.Chapter Two: Kissmas
September, October, November, and most of December went without too much excitement or enthusiasm. I guess that should've been a sign there all on its own.
It was over Christmas vacation when it all changed.
I certainly wasn't expecting it.
I never would have seen it coming.
But don't they say "love is blind"?
If so, I was as blind as a bat without its radar.
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"I'm not looking forward to going back either," I said. "Bye Amy."
"Bye Am," Matt said.
"Bye," A'Marie called to us as she took a handful of floo powder and threw it into our fireplace shouting "Devereux House." I watched the flames envelope my friend before I turned to Matt who was beside me.
He stood square with me and gazed into my eyes. "I've been wanting to do this for awhile," he told me, but before I could think of something to say, I felt his lips on mine. They were soft and warm, and he smelled incredibly good. I knew it was a bit wrong, snoggin my best friend, but he started it, and I sure wasn't going to end it. I mean, can you blame me?
I was breathless, confused, and reluctant when he broke away from me.
"I'll see you at Hogwarts then," he told me before disappearing into the flames of the fireplace.
Now seriously, what kind of boy does that to a girl?
Kisses his best friend, then leaves her right after he's done?
Matt, I suppose.
Matt. Matt. The boy who had just kissed me. Wait a minute. He said something about "wanting to do this for a while." Matt liked me. And I didn't know about it? Something was definitely wrong with the world. And it was all Matt's fault.
I wasn't mad at him for kissing me, but, seriously, who did he think he was just doing that? Screwing everything up? We were friends! I didn't know he liked me. And worst of all, I didn't know if I liked him.
Did I? I never really thought of Matt in that way before. Honestly, before that kiss, I didn't know he liked me in that way.
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I stared at the blank parchment before me. I was supposed to be writing a letter to A'Marie, after all it was the proper thing to do after she sent me one telling me about her adventures in French-Land with Dion. I had plenty of things I wanted to write, mostly about how Matt had kissed me. How I didn't know if I was starting to have feelings for him. Or if I had some but never knew. How I wondered what Sirius would think of this all, had he taken the time to look. Did I still like Sirius or if I was suddenly over him. But I wrote none of my questions. Instead, I wrote a painfully dull and short letter to her. Mainly forcing myself to think up questions to ask her about Dion to get my mind off of Matt. I signed the letter and called Trix, my owl. I tied it around her leg and told her to take it to A'Marie. Trix hooted and was out of my window before I could blink. She was almost as restless as me sometimes.
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I never knew what to do with myself over holidays. I mean, I loved the excitement of no schoolwork or worries, but once they came they were boring and dull. So, I settled for reading one of my books. I was doing just that when my mum came into my room.
"Are you ok Brina?" she asked me.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I replied, although I knew the sound of my voice implied that I wasn't.
"What's wrong?" she asked, sitting on my bed.
I put my book down on the table next to me and turned to face her.
"Let's just say I have this friend and she's friends with this boy. She really likes this other boy that she can never have though. But now, she finds out that her friend likes her. What should she do?"
"Oh I see. And do your friends have names?" she asked me.
"Lydia is friends with Jordan who kissed her, but she really likes James," I lied smoothly and evenly.
"Lydia and Regan? You never mentioned them before," my mum mused.
"Lydia asked A'Marie for advice, but she didn't know what to tell her. So then A'Marie asked me about it. I feel bad for Lydia. She doesn't really stand a chance with James Potter."
"James Potter?" mum asked. "The one who-"
"-who Lily's always going on about? The one who stuck gum in my hair before leaving for vacation second year? The one Matt's friends with? Yeah, the one and only," I said.
"I think Lydia would be best off with Regan."
"That's what I said, but that girl is delusional. Thanks Mum."
"Of course, honey," she said before leaving me alone in my room with only my thoughts to keep me company.
Go out with Matt. Of course. It seemed like the simple answer. It seemed like the right answer. Yet, I was so sure that any day Sirius would open up his eyes and finally see me. That he would realize how much he loved me. I only needed to give him a little more time. He would come around. He had to.
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I thought about my dilemma day and night. Now you might not think of it as much of a dilemma but I did. This would decide my future, somehow, I told myself.
The letter I received that night changed my mind. If it hadn't come, I wouldn't of have chosen the way I did. Thank God for that letter.
It came late at night. The next day was our departure for Hogwarts.
Brina,
Meet you tomorrow at 10:53 as usual.
Love,
Matt
And although he had signed "Love, Matt" before, this time I knew he meant it. Where was my letter from Sirius? He supposedly loved me, so where was his letter to me? Why didn't he write? Matt had. He signed it "Love, Matt" too. I chased all my fantasies away. I had been so hypnotized by Sirius and his fake charm and obnoxious ways that I had missed Matt's genuine concern and subtle hints. I decided that was it.
And Matt was the one I wanted.
A/N: So I thought I'd be nice and update since tomorrow I'm going to see Saving Jane & Tyler Hilton! ::grins:: I love them. So would you be nice and review for me?