Alone

Jorael

Rating: PG
Genres: Angst
Relationships: Harry & Hermione
Book: Harry & Hermione, Books 1 - 4
Published: 09/05/2003
Last Updated: 09/05/2003
Status: completed

She was my world. She was my everything. She was my life. She took away the feeling of loneliness, with her warm inviting eyes. She took away the pain, with her soft sweet kisses…She made me feel on to of the world. Where every day was perfect.

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A/N: This is something I wrote when I was completely utterly depressed… thought I’d share the misery J just kidding… I was written in under an hour, so it’s not that good, sorry if the grammar is a bit vague. I have no energy to edit it right now.

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Alone

By: Jorael

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Alone….

That’s how I’ve always felt.

Trapped inside an empty dark void. A void of hateful shadows, taunting me, torturing me. Pain and sorrow were my only two companions. Trapped inside the small dark cramped cupboard, no friends, no family who cared, no one who cared…

Nobody…

When I had nightmares no one was there to offer comfort.

When I cried no one was there to wipe away my tears.

When I was scared no one was there to chase my fears away.

Alone…

Trapped inside the dark cramp cupboard under the stairs.

Never seeing the light of day.

Never seeing the outside world.

No one understood no one ever will…

Trapped forever in a cold dark empty void that was the cupboard under the stairs.

But everything changed one day when a friendly Giant took me to off into a new world. A world just like a fairytale, where there were wizards witches, great grand castles, unicorns fairies and all the things that make up the fairytales that children adored so much.

A new life, a new identity. A world where I was never ignored a world where I was noticed by everyone…

Fame… I wonder why everyone wants it… its overrated. I never asked for it, I never liked it. Fame was bitter; it was a nuisance I would have loved to do without.

But in the fairytale world where I was whisked away, I had friends. Great loyal friends who will never falter… Or so I thought.

But with all the attention I gathered, I still felt trapped.

Trapped in the cupboard once again. Where everyone was on the outside looking in. No one daring to open the door, no one daring to turn the knob and free me from my mental prison.

Trapped in a dark empty void, where no one even tried to reach.

Alone…

Alone… Once again; in the dark reassesses of my mind where I was left with my fears, slowly eating me from the inside. Left alone in the darkness that has engulfed me for as long as I can remember, with a myriad of thoughts, emotions, voices I never understood. All hissing in my ear, driving me mad.

My friends were there, but they were not.

They never saw what I was going through.

They never understood, they never will.

However… she did…

She who showed me the light.

She who opened the door, and held my hand and guided me through the outside world.

She was the rock that kept me steady.

She showed me true happiness.

She took me from the void I was trapped in, rotting.

And showed me how to live.

And to love…

Bliss…

It was what I felt when I was with her.

I loved her and she loved me.

She was my solace, she was my shelter.

Her warm chocolate eyes.

Her fragrant cinnamon hair.

Her soft silky skin.

Her voice so melodic

Her sweet lips.

She was my world. She was my everything. She was my life.

She took away the feeling of loneliness, with her warm inviting eyes.

She took away the pain, with her soft sweet kisses…

She made me feel on to of the world. Where every day was perfect.

Where every second, spent with her was sheer never ending bliss…

I loved… And I was loved back. A love that never seizes to give. A love I never thought was possible.

Alone no more… or so I thought.

But fate is cruel, it is harsh and unforgiving.

Fate took away the only one thing worth living for.

Fate, cruel, cruel fate, took her away.

Took away the only light I had in the darkness.

Forcibly pried me away from the soft loving hand that guided me through the way.

Took away my anchor to sanity.

Never again to see her beautiful eyes, that took away my loneliness.

Never again to smell her hair so sweet like strawberries and vanilla

Never again to fell her soft silky skin beneath my fingers.

Never again to hear her sweet voice

Never again to taste her sweet lips, and feel her sweet drugging kisses.

She’s gone…

Gone forever, unable to return.

Gone too was my heart, my sanity, my freedom my love.

Alone once again…

Trapped in the dark empty void that was the cupboard under the stairs.

The voices back, their whispers more deafening than before.

No one to open the door once again.

Alone forever…

Alone in a prison inside my own head.

Alone, with the bitterness, the sorrow, the anger… the guilt.

Alone, brooding, rotting away, with no hope for help.

Alone… until I meet her again.