Disclaimer: *sigh* I don't own Harry Potter or any of its characters…
Chapter 8
The days passed by quickly, like the ticking second hand upon the large grandfather clock in my house. Everything seemed to blur by, but I was happy. Before I knew it, James and I were standing together at the train station in Hogsmeade saying our farewells to Remus, Sirius, and Peter. James and I were staying for the Christmas Holidays, and we were the only seventh years in the school. I was glad James had elected to stay with me, and not go home. My sister was spending the holidays at home with my mum, so I decided to stay at the school. James understood, as he knew the old horse, and volunteered to stay with me. For the first time, James and I were going to be alone with no chance of interruption. We had decided we rather liked the past time of snogging, but the others seemed to like the past time of ruining the moment. James and I had been together since the end of October and were still as happy as we were in the beginning of our relationship.
I was bundled up in my cloak and shivering. It was absolutely freezing outside, and I couldn't wait to get back inside to the warm castle behind me. I was counting down the minutes until I would be back inside warm with James beside me.
Sirius leaned out the window of his compartment, and yelled out, "You two be careful, and remember, safe sex!" I rolled my eyes, and saw that James had flipped Sirius off. The train was starting to move, so I waved my hand goodbye to all of the guys. James nudged me with his shoulder. "You ready to go back up? Lunch is about to start."
I sighed and smiled, "That's all you think about isn't it? Food!" He smiled and took my hand.
"No, I think about you more, and I'm ready to have my two favorite things together! Food and your gorgeous face."
I smiled, and leaned my head onto his shoulder. "Whatever you say mister."
James and I walked back to the carriages that would take us back to the castle, and climbed in. The ride was mostly silent, but every once and a while James would throw out some random comment about the weather or cheese or donuts. After what seemed like forever, the carriage pulled to a stop, and me and James climbed out. James grabbed my hand and practically dragged me all the way to the great hall. Finally we reached the doors, and I had to grab at my side to numb the pain that had come from the running.
"Come on, I'm starving!" James said, and pulled me along yet again.
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After James had finished eating the entire table of food we both headed up to the common room to relax. It had been a fairly easy day and I wanted nothing more than to just lie down and be lazy. When we got to the couches I walked over and fell onto one happily. It had been a long time since I had the time to just laze around what with N.E.W.T.S. coming up. James walked up to the couch and moved my outstretched legs so he could sit beside me. It would be weird to be alone with him for the next few weeks.
"So Ms. Evans, what shall we do in this completely deserted room?" James asked me with a smile on his face. I gave him a look as if I was thinking really hard.
"I don't know Mr. Potter. Do you have any ideas?"
"Just a few," he said lightly and leaned over and kissed me softly on the lips. We began to snog like usual. It was a nice feeling knowing that we wouldn't be interrupted for once. James began to kiss me harder and much more passionate than usual, and I felt his hand slip up my shirt. My stomach began to drop as I felt him reach up toward my bra. He was about to unclasp it when I finally pulled away. James looked into my eyes quizzically and I reached behind me and pulled his hand out of my shirt.
"I'm sorry James, I can't let you do that," I muttered, and got off of the couch.
"Lily, I'm sorry I just got carried away," he told me softly. I looked at his apologetic eyes and felt my insides drop to the ground. Something had shown itself in my mind that moment, and I needed to think about it. I turned around and ran out of the common room straight to the room of requirement. My mind was racing, but I just kept running. Lily, you are stupid. You told yourself you would never run from James again.
When the door appeared in front of me I ran in and slammed it behind me. The room had a cozy feel, and there was an armchair sitting in the middle. I walked quickly over to it and sat down feeling my frail trembling body sink into it. With my head resting in my quivering hands I thought about what had happened in the common room. James had tried to take things farther. Farther than I have ever been before. I defiantly wasn't ready for that so I jumped away from his eager body. Then, when I looked into his eyes I realized something I couldn't believe true. I tried and tried to convince myself it wasn't true, though nothing seemed to work. I considered trying to use a spell, but decided it wasn't worth it. I would probably end up turning myself into a duck. Finally, after so very long, I understood my realization was true, though I didn't want it to be. Sitting there in silence I finally accepted the fact that I was in love with James Potter.
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