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Chapter 4
Once again the sun was pouring onto my face. This time though I was much less comfortable. I realized I was still down in the common room after last night. I opened my eyes and grimaced at the brightness that welcomed me. I looked down and noticed that a blanket was covering my body and frowned. I didn't have a blanket last night… I pulled my slender hand from under the blanket and looked at my watch. It was only 9 o' clock so I relaxed. It was Sunday and no one would be up for at least an hour. I slowly pulled the blanket off of me about to make a speedy escape, when I heard a loud snore erupt from the couch beside my chair. My head snapped over there and I saw James cuddled up into a lumpy ball and sleeping. I had to bite back a laugh as I looked at his sleeping face. His hair was tousled more than usual and his mouth was hanging ajar, drool running like a small river onto the pillow beneath his head. His face was contorted into a dream-like smile, and he looked utterly adorable. He had stayed there all night with me, giving up his cozy bed for the somewhat lumpy couch. I smiled at the thought. I slowly started to tiptoe out of the room so James wouldn't catch me, when I heard a voice call out.
"Lily?"
My face fell slightly, and I sighed and turned around looking into the face of the man that captivated my thoughts. Part of me wanted to run back to him, grab him, and pull him into my arms, kissing him senseless. The other part of me wanted to run and hide. I decided to go somewhere between the two and I just stood there staring. I think his face fell a bit, but I wasn't sure. I couldn't go to him. He didn't show up before I fell asleep. It was a sign, that's what I had told myself the night before. I knew I wanted him though. So bad… He stared into my eyes as if he was pounding something into my mind. Tell me, please just tell me, he seemed to be saying. I bit my lip.
"I- Well… Umm…" I stumbled. My stomach was resting on the floor it had dropped so low. His eyes were pleading and sorrowful as I stared into their hazel depths. I opened my mouth to speak, but closed it quickly. The irrational part of me told me to tell him, but it wasn't that easy. I couldn't do it. I was a total wuss and he knew it as well as I did. Ok, I told myself, don't be scared. The worst thing that could happen is that he would reject you, and what are the chances of that? He wants you to tell him. Siri wants you to tell him, Remus wants you to tell him. I want you to tell him.
"Ok," I started off feeling completely vulnerable. "James, I… I want to be with you. I want to be with you so bad you wouldn't believe it. I'm... I'm just scared. My mind's telling me to run away from you, and stay away forever, but my heart keeps saying go for it. Just do it. So… I'm listening to my heart James. I'm listening for you."
His eyes seemed to soften even more, and I knew I would have cried had I not ran out of tears from the past few days. My face was heating up rapidly, and I could feel it burning my face. My eyes lowered to the ground and I stared at my unpainted toes. My stomach must be at the bottom of the dungeons by now. My nerves were taking control of my body, and I started to bite my lip. Out of nowhere I felt a pair of hands wrap themselves around my body, and I graciously accepted the hug.
"Lily…" He muttered into my ear. "Thank you."
He pulled me closer, and seemed to be savoring the moment. Finally after a while he pulled away from me and looked into my eyes.
"Lily… Be my girlfriend?"
I smiled nervously, and nodded my head. James smiled broadly and pulled me into another hug. I pulled away from him, smiled, and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Hey, I'm going to go get dressed, ok?"
"Yeah, sure. I probably should too."
We both walked in opposite directions towards our dorms with stupid grins on our faces. I climbed the stone steps carefully and precisely one step at a time. My head was up in the clouds and I was elated. I touched my lips and thought of what I had just done. I didn't think I had it in me honestly. I stopped at the door that led to my dorm and just stood there. Hopefully I could pull off a lie of where I had been all night. Or maybe no one was awake yet. I hoped for the latter. I reached my hand up and twisted the glass knob until the door opened. I let go, and it swung forwards. In the dorm were five beds all around the room. I sighed in relief when I counted four sleeping bodies. I walked over to my wardrobe and pulled out a clean pair of jeans and a t-shirt. I put them on quietly and slipped a pair of black converse onto my feet. I slowly tiptoed to the door and shut it quietly as I slipped out. As I walked down the stairs I heard voices whispering and wondered who it was. When I finally got to the bottom I saw Sirius and James talking fast and quiet. James had a worried look on his face and Sirius looked… well… serious. I wrinkled my brow and walked over towards them.
"James, Siri, what's wrong?"
Both of their heads snapped towards me when they heard my voice. Sirius was the first to respond.
"Lil, Remus is hurt real badly. He's in the infirmary right now. Pomfrey is worried."
James gave Sirius a look I couldn't read, but Sirius ignored it.
"What happened? Is he going to be ok?"
Sirius looked over to me and replied, "Look, we can talk about this later. We need to go to Remus now."
I nodded my head, and the three of us quickly made our way to the infirmary.
As we walked into the room I shuddered from the feeling of sheer pain and misery that seemed to fill it. I walked over to the one occupied bed and gasped. Remus was laying face up, past out. All over his body were scratches that varied in sizes. Some were small and unimportant; while others were so big Madam Pomfrey wasn't even able to wrap them. We all took seats around his weak body and waited.
It was probably around two hours later when Remus finally regained consciousness. He looked around painfully and caught my eye. He wrinkled his brow and looked to James and Sirius. Sirius just nodded to him, and stood up.
"Hey James, I fancy some breakfast. How `bout you?"
He gave James a look, and James stood.
"Yeah, sounds good. We'll bring you guys something."
And with that they both walked away.
Immediately I asked the question that had been plaguing my thoughts for the past two hours.
"Remus, what happened?"
He looked down to his hands and sighed.
"Lily… I'm a werewolf."
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