Chapter 5: Heartache
"To put it simply, I just want to be someone's everything."
Still Saturday, September 13th, 1979
Lily ventured down into the Heads' room. The last bit of sunlight streamed into the room from the windows. The sun was setting over the lake. James was sitting on a couch reading. "James?" she said walking over towards him.
He looked up at her with his gorgeous hazel eyes.
"Um…listen." Lily sat down next to him. Why was she so nervous? "I just wanted to thank you. For yesterday. When you saved me. If it weren't for you, I'd probably be dead…so, thanks," Lily said quickly.
"No problem."
There was silence and tension. Well, had always been tension, but never this kind. At least not for Lily, and she was uncomfortable. What should she say? Do? Why did she suddenly feel an urge to kiss him?
Sarah burst into the Heads' Room. "Lily! Our darling Cassidy and Remus are officially going together!" Sarah yelled. Then she noticed James and Lily sitting together on a couch. "Hey guys!"
"What?" James asked.
"Re-mus and Cas-si-dy are go-ing to-get-her," Sarah pronounced loudly.
"That's great," Lily said, relieved. Sarah always came to her rescue from awkward situations. Lily wasn't sure if Sarah even knew she did it.
"Lily darling, can I borrow that book of yours?" Sarah asked heading up to Lily's room.
"Which one?" Lily asked, following Sarah.
"I don't know. That one that you have with all those different things in it.." Sarah said as she closed the door behind them.
"Thank you Sarah!" Lily exclaimed, sitting on her bed.
"Why?" Sarah asked, though she knew perfectly well why Lily was thanking her.
"Nothing. You just saved me from a very awkward moment," Lily told her. "Come to think of it…you usually do. How do you know?" Lily asked Sarah. Sarah's eyes went wide open. Her mouth opened and closed, as if she were going to say something, but then thought better of it. "Sarah?"
"You're my best friend, Lily,' Sarah said.
"Yeah? So?" Lily asked uncertainly.
"You're gonna be mad that I didn't tell you," Sarah said blatantly.
"What is it? Just tell me already!"
"I can read minds. And feelings. That's how I knew you need to get out of there," Sarah said quickly.
"What! Like legilimency?" Lily asked.
Sarah shrugged, "I guess."
"And you didn't tell me! How long did you know!" Lily exclaimed
"Sorry. About a year. But I wasn't sure what it was. I thought I was going crazier. I've sorta got it down now, I guess. Stop looking at me like that. I didn't do anything wrong. It's not my fault I'm crazy!"
"You're not crazy, Sarah. Just a tad, though," Lily laughed. "So are Cassidy and Remus really going together or did you just make that up?"
"No, they really are. He asked her out this morning in the common room while we were still in your room. Well, except for Lane. She was there to witness it."
"Aw. Good for Cass. I know how much she fancies him," Lily said. "Let's go see her."
Lily and Sarah went down to the Heads' room. James and Sirius seemed to be arguing, but stopped when they came down, and whispered quietly. Lily caught James' eye and smiled slightly. He smiled back at her. Smiling at Potter now, are we? No, I don't like him. Just a smile. Crap. I shouldn't of have done that. Lily fought with herself, as she climbed out the portrait hole. She turned around to face Sarah, but she wasn't there. She saw Sarah standing with Sirius giving her a look that said 'help me' before the portrait swung shut. Interesting. Should I save her? Nah…Sirius did look, well…serious. I'll let her go this one time. Besides! Cassidy and Remus are going together! Lily thought happily as she entered the Gryffindor common room.
"Lily!" Lane said happily when she saw Lily. "Did you hear? About Cassidy and Remus?"
"Yes," Lily answered.
Lane rolled her eyes. "Sarah told you."
"Yeah," Lily said.
"She ruins all my fun. Where were you this morning?" Lane asked her.
Sarah didn't tell her? Strange… "I was sleeping," Lily told her.
"And all of today?"
"Uh…working on some stuff," Lily lied.
"I haven't seen Sarah. I mean, I know she's mad at me, but…well, whatever. She never stays mad long. Oh well. I've gotta go see Alden!" Lane said happily, all traces of anger from when she mentioned Sarah were gone.
"Lily!" Julia said, and pulled Lily onto a couch, only to be surrounded by the rest of the 6th years. Lily smiled. She knew they looked up to her, and chatted with them over mindless subjects until Sarah showed up next to them.
"Hey guys," Sarah greeted them.
"Sarah, I saw you with Sirius last night. What were you guys doing?" Kirsten asked her.
"Nothing," Sarah told her.
"No. What happened?" Kirsten asked her again.
Oh yea. She was with Sirius in the broom closet. Last week sometime. Poor thing…so hung up on that prat. "Nothing happened. He just wanted to rant and rave about something or other. I really didn't pay attention," Sarah said quickly. Kirsten looked a bit relieved.
"Kirsten, you're so hung up on Sirius. You need to get over him," Julia told her. Rachel and Elisha nodded in agreement.
"I think you guys are wrong," Kirsten said. "He's really sweet when he wants to be…"
Lily and Sarah exchanged glances, and left the group of girls alone. They headed up to the 7th year dorm.
"You didn't tell Lane what happened?" Lily asked Sarah.
Sarah shrugged, "No. She was being a prat."
"Speaking of prats, what did Sirius want?"
"Ah, nothing."
"What did he want, Sarah?" Lily asked her again.
"I think, to apologize. But I'm not sure. He seemed sorry but he never actually said that he was…he's a bit strange…" Sarah mused.
"Sorry to say it, but so are you. You two would make a perfect couple."
"Shut up Lily."
"I'm serious. You should go out with him."
"Uh-huh. Just like you're going to go out with James."
"If I go out with James, you have to go out with Sirius," Lily told her.
"No way. Lily, darling, I DO NOT like Sirius, and I WILL NOT go out with him under any circumstances."
Lily smiled. "But I think Sirius likes you."
"I don't care. James likes you, but you won't go out with him."
"You should give Sirius a chance."
"You should give James a chance."
"James is different. He's a complete arse."
"You're such a hypocrite Lily. The day that you go out with James Potter is the day that I kiss Sirius Black."
"Deal?" Lily said, holding out her hand.
"Fine," Sarah agreed, and they shook on it.
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Monday, September 15th, 1979
"Who's that?" Sarah asked curiously, looking at the black haired and brown-eyed boy sitting at the Hufflepuff table next to Alden and Garret.
"I don't know," Lily said, "I've never seen him before."
"I'm going to go find out," Sarah decided and made her way to the Hufflepuff table and sat down with Lia, Celia, Danni, and Katie.
"It's a good thing Sarah's such good friends with Lia," Lane said.
"Why?" Lily asked.
"Because Lia is the 'gossip girl', even if she doesn't know it," Lane told her. "She knows everyone's business. Mostly because they tell her," Lane said.
"O-kay then…" Lily said.
"His name is Pierre. He's from France and went to Beauxtons. He's in our year," Sarah said sitting down with them again.
He is so hot! Sarah mouthed to Lily, who stifled a laugh. Sarah scowled.
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Tuesday, September 16th, 1979
"Yes Cass, he really is," Lily agreed, although she had no idea what she was agreeing too. Cassidy was going on and on about Remus. Lily had stopped listening after 10 minutes.
"He's the sweetest guy I've ever met. I don't know what I did to deserve him. I'm so lucky," Cassidy said happily, sitting on Lily's bed.
Lily nodded her head.
"Remus is so nice. He has the greatest laugh. He always makes me smile. He told me I was beautiful the other day. It was so sweet…"
Lily gave a sigh of relief as Sarah walked into Lily's bedroom with a bright smile on her face, and collapsed in one of Lily's chairs.
"What happened to you?" Lily asked her.
"He's gorgeous. He really is," Sarah said dreamily.
"Who?" Cassidy and Lily asked.
"Pierre," Sarah sighed. "I'm in love with him."
"What?" Lily asked.
"You can't love him, Sarah. You don't even know him," Cassidy said.
Sarah sighed, "I think I do."
"No, you don't. I don't know if I love Remus and he and I are going out!"
"So? That doesn't mean that I can't love Pierre," Sarah said in her defense.
"I bet you don't know what love is," Cassidy said.
"How would you know?" Sarah shot back.
"Because I do. Why do you love him?"
"Well, he's gorgeous and he seems nice."
"So his body? Typical."
"What do you mean 'typical'?" Sarah asked Cassidy. Lily could get away with those comments, but she was Lily. Cassidy was just Cassidy, not Sarah's best friend.
"You like him because he's hot. Not because of who he is."
"Why don't you just go screw Remus or something, Cass? Maybe that'll make you happy instead of being so miserable and bursting other people's bubbles."
Cassidy stormed out of Lily's room, furious.
"Well that was great," Sarah said sarcastically. "I can't believe her."
Lily just sighed, not wanting to get in between the two.
"Well? Aren't you going to say anything?" Sarah asked her.
"No. What happened with Pierre?"
Sarah smiled. "I talked to him today. He's really nice, Lily. Plus, he has this gorgeous smile. And his accent! Totally to die for! He's awesome. And I think-maybe-he likes me too? I dunno. He was sweet, and sort of shy. I totally like him. Ah, everything I want in a guy…"
"Sure. But what about Sirius? I swear that he likes you!"
"Grrr. Lily, get your mind off of Sirius. Maybe you like him, the way you talk about him all of the time."
"Nope, I have enough to deal with this year. No guys. Now go apologise to Cassidy."
"Why? She started it!" Sarah whined.
"Fine. But I'm not taking sides."
"Which means you're totally with me, but you don't want to make darling, precious, Cassidy mad."
Lily grinned.
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Thursday, September 18th, 1979
"Do we really need Hogsmeade dates?" Sarah asked. "Can't the three of us go? 'Cause Lane'll probably be with Alden again."
"I don't care," Lily said. Lily and Sarah looked to Cassidy, who avoided their gaze.
"I have a date," Cassidy said quietly.
"Oh yeah," Lily remembered. "Remus."
Cassidy blushed.
The door opened and Lane rushed in, almost in tears. "Lane! What's wrong?" Cassidy asked her. Lane shook her head and sat down on her bed. Lily, Sarah, and Cassidy did too, positioning themselves around her. "Lane, what's wrong?" Cassidy repeated.
"Alden," Lane said, and two tears leaked out of her eyes and fell onto the scarlet bedspread.
"Alden what?" Cassidy asked.
"He was kissing, no, snogging KATIE like there was no tomorrow!" Lane exclaimed.
Cassidy gave her a hug.
"What do I do?" Lane asked them. No one replied. Lane was the one they went to with their problems. She was the problem-solver. They were not.
"I don't know," Sarah answered.
"Well, you're not going to sit here and cry," Lily told her, handing Lane a tissue. "No guy is worth tears if he does that to you," Lily told her. Lane brushed away her tears. "You'll act like nothing is wrong. Hmmm. Sarah, find out what happened, no I will. Sorry, you get distracted too easily. You need to help Lane. We need to find some new guys for Lane. Cassidy, you can do that. I'll be the mastermind," Lily said.
"Wait. Why can't I be the mastermind?" Sarah asked.
"Because it's my plan," Lily told her. "Everyone got it?"
"Yes," they all agreed.
"Wait, no. What are we going to do?" Sarah asked.
"Get back at Alden," Lily said.
"How?" Sarah asked.
"What would hurt him more than anything?" Lily asked Lane.
Lane thought for a moment and then told her, "Me and well, somebody else."
"Good, we'll go off that," Lily said.
"Who though?" Lily asked Sarah and Cassidy. "We've got the Marauders at our disposal."
"No, not them. Then he'll think it's been going on," Cassidy said.
"True," Lily took this into consideration. "Maybe a Ravenclaw…or perhaps a Hufflepuff."
"So we have Ewan, Bryce, Dayton, Chal…" Cassidy started to list.
"Chal's going with Stella, a 6th year Ravenclaw," Sarah said. "Dayton…isn't he going with Jessica? That girl in 5th year? I'm not sure…Ewan is just dull. Not him. And Bryce is going out with Adalyn the Slut."
"Ok, Brian, Amos-"
"-I don't want to deal with Amos," Lane said quickly.
"Me neither," Lily said.
"Garret-"
"-Lia!" Sarah said happily.
"Alden, and Pierre," Cassidy finished the list.
"Alden doesn't like Pierre that much. He says Pierre has it so easy, because he's French and girls love French guys," Lane said quietly.
"Great!" Sarah exclaimed. "So Pierre it is then!"
"Wait. Don't you like Pierre, Sarah?" Lily asked her.
"Yeah. So? Lane is like my best friend too!" Sarah said.
"And what if Lane actually falls for Pierre?" Lily asked, narrowing her eyes. She didn't need Sarah and Lane not talking to each other. Sarah and Cassidy had just made up earlier that day.
"Then that's what happens. Lay off Lily, I'm not going to hate Lane because she likes the guy I like. I don't even know if I like him," Sarah said calmly.
"Hello guys! I'm right here," Lane said. " It's not like I can't hear you. I'm not going to fall for Pierre. I want Alden back…But I'm not sure if I'll take him back."
"So then you could stay with Pierre," Lily pointed out.
"Whatever. We'll worry about it when the time comes," Sarah said serenely.
"Why are you so calm?" Lily asked suspiciously.
Sarah shrugged.
"Because now she can go out with Sirius, knowing that Pierre is with Lane," Cassidy said.
"No. I don't like Sirius. He's a bit of a prat. But he's bloody gorgeous, I'll give him that," Sarah said.
"Ok. So then Pierre it is," Lily said.
"It needs a name," Sarah pointed out.
"All good missions and operations have good names," Lane agreed.
"Operation Kiss and Tell has now begun," Lily said.
"Kiss and Tell?" Sarah asked doubtfully.
"What? Do you have a better name?" Lily asked her.
"Not now…But I will!" Sarah declared.
"Sure Sarah."
A/N: Introducing…Pierre! Yay! Lol. He's sorta based off of a real person…anyone know who? There was a clue in the previous chapter…Well, the real one isn't from France though… Anyways, if I get lots of nice reviews (or helpful ones) I'll post another chapter before I go to off to school on Tuesday!