, for the inhuman thing he feared that cherished friend had become; and for
the good, kind man whom he feared might be lost to him forever.
His catharsis exhausted, Harry fell silent once more. He sank heavily onto his cot, staring blanky
at the wall, oblivious to the flickering light of the lamp, and to the soft, agonized sobs
emanating from the huddled figure quivering on floor to his right.
Author's Note: So ends Chapter one of nine. The shadows deepen next week, with more
facts being brought to light. I hope some of you, at least, will return. And to everyone, thanks
for reading.
"What's going to happen to Harry?" Ginny said in a ghostly voice. She did not look
up as she spoke. She was cradling Hermione's hand in her palm, rubbing it gently. Hermione was
still as death. Did not Ginny feel the faint, quietly rhythmic pulse in the hand she held, she
would not have known that the woman lying in bed before her was alive at all.
Ron, sitting in a chair on the other side of Hermione's bed, shook his head heavily.
"He's not right in the head. They wouldn't...I mean...you don't reckon they'd
actually send him to Azkaban?"
"He killed someone, Ron," Ginny said tonelessly, her eyes never leaving Hermione.
"He killed Malfoy," Ron said acidly. "They should give him the ruddy Order of
Merlin."
"You don't mean that," Ginny said in a voice more hopeful than certain.
"He was a Death Eater! He had the ruddy Dark Mark on his arm, same as his dad. The world's
better off without that -- that -- " Ron couldn't seem to find a blasphemy foul enough to
express his disgust, so he settled for a dismissive toss of his head. "If I'd been in
Harry's place, I'd have done the same thing."
"Would you?" Ginny said quietly.
Ron was staring intently at Hermione. His feelings toward his best friend's wife were an open
secret to those who knew him. He steadfastly kept them under lock and key, out of love for both of
them. But they were no less real and powerful for that.
"If it were you lying here," Ron said in an attempt at subterfuge which deceived
neither of them, "I'd have torn Malfoy's head off with my bare hands and fed it to
Buckbeak."
Ron leaned in, brushing away a strand of chestnut hair which the cross-ventilation had trailed
across Hermione's unresponsive face. His throat tightened as he looked down on her. Her once
rosy cheeks were the color of marble. Tiny marks were visible on her face and arms, reminders that,
even in the wizarding world, potions and healing spells had only so much power at their command. In
the final equation, humanity could inflict suffering and death to a far greater degree than even
the most skilled Healers could alleviate it.
"You should have owled me," Ron said. It was not a reproach so much as a lament. "I
should have been here sooner."
"The tomb that you and Bill were de-cursing isn't on any map," Ginny said. "And
the Gringotts goblins wouldn't reveal its location."
"Pig would've found me," Ron persisted. "The feathery little git loves to annoy
me. He'd find me in a class six hurricane just for the pleasure of driving me
nutters."
"You know as well as I do," Ginny returned gently, "that the first spell a Gringotts
curse-breaker learns is the Concealment Charm. Nothing can get through it."
"As soon as I got back," Ron said sickly, "the first thing I saw was a banner
headline in the Daily Prophet screaming, 'The Boy Who Killed,' with Harry's face
underneath. I Apparated straight to the Ministry. Dumbledore got me in to see Harry straightaway.
Signed the visitation order himself. But he wouldn't tell me a bleedin' thing. Didn't
he know how important -- "
As Ron's words choked off, Ginny said, "That's why he didn't tell you.
You'd find out soon enough. And I don't think he could bear to see the pain in your eyes
when you learned the truth."
Hot tears streamed down Ron's face as he took Hermione's other hand and caressed it.
"If Harry goes to Azkaban, someone will have to take care of Hermione."
"Her parents can do that," Ginny said, reading her brother's thoughts as if they were
branded on his forehead in the pattern of his freckles.
"They're Muggles," Ron said weakly.
"Hermione isn't suffering from a magical malady," Ginny said patiently.
Ron's tears burned his face. Since leaving Harry, he'd pieced the entire story together
from various sources. The details were seared upon his soul as if by an Incendio spell.
In the years following the final destruction of Voldemort, the Dark Lord's innermost circle of
Death Eaters determined to keep the flame of their fallen master's dream of purification and
conquest alive. In a recondite struggle for power, one finally emerged as his master's
acknowledged successor. If certain lesser rivals remained unconvinced of his qualifications, he
himself harbored no doubts in the matter. With his dark knowledge and fanatical devotion to the
cause, and fueled by an ambition second to none, Lucius Malfoy saw himself as the one and only true
heir to Lord Voldemort.
The Ministry of Magic likewise recognized Lucius as Voldemort's ultimate successor, largely on
the strength of information gleaned by the Order of the Phoenix (which was now a clandestine arm of
the Aurors, the result of a secret directive from the office of newly-appointed Minister Albus
Dumbledore). It was the latter organization, in a raid led by Dumbledore himself, which ultimately
cornered Lucius in a dark castle in Eastern Europe and extinguished his dreams of power and
conquest forever. Choosing to stand rather than flee, Lucius was cut down, by all accounts, by
Dumbledore, whose advancing years had in no wise diminished the power of his magic. But when
Lucius' body was returned to Malfoy Manor for burial, Draco blamed one person alone for his
father's "murder"; one who, though indisputably a member of the attacking squad, was
in the rear guard and had not cast so much as a single spell ere the last Death Eater fell: Harry
Potter.
Draco determined that the only equitable punishment for Harry was the destruction of the person he
loved most, even as Draco had loved his father above all others. As Harry clearly loved no one in
the world more than his wife, Draco's path of vengeance was equally clear. Spiriting her away
from Hogsmeade via a cleverly disguised portkey, Draco, emulating both his father and the master
whom they had both served with unquestioning fealty, savagely exacted his revenge in the manner
described to Ron by Harry in the Ministry dungeons.
Hermione was found the following day, the portkey having returned her to the very spot from which
she'd been taken. She was unconscious, naked, bruised and bleeding from scores of cruel wounds.
Discovered by a wizard shopkeeper who was just opening his store, Hermione was hurriedly wrapped in
a cloak and taken inside while Hogsmeade's resident Healer was summoned. But upon being revived
by the medi-witch, Hermione immediately exploded into hysterical screams so intense that nothing
short of a Stunning Spell could arrest her frenzy. She was quickly transferred to St. Mungo's,
whose director summoned Harry without delay.
All this Ron learned from sources including The Daily Prophet, certain junior Aurors whose
professional baggage did not yet include the sagacity of discretion, and patrons of the Three
Broomsticks and the Hogs' Head, to whom discretion was as extraneous as a Muggle-born in
Slytherin House.
The final, grimmest piece of the puzzle came directly from the resident Healers at the
hospital:
"Your wife is suffering from a deep emotional trauma," the hospital director told
Harry, who was himself nearly hysterical. "The moment she is Ennervated, she reverts to a wild
hysteria which nothing short of total unconsciousness can suspend. Obviously, we cannot treat her
properly under such conditions. Twice we have had to awaken her to give her small doses of healing
potions. But to Ennervate her even for the briefest of periods plunges her deeper into the pit of
her terrors. I fear that a prolongation of such efforts will result in irreversible insanity. What
she experienced was evidently so horrific that her mind's only defense is utter denial. A war
is raging inside her, more terrible than any fought with wands and Dark Curses. It is a conflict
which must ultimately destroy her. I regret to say, Mr. Potter, that your wife may be faced with
the prospect of spending the remainder of her life in such condition as you see her
now."
"Can't you perform a Memory Charm?" Harry asked desperately. Looking down on his
wife, Harry experienced a piercing of his heart he'd not felt since they day he'd seen her
lying in the hospital wing at Hogwarts, petrified by the basilisk from the Chamber of Secrets in
their second year. Then, at least, there had been hope to cling to. The Mandrake draught would
ultimately retore her to full healthfulness, with no lasting harm done. But now, Harry found
himself reaching out desperately, only to find his hands grasping hopelessly at empty air.
"Our Probing Spells reveal that such a Charm has been performed, to erase the identity
of her attacker," the director said. "We may never know who did this unspeakable thing to
her."
Harry knew. Deep in his gut, he knew only one person could do so heinous a thing. But that was not
the issue of the moment. "So perform another Memory Charm," he demanded.
"We cannot," the director said. "Her mind is tilting too close to the edge. Even the
slightest nudge could send her into a realm from which there is no returning. Total insanity. In
that eventuality, our options would be reduced to one alone: the Complete Obliviate."
"But that," Harry said with a shudder, "would completely erase her mind."
"Yes," the administrator said gravely. "But there is still room for hope. St.
Mungo's is not the only wizarding facility of its kind in the world. I have sent owls to every
expert in the field. If there is an alternative I have overlooked..."
His face streaked with tears of helpless frustration, Harry bolted from the hospital.
He was discovered three days later, in the Shrieking Shack. He was sitting against the basement
wall, his robes peppered with blood, beside the mutilated body of Draco Malfoy. The villagers had
scrupulously avoided the terrible screams emanating from the old house on the edge of town
throughout the preceding 72 hours. But a new and, in its way, even more terrible sound had drawn
them at the last: The sound of wild, insane laughter.
Ginny had left her chair and now stood beside Ron, her hands on his shoulders, as if seeking
comfort from his touch.
"What's going to happen to them?" she sobbed piteously, her hands trembling as their
grip tightened claw-like on her brother's robes. "Th-they're both in a prison.
C-can't someone help them?"
Ron released Hermione's hand, took his sister's wrists and drew her onto his lap. As he
enveloped her in a fierce hug, her head cradled on his shoulder, he said hollowly, "I dunno.
But if you've ever prayed in your life, do it now. It may be the only chance they've
got."
Author's Note: Wow! If I'd known I'd get this kind of response, I'd have
moved this story up even sooner. Darkfics, huh? Who knew?
As you have now seen (and befitting the category), the skies just keep getting darker over Harry.
Will the sun ever come out (shut up, Annie, go shave Daddy Warbucks' head, why don'cha)? I
can't give anything away, of course. But there may be a few readers who, like reviewer Enter
Name, sense that events are moving in a straight (and predictable) line. To them and everyone else,
I say: Don't look now, but there is a curve or two waiting on the road ahead. I hope I can
surprise a few people before the tale is told.
Again, thanks to everyone who jumped on board last time. I hope you'll stay all the way to the
end of the line. It's a short trip...and it's free. Look for Chapter 3 next week. I hope to
see you then.
Albus Dumbledore straightened his black velvet robes mechanically as he stood before the
full-length mirror in his private chamber.
"Not a happy day, Minister," the mirror said solemnly.
"No," Dumbledore said in a voice that seemed to bear all the weight of his advanced
years. "It is not."
Turning his back on the mirror, Dumbledore opened the polished oak door of his chamber an inch or
so and surveyed the Hall of Judgment. The gallery was filling with witches and wizards, their faces
burning with excitement and morbid curiosity. They were come to learn the fate of the greatest hero
in the wizarding world -- now a fallen hero. In his triumphant confrontation with Voldemort less
than a decade past, Harry Potter had shown a strength and courage about which books would be
written for a thousand years. But none of that would help him this day. The Tribunal, headed by
Minister of Magic Albus Dumbledore in his dual capacity as head of the Wizengamot, would be
assembling in a few short minutes. In their hands, and theirs alone, lay the fate of "The Boy
Who Killed."
Dumbledore inched his wand forward and sent a narrow beam of energy into the hall. It nudged the
back of Arthur Weasley like the gentle prod of a finger, and the tall, flame-haired wizard turned
about searchingly. Peering into a shadowed arch which the capering torchlight seemed to obfuscate
rather than define, he spied the narrow strip of light at the edge of the door upon which the words
MINISTER OF MAGIC shone in letters of buffed gold. A long, bony finger beckoned, and Arthur rose
from his chair and entered the chamber, closing the door behind him.
"The Tribunal will be convening in ten minutes, Arthur," Dumbledore said, his eyes
flickering toward the face of the antique grandfather clock standing by the doorway. "Will you
kindly pop over to St. Mungo's and fetch Harry?"
Before Arthur could reply, a door slammed on the opposite side of Dumbledore's chamber, its
handle still gripped by the white-knuckled hand of a thoroughly astonished Cornelius Fudge. He was
dressed in the somber black robes of a member of the Tribunal. The lime-green bowler in his hand
seemed quite absurd by contrast.
"Did I hear correctly, Albus? Harry Potter is not in his cell? What in Merlin's name are
you thinking?"
"He is at his wife's bedside," Dumbledore said quietly. He nodded at Arthur, who
edged past the former Minister of Magic and departed through the back door without a word.
His fingers caressing the rim of his bowler as a military man might fondle a riding crop, Fudge
said stiffly, "I trust he is under guard, at least?"
"No," Dumbledore replied evenly. "He is not."
"Are you mad?" Fudge spat. "What's to stop him from escaping?"
With a deep sadness in his eyes, Dumbledore said, "Where can he go?"
Sitting in his chair by his beloved Hermione's bedside, Harry lay with his head on his
wife's bosom, listening to her faint, almost non-existent breathing. Without that reassurance,
he could not have told that she was still alive at all. The all but imperceptible rise and fall of
her chest gave only the meagerest of comfort to a soul long since emptied of all such feeling. But
it was the only thing he had to cling to. He had not left her side for three days, not eaten, not
truly slept. Some believed he was endeavoring to pour his own strength into her body, or perhaps to
magically siphon out the demons infesting her soul and absorb them into himself, thus freeing her
from the unendurable horrors from which her mind must lock itself away or be destroyed
forever.
As his head lay upon her breast, Harry's right hand gently stroked her bushy brown hair, which
was spread out on her pillow like a chocolate waterfall. His left hand was making slow, almost
reverent circles upon her abdomen. A footfall sounded behind him, and Harry quickly withdrew his
hand from his wife's midsection and sought out her own hand, catching it up and caressing it
with apparent adoration.
"I know, Harry," came a soft, sad voice from behind him.
Ginny Weasley pulled up a chair and sat beside Harry. She placed a hand on his shoulder, leaning in
to press her cheek against his arm.
"She told me," Ginny went on, her hand rubbing Harry's shoulder and neck
comfortingly. "The last time I saw her."
Fresh tears flowed over the dry tracks on Harry's cheeks. His hand released Hermione's and
lay once more upon her abdomen. Ginny's arm tightened around Harry's neck.
It was common knowledge among their friends that the Potters had elected to postpone starting a
family upon their marriage five years ago. Each had a career to nurture, and it was agreed that a
few years of added maturity, not to say a few extra Galleons in their vault, should precede any
plans to add to their household. With the practiced skill by which she had earned her reputation as
the smartest witch at Hogwarts, Hermione had performed a Contraceptive Charm on herself the day
before their wedding. This was no secret, and had, in fact, become the subject of much discussion
and speculation as to when the Potters would finally "come with child."
However, the ensuing years found their situation much improved from the day of their marriage. With
a larger flat and a fuller vault, they had finally decided that the time was right. In a jest of
cosmic proportions, Hermione had negated the Contraceptive Charm and substituted a Fertility Charm
only a week ago. The couple were to dine that evening at the best restaurant in Muggle London,
dance the night away, and return to their flat for, in Harry's words, "a night to set the
heavens ablaze." But on that very morning, Hermione was walking along an avenue in Hogsmeade
when an elderly witch stumbled and fell, dropping her sack of groceries. A melon rolled into an
alley, and Hermione, having first seen that the old witch was unhurt, went to fetch it. According
to witnesses, she vanished the moment she touched the melon. The elderly witch disappeared a moment
later, emitting, by one account, a drawling, malignant laugh that turned the listener's blood
to ice.
Harry lifted his head and looked into Ginny's eyes, which were filling with tears forming a sad
harmony with his own. She leaned in and hugged him, and he clung to her with what little strength
was left to him.
"My wife...is carrying...Malfoy's...baby..." Harry choked. For there was no doubt in
his mind that the Fertiity Charm, like every spell Hermione cast, had been successful.
"Sh-she's -- "
Harry cried onto Ginny's shoulder until her robes were sodden. It took all of Ginny's
resolve not to fall to pieces. She needed to be strong, for Harry.
"It doesn't have to be," Ginny said reassuringly. "There are -- potions --
Hermione doesn't -- "
"No," Harry said immediately, disengaging himself from Ginny's arms and jerking a
sleeve across his eyes. "No. That's not an option. I'll not kill an innocent baby. The
sins of the father will not be visited upon the child.
"But no one else can know," he said desperately. "It would get back to
Narcissa."
Harry's throat tightened painfully, choking off further speech. But Ginny needed no
elaboration. Deprived of both her husband and her son (and blaming Harry for the loss of both),
Narcissa would defy Hell itself to claim Hermione's child -- her grandchild and only heir -- as
her own. And her claim would be all too valid when Harry was sentenced and Hermione, for all
intents and purposes, became a ward of the magical community. No longer the naive child, Ginny knew
how the world worked, whether wizard or Muggle. Gold was the key that ultimately opened any door,
the battering ram before which the most steadfast wall crumbled. Regardless of Harry's
thoroughness in providing some sort of legal guardianship for Hermione in his absence, Ginny was
certain that Narcissa would circumvent every barrier standing between her and her goal and win
through in the end. She must not learn the truth! None save Ginny knew that the
Contraceptive Charm had been supplanted. And she made a silent vow, on price of her life, that the
secret would never pass her lips.
"Not even the Healers will suspect anything," Harry said numbly. "In this state,
Hermione's body is virtually inert. The Stunner allows the body to generate just enough energy
to keep it hovering on the razor's edge between life and death. The baby won't start
developing until -- until she's -- "
Ginny felt Harry tremble violently under her touch. Only her determination to remain strong for his
sake prevented her own body from shivering in like fashion. In her mind's eye, she could see
Narcissa striding into the hospital with a signed order compelling the Healers to awaken Hermione,
wipe her mind, and keep her body alive just long enough to bring the baby to full term. Once the
child had been turned over to its grandmother, the shell of flesh that had once been the most
brilliant witch of her generation would then be assigned a bed in the same ward as the Longbottoms,
there to live out her existence in a state hardly above that of a Mimbulus Mimbletonia. That was
assuming Narcissa did not find some way to elminiate her altogether, completing her triumph over
Harry with horripilous finality. Fresh tears began to stream from her eyes, burning her freckled
cheeks like acid.
"Is there no hope?" Ginny asked desperately. "With all the dozens of Memory
Charms, isn't there one that will help Hermione?"
"Do you remember what they told us at Hogwarts about Memory Charms?" Harry said as he
rubbed the corners of his eyes. His eyes burned from lack of sleep. It was hard to focus without
his glasses. But it was easier for him to look on his wife without the clarity they brought. He
could feel their weight in a pocket of his robes, where they had reposed for four days now.
Knitting the jumbled pieces of her mind as best she could, Ginny said, "I remember they told
us that no Memory Charm is foolproof, if that's what you mean. Any Charm that one person can
cast, another can negate. But who would want -- ?"
"There's more to it than that," Harry said. "A Memory Charm doesn't erase
memory -- except for the Complete Obliviate, of course," he added with a brief shudder.
"The Charm erects a wall between the conscious and the unconscious. And as you said, what one
wizard can erect, another can tear down. When Professor Lockhart lost his memory in the Chamber of
Secrets, it wasn't really gone, just blocked. Dumbledore said he had to 'go and get his
memory back.' It took a long time, but he did. And Ministry members have selective Memory
Charms placed on themselves so they won't give away important information, even unknowingly.
But that didn't prevent Voldemort from breaking through Bertha Jorkins' Memory Charm and
learning all about the Triwizard Tournament, and about Barty Crouch, Jr."
Harry rose on stiff legs, and punched his back a couple of times to relieve some of the stiffness
he had accumulated over the past 72 hours. He faced Ginny, and the worry on her face was evident,
even without his glasses to sharpen it.
"As I said, a Memory Charm is like a wall, and like any wall, it can be knocked down if
sufficient force is brought to bear against it. But everyone assumes that that force must
necessarily come from without. Very few consider that it can also be knocked down from
within."
Ginny's eyes widened with realization.
"The human mind is a dynamo of determination, of free will," Harry said, speaking as
though his wife's brain were directing his tongue from behind her motionless eyelids. "It
doesn't like being circumscribed. Shackled, it responds by rebelling against its oppressor.
Almost from the moment a Memory Charm is put in place, the unconscious mind starts trying to burst
through that confining wall to rejoin the conscious. Usually, the spell is stronger than the mind,
and the knowledge remains subdued. Usually. But sometimes, a memory is so powerful, it's like a
monster beating its fists against a prison wall. Given enough time, that constant assault
will knock that wall down. The memory will escape."
Ginny looked completely deflated. "I thought magic could do anything. It can petrify someone,
put them into a coma -- " she spared a brief, tortured glance at the Stunned, near-lifeless
form of Hermione, " -- even kill. (She pointedly avoided looking at Harry as she mouthed these
last words.) Why can't it just put a wall around a horrible memory and lock it up
forever?"
"It can," Harry said.
Ginny's head jerked up. "B-but," she stammered, "y-you just said -- "
"Magic," Harry said enigmatically, his eyes hard as the gems whose color they bore.
"Magic. It's what separates wizards from Muggles. It's in our blood. At the risk of
sounding like Malfoy," Harry laughed a short, bitter laugh, "magical blood does
make a difference. Though not in the sense of that pureblood rubbish. Hermione has Muggle parents.
But she's a witch. She has magical blood. It courses through her body. Through her
brain."
Harry paused, and Ginny sat perfectly still, not knowing if she wanted him to continue or
not.
"The Healers told me," Harry resumed, "that there are Memory Charms powerful
enough to suppress any memory. Even one as terrible as Hermione's. There are only a few
sorcerers with the skill to perform them. One lives just an owl-flight away, in Estonia. The
hospital director told me all about him. Old mate of Dumbledore's, I think. He's been
performing such Charms for a century. He's never known them to fail. He uses them on Muggles
who've seen terrible things, like Death Eater attacks and troll rampages. Not one Muggle has
ever broken through the spell. Not in a hundred years."
Ginny saw where Harry was going. "But Hermione isn't a Muggle. She's a
witch."
"Magical blood," Harry said, "is like an antibody. It slows aging, allows us to
fight off diseases. When the person of a wizard is attacked, either in body or in mind, it reacts
like -- like white blood cells."
"Leukocytes," Ginny said automatically. Then, almost apologetically: "Hermione told
me."
Harry smiled a genuine smile for a heartbeat. It faded quickly. "They told me that, if even
such a Memory Charm as I've described were placed on Hermione, the magic in her blood would
attack the barrier holding her memory back. It would be like an invisible war, magic against magic.
Hermione's magic would attack the magic of the Charm like acid. Sooner or later, the barrier
would dissolve. How soon, none can say. She'd be a walking time bomb. By the Healers'
reckoning, when the explosion came, Hermione's mind would consume itself like dry parchment
touched by a candle flame. There would be nothing left. Nothing."
Harry's voice choked off, but Ginny needed no further clarification. There was no Memory Charm
so potent but that Hermione's powerful magical blood could shatter it to dust, releasing the
memory of that terrible night -- which memory, the personnel of St. Mungo's agreed as one,
would render Hermione irrevokably insane. Ginny's thoughts drifted back to the time when they
had visited St. Mungo's after her father was attacked at the Ministry and left for dead.
Following that visit, they had encountered first Gilderoy Lockhart, still addled from the Memory
Charm that had backfired on him years earlier -- and Neville's parents, Frank and Alice
Longbottom, their minds shattered from the ordeal they had endured at the hand of Bellatrix
Lestrange.
Ginny felt a sudden chill. She had visited the Longbottoms any number of times since then, always
in the company of Neville, with whom she had been dancing a sort of tentative "courtship
tango" since her graduation from Hogwarts. Her innate compassion had always made it easy for
her to sympathize with Neville over his parents' tragic state -- but until this moment, she had
never quite experienced the same level of horror and despair that had been Neville's burden for
more than two decades now. With the suddenness of an arrow piercing her heart, she understood at
last the full measure of the haunted look that was always just below the surface of his bright,
laughing eyes. She choked back a bitter laugh. How many times had she endeavored to comfort Neville
with the reminder that it could be worse, that at least his parents were still alive? Her hand
clutching tremblingly at the neck of her robes, Ginny knew now with a chill, dogmatic certitude
that there were, in truth, fates far worse than mere death.
Ginny jumped at the unexpected sound of a light rapping on the door. She turned to see her father
enter the hospital room, his face controlled beneath his high, balding forehead.
"It's time, Harry," Arthur said.
Harry nodded once. "Have the papers been filed, Arthur?"
"Yes," Arthur said. "Everything is in order. Just as you specified."
At Ginny's questioning look, Harry walked over and took her hand. "When I go to
Azkaban," he said with icy calm, "your parents will become Hermione's
guardians."
"But," Ginny said weakly, "the Grangers -- "
"No," Harry said. "They'd never understand. They'd call in Muggle doctors,
waste thousands of pounds -- and more, waste countless years hoping -- hoping for something that --
" Harry broke off, releasing Ginny's hand to cover his face for a moment.
"Besides," he said with a forced smile as his hand dropped heavily to his side,
"maybe a miracle will happen. Who knows? If anyone can do it, it's -- Hermione -- she can
do -- " Harry stifled a sob with a long, deep breath. His eyes embraced Ginny's
pleadingly. "Take care of her," he said, and Ginny read in his eyes the addendum:
"Both of them." Remembering Arthur's presence, Harry turned and said, "You --
all of you -- you're -- like the family I never had. There's no one else I'd trust to
-- "
Ginny leaped up and fell upon Harry. As they clung to each other, Ginny sobbed, "Oh, Harry!
I'm so afraid for you, going to that -- that horrible place!"
But when Harry pulled back, Ginny saw a strange calm pervading the emerald eyes that regarded her
from a face at once youthful and tragically aged.
"I'm not afraid," he said as he saw Arthur beckoning with the open door upon which
his hand rested with a sort of melancholy denouement. "What can they do to me? Dementors steal
hope and happiness from people. The joke's on them, isn't it?" Harry's voice
became a dry, hollow rasp. "I have none to give."
Author's Note: This story is now being posted exclusively at Portkey. FanFiction.Net saw
fit to remove the story and place me on suspension. If that's the way they feel, I'm not
going back. For all I care, they can take a niffler and stick where the sun don't shine. I
guess we know now where Slytherin Squibs find work in the Muggle world, don't we?
Not that I don't acknowledge that this IS a powerful story, as witness the exodus of a few
first-chapter reviewers. Still, I knew what I was letting myself in for. And this chapter
doesn't seem to help matters, does it? What more can I possibly do to Harry? Anyone would think
I'm a R/Hr shipper the way I'm torturing The Boy Who Killed -- er, Lived. But there IS a
method to my madness, and I won't keep the readership waiting until the last chapter before the
road takes a sharp turn toward sunnier skies. There's more than one surprise in store, allowing
me to dole them out early and still leave the capper for the end.
Thanks to all who are enduring the misery. I promise not to twist the knife much longer. See you
next week.
The dozens of torches lining the walls of the Hall of Justice could not entirely dispel the
shadows lurking in the recesses of the high, arched ceiling. Glimpsed occasionally in the darkness
overhead were dim, silvery outlines of ghosts -- shades of witches and wizards whose final
destinies had been wrought by the pronouncements issued from this solemn chamber. It was their
custom to gather at such times as this, eager to see if their number were to be increased by the
judgment rendered below.
The Minister of Magic sat in an ancient, high-backed chair that was chased with gold and carved
with symbols and images representing an age lost to history books, surviving only in tales and
legends told in furtive whispers behind locked doors. The Minister's black velvet robes were
now surmounted by a cape of deep purple. The long, tapering fingers of his right hand were folded
around the shaft of a silver scepter, its head set with rubies that gleamed in the torchlight like
droplets of frozen blood. The flickering light likewise reflected from the Minister's noble
features, which were somber, almost funereal. His long, silver beard and hair were tinged with
amber, and the dancing flames were reflected in the lenses of his half-moon spectacles like tiny,
flickering stars.
In all the great hall, none save the Minister was seated. Hundreds of faces looked to him
expectantly. Only at the Minister's direction was any permitted to sit. The Minister was
reading a scroll of parchment spread upon his bench, held at the top by his left hand and anchored
at the bottom by the crown of his scepter. The Minister read every word on the parchment carefully
before his head bobbed once, as if in acknowledgment of the pronouncement written thereon. He
released the parchment, which snapped back into a roll. He placed it to his left before rising to
his full height atop the raised dais. With a quick, practiced eye, he surveyed the assembly of
witches and wizards who filled the hall to the farthest corner.
To the left of his bench stood the Council of Peers -- an amalgam of a Muggle jury and the British
Parliament's House of Commons. It was comprised of ordinary wizarding folk who had been
summoned at random to serve as an impartial body to render judgment from a perspective roughly
equal to that of the accused.
Their counterpart stood on the Minister's right: The Council of Ministers. This was made up of
officials from the Ministry of Magic, serving in a capacity as to represent the higher aspects of
the wizarding world.
The walls of the hall proper were lined with polished wooden benches, each filled to bursting with
spectators. The first two rows on either side were designated for those who bore some personal
stake in the proceedings. From her place in the first row on the left, a severe-looking woman with
silver-blond hair tugged a black silk cape around her predatory shoulders, looking poisoned daggers
alternately at the Minister's bench and at a long table standing just before the high dais upon
which the former sat. On the other side of the chamber, the first row was a sea of blazing red hair
from near end to far. Their eyes were likewise upon either the long table or the Minister's
bench; but whereas Narcissa Malfoy's eyes were chips of soul-chilling ice, the eyes of every
member of the Weasley family were soft and compassionate, though tinged with the unmistakable glaze
of fear and dread.
Two rows of short tables, divided by a central aisle, sat behind the longer one. Here were gathered
representatives from wizarding publications across the world, foreign counterparts of the Daily
Prophet, each eager to bring its readers first-hand news of the biggest story since the final
defeat of the Dark Lord. The reporter for the Daily Prophet stood at the first table on the right,
a Quick-Quotes Quill poised quiveringly atop a sheet of parchment that was held in place by
two-inch fingernails painted a lurid crimson.
Minister Dumbledore extended his arms, the silver scepter still held in his right hand, and bowed
ceremonially. The spectators all sat. Only the figures at the long table remained standing. The
Minister, himself still erect, turned his eyes upon the pair unwinkingly.
"Are you ready to hear the judgment of the Tribunal?" Dumbledore said auspiciously.
"Mr. Potter? Mr. Weasley?"
Arthur nodded and said, "Yes, Minister." Harry's eyes remained fixed on the surface
of the table. Another Minister might have taken this as an affront to his dignity and authority --
certainly Cornelius Fudge would have, to judge from the sour look of disapproval he flashed from
his place in the front row of the Council of Ministers. But Dumbledore merely nodded, accepting
Arthur Weasley's words as representing the accused as well as himself.
Ordinarily, Arthur would have been seated alongside Fudge and the other Ministers. But he had
excused himself on grounds of partiality, freeing him to assume his present role as Harry's
counsel. As Arthur looked on, Dumbledore retrieved the scroll of parchment from his bench, setting
aside his ritual scepter. He unrolled the parchment and read in a voice that carried to the
farthest corner of the hall.
"In the case of the peoples of the magical community of Great Britain versus Harry
Potter," Dumbledore said slowly, "the Tribunal has rendered judgment on the two charges
levelled against the accused.
"The first charge: Murder."
A low rumble of murmurs swept the gallery, punctuated by occasional gasps and sobs from those
assembled in support of Harry, and offset by hisses and other derisive noises from those
surrounding Narcissa Malfoy.
"Wizarding law," Dumbledore stated, "is steeped in ancient tradition. One of the
oldest of these, upheld in countless thousands of cases, is the Right of Vengeance. Any witch or
wizard who has been wronged by another is recognized to have the right to exact toll in direct
proportion to the degree of the original offense. A governing body may not infringe upon this
right. The Ministry of Magic, and this Tribunal which is its appointed agent, shall render verdict
only insofar as the act of vengeance may exceed the scope of the offense.
"Given the heinous nature of the crime perpetrated upon the wife of the accused, this body has
ruled that the degree of vengeance imposed by the accused was, and is, within the parameters of
equanimity. Therefore, in response to the charge of murder, we the Tribunal find the accused, Mr.
Harry Potter -- not guilty."
Screams of outrage reverberated from the left side of the chamber, smothering the sobs and
prayerful thanks coming from the other side, primarily from the Weasleys.
Throwing her silk cloak down savagely, her face a mask of volcanic fury, Narcissa shrieked,
"That piece of filth murdered my son! Is this what you call JUSTICE, you damned
Mudblood-loving -- "
But Narcissa Malfoy's words were cut off as three security wizards immediately pointed their
wands at her. Though her own wand was presently locked in a storage area adjoining the main
chamber, confiscated along with everyone else's for reasons of security, she made an
instinctive move to draw it that was nearly her undoing. The ranking security wizard, acting on
reflex, shot red sparks across her right shoulder. Her hand froze, her pale eyes simmering like
white-hot ash. Had her hand gone so far as to disappear inside her robes, she would no doubt be
Stupefied at this very moment. She opened her mouth, no doubt to hurl some rebuke, but the wizards
all pointed their wands at her head. Did she but utter one sound, she harbored no doubt that one or
more of the guards would use a Silencing Charm on her without hesitation. She closed her mouth with
as much dignity as she could salvage and lifted her eyes in a gesture of regal dismissal. The
security wizards pocketed their wands and returned to their stations without a word.
Dumbledore, having waited patiently for the restoration of calm, returned his attention to the
scroll in his hands.
"The second charge," he resumed in a noticably heavier voice than before, "may, in
fact, be viewed as the greater of the two: Willful use of Dark Magic and/or inhuman employment of
magic upon the person of a human being."
The elation Arthur Weasley had evidenced at the reading of the first verdict melted away, to be
replaced with a cold, nameless dread. Swallowing dryly, he stood resolutely beside Harry, whose
face was set in stone.
"Vengeance," Dumbledore said meaningfully, " Must not and shall not
become a license for good witches and wizards to descend into the Abyss. For how can we in all good
conscience oppose the forces of Darkness if we can abase ourselves by employing those same
vile forces when it suits our purpose?
"It is true that the Ministry has, in times past, granted Special Dispensation to the Aurors
to employ Dark Magic against our enemies, most recently in the war against Lord Voldemort."
More than a few gasps of horror followed Dumbledore's voicing of the name. "This
must not, however, be seen as a wedge to be used to prop open the door to Hell. For as long as I
may be priveleged to sit upon this bench, the employment of magic for inhuman purposes will
not be sanctioned upon British soil.
"Therefore, as regards the second charge, this Tribunal has no recourse but to find Mr. Potter
-- guilty as charged."
The renewed sobbing from the right side was now become wails of torment. Ginny and Molly wept
openly, as did many of Harry's schoolmates (of either gender) who sat in the row above the
Weasleys. On the other side of the chamber, Narcissa Malfoy made no sound. But her cold, grey eyes
were triumphant as they regarded her son's killer with a savage satisfaction.
The scroll of parchment returned once more to the surface of his bench, Dumbledore asked, "Has
the defendant anything to say for the record before this Tribunal is adjourned?"
At last Harry raised his head, lifting his eyes until they met those of his teacher, mentor and
friend. They spoke clearly, without benefit of words. Dumbledore nodded, smiling wanly from beneath
his silver moustaches.
"Court will reconvene one week from today, at which time sentence will be pronounced. This
Tribunal is adjourned."
Black-robed wizards appeared on either side of Harry, pointing their wands. Manacles materialized
out of thin air, binding his wrists and ankles.
"Is that necessary, Minister?" Arthur asked respectfully.
"Now that judgment has been passed," Dumbledore said, "procedure must be followed.
Not even the Minister of Magic can supercede the law. I am truly sorry, Harry."
To everyone's surprise, Harry's face shone with a smile reflecting a tranquility of spirit
that was inconceivable to any save the old wizard before whom he stood.
"You've been a good friend, Albus," Harry said. "The dementors permitting,
I'll never forget you.
"Nor you, Arthur," he added with a glance over his shoulder as the guards escorted him
from the chamber. "If I don't see you again, thank you -- for everything."
Doing his best to block out Ginny Weasley's heart-wrenching sobs, Harry exited the Hall of
Judgment, flanked by his guards. Looking straight ahead, he did not see the silent tears streaking
the faces of Albus Dumbledore and Arthur Weasley. And it was, perhaps, better that way.
Author's Note: I'm accelerating the posting schedule a bit to accomodate some
prearranged madness next month. Following a brief pause, more stories will be forthcoming after
this one is completed. I'd prefer more time to proof each chapter, but I hope I can limp along
without too many overlooked potholes going unfilled.
I continue to be amazed at the response this story is generating. Even the negative feedback is
flattering in its way; I suppose it's better than being ignored altogether.
The next chapter, five of nine, is the keystone, both in number and in plot. I hope those of you
who are still suffering from the previous chapters' slings and arrows will bind up your wounds
and have another go. Until then, thanks for reading.
Dumbledore sat in an upholstered chair in his study, which room was part of his living quarters
at the Ministry of Magic. Befitting its designation, it was lined with shelves of books, many of
which were of an age to make the room's occupant seem a babe in swaddling clothes by
comparison. It was cluttered as a room can only be which is the habitation of an unmarried and
eccentric man. Quaint artifacts and curious magical objects littered nearly every square
centimeter. The overflowing mantel above the stone fireplace would not have been out of place in
Borgin and Burkes' curio shop in Knockturn Alley.
Dumbledore sat with his legs crossed, a large and very old book balanced on his knee. He was
reading by the light of a magical window that was enchanted to duplicate the conditions one would
normally see if that window were set in a tower high above ground rather than here in the deepest
recesses of the Ministry. So immersed was he in the scratchy, faded writing on the yellowed pages
that he seemed unaware of the rapping upon his chamber door. It was only when he stopped reading
long enough to turn a page that he heard the sound for the first time. With a self-chastising smile
on his bearded lips, he waved his hand in the direction of the door. The magical lock clicked, and
the door opened to reveal three figures. Two tall, burly wizards in somber black robes flanked a
third, smaller figure. The two Ministry guards both had their wands pointed at the smaller man,
even though this one was shackled hand and foot and gave no appea rance of resisting in any
way.
"Enter," Dumbledore said, marking his place with an ornate linen bookmark before closing
the book, which remained on his lap. As the three figures approached, the Minister waved his hand
again. Immediately the manacles vanished from the prisoner. The guards fidgeted nervously.
"Is -- is that wise, Minister?" one guard questioned in a manner both challenging and
deferential. It was a gift that had served him well in many years of service with the
Ministry.
"Mr. Potter will be no trouble, I assure you," Dumbledore smiled at each guard in turn.
"You may leave us."
Not daring to question the Minister of Magic a second time in so short an interval, the guard bowed
and left the study with his black-robed counterpart. Dumbledore re-locked the door with another
wave of his hand.
An empty chair, similar to Dumbledore's, stood near at hand, and Harry expected to be invited
to sit. Instead, the old wizard gave him a penetrating look before patting the book on his knee and
saying, "Come, Harry. I wish to show you something."
Harry approached so as to be able to look over Dumbledore's shoulder. He watched as the long,
tapering fingers opened the book once more and moved the linen bookmark aside.
"Did you know, Harry," Dumbledore said as if in casual conversation, "that the
library at Hogwarts is the most complete repository of magical knowledge in all of Britain? It is
my understanding that it is among the ten best in the world."
Harry nodded, as was evidently expected of him. He knew he was to be sentenced today -- in less
than one hour, to be precise. He supposed that Dumbledore had summoned him here so as to spare him
the shock of hearing the pronouncement in the public venue of the Hall of Justice, allowing him to
absorb the news in a calmer environment before it was made official. It was a consideration, a
dignity, few save Dumbledore would have bestowed, and Harry was grateful.
But if this were so, why did Dumbledore seem so -- detached? Dumbledore's compassion was
well-documented, even did Harry not know of it first-hand. It was quite unlike the old wizard,
whatever his eccentricities, to string him along in so careless a manner. However, Harry had long
since resigned himself to his fate, whatever it might be. The burden on his soul was so great that
Harry found he had neither the strength nor the curiosity to pursue the mystery. Thus, when
Dumbledore tapped a long, bony finger purposefully upon the surface of the page opened before him,
Harry leaned in attentively, adjusting his glasses for effect.
"In the Hall of Judgment," Dumbledore was saying, "I spoke of wizarding law being
rooted in tradition. I began to wonder, therefore: How did the wizarding world deal with -- what is
the appropriate term? -- ah, yes -- social misfits -- before the construction of Azkaban? Oh, to be
sure, most everyone knows that, in the most extreme cases, witches and wizards were executed, most
often by hanging. But what sort of punishment was levied in the less extreme cases? The question
began to consume me, and I knew I could not rest until I discovered the answer. So I fell back on
an axiom of one of my best and most favorite students: When in doubt, consult a book.
Harry's heart pulsed with a stab of white-hot pain. He could not fail to recognize the axiom in
question as a favorite of Hermione's, quoted by her more times than he could remember. For a
moment, Harry was stung by the old wizard's seemingly cavalier reference to the woman who lay
insensate in her bed at St. Mungo's. But the pain in his heart melted as he noted the reverence
in Dumbledore's voice, the tenderness in his pale blue eyes, at this fondly undisguised
allusion. If none loved Hermione so deeply as did Harry, there was yet no shortage of those whose
hearts embraced her as wholly as if she were part and parcel of their own souls; and of those,
Harry knew, none felt the pain of her absence more than Dumbledore.
Dumbledore was now tapping his finger emphatically upon the page, calling Harry's attention to
a certain paragraph. Harry leaned in, careful not to block the magic sunlight streaming from the
enchanted window.
"For three days and three nights I searched, Harry," Dumbledore said with a note of quiet
triumph in his soft voice. "And my search was rewarded. With this."
Dumbledore adjusted his half-moon spectacles before tilting the book slightly so that Harry had a
clear view of the indicated paragraph. Harry's eyes narrowed. Even in the bright
"morning" light, the letters were hard to distinguish. What he'd thought at first was
Old English was, he now realized, something alien, a sort of bastardization of English and Gaelic,
with something else, something unrecognizable, thrown in. The letters were faded in places, rubbed
thin in others, as if by the fingers of academicians who lived and died a thousand years before he
was born. For Harry strongly suspected that this book was among the first placed in the Hogwarts
library by one or another of its four founders more than a millenium past. Harry tried his best to
read the writing, but it was a hopeless exercise. Seeing the confusion in Harry's eyes,
Dumbledore chuckled apologetically.
"Forgive me, Harry. I read and speak so many languages that I often forget. If you will permit
me."
Dumbledore set the book squarely before him and regarded Harry from the corner of his eye.
"As you may have guessed, Harry, this book is very ancient -- more than one thousand years
old. It is written in a language that was once common amongst the magical peoples of the British
Isles, but is now all but forgotten. The grammar and syntax are a bit ponderous, so you will
forgive me if I paraphrase.
"In the days before the magical world was governed by rules of order, punishments were often
extreme and severe. Magical folk believed that the world was meant to be shared by wizards and
Muggles, in a harmony of peace and understanding; consequently, any misuse of magic was seen as a
threat not only to the magical community, but to civilization as a whole. Any witch or wizard who
was judged to be a threat to the general order was deemed unfit to practice magic. But how enforce
such a plebiscite? There was as yet no suitable means of isolating an anti-social wizard from the
world. Prisons such as Azkaban, and its inevitable foreign counterparts, were not yet conceived.
Execution was often the only recourse. Snapping a wizard's wand was a temporary solution at
best, as one could always find a way to steal another's wand. A skilled wizard could even
fashion his own wand by plucking a unicorn tail hair and encasing it in wood. It would not
be the equal of an Ollivander's wand, but in the wrong hands it could still do terrible things.
Distasteful though it was to decent magical folk, execution seemed the only viable solution.
"That is, until the Mortalis Potion was devised."
Dumbledore surveyed Harry over the rims of his spectacles. Genuine curiosity was growing in
Harry's eyes, struggling through his dispassionate mantle. The old wizard smiled.
"The Mortalis Potion," Dumbledore said, "was one of the most complex -- and
dangerous -- potions ever created. It had the power to destroy forever a wizard's magical
blood. For all intents and purposes, the drinker became a Muggle. He was then cast out, made an
eternal exile from the wizarding world. This sentence was irrevokable, for the effects of the
potion were permanent and irreversible. The condemned would live out the remainder of his life as a
Muggle. It was seen as the perfect solution -- no pun intended."
Dumbledore's eyes twinkled briefly before they clouded over, becoming dark as shadowed
sapphires.
"Unfortunately," he said heavily, "it was an extremely difficult potion to brew.
Many weeks of intense preparation were required, involving dozens of steps. If but a single one of
these steps went awry, even to the slightest degree -- " Dumbledore paused for emphasis,
" -- the potion became a deadly poison, resulting in a most horrible and painful death for
whoever partook of it.
"This was, of course, of little moment to those passing judgment. For either outcome would rid
the magical world of an unwanted pariah. The magical world as a whole was ignorant of this, else
there might have been a public outcry and general chaos. Abberations such as Tom Riddle to the
contrary, wizarding society has always viewed any form of violence with disdain, even in situations
where it might serve a greater good. But as the coming generations saw the formation of the
Ministry of Magic, a renaissance of sorts swept the wizarding world. Azkaban was conceived and
built, executions were phased out, and the Mortalis Potion was ultimately abandoned and forgotten,
relegated to vague, half-remembered fables -- and, of course, to rare and ancient books such as
this."
Dumbledore closed the book on his lap slowly and looked up at Harry. Eyes of crystal blue pierced
those of emerald green. It was suddenly as if Harry had been hit with the Jelly-Legs Curse. He
caught himself on the arm of Dumbledore's chair, and the old wizard quickly Summoned the empty
chair on his right with a wave of his hand so that it bumped against the backs of Harry's legs.
Harry fell limply onto the cushions and sat for a full minute, drawing slow, measured breaths. When
his breathing seemed normal again, Dumbledore leaned forward and placed a hand upon the arm of
Harry's chair.
"The choice is yours, Harry. The privelege of my office allows me this latitude. The
prescribed sentence is no doubt as you may have expected: A life term in Azkaban, with no
consideration of parole for a minimum of fifty years."
Harry sighed heavily, yet not without resolve, Dumbledore noted.
"If the potion does kill me," Harry said listlessly, "at least it'll all
be over. I know Arthur and Molly will take good care of Hermione. They couldn't love her more
if she were their own daughter. As far as my own options go, I remember what Sirius told me about
his years in Azkaban, how the dementors only steal happy thoughts. The dark thoughts remain and
fester in the soul. Given the thoughts I'm likely to experience in Azkaban, I almost hope the
bloody stuff does kill me."
Nodding once, Dumbledore said, "I anticipated your decision, Harry. The potion is ready now.
You need only sign this release form."
Harry saw that Dumbledore was now holding a piece of parchment and a quill in one hand, a bottle of
ink in the other, all no doubt Summoned from his writing desk while Harry's attention was
distracted. Harry took parchment and quill, availed himself of the open bottle of ink Dumbledore
held out for him, and signed. He did not bother reading the form. He had trusted Dumbledore with
his life too often in the past to doubt him at this late hour.
Dumbledore rose from his chair and walked to his desk. He opened a drawer, took out an object which
Harry sluggishly recognized as an official Ministry stamp with a long wooden handle. Dumbledore
stamped the official Ministry seal on the parchment, affixed it magically with a wave of his wand,
then returned parchment, quill, ink and stamp to the drawer and closed it. This done, he waved a
hand at a small door on the other side of his study. Harry had taken scant notice of this door,
which was shadowed and nearly hidden by the wall of books shouldering it on either side. The door
opened on silent hinges.
"Enter, please, Severus," Dumbledore said.
Harry was nearly jerked out of his lethargy. Severus Snape entered the study, looking exactly as
Harry remembered him from school, from the malevolent glint in his black eyes to the disdainful
sneer curling his lip. Snape glided across the room as Dumbledore left his desk to intercept and
greet him. Dumbledore extended his hand, and Snape took it.
"Thank you, Severus," Dumbledore said as Harry, his knees still too weak to permit him to
rise, looked up at the two wizards, each as different from the other as if they had been birthed in
separate universes.
"Minister," Snape said formally with a brief, respectful nod.
With no further ado, Snape reached into his bat-like robes and produced a brass flask that gleamed
dully in the morning light. Nodding solemnly, Dumbledore Summoned a pewter goblet from a cabinet
that was mounted above a rack of dusty bottles of wine, each of which was of a vintage to humble
the finest cellars in Europe. He handed the goblet to Snape, who pulled the stopper from the flask
and poured a measure of potion with a practiced eye.
"Drink it all, Potter," Snape commanded, thrusting the goblet at Harry violently. Harry
took the goblet, appraised its smoking contents, then looked up and smiled with stony
amusement.
"Going to watch me die, Snape?" Harry said blandly. "Albus tells me that death is
both painful and horrible."
"Only if the potion is brewed improperly," Snape returned with a cruel smile spreading
beneath his hooked nose. "As to that, we shall see, shan't we?"
Snape made no attempt to disguise a mordant leer as Harry raised the goblet and drained it in two
gulps.
Instantly, it was as if liquid fire were coursing through Harry's veins. He pitched out of his
chair and fell writhing to the floor. Harry had not felt such agony since the night when Voldemort
had placed him under the Cruciatus Curse in the graveyard in Little Hangleton. Lights exploded
behind his eyes, which were squeezed tight as knotted fists, blinding his brain. A roaring in his
ears drowned out all sound save his own strangled cries, which seemed magnified a thousandfold. His
flesh felt as if it had been doused in lamp oil and set alight. Let me die! Harry's mind
screamed. No more! Please, let me die! Then, blissfully, everything went black.
Harry opened his eyes suddenly, fully aware. He was on the hearth before the fireplace, curled into
a ball. If his mind were unaffected by his ordeal, the same could not be said for his body. He was
tingling from the top of his head to the tips of his fingers and toes. He felt burning sensations
that spoke of wrenched joints and strained muscles, easily recognized from seven years of
no-holds-barred Quidditch matches at Hogwarts. As he essayed to unfold his stiff, knotted limbs, he
felt a gentle hand on his shoulder.
"Can you stand, Harry?"
Although Dumbledore's question registered instantly on his brain, his body seemed reluctant to
comply. Dumbledore reached down and took Harry's arm, and Harry found himself being lifted to
his feet by a strength which, coming from Dumbledore's thin, spare body, seemed more magical
than anything wrought by the old wizard's wand. Harry straightened slowly until he was standing
erect. Dumbledore released him tentatively, and Harry was relieved to discover that he could stand
unaided, if shakily.
"Not dead, I see," Dumbledore chuckled, though the jest was lost on Harry. But before
Harry could ponder whatever subtext Dumbledore's remark might conceal, the latter reached into
his robes and drew forth his wand. Or so Harry thought until it was pressed into his own
still-tingling hand. Even with fingers that felt as if they were clad in thick woolen gloves, Harry
could still recognize the feel of his familiar holly-and-phoenix-feather wand.
"One final test," Dumbledore said. "In the course of your convulsions, you dropped
your goblet over by your chair. Kindly Summon it for me, if you would?"
Obeying without a thought, Harry pointed his wand at the fallen goblet and said,
"Accio!"
The goblet did not move.
"Again, Harry," Dumbledore said. "Clear your mind. Concentrate. Focus your will with
all your might."
"ACCIO!" Harry barked, his wand thrust fiercely before him. The goblet remained
motionless in steadfast defiance of Harry's magical command. With what seemed to Harry a very
pleased and triumphant smile on his face, Dumbledore took Harry's wand back and returned it to
his robes.
"Well done, Severus," Dumbledore said. Harry turned, having forgotten that Snape was
present at all.
"Thank you, Minister," Snape said crisply, clearly enjoying his own portion of victory
which was his due.
"When can you administer the remainder of the potion?" Dumbledore asked, ill-suppressing
the eagerness in his voice.
"Within the hour, Minister. I took the liberty of making the arrangements in
advance."
"Excellent!" Dumbledore fairly exhulted.
"I -- don't understand," Harry said. "What -- remainder?"
"I asked Severus to brew up two portions of the Mortalis Potion, Harry,"
Dumbledore said. "With all apologies to our esteemed Potions Master, I preferred to witness
the effects of the first portion with my own eyes before I would authorize the administering of the
second."
"B-but," Harry stammered, "there's no need for a second dose. The potion
worked. I'm...I'm a...Muggle."
"So you are," Dumbledore agreed cheerfully. "And now that you have demonstrated that
the potion is indeed safe, I will sign the authorization which Severus will take with him to St.
Mungo's. With that parchment in hand, he will be empowered to administer the second portion
immediately -- to Hermione."
Harry stood for a moment as the full impact of Dumbledore's words struck him with a force
greater than the Hungarian Horntail that had nearly knocked him from his broomstick during the
first task of the Triwizard Tournament. With a strangled sob, Harry fell to his knees, tears
streaming down his face.
"God in Heaven," he croaked before his throat seized into an incoherent gurgle.
Completely overcome, Harry buried his face in his hands and cried like a baby.
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Harry sat at his wife's bedside, his hand massaging hers. He blinked repeatedly, his eyes
stinging from the powdery ash that fell in traces from his hair. (This was true as far as it went,
and in Harry's opinion it was as much as the personnel of St. Mungo's needed to know.) No
more able to Apparate (and portkeys being strictly regulated by the Ministry), he had used the Floo
system to come to St. Mungo's immediately following the adjournment of the court. The
sentencing had taken less than five minutes, the pronouncement (along with the Minister's
testimony regarding Harry's "demotion" from wizard to Muggle) being recorded for the
Ministry files and signed by Dumbledore in front of witnesses. In like manner, the Minister then
produced Harry's wand and snapped it in full view. The gunshot-like sound had pierced Harry
very nearly as an actual bullet through the chest. The image of the crumpled phoenix feather
protruding from the splintered wand ends was burned into the back of his mind. It was a
"death" he would mourn in another, more convenient venue. For the present, Harry had
other, far more critical concerns.
Harry removed his glasses to wipe them clean of a fine layer of ash. He almost regretted putting
them on again. The clear lenses brought out every smallest detail of Hermione's face. The tiny
traces of her once severe wounds were clearly visible from so near, like bird tracks on a field of
otherwise pristine snow. Harry comforted himself with the knowledge that the Healers at the
hospital would be able to remove every trace of them, once the Stunning Spell were lifted. The
spells and potions were effective only in concert with the body's normal healing functions,
which were dormant in her present comatose state.
Harry saw a shadow fall across Hermione's face, and he recognized its outline without
difficulty.
"What will the procedure be?" Harry asked without looking up.
Madam Zorgas reached out a large hand and lay it with feather lightness upon Hermione's
forehead, gently brushing aside strands of chestnut hair. Madam Zorgas was the attending Healer,
assigned to Hermione from the moment of her arrival. She was easily as large as the most ferocious
security guard Harry had encountered in the Ministry prison, but she had the kindest face he had
seen this side of Molly Weasley. There was a smell as of potion ingredients clinging to her hand,
and her pearl-gray robes were splattered with droplets of varying colors and textures. She was
doubtless engaged in preparing the very potions which would be used to restore Hermione to her
former state of vigor which she had enjoyed prior to the tragic events of two weeks ago. (Had it
really been two weeks? To Harry's spinning mind, it all seemed now like a terrible nightmare
from which he had only just awakened.) When next Hermione examined her face in the mirror with her
typical critical eye, she would find no trace of the brutal attack on her person that had very
nearly written the premature final chapter to her young and promising life. That life was now
returned to her as if nothing had happened to interrupt its smooth, immutable flow. But, Harry
mused disconsolately, what of its former promise? What of that?
"Simple enough," Madam Zorgas answered. She withdrew her hand from Hermione's face
and produced her wand from a pocket of her robes. "We will first negate the Stunning Spell,
whereupon she will be placed under the Imperius Curse."
Harry nodded without looking up. He knew, as did most every informed witch or wizard, that the head
of the hospital could authorize use of the Imperius in extreme cases. Hermione's surely
qualified if any did.
"She will fight it, of course," Madam Zorgas said resolutely. "A strong mind can
always fight the Imperius -- (Again Harry nodded, remembering his own success in fighting off the
Curse in a classroom exercise a seeming lifetime ago.) -- and she presently has some very powerful
emotions struggling to escape. But we will only need a minute. Once the Mortalis Potion has been
administered -- and the effects have -- subsided -- " Harry detected a barely-suppressed
shudder of deep regret in Madam Zorgas' voice, " -- Herr Kleinhorst will administer the
Memory Charm. Once he received our owl, he was only too eager to come. Fear not, Mr. Potter. His
reputation is unsurpassed. His Memory Charms never fail."
Harry was grateful beyond words that Herr Kleinhorst had come all the way from Estonia to treat
Hermione. It was his understanding that Professor Flitwick had studied under the old wizard
following his graduation from Hogwarts, and Flitwick's mastery in the art of Charms was itself
the stuff of legends. But his present concern was the Mortalis Potion.
"Does she...have to go through the pain?" Harry asked mournfully. It had been unspeakable
agony for him, but he would gladly have endured it a hundred times over to spare his beloved this
one exposure.
"Yes, Potter," came a hissing reply. The door stood open, the back light silhouetting the
bat-like outline of Severus Snape. He held a smoking goblet in his hand. "There is no other
way. It is no easy process to burn magic from one's blood. And I'm sure the Minister has
informed you that any modification results in the potion becoming lethal."
"The pain will pass, Harry," came another voice that spoke in soothing tones. Snape stood
aside to allow Dumbledore to enter. "And is it such a high price to pay for Hermione's
life and sanity?"
"No," Harry agreed quietly, caressing his wife's motionless hand. "Not such a
high price at all."
Harry sat in the waiting room, far enough away that he could not hear Hermione's screams,
either from her reawakened memories or from the effects of the Mortalis Potion.
Harry covered his face with his hands and wept in a kind of bitter ecatasy. Only a few hours ago,
all had seemed hopeless. Now, it was as if the sun were rising on a new day. Once the Mortalis
Potion had taken effect, Herr Kleinhorst would administer the Memory Charm. Every moment of
Hermione's terrible ordeal would be locked behind walls of metaphorical steel. And without
magical blood to assail those walls, they would endure indefinitely. For Hermione, it would be as
though the last two weeks had never happened. Her physical wounds would be healed by ordinary
spells and potions. No trace of the nightmare would remain.
Except that -- Harry shuddered -- Hermione would no longer be a witch. His eyes fell upon his
wristwatch. Hermione would have been given the Mortalis Potion by now. Harry's head fell into
his hands. His beloved wife, the brightest star in the wizarding firmament, was now, like Harry
himself, a Muggle. Their life in the wizarding world was ended forever. How would she react to the
news? Though born to Muggle parents, Hermione had come into her own at Hogwarts. From the first day
they met, on the Hogwarts Express, magic came as naturally to her as breathing. Harry wept
silently. He would gladly have spent a century in Azkaban to spare her this day.
A light footfall roused him. Harry raised his eyes to see the kindly face of Albus Dumbledore as he
entered the waiting room.
"It is over, Harry," Dumbledore said with a smile pale as moonlight on his aged face.
"Hermione is sleeping peacefully now. She was given a Dreamless Sleep Potion by Madam Zorgas,
who is now attending to her physical wounds. When she awakes, she will remember
nothing."
"How will we explain -- everything," Harry said weakly.
"A story has been prepared," Dumbledore said as he seated himself beside Harry, "to
which all involved will attest henceforth." Clearing his throat, Dumbledore recited:
"Hermione has fallen victim to a rare malady that has caused her to become allergic to magic.
In order to save her life, there was no recourse but to neutralize completely the magic in her
blood. Furthermore, prolonged exposure to magic of any sort, even to association with those
possessing magical blood, will result in a recurrance of the allergy, and, ultimately, her death.
For this reason, she is left with no option but to leave the magical world forever. In order that
the two of you might remain together, you volunteered to undergo the same procedure so as to share
her exile. Had you not done so, the magic in your blood would have poisoned her as readily
as her own would have. That is what she will be told, Harry. And for the sake of her health and san
ity, that is what she must believe."
Harry nodded heavily. The truth, of course, was that exposure to any form of magic would slowly
erode the magical barrier blocking Hermione's terrible ordeal from her conscious mind. To
prevent this, Harry must take Hermione away from the world she so loved, and which had returned
that love in kind. Harry's soul wept inwardly at this, which spiritual tears mingled with the
substantial tears of joy he could not help but shed at her return from the literal precipice of
doom.
"Hermione will know nothing of the trial?" Harry said painfully. "Of -- what I
did?"
"She will never know," Dumbledore said. "We have gone so far as to prepare false
editions of the Daily Prophet for the past two weeks. Previous experience has told us it will be
among the first things she will ask for during her convalescence."
"What about -- after?" Harry said. "If I know Hermione, she'll want a
subscription to the Prophet so she can keep up on the magical world. And if we try to dissuade her,
it will only make her suspicious."
"So it will," Dumbledore agreed brightly. "And with that in mind, I have already
spoken to the publisher of the Daily Prophet. All copies sent to you in your new life will be
edited to omit any mention of the Malfoys and -- ahem -- related events. And in the event that she
elects to request other wizarding publications, such as Witch Weekly, similar arrangements will me
made."
"That will prove a bit of a bother, won't it?" Harry postulated. "I mean, to
print up a special edition every day for just one subscriber?"
"The editors' consensus was that it is a very small price for the peace and security the
wizarding world has enjoyed since the destruction of Lord Voldemort," Dumbledore said
cheerfully.
Harry nodded. Though elated by Hermione's impending recovery, yet Harry felt a great weight on
his soul. Dumbledore read in his eyes what his mouth could not put into words.
"In time," Dumbledore said kindly, "you will forgive yourself, Harry. In
time."
"I killed a human being, Albus," Harry said, his eyes unable to meet the old
wizard's. "Nothing I do, no amount of remorse, can ever erase that."
"No," Dumbledore said. "It is a burden you will carry with you forever. To
paraphrase Dickens, we all wear the chains we forge for ourselves. But I pray you not to allow
those chains to bind you so tightly that you cannot spread your wings and fly as high as they may
carry you. Even a wizard's days are not without number. Use the days left to you to make the
world a better place. Be not bound by the past, Harry. Learn from it. We are none of us without
flaw. Until that day when we are all judged by a Higher Power, we can only strive to do the best we
possibly can not to repeat the mistakes of the past. Look to the future, Harry. Yours and
Hermione's."
"Can I see her now?" Harry said hopefully. "I know she won't know I'm there.
But I want to be with her when she wakes up. I want to -- tell her myself."
"I believe that would be best," Dumbledore agreed. As Harry moved toward the corridor,
Dumbledore said, "When you have told Hermione what you must, take the Floo back to the
Ministry. There are preparations we must make. I have left instructions that you are to be escorted
to me immediately. And -- one more thing, Harry. When Hermione awakes -- give her my
love."
Leaving the waiting room without a word, Harry hurried through the corridors until he came within
sight of the door to Hermione's room. Before he could take two steps toward it, the door
opened. Snape stood in the doorway, his sallow face frozen in as sour an expression as Harry had
ever seen. Refusing even the courtesy of leaving the way open for Harry, Snape closed the door and
turned to leave down the opposite corridor.
"Why, Severus?" Harry said abruptly.
Snape froze. Harry wasn't sure whether the Potions Master was more startled by the question, or
by the informal address.
"Why what?" Snape hissed, looking back over his shoulder.
"I figured it out," Harry said. "Sitting in the waiting room, I had time to put the
pieces together. Albus said that the Mortalis Potion required weeks of meticulous preparation. But
there was only one week between the verdict and the date of sentencing. And Albus spent the
first three days of that interval searching the library at Hogwarts. There wasn't nearly enough
time for even the most skilled Potions Master to brew such a potion. Unless Albus literally gave
you -- more time."
Snape had turned to face Harry. If possible, his expression had grown even more sour.
"Albus gave you a Time-Turner," Harry stated with flat certainty. In a silent addendum,
Harry thought, And since he was acting outside the parameters of his Office, I'd wager it
was the one Minerva keeps locked in her desk at Hogwarts. The same one, he reflected with grim
satisfaction, that Hermione and I used to save Sirius from your bloodthirsty vendetta. Then,
aloud: "You took a month out of your life -- "
"Five weeks," Snape said acidly, his eyes hard as obsidian.
"But why?" Harry repeated. "As much as you hate me -- "
"Hate you," Snape parroted sharply. "You flatter yourself, Potter. You are less than
the dragon dung I scrape from my boots when I depart the apothecary in Hogsmeade." Snape's
black eyes narrowed, his voice falling to an icy whisper. "I curse the day you came to
Hogwarts. The wizarding world hails you as their savior. The Boy Who Lived, the Promised One, the
destroyer of the Dark Lord. But I was never fooled. You are your father's son, Potter.
No rule too big or small that you can't break it at will, no line you won't cross if it
suits your purpose. They all bent over backwards to treat you like royalty, even the Headmaster.
And nothing has changed, has it? Any other wizard in your place would be on his way to Azkaban, in
chains. But not 'Saint Potter.'"
Harry's face was imperturbable as a death mask.
"Quite a speech, coming from one with the Dark Mark of a Death Eater branded on his arm,"
Harry said with emotionless pacific. "Want to talk about breaking rules, crossing lines?
Escaping punishment? How many people did you torture and kill when you served
Voldemort? Any other Death Eater would be rotting away in his cell in Azkaban, chatting up
rats and cockroaches -- yet here you stand, free and clear. Is that justice?
"But that still doesn't answer my question. If anything, it sharpens it more than ever.
Why?"
"For her, you idiot!" Snape spat, jerking his greasy head toward Hermione's
door so that his lank tresses danced about his griffonesque shoulders like a nest of adders.
"What Malfoy did to her -- " and here his teeth grated with every syllable, " -- no
one deserves that. Not even a simpering little know-it-all Mudblood."
Harry reacted as if struck a physical blow. It was all so clear now. Had he not been sunk so deeply
in grief and self-loathing, he would have seen it from the first. Even as Snape had deplored the
so-called "royal treatment" accorded to Harry, had not he himself treated Malfoy with as
much deference, and more? Had Snape not lavished such favoritism on Malfoy, virtually encouraging
the son of his former Death Eater colleague to follow the path laid out for him by his father, how
much evil and misery might have been averted? Had Draco not been so twisted as a sapling, perhaps
the tree had not grown into so foul a blight upon the earth. It might have required but a single
word of chastisement at the proper time to undo so much pain. Hermione need never have lain in that
bed of suffering.
And what of Draco himself? What might he have accomplished for the good of the wizarding world had
his eyes been diverted toward nobler horizons by the strength of a firm, guiding hand applied at
the proper moment? It was a chilling thought, not to mention a sobering one. In like manner as
Harry, Snape would forever wear the chains he had forged, both by deeds rendered...and, even more
tragically, those not done.
"You did it for Hermione," Harry said in a voice so soft that the words barely passed his
lips.
"You were nothing more than my guinea pig," Snape said in a voice cold as the breath of a
zombie. "It was a difficult potion to brew, even for one of my skill. The Minister did
not misrepresent the risk. There was always the smallest chance I would not succeed, that the
resulting potion would be a deadly poison. And that was the true beauty of the situation." An
expression of unabashed depravity contorted Snape's thin, vulture-like face. "If the
potion were successful, the Mudblood would be preserved, and I would be hailed a hero. And if it
failed -- why, then you would have died horribly, in such agony as your mind could not conceive.
Either way -- I would win."
His triumph complete, Snape gathered up his robes and made to turn his back on Harry in a final
gesture of dismissal. But Harry halted him in a voice thick with emotion, in which lurked no trace
of mockery.
"Thank you, Severus. May God bless you for what you have done here. I'll be grateful to
you for the rest of my life."
Snape looked pure hatred at Harry for a moment that embodied a lifetime. No curse, no insult, no
foulest obscenity could have burned him so deeply as these calm, sincere words. With a savage
snarl, Snape spun about in a swirl of black robes and disappeared down the corridor.
Harry stood alone in the silence, feeling a lightness of spirit he would not have thought possible
only an hour ago. He remembered a quote he'd heard long ago, one which he'd pondered now
and again, yet which his soul seemed evermore powerless to embrace ere now: "Only as ye
forgive, so shall ye be forgiven." A quiet, peaceful smile spread across Harry's face as
he opened the door and entered his wife's room.
Author's Note: Congratulations to those who put Chapters 4 and 5 together to see the
true significance of the Mortalis Potion. I didn't want to be TOO obvious, lest Chapter 5
become a textbook lecture as opposed to a series of natural events (or as "natural" as
things ever get in the wizarding world).
In answer to nurray's query, it has been established that Dumbledore's age is in excess of
150 years. One reputable site lists his year of birth as 1840. Yet, in the flashback in Chamber of
Secrets, Dumbledore's hair was still a youthful auburn in the year 1945, despite the fact that
he was all of 105 years old. A wizard's lifespan appears to be roughly twice that of a Muggle,
and the only difference between one and the other is magical blood. Put another way, can any of US
reasonably expect to live 150 years? And if we could, would our bodies be as healthy, and our minds
as sharp, as Dumbledore's? So I feel safe in concluding that magical blood IS the deciding
factor. (As an added bonus, isn't it a delicious thought to consider that Argus Filch won't
be around that much longer? Now why couldn't HE be allergic to magical blood? Oh, wait...I just
made that up, didn't I? Never mind.)
Thanks to all who are still reading (with added thanks to any who chanced to board the train on the
last stop). One more installment should be forthcoming before the long intermission preceding the
final chapters. And I promise, no more dark clouds, okay? (But a couple of surprises are hiding
around the corner, with the biggest saved for the final chapter.) Until next time...
Dumbledore's office at the Ministry of Magic was not nearly so affable a venue as his study.
At least, that was Harry's view. But that seemed only natural, as it was here that the actual
business of running the Ministry was conducted. If Dumbledore's study were the heart of his
offices, this was the brain.
Sitting in a hard wooden chair (a sharp contrast to the friendly stuffed chairs of the study)
before Dumbledore's desk, Harry accepted a large envelope from the Minister with a mildly
questioning look. It was not the common parchment envelope of the wizarding world, but a plain
Muggle manila envelope. At a nod from Dumbledore, Harry opened the flap and dipped his hand inside.
The crisp papers which emerged in a thick sheaf were very official-looking. Harry lay the pile on
Dumbledore's desk and flipped through them one by one, his expression reflecting a growing
amazement.
Lying here before him was full documentary evidence of a life -- two lives, actually -- lived for
the past two decades exclusively in the Muggle world. His and Hermione's lives. Lives which,
following their eleventh birthdays, might have been but never were.
"Muggles do thrive on paperwork," Dumbledore chortled, enjoying the glow of wonder
illuminating Harry's face. "Although, truth to tell, the wizarding world is closing the
gap every year. Merlin, the red tape I am forced to endure nowadays! At least once a week I feel I
would gladly chuck it all for a sack of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans and give it all back
to Fudge. I daresay he thrived on this sort of bureaucratic rubbish."
Harry's eyes were now resting on a pair of documents which seemed to assert themselves over and
above their fellows. He stared the elaborate scrollwork around the edges, at the crisp, black Old
English text spreading like an arching ironwork bridge across the top. They were diplomas,
attesting that he and Hermione had both completed the necessary courses to qualify as high school
graduates.
"If the two of you are to go on to university," Dumbledore said, recognizing the papers
in Harry's hand, "those will be among the most valuable documents you will find in that
not inconsiderable assortment."
Harry was scrutinizing the two diplomas intently. "I recognize this school. It's one of
the most exclusive boarding schools in Britain. I think I remember Uncle Vernon mentioning it once.
He seemed put off that they wouldn't even give him an appointment so he could submit an
application for Dudley. Then, quick as you please, he started in how they weren't half as good
as Smeltings and forbade anyone to mention their name again."
"Indeed?" Dumbledore said with an amused chuckle. "Not too surprising. Dudley is not
the first young man to be refused admission, and I daresay he will not be the last. It is no
exaggeration to say that Eddington Academy is the most exclusive institution of learning in
the whole of Britain, including Hogwarts." When Harry's eyebrows rose
questioningly, Dumbledore said, "Oh, yes. Hogwarts has hundreds of students, and their only
requirement for admission is the possession of magical blood. Eddington hosts only a fraction of
Hogwarts' number, and its requirements are far more stringent. It was established, and is
maintained, by the joint efforts of Hogwarts and the Ministry of Magic."
"I don't understand," Harry said. Dumbledore chuckled again.
"Have you ever wondered, Harry, how it is that so many children of Muggle families can attend
Hogwarts without their absence being noted by the non-magical world?"
In truth, Harry had scarcely given it a thought. "I know the Dursleys told everyone that
I attended St. Brutus's Secure Center for Incurably Criminal Boys." A slight shiver
accompanied this echo from his past. Given Harry's present state of affairs, perhaps the
Dursleys' metaphorical dart wasn't so far off the bullseye after all.
"That is, indeed, the story they told," Dumbledore said knowledgably. "And, in their
way, they were not far removed from every other Muggle whose child has gone off to attend Hogwarts.
In a modern society, a Muggle child cannot simply 'disappear' from the school system
without some form of documentation. It would arouse suspicion, drawing unwanted attention to
our world. Thus, when any Muggle-born child attends Hogwarts, a document is prepared and
delivered to his or her parents or guardians, attesting that the departed child is attending
another school -- one fully accredited by Her Majesty's government. And when that
child's term of study at Hogwarts is complete, a subsequent document -- a diploma -- is
forwarded in like manner." Nodding toward the papers in Harry's hands, Dumbledore said,
"The diplomas you now hold are the ones previously held by the Grangers and the Dursleys,
respectively. I don't believe the Dursleys even opened the envelope, but merely set it aside in
case someone should ask for proof that they had disposed of their duties as your guardians in an
acceptable manner. They surrendered it quite docilely when Alastor called on them on Tuesday
last."
Harry grinned at this, remembering how Uncle Vernon had cowed before Moody's magical eye at
King's Cross station a few years (and a lifetime) ago.
"Most Hogwarts graduates have little or no need of such documentation once they enter the
wizarding world as fully trained witches and wizards," Dumbledore went on. "In your case,
however, they will prove invaluable when, as I presume you will, you and Hermione set out to
prepare yourselves to become gainfully employed -- and, alas, taxpaying -- citizens of the Muggle
world."
"But," Harry said as he pondered the two diplomas with knitted brow, "we didn't
actually do anything to earn these diplomas. It wouldn't surprise me if
Hermione knew enough to go straight into Oxford, but what I know about history and
math and literature wouldn't fill a Cornish pixie's teacup."
"As may be," Dumbledore agreed pleasantly. "And that is why your first task upon
leaving the wizarding world will be to earn your diplomas. In fact, the paperwork for your
enrollment -- yours and Hermione's -- is being processed at Eddington even as I
speak."
"You mean," Harry gaped, "this is a real school? It's not just a Muggle
smokescreen?"
"Oh, it is very real, Harry," Dumbledore said assuredly. "And it serves many
functions. One department serves to educate Squibs whose wizarding families prefer not to immerse
them too deeply in Muggle society. Another exists to educate Aurors and other agents of the
Ministry in the ways of the Muggle world, so that they can pass among them freely without drawing
undue attention to themselves, and, by association, to our world. Rest assured," he added
summarily, "we will be taking great care to see that none of these 'students'
comes anywhere near Hermione so as to weaken her Memory Charm."
"The teachers are all non-magical, then?" Harry said.
"Quite so," Dumbledore nodded. "And they are all fully accredited, with references
that will withstand the most rigorous Muggle scrutiny."
"The last thing I expected to do after I left Hogwarts," Harry mused, "was go back
to school, Muggle or otherwise." Looking at his diploma again, he saw that two lines were
conspicuously blank: the date of graduation, and the signature of the headmaster or headmistress.
If these had existed before as mere formality, they had been effaced since. "It's been a
long time since I attended a Muggle school," Harry reflected. "I'm really going to
have to work to earn this."
"You will work quite as hard as you ever did at Hogwarts," Dumbledore said, sounding more
like the old Headmaster of Hogwarts rather than the present-day Minister of Magic. "The
Headmistress will see to that, make no mistake."
"She's a Squib, too?" Harry said.
"Yes," Dumbledore replied. (Was it Harry's imagination, or was there a familiar
twinkle in the corner of the old wizard's eye, just visible over the rims of his half-moon
spectacles?) "She is herself a graduate of Eddington, after which she went on to secure a
teaching degree at Cambridge before returning to her alma mater. She taught history and
governmental studies before being promoted to her present station. She may, in fact, be teaching
some of your classes. Though she may have a bit of catching up to do herself."
"Why is that?"
"Well," Dumbledore said (and here his eyes carefully avoided meeting Harry's),
"she took a sabbatical of sorts a few years ago -- at my request. In so doing, she risked
losing her old position when she returned. But I am happy to say that, with the help of a
sympathetic friend in the Ministry (Dumbledore was now fairly bursting with ebullience) she was
reinstated with little or no fuss -- shortly after your graduation from Hogwarts."
Harry's body jerked as if he had just touched an exposed electric wire.
"Mrs. Figg?"
As Dumbledore laughed delightedly, Harry's eyes came to rest on the diploma bearing
Hermione's name.
"How much do the Grangers know?" He spoke so softly that he was unsure if Dumbledore had
heard his question until the old wizard, his humor now subdued, spoke in calm, measured
tones.
"Precisely as much as Hermione. In the main, I believe they are delighted that their daughter
is returning to their world on a permanent basis. They were always supportive of Hermione's new
life, but I sensed that they never quite made peace with the notion of a magical world existing
side-by-side with their own. In their opinion, Hermione's 'malady' was nothing less
than Heaven-sent."
Harry was holding Hermione's diploma with something akin to reverence. "She always wanted
to go to university. I heard her talk about it more times than I can remember."
"How did Hermione take -- the 'news'?" Dumbledore asked gently.
"Like the Hermione I fell in love with would be expected to," Harry said with a pale
smile. "She's still in a sort of semi-shock at the realization that she's no longer a
witch. But it didn't surprise me to learn that, organized as she's always been, she had her
whole academic life mapped out by her tenth birthday. Her Hogwarts letter may have put those plans
on a side track, but she never really abandoned them. Now, she's just shifting her priorities
back to her original agenda. She didn't know precisely how she was going to do it, but
there was never a doubt in her mind that she would go to university after Hogwarts.
Now," and Harry brandished the diploma for emphasis, "I can remove her last doubt. I
think it will be the best thing I can give her."
Dumbledore's face fell momentarily, as if he were deciding whether the time were right to
broach a certain matter weighing upon his mind. He evidently decided to postpone the moment, for
his face brightened almost immediately.
"While you are establishing your new lives in the Muggle world," Dumbledore said,
"you will need funds more appropriate than Galleons and Sickles. Using my authority as
Minister, I have closed your Gringotts account and converted the contents of your vault into pounds
sterling. I will be conferring with Hermione's parents as to a suitable institution to which to
transfer your funds. Is that acceptable to you?"
"Yes," Harry agreed easily. "I'm sure they'll choose wisely for us."
Harry continued to look through the bogus paperwork before him. "Will all of this really stand
up to Muggle scrutiny?"
"Duplicates have already been placed on file in every appropriate location," Dumbledore
said with a confident smile. "Memory Charms have been applied where necessary. I believe we
have left no stone unturned to assure that your transition to Muggle life will be smooth and
unchallenged."
Dumbledore noted a wave of sadness clouding Harry's face. When at last Harry's eyes rose
and beheld Dumbledore's concerned expression, he sighed with a heaviness belying his
youth.
"Hermione could have been the best, Albus. She -- she might have been Minister some day. I
used to tell her so until she threatened to put a Silencing Charm on me." Even as he essayed a
wan smile, Harry felt his throat tighten as he realized that such threats were now mere vapor.
Hermione would cast no more spells, now or ever. "Between you and me, I think she would have
preferred to become Headmistress of Hogwarts someday. She respected and admired you and Minerva
more than she could express." Harry's voice dropped to a dusty rasp. "She could have
done great things. And now..."
"Do not sell Hermione short, Harry," Dumbledore said gently. "Nor yourself. I
believe you will both accomplish great things in the Muggle world. And I would remind you that
there are still far more Muggles in the world than there are wizards. If anything, you and she are
likely to have an even greater impact on the world.
"I am no great believer in Fate, Harry. My abundant time in this world has taught me that we
are no mere flotsam on a universal ocean, cast hither and yon on the tides of chance. We
choose how and where we will leave our mark. Your lives have been altered dramatically. But I do
not believe that these events were ordained as part of a greater Destiny for you both.
"I remember, back in the 60's, I found a most interesting shirt in a Muggle shop on
Carnaby Street. It said, 'Life is what happens while you're making plans.' I shall have
to search my wardrobe and see if I can find it." With a warm smile, Dumbledore said sagely,
"In life, things simply -- happen. It is up to us to deal with them as they occur. And there
is no doubt in my mind that both you and Hermione will thrive in your new lives. It is only your
bodies that have been changed. Greatness is not determined by wands or magical blood. The potential
for greatness is within us all.
"Do you remember the words Hermione spoke to you in the Potions Chamber as you set off to
protect the Sorcerer's Stone from Lord Voldemort?"
Harry started at the question. How could he ever forget Hermione's words in those dark tunnels
deep under Hogwarts? But -- how in Merlin's name did Dumbledore know, when Harry had not even
told Ron?
"Greatness is not always measured by the size or number of our achievements," Dumbledore
said. "It is my belief that Molly and Arthur Weasley have done more for the wizarding world
than any three Ministers of Magic, myself included. They have instilled in their seven children a
spirit of goodness that will spread out and create ripples touching unguessed shores. So shall it
be with the two of you. The world will be a better place -- indeed, it already is a better
place -- simply because you and Hermione are in it."
Harry's heart skipped a beat. That allusion to Arthur and Molly, and their children -- was it
possible -- but how could Dumbledore possibly know that Hermione was -- ? Harry peered
mutely at Dumbledore's long, pale face, wondering just how many secrets lay hidden behind the
deceptively transparent windows of those pale blue eyes.
Following a studied silence, Harry asked, "Is Hermione really going to accept all that's
happened to her without questioning? It hardly seems in her nature to do so."
"That is a concern not to be dismissed lightly," Dumbledore conceded. "But
humanity is continually being afflicted by new ailments about which little will be known until
research yields the answers we seek. AIDS was virtually non-existent only a generation ago. Any new
malady or condition must inevitably claim a first victim. We must trust that Hermione's
intelligence will itself convince her that hers is but the first of many such cases that will be
revealed with time."
"I don't want her thinking I'm some sort of martyr for joining her in exile,"
Harry said. "I couldn't bear the thought that she'd want to treat me as some kind of
selfless hero, when the truth is that I'm the cause of it all in the first
place."
"To begin with," Dumbledore said with quiet firmness, "you are not the cause.
Evil does as it will. You were merely Mr. Malfoy's justification. The blame, and the
guilt, remain his alone.
"As to the rest, I have been considering that very point. It would not be conducive to
a homologous relationship for one party to feel an overwhelming debt toward the other.
"Fortunately," and Dumbledore all but winked at Harry as his eyes sparkled mischievously,
"being as this is a new condition, we are constantly discovering new aspects heretofore
overlooked or, if seen, not understood. The Healers' examinations have led them to conclude
that Hermione contracted the condition more than a month ago -- by means as yet unknown -- during
which time it incubated in her bloodstream before attacking her in full force. Moreover, they have
determined that the condition is communicable -- though not by casual means, so Hermione
need not fear afflicting her friends simply by association. As for you (and the old
wizard's eyes twinkled even more brightly), it appears that, at some time during the incubation
period, you contracted the condition from Hermione during an -- ahem -- intimate encounter."
Dumbledore's cheeks flushed, and Harry could not help grinning in spite of himself. "It
was therefore only a matter of time before you became afflicted even as she. You did not
submit to the Mortalis Potion merely for her sake, but for your own."
"But won't Hermione feel guilty for ruining my life?" Harry said with an ache
in his voice.
"Perhaps," Dumbledore admitted. "For a time. But surely she will know and understand
that you would have followed her under any circumstances. A love such as yours cannot be
divided. It will be no deception when you assure her that your life would be devastated without
her. None who knows you -- even as do I -- can look into your eyes and believe otherwise. We are
faced with two paths of deception, each fraught with its own obstacles. This one, at least, is the
less injurious. I earnestly believe that to be so. Time alone will tell."
"This is going to be difficult, Albus," Harry said. "So much deception. I'm not
that good a liar."
"Would that we all were so afflicted," Dumbledore said pleasantly. "No, there is no
easy answer to so complicated a problem. It will no doubt be a war to be waged over a lifetime, one
battle at a time. But such is the price to be paid.
"However, touching on that..."
Dumbledore suddenly grew serious, and Harry suspected that the unknown dilemma that was clearly
weighing on the old wizard's mind was about to be brought into the light.
"Insofar as the wizarding world is concerned," Dumbledore said, "your sentence has
been pronounced and carried out. The matter is closed. But I fear there are others who will not
accept the justice meted out today."
"Nasrcissa Malfoy," Harry said with growing alarm. "She was outraged when I was
cleared of the murder charge. And now that I'm not going to Azkaban for the charge I was
convicted on, she's not going to just sit back and let me live my life as if nothing had
happened."
"It will not be enough for her -- nor for the remaining Death Eaters who still blame you for
for Voldemort's final downfall -- to see you expelled from the magical world," Dumbledore
agreed. "I am not being overdramatic when I say that, once you are removed from the protection
of the Ministry, your life -- and that of Hermione -- can be measured in days, perhaps hours.
"For that reason, I made a visit this morning to Hogwarts, to confer with Filius."
Harry comprehended instantly. Filius Flitwick, teacher of Charms at Hogwarts, had assisted
Dumbledore more than two decades ago in placing a Fidelius Charm upon the Godric's Hollow
cottage of the Potters -- James, Lily, and baby Harry. Under present circumstances, Harry needed no
prompting to accept Dumbledore's proposal. After all that he, Harry, had done to protect
Hermione, foolish pride was not going to unmake everything now.
"I'll use Ron as my Secret Keeper," Harry said. But, to his surprise, Dumbledore
shook his head.
"I strongly advise against that, Harry. Ron will be the obvious choice, and while I believe he
can be trusted not to betray you of his own volition, there are too many others whom
Narcissa can threaten to force his compliance."
Harry shuddered at the vision of Ginny or Molly being tortured in front of Ron to extract the
secret from him. Harry himself would not blame Ron for cracking under such duress.
"Rest assured," Dumbledore said reassuringly, "young Mr. Weasley has his part to
play, as do we all. He would not have it otherwise. But not here. Another has already stepped
forward and volunteered, and I have approved this unselfish gesture unreservedly. I pray you, Harry
-- trust me."
Harry was about to ask who it was who had volunteered for so dangerous a duty, but something about
Dumbledore's plea -- and the fact that he had carefully avoided mentioning the other party by
name -- seemed a clear statement that no name would be forthcoming.
"Right, then," Harry said. Confidence was creeping slowly but surely through him. Though
the dangers he and Hermione faced were as real in their way as the one-time threat of Voldemort
himself, Harry had no reason to doubt that Dumbledore, now as ever, could be trusted to do what was
necessary to assure victory. "In that case," Harry said as an introspective shadow
clouded his eyes, "I have have only one more thing to take care of."
"And that would be?" Dumbledore queried.
"You have your secrets," Harry smiled mysteriously. "And I have mine."
Dumbledore returned Harry's smile without reservation. As if acting on a shared thought, the
two rose from their chairs almost as one. Harry extended his hand as Dumbledore emerged from behind
his desk. But instead of taking the offered hand, Dumbledore wrapped his arms around Harry in a
grandfatherly gesture that caught the young wizard-turned-Muggle totally by surprise. Harry
returned the embrace, fighting tears. It was a struggle doomed to failure. When Dumbledore pulled
back, Harry saw that the old wizard's eyes were quite as moist as his.
"Take care of yourself, Harry," Dumbledore said. "I wish you and Hermione every
happiness. The wizarding world will never forget you. I most certainly shall not."
"Thank you, Albus," Harry wheezed. "For everything."
Wiping his eyes, Harry stuffed the papers back into their envelope and closed the flap. He smoothed
his robes, chuckling silently. "After today, I'll never wear these again." He
reached into a pocket of his robes and pulled out a small pouch secured with a drawstring.
"And I'll never use this bloody stuff again." He caught Dumbledore's eye
with a smirk. "Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Floo powder?"
"I know of no one who doesn't," Dumbledore grinned. "Fare you well, Harry
Potter."
His voice failing him, Harry smiled once before exiting the Minister's office and closing the
door behind him. A moment later, another door opened at the rear of the Minister's
office.
"Is he gone?"
"Yes," Dumbledore said. "You may come out now."
A young man with a round face and soft, warm eyes emerged from an antechamber. He looked
uncertainly at the chair vacated by Harry, as if wondering if he dared sit in the presence of the
Minister of Magic. Smiling genially, Dumbledore seated himself, inviting the newcomer to do
likewise.
"Are you certain you wish to do this?" Dumbledore asked carefully. "I am unequivocal
in my own belief that you are up to the task. But you must be equally certain. The
moment you become Harry's and Hermione's Secret Keeper, your life will be in constant
danger. I do not exaggerate when I say that Narcissa Malfoy will stop at nothing to find and punish
Harry. She will not be swayed from her purpose by the specter of Azkaban. She has lost a husband
and a son. Grief and hatred can blind reason as few things. Should she or any of the Death Eaters
ever suspect you, there is no Dark Curse they will withhold to force you to speak."
"I know, Minister," came the reply in a thin, reedy voice that yet bristled with strength
and determination. "But I'm the best choice. No one would suspect me, would they? And even
if they did -- I mean -- I have no -- no family to threaten -- I mean, not really," he added
sadly. "It's -- the right thing to do. You once told me that it took courage to stand up
to one's friends. Shouldn't I be just as ready to stand up for them?"
Nodding slowly, Dumbledore said, "Filius will have prepared the first stage of the Charm by
now. For the nonce, Harry and Hermione will be staying with the Weasleys at the Burrow. The Healers
have assured Hermione," the old wizard said with a twinkle in his eye, "that the Mortalis
Potion has left her with a temporary immunity from 'magical contamination' that will remain
in force for another week or so. In like manner, they have also assured us that
Hermione's Memory Charm will not suffer from this brief exposure. This interval will allow her
and Harry the opportunity to say their goodbyes to their friends before their exile begins. From
there, they will transfer to the Granger house until such time as they have found a home of their
own. In both cases, they will be guarded by a contingent of Aurors under the auspices of Alastor
Moody. I know I can trust them to keep Harry and Hermione safe."
"But what about the Weasleys and the Grangers?" the visitor asked. "Won't they
still be in danger afterwards?"
"I feel certain that the Weasleys can handle whatever comes their way," Dumbledore said.
"As for the Grangers, they will be protected by a subsequent Fidelius Charm when their
daughter and son-in-law depart. I will let it be known that I myself will be Secret Keeper in both
instances. That will allay suspicion from the two genuine Secret Keepers. I shall not reveal the
other's name, even as I have kept your name secret, even from Harry."
"Then how will I tell him?" came the surprised query. "After the spell is
completed, he won't even know where his own house is unless I tell him. So how can I keep him
from knowing who I am --"
"You will print the information on a piece of paper," Dumbledore said, "which I will
then show to Harry and Hermione. I have used this method before. Trust me.
"Now," Dumbledore said resolutely, "the time has come to prepare your mind for the
spell. Once that has been done, transferring the secret itself at the proper time will be a simple
matter. Are you ready to begin?"
"Yes, Minister."
"Neville, Neville," Dumbledore said, shaking his head with amused exasperation. "Why
can I not impress upon you to address me as Albus?"
"I -- I can't," Neville said, his round face beginning to resemble a tomato.
"You're the Minister of Magic. It isn't...proper."
"God bless the Neville Longbottoms of the world," Dumbledore murmured piously. "What
a sad place this world would be without them."
Author's Note: This chapter is far and away the longest of the story. That may serve in
some small way to lessen my burden of guilt over the fact that Chapter 8 won't be forthcoming
until May.
Thanks to all who are are reading and reviewing, with a special nod to nurray, whose thoughtful
analysis of events past -- and those yet to come -- is most welcome. This story was written well
before OotP was released, and I've been polishing up each chapter to be sure it's worthy of
this site. There are so many penthouse-level writers here, I must constantly strive to keep my
elevator from sinking down to the basement. With reviewers like nurray keeping me alert, maybe
I'll enjoy a garden flat of my own someday.
As has been seen, many questions were answered this time. A handful remain, and they will be
addressed in the two remaining chapters. I only hope I haven't missed something along the way.
Part of the pleasure I derive from writing comes from weaving complex tapestries and then striving
not to get caught in my own web. If I DO let something slip by, please don't hesitate to wave a
red flag so I can go back and set matters to rights. I made a big goof in a story posted at
FanFiction.Net (shortly to appear here at Portkey), and an alert reviewer enabled me to go back and
fix things. Too bad J.K.'s editors aren't as alert as fanfiction reviewers. When I note how
many blunders SHE has made, I feel considerably less foolish over my own.
I hope this chapter will tide everyone over until next month. Until then, thanks for reading.
Note From Fae Princess: As Stoneheart has stated over the past few chapter in his
Author's Notes, there won't be an update until May. To babyhalo19: I'm going to B.C for
a month starting tomorrow -- and as I'm Stoneheart's official posting-girl, I will not be
able to update the story until I return. To pass the time (as you all wait for an update) I
strongly recommend reading Stoneheart's other stories -- either posted here or at FF.net (there
are more at FF.net that you should all check out). And Creepy Susie -- thank you! I would love to
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which is so beautiful! I visited last year for two weeks, and I was ... in awe. I mean, if you saw
the town I live in right now, there's just no comparison. Victoria is where my heart is.
See you all when I return! ~Fae
Author's Note: I hope no one got tired of waiting and lost interest in the story. To
all who are reading this, welcome back, and thanks for returning. The wait is over, so here we
go.
Hermione lay quietly in her hospital bed, the crisp, white sheets tucked dutifully under her chin
by her husband, who sat in a chair at her side. Harry knew she would sleep for several hours. Owing
to her small stature, both had known that the birth would be a difficult one. Harry had insisted
that Hermione be given a general anesthetic. Her protests were in vain. She'd wanted very much
to witness the birth of her first child, but the doctors agreed with Harry that the labor would be
long and agonizing. Harry could sometimes be adamant to a frightening degree when it came to
sparing his wife undue pain or discomfort. Hermione chafed outwardly at Harry's
overprotectiveness, but secretly she loved him all the more for his unswerving devotion.
Harry was sitting so close to the bed that his elbow rested on the mattress not six inches from his
wife's shoulder. Her stillness brought back terrible memories of another time not so long ago,
when Hermione lay in a bed very like this one, in a hospital as unlike this one as it was
possible to be. Harry curbed his fearfulness and brought it to heel. That day was in the past,
never to return, save in the occasional nightmares which still haunted the young former wizard. St.
Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries was hundreds of miles, and another lifetime,
away. This was an ordinary Muggle hospital. Hermione's sleep was a natural one, albeit induced
by artificial means, from which she would shortly awaken. They were together. They were safe.
And, as of one hour and seventeen minutes ago, they were parents.
Harry's arms cradled a tiny bundle of blankets containing his newborn son. He could just make
out a minute face roughly the size of a croquet ball, its eyes squeezed shut. James Potter the
Second slept as peacefully as his mother. Looking at the two most important people in his life,
Harry vowed that, so long as he lived, they would never know the fears which had been his legacy
since that day when Voldemort had murdered his parents. He would be there for them always, withhold
no blessing that was within his power to bestow. He would be the father that his baby son's
namesake never had the chance to be to Harry.
There had been some doubt at first as to whether this child, fathered by a wizard of no small
magical prowess, would be born with magical blood or not. But tests conducted by Madam Zorgas (the
last only a week ago) had confirmed that Hermione's firstborn would be 100% Muggle. Harry was
more than a little surprised at this news, but Hermione showed no surprise at all.
"Wizardry comes from magical blood, Harry," she reminded him. "You and I no longer
have magical blood. Not since we took the Mortalis Potion. The baby is being nourished by
my non-magical blood, so it's not surprising that he or she will be born a
Squib."
"But your parents are both Muggles," Harry reminded her. "Not a drop
of magical blood between them. Yet you were born a witch."
"It all comes down to genetics, Harry," Hermione said patiently. "One or both of my
parents obviously has a latent magical gene. To my knowledge, I'm the first magical person ever
born in our family. That makes my genetic predisposition to magic razor-thin. Even without the
Mortalis Potion, the odds were 50-50 that I'd have at least one non-magical child, even with
you as their father. And don't forget that your mother was Muggle-born herself, so
your genetics are in question as well. Now, with neither of us possessing magical blood, our
chances of producing a magical offspring are practically non-existent.
"In fact," she said softly as she caressed the prominent bulge of her pregnant abdomen,
"I'm just as glad our child won't be a wizard. Madam Zorgas said that his or
her magical blood would eventually have been a threat to our health -- all of us," she mouthed
throatily, patting her belly again. "We would have been faced with the choice of destroying
our baby's magic with Mortalis Potion -- or -- giving him up."
Harry was equally relieved that such a choice had not been necessary. Had their child been born a
wizard, his magical blood would have been a threat not to Hermione's body, but to her mind.
Even carrying such a child in her womb would have been impossible, especially during the last
trimester, when its magical blood would fully develop and, ultimately, attack the barrier that was
Hermione's mental and emotional salvation with catastrophic consequences.
Looking down now upon little James sleeping peacefully in his arms, Harry knew that it was nothing
short of a miracle that the child possessed no slightest trace of magical blood. But it was not an
unqualified miracle for that. The latent gene of which Hermione spoke was no doubt imbedded as
firmly in James' DNA as it had been in her parents'. If James were not a wizard, he could
still father a witch or wizard, even through a Muggle wife. The odds were slim, but that did not
make them wholly non-existent. The magical threat to Hermione's life and sanity was not
completely erased. But such worries were fuel for fires to be kindled in the future. Harry's
attention was focused firmly on the present. Despite all that had happened in the past year, Harry
knew he was truly blessed, and he vowed that he would spend every day of his life in grateful
acknowledgment of that blessing.
Sensing movement from the corner of his eye, Harry looked toward the door and smiled. A slender
figure in green surgical scrubs had entered without knocking. A gloved hand tugged at the surgical
mask over which soft brown eyes peered warmly above the bridge of a freckled nose. The mask fell
away, revealing a face radiant with a smile matching Harry's own.
"Everything go okay, Gin?" Harry asked softly so as not to disturb his sleeping
son.
"Piece of cake," Ginny whispered. Standing beside Harry now, she bent to look into the
ruddy face of baby James. "May I hold him?" she asked with a childish tremble in her
voice. Harry allowed Ginny to take James, whose blankets shifted to reveal a few small, feathery
wisps of raven-black hair. Ginny looked longingly at the infant in her arms, and Harry knew the
mothering urge was exerting a powerful force on her. He sincerely hoped that she would not have to
wait long to find a special someone whose life she could complete even as Hermione did Harry's.
Ginny kissed the tiny forehead gently before returning James to Harry's waiting arms. In the
same motion, she leaned in and kissed Harry on the cheek. She laughed silently as Harry's face
assumed the same ruddy glow as his son's (though neither could match the coal-fire lambency of
Ginny's freckled cheeks).
"As soon as Hermione's on her feet," Harry said before Ginny could withdraw,
"we'll do lunch. I'll send Hedwig."
Ginny nodded before straightening and re-tying her mask. Dumbledore had assured them that very
limited and controlled exposure to magic would pose no threat to Hermione's Memory Charm.
Hermione was duly informed that properly-spaced visits, lasting no more than two hours each, would
be insufficient to trigger her magical "allergy." Hermione and Harry both looked forward
to their monthly visits from Ron, Ginny, Dumbledore, et al. No more than two persons per visit was
the rule. Much as Harry missed his magical friends and anticipated their visits, he would take no
undue chances with Hermione's sanity at stake. At first he had demurred altogether, but it soon
became evident that Hermione's improved state of mind following visiting days was a boon to her
health outweighing the limited risks of exposure. Seeing her old friends made her happy; being
happy made her healthy in both body and spirit. It was a fine line to walk. But it was, as
Dumbledore had said, simply the price to be paid.
Her surgical mask affixed once more, Ginny smiled through the green folds. "We're having a
family reunion at the Burrow next month," came her muffled voice. "I'll take plenty
of snaps."
"Muggle photos only," Harry said through an anticipatory smile.
Her hidden grin widening in acknowledgment, Ginny said, "Give Hermione my -- " She caught
herself. It was an instinctive parting comment, but she well knew, as did Harry, that Hermione must
never know of her visit to the hospital today. Magic or no, Hermione was no fool. She must never so
much as suspect what had taken place in the operating theatre following the birth of her son.
Her brown eyes caressing the threesome one last time, Ginny exited the room and was gone.
His baby son held firmly in his arms, Harry leaned onto the bed until his cheek brushed against his
wife's bushy mane. With James effectively lying on the bed next to his mother, Harry freed his
left arm and very gently teased at the wisps of sable crowning his son's tiny head. The smile
that washed over his face was one of satisfaction, though spiced with a dash of guilt.
Ginny had excelled at Charms at Hogwarts, getting top marks. He had supreme confidence in the
Memory Charms she'd cast on the personnel in the operating theatre today. The doctors and
nurses assisting James' birth would have no recollection of a nameless surgical resident with
soft brown eyes and flaming red hair tied in a neat bun. They would not remember this strange woman
waving a magic wand over the newborn babe, changing his white-blond hair to raven black and his
ice-pale eyes to emerald green.
Harry rested his head on his wife's shoulder, his hand lying protectively upon the warm bundle
which was James Potter the Second. It had been a long night, and his eyes began to droop
heavily.
"You're going to be a great man, James Potter," Harry whispered as he drifted off to
join his wife and child in a light, blissful sleep. "But more than that, you're going to
be a good man. The sins of the father will not be visited on you. You are my son.
Mine and Hermione's. And I love you."
Author's Note: I dare not neglect to extend a heartfelt thank-you to everyone who took
the time to review last time. A special nod goes to Kenji, whose questions and speculations hit
VERY close to home. Believe me, reviews like that keep me on my toes. I always try to tie things up
without leaving any loose strings dangling. This chapter answered a couple of questions. The next
(and last) chapter may or may not surprise, but we had enough surprises earlier. What we need now
is closure. Tune in next week, won't you? The wait is almost over. See you all then.
"I'm definitely getting old," Hermione said to herself as she tugged her shawl
more tightly around her shoulders. As she shifted in her chair before the fireplace in search of a
comfortable position, her eyes flickered over the large portrait hanging just over the mantel.
"Go on," she smirked. "Say 'I told you so.'" The smiling image of Harry
said nothing. A gift from her old classmate, Dean Thomas, it was painted in simple oils rather than
magical, moving paints. Nevertheless, there were times when Hermione could swear that the face in
the cherrywood frame, like the Fat Lady in the portrait guarding Gryffindor Tower, could understand
what she was saying. "You're entitled," Hermione went on as if engaged in
conversation with the man in the painting. "You wanted to live down the coast in the
Carolinas, where it's warm. But I insisted on Nova Scotia, to remind me of Scotland. And
Hogwarts."
As if the name itself were an incantation, Hermione's eyes swung magically to her writing desk,
upon the uncluttered surface of which sat a most curious paperweight. Though her bifocals were
within easy reach, reposing in a pocket of the apron she herself had sewn while carrying her fourth
(and last) child, Hermione's hands remained folded about her shawl. She had no need of physical
sight to envision the object in question. Her mind's eye brought out every smallest detail of
that treasured artifact with crystal clarity. A gift from Ginny Weasley on her first birhday
following her expulsion from the magical world, it was a tiny replica of Hogwarts castle, complete
to the smallest detail. Ginny had herself Transfigured it from a stone taken (with Dumbledore's
permission) from the castle itself. In the more than six decades since, it never failed to bring a
smile to her lips and a tear to her eye. A reminder of her carefree days (so her rose-colored
memories blithely informed her) as a witch-in-training at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and
Wizardry, its value was beyond price to her. She would not have sold it for a pile of gold the size
of Cape Breton Island.
Hermione had but to close her eyes to see the whole of Hogwarts in all its splendor: The enchanted
ceiling of the Great Hall; the Gryffindor common room with its warm friendly fire, and countless
overstuffed chairs filled with chattering students; the classrooms, ranging from Snape's dank,
chill dungeon to Trelawney's stifling, perfumed tower. The grounds, the forest, the Quidditch
field, the lake, Hagrid's cabin, the Whomping Willow -- they were all as fresh in her mind as
the day she last saw them. Graduation day. The day she began her life as a fully-trained witch. A
life, as Fate would have, that would last barely seven short years.
"I still miss it so," Hermione whispered, her words swallowed by the silent walls of the
living room where she and Harry had shared so many happy hours since their retirement more than
twenty years ago. She turned again to the picture above the fireplace. "But I miss you most of
all."
Harry was gone three years now. But his presence lingered, ghost-like. He was not a ghost in the
same sense as the specters haunting Hogwarts. But there were times when Hermione could swear that
he was lying in bed next to her, as he had for nearly seventy years. She could still hear his
laughter, still see the smile that could steal the strength from her knees as it had when they were
teenagers. She could still see those piercing emerald eyes, framed by an unruly head of raven hair.
She could still feel his arms holding her, his lips kissing hers. She could feel Harry everywhere
in this house. But most of all, she could feel his presence in her heart, where he would ever
remain.
The walls of the living room were awash with photos, tiny windows to a past that had seen its share
of hardship, but in which the good had outweighed the bad in a proportion which both had felt
beyond their deserving.
Immediately to the right of the large portrait of Harry was their wedding photo -- or, to be
precise, it was a Mugglized copy of what was originally a moving wizard photo. They were both so
young then. Where had the years gone? In some ways, Hermione felt no different now than she had the
day that photo was taken. But the Hermione in the photo had long, flowing chestnut hair, skin the
color and texture of peaches and cream. The young bride happily clutching the arm of her new
husband bore little resemblance to the woman in the rocking chair who clutched her shawl about her
against the cool of the morning. The chestnut hair was now white as snow, and the face was seamed
with wrinkles bought and paid for by a lifetime of hard work and no small portion of worry. But the
eyes of the woman in the picture were undimmed in her mature reflection. And the mind behind those
eyes, now as then, was sharp as a scalpel.
Though not a day went by when Hermione did not wish that Harry were still with her, that regret was
never more keenly felt than today. For the first time in a decade, the entire Potter family would
be assembled in a grand reunion. Ostensibly, they were gathering to celebrate Hermione's 90th
birthday. Her actual birthday was still a month and a half away, but it was only during the Summer
holidays that the widely-scattered branches of the family could uproot themselves and converge on
Potter Castle en masse.
Harry's and Hermione's daughters, Gillian and Virginia Rose, visited fairly often. Both had
migrated South to the States, married there, and their respective families had spread out from
coast to coast. Much the same could be said for their youngest, Brian, who, though living in
Victoria on Vancouver Island, made the pilgrimage across Canada as often as his schedule (and
finances) permitted. With so many spokes in the Potter family wheel, not a Summer had passed in the
last forty years but that one or another, either child or grandchild, popped in to visit.
James, however, was another story.
James Potter the Second, their eldest son and firstborn, had fallen in love with his parents'
stories of England at an early age. Upon graduation, he had sought and obtained a Rhodes
Scholarship to study at Oxford. He planned to return, diploma in hand, but fate intervened in the
form of a fellow student who swept him off his feet and shortly after swept him "down the
aisle." He became a British citizen upon graduation, which both pleased and dismayed his
parents. As James' roots became ever more firmly planted in English soil, Harry and Hermione
saw less and less of him. He fathered three boys, who were themselves now married with families
whom Hermione had thusfar seen only in photos.
But that long drought was about to end. Nearly every square inch of wall space, as well as
countless albums in desk drawers and on cupboard shelves, was covered with photos of Hermione's
grandchildren and great-grandchildren. But they were all growing so fast, changing from the faces
in the photos into people who would be barely recognizable when they arrived. A veritible army of
strangers was about to descend upon the Potter household. But this did not intimidate Hermione. She
was prepared for such an onslaught as were few before her.
Among the framed photos on the living room wall were two documents which Harry and Hermione had
prized over anything else in their lives.
It was Dumbledore's allusion to Molly Weasley, as related by Harry in a reflective moment, that
inspired them both toward a career in teaching. In their fifty years in the Halifax school system,
they had turned out uncounted doctors, lawyers, teachers, scientists, even a Prime Minister. They
had made an unbeatable team, she and Harry. As a history teacher, principal, and superintendant of
schools, Hermione had honed thousands of young minds to their absolute keenest edges. And in his
own capacity as a physical education teacher and guidance counselor, Harry had given those students
the strength of body and spirit to use their gifts for the greatest good. Looking at their framed
teaching certificates now, Hermione would not have traded them for the Order of Merlin, First
Class.
Upon their retirement, they had moved up the coast into an old stone house promptly dubbed Potter
Castle by Hermione. It reminded her so much of her beloved Hogwarts that she insisted it not be
"improved" with any modern trappings, such as wall-screen visiphones and satellite
communication. An electric furnace was her only concession to practical modernity, but even then
she preferred a crackling fire in all but the most severe conditions. A woodpile sheltered by an
enclosed porch was always kept heaped high by visitors such as Ron and Ginny, and in case of
emergency there was a magic hand-mirror on the night table, which Ginny promised to answer any hour
of the day or night (especially now that Harry was gone).
The ocean view was breathtaking, but Hermione found the cool Summers increasingly discomforting.
Harry had delighted in teasing her about it, relenting only when threatened with a night on the
living room sofa (a threat which Hermione never carried out). But its abundance of bedrooms had
proved their worth during many a family gathering, and before this day were over, the old homestead
would be tested to its limits. When the letters of confirmation began to resemble the deluge Harry
had described when his Hogwarts letters nearly buried Number 4 Privet Drive, Hermione looked at
Harry's portrait and laughed, "Do you think I should owl Arthur and Molly? Maybe they can
use the same spell on Potter Castle that's been holding up the Burrow all these
years."
The slam of a car door roused Hermione from her reverie. She looked at the clock on the mantel.
"Right on time," she said out loud, nodding at Harry's portrait. Rising from her
chair, she walked to her desk and slid open the top right drawer. She paused, holding her breath,
as her eyes fell on the contents of the drawer. Her hand dipped and rose swiftly before plunging
into the pocket of her apron. She closed the now-empty drawer smoothy and turned toward the doorway
leading to the kitchen. A screen door banged, and a man with brown hair and impish eyes entered the
living room.
"Gran!" he exclaimed, wrapping Hermione in a warm hug.
"Harry," Hermione said, nearly choking on the name.
Harry was James' youngest son. Her Harry had flatly refused to name either of his sons
after himself ("One Harry Potter in this family is quite enough, thanks.") Little did he
suspect that his two sons were conspiring behind his back to ensure that their father's name
survived in spite of his staunchest efforts to the contrary. Fate stonewalled Brian, whose efforts
to produce a male heir yielded two daughters, after which his wife drew the line with a finality
Hermione mentally compared to the one Professor Dumbledore had drawn around the Goblet of Fire.
James had better success than his brother, but Harry covertly persuaded his son's wife to name
their first two boys after her two grandfathers. But when a third son was born to James, no power
on Earth could prevent him from naming the child Harry James Potter the Second.
"I'm named after my grandfather," James had reasoned, his emerald eyes
twinkling, "so why shouldn't my son enjoy the same distinction?" As he had but few
times in his life, the elder Harry was forced to concede defeat.
Harry's wife and three daughters spilled out of the kitchen, all of them wasting no time in
smothering Hermione with tearful hugs. A loud clattering outside indicated that the two older boys
were engaged in unloading the luggage from their rented van. As Hermione appraised her
great-granddaughters now, she was only just able to recognize them. The youngest, Lily Anne, was
all of five years old in the most recent photo in Hermione's album. The 15-year-old standing
before her now was a striking contrast to that child.
"J will be here in a minute," Harry said. "Are you ready?"
Hermione nodded, patting her pocket, which responded with a crisp retort. "J", she knew,
was actually Harry James Potter the Third. In order to avoid confusion with his father, his mother
began calling their youngest son "Harry J." almost immediately. When his sisters were old
enough to talk, they began referring to their brother simply as "J." The appellation
stuck, and from then on, barring exceptional circumstances (such as moments of exasperation in
which either parent would invoke all three names), it was the only address to which he would
answer.
Hermione's only clear picture of J was that of a one-year-old. It was, she supposed, the price
to be paid for living in the past. Before their retirement, their home in Halifax was fully wired
with world-wide visual communications. Since relocating to Potter Castle, she'd had to rely on
photo snaps to view her grandchildren and great-grandchildren. She hadn't even a simple
microdisc player on which to view stills, something every home in the world took for granted
nowadays. Ever and anon Hermione would press for more photos, but the answer was always the
same.
"He's a bloody whirlwind," J's mother would tell Hermione in telephone
conversations. "Won't sit still for a simple photo."
"Can you put him on now?" Hermione would respond. "At least I can hear how
he's grown."
"He's off with his mates," came the ubiquitous response. "He's always
off with his bleedin' mates. Not that I'm worried, mind. Never a bit of trouble. And
brilliant! Gets that from his great-gran, I expect."
Hermione smiled now, all a-tremble. Her long wait would soon be over. She wondered what he would
look like now, at eleven. But why wonder, when he would be standing before her in two shakes of a
centaur's tail? (She marveled that she could still think in terms of magical metaphor, after so
many years. Old habits did, indeed, die hard.)
The screen door banged again, and Harry gave his wife and daughters a meaningful glance, whereupon
they all kissed Hermione again and vanished up the stairs to the bedrooms. As Harry disappeared
into the kitchen, Hermione heard him say, "Right, son. I'll go help your brothers with the
luggage. Your great-gran is waiting. Go on in."
J. Potter walked into the living room, his manner cautious and studied. As her eyes fell on him,
Hermione had to cover her mouth to prevent herself from crying out.
"It's true," she whispered. "Merlin's beard, it's true."
Hermione faltered, and J immediately rushed to her side and helped her to her chair.
"Are you okay?" the boy said with genuine concern. Hermione nodded. Her mind was racing
like a North Atlantic hurricane. J's simple words, so full of love and concern, rang in her
ears. The sound of his voice echoed through the corridors of her deepest memories, so like, yet so
different from, the one she remembered from so long ago. J dutifully raced back to the kitchen to
fetch his great-gran a glass of water, and in that respite, Hermione's mind turned inward,
glazing over with a light that glowed as from the far end of a long, narrow tunnel. J returned,
glass in hand. Hermione sipped the water slowly, her eyes never leaving her great-grandson's
face. Very slowly, she nodded to herself.
Almost from the first day of their new Muggle life, Hermione had suspected that neither her husband
nor her wizarding friends had been entirely forthcoming regarding the circumstances of her exile
from the magical world. Nothing in her extensive reading had so much as hinted at any malady that
would make one allergic to magic. The arguments presented were reasonable enough, but she could not
dismiss the feeling that she was nevertheless the victim of some sort of grand deception. But if
this were true, it was also quite evident that there must be a good and unselfish reason for it.
Surely so many dear friends would not go to so much trouble on her behalf without just cause. Thus,
though her curiosity burned inside her like a bellyful of raw bubotuber pus, she put it aside and
counted herself blessed to be loved so deeply by so many.
For Harry's part, his devotion to her bordered on out-and-out worship. Yet, through more than
sixty years of marriage, even Hermione did not suspect just how deep her husband's
devotion ran. Not until that night, more than five years ago -- the night the dreams began.
She did not understand them at first. They were sketchy at the beginning, indistinct. And
infrequent. She gave them little thought. But slowly, as weeks lengthened into months, the dreams
became both sharper and more frequent. Hermione would find herself chained to a wall, naked and
helpless. Certain details remained clouded, but Hermione experienced sudden sharp flashes of
agonizing torture which sometimes jolted her awake in the middle the night with a cry on her lips
and cold sweat on her brow. And in the darkness, both in dream and in heart-pounding wakefulness, a
face hovered before her, ghostly, horrible, taunting. It was as if living hatred had been cast in
human form. It was a face Hermione knew well, if only in distant memories. A pale, pointed face,
with eyes like chips of ice above a slitted mouth curled in a sneer of unbridled malice.
Even in clear detail, all was mystery to Hermione. But not for nothing was she accounted the
cleverest witch at Hogwarts in a century. Nor had eighty-plus years dulled the edge of her
razor-keen mind. By Hermione's reasoning, mysteries existed for but one purpose: To be
solved.
Hermione and Harry had always spoken freely of their life in the magical world, both amongst
themselves and with their wizarding friends. But certain subjects, she reflected, seemed to have
fallen into disfavor, gradually disappearing altogether from such conversations. Chief among these
had been any slightest reference to Draco Malfoy. As she probed her memory, she began to realize
that she could recall seeing no mention whatsoever of the Malfoy family in any issue of the Daily
Prophet during the years when they received subscription copies by owl-post. The Malfoys, whatever
stain might attach itself to their name, remained one of the most prominent families in the
wizarding world. How explain, then, the total absence of the name in more than five years of their
subscribing to the Prophet?
It was time, Hermione decided, to revive an old and time-honored battle cry: When in doubt, consult
a book.
In this particular case, it was the archives of the Daily Prophet Hermione proposed to consult.
This was quite easily done. Though Harry's faithful post-owl, Hedwig, was long departed, the
Weasleys had seen that Harry and Hermione were never without a means to keep in touch with their
old wizarding friends. Visits from wizarding friends being strictly circumscribed, letters became
Hermione's life-line to the world she had loved and could never see again. Even now, the attic
of Potter Castle was stuffed to the crossbeams with enough parchment communiques to build a bridge
across the Bay of Fundy. Once every ten years, like clockwork, Ron and Ginny would appear on their
doorstep with a strong, young owl to replace their present one. Unlike Hedwig, these had all been
common brown owls. These, everyone reasoned, were less ostentatious than the snowy Hedwig, who had
more than once drawn unwanted Muggle attention in the course of a delivery. Even to a wizard, one
brown owl looked pretty much like any other. It was an apathy that would serve Hermione well
now.
Using their owl, Hermone sent a letter to the Daily Prophet, passing herself off as a young witch
doing research for a school essay. Using a small cache of wizard coins saved from Harry's vault
for sentimental reasons, Hermione purchased back numbers of the Daily Prophet, their dates ranging
from her mysterious blackout in Hogsmeade to her awakening in St.Mungo's nearly two weeks
later. The headlines and stories in those papers bore little resemblance to the papers she had been
given to read in her hospital bed during her convalescence. With the suddenness of an exploding
Filibuster firework, the truth was spread out before her, complete with moving wizard photos. She
read all about her abduction at the hands of Draco Malfoy, of Draco's death at Harry's
hands, of Harry's trial and the sentence imposed by Dumbledore. From this, she was able to
infer the rest.
It was obvious that her mind had been modified by a powerful Memory Charm. Only a very powerful
Charm, she reasoned, could have blocked so terrible a memory. And she knew enough about such Charms
to know that they could be broken down over time. Hermione flattered herself that her strong,
ordered mind, fueled by magical blood, could have broken through even the most powerful Memory
Charm in no more than ten years. And the result? She did not delude herself. She would have gone
mad. Hubris notwithstanding, she knew this as surely as she knew the sum of two plus two.
"You gave it all away, Harry," she whispered one night as he lay sleeping in blissful
ignorance beside her. "For me. I never thought I could love you more. It just goes to show
that even know-it-all Hermione Granger Potter can learn something new."
With this knowledge in hand, the dreams were easily explained. Harry and their friends had
carefully circumscribed all exposure to magic, limited their friends' visits to the shortest
duration. But none, it seemed, had given due consideration to cumulative effects. Those
two-hour visits once a month had added up over a period of more than sixty years, like tiny chips
of wood nicked from a towering oak. Given enough time, even the dullest axe may fell the largest
tree. In the end, the wall of Hermione's Memory Charm cracked, allowing her small glimpses of
the horrors that lay deep within. Only the maturity of her advanced years had allowed her to
withstand their impact. Had she experienced those same released memories sixty years ago, her
sanity would surely have been forfeit.
Hermione never told Harry the truth. It would have served no purpose. Narcissa Malfoy was dead now.
None remained who might wish to seek revenge against Harry -- or his family -- for Draco's
death. Let the secret remain buried, as her husband and their friends had always intended that it
should. It was enough that she knew. She knew as well that no woman had ever been loved so deeply
as Harry loved her. He lived his last two years still believing that he was protecting her from
herself. She would not steal away his peace of mind by divulging her knowledge. She could do no
less for such a man as Harry Potter.
But even as Hermione contented herself with a job well done and a mystery solved, a tiny, nagging
ghost remained in the back of her mind. One piece of the puzzle was eluding her, and though she
entertained her suspicions, they remained unproven.
Until now. Now Hermione knew beyond all doubt that no man ever lived who loved a woman as Harry had
loved her. He had loved her so deeply that he had taken as his own a son fathered by another man,
begat in an act not of love, but of the most horrible violence imaginable. And though his own, true
son came along shortly thereafter, Hermione never once saw Harry favor the younger boy over the
elder. (And if Harry was guilty of favoring his daughters over both boys, had that not been every
father's prerogative since the world began?) She had watched Harry lavish a lifetime of love on
James, who, if not his own, was yet flesh of her flesh, even as was Harry through the
sacrament of marriage. United by that bond, they were father and son in every sense that mattered.
In Hermione's eyes, it was an act of love eclipsing a thousand times a thousand sonnets.
Hermione did not know what she had ever done to deserve to be loved so deeply. Perhaps she would
never know. But from this moment, and for the rest of her life, she would never doubt. Hermione
smiled at her great-grandson, who was now sitting in a chair an arm's length away, and he
reciprocated with a smile bright and warm as the the morning sun; A smile that illuminated a pale,
pointed face with cool, grey eyes that peered fervidly from beneath a shock of thick, silver-blond
hair.
"Thank you, J," Hermione said as she set her water glass aside. "Nothing to worry
about. Too much excitement is all. It's not every day that I get to meet my great-grandson,
after all." She smiled warmly, and was rewarded in turn by a smile that was as far removed
from the man whose face he wore as the gates of Heaven were from the deepest pit of Hell.
Without warning, J's smile retreated, as if a discordant note had suddenly intruded on the
harmony of his thoughts. His eyes fell slightly, and he began to fidget in a manner that nearly
brought tears to Hermione's eyes. It was as if her own, departed Harry were sitting before her,
again and evermore eleven years old.
"Something on your mind, J?" Hermione said invitingly.
"Um," J murmured. His hand was fumbling at his side, as if wanting, but not wanting, to
slip into the pocket of his faded jeans.
"Do you have something to show me?" Hermione prompted gently.
J nodded. "Mum and dad said I should show you. I don't know what it means. But they
said...they said you would." J dipped into his pocket and pulled out something that was
crumpled almost beyond recognition. Embarrassed, J did his best to smooth out the abused envelope.
It crackled as he did so, with a sound not of paper, but of parchment. A few flecks of red wax
crumbled and fell onto the rug. J held out the envelope, upon which the name Harry James Potter III
was written, in elegant cursive, in bright green ink. The morning light glinted from a gold seal at
one corner of the envelope, casting in relief a large letter H.
Smiling brightly, Hermione reached into the pocket of her apron and pulled out two envelopes which,
allowing for the ravages of time, were virtual mirror images of J's. J leaped out of his chair
as he saw the names written on the envelopes: Harry Potter and Hermione Granger.
"Better sit back down, sweetheart," Hermione said with a tinkle of musical laughter that
seemed to steal at least eighty years from her aspect. "We have a lot to talk
about."
Author's Note: My evil computer conspired to keep me from posting this finale. I won out
in the end. I hope it was worth it as far as the readers are concerned.
Humble thanks to all who expressed some small measure of pleasure from reading this story. And
after phoenixwriter's generous recommendation, I pray this final chapter did not disappoint. If
it has a few holes, that's only to be expected from a simple fanfic scribe.
I have a few more stories waiting in the wings. The next one should begin next week, once I've
knocked a few of the rough edges off. It's not as dark and depressing as this one, but neither
is it fluff. In fact, it presents a Hermione of a type I've not written before now, one more in
line with canon. She has elected to put her career ahead of romance, much to Harry's dismay.
It's a post-grad story, with flashbacks dating to Fifth Year. It was written before OotP was
released, and not hide nor hair of Umbridge is to be seen (praise Merlin!). I call it: But Not
Forever.
Thanks again.