Disclaimer: The assorted students and staff at Hogwarts does not belong to me, they are all figments of JK Rawlings imagination. With the exception the 25 year old incarnation of Draco Malfoy witch I have blatantly stolen, and is now tied to my bed… btw. If anyone sees Severus Snape, please return him to his rightful owner… No wait, just give him to me.
Rating: R, I'm serious, there are a lot of naughty words and raging teenage hormones in this fic. If the idea of Draco Malfoy doing the dirty squicks you then turn around before it is too late. Oh wait, it already is.
Warning: Lots of language, baby making activities and violence. Along with my amazing abilities to destroy the English language.
A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update…
Other People I Should Mention: Tori Amos, the story title is blatantly stolen from one of her songs. "A Sorta Fairytale". Lyrics in this chapter are Hold on By Sarah McLachlan yes it's a theme I know.
Dedication: To my mum… for not fainting when she found out what I was writing…
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A Sorta Fairytale
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Chapter Ten: Hold on
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Hogwarts:
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She made it out of the Slytherin dorms before her legs crumbled beneath her. The tears she had been keeping in check started rolling down her cheeks as she slid into a boneless heap in the hallway.
He had the mark, the vile, disgusting mark that proclaimed him as one of Voldemort's children. Her prayers had gone unanswered and harsh reality told her that she had failed, failed to heed the answers of a woman she now destined to become.
It was close to curfew and she should be getting back to the Gryffindor common room, but she couldn't. She had fallen in love with him at some point. Despite all the promises they had made about it being only physical she had not been able to stop herself and now she had to face what would probably be the hardest decision of her life.
Who would she tell of his betrayal? And would they let him live?
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Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
You know that only time can tell
What is it in me that refuses to believe
This isn't easier than the real thing
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The initiation had lasted almost till dawn, and he had not been able to rest since returning to Hogwarts. He was tired in ways others could not imagine when he came across the girl crying outside the Slytherin section of the castle. At first he thought it was one of his own students, but as he came closer he recognized her as a Gryffindor sixth year, Ginny Weasley.
Over the years he had always disliked the Weasley boys, well Bill had been alright he supposed but the rest of them… But it had always been different with their youngest. Ever since that horrible night five years ago when the word had come that she had been taken to the chamber… She had always been so tender, the true English rose. Every teacher had always had a soft spot for her, while Hermione granger was the smartest student for a century and Harry Potter was their protector Ginny Weasley had in many ways become a symbol of what they were fighting to preserve.
She was something to be protected, and no matter how hard he had tried to dislike her as he had her brothers it had been impossible, she was simply too cherished.
So maybe that was why he paused, with any other Gryffindor he would have shouted out a detention, maybe included some crass remark, but not now. He reached his hand to the sobbing girl, Watching as she grasped it as if it was a lifeline.
She looked up at him with teary eyes. "Professor Snape?"
"Miss Weasley." He watched as the girl seemed to wage some internal struggle.
"I have to tell you something… It's about Draco."
"In that case maybe we should step into my office?"
Ginny slowly got up from the floor and followed the slytherin head of house into his office, if there was anyone who would be willing to keep Dracos secret it was him. Ginny prayed to every deity she had ever known she was doing the right thing.
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My love
You know that you're my best friend
You know that I'd do anything for you
My love
Let nothing come between us
My love for you is strong and true
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Draco was still asleep as the potions master of Hogwarts locked himself into his room. The older man studied his protégé as he slept restlessly wondering who would pay the price for what the two of them was doing. He knew who had paid his price, he knew because everyday he saw the reminder of his failure as he walked the hallways.
Potter, Longbottom, and all those countless others who had lost their families because he had failed in his endeavour. He had failed to keep them safe.
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Am I in heaven here or am I...
At the crossroads I am standing
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Bodmin Moor:
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She looked down into her lap and the still unopened letter. She knew what it contained; even if she hadn't been able to see the future unfold she would still have known. There were some things a woman just knew.
But she still waited.
To open the letter would be to finalize it.
A child.
She knew that this was the final nail in her coffin. Draco would never let her go now that she was carrying the Malfoy heir in her womb. She let her hand linger over her abdomen, she was still flat, but soon it would start to show. Soon it would be too late.
She had once wished for children, dreamed countless dreams of soft skin and curly hair, of apple cheeks and the sweet scent of baby powder. The dreams had been the foolish wide eyed dreams of a young girl, and in many ways it was just one of the things she had lost after the chamber.
After Tom her dreams had changed. She no longer closed her eyes to see happy well-fed children. She saw war torn hungry eyes. Dirty faces filled with pain.
After Tom she lost her dreams, and they where replaced by nightmares.
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So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow and will see another day
And we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile across your face
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Draco entered the manor to find his wife in front of the drawing room window, she was sleeping again. Finding her like this had become something of a common occurrence lately.
He couldn't help the strange heat blossoming in his change, nor the softening of his features as he watched her. God he loved this woman she was his only weakness but also his greatest strength. All those times when he thought he could not live any longer. When it felt as if tough the blood on his hands was drowning him he needed only see her like this so weak and soft and he would be able to carry on. She was the prize, she was his reason.
He crossed the floor silently, not wanting to wake her. He knew she had troubles sleeping at night, but then so had he. For the last month or so there had been a restlessness to the very air that the breathed. They all knew the final battle was drawing closer, he just hoped that they would come out on the victorious side.
There was a small smudge of ink on her chin and he noticed the crumbled letter in her hand. Her eyes were rimmed red with the traces of tears and he carefully extracted the letter from her hand wondering what would bring tears to his lover's eyes.
The return address was Hogwarts, Severus Snape.
And then he knew.
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Oh god if you're out there won't you hear me
I know we've never talked before
And oh god the man I love is leaving
Won't you take him when he comes to your door
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Ginny woke slowly from her little nap, stretching lazily in the chair before opening her eyes. There was a fuzzy blanket covering her and for a second she frowned with confusion. She was certain it had not been there when she fell asleep. The mystery was soon solved when she saw he husband moving at the other side of the room, he was standing in front of one of the large French windows overlooking the gardens.
She sat up straight but he didn't even turn to face her as he spoke.
"Were even you planning on telling me?"
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Am I in heaven here or am I in hell
At the crossroads I am standing
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The Burrow
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The house was quiet as the inhabitants turned to face one another. They had been friends and companions for so long it seemed almost strange to think that this might be their final time together. For almost ten years this had been their common goal.
"Are you ready?" Harry's voice trembled with emotions as he spoke.
Ron gave one of his crocked grins as he lifted his wand in salute. "As ready as I ever will be."
Hermione sighed and closed the book in front of her before rising to her feet. "It's time."
On the floors above Molly Weasley gave a shudder in her sleep, unknowing of the fact that in this very night all her children would be fighting for their lives.
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So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow and we will see another day
And we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile across your face
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
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TBC….
Riyue: Yes the vision woman is Ginny.
Resse Darling: Angst and Smut are the reasons I write... Well pretty much ;)
Peachblossom92: I am afraid I can't put Gina up on PK as it features a HG/SS pairing
Draconia: she told Snape... unfortunately he is loyal to Draco and sees Ginny as a
weakness.
ZilverFaerie: More future here you go... And will there be a pink happy ending? I'll never
tell
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