I wrote this in honor of my Cuban Twin, Miss Natali. But since it was deleted from fanfiction.net, I have asked her very nicely to put it up here, under her account. This is my first, and probably last attempt at writing fanfiction. So please review and tell me what you think!
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter and anything related to Harry Potter. The song "You'll Be in My Heart" by Phil Collins belongs to Disney.
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"You'll Be in My Heart" by Phil Collins
From Disney's Tarzan
Come, stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here
In my heart always
Why can't they understand
The way we feel
They just don't trust
What they can't explain
I know we're different but,
Deep in side us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heartFrom this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
To have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Always
I'll be with you
Ill be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there, always
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It's been 4 months since his birth. No, he hasn't been the quietest baby, or the easiest baby to take care of. He demands so much from us. But we love him. We brought him into this world, and we will take care of him for the rest of eternity. Our Baby Harry. I love saying that.
Ah, he cries. Once again. As much as I love him, I do not love his crying. And Lily, being the wonderful mother that she is, starts to get up.
"No, Lily, I'll get him. You've had him all day. Plus, I want to see my son."
"Can you just get him back to sleep?" she asks as she sits back down with her tea.
"Of course, love. James is here to save the day," I say with a grin. Lily just throws a pillow at my head.
"Hey little man. Missed me?" I say as I walk into his room and take him out of his crib. He just grabbed my pinky with his little hand. Wow. His hand is just so little…After 4 months, I still marvel at his smallness. Thankfully, as he plays with my hand, he stops crying. For the moment…I think to myself.
"Hey! Don't eat my hand! I need that! Like, maybe use it to take care of you! Ah, well…if you really like it that much…" I don't think I should be giving into his every little want, but hey. He's my firstborn son. What do you want from me? Lily can be the strict one.
As Harry chews away, I start to think of that prophecy, and what it means to the little bundle of joy in my arms. How can MY 4 month old son defeat Voldemort? He's so little, and innocent…I can't bear the thought, so I just hold Harry close to my heart.
"Don't worry little man. I will always protect you. Nothing bad will ever happen to you. I love you so much. I just want you to know. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Well, after Lily. She is my wife. But I will always protect you and Lily, the loves of my life. I'd die to save the two of you. I'd do anything for the two of you, to make sure that no harm would come your way. Don't cry or ever worry about that. I will never let anything bad happen to you."
I don't know if Harry understood me or not, but I want him to know that I will do what ever I can to keep Voldemort away from my precious baby boy. I think he did, because he just looked up at me, with those deep, emerald green eyes of his locked onto my own hazel ones. I knew, somehow, at that moment, he did understand how much I loved him.
That was when Lily walked in, when Harry and I were looking into each others eyes. She herself had tears in her deep, emerald green eyes that I fell in love with in First Year.
"James, I love you. I love you so much." She just came up to me and Harry, and held the two of us. I don't know how long the three of us stood there like that, but when we looked down, Harry now had a vice grip on both of our hands.
"For a little guy, he has some grip!" Lily exclaimed.
"Well, of course. He is my son." I got hit on the back of the head for that. "Hey, hey, hey! Watch it! Do you see the little person with green eyes in my arms? Yeah, thought so." I love it when I can scold her for hitting me with Harry in my arms.
Lily just grumbles. "Love you too, Lils!"
But as we look down on Harry once again, we both start to think of the prophecy. And I just don't ever want to let him go. I just want to keep him safe and warm. Close to my heart.
Lily knows what I'm thinking. It's the same thing that she is thinking too.
"Don't worry Harry," she whispers, "this bond between the 3 of us will never be broken, no matter what happens. We will always love you, even after we are gone. We will live on, through you. We will be here…"
Don't cry Harry. We love you, I say to myself.
"You will always be in our hearts, little man, from this day on…" I just hold Harry closer to me.
"Now and forever more," Lily finishes, with tears in her eyes, again.
"Don't listen to people saying that we are gone. We are here, always in your heart, and you in ours." Damn, I say to myself, now I'm crying too. I don't want to leave my son all alone one day.
"Always," Lily finishes in a whisper.
Finally, the little man has fallen asleep. So I put him into his crib, praying he doesn't awaken. I need to spend a moment with my wife.
He doesn't wake up. So I take Lily's hand in mine, and we start to walk out of Harry's room, but get caught up listening to him breath, and we just turn back around and watch him sleep.
"He's so perfect…" Lily whispers.
"You know, I told Sirius about how we watch him sleep, and he just looked at me like I was a madman, and laughed his head off for about 10 minutes."
"James. You know Sirius wouldn't understand how you feel about Harry. Of course he's his godfather and loves him to death, but come on, he had no part in creating him, no part in bringing him into this world, no part in his late night crying, no part in changing his first diaper, no part in his first feeding, no part in his first cold, no part in any of that. He doesn't know unconditional love that you and I have for Harry, and that parental love Harry feels for us. He never had that, unfortunately. We can't explain it to him. You can't explain why you love to watch Harry sleep and I can't explain why I love his chewing on my fingers. We just do." Lily just sighs and watches Harry sleep some more.
"I guess you're right…" I still couldn't let go of the fact that my best friend laughed at me for 10 minutes, "But he didn't have to laugh at me!"
"Aw, James, suck it up. Do you remember how much you laughed at and made fun of your best friend when he got that crazy flying motorcycle?"
"Uh…no?" `Course I remember. I laughed at him every time I saw him for 2 weeks. But I didn't do it in front of her…so she can't know! Ha!
"If I guess correctly, you probably didn't stop laughing whenever you saw him for 2 weeks."
And that is why I married Lily, because she knows me oh so well. That, and a few other things I can't really mention with Harry so close by. She knows that I'm a Marauder at heart. I just watch Harry sleep in response to her. Guiltily, but she just drops the matter.
"Harry, my baby boy, you'll be in my heart, always and forever more. My dear, sweet, baby boy," Lily says, with tears flowing freely. Once again. Honestly, you'd think she was pregnant again with all this crying. But I don't want to wake Harry up, so I keep that thought to myself. "Oh, James…"
I just hold Lily close to me, and we watch Harry sleep, holding each other as if our lives depended on it.
Actually, we do need each other. To have and to hold. Wasn't that part of our marriage vows over a year and a half ago? Yes. People thought we were crazy to be so madly in love. That no 17 year olds could be so in love and right for each other. That no 18 year old would propose to his girlfriend of 8 months at their graduation. That no 18 and 19 year old would get married in April of the next year. And that no 20 year olds would have a 4 month old son. But in time, they saw our love, and the family that grew out of that love. And that was when everybody had faith in us. To us, it was destiny for us to be together.
And obviously, it was Harry's destiny to defeat Voldemort. Or Neville's destiny. But we did not know whose for sure. We just assumed it was Harry's.
"You must be strong, my baby boy. I won't always be there with you, and neither will your father. But you must always remember us and how much we love you." As Lily said this, she just held onto me. She was shaking at the thought of not being there for our son. I just held her close.
"Don't worry Lily. In time, the whole world will see how much we love him. How strong our love as a family is. We'll show them together, as a family."
"Baby Harry, you'll be in my heart. Believe me, you'll be in my heart. From this day on, now and forever more, I love you." And this was when she just broke down and cried. And she cried, and cried, and cried. I could not bear to see my Lils like this. And so I held her close, and we rocked back and forth for a long time. I could not bear to see the pain on her face at the thought of Harry having to defeat the monster, Voldemort.
"Oh, you'll be in my heart. No matter what they say. You are my little man, growing up to save the world. I love you."
And Lily and I just stood in there for a long time, crying, and watching our baby boy sleep peacefully, without a care in the world, feeling loved and safe, not knowing of the prophecy, of his destiny. Just that he is loved.
"You'll be in my heart…"
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P/N (Poster's Note, lol, that's a first for me): I hope that you all enjoyed that as much as I did. It was such a great surprise-and honor-to have this written for me, and such a pleasant surprise for when I came back. Amanda, my evil Cali twin, has helped me a lot during the past few months, so, if you care (or if you don't) review so she can see how much everyone loves her story. I will gladly forward all reviews to her.
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Much love,
Natali
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