Disclaimer: The assorted students and staff at Hogwarts does not belong to me, they are all figments of JK Rawlings imagination. With the exception the 25 year old incarnation of Draco Malfoy witch I have blatantly stolen, and is now tied to my bed. btw. If anyone sees Severus Snape, please return him to his rightful owner. No wait, just give him to me.
Rating: R, I'm serious, there are a lot of naughty words and raging teenage hormones in this fic. If the idea of Draco Malfoy doing the dirty squicks you then turn around before it is too late. Oh wait, it already is.
Warning: Lots of language, baby making activities and violence. Along with my amazing abilities to destroy the English language.
A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update. I really needed to figure out where I wanted to go with this one. And I also have a new WIP up at Portkey. Am I forgiven?
Other People I Should Mention: Tori Amos, the story title is blatantly stolen from one of her songs. "A Sorta Fairytale". The lyrics in this chapter are from the Sugarbabes song "Stronger"
Dedication: To Msscribe who actually liked this story enough to recommend it. To Darkstar for badgering the H/Hr crowd into reading it. And to the people at Portkey who accepted me kinks and all. Oh and Max, who's definition I swear I'll show my grandchildren.
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A Sorta Fairytale
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Chapter Nine: You'll come to see
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Hogwarts:
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It was drawing closer, she could tell.
Each passing day took her lover further and further away from her. He was being consumed in front of her, and she wished that she could do something, anything to help. But she couldn't. She knew.
Theirs was not a relationship built on trust or companionship. It was forged by passion and blood. And no matter how she hoped that he might confide in her, she could feel him slipping further and further away.
He had left her that evening, and she feared that her visions where finally coming to pass. And she had failed.
Oh god how she had tried to end it, so many times she had tried to speak the words, after all it was not as if they where in love with one another or something like that.
But the problem was she couldn't, she couldn't bring herself to say the words that would end whatever it was between them. She couldn't do that to him. Because she knew all to well how Draco would take it. He would believe that she had left because of Harry. And sweet gods she just could not.
She had tried convincing herself that the visions where only figments of her imagination but she knew they where true. And she had an eerie suspicion who the people in her visions where. And it scared her, of course it scared her, she was bloody terrified. But she still could not leave him. Because maybe, just maybe she would say something or do something that would convince him to stay on the side of good, that he would align himself with her.
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I'll make it through the rainy days
I'll be the one who stands here longer than the rest
When my landscape changes, rearranges
I'll be stronger than I've ever been
No more stillness, more sunlight,
Everything's gonna be alright
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Draco was scared, this was it. His one shot, his opportunity to prove himself in those eyes whose approval had always ranked above all else's.
Tonight it would happen and he would pass the point of no return. He would brand himself into the service of a man he despised in order to help and win the confidence of the person who had taught Draco almost everything he knew.
He almost laughed at the thought.
He wanted to go home, to Hogwarts, to crawl between the sheets of his old fashioned bed with Ginny's warm presence next to him. He wanted to run back, and somehow banish his demons as well as his past between her milky tights. But he wouldn't.
He would stay and let himself bear a mark that in truth disgusted him; because that was the kind of man he wanted to be.
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I know that there's gonna be a change
Better find your way out of your fear
If you wanna come with me
Then that's the way it's gotta be
I'm all alone and finally
I'm getting stronger
You'll come to see
Just what I can be
I'm getting stronger
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Bodmin Moor:
------------------------- She watched trough the windows as he spoke to the servants.
He was beautiful still. More so now than he had been as a youth, his scars and lines added character to his face. It told a tale of suffering and regret, and not for the first time she wondered if he had regretted the decisions he had made in his youth. When he had aligned himself with darkness.
She despised him, all that talent he had wasted by his betrayal. But at the same time she desired him more than she had ever desired anything else.
Harry, even Tom could never ignite that much passion from her as he could with just one look one touch.
And she hated him for that.
Hated him for making her so blind and stupid, for pulling her with him, on his decent into darkness.
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Sometimes I feel so down and out
Like emotion that's been captured in a maze
I had my ups and downs
Trials and tribulations,
I overcome it day by day,
Feeling good and almost powerful
A new me, that's what I'm looking for
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He watched his wife as she slept.
She had done it again, fallen asleep by the window, and again he wondered if she truly knew what was going on.
She had been studying him lately, he had noticed. And he had to be careful.
No one outside the order could know, especially not her.
As Snape had once told him, nothing is more dangerous to a man than those he cared for. And he knew it was true, even if it ripped him to shreds he would hold his peace.
There would come a time. There had to come a time when he could tell her. And then it would all be justified, all the heartache and hurt. The agony he had placed on them both.
It had to.
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I know that there's gonna be a change
Better find your way out of your fear
If you wanna come with me
Then that's the way it's gotta be
I'm all alone and finally
I'm getting stronger
You'll come to see
Just what I can be
I'm getting stronger
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Hogwarts:
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Ginny kept her watch all trough the night, waiting for her lover to return. Praying that he would be the same, but fearing what changes she might find upon his return. She still hadn't decided what she would do if he sported a mark. She wasn't a fool, she knew she should leave.
But feared that she would be unable to.
She had to tell someone, warn them, but who?
She kept her vigilance at her window at Gryffindor tower until the first shimmers of dawn painted the floor in a golden sheen.
When she finally went to her bed, her sleep was haunted of images of a woman painfully familiar. And of children, tortured by their parents past.
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I didn't know what I had to do
I just knew I was alone
People around me
But they didn't care
So I searched into my soul
I'm not the type of girl that will let them see her cry
It's not my style
I get by
See I'm gonna do this for me
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She found him in his room that afternoon; he was lying sprawled across his bed, clearly exhausted. She wanted to ask him what had happened, but she dared not. Afraid that what he would tell her would force her to hate him.
So instead she embraced him, one last time losing herself in his arms. That was what she told herself at least. She was afraid as the undressed and slipped beneath the sheets; afraid of whether or not his mark would be there, mocking her with its presence. When he brought his lips to hers she almost thought she could hear him whispering but she dismissed it as a figment of her imagination. After all why would Draco Malfoy, prince of slytherin ever whisper "Sorry" to Ginny Weasley?
She closed her eyes as he let his hands roam her body, knowing that if she opened them and saw the mark she would have to leave. The sex was different than anything they had ever done before, slow and languid almost as if he was making love.
All the time as he pushed himself deep inside Ginny's hot, wet core Draco repeated his silent mantra. "I did it for you, I did it for love, I did it for you."
Afterwards, when he had fallen asleep and Ginny had dressed, readying herself to leave she kneeled by the bed. Slowly lifting the sheets to uncover the pale flesh of her lover, she gasped. It seemed a crime to mar anything as beautiful as Draco with the hideous scull and snake but there it was. Undeniable proof of her failure and of his.
She placed one last kiss on his brow before rising and leaving the room and its inhabitant behind. She knew what she had to do.
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I'm all alone and finally
I'm getting stronger
You'll come to see
Just what I can be
I'm getting stronger
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714: I loved your review, and actually have a position open for scary fan girl... If you want it it's yours
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xo-roxynsyncgrl-ox: Harry caught them in the act, and watched the entire session. Not because he is a pervert, but because of shock and well. normal male teenage hormones
Caffeine: Master huh, has a nice ring too it, but you may refer to me as mistress from now on
xanthos: I actually thought I was scaring people away with the amount of angst, and this is probably the angstiest yet soo??? Was it okay? Oh and about Ginny being dumb, well she is naïve when it comes to Draco's true nature, but we can read his mind, and Draco has actively tried to reaffirm Ginny's wrong conclusions
jane-valar: Power is Hot, glad you agree. Btw I'm a big fan of your story hope you don't take as long as me to update. hint hint
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