Harry by padfoot_puppyeyes

Rating: PG
Genres: Romance, Humor
Relationships: Lily & James
Book: Lily & James, Books 1 - 5
Published: 26/10/2004
Last Updated: 04/01/2006
Status: In Progress

Ever wonder where Harry got his name? How about what brought James out of his childish pranks
and drew Lily towards him? And what about what James did to make Peter turn on him so suddenly?
Something, or someone, must have drawn Lily and James together, even as it drove the Marauders and
tradition apart. All of your questions and more answered. The romance will come later, and for now
the plot revolves around bitterness, jealousy, hurt, lies, and grief.




1. Familiar Faces, Familiar Places
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**AN- I decided that if I were all of you, meaning the people that take the time to read this,
I would be pretty angry right about now, and decided that I therefore had to put forward some time
to work on this. I've been kind of sick, and I know that sounds like it's have been the
perfect time to write, but I had writers block then. It's still there, but it's this or my
third novel, and I'm getting nowhere on the novel, (Prongs, please don't kill me!) So
instead I'm winging it at this. Please tell me how you like it. Also, the whole fic is in third
person, but I like to switch POV's. If you have a problem with this…sorry, mate, tough
luck.**

**Disclaimer- you know, one day, I'll be writing fanfics for my own story, and then I wont
have to write one of these…**

**Familiar Faces, Familiar Places**

**Watching the two specks above him that represented his best friends, Remus Lupin shook his
head. School had only begun yesterday, and already they were at it. The pranks had been pulled for
the day, and Quidditch, as always, came before homework.**

**“Oi, Moony, catch!” Jolted out of his thoughts, werewolf instinct reacted before he could and
caught the red Quaffle for him.**

**Tossing it back at the thrower, Remus Lupin called, “Prongs, don't you think it's
time we head in? It's almost dark, and we've still got a Transfiguration assignment, and
that Potions essay, and Padfoot has an Arithmancy make-up test from the last time he faked sick to
get out of homework.”**

**James, snickering, landed with ease beside Remus and said, “Yeah, I guess you're right. I
still can't believe he got more homework than he would've if he'd went to the class,
but at least it gave us some free time.” When the black-haired boy grinned crookedly, shouldering
his broom, Remus said,**

**“I really don't even want to know what you did with that spare time. Tell Padfoot to pack
it up.”**

**Obeying James's orders, Sirius Black stuffed the Quaffle in the wooden box and handed it
to Remus, who protested until James pointed out that he had nothing else to carry. It looked, to
them, like this year would be exactly the same. Their last year of Hogwarts would be
normal.**

**Until a boy with dark green eyes and a lightning bolt scar fell from mid-air. Because Harry
Potter and normal rarely are allowed to be put in the same sentence.**

**Harry Potter, meanwhile, was not having nearly as nice of a time of things. His rescue
mission to find his godfather had been simple, and private. He had simply walked into the veil,
confident in the logic Hermione had put forward; the veil was the rip between the living and dead.
But as Sirius had been living when he'd fallen in, he had to be living in the realm of the
dead.**

**So how had he ended up at Hogwarts? Was this some sort of parallel universe? But why were
there students here, out on the grounds this late? They hadn't been allowed out since
Voldemort's attacks had become so much more frequent. Did Voldemort even exist in this
world?**

**Seeing the last of them start to head inside, Harry decided quickly that he had better
follow. Shouldering the bag that contained his most treasured possessions, (he hadn't known how
long he would have to be wherever it was he had ended up) Harry Potter swept out of the shadows and
into the twilight. Easily catching up to the group of boys in front of him, he poked one of the
black-haired ones in the back of the neck.**

**Well, that had been a mistake.**

**The boy turned around to look at him, surprise written on his features. Before Harry could
say a word, he asked, “Did you know that it's way past curfew? I mean, we've never minded,
but I've never seen anyone else out this late.”**

**Harry, too shocked to say anything, merely stared up at the man he'd seen in all his
photographs, but never seen in person. James Potter was standing in front of him, staring at him
expectantly.** **(I could leave you here, but that would be too short and on a cliffhanger, and
I'm nicer than that…plus, it's too predictable. I'd like to think I'm not.)**

**“Well?” James asked, staring down at him.**

**:”Uh…” Harry was too flabbergast to say anything for a moment, until he began to collect
himself after James said,**

**“I know I'm good looking, aren't I?” It was only said to tease Harry for staring, but
it brought him back to his senses fully. Snape had been right; his father was a bigheaded,
arrogant, annoying…**

**“ Can you show me to the Headmaster's office? I need to be sorted, I'm a transfer
student.” Remus's senses were already on alert. Something was extremely off about this boy. But
how had he known that Hogwarts students were sorted? Every school dealt with things such as Houses
differently. He waited for an explanation, but when none came, and it didn't look like any were
coming, he said,**

**“Sure, follow me,” probably saving the new boy from a good amount of hexing and pranking on
Sirius and James's behalves.**

**Now that he was past staring at the emerald eyes, he knew why he had felt weird about this
new boy. Nearly everything about him was similar to James. His hair, his face…**

**But now that Remus looked even harder, he noticed big differences too. He was quite a bit
paler than James and much skinnier. `That would change at Hogwarts' Remus thought. If the boy
hadn't been getting enough to eat before, he'd see to it personally that he stuffed his
face every meal. His eyes, as said before were green, and were nearly so bright that Remus had to
fight the impulse to dim the lights in the corridor and see if they would glow. They were shaped
quite a bit differently from James's and held no laughter or joy, or anything other than
sadness, and reserve, and grief, and something Remus couldn't even understand. As though
sensing that Remus was trying to understand him, studying him, the shade of green became darker and
glazed, successfully hiding anything he was thinking about or feeling.**

**But the most notable difference was the way he walked. This boy walked as though he were
carrying much more than a small bag of meager possessions on his back. He walked as though the
weight of the world rested on his shoulders.**

**If only Remus Lupin knew.**

**As it was, Remus didn't know. He was leading Harry though the familiar passages of
Hogwarts, stopping to explain himself to a few prefects and to simply say hi to the friendlier
ones. Finally stopping in front of the gargoyle, he said, “ Gummy Snakes,” and walked onto the
stairs, waiting for Harry to follow him.**

**As Remus was explaining to Dumbledore, Harry was looking around. Fawkes, the phoenix he had
befriended in his own time, now came to him, landing on his shoulder gently. Dumbledore seemed
surprised for a minute, until a look of understanding flashed across his features. Dismissing
Remus, he waited until he knew the boy was out of earshot before he said, “So how did you happen to
end up here?”**

**“Time-Travel.” Harry replied simply, stroking Fawkes's head gently. “I'd tell you
more, but I don't think it's a good idea. How'd you know?”**

**“A phoenix always trusts. You need only gain their trust once; it stays with them forever, no
matter what the time. Speaking of, which time-period are you from?”**

**“1996.”**

**“What year are you in?”**

**“What year are the Marauders in?” If Dumbledore thought for a moment that he would lose this
one chance to get to know his parents, he was not only sadly mistaken, but a lot more
off-his-rocker than anyone had ever thought. Not that this Dumbledore knew, Harry reasoned, that
one of the Marauders was his parent.**

**Dumbledore chuckled, and said, “So I suppose you've already met them? They are quite the
social bunch, I'm not surprised. They are in their seventh year.”**

**It was a year above him, and to be honest, Harry couldn't have cared less. “Great. So am
I. A Seventh year Gryffindor.” Now, Harry thought, all he had to do was keep up with his classmates
and hide his true identity. It should be easy.**

**Easy and Harry Potter shouldn't be put in the same sentence either.**

**AN-I'm leaving it there, for now. That's just the prequel. I know it's short, but
bear with me. I needed to close it. I'm sick and need to get to bed.**

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2. Getting to Know You Again
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“So tell us a bit about yourself.” Remus said, after Harry had come back to the dorm room,
claiming that he would be sharing it with them for the rest of the year. James and Sirius were
sulking, Peter was annoyed, but because he had never really liked the sneaking out they did at
night, Remus was quite content with the situation. It would give him more time to figure this boy
out.

While he unpacked his things, the boy said, “I'm Harry Potter, seventeen, and in Gryffindor.
What more is there to say?”

Undeterred by Harry's tone of voice, Remus said, “James's last name is Potter. Are you
two related?”

At this point, James overcame his sulking to study their new dorm mate. “Yeah, I suppose we
could be. My family's fairly big, and we do look a lot alike.”

“If I didn't know any better Prongs, I'd say he were your twin. Get rid of the scar and
give you green eyes, and you two could trick anyone!” Sirius said, with excitement. “Oh, the
possibilities…”

Harry thought the idea sounded amusing, to be honest. He wasn't really up for pranking
anyone back home, but then, he had never tried it. Now that he would be staying with the infamous
Marauders of Hogwarts, in their last year, he realized he couldn't be the one to hold them
down. “Well, it wouldn't be that difficult. I have some friends who…enjoy inventing things.
They created candies that can change your hair, your face shape…”

“Your eyes!” Peter said catching on to what everyone else in the room hadn't thought needed
to be said.

“Yeah, but what about the scar?” Remus said, frowning faintly. “Where did you get that anyways?”
From what he knew about scars, it seemed highly unlikely that someone could get such a perfectly
shaped one in a place such as the forehead. This one almost seemed like a curse scar, and it seemed
like that was even more likely when Harry replied,

“I don't want to talk about that yet.”

Yes, Harry Potter would make this year interesting.

Panicking, Harry tried to steer the conversation away from anything about himself. “So, you guys
like pranks?”

“How'd you know?” Remus asked. *Stop being so perceptive, Professor.* Harry thought
with amusement.

“It just seemed kind of obvious, from how excited you became over the candies.” Remus seemed to
accept this answer, and Sirius and James were positively beaming already.

“Love `em.” Sirius replied promptly. For a moment, there was an awkward silence, as each of the
boys tried to think of something else to say. Finally, Remus asked, “What's your favorite
subject?”

“Trust Moony to ask something about school.” James muttered, but Sirius and he were both
smiling.

“Ah…Defense Against the Dark Arts.”

Somehow, this made Remus suspicious. “Why?”

“I'm not a Death Eater, or anything like that, if that's what your thinking. I just have
a talent for that particular subject, and a grudge against Dark Magic.” Harry replied. Thinking
fast, as to how he could try and shake Remus's suspicion about his scar, Harry added, “It
killed my parents.”

There was a shocked silence this time, until James asked, “Dark magic…killed your parents?
Sorry, we shouldn't have…”

“It was a long time ago. I didn't really even know them, and you can't really miss
someone you've never known.” Harry replied just as easily, shrugging it off. “Better
topics…”

“QUIDDITCH!” Sirius said loudly, bouncing from his position on the bed. Harry's mood quickly
picked up as he realized that he would be able to play with his father.

“Love it! Were I came from, I was the youngest seeker in a century!” Both boys grinned at him,
James saying,

“You'll have to try out!” After a moment of thought, he said under his breath, “You'd
have to be good to be put on the team so young… I'll resort to begging if I have to!
*Please* try out! If we have to suffer with me as seeker again…”

“That bad?” Harry asked with mock sincerity, fighting a smile.

“Not at all! I was brilliant, if that's what you're suggesting!” Harry hid his
snickering behind a cough at James's hurt pride, but James caught on quickly, and added, “Hey,
really! I was awesome, wasn't I?”

“Sure he was.” Remus said, smirking.

“Right…” Sirius said, as Peter said,

“I thought he was good.” Honestly.

“I WAS *FINE*!” James insisted. “We didn't win a game last season because we were
absolutely slaughtered by the other team's chasers. That's just my natural position, they
need me there! But I'm captain, and I want to win the cup this time!”

“Relax, Prongs. We've got a chance this year.” Sirius said amused at how enthusiastic James
was taking his Quidditch.

“I'm going to try out for seeker this year too!” Peter added, feeling left out. “James was
training me all of last year! I think I'm finally ready!”

And now Harry knew that this would be harder than he had thought. Every time his father's
friend-who-would-turn-traitor spoke, Harry felt like strangling him. But as Remus was already
watching him with too much interest, Harry didn't think that this would be a good way to become
friends and throw Remus off of his scent.

Off his scent.... knowing that werewolves had canine senses, he had joked about it like only
Snape would. Sometimes Harry marveled at his bad sense of irony. Deciding that this must be his
Slytherin side, and wondering if Malfoy thought like that all the time, Harry threw himself onto
his bed, the one next to Remus's and continued to talk with the Marauders late into the
night.

“This feels weird.” Remus stated after a pause. Harry smiled at how childish he sounded, until
he realized that Remus was as much a kid here as he was. Of course Remus would sound like that.

“What feels weird?” Harry asked, wondering if Remus had already figured him out. But there was
no way…was there?

“It feels like I'm meeting you again.” *`You have no idea'* Harry thought in reply,
saying aloud,

“I know. I got so used to my old school and friends, and my old school is similar to this one-“
`*It would be seeing as it's the same school'*, “So seeing it without my friends,”
*`and with my dead father and his dead best friend, not to mention an old professor who happens
to be a werewolf and the traitor who ruined my life,'* “Is a little strange.”

`I need to control that sarcasm. It won't make me friends with anyone else.' Harry
thought, as he and Remus talked about little things. Neither seemed to want to say what they were
really thinking, and Harry responded to every question without really thinking, until he realized
what direction the questions were going in.

Somehow, Remus had to know what Harry thought about werewolves. When his new roommate had said
he'd slept lightly, Remus had joked around by saying that that was a good thing, because he
would hear Sirius and James trying to pull one over him, but secretly, he was worried. There was no
way they would be able to keep the secret from Harry for long.

“So what do you think about…giants?”

“They can be talked around. We'd get along fine, if wizards would make the effort.”

“Trolls.”

Harry winced, clearly lost in memory. “Ah, I have some bad past experiences with trolls…”

“You've met a troll and lived to tell about it?” Remus asked, impressed. Usually that took a
large amount of magic.

“Yeah…In our first year, it was in our school in Halloween. Everyone else was in the dungeons
searching for it, but I ended up being in the same room as it, which happened to be a girl's
bathroom. It was a fully-grown mountain troll we just got really lucky. My friend hit it on the
head with it's own club using the only charm we knew.”

“The levitation one?” Remus asked, amused. “That's pure luck!”

“That's what our professor said when she found us. But we needed good luck, because bad luck
had gotten us in the same room in the first place. Besides,” Harry mock-pouted. “you're just
jealous of my obvious talent.”

Remus smiled, and said, “Well, we don't have to worry about trolls entering Hogwarts.
It's the safest place in England.”

“Believe me,” Harry said, remembering that Hogwarts' safety had been the reason the troll
had been let in, “I know.”

“Uh…house elves?”

Harry smiled at the vision of Hermione and her SPEW badges. “My friend had a rather large
opinion of them, but they're just other magical creatures who happen to like work and are put
to good use, so long as they aren't mistreated.” He frowned, knowing where Remus was going with
this questioning. Wanting to get to the point without showing it, Harry asked, “What about you?
What do you think about…werewolves?”

Remus visibly paled before saying lightly, “Uh, I don't know…I've never really heard
anything other than awful stories…”

*Ah,* Harry thought, smirking. *He wants to see if I'll agree or disagree. Smart*.
*If Remus could only lie a little better, I bet even the Marauders would never have figured him
out.* “Actually, I used to have a friend who was a werewolf, before I came here. We were really
close, and he was so sad all the time. But he'd just lost his best friend of even longer, so
that's understandable.”

“Really?” Remus asked, trying to hide hope.

“Yeah. I think people just hear the bad, and refuse to see the good about something they
don't understand. If I could transform like that, I'd welcome the change for a night. I
think I'd like to be able to forget myself for a while, and I know a lot of other people who
wouldn't mind either. That is why most people get drunk, isn't it?”

Remus stared at Harry for a bit, measuring his trust. But if Harry had been expecting Remus to
tell his secret so early, he was disappointed, because Remus only replied with “Yeah… I agree.”

A loud and dangerous boom reverberated through the room as the occupants on the other side of
the bed were leaning over something. Sirius, James and Peter now had soot-blackened faces and all
three sat, gaping at Harry's trunk.

“Ouch.” Harry said for them, smirking and standing up. “Yeah, should've warned you about
that. I, um, appreciate my privacy.”

“That's just paranoia, mate.” Sirius said in awe, cautiously standing and arching his back
in a stretch, all the while watching the trunk. “You're worse than some Aurors I've seen,
and believe me a few of them are really bad. Who did you get to put that charm on your trunk?”

“Dumbledore.” Harry said casually, intentionally failing to mention that if you asked the
Dumbledore of this time, he wouldn't have an idea of what spell it was. This spell was a little
too complex for the Dumbledore of this time period.

“Have anything to do with the war?” Remus asked, and Harry mentally cursed. This conversation
wasn't going the way he wanted it to.

“Yeah. That's how my parents were killed. They were one of the first ones dead as a result
of Dark Magic, and it was because a traitor, who they thought to be their best friend, gave away
their location. I guess I'm a little slow to trust.”

“Good thing too!” James chirped, glowing.

“Because you're sleeping in the same dorm as the infamous Marauders, and trusting us to not
prank you could be dangerous.” Sirius finished, showing Harry a smile identical to James'.

As they laughed through the rest of the night, drinking bottles of butterbeer (Harry realized
he'd really taken advantage of the drink, and was making up for all of the time he'd been
forbidden to go to Hogsmeade to retrieve some,) they eventually fell asleep, all piled somewhere on
a single bed, exhausted but happy.

But at some point in the night, Peter Pettigrew was pushed onto the floor in his sleep, where he
woke up the next morning, feeling more left out than he had since his first year at Hogwarts. He
was tempted, but in the end, he didn't wake the new kid up too early for any human to be
comfortable. He let him sleep. With any luck Harry Potter would sleep in too late.

James was the next to wake up that morning. Still groggy, he turned to see that Peter had
disappeared, which was odd, as Peter was usually the last one awake, and had be dragged out of bed,
only finally letting them win because of how hungry he would become.

Next he took the time to study the very amusing scene before him. Harry, who looked just like
him, was sleeping curled up against the headboard, looking almost afraid and a little protective.
Remus was lying like most normal humans do, only being different by stretching his arms out. (James
couldn't resist and had to poke him in the armpit, which, as always, made him slap Sirius in
the face.)

But Sirius had to have been the most comical. His limbs were so spread apart and angled so odd,
James had to wonder how his friend had managed to stay on the bed. His mouth was open wide, and his
tongue was lolling out, as a snore escaped him. James was pretty sure even a volcano couldn't
have awoken Sirius from his state of hibernation at the moment.

At that moment, Harry shifted and his bangs hid his lightning bolt scar, and James couldn't
help but notice for the second time how alike he and this boy were in appearance, if they were
alike in nothing else. Before Harry could shift and ruin his chance, James grabbed the camera and
took a picture, smiling at it with affection before turning to wake the others up.

The poor remaining two Marauders, despite sleeping in the same quarters for six years, were too
slow. Moony and Padfoot seemed too tired to do anything, let alone to wake up, so neither boys were
prepared for the large tub of cold water about to be dumped on their heads.

Harry, however, rolled off the bed just beforehand, and James realized that he hadn't been
joking the night before; he really did sleep on needles.

Unfortunately for Harry, there are hangings on the sides of the bed, and landing with you legs
still up in the air tangled in the sheets and hangings of a bed with two other boys in it
scrambling to catch the boy who had gotten them soaked wasn't a pleasant experience.

“PRONGS!”

With great care, James set the picture on his nightstand, (planning to use it as
*Black*mail, on his best friend for his appearance while asleep,) and ran for his life and
dignity.

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3. Stealing Peter's Place
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Poor Professor McGonagall never stood a chance. They had spent all day planning it, walking
around talking about it and passing notes around during class about it, working out every little
kink, so that even their beloved Minnie, (Only Sirius could call her that and avoid a detention,
and he was never given one for calling her Minnie because she knew he wouldn't care if he had
one, and it would mean more time spent with Sirius Black.) wouldn't be able to undo the jinxes
put on the two look-alikes.

So when the Marauders and the new guy walked in, everyone knew something would go dreadfully
wrong at some point during her classes. They didn't have to wait too long. “Harry Potter?”

“Here!”

“You're not Harry Potter, I am!”

These two comments were said in unison by both boys, leaving everyone else in confusion, before
both boys turned McGonagall, yelling, “PROFESSOR!”

Sighing, and knowing that she should have seen it coming, McGonagall took a breath to regain her
calm air before saying, “ Alright, which one of you is James Potter?”

“I AM!”

“But both of you just said you were Harry Potter.” A small redhead in the back pointed out
logically.

Smiling his most charming smile, James replied with, “Because we are.”

But Harry was stuck staring after he did a double take, seeing the girl in so many of the photos
he had in his trunk. Lily Evans.

He had been expecting all of the Marauders after he had seen his dad. He had even been able to
expect Wormtail, as much as he hated him. But the sight of her alive and annoyed hit him hard,
pushing the air out of his lungs. Regaining his voice when Sirius elbowed him, Harry added with a
smile, “But if you can guess which one of us is who, we'll change back.”

Before McGonagall and Lily could protest, half of the class was leaning forward and shouting
guesses. Rolling her eyes, Lily said, “Honestly, James Potter, will you ever grow up! You're so
immature!”

James went on to look hurt, but Harry defended both of them, saying, “Yes, but this prank
isn't hurting anyone. And you have to admit it's fun! Come on, Lily, you hate James Potter
enough to know who he is and how he acts, right?” Harry taunted. He couldn't help but notice
how frustrated she was, and at the moment could see what Remus had meant during one of the stories
he had heard about his parents. James had enjoyed annoying Lily to some degree because as long as
she wasn't lethal, Lily Evans was very fun to annoy.

Rolling her eyes, Lily hesitated for a moment, and then, hesitantly, leaned forward, squinting
and brushing her hair out of her eyes, trying to notice any differences between the two. James
couldn't help but whoop in success and Harry rewarded Lily with a smile brighter than the
Marauders had gotten from him yet that she hesitantly returned.

By the end of class no one had figured out who was who because James and Harry kept switching
seats, meaning that as soon as the class thought they had them, the two boys preformed a charm to
change the seating. Walking out into the hallway, Sirius slung his arms theatrically over one of
the twin-like boys shoulders, saying, “That was great, Prongs.”

“Sirius?”

“Hum?”

“I'm Harry.”

Remus and Peter were already pretty far behind them, standing in the hallway laughing. James
kept walking with them as Sirius removed his arm from Harry's shoulders, grinning at his own
mistake, and James tried to laugh too, but the smile didn't reach his eyes.

How could his own best mate not know the difference? He and Harry walked differently, and talked
differently, Harry using longer and more thought-out words, and James spoke simply to continue the
noise.

But he didn't have anything to worry about, right? Harry was different from him. James was
an individual, and it wasn't like this new member of the Marauders would be kicking the old one
out.

So why did he feel so weird and left out, as Sirius talked to Harry, who was walking where James
normally did on his right? And why had Lily Evans smiled at Harry when she never smiled at him, and
yet at the time they had looked exactly alike?

Peter was having similar feelings towards Harry Potter, though he wouldn't admit it. This
boy, who looked an awful lot like James with prettier eyes, had more secrets but wasn't taking
Peter's place among his friends, because the others weren't laughing at Harry. There was
nothing to laugh at.

If anything, in fact, the boy kept them grounded a little, helping Remus see any errors in the
plans, helping James think up appropriate places and victims, and helping Sirius to plot in the
first place.

If Peter hadn't had a place among his friends before, he really didn't now. And that
scared him.

But that was all right. Because everyone knows that to be friends, you had to be on your
friend's team, and Quidditch try-outs, which Peter had been preparing for, were being held
tonight. There was no way he would let the new kid steal anything more from him, besides his
friends and place. He couldn't steal Peter's ability to play Quidditch. Not when he'd
worked all year to get so good.

“Hey Harry, you going to try out tonight?” Sirius asked, staring when Harry frowned,
considering. Well, what did he have to lose?

“Sure.”

Harry's mind was racing, as he quickly walked up to the dorms to take out his Firebolt. How
would he explain to James and Sirius about his broom…there had to be something he could say to
avoid questioning…

Of course.

“Yeah, it's a prototype. My godfather” who's standing right in front of me years
younger, “got it for me before…”

But Harry couldn't say anything about Sirius, not while Sirius was standing so nearby. The
loss of his godfather hadn't hurt nearly as bad as usual when a semi-version of his godfather
had been with him since he had been thrown through time and space, and bringing it up now would
only cause the pain and self-pity, two emotions he loathed, to surface. “Before I left for
here.”

“Will you be seeing him soon?”

“He's dead.” Harry stated blandly despite his determination not to mention it. Already he
was scaring his friend's away by telling them how many people close to him had died in his
life, but he had to knowing what Sirius was getting at. “That's why I'm here. He's dead
and he can't get you a broom like this one.”

While Harry was thinking about how good it felt it finally just admit his godfather's death
to himself, allowing the bittersweet feeling to surround him, Sirius said, “Sorry…shouldn't
have asked.”

“Yeah, well, I'm kind of used to it. At least you don't pity me. I seem to run through
the father-figures…” Harry shifted, unsure of what to say. Sirius, James, the rest of the team,
Peter, and three other boys trying out for the seeker position were staring at him in silence.
“Well, I'm not the captain. James, what do we do?”

“Oh, right…” For a moment, James had the impression Harry had been talking to Sirius more than
anyone else, but then Sirius *had* asked the question, so it only made sense that Harry would
be answering him. Clapping his hands to capture the attention of the others, and trying to take the
attention off of poor Harry, James shouted, “Come on. Up in the air, let's see what you lot can
do.”

Smiling, everyone flew up, as James began.

“The point of the seeker is to catch the snitch, but there's a lot more involved in it than
the end of the game and those hundred fifty points. There's always dodging, like a keeper, and
catching, like a chaser, and watching more than one thing at a time, like a Beater. Therefore, the
seeker needs to be able to do more than see the snitch. You need to be able to chase it, and catch
it. We're going to try a few exercises, okay?”

As he said all of this, James had taken out a wooden bow from a few feet below them, and at the
last few words he had tossed the quaffle to Sirius, who had expected it and caught it with
ease.

Everyone did exceptional with the chaser exercises, and Harry did great at hitting the bludger,
deciding that if he hadn't been given the seeker position, he could've been a beater as
well. While there were no exercises for keeper, there were many dodging exercises, and eventually,
James had limited it to Harry, Peter and Louis Pearson, a third year.

While Harry knew he could see the snitch when James released it, he studied his opponents.
Peter, it seemed, had been taught to see it, so he saw glints of it, and caught images of it when
it hovered for only a moment before disappearing, but Louis had the abilities of a Beater or
Keeper. He wouldn't be any competition.

Deciding not to show off when it wasn't necessary, and not to embarrass Peter, Harry lazily
made his way around the pitch, scanning for the snitch through all of the other players, who seemed
to be practicing, but were really creating quite the little diversion.

And suddenly he saw a streamline of gold shoot past him, heading downwards. Just behind the gold
was Peter, diving for the snitch.

Surprised that the other boy could dive so well, but determined to be able to play next to his
father, Harry fell into the dive as well, confident that he could beat the traitor to the golden
ball.

But just as they were level, and Peter had his hand outstretched, about to seize Harry's
only chance of playing with his father, the snitch so close increased in speed and flew straight
up, disappearing again.

Breathing a sigh of relief, Harry silently vowed not to underestimate any of his opponents ever
again, past, (or present, as it were,) or future. Slowly, he flew upwards to resume search, while
the rest of the team watched him fly in awe.

Peter had been training hard for forever, and had been struggling just a moment ago to catch the
snitch. Harry seemed to naturally fall into a dive, and to him and the rest of the team was
completely at ease and a natural in the air. From there on, everyone knew, there was no
competition. Harry had won.

But Harry's head-on dive after the snitch had everyone watching him again, as Peter hung
back, wanting to be the one to catch it but unable to go straight down like that without falling
over his broom head-first.

Harry couldn't contain his whoop of excitement as his held up his prize.

“So we know who's on the team, right?” James asked later, as they all toweled off, the dust
finally gone from their hair and eyes.

Peter watched as Harry grinned uncontrollably, and wondered if this new boy knew that he had
just ruined Peter's only chance at finding somewhere to belong. And as Peter heard Sirius say
something to Harry about him being born a natural in the air, and how it seemed be belonged better
up in the air than on the ground, Peter wondered if there was anywhere he would be able to fit
in.

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4. The Greatest Form of Flattery
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NEWT's, Harry discovered quickly, changed everything quite dramatically, and he had to be
grateful that he had Remus in most of his classes, because his future professor acted much like
Hermione did, (though Harry knew that no one could ever replace Hermione), reminding him of his
homework and helping him keep up.

So it wasn't the classes that he did have Remus in that troubled him…it was the ones that he
didn't, though not for the reasons you would think.

No, Harry had no problem with the homework, because it seemed that Hogwarts had been forcing
them to study more for the OWL's in his time than they made the students of this time study for
their NEWT's. Because most of the spells were so easy, Harry really didn't have a problem
mastering them quickly.

Harry's problem was that Lily Evans seemed to have taken him under her wing, and James
didn't like it one bit.

It didn't seem that Lily liked Harry as anything more than a friend, for which Harry thanked
every god he had ever known. Lily acted a lot like a mother should, making sure he ate enough,
(you're too skinny, it's like they didn't feed you wherever you came from,) slept
enough, (did you go to bed early enough last night? Because you look horrible,) finished his
homework…it was comforting for Harry, to have Lily there to act a lot like a concerned parent
would, and another reminder of Hermione…

But he had never though of Hermione like a parent. She had always been a friend…wait, wasn't
she more than a friend? No, not in that way, because he didn't look at Ron that way, but they
had been through so much, didn't she deserve to be different? Yeah, it was just because of how
much they had been through…he didn't look at Hermione like that!

But thinking about Hermione, Ron, and everything else about the present reminded Harry of home,
and how he could get back there…

Did he even want to go back there?

It was as he was asking himself this that Lily, who had been speaking to him the entire time,
(it had all gone through his left ear, and out his right,) broke away from him to get to another
one of her classes, and Sirius stepped up, a concerned look on his face.

“Harry, mate? You okay?”

Harry and Sirius had become extremely close ever since his arrival, and at this point, Sirius
could read Harry as easily as a book, (“HEY! I can too read, James!” he had replied, when he had
used this same metaphor in front of the group.) So it was pretty much useless for Harry to deny
that something was bothering him.

And he didn't have much to tell. Every time Harry brought up his family, Sirius shut up, not
knowing how to handle someone in grief, and changed the topic. As amusing as Harry had found it,
the pity was getting old.

“Not really. Is James mad at me for something?” Harry replied instead, not expecting Sirius to
answer with,

“Well, yeah. I mean, Lily's never so much as looked his way, has she, and he's liked her
for years. Now, she's with you as much as you're with us.”

It took a moment for Harry to think enough to reply, “But it isn't like that between us…its
just family affection. Really. I mean…”

“I know…” Sirius murmured, and Harry knew why he was all of a sudden uncomfortable. If forced to
pick sides, Sirius would have to follow his best friend, whether he agreed with him or not. It was
like a code they had, and stuck to.

Not wanting to think about it anymore, Harry switched topics. This one, he knew, would catch
Sirius's attention. “So, what's been up with Remus today?”

“What about him?” Sirius asked, trying to seem nonchalant. How could Harry have already picked
up on the changes Remus was going through? It was still three days till full moon, and Remus
wasn't usually bad until the day beforehand. Aside from the pale skin, which Remus nearly
always had, he had looked and acted as normal as possible, even if he had been a little on
edge.

“He's just acting a little…strange, don't you think?” Harry responded. “I mean, it's
like he's going though something tough right now, and I'm worried. Is he angry at me for
something too?”

Sirius bit the inside if his cheek in frustration, trying to think everything through. He had
been the one in the group that had wanted to tell Harry everything, the whole truth, but he had
been the only one. Remus had insisted that he was keeping something from them, James had clearly
been jealous, and Peter had simply said, “I don't like him,” so they had agreed not to mention
Remus being a werewolf, even after Harry had admitted to befriending one before.

But Harry was picking up on it so quickly; they may not have a choice.

“Nah, he's just very stressed out right now. Has been all year, actually. I think it's
because of NEWT's.” He replied instead, promising that he would talk to Remus later. Harry was
worried. He had a right to know what was wrong with his friend.

But while Sirius was unconsciously making excuses, inside he knew the truth, and he admitted it
to himself a moment later. He wanted to be best friends with Harry. He wanted to protect Harry, and
help Harry, and comfort Harry, but was afraid to make a mistake about it. And as he thought about
it, he realized that what he was doing, or wanted to do, was almost like how Lily acted, if not
stronger. He wanted to help the new boy out.

Harry almost laughed as he watched Sirius's reaction to his simple question, but his mood
quickly darkened as he thought about the last comment. If James were mad at him over Lily, he'd
have to do something about it. He only had so much time to befriend his father; he wasn't going
to waste it fighting with him.

Waving at Sirius, who was meeting Peter for dinner, (“you need to come soon, too! If you
don't eat more…) Harry headed up the stairs to the dorm rooms, confident that James and Remus
were up there.

He hesitated only enough to hear James say, “Are you sure you're feeling alright? You
don't normally go through it this early, it usually doesn't happen until-“

“I'm fine, Prongs.” Remus replied, sounding like he was too tired to snap at his friend.
“I'll meet you after dinner for a trip to the kitchens if I'm hungry then. I'm just not
now, you know how that is.”

“Yeah, okay.”

Harry, knowing that the conversation was about Remus and his transformations, also knew from
Remus's tone of voice that conversation was over, and walked in, aware of the two pairs of eyes
watching his every move. Grinning, he removed the charms from around his trunk one by one, making
it take as long as possible, and finally pulling a book he had been reading before he had come a
few weeks ago. Looking up as he redid all of the charms, he asked, “You ever get that feeling
you're being watched?”

James smirked, saying, “Well, sorry about watching you like that, but I don't think I will
ever lose amusement by watching you and your paranoia. Besides, with charms like that on your
trunk, you must have that feeling of being watched all the time.”

Remus just shook his head, but obviously noticed the tension in the atmosphere around him, and
murmured, “I'm going to get some air while I'm allowed to,” before walking away.

Meanwhile, James stood, unsure of Harry, or what he was planning. The calculating look on his
face said that he was thinking about how to approach the situation without James blowing up, until
he seemed to simply lose any patience in asking the question and simply asked, “Are you mad at
me?”

Swallowing his real reply, James said, “No.”

“Is it because of Sirius? Because he's still your best friend. If you asked him, he'd
side without thinking.”

James wanted to say something like, “He shouldn't have to think, he's supposed to be my
best friend without debate,” but instead what came out was, “No, it's not Sirius.”

“Is it about how I look? Because, it's not my fault that I look like you.”

“No. It's not that.”

“Is it about Lily?”

Swallowing harder, James grounded out, “no, it's not that.”

Harry growled in frustration, asking, “Then what is it that has you so ticked off? Because
you've been acting different to me for a while now.”

James hadn't wanted to blow up at Harry. He wasn't sure what his emotions towards the
boy were, but he hadn't wanted to hurt him, or make him angry with him…it wasn't pity,
because Harry was a strong individual. It wasn't jealousy, because he had always been
comfortable with himself and the way he was. It was more of a need to comfort his new friend, to
protect him and worry about him.

But this last question, and the hurt and anger behind it, made him reply with, “It's all of
it, okay? It isn't enough that you stole my best friend, or that you stole my identity, or that
you stole my girl. It's just, I was laying in bed last night thinking, and I realized that you
have everything I want at the moment. Freedom, and Lily, and Sirius, and reason, *Lily*, and
teachers liking you, and knowledge, *and Lily*, and the whole school already likes you, and
somehow it's like you stole everything good about me, and changed the bad. And it's just
frustrating, because everything I've already worked for, you already have.”

Harry just sat there silently, letting James let it all out, and listened to every word. When
the rant, which had continued, finally did die down, Harry looked up at his frustrated friend,
still silent.

“Thanks.” James muttered, head down and feeling sheepish. Harry had taken the attack so calmly
that at the moment he felt like an idiot.

“No problem. I'm not here to take Lily. I'm not here to take Sirius. And I'm not
here to replace you, or anyone else. I'm not even here for long, I'll have to leave again
soon.” Harry replied, knowing that at some point, he would have to leave the past behind him. “But
if it helps, they say that imitation is the greatest form of flattery.”

Grinning, James replied, “It helps.” Looking down at Harry, and deciding to ask him about where
he was leaving to later, he said, “So, dinner?”

“I think it's over. Dessert should be starting soon though.” Harry replied, grinning. James,
smirking, opened the door and let Harry out before him, then closed it on the dorm along with all
the bitterness and envy he had felt towards Harry.

But as they walked down together, both of them knew that while they were friends, they
weren't anywhere near as trusting as they would like to be. The knowledge of the secrets they
were keeping from Harry was slowly eating at James with guilt, and while Harry didn't show that
he knew about Remus and his condition, inside the feelings of hurt were eating him up too. What
would he have to do to get the four friends to trust him?

Sirius smiled in welcome as they approached the table, sending a questioning look to James,
while Harry replied without needing to be asked, “Remus went on a walk.”

Nodding, Sirius turned back to his food. So Remus was going through it early this month, he
thought. That would explain why Harry had so easily caught on. Combine that with the knowledge that
came with a werewolf as a best friend, and Harry was bound to figure it all out soon. He may not
know what Sirius, Peter, and James were doing out of bed, but piecing it all together about Remus
wouldn't be difficult.

What would they tell Harry in two days time? Surely, Peter thought, they wouldn't bring him
with them. He couldn't transform, couldn't run with them. He would only be a distraction,
another person to watch out for, and another person to get in the way. Besides, some things, Peter
decided, needed to be kept a secret. That was the point of the Marauders. Everyone may know who
they are, but how they do what they do, why they are called what they're called, and where they
disappeared to once a month was a mystery. How they moved about the school unseen was even bigger
of a mystery, and Peter knew that James, Remus, and Sirius would never give their secrets, the ones
they'd been protecting for years, away to someone who was as good as a stranger.

But he frowned as James sat next to Harry, rather then between him and Sirius where he usually
sat. Sirius, who was into a deck of cards spread meticulously around him, wouldn't have been
great company for James anyways, but the last time they had been able to talk without Harry there,
during one of the classes he hadn't had with Peter, James, and Sirius, James had been angry
rightfully about how the new boy had stolen his identity. How could two people who were supposed to
be strangers, or even at odds, be acting so friendly?

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5. A Sirius Discussion
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As the two days between Remus's transformation passed, his condition worsened, and at one
point he had to be hospitalized before the transformation, something that had never happened
before. Harry knew it was his fault, because changes in time, even tweaks, would leave the lunar
schedule all messed up, and so spent a lot of his time visiting the bedridden werewolf, worried
about how pale he had become.

It was on one such visit that James pulled Harry aside, saying, “Harry? Come here for a
second.”

Heart pounding, Harry walked over to his younger father, but the words James said weren't
the ones he had wanted to hear. Instead of explaining the truth, he whispered, “I think Remus has
to be taken out of Hogwarts to be cured. I'm sure after St. Mungos is finished healing him,
he'll be good as new, but he'll be gone tonight. We're planning on going with him.
Sorry, but only the three of us can go, and-“

“It's all right,” Harry responded quickly, covering his hurt just barely. “I had plans
tonight with Lily anyways.” At the look James gave him, Harry shook his head and relied, “No,
nothing like that. She's just helping me out with a complex potion. It's fine, I hope
Remus's well soon. See you tomorrow.” And left.

And as Sirius watched him leave through the swinging doors, he knew what James didn't; while
James and Peter were high-fiving their success at keeping Harry from suspecting them while not
getting him hurt, he knew it wouldn't do to leave Harry on these terms. He was obviously hurt
and hiding it, and leaving him alone on a night like this didn't feel right.

Especially since Lily tutored every Wednesday night, and there was no way she was tutoring
Harry, who was nearly smarter than Remus.

“Padfoot?” James asked in question, as he looked at Sirius's face, the smile slowly turning
into a concerned frown.

“Huh?” When he realized that Remus, James, and Peter were staring at him in confusion and
concern, he continued to say, “Oh, right. You guys go ahead, I have a few things to finish up.
I'll be there later on.”

“Sirius-“ James began scolding, but Remus cut him off with,

“I understand. You go finish things up, we'll see you later.” His words were a clear
indicator that he knew what Sirius was going to do, and was encouraging him to do so. Sighing,
Sirius left his friends, who were arguing and scolding Remus for letting Sirius get away with
skipping out on him, and tried instead to concentrate on everything he needed to know.

He wasn't sure what he would say when he found Harry, because he had never been good with
words or emotions, but finding him would feel better than losing him. And Sirius was pretty sure
that if he let Harry walk away hurt like he was, and feeling alone, Harry would become cold, and
closed off to them like he had been when he had first come.

Finding Harry wasn't that difficult, to his surprise. He simply went to wherever Remus went
when he needed to think undisturbed, (though because Sirius knew where this was, he could no longer
sit there undisturbed,) the bridge. It overlooked a lot of the grounds, and was always hushed up
and silent. (Unless Sirius wanted to get Remus out of his melancholy mood, in which case the hall
became incredibly loud.) The perfect place to think.

But unless you'd been to Hogwarts for a while, you wouldn't know how to get there.

This left Sirius wondering how Harry knew exactly how to get to this bridge. Obvious places to
think, like the lake, grounds, common room, would've been understandable. They were easy to
find. But how had he found his way here, and so quickly?

And then Sirius wondered why he had checked here for Harry first, even though Harry probably
wouldn't have known his way here and Sirius hadn't went here in forever. This place
hadn't even crossed his mind…

“Hi Sirius,” a quiet voice said. Raising an eyebrow, Sirius replied,

“Hey, Harry. How did you know it was me?”

“You walk too loudly. I don't think you could go more than a few moments with silence.” That
was true enough. The walkway walls echoed, and his footsteps were heavy. It stood to reason that it
was him.

“But how did you find this place?” He asked, watching his friend's face carefully for any
reaction.

“I dunno. I walked, and this is where I ended up.” Harry replied, carefully keeping his face
blank. He had only been here once, in his third year, when Lupin, (from his own time,) had shown
him this stop to talk in. **(I know that this isn't in the book, but it's in the movie.
You know, the part when Lupin says, “you're more like them than you know”. Work with me
here.)** He had said that no one ever came here, so they couldn't be disturbed. Of course, he
had also said that only his best friends had ever found him while hiding here. Why hadn't he
realized that Sirius would know how to get here?

“But that doesn't make sense.” Sirius argued, startling him out of his musings. “I mean, if
you've never been here, you wouldn't know how to get here…and how would you have gotten
back?”

“Well…” thinking back, he remembered his godfather once saying to him, `I swear, those walls
have ears. There's no other way we could've gotten caught during half of our pranks. That
castle has a mind of it's own.' “A friend who went here once told me that this castle has a
mind of it's own.”

“Not possible.” Sirius argued. “I mean, the walls only act the way they do because of
enchantments put on them forever ago.”

“Explain the staircases.”

“More charms.”

“And the Room of Requirement?”

“The *what*?” and Harry was brutally reminded that the man he was talking to, standing next
to him bickering like a longtime friend, wasn't his godfather. This man wouldn't be his
godfather for a while.

“Nothing.”

Sirius could tell that this room Harry had mentioned was something to check into, (just the name
gave that away,) but he wouldn't push it now. Harry's mood seemed to have darkened even
more, and they weren't there to talk about any magic in a room. If Hogwarts did have a mind of
it's own, it probably had eyes too. He wasn't about to mess up.

And if he wasn't going to mess up, he wasn't going to talk. Not until he had to, and was
sure of what he was going to say.

The sun began to set, and Sirius realized that nearly an hour had gone by since he had left to
look for Harry, and still neither of them had said anything. The cold was making his nose and
cheeks burn, and Remus would be transforming soon, but it still didn't feel right leaving. If
he didn't hurry, they'd see Remus being led out to the willow, and Harry would be hurting
worse because of that story. He'd know, then that it wasn't true.

Finally, Sirius just out and asked, “Harry, what's wrong?”

Harry was about to reply what he always had, but found that he couldn't. The words
couldn't make it passed the lump in his throat as he stared at the place the whole event that
led up to meeting Sirius three years ago; the Whomping Willow.

“You just remind me of someone, that's all. I keep forgetting that you aren't him, and
every time I realize that you aren't him, I remember that he's dead…I came here to try and
get past all of that, by coming to find him.”

“But you just said that he was dead.”

“I mean find his memory.” Harry corrected, cursing himself. “I need to be able to move on. But
so much has happened to me lately…I feel like I don't have time to mourn. In the time that I do
have to mourn, I can't. I can't even get over the fact that he's dead, so getting over
him is a bit of a problem.”

Sirius frowned. He had never lost someone before, so he couldn't relate, but what Harry had
said hadn't sounded right to him. “Well, who ever said you had to give him up, or let him
go?”

“He's gone.” Harry replied, bleakly.

“Well, yes, but letting go of him…I mean, isn't that a bit harsh? You can hold on to his
memory, right?”

“*What*?”

Sirius couldn't blame him for asking. That hadn't even made sense to him. “I just mean
that you going after him, or his memory, or whatever it is you're trying to find, isn't
probably that way to go about it. I mean, he probably doesn't want you moping over him, all
cold and mistrusting like you are. And mulling over him, and how great he was, and how you
could've helped him, isn't going to help you, or him if he cared about you.”

“You think?” Harry asked, surprised that Sirius could come up with this so suddenly.

“Yeah. I mean, I know I'm a goof, but people seem to think that makes me emotionless. But I
feel guilty all the time. I doubt myself a lot, and I do get depressed, even if it's only until
I see James and the two of us wreck havoc again. So I know if I were to die, and you went to look
for me, I'd feel guilty up in heaven about holding you back, and leaving you like I did.”
Sirius now knew that all of those books he had read as a child, the ones his mother had said were
going to taint his mind, were more than just adventure. It was probably a good thing that he
hadn't skipped over all of the `mushy' talks between the characters.

But what he was saying was one hundred-percent true.

“Huh.”

“Bet you hadn't thought about it that way, huh?”

“Nope. I hadn't. So where did that talk come from?” Harry asked, feeling lighter than he had
in months.

Sighing, Sirius said in mock depression, “See, everyone always assumes that I have no emotions,”
throwing his hands up to show that he gave up.

Grinning, Harry watched as the sun set with Sirius, in silence, and then both he and Sirius
headed back inside, Sirius saying that he had to go try to help Remus, with the rest of the
Marauders. Harry let him leave, knowing where he was going, but feeling a lot better about it. For
the first time, he was at peace with his godfather and his death. Maybe tonight he would be able to
dream about something other than a wind-blown veil. Like Hermione…

Where had that thought come from?

Trying to push the funny feeling in his stomach away, Harry turned his thoughts back to Remus,
Sirius, James and Peter as he heard a loud howl that seemed to echo through the halls. He'd let
them continue this tradition without him. And they would tell him when they were ready.

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That night was an uneventful one, where the Marauders simply wasted hours by rampaging through
the Forbidden Forest. Sirius had come, but been too late for them to travel farther up some of the
mountains, so their planned search for the caves and crevasses had been postponed.

Exhausted and dirty, the four friends each fell into their beds, three of them falling asleep
right away.

One, however, did not.

Sirius couldn't help replaying the conversation that had taken place earlier in his head. He
couldn't forget the look of intense pain and sadness on Harry's face. Couldn't help
remembering the dull edge of Harry's tone, the glazed look in his eyes. What had those eyes
seen that had made them so…devastated?

And as he was thinking all of this over, (he had too much adrenaline in his system to actually
sleep,) he heard muted cries from Harry's bed…but Harry should've fallen asleep a long time
ago, right? He tried to block it out, not wanting another heart-to-heart with Harry because of the
awkward emotions involved, until he heard his name.

“Sirius, no!”

Harry knew, as soon as he saw his parents standing there, that he was dreaming again. It was
remembering, rather, because he was watching his parents on the last night they had been alive.

His nightmares of Sirius falling through a veil must have been replaced, he supposed, by the
realization that he could've changed things, and still could. He could warn them. There was
still time.

Now his father was fighting Voldemort. Now his mother was running, and tripping over her skirt.
Pleading for her son's life. Dead.

And now was the one other thing he needed changed. The one other thing that could've fixed
his life, made it a little easier. Sirius.

He watched as Sirius walked among the rubble, his face crumbling at James's body. He watched
his godfather carefully put the pieces of his father's wand by his body. He tried to comfort
him as he mourned over Lily, only to have himself ignored. Watched as Sirius picked a baby up from
the ruins of the house, and nearly screamed in frustration as Sirius finally carefully handed the
baby over and picked up his motorcycle helmet, handing it equally as carefully to Hagrid.

He watched in anger as Sirius disappeared, shouting as loud as he could. Sirius didn't hear
him, but he had to say it anyways, to know that he tried.

“Sirius, DON'T GO AFTER PETER!”

It was a lot like Harry was having a prophecy, a vision Sirius thought. The whispered words were
too clear, too direct, to be from any nightmare. Harry settled down after he had murmured the
warning, shaking but gradually drifting off to sleep.

And Sirius decided, before he slept, that he would take that advice and refrain from going after
Peter.

Several days passed, and amazingly, few things changed. In fact, other than a few major pranks,
no one was offended, hurt physically, or put into near-death predicaments.

Harry began spending more and more time with Lily, studying and just talking, getting to know
her better. He always heard about his dad, and how wonderful his dad was, but his dad reminded him
a lot of Ron. A loyal friend, but a little jealous, a bright student, but unwilling to learn. In
fact Sirius reminded his of himself, reining James in all the time, as he often had to rein in Ron,
and Remus reminded him of Hermione… a little bit. There was no Peter in his group, so he didn't
have to worry. It was the only thing that kept him from feeling alone every once in a while, but it
was also a danger. He couldn't trust the Marauders to keep his secret, and couldn't risk
changing time. He wasn't home, and he needed to remember not to get too comfortable here.

It was difficult though, with everything that was happening. It seemed that while the muggle
word had changed quite a bit through time, Hogwarts and it's behavior was always the same. His
parent's generation, if anything, was more lucid, and easier to get along with, then his own.
No one paid him much attention here, and that was just fine with him. Here was safe.

And the Marauders lived in a way he and his friends had forgotten since their first year. Even
then he, Hermione, and Ron had been worrying over what was under the trap door, then wondering how
to protect it, and who was after it. The late night discussions had been over the dangers to the
school.

If the Marauders had a late night discussion, it was about girls, or Quidditch, or even things
as trivial as food. It was like the Marauders had no worries, and no sense of time. Nothing was too
rushed, and no boundaries were set to hold them in.

Harry could also see why Severus Snape had never like his father and Sirius. Humiliation was
always at the hands of the Marauders, but instead of spreading it generally to the school, they
focused it on one Severus Snape.

And pairing James and Snape for potions? A disaster.

“It's simple, Potter, something even you can handle. All you have to do is watch me fix the
potion.” Snape's oily voice said. Harry looked up at the same time Sirius did, shooting his
friend a look to keep him from doing anything stupid. Obeying, Sirius listened.

“Sorry, no can do, Snivellus. My grade depends on my participation, so participate I will.”
James replied, annoyed. Couldn't Snape find some other way to bother him? “I'm cutting the
bat wings.”

“What, and risk human fingers in our potion? I'll cut the bat wings.” Snape replied. He
stopped putting ingredients in when Potter replied with,

“Why Snivellus, you don't have wings, how ever did they manage to find such a big bat?”

He knew that he was knocking over several key ingredients in doing it, but it was worth it to
see Potter struggle to breathe. He may not be wonderful at cursing, but he had a grip that could
kill.

Sirius said several fowl words and stood, knocking over his stool, and Harry didn't stop
him. James hadn't thrown the first punch, so this was in defense.

Sirius tried to levitate Snape off of James, but his grip stayed strong, and instead, James
found himself hanging by his neck in the air, feet a few inches off of the ground. Harry silently
preformed an advanced charm from the DA, praying that no one would notice with all of the screaming
girls watching Hogwarts heartthrob hanging by his neck. The energy he had zapped into Snape made
the boy drop James, and James took the opportunity to scramble to his feet and cast a charm on his
attacker. The charm must have worked, because Snape went flying upward, and was hanging off of an
ingredients hook on the wall, with garlic hanging behind him, by his underwear.

But James wasn't wiling to stop there. Noticing that his father was about to do something
he'd regret, especially since Lily was watching, Harry gripped James's shoulder, saying,
“Ignore him. He's just as you said, an over-grown bat.”

“So I'll make him into one.” James replied simply, putting his wand arm out, but Harry
gripped his wrist and pulled the hand down.

“No. Don't waste your time.”

James gave him and incredulous look, and finally said, “I know you've had a rough life, but
don't you have any fun?”

Sirius watched the exchange carefully as Harry said, “Loads. I have Quidditch, the occasional
good prank, and midnight excursions, usually to the kitchens, remember? But I don't have to
pick on people to enjoy myself.”

“But he nearly killed me!” James replied, starting to get angry.

“I know that, and he'll be punished by the headmaster. But you've already gotten him.
He's up there, and embarrassed, and you've gotten him off of you. It'd be wrong to pick
on him now.”

“Why?” Peter asked, from behind James's elbow.

“Because, he's already defenseless. He doesn't have his wand, his feet aren't on the
floor, and the slightest move is really going to hurt.”

“Yeah, but that's just it.” James said, as though explaining it to a child. “It's an
easy way to get him back. He can't get to us, and we can't get in trouble, because we were
just defending ourselves.”

“James, you've defended yourself. You've done a through job of it, and there's
nothing wrong with what you just did.” Remus said, stepping up. Harry smiled gratefully at him, and
continued for Remus, saying,

“But if you attack him now, you'd be worse than him. It'd be like a Death Eater
attacking a muggle. They can't defend themselves.”

Slowly, looking at Harry and Remus, James lowered his wand. Silently Sirius applauded, suddenly
seeing Harry's reasoning, and realizing that this was the reason Remus never had continued with
them past the defense point.

“I don't believe this.” He heard Peter say. “Are you really going to worship everything he
says?”

“He's right, though, Peter.” Remus pointed out.

“But Sirius and James have always done this! It's something that doesn't change.
Harry's seen us do this before!”

“Not to this extent, or he would've stopped us then, I'm sure.” James said, looking at
Harry for back up, which Harry quickly gave. He saw Lily smile at him from behind Harry, who was
nodding, and grinned back, internally doing cartwheels. Peter was right; everything had been
different since Harry's arrival. He liked it.

Peter didn't. As Harry nodded, and Peter noted that everyone was taking his word for it, he
decided that he wanted to get power like that over people. No one ever listened to him, and the
only people who had ever listened to him, his friends, (even if they had only listened to him to
poke fun at him) were now listening to Harry. He would do whatever it took to gain that sort of
power over people. It was then that he decided to go to Malfoy. Malfoy was sure to be a Death
Eater, a stronger one. So what if he was a little younger? He could get Peter a position as a Death
Eater.

What Peter didn't realize was that people didn't listen to Harry because they feared
him, like they did because they feared Voldemort. No, they respected him, and sometime respect
outweighs fear.

“So what should we do with him?” James asked, still grinning, even though Peter had just stormed
out. Lily had smiled at him!

“Well…I don't see why we can't just leave him here. I mean, it was in self defense…”
Sirius said hopefully.

“Go after Peter, Sirius.” Remus urged, ignoring them. “He looked really upset, and you're
the only one who didn't disagree with him.”

But Sirius remembered what he had told himself, and remembered the frustration and fear in
Harry's voice. Most of all, he remembered Harry words. “ Sirius! Don't go after Peter!”
They may have been whispered, but they were said, and Sirius would listen to them.

There would come a time when he'd wish he hadn't.

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7. Halloween Homesickness
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For the first time in his life, Harry felt homesick.

It wasn't that he hadn't missed Hogwarts when he had spent the summer away, but usually
he was busy resenting the Dursleys or solving some sort of mystery. In this time period, there
wasn't all that much to do.

Sure, there was still Quidditch, and the Marauders kept him busy and involved in all of their
pranks, but there just wasn't the never-ending problem to solve or mystery to crack that there
had always been in his time.

And his homesickness didn't really even make sense. He was in Hogwarts, the only place he
had ever considered home, and was surrounded by people he'd always wanted to have a chance to
meet, people who, for the most part, cared about him as much as he cared about them.

But there was no Ron to laugh with. There was no Hermione to complain to. Without his two best
friends, life just seemed…bleaker.

His homesickness was even worse that day, because it was Halloween. The day that, several years
before…wait, several years later…well, the day his parents had died. Before, it hadn't held
nearly as much significance as it now did. Now, he knew them enough to miss not only the idea of
having parents but the idea of having them for parents. Lily would've made an excellent mum,
and James seemed like he would've been a fun father. Sirius even would have been a wonderful
father figure to grow up with, and the temptation to change the future was only growing stronger.
Just a long talk with some of the Marauders and he could create a parallel universe and save his
parents' lives, or at least keep Sirius out of Azkaban.

“You all right, Harry?” Lily asked, snapping Harry out of his thoughts and back to his dinner.
Looking up, he realized that Sirius, Remus and Lily were all directing concerned looks at him.
(Peter was too busy eating to notice anything wrong with Harry, and James was too busy staring and
Lily to notice anything at all.)

“Um…yeah. I'm just not very hungry. Saving some room for the feast later on, right?” Sirius
seemed to buy this excuse, and turned back to his meal, but both Lily and Remus made it quite clear
that they didn't believe him before they directed their attention away from him.

“Anyways, like I was saying, in the muggle world, Halloween's totally different. Everyone
dresses up, and people tell scary stories to each other that night, and…well, I guess Hogwarts has
the candy, but in the muggle world, the children go to their neighbors houses and get candy from
them.” Lily was trying, (unsuccessfully,) to explain the muggle traditions of Halloween to James
and Sirius, both of whom were pureblood and didn't understand most of it.

“But…why would the neighbor give away their candy like that?” James asked, his expression
puzzled.

“Because…because that's just what you're supposed to do. The kids get the candy, and the
adults give the candy out. That way, you get a bunch of different kinds of candy.” Harry bit on his
lower lip to keep from laughing as he watched Lily confuse Sirius and James even more.

“But…why wouldn't you just buy lots of different kinds of candy, and keep all of it. That
way, you don't have to go to other people's houses.” James argued, honestly and completely
lost.

Lily, losing patience with them, said, “Because that's not how you trick-or-treat!”

James's intelligent “Huh?” And Sirius's “What's trick-or-treating?” was all Harry
could take before he started chuckling, then trying to ignore the murderous look Lily directed at
him. To get himself back in her good books, (from what he now knew about his mother, he knew he
didn't want to be in her bad books,) Harry attempted to explain things a little better.

“Muggles dress up at Halloween to scare people. To them, witches have big noses and warts, and
wizards all look like Dumbledore, and ghosts are figments of the imagination. It's the one
night of the year that they don't mind getting scared. People actually go to haunted houses for
entertainment.” Sirius and James now seemed excited at the idea of a muggle Halloween.

“What else?”

“Well, um…we watch scary movies, we try to scare each other-“

“You mean you try to prank each other, and it's okay because it's Halloween?”
James's excitement was contagious, and Sirius had already caught it.

“Exactly.” For a moment, Harry was pleased with how well they had caught on. Then, he noticed
the manic gleam that lit the eyes of the two most dangerous and juvenile Marauders and Lily sitting
at the table to his left, shaking her head as she massaged her temples.

“And they were doing so good, too. The pranks had almost all gone away…” The situation was too
exciting and funny for Harry to feel too much pity for Lily. Sure, she'd probably have some
sort of mess to clean up tonight, but the idea of planning another elaborate prank made all
sympathy he had for her disappear.

Later on, Harry was still trying to explain muggle traditions to Sirius and James, this time
with Remus's help. The four of them were carving jack-o-lanterns, while Peter was removing the
guts.

“I guess it's the night you get to pretend that you're someone you're not.” Harry
said irritably. He was getting tired of trying to explain why muggles dressed up for Halloween.
Then, when he thought back on his comment, he realized that he'd been doing a lot of that
lately. Pretending to be some he wasn't.

He left his pumpkin for Peter to carve and took a walk around the lake, his hands buried into
his pockets to ward off the brisk October air. As it began to grow dark, Lily joined him, walking
silently by his side for a while.

“What's wrong?” She asked finally, her quiet voice echoing and ending their mutual
silence.

“Nothing…” Harry replied out of habit, his voice quiet.

“No, something's wrong.” Lily argued, stopping to meet his eyes.

Harry smiled at his mother's determination to figure out what was wrong and find some way to
fix it. She knew him too well, like Hermione. She always knew when something was wrong, and this
time she wasn't there to fix it, so Harry didn't know what to do.

“I guess I'm just a little homesick.” Lily gave him a look that told him that she knew that
his problem was a lot bigger, and he was surprised when she went back to walking next to him in
silence.

After a while of this unexpected silence, Harry asked, “So you aren't going to push me for
more?”

“We all have secrets, Harry, and we all know that you have secrets.” At Harry's panicked
expression, she quickly tried to calm him down. “We don't know your secrets, just that you have
them. You came out of nowhere, you don't talk very much about your life before you showed up
here, and most of the time you have this look on your face that just…” When he gave her a look that
urged her to continue, Lily found she couldn't. There was no way to describe the look that
everyone had seen at least once.

“You just seem so much…older. I don't know, I just feel like there's a lot more to you
than you're telling us-“ She spoke over him to finish her sentence, as he hurried to defend his
secrets. “But that's okay, because we all trust you. There your secrets, and I don't think
you like thinking about most of them. I don't think I want to know them.”

This surprised Harry. Hermione constantly craved knowledge, but Lily didn't seem to need it
like Hermione did. Worse, Harry missed Hermione's determination to find out whatever it was
that he was hiding. It was like a game that he always lost but loved to play anyways.

Still, he was grateful for Lily's calm acceptance of his secrets and his moods. Somehow,
knowing that she didn't need to know all about him was reassuring. She trusted him and cared
about him, and that was more than enough.

“Come on. James and his crew have locked themselves up in their dorms, muttering something about
pumpkins and candy, and the feast is starting soon. Whatever their planning's bound to happen
then.” Lily guided Harry back to the school and out of the cool October air.

Lily was right. In the middle of the feast, all of the food disappeared like always. Normally,
however, the dishes of dinner were replaced by candy and desserts. This time, the platters were
empty.

Floating above each table suddenly appeared a giant jack-o-lantern. Each pumpkin had a different
face carved on it for a different house. Suddenly, the jack-o-lantern grew and blew up, covering
the tables with more candy than would normally have appeared. Sirius and James had apparently gone
all-out, and had probably gone to Honeydukes at some point and bought some of the items that the
school didn't normally have.

Harry noted, with no small amount of amusement, that the Slytherin's pumpkin had been filled
not with candy, but with the guts of the pumpkin.

“Whoops.” Sirius snickered and muttered to Harry, “Must've forgotten to clean it out.”
Despite Lily's glare, Harry couldn't help but laugh as he watched Snape pick the pumpkin
guts and seeds out of his hair with a look of disgust on his face.

And as he munched on his candy and traded spooky stories with Lily, Harry reflected that this
might just be his best Halloween yet. Sure, he hadn't battled a troll, attended a death-day
party, or saved the world…but there was always next year. This year, he wanted to enjoy the time he
had with his family. It didn't matter what had happened the previous Halloweens…well, really,
what would happen in future Halloweens…that Halloween was one he spent with his family. So no,
Harry didn't save the world that Halloween. But it was still one he'd never forget.

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8. Stuck On the Stairs
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It had taken many fights, more than a few ground rules, and quite a few talks with Harry, but
eventually James and Lily had formed an uneasy truce. They still didn't talk about personal
matters with one another, but by the middle of November they could at least have a civil
conversation about their Head duties and homework.

James was thrilled every time he talked to Lily, even if it was just for a few moments. He'd
wait until she was out of earshot, and then tell the rest of his friends all about their
conversation, even if it was just a few words, then fall into his monologue on how beautiful and
smart and sweet Lily was.

At first, Harry had found it funny. Then, he had learned to tolerate it. Then, he had tried to
block it out.

But by now, it was just getting annoying.

“Why doesn't he ever actually tell her all of these things, instead of repeating them to us
over and over again?” Harry asked Remus, exasperated.

Remus smirked. “He can stand up to the most frightening of teachers, and talk back to the
Headmaster himself, but when it comes it Lily, James just isn't brave enough.” Somehow, this
reminded Harry of something Hermione had said once. Only she'd been ranting about how he could
face Voldemort time and time again and yet he couldn't just apologize to Cho for doing
something stupid.

And why was he thinking of Hermione again? Better yet, what had he been thinking about
before?

“Harry?” Remus was waving his hand in front of his friend's face. He knew that dazed
expression all too well; it was the same one James wore every time he talked about Lily. Harry
rarely wore such an expression, and Remus was curious to what or who could've caused it, but he
didn't feel that he knew Harry well enough to ask. Instead, he asked, “Why? Did you have
something in mind?”

“Huh?”

Patiently, Remus gave a brief summery of their conversation just moments before and repeated his
question. “Did you think of some way to get James to stop talking to us about Lily and start
talking to Lily?”

Slowly, a manic grin grew on Harry's face. “Yeah. I might have some idea.”

Remus would've been afraid. In fact, had that grin been directed towards himself, he
definitely would have run for his life. But as it was, that evil smile was directed towards James,
so Remus leaned forward with a matching expression that held interest and amusement.

“Well, what'd you have in mind?”

Sirius smiled slightly as he walked into the dorms later and saw Harry and Remus huddled
together on Harry's bed, their homework forgotten, as they leaned over a piece of parchment. A
very familiar piece of parchment…

“You showed him the map?” Sirius asked, his voice rising slightly.

Remus arched one eyebrow up at him and said, “Yeah. Why?”

“Well…it's just, we're all supposed to vote before we show something like that to
anyone, even Harry. You know that!” For some reason, it upset Sirius to see that Harry had gotten
so close to Remus, to see that Remus had shown Harry the map without him being there to see.
Somehow, he felt a little left out.

“But…I thought you were all for us telling Harry everything, remember?” Remus asked, hesitantly.
He always hated fighting with the friends he still couldn't believe he had and didn't want
to lose.

“Well, yeah, I'm all for it, but James might not be! Or Peter! How could you not ask any of
us?”

“I made it.” Remus pointed out logically. “Therefore, the map is mine to show to whomever I
choose. Besides, we couldn't tell this to James.”

Something about the smile on Remus's face and the light in Harry's eyes told Sirius that
maybe he should just forget about Marauder protocol this once. If Remus was breaking tradition for
whatever it was they were doing, then it had to be worth it.

“Well, I might have to let it pass this once. It depends.” Sirius smile made both of them return
the grin. “What're we doing?”

When the three boys left the dormitory the next morning, identical smirks on their faces,
everyone within three feet of them instinctively took a step back and winced. Someone was going to
be pranked, and everyone hoped it wasn't them.

Lily was instantly suspicious when she saw those innocent looks. She had. In the last several
months, gotten to know Harry Potter very well, and if there was one thing she knew about him, it
was this; Harry Potter was *never* innocent.

“You have any idea what they're up to?” She muttered under her breath to James, who was
sitting two seats down, the space between them reserved for Harry. Bemused, James shook his head.
Some poor sod was about the be the victim of a prank.

“No idea.” He replied, adding at Lily's look, “Really, I don't know what they're
doing. I was in the Prefect meeting until late last night, remember? By the time I was up there,
they were already in bed. I was really bummed, too. I'd wanted to tell them about the new
Seventh year privileges.” Lily studied his face for a moment, and when she saw only sincere
honesty, she reluctantly nodded.

All day everyone was expecting some sort of elaborate prank, but none ever came. Everything
seemed normal, aside from the time that Sirius, Remus, and Harry spent in the library, bent over
books about Charms and Hogwarts. Otherwise, the day was average, and it wasn't until much later
that night that anyone was pranked at all.

Lily sighed when the stairs started to shift again. It was late at night, she'd been
patrolling the halls silently with James Potter for hours on end, and she just wanted to go to bed.
Even after years at Hogwarts, she didn't understand why the stairs had to shift and stick her
in some deserted corridor at exactly the wrong moment.

But the staircase didn't move to another corridor. It got about halfway there, and then
stopped in midair, leaving Lily and James with no way of getting anywhere.

They waited for a few moments before either of them said anything. Finally, James said, “I
don't think it's moving.”

Lily rolled her eyes, sat on a step, and buried her head in her hands. “Well, how do we get off
then?”

“I don't know.” James answered easily. He didn't seem at all upset or tired, just
curious. “Are the stairs even supposed to be able to do this? I mean, what if this happened in
between classes and students were stuck here?”

Lily shook her head. “I read about it in `Hogwarts, A History.'” From his little hiding
space in a nearby corner, Harry felt a pang. Every time someone mentioned that book, he remembered
Hermione, and felt a pang of homesickness and sadness. He listened again to his extendable
ears.

“This was an old defense strategy for the castle.” She continued, then sighed when James shot
her a puzzled look. “If enemies were creeping about the castle at night, they couldn't really
get anywhere, now could they?”

“But…but what about the students?” James asked.

Lily smiled slightly. “The students knew better than to slip out of bed at night.”

James frowned as he thought about this. Deciding that it made sense, he asked, “Well why
don't they do this anymore? Then we wouldn't have to patrol all the time; the castle could
take care of it for us.”

Lily frowned, not as though she was annoyed, but as though she were trying to remember. “I think
someone tried to jump to another floor beneath them, slipped, and died.” James raised both of his
eyebrows and shook his head.

“Well, there goes my first suggestion.” Lily spared him a tired smile, and James felt a jolt of
energy. “So what do we do now?”

Lily ran a hand through her short red hair, like James always had through his messy black hair.
The gesture was out of frustration, but James couldn't help but smile. She wasn't purposely
being hypocritical, but he couldn't help but think that maybe she'd picked this gestured up
after yelling at him for doing it so many times.

“I don't know.” Lily murmured tiredly. “If the whole castle's gone into defense mode,
doing any sort of magic in the halls really isn't a good idea. The founders cast all sorts of
jinxes and curses to prevent people from doing anything at night.” James nodded, thinking of that
kid trying to jump to the floor below and just missing, then falling, falling…

Shaken by the idea of that happening to him, James sat a few steps up from Lily.

Eventually, James really got tired of the silence. He didn't do well with silence, and
he'd always been more awake at night than during the day. Most of his friends joked that he was
nocturnal, but all of the Marauders could handle late nights pretty well; they were used to
them.

“Do you think there's a reason the castle's like this?” James asked, concerned.

Lily's head shot up from where it was still buried in her hands, her eyes wide. “Oh, I
didn't think about that…someone could be hurt, or in danger. Oh…but we're responsible for
all of the students.”

“If something had happened, we would've seen it when we were patrolling though, right?”
James asked logically. His voice sounded like he was trying to convince himself as much as he was
trying to convince her.

“Right…” She murmured uneasily, biting her lip. She noticed the concerned expression on
James's face, and instantly jumped to the wrong conclusion. “You do know what it is that your
friends are up to! I bet you four have been planning this all along! And now you're worried
that they've been caught in the dark somewhere pulling some prank!”

James's concern transformed into anger. “Yeah, I'm worried about my friends, but not
because I think they've gotten caught. We don't get caught when we pull a prank. But
someone might be hurt, and it really wouldn't surprise me if it were Sirius or Harry or Remus
or Peter! Peter's been acting really distant since Harry came, and Sirius just seems to go
looking for trouble, and Remus just seems to find trouble and Harry…” James smiled slightly and
calmed down as he thought of a way to describe Harry.

“Harry just seems to be trouble?” Lily finished helpfully, a small smile on her face. Harry did
seem to change a lot of people's lives. It really was a lot like in her life there was a BH,
for Before Harry, and an AH, for After Harry. If someone was hurt or in trouble, chances were Harry
had something to do with it.

“Yeah.” James said quietly, running his fingers through his hair out of habit before letting
them rest in his lap. Lily thought about it, but in the end didn't tell James off for running
his hand over his hair again. Sure, it made his hair messier, but he didn't seem to do it on
purpose anymore. Now it sort of seemed more like a nervous movement.

“Sorry. It's just…I guess it's just habit to blame things on you.” Lily muttered
half-heartedly.

“Well, I wonder why.” James said sarcastically. “It really isn't always my fault. Sometimes
it's Snape's, or Sirius's, or someone completely and totally unrelated to me.”

“Fine. 99.9% of the time, it's you.” Lily deadpanned, and James grinned and nodded in
agreement. Seeing his dopey smile, Lily couldn't help but smile herself. “You really do like
causing trouble.” She said, the laughter in her eyes contrasting with her serious face.

James again nodded easily. “But you have to admit, I've been a little better.”

“A lot better.” Lily agreed. Ever since Harry had set James and his crew straight on what was
considered fair when attacking an opponent, the pranks had been enjoyable and light. It was like
the was a BH James and an AH James, and Lily found that she didn't really mind the AH
James.

“So why'd you change?”

James began to realize that he was having an actual conversation with Lily Evans and brightened
up considerably, and proceeded to talk to Lily about anything and nearly everything for the rest of
that night. It wasn't until the sun began to filter in through the windows that the staircase
gave an abrupt jolt that they both stood up. Lily tried to straighten herself up, and James dragged
himself up, clinging onto the rail of the stairs.

“Well…I'm going to bed.” The staircase came to an abrupt stop as it reached the proper
corridor, and Lily nearly fell back down. James quickly and gently gripped her elbow and helped her
regain her balance. When she gave him a questioning look, he smiled sheepishly.

“Sorry. Reflexes. I'm not a seeker anymore, but they're still there.” Lily smiled
slightly, then tucked her hair behind her ear and murmured a quiet, `thank you' before she
turned away and began her walk towards their dorms. James took the time to pick up his bag
carefully and stretch, but called out down the hall, “Good night, Lily.”

Lily turned around to walk backwards for a moment, so that she was facing him, and called back,
“Good night, James.”

Grinning triumphantly, James began to walk not towards Gryffindor tower, but instead towards a
banister a few feet away.

Slumped behind it and sound asleep were Sirius, Remus, and Harry. James grinned and conjured a
bucket of cold water, glad that he was able to use magic again. Slowly he positioned the bucket
over his friend's head, and then levitated it until it hovered just over Sirius, who was in the
middle and snoring slightly.

Had anyone been in the halls and watching, they would've wondered why Remus, Sirius and
Harry were chasing James down the corridor at six in the morning, soaking wet and angry, while
James cackled merrily and ran, waving his arms all over the place.

Peter, clutching his left arm, sure wondered when he was heading back from the Slytherin dorms.
For a moment, as he watched them run and laugh, he wondered if he'd made a mistake by going to
Lucius Malfoy and taking the mark from the Dark Lord.

But then he watched Harry trip over a hysterical James, and saw Sirius and Remus fall into the
dog pile, and reflected that maybe this would be the thing to get him there. He hadn't been
like that with his friends even before Harry had come, and now it hurt to see someone so new be
accepted so easily, while Peter, who'd been there since the beginning, had never been accepted
at all.

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9. Snow and Sisters
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**AN- Sorry this chapter took so long to get out, everyone. I'm still retyping the whole
thing after it got erased, and after I go over it again I find so may errors. That combined with my
increasing workload as a high school student and the fact that I actually have a life now,
(it's a boring one, but it's still a life outside of the house nonetheless) has kept me
busy and slightly overwhelmed. Still, please review me to tell me what you think so far.**

**Disclaimer- Nothing's mine but the idea of the fic…**

Harry had, in the few months since he'd dropped literally out of the sky and into Hogwarts,
changed everyone around him. James had become less arrogant and childish, Remus had become less
introverted and quiet, Peter had become more angry and weak, and Sirius had become more
compassionate towards others, and more perceptive of others feelings.

And as Harry thought about it, he realized that he'd changed his mother a little, too.

Sure, she was still McGonagall's favorite. She still made the perfect Head Girl, still told
James off for chewing with his mouth open, and still demanded attention when she spoke simply
because of how she held herself.

Only now, she was laughing when she told James off for chewing with his mouth open. She had
learned not only to speak and demand other's attention, but also to listen to the other side of
the story. And she smiled a lot more.

The last change was the most prominent. Lily's new, upbeat attitude had made her new
friends, caused her to be more open to other's opinions, and had forced her to generally
lighten up. It was like Harry had forced James to grow up a little, and made Lily realize that she
was still just a teenager, in the years when life couldn't always be serious.

“Oof.” And that proved it. Harry tried to brush all of the snow out of the back of his shirt and
cloak and turned to glare at the possible culprits. All of the Marauders, and Lily. “All right. Who
did it?”

A few months ago, the Marauders would have instantly been handed the blame.

Now, all four of them shrugged at him and then turned to her. Lily, grinning vindictively,
carefully packed a snowball and took aim. The snowball hit it's mark and sent Sirius into a
string of curses as he tried to thaw his face back out.

*SPLAT!*

“Oh, Evans, you're going down!”

The snowball fight that followed left all five boys flat on their backs in the snow as Lily
hurled snowball after snowball at them, only giving them enough time to cover their heads with
their arms and occasionally fire something resembling a snowball back at her. When dusk had finally
fallen, everyone was cold, tired, and hungry.

“Where'd you learn to throw snow like that, Evans?” Sirius asked later on, breaking the
comfortable silence that they had fallen into since arriving at dinner.

Lily smiled slightly. “My dad. We always used to have snowball fights and go sledding after the
first snow. It was tradition. Just Petunia, Dad, Mum and me.” The soft smile and shining eyes made
Harry wonder about the girl who would become his aunt, and what she had been like in this time.

“You miss them?” He asked, truly curious.

“Sometimes. But I still see them every Christmas, and it's only a couple weeks away now.”
Lily replied, taking another bite of the chicken on her plate. “I have to go this time, too. My
older sister's getting married!”

Harry was pretty sure that a piece of the biscuit he accidentally inhaled at that moment would
be permanently lodged in his throat. “You all right there, Harry?” Sirius asked, roughly pounding
on Harry's back. Brushing off Sirius's concern, Harry tuned back in to the
conversation.

“Yeah, only one older sister, Petunia.” Lily was replying as she buttered a roll.

“I've never heard you mention her before.” James said, truly interested.

Lily looked amused. “Well, we've only been on civil terms for a little while now, and there
was never really any reason to bring her up.” She replied. “She's a muggle, of course, like the
rest of my family.”

It seemed quite a bit like she was testing James, despite the fact that she and everybody else
knew that he didn't mind muggleborns. At first, Harry couldn't understand this, until he
realized that perhaps Lily was a little more under confidant than she let on about her muggle
bloodlines.

James nodded, but didn't seem to pay any extra attention to the fact that Lily's family
was muggle. “So, she's getting married over Christmas break?” He asked.

Lily nodded, an annoyed look on her face. “Right on Christmas Eve, too.” Lily muttered, seeming
irritated.

“What? You don't like her?” Harry asked, hopeful. Maybe his aunt had always despised magic,
and he really hadn't made it any worse. A small part of him still thought that maybe it
wasn't his magic that his aunt hadn't liked; that she didn't dislike magic, she just
hated him.

Lily sighed. “There are times she can get pretty annoying.” In the moment of silence that
followed, she was clearly remembering several of those times, “but she's still my sister, so I
guess I have to love her, don't I?”

Harry didn't reply, because he wasn't entirely sure what to say. Even the smallest and
most insignificant comment could start something in this time that didn't fit into his own, and
he wasn't sure what would happen as a result.

James didn't let the subject go nearly as easily. “How can she dislike magic though? It
makes everything so much easier, and so much more beautiful.” James, who had been raised in a
magical household, was staring incredulously at Lily.

Lily shrugged. Remus, who was buttering a roll and silently listening to the conversation, spoke
up. “You know, she's probably jealous of it. I mean, it would be a little upsetting to see your
younger sister have a gift that you knew you would never have.”

“She sees it as unnatural.” Lily said by way of reply. “And I'm really not sure how to
change her mind about it.”

“Well, maybe you should try doing something nice for her wedding, or Christmas.” Sirius
suggested. Everyone turned to look at him, some gaping and some, (like Peter) confused. “What?” He
asked, irritated.

“Padfoot…that was actually a good idea.” James answered for everyone, causing everyone but
Sirius to laugh.

That night, as Harry and the Marauders helped Lily create a beautiful magical Christmas ornament
for Petunia, Harry had to wonder when hi aunt had begun to hate magic…and anyone involved with
it.

“What are you thinking about?” Remus's quiet voice complete caught Harry off guard.

“Nothing, really.” He turned slightly and saw Lily laugh at something James had said, her head
thrown back and her expression open and relaxed. “She's really changed since she got to know
James.”

Remus stared at him thoughtfully. “No. She's really changed since she met you. I think
you're the first person who ever successfully got her to laugh at a joke, or actually have a
civil conversation with Sirius.” They both watched, amused, as Lily swatted at Sirius's head
after he suggestively winked at her, wiggling his eyebrows flirtatiously. Remus laughed. “Well, a
reasonably civil conversation, anyway.”

“They seem to be getting along pretty well.” Harry agreed, smiling slightly.

“Who? Lily and Sirius?” Remus asked, surprised.

“No! Lily and James.” Harry answered, shivering at the thought of Sirius dating his mother. He
wasn't sure what it might change in the future, but for all he knew he might cease to
exist.

But his future mother and father did seem to be much closer, and Harry would have to say that
out of all of them, it seemed like James was now at least as close to Lily as Harry himself
was.

“He's liked her for years.” Remus murmured. “Everyone knew it, especially her. He used to
ask her out al the time, in the weirdest ways too. At first she might've been a little
flattered by the attention, but you know how fifteen year old boys can be, and…”

Harry nodded, understanding. Clearly, Lily had held James's actions prior to the seventh
year against him. He could understand that, but he was relieved to see that his parents had at
least become friends by Christmas of their seventh year.

When Harry noticed that James had received a small gift from Lily the next day, he wondered if
maybe the easy friendship they had developed was becoming something more.

“It's not like it's some expensive heart-felt present.” James pointed out when Sirius
began to voice Harry's thoughts just moments later. “It's just a picture of all of us in a
nice frame.”

“You didn't get a book, though.” Peter pointed out, holding up his own present from the
redhead. Grinning, Harry unwrapped his own present and was surprised to find a beautiful snow
globe, with `Merry Christmas' spelled into the middle. Alongside it, of course, was a book on
word enchantments.

“I'm not complaining.” Remus murmured, his nose already buried in the book Lily had left
him, this one titled `The Everyday Cure”. Harry guessed that Lily had noticed, like everyone else
who knew Remus but not his condition, how often Remus `fell ill', and had decided to make an
effort to make him more healthy. He grinned; it was something that would have been typical
Hermione.

His spirits dropped a little as he thought of his friends back in his own time. They had to be
worried by now, with him having been gone for months on end. Hermione would be mad as hell if he
ever returned…no, *when* he returned. Staying behind wasn't an option.

“You know, Prongsy, for someone who's gotten `just a picture' for Christmas, you
don't seem very disappointed about it.” Sirius pointed out. Harry noted that even the teasing
smile on Sirius's face couldn't rival the ecstatic expression on James's.

For once, James didn't have a come-back.

The rest of Winter Break passed relatively normal, with the exception of the several small
pranks that the Marauders played on the staff and students remaining at the school for
Christmas.

The suffocating hug that Lily greeted Harry with upon her return reminded Harry of one of Mrs.
Weasley's hugs; warm and comforting. He smiled at the knowledge that his mother had been acting
like a mother towards him before he'd even existed.

“So how did the wedding go?” Remus asked after dinner as they settled into the common room to
relax before bed and the return to classes the following morning.

Lily looked up from the homework that she was trying to help Sirius finish at the last second.
“Oh, it was horrible! We were almost lucky we even had it, and it was all my fault!”

Sirius frowned as James asked, “Well, what happened?”

“I gave her that ornament we made when it was just her husband and my family at dinner, because
I didn't want anyone to see it and ask how it was made.” Lily explained, abandoning the
homework that Sirius had apparently forgotten about. “But I didn't take into consideration that
there was a chance that she hadn't told him about magic either.”

The group listening winced sympathetically. “He threw a fit about it! He went on and on about
how freaky magic was and h-how I was a f-freak for having it.” As Lily started to tear up, Harry
comforted her and felt a small amount of satisfaction; Vernon hadn't just been a jerk to him,
then. He'd been a jerk to everybody.

“And he tried to call the wedding off, and it was the night before Christmas Eve, so nobody was
really sure what to do about it. Petunia blamed me for everything, and the wedding almost
completely fell apart, but it really wasn't my fault!” Lily pointed out, her face flushing as
her anger built. “That guy was an ass before he ever knew about magic! He was probably just looking
for an excuse to call the whole thing off, and that was the first one he could think up!”

Harry saw where this was going, and grimaced slightly. A moment later, Lily proved his theory
right. “And let me guess; you told her so.” Harry said, almost groaning when the redhead nodded
proudly.

“Yes I told her so! So she blew up at me for ruining everything, and… well, I got really upset
about it, I guess, because she was so embarrassed about me, and I kind of sort of…” Here, Lily
broke off in her story and blushed.

“Kind of sort of what?” Remus prodded, trying to get the rest of the story.

Lily hesitantly continued. “Well, I kind of sort of did a little accidental magic.”

“What kind of accidental magic?” James asked.

Lily's face turned even redder. “Well…the kind of accidental magic that can leave one's
sister completely bald on the night before her wedding.” Everyone started laughing, and eventually
Lily couldn't help but join in. At the time, it had seemed so serious and she'd felt guilty
for hours afterwards; the magic reversal squad and seeing his fiancé bald didn't improve
Vernon's opinion of the magical community. Now, laughing with her friends about it in the
common room, the event seemed more like a practical joke than a mistake.

Besides, the look on Petunia's face made it all worth it.

But Lily began to frown again as she remembered her sister's cold and unfeeling behavior
towards her following the incident. They'd been growing apart ever since Lily had been accepted
into Hogwarts; maybe this was the push that her sister needed to actually cut ties completely.

The topic changed, and Lily forgot about her sister's anger towards her in favor of helping
Harry tease James. Petunia may be mad about how magic had messed up her wedding, (her hair had
grown back, but it had come in too thin and in the wrong color) but she'd get over it
eventually.

She couldn't hate magic. And she certainly couldn't hate Lily. After all, they were
sisters.

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