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It's the first of July and I lie awake, staring silently up at my ceiling. I can hear my parents gushing to one another downstairs. Their dinner must be going nicely; it is their 22-year anniversary, after all. I sigh and stuff my pillow over my face, concentrating on only one thing: Harry.
He hasn't contacted me in over five days and I'm beginning to worry that his plan has gone awry and he has decided that he doesn't want Ron and I to come along this summer. That would be the Harry thing to do, of course; he would go off without telling us and then send us an owl, saying not to worry and that it was something he had to accomplish alone. There is no way I could bear the thought of that happening...I love him so damned much, after all. I get up in a huff. I have to see him, I have to get to him and find out what's going on.
But...no, I couldn't! I couldn't possibly! Going to Privet Drive at this time of night, in the midst of a war is very unwise. But then again, Harry could be in danger right now. He could be fighting off a hundred Death-Eaters who have attacked his home!
That's ridiculous, Hermione. There is no way in hell that a bunch of Death-Eaters would attack a muggle home randomly, just for the sake of-
...Well, he is Harry Potter...Oh goodness. I imagine reaching Harry's place and seeing a gigantic Dark Mark floating in the sky above it...
I shudder. A sudden chill runs up my arms and spine, and the hair on the back of my neck prickles. I have to go. I must make sure he is alright. My parents are in another world at the moment, and I'll only be gone a few minutes... I pick up my coat, pull it over my shoulders, and shut my eyes, thinking desperately, Number 4 Privet Drive, Surrey, London, Great Britain...
Suddenly I feel compressed in all directions, my body is folding from the inside out, surely the pressure will kill me-and then, I'm no longer standing in the stuffy heat of my bedroom; when I open my eyes, I see a street full of houses looking exactly the same, all with immaculately-groomed green lawns and ordinary cars. I sigh in relief. There is no Dark Mark within sight.
When I reach the door, I ring the doorbell and wait, only then fully realizing what I'm about to do. Harry lives with a horrid muggle family who would be rather angry if a witch or wizard friend of Harry's just showed up on their doorstep. I cannot just intimidate someone or demand their respect like Professor Dumbledore did last summer. I-
The the door opens. I look up to see a woman with dark brown hair and sharp blue eyes, a small, tight mouth, and a look of impatience on her stern face. She reminds me strongly of Professor McGonagall.
"He-hello, you must be Mrs. Dursley. I'm Hermione Granger, I've seen you at King's Cross Station before. I'm a friend of Harry's from-"
"Yes, I know very well who you are." The woman radiates with every pore of her being a strong feeling of dislike. Her mouth slowly morphs into a thin, white line.
"Erm, well, I'm terribly sorry for showing up this late. I didn't realize when I came how rude you might think I am, but, you see, it is extremely important that I speak with Harry. It's an emergency, Mrs. Dursley-"
"I'm sure it is. Unfortunately, Harry isn't here at the moment, so I guess you'll have to come back another time." She begins closing the door, but I shove my hand against it determinedly, astounded at my own boldness.
"Mrs. Dursley, where is he?" I half-shout. Her eyes narrow in disgust.
"How should I know where he is? He goes out like this every evening and doesn't tell us where he's going. I suppose he's off getting hyped up on drugs or using ma-some form of his abnormality on innocent passer-bys," she remarks nastily. I frown.
"Well, what time do you imagine he'll be back then?" I've developed a bit of an attitude towards this woman and her complete disregard for Harry's safety. Does she understand what is happening in the wizarding world right now, what is crossing over into the lives of muggles as well?
"I have no idea. Now, I really must go tend to...something." Her voice is unsure and completely unconvincing. I sigh.
"Could I wait here, then, until he gets back?" Mrs. Dursley shoots daggers at me with her eyes.
"I'm afraid that is impossible. I have guests inside and it would be sincerely inappropriate for you to come inside at this time," she says.
"But-"
"Goodnight, Ms. Granger!" she screeches, and slams the door in my face. I pound on the door a few more times angrily.
"NO NEED TO BE SO BLOODY HOSTILE, YOU CRAZY OLD BAT!" I shout at the door, shocked at myself for the sudden outburst. If it were anyone other than Harry, there is no way I would have said that to Mrs. Dursley. Wait a moment...I'm a bloody witch. Why on Earth am I standing here being harassed by Petunia Dursley? Sighing, I close my eyes and feel that familiar sensation of being compressed in a very small space and shrinking abnormally, and I open them a second later to look around, what seems to be, Harry's bedroom.
Hedwig's cage is full of droppings and rodent bones. It looks as if it hasn't been cleaned. Ever. Dirty clothes occupy the space of the floor, spell-books and parchment are scattered all over the place. The trunk on the bed contains unfolded and foul-smelling clothes and his invisibility cloak, with a large leather pouch which, I am assuming, contains money, and-
Oh my god, an almost fully-packed trunk. I was right. In this moment, my worst fears are confirmed. He was planning to run off without so much as an explanation or a location. I feel angry tears welling up in my eyes and brush them away in exasperation.
There's no time to get upset now, Hermione. Just do what you came here to do. Talk with him, talk him out of being the hero for once. I move a pair of boxers from a spot on his bed (with shaking hands, of course, as these have touched his...well...) and sit down, thoughts zooming through my head about what to say and how to act. I hope he comes home quickly; I really do not want my parents to realize that I've gone, but there's nothing else for it. I fold my arms, and I wait.
By the time Harry enters his room, I have picked up a spell-book on advanced transfiguration and am flipping casually through the pages. When the door swings open, I see messy black hair and shocked green eyes staring back at me. It has only been a two weeks since our last meeting, but for a fleeting second it feels as if I haven't seen him for years, eons. I drop the heavy book and it lands with a loud thud on the floor, and I throw myself on him like I did when I saw he had arrived at Grimmauld Place a couple of years earlier, holding him close, but this time in desperation and relief instead of eagerness and excitement. It must be strange for him to be holding me like this, considering he knows how I feel about him now, ever since that train home. I reluctantly pull away from him as he stutters my name in surprise.
"What-Hermione, I-how did you-oh, apparation, of course, but-I mean-why are you-is Ron with you?" He looks anxiously behind him, as if expecting Ron to come bursting through his door, but slumps in disappointment when he realizes that I'm alone. I feel a twinge of annoyance at the look on his face.
"Oh...well, that's alright, what are you doing here? Are you alright? Did something happen?" He holds my face in his hands and looks me over with a concerned glance in his eyes. I smile. That's much better.
"I'm alright, Harry. Everything's fine. But when I hadn't heard from you for so long, I thought something awful had happened, or that you had decided to go all heroic on us and leave without us. And I guess I was right, wasn't I?" I turn toward his trunk. "Going somewhere?"
He sighs and messes up his hair in embarrassment. "It's nothing personal, Hermione...I just..."
"You just what, Harry? Why would you even consider leaving me behind? Leaving Ron behind? I don't understand why you think you have to do this every time we're put in a dangerous situation."
"Hermione, you know what could happen to you if the Death-Eaters found you? They would kill you, Hermione. They would torture you, and then kill you." He sighs, and I can feel the colour drain from my face, but I must conceal my fear no matter what happens.
"Wow, thanks for that incredibly astounding realization, but considering I am actually a very clever witch, you would THINK I would have enough common sense to have figured that out by now." My nostrils flare.
"You just don't get it, do you?"
I throw my hands into the air. "Get what?"
"I'm not going to take the chance of you dying! I refuse to let you risk your life for this!" He shouts at me.
"Fortunately, that isn't your decision to make. I'm coming with you whether you like it or not." A small batch of tears find their way into my vision and I wipe them away hastily. "Because I'm your best friend, and best friends don't abandon each other."
We stare into one another's eyes for an eternity. I search his for any recognition of what I'm trying to express to him, what I know he sees, but he can't admit it.
"Do you care about me, Harry?" I whisper. He frowns, and suddenly looks very tired.
"Of course I do, Hermione. I care about you very much." I bite my lip. In what way?
"Would you die for me? Would you kill for me? Would you do anything to make sure that I was safe, even if it hurt you?" I'm desperate. I need to know if there's something inside him that really feels anything.
"Why are you asking me this?"
"Just answer me!" I scream.
"Okay, fine! Yes! Yes! I would die for you, Hermione! I would kill for you, I would do ANYTHING to protect you, alright? Are you still questioning my loyalty to you or do you need further convin-"
But he never finishes his sentence. I rush to him in the heat of the moment and wrap my arms around his neck, kissing him like I have never kissed anyone in my life, kissing him like the sky is about to collapse and I have only this moment, this instant in time to show him how much I care. How deeply I care.
When I pull away, his eyes are half-closed, his mouth swollen and open in shock. I look away from him. What have I done? Where did that come from? "Same with me, Harry." I mutter. "Same with me." And with a blink of an eye, I am once again standing in my bedroom, my head filling up with worry about what I have just done. Listening carefully, I can hear my parents' silverware scraping against their plates, and the sound of their heart-felt laughter carrying up the stairs. They haven't even noticed I left.
I sit down mutely on my bed and stare at my knees, allowing myself to ponder upon the one thought that surfaces above the rest of the clutter.
I should not have done that.
But it's not as if anything will ever come of it, right? I mean, we're never going to date or be a couple or anything. I snort at the thought, but then immediately frown. Never is a pretty strong statement...
Well, it's only the first of July, and I've got all summer to figure it out.
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