A/N: okay here's chapter5!! Now listen, I know that some of you think it's totally weird and wrong for Hermione to go along with this and that she should've stood up for her love for Harry, but just imagine the shock she went through when they first told her! She knows that their only concern is her safety and that's why she went against her beliefs. I know that this is probably OOC of her, as she stands up for everything, but love makes people do crazy things… I remember the title "Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough" … A special thanks to Harrysgrl, Lara and MissLexiRe for their faithful reviews=) Enjoy!
Chapter Five
On his way back from detention with McGonagall, Harry decided that he should chance a final conversation with Hermione and clean the air between them. Shoving his hands in his pockets he started to walk towards the library in a casual walk yet his heart felt like it was doing the marathon. A wide, mahogany double door stood opposite him that shook him out of his train of thought. With one last sigh he slightly pushed the door open and took a peek. There were only a few students in the library at that time, yet only one made his heart skip a beat. Next to a window sat Hermione. The silver light from the moon made her face look like an angelic creature in deep concentration as her eyes darted from the colossal book onto a written parchment. Deciding that it was now or never Harry plucked up all of his courage and with two giant steps he reached his angel.
"Mione?" he tentatively asked, hoping that she wouldn't refuse him. Hermione needn't have looked up to see who it was but she did it anyway, not wanting to let him now that she knew him so well that she predicted he would come to talk to her sooner or later. `Show time,' she thought to herself as the bossy mask was worn once again.
"Yes Harry? Do you need help with your homework?" she inquired with a crisp tone. Harry let out a scowl and dragged a chair under him and sat.
"Listen Hermione we have to talk. No don't interrupt me, just let me say this," he ran a hand through his hair and let out a sigh through gritted teeth, "we can't continue like this, we have to clean the air. It's like we are mere acquaintances rather than best friends!" he told her desperately, although wanting to say `couple' instead. However he kept his calm. "All I'm asking is that you and I talk to settle this thing. Please…" he trailed off and she couldn't help but feel even worse.
"Harry I can't-" she started but he bumped her,
"Bollocks Mione we have to talk! Now I don't care if it's here on in the common room or at the grounds!" After letting out a gasp of surprise, she narrowed her eyes to slits and gave him a cold glare. Getting up from her seat she went to leave when she felt a hand on her wrist turning her a one-hundred-eighty degrees and her lips crashed onto his. The initial shock wearing off she couldn't help but miss the way his lips felt. She snaked her hands around his neck playing with a loose strand at the back of his neck while he pulled her closer and guided his hands to her hips.
"Mione…" hearing him moaning her name snapped her back to reality.
"We can't, I'm sorry but…" she said but Harry wouldn't let her continue,
"Of course we can! If you didn't love me then you look at me in the eyes and tell me that!" When she kept her gaze onto the floor he took her by the shoulders and shook her hard, "Look me in the eyes damn it!!" he shouted causing the few students that were there to stare back in shock. No one had ever heard Harry Potter shout, as he was known for keeping his cool. `If that's what he wants then so be it,' Hermione thought but just as she was about to tell him Madam Pince rounded the corner.
"Just what in the name of Merlin is going on here?" she shrieked. "I will not tolerate this behaviour in my library! Now I want both of you, yes you too Miss Granger, to get out of here before I change my mind and put you both in detention!" tisking at them, she turned on her heels, leaving them alone muttering under her breath. Before Hermione had any time to react Harry grabbed hold of her wrist and didn't let go until they reached the common room, which was by that time deserted. Finally letting go of her, Hermione stood arms akimbo and with a look that could've killed she waiting impatiently for what he had to say.
"Listen, I'm sorry for how I behaved. It wasn't me." He let out a sigh. "Mione, right now all I want is one last kiss. Just listen, if in this kiss you don't feel anything and don't respond then I won't bother you again I swear." He said in a rush glad that it was now off his chest. When he locked eyes with her he could practically hear the heart pounding away inside his chest, waiting for her answer. Everything around him felt like it was going in slow motion and he couldn't hear anything beside the deep and slow breathing of the person in front of him.
Being astonished was underestimating the feeling she was having! `A kiss?' she thought, `how am I going to get out of this? Oh Merlin give me strength to say no. If I kiss him there's no way that I'll be able to- no wait, I have worked too hard to let everything fall to pieces now. I'm doing this for Harry. Maybe one day but not now. All right,' she thought with a new resolve, `one last kiss to push him away. Away from my life…' she considered bitterly.
"Alright Harry…One last kiss to prove that our love meant nothing," she told him and was dumbfounded when in a matter of seconds he shot her his brilliant smile and with the light of speed he closed the gap that separated their lips. One thought that plagued both their minds was,
`It has been too long…'
As soon as their lips touched Harry felt his heart soar over the clouds. `Finally!' he thought, `her lips haven't lost their sweetness. Merlin she's great.'
`Oh Merlin he tastes so good, but I mustn't give in,' Hermione thought. No sooner had she thought of this idea, than Harry suddenly realized that he wasn't getting any response from her. `Damn, she isn't responding.' Thinking that he should try to coax some kind of response from her, he wrapped his arms tighter around her waist but loosened the grip when he grasped the fact that she hadn't moved her arms… they just hung slack at her sides.
`No, I will not lose her again! Damn it Hermione just give in!' He let one of his hands to travel to the back of her neck and pushed his lips harder on hers, while he let his tongue run on the bottom of his lip. He felt her shiver but other than that he wasn't getting any reply.
`That's it Harry, move away, I can't keep this up anymore,' Hermione reflected. Her determination was very strong, yet her self-will was slowing walking out of the door. `No, I will not let this happen, I have to keep this charade up.' She kept her lips sealed shut.
`This is my future we're talking about,' Harry thought. `That's it…I've lost her. Oh Merlin I've lost my soul mate…my future…my heart…' he decided he couldn't keep on kissing her while she just stood there not feeling him withering away. He actually thought that he heard his heart break into a million pieces… shattering like a piece of glass, although he wasn't about to stay and pick up the pieces.
`What's the use?' he considered. He stopped trying to coax out a reply, and just left his lips to linger on hers for a second more. However, just as he was about to pull away and walk away with his chin in the air, he felt the mouth beneath his open up…
A/N: oh I know that was short, but don't worry, I'll have the chapter after the next be longer! PROMISE!! =)
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