Bittersweet
Ch.4- The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
Hoobastank- The Reason
The 7th year girl's dormitories were in an uproar the next morning. Lily Evans, Raven Monghi, Alice Justus, Amy Fleming, and Maxine Lewis were all talking about last night's events. Lily sat back and let the other girls talk about their nights first. "I'll save the best for last," Lily thought.
"Ben Stillman broke up with me last night. But I don't really like him that much. We're better as friends." Amy Fleming said, "I like Ty Sanders, though." "You sure do like those Ravenclaws, don't you Amy?" Alice teased. "Oh sure, like your any better, liking Frank Longbottom." Amy retorted. "Frank's in Griffindor, Amy, you know that." Alice said. "No he's not, he's in the library." Amy told her, as the best friends laughed together.
Maxine said, "Lily you didn't say what you did last night. I noticed that you didn't get back until waaay after curfew." "Well, ummm… last night I, uhhh…" Lily said. "Well, well, well, Lily Evans at a loss for words. I never thought I'd see the day." Lily's best friend, Raven, said.
"Fine," Lily spat, "I'll tell you, but only once." Lily talked very fast, but the girls caught every word. "Last night James and I agreed that we know nothing about each other, so we played Truth or Truth. By the way, Max, Sirius's favorite color is pink. Anyway, we were on the couch in front of the fire and… and I think I went mad." Lily said with a look of disgust directed at herself. "There was no logic, and that scares me…" "Lily, there is no logic in love, because your heart doesn't think." Max said. "Wait a second, DID YOU KISS?!?!" Raven asked, a little slow on the uptake. Slowly, Lily nodded. The dormitory was filled with squeals. To any outsider, it seemed as though 100 mice had all been decapitated at the same time.
"Oh my gosh! This is sooo awesome." Amy said, her girly side taking over. "So, did you French?" "Ewww, no. For this to work, James had better keep his tongue to himself… for awhile." Lily replied. "Oh, `for awhile', huh Lily? Seems like your slipping up on your self-righteous-yet-hate-James-Potter-with-a-vengeance plan." Max teased. "Oh, hush Max. Raven, you seem a bit quiet about all this. Did you and Remus do something naughty last night, too?" Lily asked as Raven's face went brick red.
"Kissing isn't naughty, at least the normal type, and you know Remus- he isn't like that." Raven said, her face reddening with each passing second, with a look on her face like a cornered animal. "Okay, out with it. Talk to me! It looks like I wasn't the only one to have fun last night, Raven." Lily said, grinning wildly. "Fine! I'll tell you." Raven said, "Well, last night we doing our rounds at the astronomy tower…."
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"Alright toe-rags, get to bed, your own beds, if you don't mind. If I catch any of you in a broom closet, I'll make sure that a certain Severus Snape takes advantage of your swollen lips. I hear he's swinging at both ends of the fence now." Remus said, sounding very bored. The couples left, glaring at Remus. Raven giggled at Remus's joke, "That sounds like something Black would say." "It is something he would say, but he couldn't think of something like that all by himself. You don't give me enough credit." Remus said smirking. "No, I don't, do I? I do like you better then your friends though, a lot better."
Remus then acted on pure impulse, and leaned forward, pulling Raven into a gentle, chivalric kiss. Raven's arms went around his neck, pulling him closer. Remus then realized what he was doing, and hastily pulled away. "I'm sorry. I have to go." Remus said, with a longing, sorrowful look on his face as he fled from the astronomy tower…
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"Hey, Prongs, can I talk to you? Padfoot too?" Remus asked, looking uncomfortable. "Sure," James replied, "Frankie, Wormtail, if you please." Frank Longbottom and Peter Petigrew left the dormitory. "So what is it Moony?" James asked, with a serious look on his face. "Well, I err… umm, last night Raven and I kinda… uhhh…" Remus stuttered. "Did you snog?" Sirius asked with a wolfish grin on his face. Slowly, Remus blushed and nodded, looking much like Raven-the-cornered-bunny-caught-by-the-fox. "YEE-HAH! WHOOP- WHOOP DING-DING!!" Sirius yelled. James looked at his friend with concern. "What did you say, Padfoot?" "Oh, well I have decided to quit being a slimy brit and become a hilly-billy." Sirius replied with an insane smile. "Okaay, Padfoot had his head cracked last night." James said.
"So Moony, what's the problem? You snogged, nothing wrong with… Oh no, Moony, you ran didn't you?" James asked as realization dawned on him. Remus , shamefaced, nodded, his head hanging, refusing to meet his friend's eyes. Sirius then regained his small amount of brain, and said, "Moony, we told you, it's not your fault about what you are; It's who you are that counts." "Padfoot, she doesn't know. This is turning into a serious relationship. It's not just 'let's have butterbeers at Hogsmeade' anymore. We're kissing. She has the right to know what I am." Remus replied warily.
"Moony, snap out of it. If you want to tell her, you have my blessing. But don't think it will change a thing. Raven is sensible, she won't care. She might not know what you are, but she knows who you are, and she'll remember that in the end. But I forbid you to push everyone away from you. You deserve love, you really do; you just need to accept it." James said to Remus, clapping his shoulder as he walked out of the dormitory.
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A/N: Hey, people. Thanks for reading my story. Please review, I don't care how long or short it is. Also, some people say that this story is too fast paced, so I'll warn you now that this is a fast paced fic, cause there is a lot of information in it. Also, I promise that there is humor on the way. Oh, yeah, there are some people who don't like James cutting himself. I know that self- mutilation bothers some people, but there is some significance to it in later chapters. Sorry this batch of chapters took so long, ch.4 was lost in a power outage, so I had to rewrite it. Thanks again for reading!
~Marauding-Moonbabe
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