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A/N ~ Well guys this is the last of the pre-written chapters, so after this the updates will slow down a bit. I'm approx 1/3 of the way through writing chapter 7 at the moment, but I have the day at home tomorrow so it should be up by tomorrow night. After that updates should be every couple of days. I'll do my best not to make it any longer than a week between updates. Thanks again for the reviews they mean a lot to me.
MOI ~ Chapter 6
It was a good thing that their bed was big, Harry thought as he watched Hermione sleep, or Hermione would probably fall off. Her arm with hand attached to his was stretched the full width of the bed while she lay on the opposite side of the bed on her stomach. She was as far away from him as she could possibly be while still holding his hand. She'd been this way for at least a week and whenever he tried to talk to her about it he'd gotten the same response, `I'm fine Harry.'
He'd known as soon as Ron had left the house that day that he'd done the wrong thing, actually he'd known as soon as the word `no' had flown out of his mouth so quickly and forcefully. He could understand that it had hurt her feelings that he'd responded like that but she wouldn't even talk to him about it. It was confusing him as well because he honestly couldn't understand why she was so hurt by it and she wouldn't explain. They couldn't tell anyone that they were married, she knew that, and ok he'd probably hurt her feelings by yelling no like that but that didn't explain why she was holding a grudge about it. It also didn't explain why they had stopped kissing or why she had started dragging him to the library everyday looking for other spells that would destroy the Horcruxes.
Basically he'd stuffed things up utterly and he had no idea how to fix things. It just made it worse that he couldn't do something nice for her as a surprise to show her how sorry he was, because he couldn't go anywhere without her or do anything without her help. He had to do something though because he was beginning to go insane. He'd just been getting used to being able to kiss her and touch her, run his fingers through her hair or press her up against a wall and it had all been taken away from him. Not holding her at night was also proving difficult, he just wasn't sleeping properly without being able to hold her in his arms.
Hermione woke up then interrupting Harry's thoughts and making him even more depressed about the situation than he had been before. They went through their morning routine now in silence, Harry staring at Hermione whenever he could and Hermione avoiding Harry's gaze when at all possible. When they were once again seated in the library surrounded by heavy old books Harry finally broke the silence.
`Do you want a divorce Hermione?' he asked quietly, he almost hoped she wouldn't hear him but he just hadn't been able to stop himself from verbalizing the thought that he hadn't been able to shake for the last week.
She finally looked at him, `Is that what you want?' She asked her voice quiet but firm and her eyes hard.
`No' Harry replied, he was now the one avoiding her gaze, he just couldn't bare to see her look at him like that.
`Then why did you ask?' She snapped her voice impatient.
`Because you've barely looked at me all week much less spoken to me and you're spending all your time looking for other ways to destroy the Horcruxes!' He snapped his frustration coming to the surface.
Hermione pursed her lips and turned back to her book `I thought I was doing you a favour.' She mumbled sullenly.
`What! Why?' He demanded, `I'm sorry I said no like that Hermione I really am but I just don't get it! Why have you gotten so angry with me about this? Do you want to tell the Weasley's is that it?'
`I don't want to talk about it Harry.' She said quietly determinedly reading her book.
`But I do!' He practically yelled at her, after a couple of seconds in which Hermione continued to ignore him, Harry decided it was time to try a different track, begging.
`Please Hermione,' he begged, `please, explain it to me. I promise I'll understand and I won't be upset or angry or laugh or anything. Please.'
Hermione lowered her head her hair falling forward and shielding her face from his view. Harry panicked realizing that she was probably crying. He dropped down onto his knees in front of her and looked up into her eyes. For the first time all week he saw the softness and warmth there that he'd always associated with Hermione.
Her brown eyes were swimming with unshed tears and Harry thought he felt his heart break.
`I'm really sorry Hermione,' he said softly his hand coming up to gently caress her cheek; `I never meant to hurt you.'
`I know Harry, I just… I know that we can't tell anyone but Ron does too, he wasn't being serious with the suggestion he was just joking. But you were so adamant and I just felt like you must really hate being married to me.' She sniffed back her tears and continued.
`I know it's not an ideal situation, it's not how I would have chosen any of this, but I, I don't know….' She trailed off.
Harry was now mentally kicking himself for not seeing it sooner; he was such a pratt sometimes, but at least now he knew what he could do to make it up to her.
`I don't hate being married to you at all,' he said his voice deep and soft, `in fact I've been rather enjoying it.'
`Really?' She asked uncertainty evident in her voice.
`Really.' He re-affirmed.
She looked into his eyes then and Harry suddenly knew he was allowed to kiss her again. He allowed the hand that had been caressing her face to slide up into her hair as he leaned up towards her. She didn't move an inch except when her eyelids fluttered closed as his lips touched hers in a sweet but chaste kiss. Harry broke off the kiss and moved his face barely an inch back from hers. Her eyelids fluttered open and they just stayed like that for a moment, their faces barely an inch apart gazing into each others eyes. Then Hermione closed the gap between them and kissed him back. This time their kiss was anything but chaste.
They both leaned into the kiss. Hermione opened her mouth to him and he pressed himself into her. The kiss deepened and progressively became more and more passionate until Harry was once more trailing kisses along her neck. Hermione wanting to get closer to him, scooted forward in her chair bringing her chest flush up against his and putting him firmly between her thighs. Harry kissed her mouth forcefully as he tried to bring her closer still and Hermione tightened her thighs around him in response. All of a sudden Harry felt it was all moving a bit quickly. He could feel his own reaction to her and knew he had to stop quickly before things got out of hand.
He broke away from her panting slightly, `Now do you believe me that I like being married to you?' He asked ginning slightly.
She smiled at him and just nodded.
Harry rested his forehead against hers and closed his eyes, still breathing heavily. Opening his eyes after a moment he dropped another small kiss on her lips.
`I've been thinking about what you said Hermione and I know this isn't the way you would have wanted it to be and I know I can't make it perfect but I can still try.'
`What do you mean?' She asked her brow creasing in confusion.
`Well ideally you'd want your first time to be special right?' Harry asked uncertainly, stumbling over his words a little foolishly.
Hermione just nodded looking at him with her eyes wide.
`Well I want to make it as special as I can,' He paused `but I don't really know how, so I was wondering if you could help me.'
`How can I help you?' she asked hesitantly.
`Well I guess, I need you to tell me how you imagined your first time would be.'
A/N ~ I hope you all don't think Hermione is OOC in this chapter, truthfully she is a little BUT remember the canaries turned bullets? Even our lovely rational Hermione is a girl and goes a bit funny when her feelings are hurt, and Harry really hurt her feelings. Also Harry is little more confident/assertive in terms of emotional stuff than I usually expect him to be but it was a result of having had a week of Hermione barely acknowledging him that did it. Anyway let me know what you think. Please review
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