AN- Nothing Harry Potter is mine and I am sorry that I butcher the French language terribly.
<< French Translation>>
Dear Draco,
I love you and yet, I hate loving you. I wish I could forget about you, oh I wish I could have that more than life itself. However you are a tattoo forever inked on my heart , something I deeply regret but is too beautiful to get rid of.
You make me feel like I'm breaking down. Like I'm out of place and will never fit in. Like no one understands me, or even wants to. Like I want to run away, but I can't since I'm an adult and I have responsibilities. Like I want to lock my self in my room and scream so long and so loud that all grow accustom to the noise.
You make me feel incomplete.
I don't know when I realized you were my other half. When I stopped screaming for you to go away and started screaming for you to come home. I don't know when the change happened it just did.
I don't, no rather can't understand why you left me here. I think about it on and on and on again. I know you're never coming back and I wonder if you can hear me, I'm waiting. You've gone away, I'm all alone a part of me is gone.
Flordelis thinks I hate her. In some sick perverted way I probably do. I probably hate her because I have to raise her on my own, and that is never what I pictured form me or my children. I probably hate her because she does everything I say for fear that I will start screaming and crying and I wanted a child with more spirit. I probably hate her because I see so much of you in her and it makes my heart ache so bad I can't stand it.
Will you ever come home?
I want so badly to hate you, to never be able to forgive you but even as I just glance at an old picture of you I remember all the good things you did and all the hurt goes away….for a little while. It comes back every morning when I wake up in an empty bed that was made for two. It comes back when I sit at our dinning room table that was made for a small family which will never come in to existence. It even comes back when I look at Flordelis.
I will wait for you until the end of time, but I don't think Flordelis will. Come back for her. Come back and make everything right in the world again. Come back for me.
In the spirit of true love,
Ginerva Malfoy