First Love

Croyez

Rating: PG
Genres: Romance
Relationships: Harry & Hermione
Book: Harry & Hermione, Books 1 - 4
Published: 20/04/2009
Last Updated: 20/04/2009
Status: completed

“I—I don’t know how to say this. It’s…complicated, I suppose. You’re my friend. I shouldn’t feel this way.” Hermione reflects on the thin line between love and friendship.

Chapters

1. First Love

1. First Love

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these character’s, of course. They’re JK’s.

Author’s Note: This is a short snippet I wrote a long time ago. I found it while deleting old stuff from my computer, and thought I should put it up. It’s told from Hermione’s PoV.

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“Well, go on, spin it, Harry!”

Seamus’ encouragement seemed to be contagious. In a few moments, everyone was clapping and whooping, egging Harry on. I was the only girl that had remained silent. I was just watching him, nervous, wondering what would happen when the bottle landed on one of the other girls. It was stupid, I knew—it was just a kiss, after all—but I couldn’t help my urge to turn away until his turn was over.

Harry looked at me uncertainly, and I could tell he didn’t want to. I half-shrugged and gave him an imperceptible smile, hoping to come across as calm and indifferent to the whole situation.

Still uncertain, he looked at everyone else in the circle. Even Ron was cheering for him to spin. He sighed, and it was clear he wished to be somewhere else as he gave the bottle a spin.

Slowly, it began to come to a halt. I counted exactly eleven seconds until it stopped.

Then I felt a chill run down my spine.

The bottle was pointing straight at me.

I looked up in shock. Everyone stared for a moment, then burst out cheering and patting both Harry and I on the back, trying to get us to stand up. Harry and I, however, just stared at each other, eyes wide in shock. We both seemed to be asking each other for help, because we had no idea what we should do.

I don’t remember getting up. All I know was that in less than a few minutes everyone had Harry and I cornered at the broom cupboard they had conjured for the game. I looked at Harry, unable to conceal my nervousness anymore. What did this mean? I did fancy him, but we were just friends. It would be awkward for both of us, wouldn’t it?

Then he held my hand. He looked nervous as well, but he smiled reassuringly, as if sensing my thoughts and telling me that it would be fine, that I shouldn’t worry. I felt myself relax, if only just a bit, as we stepped into the broom cupboard.

The door shut behind us and I could hear everyone bursting out laughing as we were told we had five minutes.

“Err…”

I looked at him.

“I—weird, isn’t it? You and me…here,” he whispered quietly.

I nodded, “We don’t…have to do anything, you know. This game is stupid.”

He was silent. I couldn’t see him in the dark, so I didn’t know what expression he wore. I couldn’t even make out his outline, which I confess made me feel a bit insecure—not because I was in the dark with a boy (this was Harry), but because I had no idea what he might be thinking.

“Well, I—I mean, it’s not that I wouldn’t want to kiss you,” I added softly, “It’s just that…well, you know. This is a sort of, forced kiss, and—”

“A real kiss is never like that,” he finished, “I know, don’t worry. I was just—thinking, about something else I might want to do.”

I frowned, and he continued speaking, as if sensing my confusion, “There’s something I’ve kind of been wanting to say for a while. I—I don’t know if you’ll…it’s just, a good moment, I think, since we’re alone and no one will interrupt us,” he paused, and I heard him taking a breath as his hands fumbled in the dark. I was pleasantly surprised by the warmth of his hands on mine as he began to talk again, “I—I don’t know how to say this. It’s…complicated, I suppose. You’re my friend. I shouldn’t feel this way.”

He sighed, “But I do,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper, “What I mean is…I really don’t mind that I’m in here with you. I-In fact, I don’t think I wanted to get locked in a broom closet with anyone but you, Hermione.”

I laughed softly, my heart beating frantically as I looked at the place where my fingers were intertwined with his. I couldn’t see anything, but I could feel the warmth and the nervousness that radiated off both our bodies as our hands came into contact.

“Ron and everyone thinks I like Ginny, but…honestly? S-she doesn’t really…I mean…she’s just…”

His voice trailed away before he gulped and said.

“She’s just not you.”

I licked my lips, trying to think of something to say.

“Harry, I—“

The door of the broom cupboard swung open, revealing the faces of all our classmates as they peeked inside to check on us. Upon finding that we were only holding hands, they didn’t seem surprised. I even heard a few of the girls laugh dismissively, as if they had already figured we wouldn’t do anything. Ron looked at us and smiled, shaking his head, before waving us back to the circle.

I looked at Harry. He was still holding my hand, staring up at me. I couldn’t help the blush that crept to my cheeks as I was met with his sincere gaze. I smiled, glancing at the floor before meeting his eyes again. Resolved, I leant forward and kissed his cheek, ever so softly. When I pulled back, he looked rather pink as well. I smiled.