~* Frozen Fire and Burning Ice *~
Summary: We've all read the stories of when Draco comes across Ginny's diary, but what happens when Draco's the one with the lost diary? Will Ginny finally see through the mask of ice to the frozen fire inside Draco? The fire he's just waiting for someone to ignite. Could Ginny be that someone to open his eyes and find the key to his heart, does she want to be- would he let her be? It all starts with a run in before breakfast, and grows…
Tons of questions, but please read and review!
Rating - eh…PG-13…use of language…I tend to get carried away sometimes
E-mail: thepixiedustpoet@yahoo.com SUGGESTIONS/IDEAS FOR STORY LINE TOTALLY WELCOME!
DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING! I love Draco- but I claim no rights to him! …Wish I owned him and all the other wonderful characters from the wonderful Harry Potter books, but I don't. All the characters are completely J.K. R.'s! Any of the lyrics will be quoted! The band or singer will be underneath, most will be from Linkin Park, but some won't. Like I said, I own NOTHING!
A/N: Ok. Due to some reviews and suggestions, I have something to say. This is my first fan fic, and yes, I really did get carried away too fast. I'd like to apologize. I'm sorry if it's unbelievable, but I have a promise for all of my readers. I am going to slow it all down and 'let things happen naturally'. I thank everyone for telling me the truth about my fic, and I hope that with you're reviews, it will get better. Its only my first fic, and I got really excited and nervous of what people would think, and I admit, I really did get a little too carried away. The rest of this fic, and any other ones I write, will have better pacing - I promise. Also, I promise I have read the books, -the thing is: I read them all like a year ago, so I'm very sorry about the 'Crab' mix-up, and for getting Harry's eye color wrong. Thanks for pointing it out and they have been fixed. Keep reviewing, because I need to do a lot of work to make this a great fic!
Dedication: Chris, I adore you. My writing wouldn't make any sense without your strong guidance. To Stacey, my babe, whom I got hooked on fan fics,
AND EVERYONE ELSE THAT REVIEWED! Here's the long awaited Chapter Five
::rolls curtains back::
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Frozen Fire & Burning Ice
IMPORTANT: towards the end of this chapter there will be a mixture of song and writing. The song is in paranthesis, and hopefully the italics works!
Chapter Five: I Won't Be Ignored
Watching her sleep was comforting, but the book she held was not. Even worse was the name engraved on the cover, a certain, 'Draco L. Malfoy". What was she doing with a book with 'his' name on it? Hadn't he caused enough trouble today? Sighing, Harry laid down next to Ginny and placed an arm around her. He shouldn't be here, but he had to see her. He had meant to take off his cloak when Ginny first entered, but she seemed so dazed and tired that he figured talking would get him no where. Brushing Ginny's hair out of her eyes, Harry didn't know what to think. She was wonderful and beautiful, but she was young and sister like. (Good job your making an inner conflict for Harry! Great!) Up until now Harry had figured he would have all the time in the world to discover his true feelings for Ginny, but with all of this Draco mess flying about, he suddenly had the awful twinge that he might loose her
.
Eyeing the book curiously, he caught himself from reaching out for it. He was a Gryffindor, and it was below him to read someone's personal journal but certainly Draco Malfoy was another case entirely. Reaching out for it, he only caught himself when Ginny stirred slightly. No, Harry. He would just have to ask Ginny about it in the morning. Rising slowly from the bed, Harry left to return to his dorms, his bed, and a restless dreamless night.
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Ginny awoke with a start. Yes, she was quite sure someone had been sitting at the end of her bed when she had fallen asleep. She even faintly remembered being wrapped in their arms for a brief period. Looking around, trying to sense if they were still there, Ginny noticed something she still had placed in her arms.
The journal.....
The memories came flooding back to at her. All of the beatings, his pain, his sorrow, and his love of her suddenly made sense. Suddenly Ginny had a pounding headache, and a very bad urge for some waffles. Comfort food always helped clear her mind. Who needs aspirin or potions when there's eggs and bacon? Taking a quick shower and dressing comfortably, Ginny slumped down to the Great Hall. When she entered, she found Harry brooding over a bowl of hot cereal. Harry! Who else had an invisibility cloak? Sitting softly down beside him, Ginny tapped Harry lightly on shoulder. Startled, his head popped up. Relaxing when he saw Ginny, he said in a soothing voice,
"Morning Gin Bug." Gin Bug, she was always little Gin Bug; never Ginny, or even Virginia.
"Morning Harry. Enjoy sitting at the end of young girls' beds in an invisibility cloak till the wee hours of the morning?" Ginny asked as she buttered her waffle. She didn't want to beat around the bush; it simply wasn't her style.
"Gin Bug, why whatever do you mean?" Harry asked slyly, a slight grin pulling at the corners of his mouth.
"Don't you toy around with me Harry Potter. You were sitting on my bed when I went to sleep last night, and there's no denying it. You're the only one in this school with an invisibility cloak and you very well know it." Ginny announced in a school morn manor. Then suddenly in a very secretive whisper, she added:
"Now the real question is, why?"
"First of all, you didn't fall asleep last night, you fell asleep this morning. Five hours ago exactly. Where on earth had you been?" he chastised just as she had done. Then, matching her secretive tone, leaned in to whisper:
"And secondly, I was waiting for you. We need to talk Gin Bug. I was planning on talking to you last night, but when you came in you looked so tired, I couldn't say a word. (Harry then brushed a hair out of Ginny's eyes) And then of course I noted you were hugging that blasted book. I believe the new question is, What is Ginny Weasley doing with a book with 'Draco L. Malfoy' engraved on the cover?" Harry's hardening green eyes questioned Ginny's quivering brown eyes.
What was she going to say?
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It was earlier than usual for Draco to wake up, but its not as if he was sleeping anyway. The anxiety was killing him. Not wanting to be there when Ginny arrived for breakfast, Draco decided to eat early and head to the lake to sort out his nerves before he lost all hope at ever being sane again. After a brief shower and changing into his usual Sunday attire, Draco entered the Great Hall only to face what he had intended to avoid Ginny.
She was with Potter none the less. They were whispering and smiling at one another. Looking away, Draco didn't know how to react. He would simply have to grab something and head to the lake early. Darting his way around the Hufflepuff table so as to avoid being seen by Ginny, Draco snatched up a bagel and some butter. As he was placing them into his robes, he heard Ginny suddenly say in a demanding voice,
"It's none of your business Harry Potter." Raising an interested eyebrow, Draco stopped what he was doing and inched closer to the Gryffindor table.
"It damn well is my business. When my best friend's little sister comes in at two in the morning with something of Draco Malfoy's, I say it's my business to find out what's going on. Especially since you're basically my little sister too!" Harry said, getting a little angry. Ginny reeled.
"Basically your little sister? Just because you spend time with my brother and my family, and you spend most of the summer in my house, does NOT mean you know ME." Ginny hollered. Though there weren't many people in the hall yet, those who were there were watching with entertainment. Breakfast and a show…
"Gin Bug! You mean to tell me you don't care for me?" Harry said with such a mix of fear and anger it was hard to tell which was greater.
"No. I do care for you; but you're acting just like Ron, and I can't stand it! Every man in my life has felt the need to protect me and tell me what's good for me! Well I'm sick of it! I'm old enough to hold my own! If I want to come in super late with Draco Malfoy's journal, I WILL! AND NEITHER YOU NOR RON OR ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER WILL STOP ME!" Ginny had tried to control her anger, but was failing miserably. Draco sat down, planning on listening to the rest of the fight.
"Gin Bug. We only want what's best for you. When you came in late I got worried, and what with everything happening with Draco, you can only understand how it felt to see you hugging his journal. I was only worried about you. " Harry was amazing calm and gentle as he stroked Ginny's hand and looked into her eyes.
"Gin Bug, " Harry whispered lightly, adding,
"…I would die if anything happened to you."
Draco turned to look at Ginny. Everyone knew Ginny had the largest crush on Potter, but now it looked like Potter liked her back. Watching as her eyes filled with tears, he had to strain his ears to hear Ginny whisper,
"What are you trying to say Harry?"
"That even though I don't know everything about you, I know enough to realize you're the best thing that ever happened to me…" taking Ginny's hand in his, Harry added softly, looking her in the eyes,
"Gin Bug, I think I'm falling for you."
And then it happened. Pulling Ginny's face up to his, Harry kissed her. It took every drop of Draco's self-restraint to keep from socking Potter right there. He could feel his blood begin to boil under his skin. Perfect timing Potter! PERFECT FUCKING TIMING! Steaming, Draco watched as the kiss ended and Ginny opened her mouth to speak,
"A lot of guys are feeling that way lately…" And with a weak smile she slowly got up and slipped out of the hall. Immediately on his feet, Draco followed.
He didn't know what he was going to do, but he couldn't just let Ginny get away. He had to do something.
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Watching the door close with a soft 'click' Ginny slumped down into one of the many abandoned desks. Sighing, Ginny buried her head in her arms. The soft 'click' of the door opening and closing never even registered with her until she heard him speak.
"Virginia?" came his velvety, silky smooth voice. Without looking Ginny knew he was sitting in a desk a few rows over. He had distanced himself from her. He must have seen…"I guess you saw what just happened." She said, lifting her face to his, he looked so different. He was dressed the same, but his hair was loose and falling into his face, and his tie was hanging from his neck. He seemed so much more like a human then than any other time Ginny could remember.
"Yes." he said, looking down soberly at the desk. When he didn't say anything else, Ginny continued,
"Quite a soap opera we've got going here…" he only slumped further down into his chair. For some reason, Ginny didn't see him as a Malfoy, but as a hurt little boy.
"He really likes you. … you like him… and I just thought that you should know one thing." Ginny watched as he sat up straight and took a deep breath, as if what he was going to do was taking every bit of strength he had.
"Just know that while I care you too (here Draco locked eyes with Ginny as if to stress the importance of those words), I'll respect whatever decision you make. Whether you choose me or Potter, I'll understand. You have to do what's best for you Virginia. No matter what happens, I'll stand by your decision." Ginny couldn't believe it. She had expected him to tell her that Potter was a horrible twat and he was the only guy for her, but he hadn't.
He was being truly sincere; and suddenly without rethinking what she was doing, she over to him and pulled Draco into a hug. When she finally did come to her senses, she didn't pull away. She realized she felt at home in his arms.
When the familiar blasts of cool chills started to spread through her body, Ginny smiled and rested her head on Draco's shoulder. His embrace was refreshing and calming. Charming really.
His style was charming.
His hair was charming.
His voice was charming.
His eyes were charming.
His lips were charming.
His smile was charming.
His hands were charming.
His skin was charming.
His body was charming…
Charming wasn't even the word I could use to describe him, Draco was perfect…
The way he felt for her not as friend, but as more…
more….
much, much, more…
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Holding her to him, casually running his hand along her back, Draco couldn't think of a better feeling in the world. She laid her head down on his shoulder as her burning wafts of warmth drifted back into his frozen body. The shards of ice that clung to his heart began to melting and fall away. As he held her, Draco felt her mind begin to wander, and he wasn't sure how long they had been hugging, but after what seemed like only moments she pulled away. Understanding, he gently whispered,
"You've got a lot to think about. Take your time and make sure you're doing what's best for you." standing and lifting her face to look up at him, he finished.
"I believe in you Virginia. I believe you'll make the best decision." And then after brushing her cheek with the back of his palm, Draco left.
Hopefully, he had made the right decision just then. Sure, he knew he could have told her that Potter was useless and that he was the only one for her, but that wouldn't have been the right thing to do. He had to let her make the decision on her own. But since when had Malfoy's done 'the right thing'? He didn't know what he was doing. Maybe he was already changing…
… Just hurry Ginny. Draco started heading outside towards the lake. …Hurry Ginny.
… he wasn't sure he could last much longer.
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She hadn't wanted him to go, but she knew that he needed to. She had to make her decision, and while Draco had given her all the time she needed, she knew Harry would be impatient and expect feedback from the kiss very soon. She didn't like the feeling of being rushed into the decision, and started off thinking things over in a very foul mood.
She was alone here, and it was a good place to think. No one knew where this place was expect Draco, and she knew he wasn't going to be coming to find her anytime soon. There was nothing to distract her thoughts and no one to interrupt her. This was the perfect place to make her decision, and she planned on staying here until she had chosen. But who knew how long that could take?
First things first. Ginny decided to list the pros of dating each boy. She walked up to the front desk, and found parchment, quill and ink. Right, pros of Draco: ….pros of dating Draco… oh there were so many! His kisses, his touch, his smile, getting to know the real him, those soothing frozen breezes he sent into her, his eyes, …the list would go on forever. She had to concentrate. Ok, I'll try listing the pros of dating Harry: …oh Merlin, they were both so wonderful that listing the pros of dating each wasn't going to get her anywhere. Crumbling the piece of paper, Ginny got out a fresh one and wrote:
"Cons of dating each:
Harry:
He gets hurt in quidditch
He ends up treating me like a little sister
Ron kills him
Cho Chang suddenly likes him and he dumps me.
We never get to know each other beyond school and pleasantries.
We break up and he doesn't feel comfortable around me, and I'm shunned away from the Dream Team, and summers with him become a living hell.
He graduates before me, leaving me all alone for a full year.
I choose him, and end up liking Draco more.
Draco:
He gets hurt in quidditch.
Ron kills him.
My parents find out, and try to make me break up with him.
All of my brothers try to kill him.
The school teases us.
All the Slytherin girls torture me.
I'm shunned by my fellow Gryffindors.
He's shunned by his fellow Slytherins.
He ends up not being the man I thought he was.
His parents find out.
They try to kill him.
…they try to kill me"
That was it. Right there. She had no choice. It was just too dangerous to date Draco Malfoy. His father finding out would surely mean death plots for either him, or her. - maybe both. His father would die if he knew Draco was 'disgracing' the Malfoy name by dating a Weasley. But then When Ginny took out a new sheet of parchment to write a letter to Draco, she suddenly got a piercing pain in her heart.
I love him more than I love Harry. What am I doing? I can't be afraid to take a chance! it wasn't just any chance though. This was her life, his life at risk. She had to do it
'But you love him!' came a voice from her heart. Ginny knew she did, knew she wanted him, but couldn't have him. Harry was fabulous too. It's not as if she was settling; although that's exactly what it felt like. When it came down to it, dating Draco was just too dangerous. Plus, maybe no she could get to know Harry better, and Draco had said he would understand her decision….
But as Ginny sat and wrote to Draco, something deep inside of her knew he wouldn't understand.
…something knew this was a mistake.
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Draco had missed lunch, but he wasn't hungry. It was as if the anxiousness and worry had replaced his hunger. He had his ebony black cloak draped around him as he laid a few feet from the water's edge. Occasionally he would skip a rock across the water's glassy surface, but soon lost interest as the time passed. Right now he was laying propped up on his elbows, one leg stretched out and one knee bent looking into the sky. Nothing was comforting him. He couldn't organize a single thought and he was beginning to become impatient. This was pure sick torture, the wait was killing him. He had been at the lake for hours now, but apparently Gin was still thinking things over. He was just considering going to find her (just to see how things were coming along) when an owl plopped down beside him. It looked utterly exhausted and Draco could see why. The poor owl had his journal lashed to its stomach. Temporally disappointed with Gin for putting the bird through torture instead of giving the journal to him in person, Draco un-strapped the journal and watched the delighted owl fly away to some well deserved rest. On top of the journal was a letter that he opened excitedly. It read:
"Dear Draco,
I want to apologize for taking so long to make up my mind; I know it must have been hard for you to wait. I had to think long and hard about things, and these are the conclusions I've reached:
~ that I care for you… a lot, but that caring for you is dangerous...
Draco, I've had to think of how your father would react to our lov… seeing each other. You have to admit that things would get very ugly. I care for you Draco, even more than Harry, but it's too dangerous, I'd be putting both of our lives at risk. So many things have happened so fast that I wasn't sure what to do at first. But now I know this is the best decision for me. You told me that you would understand any choice I made and I hope that you do. Please forgive me.
~ Yours Always,
Virginia Weasley"
Slowly, Draco felt his heart crack into tiny pieces and fall apart. His body became cold and teaming with anger, hate, and above all, jealousy. He could have understood if she had said that she loved Potter more or that she didn't want to face the teasing the Slytherin girls would put her through; but he could NOT understand her being afraid to love him, especially because of his father. Draco's father had already made his life a living hell and now he had just succeeded in scaring away the one person Draco was beginning to have actually feelings for. Lucius had just frightened away Draco's last hope and without even knowing it. Furious, Draco felt the ice in his veins begin to pulse throughout his whole body. Potter would NOT win because of this. Draco's eyes snapped back to the letter. Potter had won by technicality. Ginny loved him, but was going to be with Potter. It didn't make sense. Ginny couldn't seriously expect to tell him that she loved him, then expect him to let her go off with another guy did she? Slamming the journal closed Draco leaped to his feet. Potter couldn't win. Draco couldn't help that Ginny was right about his father. He couldn't help that his father probably would try to have them killed. It's not like Draco was his father. Draco could only love her; he could only be himself.
"I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact that everyone can see these scars"
He was stalking back to the castle. It wasn't fair. He wasn't his father. He couldn't control his father; he was his own person.… and he wanted Ginny.
"I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
No matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real."
Draco busted through the doors and into the castle. She was putting him aside to be with Potter all because of something he couldn't control. She was pretending she didn't care for him. She was refusing to be his… she was rejecting him.
"So I let you go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that I'm not
but I'll be here
'cause you're all I got"
He was sprinting down the halls looking for her. He would find her and whether Potter was there or not he was going to tell her how he felt. He was going to tell how she had changed everything.
"I can't feel
the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I WON'T BE IGNORED!
Time won't heal
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me,
I WON'T BE IGNORED!"
She wasn't going to get away this easily. A simple letter saying that she loved him and was too afraid to do anything about it sure as hell wasn't going to make Draco Malfoy back down! Striding down the halls, he was beginning to get annoyed at not seeing anyone around. Then it hit him. Hogsmeade. Today was a Hogsmeade day!
"I am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense"
He raced to his dormitories and grabbed his broom. He didn't care that it was a rule and he wasn't supposed to fly there. He had to find Ginny and make her understand what was meant to be…
"I am
what you never want to say
but I've never had a doubt
it' like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out"
She was going to listen to everything he had to say; she owed him at least that. He was slicing through the air, now half way there, now half way to Ginny…
"So I let you go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here
He was there finally and leaping from his broom, leaving it where it was hovering above the ground. Ginny was going to hear him out. She was going to listen and give him a chance even if he had to tie her down and make her listen!
"I can't feel
the way I did before
don't turn your back on me
I WON'T BE IGNORED!"
Racing down the main shopping block, Draco screamed as loud as he possible could,
"Ginny! Ginny where are you? Virginia!"
Shoving people out of his way and searching in shop windows he called her name over and over.
"Time won't heal
this damage anymore"
Then he saw a flash of fiery red hair a few shops down entering a small pub.
"GINNY!" he hollered, sprinting as fast as his legs would carry him!
"GINNY!"
"DON'T TURN YOUR BACK ON ME"
He was coming up on the pub…
"I WON'T BE IGNORED!!!"
Draco flung the heavy oak doors wide open, illuminating the dark room.
"NO!
HEAR ME OUT NOW!"
Scanning the table, his heart broken heart skipped a beat when he finally spotted her in the back.
"YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO ME!"
Draco strode over to the table and caught everyone by surprise. He never took his eyes from Ginny's when Ron and Harry jumped up.
"YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO ME!"
Ginny look terrified, but excited.
"LIKE IT OR NOT!"
Draco grabbed Ginny up from the table and into his arms.
"RIGHT NOW!"
Before anyone could protest Draco had swept her outside of the pub and into a small, dark, narrow alley. He put her down and pinned her to the wall.
"YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO ME
LIKE IT OR NOT
RIGHT NOW!
I WON'T BE IGNORED!"
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A/N:
~the song is from Linkin Park
~wow, state tests, district tests, finals, 2 books, and essays to write, plus a social calendar and you guys have an idea of why it took so long for me to post. But hey, I made this chapter really long!
~only one more week left to school, and then I can write all the time and post like every week!
~Also, to all the reviewers that didn't like the Ron/Hermione stuff: I won't mention them as a couple very often. The story isn't about their relationship.
~ok, its really late on a school night & I have tests tomorrow! Hope you like it! Please review and/or e-mail me!