Here Without You

Jenna Kathleen

Rating: PG
Genres: Angst, Romance
Relationships: Harry & Hermione
Book: Harry & Hermione, Books 1 - 5
Published: 21/05/2004
Last Updated: 21/05/2004
Status: completed

Harry and Hermione realize that they love each other and don't want to live without each other...but will love endure? Short, one-shot, song fic.

Chapters

1. Here Without You

1. Here Without You

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any other characters that came from the brilliant mind of J.K. Rowling, nor do I own the song “Here Without You” that belongs to 3 Doors Down (and I am sorry that I added extra repeats of the chorus to fit the story).

On with the story:

Here Without You

Harry Potter sat at the end of his bed looking at pictures and thinking. Thinking about what had happened to him in the last few months, he had almost lost everything. He had already lost his parents to Voldemort. He lost his godfather, Sirius. He almost lost his friend Ron to a brain. And he had almost lost the one person he couldn't stand to live without, Hermione.

Over the past few months of being with Hermione got Harry to thinking that he would never want to spend the rest of his life without her in it. It was already the middle of the summer holiday and Harry couldn't stand it anymore, he had to see her sometime and the picture lying in his lap wasn't the way he wanted to see her. He wanted to see the girl he loved.

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

Being without Hermione this summer was going to be torture on him. He wasn't allowed to see her or write her due to the threat that Voldemort might track him or his letters and possibly harm her. However those orders did not come from the Order of the Phoenix, but from Harry himself, he didn't know what he would do with out Hermione. She was his rock, she was his everything and if someone took her away, he couldn't live anymore. So all he could do was dream of being with her all summer, until Voldemort was killed, and it all would be over.

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face

Soon Harry grew tired of thinking about Hermione and looking at all the pictures of his friends and family, and that one picture of Sirius at his parents wedding. He looked so happy to be standing there celebrating the marriage of two of his best friends. It was just too bad that Sirius would never share those same happy moments in Harry's life. Once again his thoughts drifted towards Hermione, Sirius would never be there when Harry proposed to Hermione, or when they got married, or when their children were being born, Sirius would never be there for any of it. However Hermione would be, and that is all he needed to have in life. Until he fell asleep the thought about what she was doing and how her life was going with out him. It sure couldn't be the hell like he was living with out her. Soon he drifted off to sleep, dreaming of that day that he would finally tell Hermione how he really felt.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

On the other side of England, Hermione sat at her desk thinking about what had happened in her life in the past few months. She had almost lost everything, she had almost lost Harry, and Harry was her everything. Ever since the day of the First task when Harry had to fight off a Hungarian Horntail, she realized that if anything happened to him, she would not be able to live.

It was the middle of summer holiday and she hadn't even gotten a word from Harry to see how her summer was going. That was not like him. Maybe he was afraid of sending letters of maybe them getting intercepted by Voldemort, and not wanting to get his friends hurt. That was it; he didn't want to loose someone close to him again. He had already lost his parents, and just recently he had lost the only person he was close to that was like the brother he would never have, and the father that he would never have again. Sometimes life was a wicked hard thing, but it got better with time, and Harry's would too.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
But I hope that this gets better as we go

It was getting late and Hermione was still sitting at her desk thinking about what it would be like to lose someone you loved. She couldn't bear it, just thinking about losing Harry was something she would not sit and think about, but knowing that he was trying to protect her from the wrath of Voldemort gave her comfort in her decision that she would go see Harry and tell him how she feels. She finally decided to go to sleep and dream about the one person she could not and would not live without.

I'm here without you baby
But your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

***They both found each other sitting in their usual compartment aboard the Hogwarts Express; nobody else was on board, only those two.

"Harry, where is everyone?" Hermione asked.

"I don't know, you don't think that they were all hurt by Voldemort do you?" he asked.

"No, I don't think so. To tell you the truth, I think we are dreaming."

"Well, why are we the only ones on the train?"

"Maybe because I don't want anyone else to be on the train with us. I need to tell you something Harry, and I wouldn't want anyone to ruin this for me, not at this moment that I have wished for far too long."

"Hermione, I don't know what to say, but I need to tell you something to. I love you. I don't know what I would do with out you in my life. I can't believe that I was too stupid to realize it before, I really do love you and I am sorry that I have been trying to protect you over the summer by not writing or coming by to see you, but I don't want to loose you. I don't want to lose someone else I love to Voldemort."

"Harry, I love you too. I have since you battled that dragon in fourth year. At that moment, didn't know how to tell you that. I thought that maybe if I told you, I would drive you away and I didn't want that to happen, I don't want to loose you to anyone. If that happened, I could not go on living anymore, you mean far to much to me. I love you."

Tears started streaming down her face. Both she and Harry were shocked about the confessions they had just made to each other, and neither wanted to take that moment back. For they had both come clean to each other telling how much they cared for each other, and telling that neither would live without the other. This love was true, and nothing would ever change that.

"I love you more than the world itself, Mione. I don't want anything to happen to you, you were unconscious, I thought you might be dead, and I was a wreck, I can't live with out you, and I won't. Hermione will you marry me?"

"Oh, Harry. I love you too, and when I thought that you might not make it out of that fight, I was willing to die to spend eternity with you. I know we might be young, but yes I will marry you. I love you so much!"

Harry smiled a teary smile. His dream of marrying Hermione was going to come true and he couldn't be any happier than what he was now. "Mione?"

"Yes?"

"I will not let anyone take you away from me. I promise that."

"I know, Harry. I know!"

A second later their lips met as their first kiss not only as friends, but also as soul mates. Neither of them knew that it was no ordinary dream that they dreamt.***

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

Hermione woke with a start. Did she just dream what she thought she dreamed? Did she just dream that Harry had proposed to her? It must have been wishful thinking. She knew Harry only liked her as a friend. He liked Cho. He would always like Cho, there was no way that he could ever love Hermione. Was there? Soon with the thought of Harry proposing to her, she fell back to sleep. Again, only her and Harry were in the dream, that dream would not be the last. She would dream of Harry every night until the day she died. She determined that it would be the only way that she could ever have him. She would cry herself to sleep at night until she would be able to tell Harry about the unrequited love she felt, and after she told him, she would cry herself to sleep because she knew that he would never feel the same. What she never thought about was Harry having that same dream, and how it was his way of telling her how he felt.

I'm here without you baby
But your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

After that kiss he and Hermione shared in the dream, Harry woke with a start. Did he just dream that he proposed to Hermione? Yes he did, and it was a great feeling that she said yes. I was just too bad that she wasn't able to hear that or he would call and tell her that he loved her. She had given him her telephone number to call her during the summer when he got extremely bored with the Dursleys, but he never called in order to protect her. Maybe this was the time to call her, no it could wait until the morning. His head was screaming with all the thoughts that ran through his head now. Hermione saying she loved him. Hermione saying yes that she would marry him. It was all too good to be true, it had to be. She liked Krum. She had always liked Krum since he first came to Hogwarts. Tears came to his eyes, thinking about the girl that he might not ever have and the love that he might not ever know the feel of. As soon as he awoke the first time, he was back to sleep, dreaming of Hermione. This would not be the last, but one of many more to come. Neither knew that their dreams would come true sooner than they thought. But for that night, it was only those two, right there for each other.

I'm here without you baby
But your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

That next morning Harry decided to call Hermione and risk telling her how he felt. After all those dreams of confessing his love to her, he had to tell her how he felt as soon as he could. The phone rang once...twice...and a third time before anyone picked up the other line. The sweetest voice came to resound in Harry's head; it was Hermione.

"Hello?" she said into the phone. Oh her voice was good to hear after the hell of a summer he was living.

"Hello, Hermione." he said. He was suddenly nervous about telling her about how he felt, but who could blame him?

"Harry? Is that you?"

"Yes it is me, I needed to talk to you. I didn't know what it was like not to see you all summer until last night when I realized something."

"That you realized what, Harry?"

"That I realized that I love you, and I don't want to lose you to anything. Hermione, I do love you with all my heart, I know you don't feel the same but I had to tell you how I felt."

"Oh Harry." He could hear her start to cry over the phone. "I love you too. I mean it, I do really love you. I don't know what I would do with out you in my life. I might die if you weren't there. I didn't know how to tell my best friend that I love him, but this phone call has made it a little easier. I love you."

"I am sorry that I never realized it sooner, I know it must have been hell seeing me swoon over Cho, I am sorry if I put you in pain. I do love you and don't let anyone change that."

"I wish I could see you now, Harry." Hermione said. "I know you don't want to endanger me, but I need to see you. You are so far away right now."

"I know the distance, but you will see me. You will see me in your dreams, Hermione."

I'm here without you baby
But your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

A/N…well that is it for this one. I hope it is not too mushy but this was the very first fic I wrote and I was finally able to post it on Portkey.org.

Jenna Kat