Disclaimer - I do not own HP & co though there are moments when I wished I had…
Boring Authors Note - please read, for it will give some insight of what this story is about. If you want to jump straight to reading, just scroll a few rows down.
This story is a response to a challenge issued by Zaxxon on portkey. This is what the challenge says (copy/paste):
Challenge Name: Dark!Hermione (or Slytherin!Hermione)
Required elements:
Hermione is sorted into Slytherin
One or more parent was killed by Death Eaters/Dark Wizards in front of Hermione, Hermione vowing revenge
Hermione was picked on and bullied in muggle school, desiring power to prevent and stop being bullied/picked on
Hermione wishes to have the power and revenge (ambition)
Hermione is not related to Draco or such. Still a mugleborn witch, but hides that fact
Hermione can see/feel the magical energy-level/power of a person
Hermione wants the powerful (and famous) Harry Potter as an ally (and in time more)
Harry should be as in canon
This being R/NC17, Dark!Hermione should try to corrupt Harry into becoming her Dark King to rule by her side.
Optional elements:
Hermione can bully others and be highly manipulative
Many can feel that since Hermione and Ron Weasley are complete opposites that they should be together, but opposite annihilate each other, and we know better
Draco could be Dark!Hermione's punching bag/whipping boy.
Well, that's the challenge. I do not know if it has been done or not, but if it had, could someone please send me a link to the story? I would be interested to read it.
The story is told from a first person perspective, Hermione's POV. The rating of this story is R but later will have NC17 chapters. There are no HBP spoilers in here.
Warning - if you love Ron, and especially Ginny, then you may not like this… sorry about that.
One more thing - Hermione in this story is, at this point, a very, very cynical person who doesn't held humanity in too much regard.
This chapter wouldn't be here if it weren't for HeidiHo. Without her work and encouragement this may not have been posted. Live well! Cheers!
Chapter One - One Last Time
Oh, Merlin! What was McGonagall thinking when she gave me the Head Girl badge? Better yet, what was in my head when I sent her the owl telling her I accept? Hmm…. I believe it had something to do with having a huge room all by myself - no pasty roommates, no more endless gibberish about the boys sexual endowments and whatnot. Sanctuary is what I saw written all over the room. And it blinded me.
And now I have to cope with this?! For crying out loud! I look upon the faces of the prefects as they enter the heads compartment and I shudder inside. Some are proud, wearing their badges like the tiny bit of metal is God's gift to them. Others are shy, especially the younger ones; they enter cautiously taking in their surroundings, trying not to step in the way of the older prefects. From arrogance to pride, from weariness to acute curiosity, from depression and sorrow to blissful happiness, they wear their emotions like an open book for everyone to see. Stupid if you ask me, but then again, nobody does…
I wonder what they see when they gaze upon my face. It's amusing in a grim sort of way to see the various ways in which they twist their countenances when their eyes land on me. I have yet to see someone, apart from two slytherins, who doesn't make do a double take when he or she spots me. After the initial shock they all turn to the nearest fellow prefect and, pointing discreetly - in their opinion, that is - ask in a barely audible whisper the same question: "What is she doing here?!" Of course, all this is done in the subtlest way possible, as not to alert me. Pathetic, really. I do not know, perhaps I should be flattered by all the attention I'm getting. For someone as plain looking as me, who apparently doesn't give a damn about the opinions and intentions of those around her, I surely get a lot of attention. I wonder why?
Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that everybody who has ever bothered me for the past six years has met with an awful, unfortunate accident. I really don't know why are they blaming me for all of them. It's not that they aren't right - because they are! But they don't have any proof! The only thing that connects those… hmm… incidents is that all the people involved had at one point or another crossed my path. Perhaps they tried to pull a prank on me or maybe they mocked me about something. Maybe they just spread dreadful rumors about me - the imagination of some people never ceases to amaze me - or bothered me intentionally. They all paid in one way or another. By the end of the fifth year, almost nobody would voluntarily come to speak with me. Last year it was kind of amusing to walk the corridors of Hogwarts and witness all discussions stop abruptly as I walked past various groups of people. They would all turn their backs on me and as soon as I had passed they would resume their previous activities.
I want to laugh aloud at the behavior of these prefects, but in order to maintain my mask I abstain - it wouldn't do any good to ruin in a moment of neglect the image of a cold-hearted bitch that I had cultivated throughout the years. If they are suppose to be the best of what Hogwarts has to offer, then I pity the future of the wizarding world. They stay all huddled together like a flock of distressed crows in the front of the compartment. God forbid one of them to put a step in my section. They avoid me like plague. Chaff, lees would be very good words to describe this hodgepodge before my eyes. Nobody accused me yet of having some resemblance of respect for my fellow students.
While I ponder at the futility of this masquerade of a soon-to-be-meeting I see one of the prefects detaching himself from the group and coming straight toward me, puffing out his chest. What a loser. The boy's name is Justin. Justin Finch-Fletchley. He's a seventh-year Hufflepuff. Wasn't Gryffindor supposed to be the House of those brave and daring? And weren't Hufflepuffs supposed to be licensed cowards? Well, I guess I can now add plain stupid to the list of attributes for old Helga's house.
Justin and I are old pals. Why, just last year we had a sweet impromptu date in one of the corridors of Hogwarts. I was taking advantage of a free afternoon and I was enjoying myself by walking the corridors of Hogwarts. It may seem a weird way to kill time, but every time I would wander alone through the hallways of the old castle, a feeling of peace and contentment enveloped me, soothing my fears. I draw strength from my promenades. It's one of the things that keep me sane. As fate would have it, I had run into a group of Slytherin fourth years who had cornered some younger Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs and were trying to curse them. While I do not normally engage in open acts of hostility, when I saw this appalling scene I had to intervene. I know that my house is not renowned for extraordinary skill in wand use, but please! The way my housemates were casting, or, better said, trying to cast, their spells made the hair on the back of my head stand up. I had seen it as a perfect opportunity to educate. So I pulled out my wand and demonstrated the correct wrist movement required to obtain the perfect result. Just then dear Justin walked up on us. And he began to spill his guts about regulations and other nonsense. I just stared at him during his entire tirade. The point is that in the end, after having watched with mild interest how the Hufflepuff made a fool of himself, I was given a detention and ten house points were taken from Slytherin. Because my head of house had been indisposed at the time, I had taken detention with McGonagall - which turned out not to be a bad thing at all. And Justin didn't walk away empty handed from our third degree encounter. I don't believe he has forgiven me yet. It was hilarious when all his clothes simply disappeared when he walked down the middle of the Great Hall a week later during dinner.
And now he comes to me. Perhaps he sees this as an opportunity to pay me back. He must be feeling pretty good about himself. I can just imagine the glee he is expecting to feel when he throws me out of the compartment. For I had never been a prefect and who in their right mind would think that I am Head Girl? The badge is safely tucked in one of my pockets and there is no sign as to explain my presence here.
He stops in front of my seat. All the other prefects stop their activities to enjoy the show. An eerie silence descends upon the compartment. He reaches to grab my shoulder, no doubt to wake me from my apparent sleep. Why does everyone assume that a person with their eyes closed is sleeping? I'll never know. He reconsiders touching me and instead resorts to shouting to achieve his goal. Perhaps he's not as dumb as I thought. Nobody touches me intentionally without my permission and gets away with it. And considering I have never given my permission, this rule applies to pretty much everybody. The last person to try something like this found himself with his arm broken in three places.
"WAKE UP GRANGER!" he barks in front of my face. Oh, he's going to get it. Doesn't he know that this is not the correct way to approach a lady?
I casually open my eyes and fix my stare right in the middle of his forehead. I found out early in my life that it pisses people off immensely when I do that, especially when they are trying to speak with me. Justin is no exception.
"Stop that!" Like heck I will. He shakes his head in frustration and continues, annoyed. "Get up and get out of here! You don't belong here." His words affect me about as much as the dust from the bottom of my shoes.
"Congratulations, Granger! You have just earned a month of detention." He spits with bitterness just as the door opens and the golden trio of Hogwarts walks in - Potter and the two Weasleys.
Justin turns around to see who has walked in and I lower my eyelids, resuming the surveillance of the room through the slits.
"What are you doing here Harry?" he asks puzzled. Just like me Potter wasn't a prefect the previous years and he doesn't wear a badge.
"I'm Head Boy" he replies plainly, pulling out the insignia and sticking it to his chest. Well, that's a surprise…
"You are?! Then get her out of here! She freaks people out." Justin demands angrily pointing his finger at me. So, he doesn't love me after all. I'm hurt. I really am.
He looks at me and shrugs. "I'm afraid I can't do that, you see, she is the Head Girl."
By the nine pits of Hell! Horror and consternation! What in the name of the Founders…
"How can this be?"
"What was the Headmistress thinking?"
"I can't believe this!"
And so the racket begins in force. They just can't believe their delicate ears. Truthfully neither could I, at first. But the way they show their indignation in front of me is utterly disgusting. So I close my eyes for good and concentrate as hard as I can on blocking all the sounds from the compartment and willing myself to sleep. Witnessing immense displays of imbecility makes my skin crawl.
I do not care about the meeting. I do not care to hear their opinions. And I really do not want to say anything to them. I am sure that Potter will tell them all they need to hear - for he received the same letter with instructions from the Headmistress as I did.
As the prefects are all dragged into a very civilized debate - they should really consider getting some communication lessons from a bunch of baboons - I drift away. I don't know how long I have been asleep. I awake suddenly with a jolt, a muffled cry on my lips. A thin layer of perspiration as cold as ice covers my body from head to toe. I bolt to my feet, taking in my surrounding. As my breathing steadies I feel the blood returning to my face. Sweet Morgana, there are times when having a photographic memory can be a curse rather then a benediction.
Crap! I'm not alone. The Hogwarts' three are staring at me, bewildered expressions on their faces. The meeting must be finished, for there is no trace of anyone else in the compartment. And judging by the faint light that creeps in from outside, dusk is about to settle in.
"Bad dream?" the she-Weasley asks me. If it weren't for the curving of her lips in a shifty smile, I would fall for her concerned tone. Why the little bitch… Her comment promptly snaps me from my brood and my impassive mask quickly takes its proper place on my face. I straighten my back and walk directly to her. I stop a few feet from her and I lock eyes with her.
I let all the contempt I feel for the likes of her pour from me and into that empty pumpkin of hers. The stupid brat doesn't even flinch - she's returning my stare, innocently batting her eyelashes. I should have expected it - she is too idiotic to recognize my subtle attack. And going by the look on her brother's face, he is as inept as she is at figuring what is going on. The same thing can't be said about Potter though, for when I try to force my thoughts into her empty, under-evolved subconscious, he jumps in front of her.
"There's no need to do that." His voice is just like a steel sword wrapped in a velvety sheet. It is something that I can understand and relate to. He considers her to be his friend and is bound by loyalty to protect her. Bloody Gryffindors! You take on one and the whole damn pack jumps on you. This is only the second time since the beginning of my Hogwarts days that he has addressed me - if I had a journal I would dedicate an entire entry to this moment, but alas, I do not. I look at him and see something behind those green eyes of his that calls to me, demanding to be freed from its confines. I do not know what it is, for I have never seen anything like it before. It intrigues me. And I want to learn more about it.
The red-haired brother rising to his feet brings my inspection to an end. A curse on him and his entire family. Merlin knows what he said, for I was too busy fighting a staring match with The-Boy-Who-Lived. What a stupid nickname anyway - do those who use it imply that Potter is dead now? I may be intelligent, but I'll never understand some of the things people come up with.
I must be patient. There will be other times when I will have the opportunity to find out the answer to this puzzling mystery. So I turn my back on the Gryffindors and walk back to my seat without a word.
I don't manage to take two steps when I hear her voice.
"I'm not afraid of you!" - a delayed response. And a challenge none the less!
As Potter tries to calm her down - she must have felt her pride was wounded - I reach my seat. And here she comes in a huff, slipping through his arms. Some people just don't know when to quit, do they? She must be feeling very confident in her abilities. She was and still is a member of that secret Dumbledore's Army group that everyone knew existed for two years now. I bet she believes she can kick my arse half across the train without breaking a sweat. I don't blame her. There's nothing to say about somebody who has bran instead of brain.
As she impels her hands in her hips, I see Potter sigh in defeat. Clearly he doesn't hold her abilities in high regard. And here I was thinking that this journey was going to be a boring one…silly me. What she is blabbering on about I do not know, for I am more interested in the Hogsmeade station that is fast approaching. As long as her hands do not reach for her wand she is utterly harmless. And judging by what I see when I look at her, she may as well have a genuine mage staff in her hands for it wouldn't make too much of a difference. What was that? Is she challenging me to a wizarding duel? She must be out of her mind. What is her problem anyway? She's not worthy enough to fill my time worrying about her. But then again, this might be fun…
I am spared any more of her tirade by the powerful whistle of the locomotive, signaling arrival in the wizarding village.
I casually make my way out of the train without sparing a glance at those around me. I hear Hagrid sending his trademark call in the air, summoning the first years to him. Nothing has changed so far. I'm heading straight to the carriages. I stop and I look, fascinated by the harbingers of death. Thestrals - beautiful creatures they are. We have been old friends - they and I - since the start of my second year. I recognize some of them and I'm glad when Old Trisky flutters his wings in appreciation of my petting. I can't wait to take him flying and, guessing by his eagerness, he is as impatient for this as I am. Soon, my friend, soon.
I notice quite a lot of people are watching me strangely. What do they know? It's not every day you see somebody patting an invisible horsy. Ignoring their looks, as always, I climb into an empty carriage. I can bet my huge, non-existing fortune that no one else is going to travel with me willingly. My thoughts are proven correct when the coach starts to move, talking me to Hogwarts.
This is my last year here as a student. My feelings about this are more then a little confused, and as I approach the gates a shiver passes through me when I think what my life is going to be beyond the next summer. Oh well, what is going to come is going to come, and I'll deal with it when the time is right. Right now I have a feast to attend to.
The sorting is as boring as ever. I swear - that tattered hat is getting more senile with every season. McGonagall, as the new Headmistress of Hogwarts, holds a small memorial to her illustrious predecessor and we keep a moment of silence for the latest victims that had been felled in the war against Voldemort. She introduces the new Defense against the Dark Arts Teacher. This year it is a she - an auror that goes by the name of Tonks. I wonder how long she will last. Judging by the fact that she has spilled her drink and landed her elbow in her neighbor's plate in less then half a minute, I can guess that it won't be long before she's out of here. And there's one more new face - she appears to be a slightly younger copy of McGonagall. Yep, that she is; her sister, the new transfiguration professor. And now we hear the usual warnings. As if the name wouldn't be quite telling in its own right, we have to be reminded that the Forbidden Forest is indeed forbidden. Like that has stopped me before. Who would have thought. Forbidden items, check; no magic in the hallways, check; a call to house unity, check; yada, yada, yada, check.
And then food - as good as ever - appears by magic and the entire population of the school jumps to eat.
Once the feast is finished and the basic need for food is satiated McGonagall makes a sign for Potter and me to come to her. She greets us with a curt nod and walks us to our new dorm. It is near the professors' quarters and the entrance is behind the painting of a fat, ugly troll with two heads. In a patchy voice the troll manages to ask us for the new password and I open my mouth to speak for the first time today.
"Voldemort" I articulate clearly in the empty corridor. Potter nods, looking surprised at me. McGonagall, though she shivers slightly at the name, doesn't object. After telling us to meet her tomorrow, after breakfast, to discuss the coming year, she bids us good bye and leaves us to our own devices.
We enter through the portrait hole and we are finally alone in our new common room. We just stare at each other. This is sure going to be a fun year. Oh boy…
AN - please, review?