Bittersweet by Marauding Moonbabe

Rating: PG
Genres: Romance, Humor
Relationships: Lily & James
Book: Lily & James, Books 1 - 5
Published: 15/08/2005
Last Updated: 27/08/2005
Status: Paused

James and Lily's seventh year is full of sorrow,but there is medicine. *preview of a scene
to come* James said, "My mum once said, 'Live well, laugh often, love much', but
it's so hard to do that alone." Lily replied," You don't have to do it alone,
because I'm here now."




1. Beginnings
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**~Bittersweet~**

**By: Marauding-Moonbabe**

Ch.1- Beginnings

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray - I would pray

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes till' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway


Kelly Clarkson: Breakaway


Lily Carrie Evans had a good today. She had got Griffindor 50 points, yelled at James Potter and
Sirius Black at least 3 times, and she had gotten 2 extra hours of studying in for 7th
year Newt's. She sat in the 7th year girl's dormitory windowsill, looking at the
room that had held so many memories. She remembered when her best friend, Raven, had her first
breakup in her 3rd year. She remembered when she had cried about her first breakup in
fourth year. She remembered that fateful night in sixth year when she found out what Remus Lupin
was.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*“Hey, Remus. Where are you going? We have patrol duty tonight, remember?” Lily asked as she
saw Remus walking out the portrait hole with his friends, the Marauders. Remus's eyes were
darting around the room, looking extremely nervous. “Lily flower, I would love to tell you that you
are exceptionally beautiful tonight, but I know that you wouldn't like that, so I shall
restrict myself from saying that.” James- Potter- the- toerag said. “Off the subject, Potter. Remus
we have patrol duty, let's go.” Lily said, rolling her eyes at the immaturity of James Potter.
Sirius said, much too quickly to be believable, “Remus has to help Madam Pomfrey with restocking
the supply cabinets, since she's new. Remmy here got the job of giving the tour.” The Marauders
ran out of the portrait hole quickly.*

*Raven came up behind Lily. “I heard it all, and that is the worst lie ever. I saw Madam
Pomfrey earlier, her mum was the last nurse, and gave her the tour last week. Let's go to the
boy's dorms and look around.” The best friends looked at each other smirking. “Maxine, can you
patrol with Nick tonight?” Lily asked over her shoulder, “Thanks.”*

*The girls quickly snuck into the 6**th* *year boy's dormitory, and
looked around at the mess. “This isn't a room, it's a pigsty. It's messier than the
last time I saw it.” Raven commented. “Oh, and when was that?” Lily asked, curious at why her
friend, who was dating Sirius Black, had seen the dormitory before. “Oh, it was nothing like that,
Lily, you know we vowed to wait. I doubt we'll last much longer anyway; we're better as
love-hate friends. Here is Remus's trunk, we'll probably find something in there.” They
rummaged through it for a few minutes, to find nothing more interesting than heart covered red
boxers, which seemed to have been sent by Sirius.*

*Then, at the bottom of the trunk, they found something very odd. They found a painting. It
was a large black dog, beautiful stag, a little rat, and an oddly shaped, mousy- brown haired dog
all standing under a full moon. Lily looked out the window to see a blood-red dusk. She remembered
her Astronomy charts from last night. Tonight was a full moon! She looked back at the painting,
examined the brown dog more carefully, and dropped the painting in shock. “Hey, Raven, I forgot my
essay in the library. Can you go get it for me before the library closes? I just remembered a
question I need to ask Hagrid. I'll be back in a few minutes.*

*Lily sprinted onto the grounds. She saw Madam Pomfrey walking with Remus to the Whomping
Willow. She then saw movement in a nearby bush, followed by a flash of messy black hair. She went
to the bush. “Going somewhere Potter?” Lily asked acidly. James turned around to face her. Lily
almost gasped at the sight of his face. It was so sober, so sad. The regular twinkle was gone from
his eyes. He had replaced his cocky, lopsided smile with a concentrating frown.*

*“What do you know?” he asked, eyeing her warily. “I know that Remus is a werewolf, and that
you know that as well, from what it looks like.” Lily replied. “Yes, he is a werewolf, but he's
also a good person. I'll let him know that you know about his furry little problem. Please
don't treat him any differently. He beats himself up too much already. We really care about
him, we really do. We're helping him in all the ways we can, and you can help by not telling
anyone, even Raven, and treating him the same as always. He even hates sympathy, Lily, so treat him
the same, but don't let him push himself away from you.” Lily was shocked at this James. This
James she hadn't seen before. She shook it off, but inside, the feeling was still there- the
seed of doubt.*

*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~*

Lily stared out at the waxing moon, thinking of her family many miles away. Her parents loved
the fact that she was a witch, but they didn't really understand what that meant. Her sister
did not approve of it at all. Petunia was jealous that her sister was talented. Before she got her
letter, she really didn't feel like she belonged. She got good grades, but she didn't have
friends. Now she had wonderful friends, who were like her. They could do magic.

Lilly heard the dormitory door open. James Potter sat down beside her. Not looking at him, Lilly
said, “Potter, you are *not* allowed in here.” “ Relax Evans, I'm just here `cause this
dorm has the best view,” James Oliver Potter replied. “ Oh, and how exactly would *you* know
that the 7th year girls have the best view?” Lilly questioned. James just smirked.

“Argh!!! You are impossible.”

“That's m' job, babe. So, what do you think about when you see the moon?” James asked,
looking at Lilly, with a truly sincere look on his face. Lilly was startled about this new side of
James Potter.

“Erm, well I think about a new chance for life, ya know. Like the waxing moon is a promise for a
new day,” Lilly stuttered.

“ Yeah, I think about adventure.” James said with a glassy look in his eyes. Adventure? Lilly
was confused about that. Adventure for Remus, maybe, but James wasn't a werewolf. Why
adventure? “I have already done rounds for tonight, so you don't need to get up. I promise, I
did a good job. Night Lils.” James got up and left.

*That doesn't seem like James Potter at all. He did rounds for both of us so I didn't
have to get up? That's thoughtful. Maybe this is the side of him that Dumbledore saw. Maybe
he* **was** *right to make him head boy.* Lilly thought, and got into bed. The seed of
doubt was now a sprout.

The next night finds Lilly and James doing Head Boy and Girl patrol. They went to the Astronomy
Tower to find no less than 5 couples entangled.

“ Okay, you sick lovers, get the heck out of here and **stop** exchanging saliva with each
other!!! It is **not** sanitary to do that, especially at night!” Lilly yelled.

“ Why is it less sanitary at night?” James asked with a lopsided smile. Lilly's stare could
stop a rampaging hippogriph. The couples left looking very disgruntled. James leaned on the barrier
of the observation area, his messy raven hair blowing in the wind. James looked out at the night
sky for several minutes. “ Pot- James, what's wrong?” Lilly could sense his unease. It scared
her that he was suddenly so serious.

James turned around his eyes wide with shock. “Something horrible has happened, and I think
we'll find out what soon.”

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2. Ch.2 Finding Out
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**Bittersweet**

**Ch.2- Finding Out**

**I try to make a sound but no one hears me**

**I'm slipping off the edge**

**I'm hanging by a thread**

**I wanna start this over again**

**So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered**

**And I can't explain what happened**

**And I can't erase the things that I've done**

**No I can't**

**How could this happen to me**

**I made my mistakes**

**I've got no where to run**

**The night goes on**

**As I'm fading away**

**I'm sick of this life**

**I just wanna scream**

**How could this happen to me**

**Simple Plan- Untitled**

**The next day, it became apparent what the horrible thing was that happened. The** **Daily
Prophet** **had a disturbing article on the front page.**

**Death of Aurors in Death Eater Attack**

**In Death Eater attack last night on South Harborton, He Who Must Not Be Named murdered two
highly respected aurors, Oliver and Madeline Potter, personally. The attack on the muggle town was
unexpected, and the Potter's were the only aurors to respond. They died protecting many
muggles, and took over 10 Death Eaters with them. There were no other casualties in this horrid
event. The Ministry is being questioned about the lack of employees responding to the attack. The
Potters died valiantly and there will be a memorial for them in the atrium next Saturday.**

**Remus Lupin had the** **Daily Prophet** **delivered to him, and then James and Sirius
Black would read it. “So what's in the news today, Moony?” James asked. “Nothing,” Remus said
much too quickly, while trying to hide the** **Prophet** **from his friends. There are many
ways to be told that your** **parents have died, and learning from a friend's newspaper that
they died because they were the only ones to do their job was** **not** **an ideal
one.**

**“Come on Moony, you know you are horrible at lying.” Sirius said with a wicked looking his
eyes. He pinned Remus's arms behind his back while James grabbed he paper.**

**“Ha!** **Now** **we'll find out what…” Sirius started, but stopped when he saw the
headline. “ Oh, no, Prongs, speak to me, please. Come on Prongs,” Sirius begged.**

**Gregory Goyle came up to the four friends. Lupin said,” We are preoccupied right now,
gorilla, so leave before we die from the stench of your body odor.”**

**“You know my friend Lucius Malfoy, right? He wanted to deliver this message to you, Potty.”
Goyle threw a bit of parchment on the table. James picked it up in a dreamlike trance.**

**Hello, Potter. I have had the great pleasure of helping kill your parents. I promise you,
they did suffer. I made sure that they were tortured physically and mentally before the Dark Lord
cast the horrid curse. They begged to Him, not for their lives, but for yours. He will come for
you, and make you and everyone you hold dear pay for the lives of the servants your parents took
with them.**

**James handed the note to Sirius. Sirius called Lucius Malfoy something that would have given
him detention for a month. James's face showed no emotion. He got up and said only two words-
tell Lily. He then walked out of the hall in a determinedly forced slow stride. Before the Great
Hall doors closed, he had broken into a run.**

**James did the only thing he could do- run. He ran, and ran, and ran, until he could not run
anymore. He went to the Room of Requirement. When he went inside, it had a big, fluffy, four-poster
bed, and many fragile objects that looked as though they would break at the lightest touch.**

**James grabbed the nearest objects and threw them across the room. With a sickening crash,
they shattered. James felt savage triumph as he could now control something in his crashing world.
After several minutes, breaking things did no satisfy him. A small pocketknife appeared. He grabbed
it, and sat on the bed. He cut his arm again and again. He smiled at the blood running down his
arm, at the pain coursing through him. He sliced his arm again and again, until his eyes rolled to
the back of his head and fell unconscious.**

**Sirius Black did not want to tell Lily why James was gone from the common room. As it was
Saturday, they didn't have class, and it didn't go unnoticed that the Marauders were a
member short.**

**“Hey, guys. Where's James? I need to ask him about something special we're planning
as Heads.” Lily asked.**

**“Erm… well…” Sirius started. The grief was too near to say that Mr. and Mrs. Potter were
dead. It would make it final if he said it out loud. Sirius loved the Potters. They were his
family. His cousins weren't his family. His brother and parents weren't his family. Remus
and Peter and James and his parents were his family. Now they were gone.**

**“Lily, we don't know where James is. We know why he isn't here though.” Remus said
quietly. He handed her the newspaper and the note, hesitantly. “Oh, no. Remus you must know, you
must. I have to find him. I HAVETO FIND HIM!!!” Lily screamed with tears running down her face.
Remus shook his head somberly, and turned to Sirius.**

**“Sirius, if anyone deserves to know, she does. Get the map.” Sirius got up and went up the
dormitory stairs, coming down a few minutes later. He handed Lily a piece of parchment and muttered
something while he tapped it. It showed James Potter in the Room of Requirement.**

**“Thank you Sirius, Remus,” She hugged them and ran out the portrait hole heading towards the
7****th** **floor.**

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3. Ch.3 Coping With Lose
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**Bittersweet**

**Ch.3- Coping** **With Lose**

**If you want to**

**I can save you**

**I can take you away from here**

**So lonely inside**

**So busy out there**

**And all you wanted**

**was somebody who cares**

**I'm sinking slowly**

**So hurry hold me**

**Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on**

**Please can you tell me**

**So I can finally see**

**Where you go when you're gone**

**If you want to**

**I can save you**

**I can take you away from here**

**So lonely inside**

**So busy out there**

**And all you wanted**

**was somebody who cares**

**Michelle Branch: All You Wanted**

Lily ran as fast as she could to the Room of Requirement. *“I need to find James… I need to
find James… I need to find James…”* A polished golden handle appeared. She grabbed it and
wrenched it open. She gasped at the sight of an unconscious James with his arm covered in blood and
a bloody pocketknife in his other hand. She rushed to him.

“Oh James, don't, don't leave me. Not now!” She exclaimed. First aid supplies appeared
in the room. She grabbed them and cleaned his arm off. James's breathing stopped.

Lily gasped. She began something she had seen on muggle television commercials: CPR. She clamped
his nose shut and lowered her lips to his mouth, forcing air into his lungs. Once, twice, three
times. Then James violently coughed and opened his eyes. He vomited blood on the floor.

“Oh James, I thought I'd lost you forever. Are you okay?” Lily asked in a barely controlled
state of panic. “I was so stupid Lily, I've failed you, my parents, Sirius, everyone. I
don't deserve to live.” James said, still coughing up blood.

“ How do you figure that?”

“ I knew something was wrong, I knew it, and I didn't do anything about it! I killed my
parents, Lily, I KILLED THEM!!!” James lungs tore in the effort.

He looked around frantically for the knife. He saw it in Lily's hand. “Give to me.” Lily
shook her head. “GIVE IT TO ME!!!!!” Lily was afraid at the power James was showing, but she must
stand firm.

“James, no one blames you, I don't blame you; Sirius doesn't blame you. It wasn't
your fault. You didn't know.” Lily said and put the knife away. “ I'm so sorry Lily, I
can't do anything; I couldn't help my parents, I couldn't help Sirius with his family,
I couldn't protect anyone, and now Voldemort's gunna come after everyone that I care about,
including you.” James said holding back tears that were screaming to come.

James covered his face with his large hands. He would not cry, even if the effort killed him. “I
can't lose everyone I love, Lily. I just can't.” Lily was shocked by this open, raw display
of emotion he had shown the last few minutes. “You won't, James, I swear it.” James lifted his
from his face slightly, so he could look at Lily through the corner of his eye. “Promise?” he
asked, more helpless than a toddler who had a bad dream. “I promise, James.”

Lily opened her arms to him, and James fell into her, finally opening the floodgates that he had
held in for so long. They sat arm in arm in the Room of Requirement for what seemed like forever,
holding each other in grief, absorbed in their own thoughts.

Some ungodly time after midnight, they broke apart. “ We need to clean you up; you look like you
got ran over by the Knight Bus,” Lily said. She cleaned the blood off of his arm, and wrapped it
gingerly while James watched her in awe. “You're really good at that.” “Well, yes, I hope so,
as I want to be a healer,” Lily said.

“I… uhhh… kinda was wondering if youwannagotohogsmeadewithme.” James stuttered.

“I'll let you think about it for now, and I'll think about it too, okay? Give me a day
or two to think. And monitor your behavior. And your friend's. Let's go back to the common
room. Remus and Sirius and Peter are probably wondering where you are.” Lily said.

James frowned, he didn't want to face his friends, he didn't want to face Griffindor, he
didn't want to face Hogwarts, and he didn't want to face the world. He wanted to stay here,
where there was no outside world, no judgment, no fear. “*But that's not like a Griffindor,
is it? I have too face them, whether I like it or not.*

Almost as if reading his thoughts, Lily said,” Your parents wouldn't want you to hide; they
didn't, and you won't either. I'll be beside you the whole time, alright?” She added
softly.

As though resigned for the worst, he set his jaw and nodded his head determinedly. At that they
got up together, and walked from the room arm in arm, ready to once again face the world.

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ Time Warp$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

The week before the funeral was horrible. People skirted around James in the hallways, as though
he had a nasty disease. James neither noticed nor cared about this. He simply delved himself into
his schoolwork. The four marauders rarely laughed, and when they did, it was forced and
strained.

The day before the memorial, Sirius, Remus, James, and Lily got permission to go. Peter had to
go home to his sick grandmother instead. That night, the 7th year boys' dormitory
was hushed and subdued. Even when Sirius accidentally switched his nose onto a butterbeer bottle no
one said anything.

Sirius refused to Dumbledore to go. Instead, he would be going as Snuffles, The Potter's
“dog”. He couldn't handle going as a human; he couldn't handle the emotions. He felt
horrible for James, who couldn't go as Prongs.

Mr. and Mrs. Potter had their lives to live. True, they weren't young, but they had many
good years left. Then Voldemort had to come and kill them. All these deaths, all these lives, were
all because of Voldemort. He wondered how many people's lives would be sacrificed before this
madness ended…

“We have lost two very good aurors, and today, we know that their deaths will not be in vain. We
shall catch the ones who did this to the Potters. Thank you.” The Minister was not good at
speeches, and this was a record horrible one. Dumbledore stepped back up to the platform. “Now,
there is one other person who would like to speak.” He stepped down to make way for…Lily? Her face
was as red as her auburn hair, with tears in her eyes.

“I didn't know the Potters as well as some, but I did know them. They were unusually kind to
me, unlike many adults in the wizarding world. Most pureblood adults shunned me because of my
heritage, but the Potters looked past that. They saw what few purebloods saw: they saw a
person.

“The minister says that we lost two good aurors, but he's wrong. We didn't lose two good
aurors; we lost two great people. I wrote a poem that I think shall honor the Potter's.

“Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush.
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

I am the song that will never end.
I am the love of family and friend.
I am the child who has come to rest
In the arms of the father who knows him best.
When you see the sunset fair,
I am the scented evening air.

I am the joy of a task well done.
I am the glow of the setting sun.
 Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.”

She looked straight at James and said,” Let us not gather here to morn their deaths, but to
celebrate their lives. The Potters taught me to not dwell on horrid events, and forget to live, so
in their memory, I will do as they would want me to, and live on.” Tears were now streaming down
her face as she stepped down from the podium.

James could not think. Goodness, he loved that girl. He now felt that a huge weight had been
lifted off of him. Sirius nudged James's hand as he absentmindedly stroked the dog's
head.

Back in the Griffindor common room, only Lily and James remained. Everyone else had deserted the
common room hours ago. Lily sighed. “I don't know much of anything about you. How about we play
Truth or Truth, and later Remus and Sirius can join us for Dare or Dare. “Okay,” James said
enthusiastically. This opportunity was way too good to pass up, despite the recent events.

“I'll go first. James, what is your favorite color?” “Blue, duh. It goes with Sirius's
favorite color, pink.” James responded while Lilly looked disgusted at his friend's choice of
color.

“Lilly, how are you so brilliant?” Lilly laughed. “ I study, you great oaf,” She said and
play-slapped his arm.

“Why do you always ask me out?” James gaped at her, then slowly said,“ Because of your hair,
your smile, your personality, and your soul. It amazes me that you can be so beautiful, physically
and mentally.” These words floored Lilly. James smirked at her mouth that was hanging open.

“My turn. Why do you always turn me down?” James asked, still smirking at Lilly. “Ahhh, well,
erm… I used to think you were immature, arrogant prat who couldn't think of anyone else but
himself, and that I wouldn't date you if you were the last male on earth.” She said very
quickly, as if saying it all fast would lessen the words. She then bit her lip as a blush crept on
her face like a wildfire.

James's heart cracked at that moment, as did his voice. “ And now?” he asked in a voice not
his own.

“Now I think… that you have shown a different side of you to me. That James Potter is sensitive
and caring… and brave. It's that James Potter that Dumbledore made head boy, it's that
James Potter that helps Remus, and…” Lily hesitated. “What?” James quarried. Lily took a deep
breath, then slowly finished her statement. “It's that James Potter that I want to go out
with.”

“Re…Really?” James stuttered, and Lilly nodded, losing herself in his hazel eyes, while James
lost herself in her green ones. They intertwined fingers as they slowly leaned forward…

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4. Ch.4 The Reason
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Bittersweet

Ch.4- The Reason

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You

Hoobastank- The Reason

The 7th year girl's dormitories were in an uproar the next morning. Lily Evans,
Raven Monghi, Alice Justus, Amy Fleming, and Maxine Lewis were all talking about last night's
events. Lily sat back and let the other girls talk about their nights first. *“I'll save the
best for last,”* Lily thought.

“Ben Stillman broke up with me last night. But I don't really like him that much. We're
better as friends.” Amy Fleming said, “I like Ty Sanders, though.” “You sure do like those
Ravenclaws, don't you Amy?” Alice teased. “Oh sure, like your any better, liking Frank
Longbottom.” Amy retorted. “Frank's in Griffindor, Amy, you know that.” Alice said. “No
he's not, he's in the library.” Amy told her, as the best friends laughed together.

Maxine said, ”Lily you didn't say what you did last night. I noticed that you didn't get
back until waaay after curfew.” “Well, ummm… last night I, uhhh…” Lily said. “Well, well, well,
Lily Evans at a loss for words. I never thought I'd see the day.” Lily's best friend,
Raven, said.

“Fine,” Lily spat, ”I'll tell you, but only once.” Lily talked very fast, but the girls
caught every word. “Last night James and I agreed that we know nothing about each other, so we
played Truth or Truth. By the way, Max, Sirius's favorite color is pink. Anyway, we were on the
couch in front of the fire and… and I think I went mad.” Lily said with a look of disgust directed
at herself. “There was no logic, and that scares me…” “Lily, there is no logic in love, because
your heart doesn't think.” Max said. “Wait a second, DID YOU KISS?!?!” Raven asked, a little
slow on the uptake. Slowly, Lily nodded. The dormitory was filled with squeals. To any outsider, it
seemed as though 100 mice had all been decapitated at the same time.

“Oh my gosh! This is sooo awesome.” Amy said, her girly side taking over. “So, did you French?”
“Ewww, no. For this to work, James had better keep his tongue to himself… for awhile.” Lily
replied. “Oh, `for awhile', huh Lily? Seems like your slipping up on your
self-righteous-yet-hate-James-Potter-with-a-vengeance plan.” Max teased. “Oh, hush Max. Raven, you
seem a bit quiet about all this. Did you and Remus do something naughty last night, too?” Lily
asked as Raven's face went brick red.

“Kissing isn't naughty, at least the normal type, and you know Remus- he isn't like
that.” Raven said, her face reddening with each passing second, with a look on her face like a
cornered animal. “Okay, out with it. Talk to me! It looks like I wasn't the only one to have
fun last night, Raven.” Lily said, grinning wildly. “Fine! I'll tell you.” Raven said, ”Well,
last night we doing our rounds at the astronomy tower….”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*“Alright toe-rags, get to bed, your* *own* *beds, if you don't mind. If I catch
any of you in a broom closet, I'll make sure that a certain Severus Snape takes advantage of
your swollen lips. I hear he's swinging at* *both* *ends of the fence now.” Remus
said, sounding very bored. The couples left, glaring at Remus. Raven giggled at Remus's joke,
“That sounds like something Black would say.” “It* **is** *something he would say, but he
couldn't think of something like that all by himself. You don't give me enough credit.”
Remus said smirking. “No, I don't, do I? I do like you better then your friends though, a lot
better.”*

*Remus then acted on pure impulse, and leaned forward, pulling Raven into a gentle, chivalric
kiss. Raven's arms went around his neck, pulling him closer. Remus then realized what he was
doing, and hastily pulled away. “I'm sorry. I have to go.” Remus said, with a longing,
sorrowful look on his face as he fled from the astronomy tower…*

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Hey, Prongs, can I talk to you? Padfoot too?” Remus asked, looking uncomfortable. “Sure,” James
replied, “Frankie, Wormtail, if you please.” Frank Longbottom and Peter Petigrew left the
dormitory. “So what is it Moony?” James asked, with a serious look on his face. “Well, I err… umm,
last night Raven and I kinda… uhhh…” Remus stuttered. “Did you snog?” Sirius asked with a wolfish
grin on his face. Slowly, Remus blushed and nodded, looking much like
Raven-the-cornered-bunny-caught-by-the-fox. “YEE-HAH! WHOOP- WHOOP DING-DING!!” Sirius yelled.
James looked at his friend with concern. “What did you say, Padfoot?” “Oh, well I have decided to
quit being a slimy brit and become a hilly-billy.” Sirius replied with an insane smile. “Okaay,
Padfoot had his head cracked last night.” James said.

“So Moony, what's the problem? You snogged, nothing wrong with… Oh no, Moony, you ran
didn't you?” James asked as realization dawned on him. Remus , shamefaced, nodded, his head
hanging, refusing to meet his friend's eyes. Sirius then regained his small amount of brain,
and said, “Moony, we told you, it's not your fault about what you are; It's who you are
that counts.” “Padfoot, she doesn't know. This is turning into a serious relationship. It's
not just 'let's have butterbeers at Hogsmeade' anymore. We're kissing. She has the
right to know what I am.” Remus replied warily.

“Moony, snap out of it. If you want to tell her, you have my blessing. But don't think it
will change a thing. Raven is sensible, she won't care. She might not know what you are, but
she knows who you are, and she'll remember that in the end. But I forbid you to push everyone
away from you. You deserve love, you really do; you just need to accept it.” James said to Remus,
clapping his shoulder as he walked out of the dormitory.


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**A/N: Hey, people. Thanks for reading my story. Please review, I don't care how long or
short it is. Also, some people say that this story is too fast paced, so I'll warn you now that
this is a fast paced fic, cause there is a lot of information in it. Also, I promise that there is
humor on the way. Oh, yeah, there are some people who don't like James cutting himself. I know
that self- mutilation bothers some people, but there is some significance to it in later chapters.
Sorry this batch of chapters took so long, ch.4 was lost in a power outage, so I had to rewrite it.
Thanks again for reading!**

**~Marauding-Moonbabe**

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5. Ch.5 You and Me
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**Bittersweet**

**Ch.6-You and Me**

What day is it

And in what month

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people

Nothing to do, nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people and

I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you


All of the things that I want to say


Just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people

With nothing to do, nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people and


I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you


~Lifehouse- You and Me


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Remus took a deep breath. He had never told anyone his secret. James, Sirius, Peter, and Lily
had figured it out. He didn't know what to say. *“Hi, remember me? I'm the one who kissed
you in the astronomy tower last night. Guess what? Once a month I turn into a bloodthirsty monster
that would very much like to rip you to pieces! You guessed right, I'm a werewolf! Ding, ding,
ding that is correct as usual Queen Saturday! So, would you like to continue where we left off last
night?”* Remus thought bitterly. Still, he reminded himself, Raven had a right to know. He then
set his jaw and walked down to the common room.

When he walked down, the red and gold common room was surprisingly empty. It smelled slightly of
dungbombs. Remus then saw his girlfriend. Oh how he loved her. Yes, he had decided it was love,
puppy love or not, he loved her. Her black hair fell to the middle of her back in soft ringlets.
Today it was in French pigtails, with the excess corkscrewing down her back. Her dark blue eyes
were lined with worry. “Remus, James said you needed to talk to me. What's wrong? Did I do
something…” Remus sighed. He was so grateful for his friends arranging **the** talk with his
girlfriend. It was just so hard to tell Raven about what he was.

Raven, I… we need to talk. You might want to sit down.” Remus said. “Oh my gosh. Are you
breaking up with me?” Raven asked the stereotypical question. “No, but you might want to break up
with me after we talk. Please sit down.” Raven sat on the couch, expecting Remus to sit beside her,
but Remus sat in the overstuffed armchair across from her instead. As confusion was written across
Raven's face, Remus thought, “*She won't be so disappointed after I tell her who- what I
am.*”

“Raven, last night, well, I have no regrets for myself, but you might. I'm sorry. I had no
right to…” “Remus I don't regret kissing you last night. I loved it. Why are you acting so
odd?” Raven cut across him. “Well, Raven, I need to tell you, you have a right to know. Raven,
I'm a, I'm a…” Remus lost all confidence. “You're a what, Remus?” “Ah, nothing, Raven
nothing.” “It's not nothing, Remus, it's not. I've not seen Sirius so sober since he
was accidentally turned into a sloth in Transfiguration. Tell me truth, you told me I deserved it.”
Raven said, holding back tears. She couldn't stand to see Remus so helpless.

Before Remus could lose his nerve a second time, he blurted, “Raven, when I was six, I was
outside taking care of my dog, Snuffles. A great brown dog tried to attack him. I was only six, but
I loved Snuffles, and I didn't want him to get hurt. I tried to stop the dog, but he bit my
back, then everything else. Just before I blacked out, the dog killed Snuffles. Snuffles died
standing over me, died protecting me. He did a good job, the brown dog went away, but the damage
was done. I woke up in Saint Mungo's a week later. That wasn't any dog, it was a werewolf.
I'm a werewolf, Raven.”

Raven got up and walked over to where Remus was now standing. She slapped him hard across the
face. Remus did not try to defend himself. He felt he deserved it. “That's for thinking I was
shallow enough to care about that,” Raven spat. Then she did something totally unexpected. She
waved her wand over his face to relieve the pain from the slap, and hugged him, saying, “And
that's for the pain.”

It was the best hug that Remus had since before he was six years old. His parents tried to help
Remus, but they were wary of him all the same. The hug was full of something that Remus thought he
didn't deserve- love. “Oh, Remus, you thought that what you are once a month would make me
forget who you were every other day? You still had the courage to come to me and tell me?
Dumbledore was right when he said that now was the time to chose between what was right and what
was easy. You are so sweet, and brave. Thank you for telling me the truth.”

“But Raven, you don't understand, I can hurt, mutate, kill once a month.” Remus protested,
but Raven put a finger to his lips. “But against your will. Now, where did we leave off last
night?” Remus smiled to himself at these words. He then did what he had wanted to do for so long-
show his love to Raven by giving her the gentlest kiss on the face of the Earth. She wrapped her
arms around his neck, and he laid his arms around her waist gently. His mind resembled a scrambled
egg as Raven kissed him again. They then laid their foreheads together, smiling at each other in
blissful happiness.


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The Great Hall was full of the chatter of teenagers. People in there talked about everything
from apricots to Zelda. Yes, Sirius Black was a fan of Zelda. His favorite t-shirt was from a
muggle shop that said, “Don't make me go Zelda on you!” with a little green dude under the
writing. Sirius was just explaining the principles of video games to James when the Great Hall
doors burst open. The Great Hall fell silent. You would have heard a fly dropping dead in shock of
the scene before it. In fact, a fly did drop dead when it saw the scene before its eyes. The fly
saw hundreds of little house elves rallying under a banner with the Zelda logo on it wearing green
tea cozy hats with green towels. All non-delusional people (and flies) in the Great Hall, they saw
an even more spectacular scene than hundreds of house-elf Zelda's running amok.

The Slytherin table had everyone's mouth open in shock and disgust. The Hufflepuff table
huffed and puffed and blew the table down. The Ravenclaw table exchanged knowing looks, like the
smart-alecs they were. The Griffindor table smiled. The Head table started exchanging money. Remus
Lupin and Raven Monghi walked into the Great Hall, oblivious to the behavior of everyone eating
breakfast. They were talking pleasantly, arm in arm, laughing at heaven knows what. This was a
shock different from the usual Remus, walking in with the Marauders, not saying a thing. It was a
shock to see the pair so… happy was an extreme understatement.

The Great Hall suddenly broke out of its reverie. People were crossing the Great Hall swap
galleons, sickles, and knuts. Many bets were on Raven and Remus, when they would stop the
11-year-old version of dating and join the big kids, but many more were on Lily and James. The
appearance of Remus and Raven had made all heads snap to the Griffindor table, only to see Lily and
James arm in arm, whispering in each other's ear, gently kissing each other on the cheek.

The madness of Dumbledore prevailed, and he stood up. “ Minerva, I believe that you awe me 27
galleons, 7 sickles, and 18 knuts for Miss. Evans and Mr. Potter, and 15 galleons, 2 sickles, and 6
knuts for Mrs. Monghi and Mr. Lupin. In turn, McGonagall turned to Slughorn and said, “Horace, I
believe that you owe me the same amount, times 1.5.” Slughorn turned to Severus Snape and said, “
Cough it up, kid.”

The Griffindor table had their own pot going. Surprisingly enough, Maxine won the pot for Raven
and Remus, and Sirius won the pot for James and Lily. They both agreed to go to Hogsmeade together
so they could have the ultimate splurge shopping spree.


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The next few weeks passed by in blissful happiness . Lily and James did Head rounds hand in
hand. Lily was still surprised at this new James Potter. He had never once done more than kiss the
top of her head or cheek since that fateful night. They would talk about many things, from the
latest Sirius Black craze (who apparently saw the same thing as that poor fly), to James's
parents. Remus and Raven fared the same way, though they were a bit shyer, as they were not used to
the public spotlight. Both dormitories were in a considerably lighter mood. Alas, James, super
prankster, did remember Lily saying she would play Dare or Dare, and he fully intended to show her
the depth of his love...

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**A/N: So this is chapter six. What devilish things can come from a Dare or Dare contest? You
will see, just put on your laughing caps, for I have many things in store for you! But for you smut
lovers, sorry, I won't do that. Sorry. ~Cringes behind Zelda house-elfs~ Anyway, to anyone who
reads this, I want to get an idea of how many people read this, so I don't care if your review
is: La la la, I love strawberries and cream and watermelons, la la la. Please just review. So
please, everyone who reads this, please review. Thank you so much.**

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6. Dare or Dare
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**Bittersweet**

Ch.7 Dare or Dare

**A/N: The songs in this chapter are by the following artists: Kelly Clarkson, Maroon 5, Train,
Avril Lavinge, Joy Williams, and The Click Five.**

“Dare or dare?” Lilly asked Amy Fleming. “Why do you ask that? Dare.” “Go ask Ty out on a date.”
“Okay.” Amy got up and walked out of the Portrait Hole. “She’ll be gone for at least three hours.
She loves a good broom closet more than Teen Witch. James, you go next.” James smirked at Lily.
They had a plan to play matchmaker. “Frank, you and Alice have to go to the 3rd floor
broom closet and stay there, together, for two hours. Take a watch, and I put a charm on you to
prevent you from coming out early or not going there.” Alice’s mouth opened and closed several time
so that she looked like a fish out of water. Frank looked nervous, but the set his jaw and firmly
nodded. He helped Alice up, walking far apart as the Portrait Hole was allowed. Both Gryffindors
had liked each other for over 2 years now, but both were too shy to admit it.

Sirius looked at Peter with a malicious grin on his face. “Peter, you have to go to the
Hufflepuff common room and disrobe in this order: underwear, undershirt, shirt, pants, and robes.
Keep your tie on at all times, but never touch it. While doing this, you must yell, ’I am a gay
pigmy puff!’ at the top of your lungs. If someone talks to you, yell even louder, ‘Life is like a
watermelon when you are a gay pigmy puff!’ Then you can streak for three hours; I know you like
to.” Peter had a wide, tooth-splitting grin on his face as he literally skipped away to the
Hufflepuff common room. Everyone laughed.

The Dare or Dare circle now consisted of only six people: Sirius, Max, Remus, Raven, James, and
Lily. James stood up. “Now that all of the insignificant people,” Lily slapped him, but James
continued, “are gone, we can commence with the real Dare or Dare contest. We are now officially
starting the Gryffindor Karaoke Cook-off! We all have five minutes to invent a song to sing for our
partners. The pairings are: Sirius and Max, Raven and Remus, and Lily and I. Ready? Set? Go!” The
other 5 people in the common room stared at James like he had turned into a mongoose, which he may
have, and then set to work on their songs. Five minutes later, James stood up again. “Now that we
have finished our songs, we have 20 minutes to change into proper clothing for our singing début in
the Gryffindor Karaoke Cook-off!”

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“Hey, Moony, what are you wearing?” Sirius asked, while rummaging in his trunk for only heaven
knows what. “I dunno, it doesn’t really matter, does it?” Remus sighed, while looking at his dismal
wardrobe. “ Doesn’t matter? Of course it matters! You can take what you want from my trunk, I don’t
care. Should I wear hot or baby pink?” “Hot pink, it’s much more masculine. Here Moony, wear this
shirt with Padfoot’s black jeans. James tossed a hunter green shirt to his friend while putting on
a tight black T-shirt with stonewashed jeans. Sirius pulled on his favorite pair of Turkish leather
pants. “Let’s roll.”

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After the makeup was properly in place, the girl’s set about putting on proper clothes. In the
end, Max was wearing hunter green pants, a black studded belt, and a gray tank top that said, “I
don’t suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it.” Raven wore black pants with a blue shirt
that said,” Everyone needs to believe in something. I believe in chocolate.” Lily wore hunter green
pants, an orange army belt, and an almost transparent orange shirt that said, “I don't suffer
from stress. I am a carrier.” The three girls quickly went downstairs to meet… Sirius Black
throwing paper airplanes?!

“Hiya, people!” Sirius Black yodeled. He had on Turkish leather pants 2 sizes too small, and a
blinding hot pink shirt that said, “Chaos, panic, and disorder- my work is done here.” James was
wearing stylish stonewashed and slightly frayed pants and a tight black shirt. Remus had similar
attire, only with black pants and a green shirt. Lily hated to admit, but they all had good fashion
sense, except Sirius. “Let’s get this Cook-off started!” James yelled, jumping over the back of an
innocent, unsuspecting couch. “Max, you go first, you look brave and insane tonight.”

Max stood up, grateful that Sirius had dropped Dungbombs and put a charm on the portrait hole so
that the common room would stay empty for hours to come. “Ok, ahhh, my song for Sirius is called
um… ‘Who Knows’.” Nervous at first, she started her song.

*Why do you look so familiar*

*I could swear that I have seen your face before*

*I think I like that you seem sincere*

*I think I'd like to get to know you*

*A little bit more*

Sirius smiled at Max, who in turn felt warmth crawl up her from her toes to her head. She began
to smile, and her voice became stronger as she entered the chorus.

*I think there's something more*

*Life's worth living for*

*Who knows what could happen*

Do what you do

*Just keep on laughing*

*One thing's true*

*There's always a brand new day*

I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

*How do you always have an opinion*

How do you always find

*The best way to compromise*

*We don't need to have a reason*

We don't need anything

*We're just wasting time*

She smiled at Sirius as she repeated the chorus, and thought that maybe he wasn’t as insane as
she thought*. “Nope, he’s still crazy, but hot crazy.”* As she watched him shift and pick at
his leather pants, which accidentally on purpose gave her a good view of his butt. Lily slapped him
for being... himself.

*Find yourself*

*'Cause I can't find you*

*Be yourself*

*Who are you?*

*Find yourself*

*'Cause I can't find you*

*Be yourself*

*Who are you?*

This time, she danced and shook her head to the chorus, encouraging Sirius to do the same.
Sirius took advantage of the situation to show off his leather pants, wagging his rear in
people's faces, which earned him several more slaps on the arm. He would have to get it
de-reddened later.

So you go and make it happen

*Do your best*

*Just keep on laughing*

*I'm telling you*

There's always a brand new day

Everyone clapped at Max’s brave, insane performance worthy of Sirius. The Marauders actually
yelled ‘Kazaa’ while jumping in the air. Then Sirius took a deep, exaggerated breath (the Turkish
pants were restricting his airway) and stepped up to the “platform”, which was actually a rug in
front of the fire. Sirius was flattered by Max’s performance. He rethought that statement.
*Sirius Black does not get flattered. I do the flattering. I'm flattering-ly hot. I think I’m
hooked. Oh please, sweet Merlin, have mercy, I can’t be hung up on a girl. I’ll never live this
down. Maybe I should go back to those people that I shared horrid childhood memories and a last
name with right now while I’m in this alternate universe.* Forcing himself out of his thoughts,
he began his intro. “My song is called ‘She Will be Loved’.”

*Beauty queen of only seventeen*

*She had some trouble with herself*

*He was always there to help her*

*She always belonged to someone else*

*I drove for miles and miles*

*And wound up at your door*

*I’ve had you so many times but somehow*

I want more

Sirius plunged into the chorus, but found himself unable to look into Max’s blue eyes. Oh,
Goodness, I'm SHY! Oh no, Oh no, Oh no.

*I don’t mind spending everyday*

*Out on your corner in the pouring rain*

*Look for the girl with the broken smile*

*Ask her if she wants to stay awhile*

*And she will be loved*

*She will be loved*

*Tap on my window knock on my door*

*I want to make you feel beautiful*

*I know I tend to get insecure*

*It doesn’t matter anymore*

Sirius now thought to warn Max that there was a promise he could not keep in the midst of war.
He had no idea what he was singing, as he couldn't invent a song if his life depended on it,
but he just sang his thoughts. Not all of them, as that would be gross, but the ones in a
controlled environment.

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies

*It’s compromise that moves us along*

*My heart is full and my door’s always open*

*You can come anytime you want*

*I don’t mind spending everyday*

*Out on your corner in the pouring rain*

*Look for the girl with the broken smile*

*Ask her if she wants to stay awhile*

*And she will be loved*

*She will be loved*

As he repeated the chorus he realized that he had a feeling that he had never had before. It was
like longing, but not. It was like what he felt for the Marauders, but different. It wasn’t like
what he felt for other girls; he wanted to make her laugh when she was happy, and hold her when she
was sad. He was utterly clueless as to what the feeling was. He would ask James about it later. “Ok
Lily, your turn.”

Lily would not hold for being nervous, she would not hold for shame. She stepped up to the uhhh…
rug, and announced, “My song to James is called ‘You Found Me’, and Sirius, I forbid you to make
anything perverted about it.” He smirked. She started in her naturally alto voice.

*Is this a dream*

*If it is*

*Please don't wake me from this high*

*I'd become comfortably numb `*

*Until you opened up my eyes*

*To what it's like*

*When everything's right*

*I can't believe*

She started the chorus with eyes bubbling with happiness, having no sight other than James, with
his rack of black... hay. Sirius had the same idea about his friend's hair. *It does look
like hay. So his head could be properly called a hayrack. Sweet.* Back to the Lily and
non-insane idiots...

*You found me*

*When no one else was looking*

*How did you know just where I would be*

*Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion*

*The ups and the downs*

*And you still didn't leave*

*I guess that you saw what nobody could see*

*You found me*

*You found me*

*So here we are*

*And that's pretty far*

*When you think of where we've been*

*No going back, I'm fading out*

*All that has faded me within*

*You're by my side*

*Now everything's fine*

*I can't believe*

Lily repeated the chorus, and spread her feet wider to give her more support, for all she wanted
to do was melt into those hazel eyes she saw. She would melt to the floor like a chocolate palace
on a hot, desert day. I'm melting... Petunia actually tried to melt her once. It didn't
work very well, as Petunia is allergic to boiled water. That day her name was Bonzo.

*And I was hiding*

*Till you came along*

*And showed me where I belong*

*You found me*

*When no one else was looking*

*How did you know, how did you know*

*You found me*

*When no one else was looking*

*How did you know just where I would be*

*Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion*

*The ups and the downs*

*And you still didn't leave*

*I guess that you saw what nobody could see*

You found me As she finished, she hugged James before she sat down and he got up to sing. She
was excited to see what he would sing about. “This is a song I wrote about 2 years ago, before Lily
blessed me with her oh-so-holy presence.” James smirked as Lily swatted at him. ”You better believe
it!” she commented before he began to sing in his sweet, tenor voice.

*She's cold and she's cruel*

*But she knows what she's doin'*

*She pushed me in the pond*

*At our last meeting*

*She laughs at my dreams*

*But I dream about her laughter*

*Strange as it seems*

She's the one I'm after

*Cause she's bittersweet*

*She knocks me off of my feet*

*And I can't help myself*

*I don't want anyone else*

*She's a mystery*

*She's too much for me*

*But I keep comin' back for more*

*She's just the girl I'm lookin' for*

James remembered all the times he had been literally knocked off of his feet, either by a spell
or a physical blow from Lily. *Good days, but not as good as these surrounded by my friends... I
wish they could last forever.*

*She can't bite back a retort*

*For more than a second*

*She runs on 100 Marauder-proof power*

*And the more she ignores me*

*The more I adore her*

*What can I do?*

I'd do anything for her

*Lily really is Marauder-proof.* James thought as he repeated the chorus. He remembered
when he actually tracked Lily and got her muggle phone number. He even bought a cell phone just to
call her. He was blocked quite quickly with his attempts. He then finished off his song with a
bang.

*The way she sees it's me*

*On her caller ID*

*She won't pick up the phone*

*She'd rather be alone*

*But I can't give up just yet*

*Cause every word she's ever said*

*Is still ringin' in my head*

*Still ringin' in my head*

*She's cold and she's cruel*

*But she knows what she's doin'*

*Knows just what to say*

*So my whole day is ruined*

*Cause she's bittersweet*

*She knocks me off of my feet*

*And I can't help myself*

*I don't want anyone else*

*She's a mystery*

*She's too much for me*

*But I keep comin' back for more*

*Cause she's just the girl I'm lookin' for*

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

Lily was shocked yet pleased at this honest, very honest song. She was surprised at the boldness
James had to sing her this after he came up with it for her two years ago. As James sat down, she
scooted onto his lap. As Remus stepped up, she had a feeling that the best couple of songs would be
saved for last. Remus cleared his throat nervously, then said, “Raven, I dedicate this song to you.
I mean every word of it. It’s named ‘Drops of Jupiter’. I hope you like it, cause I think it’s
okay.”

*Now that she’s back in the atmosphere*

With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey

*She acts like summer and walks like rain*

*Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey*

*Since the return from her stay on the moon*

*She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey*

*Tell me did you sail across the sun*

*Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded*

*And that heaven is overrated*

*Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star*

*One without a permanent scar*

And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Remus took a deep breath. He had put special emphasis on the stanzas “fall for a shooting star,
one without a permanent scar” and “listens like spring and she talks like June”. He continued
on.

*Now that she’s back from that soul vacation*

*Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey*

*She checks out Mozart while she does tae-boo*

*Reminds me that there’s time to grow, hey, hey*

*Now that she’s back in the atmosphere*

*I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol’ Jane*

*Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land*

*Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet*

*Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day*

*And head back to the Milky Way*

*And tell me, did Venus blow your mind*

*Was it everything you wanted to find*

And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there Remus now thought that he
couldn’t breathe for looking at Raven. She was his oxygen. She smiled at him, giving him the
courage to finish the song that he believed in so fiercely.

*Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried pork-chops*

*Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you’re wrong*

*Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour floo*

*Conversation*

*The best butterbeer that you ever had . . . and me*

*Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet*

*Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day*

And head back toward the Milky Way

*Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star*

*One without a permanent scar*

*And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there*

“Oh, Remus, I’ve never been happier than when I’m with you. Ever.” She whispered in his ear, and
Remus smiled. “Well, I’m last, but definitely not least, so Remus, my song for you is called
‘Hide’. Come talk to me afterwards about the last couple of stanzas, okay?” Remus nodded, a bit
confused as Raven started to sing in a clear, strong voice.

*To anyone who hides behind a smile*

*To anyone who holds their pain inside*

*To anyone who thinks they're not good enough*

*To anyone who feels unworthy of love*

*To anyone who ever closed the door*

*Closed their eyes and locked themselves away, I say:*

*You don't have to hide*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

*You don't have to face this on your own*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

As Raven paused for a moment to breathe, Remus stared in shock. He expected good lyrics from
Raven since she was the second smartest witch in the school, behind Lily, but nothing of this
magnitude. It was like getting ran over by the Hogwart’s Express. Twice. After a bad
transformation. It was like that, but on the mind, not body.

*So come out, come out, come out wherever you are*

*To anyone who's tryin' to cover up their scars*

*To anyone who's ever made a big mistake*

*We've all been there, so don't be ashamed*

*Come out, come out and join the rest of us*

*You've been alone for way too long*

*And if you feel like no one understands*

*Come to the One with scars on His hands*

*'Cause He knows where you are, where you've been*

*His scars will heal you if you let Him*

Remus was confused. Who had scars on his hands? Was he an older werewolf? How could his scars
heal him? He knew where he had been? **No one** knows that. Not even the Marauders. This must be
the stanza Raven was talking about. He pushed it out of his mind as Raven began to sing again. She
was really good. He knew there was a choir, but she wasn’t in it, and yet, she was better than the
whole choir put together.

*You don't have to hide*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

*You don't have to face this on your own*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

*You don't have to hide*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

*You don't have to face this on your own*

*You don't have to hide anymore*

*You don't have to*

*You don't have to*

*You don't have to hide*

*You don't have to hide*

*You don't have to*

Raven finished as the five other teens gaped. Remus has his jaw dropped to the floor. She put
her finger under his chin and closed it, then gestured to a dark corner of the common room. They
needed to talk about another important relationship that Remus had.

**A/N: Okay, so that is chapter seven. It’s a lot shorter than it appears, because of the
lyrics, but it is still quite long. I’m working really hard on getting longer chapters. I guess you
found out about my other obsessions in this chapter. I love funny, but not offensive T-shirts, and
these songs have been itching to come out, and this is a lot easier than writing like fifteen
one-shots. So I know that I have bored you to tears with like six songs in one chapter, so I
promise that there will only be the regular one at the top in chapter eight. I’m sure you all
figured out what it was Sirius was feeling, but he’s a dumbbell, so he doesn’t know yet. I’m also
assuming you know what Raven’s most important stanzas are talking about, but Remus doesn’t, so some
of next chapter will be about that. Not all of it though, so don’t be warded away. I warn you
though, if you don’t review, I will put another 15 songs in every chapter. I know a LOT. You have
been warned. Nighty night.**