Chaotic Harmony

I'm waiting, yet again. I'm still debating if I should call this a bad thing or not. There's a feeling called guilt here, but I try to ignore it. I hate it, so I try to ignore it. Yet it never goes away. I'm waiting for a message. Can it possibly take any longer to get here? I really don't know.

Wait, what was that? I heard something. I hear it again. Yes, that's the message. I send one back. Back and forth. Back and forth. We finally agree on something, and I'm sure I have the time to do this.

I run outside and apparate away from here. When I focus back on my surroundings, I see her waiting for me. She's facing away from me, so I sneak up behind her to surprise her.

She jumps in surprise, then almost tackles me when she realizes who it is. At first, all I can see is a lot of black hair, but then she pulls back and looks at me. I can't help but think that I know her from somewhere else; her blue eyes look familiar, even though I can't place them. Damn, I wish I could just figure this out. Oh well. Now is not the time to focus on trivial things like this.

She kisses me, and I'm glad to return her kiss. We have time; I know exactly when I have to leave. Holding her in my arms, I apparate us both to her flat; that's the best place for us to be together. No one ever goes there, so we won't be caught.

"We can't do this forever, Harmony. Hermione is starting to get suspicious."

"I know we can't, Harry. But we should make the most of the time we have together."

She's right, yet again. Now I know why she seems so familiar to me; she's a lot like Hermione, which must be the reason I fell in love with her so quickly. But she doesn't match up to Hermione; no one does. That means this makes even less sense to me; I have no clue why I'm doing this, but I don't question it. This has been a great month, and if I relived it, I can't think of anything that I would do differently.

~*~

I know, as does Harry, that it's time that he has to leave. Yet, unlike Harry, I know the whole story behind this; I could answer all of his questions, but I know that I can't. I understand the theory of all this now; I can't do anything stupid. That's a rule for everything, but applies more than usual in this particular situation.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

I don't know if that's just what I did, or if he really does. I'm going to figure it out soon, though. He gets up to leave, and I follow him. He gets dressed and starts to walk out the door. I give him a kiss before he goes and say good-bye. This has to be one of the most confusing moments of my life. Is he really walking out of my life? I don't know how this will end.

I get home, and Harry's waiting for me. Wait a sec, is he? He has a look on his face I know right away. He seems slightly disoriented, and I know what that means: he's just apparated from somewhere. But how? We can't even get through the wards surrounding the house.

This is just too much. I have to figure out what's been going on this past month. I'm thankful for my job as an Unspeakable now. I slip past Harry into our room and grab a gold chain that was hanging off the edge of my desk. I run back out of our room and out of the house. I see a confused look on his face, but I don't have time to explain. I run outside, put the chain around my neck, then quickly come up with a plan.

~*~

What's gotten into Hermione? I've never seen her act like this before. I look outside trying to figure out what's going on, and that's when I get my first shock. She's facing away from the house, has something in her hand, and disappears.

"Hello, Harry."

~*~

I made my escape, and my plan is in action. There are a couple things I need to do; our relationship is falling apart, and I need to know why. The thing I need is a disguise; that's the most important part. I use a couple spells to change my appearance to what I've always wanted to look like.

I apparate to my old flat. I never sold it, but I don't really use it anymore. After a few spells, it's back to something somewhat normal.

I decide to get some sleep. I need it after all this.

Upon waking up the next morning, I was confused. Then the plan came back to me. I looked in a mirror; my appearance charms held overnight. They should be permanent until I deactivate them. I like my hair black; I'll probably have to make this change permanent.

I should find Harry; I need to figure out exactly what's been going on. Suddenly, another thing to add to the plan comes to my mind: since our relationship is falling apart, I should try and get what I can out of it.

Thank whatever higher power there is I know what I'm doing. I find Harry and cast a spell on him. It's just like a love potion, only it's a spell. This should work perfectly.

~*~

"Hermione? I thought you were just out there."

"Harry, there are some things that I need to tell you."

~*~

I walk up behind Harry. When he sees me, I can tell that my spell is working. We talk, and the spell definitely works. Then he asks me something.

"What's your name?"

I'm glad I prepared for this question. If I hadn't, this would be a problem.

"Harmony."

"That's a nice name."

I'm glad he thinks so.

Just then, something hits me. I realize exactly what happened. Now I need to reconsider the plan. I was the one who started this problem; now I have to fix it.

"Harry, there are some things that I need to tell you."

More like there are things I need to tell her. I start to open my mouth, but she holds her hand up.

"I know what you're going to say, but there are things that I need to explain. This last month in particular."

Shit, she knows. I get ready for the worst moment of my life. I threw everything away, and I realize it too late.

~*~

After Harry leaves, I try to figure out how to get out of this mess. I need to totally reconsider the plan; I caused this entire mess. I thought it was Harry, but for once, I was wrong. He doesn't know, won't know, and can't know for the next month. I need to figure out how to tell him this, though. He'll start to wonder if Harmony disappears and I need to make sure that he still loves me, and not Harmony. Now I wish I hadn't gotten myself in this mess to begin with.

This will be a great help for my job, but that doesn't mean much to me now. But seeing as my mind is all over the place right now, it comes to me. The only thing will be explaining the fact that I broke the law. That's unimportant, however. In the grand scheme of things, to me, all that matters is that Harry and I are back together again.

Now, how will all of this work out?

~*~

"Harry, I know what's been going on this last month."

My brain goes into panic mode. I try to explain myself, but Hermione holds up her hand.

"It was entirely my fault."

Now I'm confused. I don't know what the hell she's talking about. She closes her eyes in concentration, and suddenly she looks different. Suddenly, I'm even more confused. That black hair and those blue eyes look strangely familiar.

"What the-"

"I knew this would shock you."

"Harmony?"

~*~

Finally, I have the plan all worked out. I'm not going to lose Harry. At least, not if everything goes the way I planned it.

~*~

I decide that Harry needs one more hint before he knows exactly what I meant. I pull the gold chain from my neck and hand it to him. He examines it, and recognizes it.

"You had a Time Turner?"

"Yes, and that's how I caused all of this."

"You're confusing me."

"Harry, Harmony never existed. I'm Harmony."