Disclaimer: Harry Potter is not mine. Sadly enough, neither is Daniel Radcliffe.
Chapter Six: Friends No(,) More
Sirius had now advanced to flirting shamelessly with me while I was talking to Matt. And I could tell Matt was getting quite annoyed. We were trying to have a conversation in the Gryffindor common room, but Sirius kept interrupting and trying to show off. Matt was none too pleased. I found it annoying too, but also a bit humorous. Luckily Lily saw this and dragged Sirius away claiming that James had been looking for him. I made a mental note to thank her later.
Matt turned to me so that he was looking me straight in the eye. "Sirius fancies you," he told me.
"I know," I said quietly, lowering my gaze. This was the first time we had ever talked about him.
"Do you fancy him though?" he asked me quite bluntly.
I looked in his eyes that held back any kind of emotion he was feeling. I couldn't stand to look into them so I averted mine. I had no answer for him.
Matt let go of my hands and stood up, I still didn't look at him. "Let me know when you make your decision," he said and exited the common room.
I felt my heart break a little as I watched him walk out.
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"Who are you going to choose?" A'Marie asked me as I sat with her at dinner at the Ravenclaw table.
"I don't know. I don't know what to do Amy. It's so hard," I said.
"I know Bri, but it has to be done," she said. "Whichever one you choose, you'll be breaking the other's heart. You have liked Sirius since forever it seems. But you've been closer to Matt than you've ever been with Sirius. You have pick. It's your decision, you have to live with it. Don't choose one because you feel sorry for them. Do it for you or you'll resent your decision. This is something you have to do by yourself," A'Marie said wisely. That's why she was put into Ravenclaw I reminded myself.
"Thanks Amy," I said.
"Of course Bri," she replied.
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A couple of days later I was in my dorm when I finally reached my decision. It was hard, too hard. I hoped I had made the right one. I made my way down into the common room and out. I followed the familiar hallways that would lead me to the Ravenclaw common room. What would I say to him? I had nothing planned that I wanted to say. I hoped everything would come out right, although it usually didn't. While I was racking my brain for something half-decent to tell him, I arrived at the common room. I gave the password and gained admittance. Without stopping to talk to anyone I marched up to the 7th year boys dorm. I knocked and a voice called for me to come in. I knew it belonged to Matt. When I stepped inside, he was sitting on his bed reading a book. He looked up at me and closed his book. I walked over to his bed, sitting on the one next to his so we were looking at each other.
"Listen," I started, "it wasn't easy. And I'm really sorry Matt. You know you mean so much to me and-"
"Just stop," he interrupted me. "I don't need to hear it. I know what you're going to say and I think it's best that you don't. You don't have to say anything. I understand. Go and be happy," he said quietly, staring into my eyes.
"I'm sorry," I said, lowering my gaze.
"I know. Me too," he replied.
"Can we still be-"
"Friends? No, I don't think so," he told me.
That hurt like nothing else. He was my best friend. He was supposed to understand. "Alright," I said and started for the door. "Good-bye Matt."
"'Bye Brina."
I walked out the door without looking back so he couldn't see the tears that were starting to fall.
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I kept my head low as I passed through their common room, hoping no one would see me and stop me. The Ravenclaw common room seemed longer than it ever was before, as did the hallways after that. I couldn't arrive at the safety of Gryffindor tower soon enough it seemed. Just as I reached the portrait of the Fat Lady, I heard a voice call out my name. I spun around and saw Sirius coming towards me with Lily and James walking together behind him. I couldn't see him, not then. I ran into the common room and dashed up the stairs to my dorm, securing the door behind me. I sat down on my bed and broke down. What had I done?
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The next day Lily woke me up before I usually would so we could talk. I explained to her what had happened with Matt. She understood and said she would tell Sirius to give me some space for awhile, which he did for the next week and a half, until he finally grew tired of waiting, I suppose. I was sitting in the Gryffindor common room, reading a letter from home when Sirius appeared next to me.
"What are you reading?" he asked me.
"A letter," I replied, not taking my eyes off of the parchment.
"From who?" he asked.
"My mum," I told him, as I folded it and tucked it into my bag. I turned to face him, looking him in his beautiful eyes. Just looking at them made my stomach twist into little knots.
"Listen Brina," he said, "will you-"
"Yes," I answered him, before he could even finish his question.
"Really?" he asked me.
"Yes," I said and kissed him.
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I earned more than a few nasty looks from various girls as I walked hand-in-hand with Sirius the following day. It was one of the best days of my life. Except at dinner when I caught Matt looking at us, his eyes met mine for a second and I could see the pain in his eyes. I was sorry, but this is what I wanted.
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"Brina!" A'Marie called out to me as Sirius and I were walking around the grounds outside.
We stopped and waited for her to catch up. "Hey Amy," I greeted her.
"Hi," she said to me. She turned to Sirius and asked him, "Could I talk to Brina? Alone please?"
He looked between the two of us and nodded, "Sure," he told her and started towards the castle.
"What is it Amy?" I asked her, since it was written all over her face that something was wrong.
"It's Matt, I'm worried about him. He's been so sad. And you haven't been talking to him," she said.
"That's because he said we couldn't be friends," I told her, as I felt the tears prick my eyes.
"What? That's not possible."
"He did, Amy. He meant it. I know he did. I'm sorry I hurt him, I would've avoided it if I could've. You know how much he means to me," I said quietly as A'Marie wrapped her arms around me and hugged me.
"I'm so sorry Bri," A'Marie said.
"Me too."
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"Night Bri," Sirius said as he kissed me goodnight.
"'Night Sirius," I said, walking up the girls' staircase with Sirius watching me from the bottom step.
A/N: Sooo this the second to last update of this story. The last part is written. The more you review the sooner I post it! Hehe, I'm so evil…
And this chapter's title? Friends No(,) More
Friends No, More (Sirius)
Friends No More (Matt)
I'm so clever. Lol j/k. Anyways, I'm off now…