Mine2

jessica k malfoy

Rating: R
Genres: Angst, Drama
Relationships: Draco & Ginny
Book: Draco & Ginny, Books 1 - 5
Published: 18/04/2005
Last Updated: 19/04/2005
Status: completed

A dark "remake" of my fic Mine, which i didn't really like. Ginny has to give up everything for Draco and there's nothing anyone can do about it, except herself. Very dark and angsty, just the way y'all like them. Double Shot!

Chapters

1. Accidents

2. Pretending

1. Accidents

Ginny sits on the floor of the now unused Divination room, wondering why she lets herself fall for guys like this. First it was Harry, who would only pay attention to her when he thought his life was falling apart and wanted to get away from it all. He would meet her in the darkness of the fifth floor corridor at night and want to snog in the corner, and she would let him, until she realized it wasn't going anywhere. Then there was Sirius. She nearly shudders at that memory. Poor Sirius, locked up in that depressing house on Grimmauld Place, treated like a prisoner. Again. He never tried anything more than a few kisses but the sad hungry way he looked at her cleared her head of all rational thought.

And now. Now, there is Draco. His thin, long body stretched across the maroon carpet in front of her. His eyes are on his potions book and his fingers are gently running across Ginny's outer thigh. The way she feels about him is different than the way she feels about Harry. Harry was famous. Harry was someone she could look up to. But Harry was so serious and had the weight of the wizarding world - literally - on his shoulders. Sirius was older, an exciting secret, and dangerous and mysterious. And now gone. And Draco, Draco is something completely different.

Draco wants to possess her. At first, she thought that the secret thrill of meeting Draco after Quidditch was from the danger, the forbiddeness. The fact that he hated Harry. The fact that his father was a known Death Eater, had even tried to kill her once before. And probably would try again, she thinks dryly, if he knew what his son was doing right now. It became not good enough to make Harry, Ron, and even Hermione upset and jealous. Now, Draco wanted to control her, possess her, dominate her in every way possible.

“You-are-mine,” he had growled in her ear one night, punctuating each word with a thrust.

And it isn't that she doesn't enjoy it, because she does. She finds herself completely smitten with him, his blond hair that dangles into his silver eyes, his pale skin, that smirk, everything. But, her family will kill her when they find out. Draco is determined to tell his parents during the Holiday. Just another way of making me exclusively his, she thinks with a smile. Ginny wants to avoid the torture for as long as possible.

“You love me, right Gin?” he had asked, making her name sound exotic and sexy.

“Of course I do,” she had answered, narrowing her eyes. “Why do you have to ask?”

“Because I'm not going to hide anymore. It's bloody fine by me if the whole world knows about us.”

But she doesn't quite believe him.

Neither Harry nor Ron had spoken to her since Dracoe had kissed her lips in the Great Hall during breakfast. Not that it's necessarily such a bad thing to be getting the silent treatment from them.

She watches Draco pour over the book in front of him, studying for his N.E.W.T.s, and is thankful she doesn't have to worry too much about them yet. His bottom lip pokes out in the most suckable way as he studies, and she finds herself aroused.

What about a nice guy? she asks herself. Someone who is predictable and reliable. Someone your family would like. Michael Corner had been nice. Given her chocolates for Valentines Day - Draco had given her chocolates too, chocolate body paint. Michael kissed her goodnight, never tried to get her in his bed, and had been as boring as the day was long. Draco caught her at all hours of the day and night, dragging her into closets, bathrooms, and sneaking into her bed, making sure her day was never, ever boring. He tied her up, sent her flowers, dared her to shag him in public places, where they knew they could get caught at any second, leaving her exhausted and spent, then demanding more the next day. She has no time for anyone but him now. He keeps her busy. At first, her friends complained. Zoë and Bianca and Colin all telling her that it wasn't healthy the way she spends every single moment with him. But that's what he wants. And she wants him, so she gives in.

Ginny stretches herself out along Draco's back and kisses his ear.

“What are you doing?” he demands. “I can't breathe.”

“Do you think I'm fat, then?”

“Hardly,” he snorts, quickly rolling over and maneuvering himself on top of her.

She kisses him again, taking that lip into her own mouth, and hoping it's painful. His intake of breath tells her it is.

“You're still mine,” he tells her, pulling away and clamping down on her ear. “Mine. Always mine.”

She spreads her legs wider, and with one thrust, he is inside of her. His strokes are powerful and quick and within minutes she feels a warmth rising from her thighs and spreading to her stomach and back, her limbs tingling.

Draco groans and pushes harder, until she is sure he is deeper inside her than he has ever been.

“More,” she begs. “Harder.”

He obliges and Ginny feels a second orgasm building on top of her first one, and as the delicious shock waves rip through her, she feels Draco release himself inside of her and collapse on her chest, panting and sweating.

When he catches her breath, he bites down on her lip and hisses again, “Mine.”

She may be his for the moment, but she isn't quite sure what is going to happen when she spills her secret to him, so she keeps it to herself. He'd made it quite clear when they'd started sleeping together that she was to take her birth control potion regularly.

“There will be no accidents,” he'd commanded. “No messy consequences.”

But accidents are bound to happen.

Perhaps Draco just seemed like a good way to get back at her family. At Ron for being so bloody overprotective. At Harry for not paying her enough attention when she was mad about him. At her mum for insisting with a red face that witches must remain virtuous until their wedding night, end of discussion. At the whole world for considering her as nothing more than the youngest Weasley.

Draco may have been controlling and possessive and jealous and demanding and nearly mean, but he was hers. He had given her a bracelet several weeks ago, and only after she had put it on did he tell her it had a tracking charm in it and a permanent fastening charm. Not that she cared. She wouldn't go anywhere without him knowing anyways.

Occasionally, somewhere in the back of her mind, a voice would rise up and whisper that things weren't right. That this relationship was dangerous and she needed to get out. But she didn't. She couldn't, even if she had wanted to. From the moment Draco had gotten her alone inside that cow Umbridge's office two years before, she was addicted to him. Sure, she had told Ron she was interested in Dean, but she couldn't very well tell him that she liked Draco, could she? She'd left the compartment shortly after that, only to find that Draco and his stupid bodyguards had been hexed to oblivion. So she unhexed Draco. And crawled into the back of the luggage compartment and that was that.

Truthfully, she hadn't known what she was agreeing to when she said she'd wear his ring. It was full of old magic he warned her, and she would be his forever, or at least until he decided to take it back. So really, even if she had wanted to leave, she couldn't.

And I don't want to, Ginny thinks, watching Draco who has again gone back to his homework.

She can never fancy anyone else, never kiss anyone else, never even think someone else was attractive. Not that I want to. But what other magic is in there?

It doesn't matter.

She feels safes with Draco. He gives her a welcomed sense of security, in a world that is not stable. The war is still raging, and things are not right. Of course, her false sense of security isn't right either. Deep inside, she knows that Draco really won't tell his parents. That when he graduates this summer, the Dark Mark will be imprinted on his forearm. So, she takes a deep breath.
“Draco, I'm pregnant.”

He doesn't even stop writing. He dips his quill in the ink and keeps on. “Why am I not surprised?”

“I took the potion every day.”

Finally he puts down the damned quill and sits up. “Did you know I was going to take back my ring at graduation?”

She suspects that she did know, but it hurts to hear the words fall acidicly from his perfect lips. “No telling your parents?”

“No.”

“I'm sorry.” And she is, even though she knows the fault does not lie with her alone.

“No matter now.”

She remembers what he had told her before she gave her virginity to him. If there is an accident, which there will not be, you will tell me immediately so I can correct the situation. As if it was a simple arithmancy problem, easily fixable and forgettable. She hugs her arms across her chest.

“How far?” he demands.

“Two months.”

“Two?”

She nods.

“I'll arrange for my mother to contact a Healer. If it's a male, I'll discuss it with my father.”

*****

Ginny sits in the common room Sunday night and watches sadly as her brother talks quietly with Harry. Things are getting worse. Harry has dreams and nightmares that cannot be explained, only attributed to Voldemort. The weekend had been a Hogsmead weekend, and Draco had arranged a secret meeting with a Healer, and to her dismay, the Healer coldly confirmed the baby's gender as male. She is disappointed. If it had been female, she is certain Draco would have insisted on an abortion, and she wouldn't be in this mess. Of course, then, Draco would simply take back his ring and forget about her, although something inside tells her she would never forget about him. No, not even in a thousand life times.

She is petrified that with the ring and bracelet, Draco will find out, but not knowing what else to do, Ginny turns to Hermione.

The two girls go to the Prefects bathroom and Ginny spills the entire story.

Hermione is horrified, and tries to remove the ring and bracelet. “How could he do this?” she hisses, when she confirms that they will not come off, but tugging viciously on the jewelry until Ginny cries out in pain.

“I let him,” Ginny admits, tears rolling down her face.

“But why? Why him?”

“I don't know. I know he cares about me in some sort of Draco Malfoy way, and I thought he was exciting. When we were on the train that summer, he was different. Just for a moment I saw a part of him I'd never seen. I know you'll think I'm too young for this,” she sighs, “I think so too, but I feel a connection with him. There's something there. He told me that the darkness was rising, told me to be safe. I feel safe with him.”

“He is the darkness,” Hermione snaps rudely. Then she shakes her head. “I'm sorry. I don't mean to yell at you.”

“Can you undo the ring?”

Slowly Hermione shakes her head. “No. Only Malfoy.”

“What am I going to do?” Ginny bites her lower lip.

“What do you think he'll want?”

“I don't know. An heir maybe.”

“Is Draco a Death Eater?”

“No.”

“No?”

Ginny sighs. “Not yet.”

Hermione looks as if she is on the verge of tears. Her next words are no comfort. “Oh gods Ginny. What have you gotten yourself into?”

*****

Ginny goes home with Draco for the Holidays, not even bothering to tell her mum and dad. They'll assume she stayed at the school with Ron, and she doubts Ron will even notice. Malfoy Manor is huge and scary and intimidating. On purpose, she imagines.

Draco has barely spoken to her since she broke the news. He still expects her to be there, to study by his side, to eat her meals with him, to watch his Quidditch practices. He doesn't seem angry, no, not really, but he doesn't speak.

Unceremoniously, he dumps her trunk on a house elf, instructing it to take it to her suite. Those words unnerve Ginny even more. Her suite?

He must sense her fear, her trembling, as he leads her to his father's study, for he picks up her hand and squeezes it, and then stops to face her.

“You do love me, right?”

The same question he always asks. He never says it, never comes out and says “I love you” but asks if she loves him.

“I do.”

“Good. Then you'll do fine.”

They sit in front of his father's desk, and Lucius looks at her, silently judging, and she remembers the man who nearly caused her death in her first year. “So you are pregnant,” he states finally.

“Yes sir,” Ginny answered, her attempt to steady her voice pathetic.

“And it has been confirmed as a male?”

“Yes sir.”

He focuses on Draco. “The heir cannot be a bastard.”

“Yes sir, I am aware of this.”

“It must be before the half way mark.”

“Yes sir.”

Ginny doesn't like their words.
“When will that be?” Lucius asks.

“The middle of February, the Healer said,” Draco answers.

“And tell me again . . . how long have the two of you been . . . together.” The last word is spit out as if it is foul.

“Long enough,” Draco responds firmly.

“Then we can spread the word that the marriage took place last summer,” he states, effectively dismissing them.

Ginny follows Draco in numb disbelief as he shows her to her suites. “They adjoin mine.”

“I can't get married,” she finally whispers.

“You will. Tonight.”

Tears spring to her eyes. “But I'm not 17. I can't. My parents won't let me!”

“If you are pregnant,” he states coldly, “you only have to be 15. Besides, in France, wizards have no age restrictions on marriage. We'll say we eloped there.” He leaves her alone with her thoughts and she begins to sob. Draco's mother enters the room and glances her over, her face cold as stone, but her eyes glow sympathetic.

“Here,” she says. “This is the best I can do on such short notice.”

She is holding a long white robe, intricately detailed with silver threads. “It was mine.”

Ginny doesn't bother to quell her tears as she looks at it. “It's beautiful,” she says in a small voice. “Thank you.”

Narcissa gracefully sits down on the edge of the bed and hands Ginny a beautiful handkerchief. “You poor girl,” she says finally.

The ceremony is in the Malfoy's formal parlor, next to the Christmas tree. The tree is huge and full of glittering fairy lights. It is cheerful and festive and joyous and everything that Ginny should be on her wedding, but is not. Ginny cannot even smile. She says “I do” for fear that Lucius will hex her to oblivion if she does not. Narcissa watches with seeming disinterest and when it is over, she retires to her rooms, and again, Ginny thinks she sees sympathy in those ice colored eyes.

Ginny cries herself to sleep, thinking what a shame it is, as it's her wedding night. She is scared and afraid, alone in this huge, horrible house. She is woken by Draco crawling into her bed.

“Don't cry,” he whispers, his voice kind.

She doesn't answer.

“I know this is hard. But it's for the best.”

“Why couldn't I even tell my mum?” she finally asks.

“It had to get done,” he answers after a long silence.

“Why could you keep a boy but not a girl?” She has to know.

He pauses. “The first male created is the heir,” he tells her. “If it had been terminated, there would never be an heir.”

“An heir,” she spits out the word. “So effing what?”

He moves to stroke her hair. “You'll understand one of these days. But you're safe here. Remember that. When the darkness rises across all of us, remember that you will be safe here.”

He says no more, but kisses her slowly and gently, and then carefully removes her nightclothes. There is no real foreplay, but his lips caress her body, soothing her soul, and drinking her in. When he enters her, he is unhurried and focuses on her pleasure. He brings her to climax twice before giving in to his own release, and as she drifts again to sleep, this time comfortable and secure, she marvels that he had never touched her quite so tenderly before.

“I love you,” she hears him whisper as sleep captures her body.

When she wakes up, she is alone.

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2. Pretending

Part 2: Pretending

The baby is born a bit early, right after she finishes her 6th year, at the end of June. He is whisked away before Ginny can properly hold him and count his fingers and toes and shower him with love. She is upset, but says nothing. After all, she grew the baby, felt him kicking and poking and twisting inside of her as he developed, but he is taken to be named, Lynxiun Draco Malfoy. What a stupid name, she groans inwardly, but says nothing still. After all, she is only his mother.

Draco becomes more attentive and spends his time with Ginny. They swim, they lie in the gardens and watch the stars, they share Draco's bed. She knows, she can feel it deep inside, that Draco is anxious of the looming events. She tries to talk to him about it, to ease the silent tension that radiates from him, to convince him that he does not have to follow in his father's footsteps, but he silences her with a look and that is that.

She is finally permitted one single day to go see her family. She knows that it is the day Draco will receive his Dark Mark, and she can barely function. They want her out of the way, so with a wet nurse in tow, and strict instructions from Narcissa, Ginny goes to the Burrow with a heavy heart. Her son is nearly a month old and she has barely held him. He spends his time in the nursery, where Ginny is shooed away. They expect her to learn to be like Narcissa, to be a socialite and a gracious hostess, but she can't. She is still bitter because she is not permitted to finish her schooling, because she was forced into marriage and her husband is being forced into the Dark Lord's service, and because she is not even permitted to be a good mother.

Her family, of course, is horrified, but they can do nothing about it. The magic was there, permanently binding Draco and Ginny. She lets her mum fuss over her, and then the baby, who she calls Lyn when she is, on rare occasion, alone with him.

“You can come home Ginny,” her mum tells her finally, after she has rocked the baby to sleep and shooed the nurse out to run errands.

She looks at her mum with tears glittering in her eyes. “They'll keep the baby.”

“They won't,” her mum insists. “We won't let them.”

Any attachments to the baby Ginny had felt have already begun to fade away. “I do love Draco, but I didn't want things to be like this.”

Her brothers and father come home for dinner, and Ron is so incensed at her lack of enthusiasm for Lyn, her apathy at the insane plans to break her away from Malfoy Manor, and her refusal to talk about Draco or Lucius and the Death Eaters, that he is not speaking to her by the end of dinner.

Ginny feels sick the entire day, wondering about Draco.

He is not home when she returns, and she paces the floor well into the night. Finally she crawls into his bed, and prays that he will not be angry when he arrives.

She awakes to find him staring at her in the darkness. He is different. She can see it in him, in his aura.

“Come to bed,” she whispers nervously.

Silently he slides in beside her, careful to keep the right side of his body turned away.

“Are you alright?”

“No.” His voice is wound tight.

“Did you . . .”

His silence answers her. Her husband is now a Death Eater. Tears escape her eyes and roll down her cheeks, leaving puddles on the pillow. She cries for Draco and for her son who will be expected to follow in his father's footsteps some twenty years from now. She cries for herself, for giving up her freedom and losing her identity. She cries until she can't breathe and although her silent sobs shake the bed, Draco remains stiff, unable to comfort her. In the wee hours of the morning, when she is able to fall asleep, she dreams of scarred, burning flesh.

*****

Draco finds Ginny in the library when he returns home. It had been two years since they'd moved from his parent's side of the house into their own wing on the west end of the mansion.

“How was your meeting?” she asks him coldly.

“Where is Lynxiun?” he inquires.

“I don't know. With the bloody nurse I assume.”

“He's not.”

There is a flicker of hesitation in her eyes and Draco knows she is lying.

“What have you done?” he demands.

Ginny meets his fierce stare. She won't back down. She won't tell. She knows what her husband does during the nights he is gone. He kills and tortures and tracks down those loyal to Dumbledore. He tracks her family. He follows the Dark Lord.

“I promised you,” Draco tells her heavily, “that you would be safe with me. I have not let you down. Why are you doing this?”

“Lyn will not be like you,” she answers calmly.

Draco freezes.

“Neither will anyone else.”

It takes a minute to absorb her words.

“Are you expecting another one?”

“Not anymore.”

“What have you done?”

She stands to her feet. “I know you won't give me a divorce, but I want out of this relationship. I want to go home.”

He stares at her, his expression a confused little boy. “But you are safe here. You won't be safe . . . anywhere else.” His words leave the unspoken hanging in the air. What if she has no family to go back to? She hasn't been in contact with them in over three years, not since the Order had to go into hiding. She really doesn't know whether or not they are still alive.

Ginny takes a deep breath and ignores the innuendo. “You don't love me. So why keep me here?”

Draco brings his hands to his face. “I do. I do love you. That's why I keep you here. I want you to be safe.”

“Then why do you do this?” she screams, rising to her feet. “Why do you follow him? You know it's wrong. It's not fair to do this to your family!”

He steps forwards and cradles her face. “I cannot change my destiny.”

“Yes!” She is slapping him now, hitting him, beating against his chest with her fists. “You can! There is no such thing as destiny!”

Draco looks at her sadly, allowing her to continue pummeling him with her small hands. “Why do you think I was born? I was created for serving the Dark Lord.”

His words stop her like a Hippogriff to the chest. “But you don't have to,” she whispers, her voice strangled as she chokes back a sob and struggles to keep upright.

He pulls her closer, supporting her too thin frame and trailing kisses across her face. His breath smells of tart green apples, when it should smell like the death of the night's activities. “I gave you the wrong potion.”

“What?” Her mind is rolling now, convincing herself that he wouldn't slip her Veritaserum or use that horrid curse to drag the truth out about where their son is.

“At school,” he continues, “and for the past few months.”

“The wrong potion?”

“It wasn't birth control,” he whispers, planting kisses on her forehead. “It was just vitamins.”

“Vitamins?” Her voice is high and unrecognizable, a mixture of panic and realization and tears.

“I had to keep you. I couldn't let you go. I won't. I can't.”

“So you got me pregnant?” she shrieks, the realization setting in on her. “You took me away from my family!”

“I need you Ginny.” His voice is raw and desperate. “You're the only thing that keeps me from going to them. That darkness, it's there, always, but you keep it at bay. You save me.”

“I don't! You still, you serve him! You have that horrible . . . thing on your arm!” She is hysterical now, her heart pounding against the expensive material of her shirt.

“But I love you.” He repeats these words until she is spent, dangling limply in his arms, and then ever so gently, as if he is dealing with a small child, he lays her down on the couch, and undresses her, then crawls on top of her.

“No,” she protests weakly. “Don't.”

“It's okay, it's okay.”

She is torn between love and hate, torn between his hands moving in small circles across her bodyand creating shocks of pleasure that cross her bare skin and knowing that those hands have killed before. She is torn between the lust that is inspired by his lips as they moan her name, and knowing that he has used those same lips to tell lies and be cruel and cause death and destruction. She lets him take her just like she always does, the lust winning over the fear. Lust telling her that her husband would never to a thing to hurt her, and fear sobbing that he already has.

He undresses her with great gentleness and explores her body with his mouth and hands, finding all the spots that make her cry out and moan and shake with desire.

She lifts one leg over the back of the couch, giving him all the access he wants, and it is seconds before he plunges inside of her, filling her up before slowly withdrawing and repeating the process. It is slow and unhurried, as it has been very few times before, just once on their wedding night and once when she so willingly gave him her virginity. Draco's moves are languid and leisurely, assuring her once again that she really is safe, that nothing bad can happen to her here, that Draco won't ever take their son or unborn child to the Dark Lord.

She rides the waves of her orgasm, crying out his name, begging him for more.

Ginny shutters beneath him, and he pauses, moving only the smallest bit as he waits for her. He moves his hand to the small space where they join and rubs his finger across her clit, making her shake with the electrical jolts that course through her body. “Where is our son?”

Ginny freezes. Of course. She's nothing more than a simple minded fool, she decides, always letting her emotions overtake her. It always comes down to what he wants. “You don't love me,” is what falls from her lips.

“I do. I do.” He raises his hips and slams them down, and Ginny bites her lips to keep from crying out.

“Where is he? I know what you did. The Fidelius Charm. Where is he?”

She closes her eyes but the tears spill anyways and Draco pounds into her again, and again, until she feels him shutter to a stop and collapse onto her, utterly spent.

After several moments, he pulls himself out of her, stands and fastens his trousers, then turns on his heel and leaves, and Ginny buries her head in the arm of the chair and cries.

When he finally returns, he is visibly shaken. “Where is our son?”

“Why do you even care?” she snaps, her voice a mess.

He kneels beside her and gives her a weak smile. When he speaks again, his voice is different somehow. It is deeper, darker, and ancient. “Oh my little Gwynhyfar. How much I've loved you for a thousand life times. Can't you see this is only one step in our destiny?”

She is utterly confused and yet manages to say, “I don't believe in destiny.”

“Ah, no more. To kill your brother . . .” Draco's eyes are glazed and Ginny is not quite sure he ever knows he's speaking.

“And my name is Ginerva.” But she is not mad, but confused. It is not as though he has called her by another woman's name, because he is so clearly speaking to her. His words have awoke something deep inside of her, and images that felt like those vague, confusing memories of something that may or may not have been a dream or even just déjà vu of a dream are stirring through her mind.

“Ginerva, Gwynhyfar, Gwendolyn, Guinevere, Galadria, they are all the same, aren't they? Although I have always like Gwynhyfar the best.”

“What are you talking about Draco?” she whispered, her voice sounding unnaturally loud in the stillness of the room.

“You are forgetting, and to forget is to condemn your family to death.”

“No,” she hisses, “you are the one that condemns people to death!”

“In this lifetime, I suppose. But not in others.”

She shakes her head in confusion, and the moment passes. “I am not the secret keeper,” she lies, “and so even if I told you it would do no good.”

“And the other one?” he glances at her stomach. “What have you done?”

“Gotten rid of it!” she lies defiantly.

“Do you really think I would hurt my own child? My own flesh and blood?”

“Why not? Your father did!”

“Am I my father?”

“I think so,” she whispers. “You do what he does.”

“Fine.” Draco pulls out his wand and points it at her.

For a moment, Ginny is terrified.

He mutters words that her petrified brain cannot comprehend and she feels a flash of warmth. Her belly is glowing.

“I didn't think you had it in you,” he mutters. “You wouldn't dare end our child's life.”

Tears escape her eyes as she watches him, his expression smug.

He grabs her by the hand and pulls her, still naked, from the couch. The sticky essence of Draco is still between her thighs as he marches her silently to his office. With more force than she is used to, he pushes her down in his chair and pulls his wand out again. He taps it on top of a rather plain looking glass globe. The globe begins to change, turning into a map. “Lynxiun” he mutters.

Ginny's fear increases.

“So,” he says finally. “You trusted our son to the Mudblood. The Malfoy heir is with the Mudblood.”

Ginny bites her lip, but once again, the pain doesn't hold the tears back.

“Did you think I wouldn't have a tracking charm on him as well? That I wouldn't prepare for this day, a day I prayed I would never, ever see?” he demands. He paces the room and then kneels beside her. “Do you love me?”

She wants to hate him. But she doesn't. She never has, and she never will. “Yes. I love you.”

“I love you too. But I will kill her if our son is not back here tonight. And if that doesn't work, I will go after your family.” His expression is pained as he speaks, as if he does not want to say the hateful words coming from his mouth. “I need my son.”

So, they are still alive.

“I don't want to live like this,” she tells him finally.

“It's just one lifetime,” he answers, taking her in his arms and rocking her back and forth. “The next one will be better. These things, these things you cannot change, they are just easier to give into.”

When she finishes crying, he performs a glamour charm on her, helps her dress, then she wraps her arms around him. With a pop, they are on Hermione's doorstep.

Hermione opens the door with wild eyes and points her wand at Draco.

“Just tell him,” Ginny says firmly, coldly, stepping between them.

“No,” Hermione shakes her head. “I won't.”

“Do it. I love you and I love my family, so do it.”

Hermione finally, reluctantly, lowers her wand as Ginny's implications sink in. Her feelings towards Draco are evident as she hisses, “Ginny's son is with me, you fucking no good Death Eater. I hope you die! Harry and Ron will get you. You know that, don't you?”

“They haven't yet, now have they?” he says calmly, brushing past her as he is able to see his son now.

He scoops the sleeping boy into his arms and puts his arm back around Ginny.

“Thank you,” Ginny tells her friend, knowing it's the last time she will ever be able to associate with her.

Draco tucks Lyn into bed, and then escorts Ginny to her own bed when they arrive home. “This is behind us now,” he says finally. “We won't speak of it again.”

Ginny's nods, her strength and resolve gone. “Will you sleep in here tonight?” It has been too long since they have shared the bed in order to actually sleep. “With me?” She wants to hate him, despise him, for what he has done to her, but she can't. She does love him, with a live that feels strong enough to really be able to last 1000 life times. So just forgives him, just like she knew she would.

“Of course.” He tenderly kisses her forehead and then her cheek. “Of course I will.”

Mostly, when he is with her, he is so kind and gentle that it is easy to believe he is not a Death Eater. As she drifts off to be cradled with Dream, she decides that life would be less painful if she could give in and pretend. She wants to be happy. So in the morning, she goes to the East wing of the Manor to see Narcissa who knows all there is to know about giving in and pretending.

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A/N I took the name Gwynhyfar from Anise, cause she rocks. Thanks for the reviews, I just love them!

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