HI!
So, no, I'm not dead. Sorry to say that the alternative is far more douche-like than that, it's quite a shame, really…
I suck, and I'm well aware of it. Not only was my last quarter in school particularly hellish, but I've been working on the latest chapter for months, rewriting it over and over again, second guessing myself at every step, and I STILL don't completely like it.
I don't know what's going on with me though, I just feel so pressured, honestly. I mean I've strung readers along for so long and now that there's only 5 chapters left I feel this intense pressure to get it all just right. I want a Harry and Hermione that are sexy and imperfect, who are real and happy. I want the case to not be so fucking corny and leave everyone (myself included there) utterly disappointed. All of that has just left me guessing at any decision that I make. I have an intense outline that I'm following, but making it al come to fruition is awfully difficult for me at the moment.
Currently, I'm not sure what my next step will be. I have finished the latest chapter, but have been wondering if it may be better to just hold off on posting it sicne idk how long it will take me to finish and maybe it's better to be able to ensure a more regular posting schedule when I finally do put it up…
I honestly don't know… but I am terribly sorry for all of this. I feel terrible and it has been eating me up inside just because I don't want to NOT complete this story, but how long it's taking me is becoming ridiculous.
Many, many, many apologies,
Cosmo
xx
p.s. thoughts/opinions are always welcome, especially in regards to my posting schedule.
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