Title: As Days Go By
Author: Karnikiss
Email: freakydeek766@hotmail.com
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Mention of D/G and G/OC
Summary: Draco musses over what he has lost. He always watches though. He watches so when things crumble and fall apart he will be there to pick up the pieces and regain what was once his.
A/N: Right now because I'm working on my other story this is going to remain a one-shot. If the time comes and I feel like I have to continue then I'll come back and work some more on it. Until then feel free to make up your own assumptions. Usually they're better than what I would write.
Draco stood off to the side leaning against the wall just watching her. It's hard to believe that not too long ago he was the one making her laugh like that. She had been touching his arm and looking up at him with twinkling eyes. Now it's some new bloke that's receiving all her attention. Not that some of it isn't his own fault. If only he had kept his mouth shut and his male pride and caveman jealously down.
Occasionally she'll nod her head in his direction acknowledging his presence but that is about as far as it goes. No more sneaking out and hanging out in the astronomy tower or slipping down the halls laughing as they escaped Flinch. Everything that they used to do together is now in the past.
It's not like they were more than friends. There was always that tension that screamed that there could be more. They both knew of the possibilities but friendship was safe. She could confide in him and make her forget that she was just another Weasley. He could forget he was a Malfoy and open up all his closets and let the skeletons out before they could fester.
Now none of that matters anymore. She has someone else to confide and sneak around with. The guy even knows what he has. Draco didn't know how much he would miss it all. If he hadn't opened his mouth then he would still have it. It would all still matter too.
He is more to her than Draco had been. He's more than a friend. Hell, he had walked by them the other day and felt his heart plummet right to the depth of his stomach. They were fused together against a wall in one of the hallways going to Slytherin. He had his fingers buried in her hair and there mouths were attached. Not only was he upset that he was touching his Gin's red hair but that Ginny's hands were under his shirt. She always used to tell Draco that he had a great body and one day she was going to get fed up with seeing it hidden and go full out and feel it. Guess she likes his as well.
He doesn't want it, but he gets pity from the others. Potter and Granger, especially, look at him with sad eyes. He doesn't need anything from anyone. They shouldn't be giving him anything. It was his own fault what he had was taken away. Ginny is a friendly person and was just being nice. Draco knew the guy wasn't being "just nice" though. He wanted something more. That was when Draco snapped.
He had seen them in the hall and exploded. Ginny and him were way too close and talking softly as if they didn't want anyone else to hear. Draco immediately jumped to the wrong conclusions when his redhead laughed and touched the moron's arm. It sent the blonde in a jealous rage, and he confronted them with things that couldn't be further from the truth.
He knew deep down that Ginny loved him. She didn't look at anyone else like she looked at him. Even when she still was crushing on Potter she never looked at him the way she did Draco. He loved her as well. Maybe that's why he said those things. Love isn't something he is familiar with. You know who is father is, right? So being the scared little boy he pushed her away and hurt them both.
He saw it in her eyes when he accused her of those things. Those brandy eyes that once twinkled and stared at him when she thought he didn't notice had almost instantly glistened with tears. It made him want to bite his tongue off and run in the other direction. She had looked so hurt and lost. He knew exactly how she felt.
Being the Malfoy he couldn't apologize. Only losers like Potter and Weasley apologize. He's seen them get down on their knees and beg forgiveness. It was never a surprise to see their significant others take them back with open arms while they cried a river. Not that Ginny would ever take him back.
More than anything he wanted to beat the guy up. The guy that Ginny has kissed and touched and probably told all her secrets to. What if she has told him Draco's secrets? No, she wouldn't do that. She may not care about him anymore, but she's not about to turn on him like he had her. The girl is not as completely as innocent and pure as everyone thinks she is but then again she isn't vindictive.
She had still been a virgin when she had started dating what's his name. Sometimes they would talk about something as deep and personal as sex. Ginny hasn't been down that road yet but has heard enough from her brothers and then Draco. He used to have a girl in his bed whenever he had wanted. Then when he started to hang around the youngest Weasley he was too busy and tired to do anything of the sort. Instead they talked about 'what if's.'
One night Draco had gained up enough courage with the 'what if's.' Ginny had listened to him with wide eyes and a held breath as he had spoke with his eyes everywhere but on her. He had talked about what if he hadn't grown up with his father drumming it into his head that Weasley were mere trash. That if he didn't have a sour stomach every time he looked at Harry they may have been friends. Even Ron may have been his mate as well. What he had said that surprised her the most was the parts that involved her. He had talked about him not sleeping around. That if those bad things in his life didn't exist then maybe he would be making love to her now instead of sneaking around to hide their friendship.
Jacob...Jake...Jeremiah...Jason whatever in the hell his name is doesn't know well enough to watch his back. Not that Draco is going to attack. He knows better than to do that when Ginny is still involved. No, once the idiot screws up Draco will be there to pick up all the pieces. He'll be there to make amends for his mistakes and right both their wrongs. Now if only he could catch the slimy git in some sort of trouble. The problem is that most of the time he's connected to the redhead.
Oh and did he forget to mention he's a Slytherin as well...