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Hate and Love

Iloveharrypotter17

...my favorite movie actresses. I know. It's not very exciting for you all to find that out. It might be a bit depressing actually, thinking the names would have something fabulous all in common. Lol. But I do love those names. Kirsten Dunst, Julia Stiles, Elisha Cuthbert and Rachel McAdams.

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.

Chapter 8: Mixed Emotions & Anticipation

Jamie: Without suffering there could be no compassion.

Landon: Yeah, well tell that to those who suffer. - A Walk To Remember

Saturday, October 3rd, 1977

"So then, October 19th?" James asked as he sat back in his chain the room of requirement.

"Yeah," Sarah said.

"Everyone in?" Sirius asked, eyeing Lily.

"I'm in," James said.

"'Course I am," Sarah answered.

Lily sighed, "Count me in too."

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Tuesday, October 7th, 1977

Lily walked into the common room with Sarah and Lane behind her. It was quiet, except for someone's sobs. Lily aw Julia crying. Kirsten was hugging her and the rest of the common room was watching the two. Lily walked over to the group of 6th year girls. "What's wrong?" she asked Elisha.

"Julia's dad is…dead," Elisha whispered quietly.

Lily and Lane exchanged looks. Lily didn't know what to do. Both of her parents were still alive, thankfully.

Sarah took Julia by the hand and led her up the girls' staircase. No one dared to follow them.

People slowly started talking in hushed whispers.

Lily asked, "What happened?"

"We were sitting here when that first year, Reyana, told Julia that McGonagall wanted to see her. So she went and when she came back she was crying and managed to tell us that her father was killed by Death Eaters before she started sobbing," Kirsten told them.

"That's horrible," Lily said.

"She still has a mum, doesn't she?" Lane asked.

Kirsten nodded. "I loved her dad, he was always so nice to me."

"I know, me too," Elisha agreed.

"I hope she'll be okay," Rachel said.

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Thursday, October 9th, 1977

"Sill on for the 19th?" Sarah asked Sirius as she passed him in the hall on her way to the Heads Room.

"Yeah," Sirius answered before he ran to catch up with Dara, his current snog buddy.

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Monday, October 13th, 1977

The week passed quietly. The whole school knew what happened to Julia's dad. The teachers let her slide on a few assignments.

The school was terrified. Who would be Voldemort's next victim?

The students didn't have to wait long.

Lily was reading a book in the Heads Room when James came in.

"Lewis Orldy's parents are dead," he told her. "From Hufflepuff."

"Oh no. I can't believe this. Voldemort?"

James nodded.

"He can't keep doing this. He needs to be stopped. James, why doesn't anyone stop him?" Lily questioned him.

"He's too powerful, Lily. They're trying."

"It's not enough."

"I know. When I get out there, I'm going to fight him," James said admirably as he looked out the window.

Lily looked at James, the last sunlight hitting his face, a determined look on it. Lily looked at him, and knew, that he did grow up. He would do great things. "Me too."

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Wednesday, October15th, 1977

"We're not seriously still going to go through with this?" Lily asked them.

"I'm Sirius, and yes it is going to happen," Sirius replied.

"But look what just happened! Would this really be the best time?" Lily questioned him.

"I think it is. We need to laugh now. Especially with what's been going on outside," James answered her.

"He's right," Sarah said quietly.

Lily shook her head.

"You're still in, right?" James asked.

Lily didn't respond.

"Come on Lily! We need you," Sarah said.

"Fine," Lily muttered as the three cheered.

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Thursday, October 16th, 1977

"Lanie, come on," Sarah prompted her as she rounded another corner, Lane still behind her.

"You need to dedicate yourself. Is this what you want?" a high voice said from classroom that should have been empty at night. That sounded like Ember. Merlin, I can't stand her. Or her voice. Sarah passed the door, it was open a crack so she looked through it for a second. A boy that resembled Peter was in there, but Sarah didn't get to look again before Lane came sprinting up to her.

"Filch is coming!" Lane said and the two ran to the picture of the Fat Lady.

"Verasilium," Sarah said and the portrait swung open.

"That was close," Lane said as they made their way up the steps.

"I know! Thank Merlin he didn't catch us! I cannot stand him," Sarah said.

"And he smells!"

"Ew! Yeah!" Sarah agreed.

"And that stupid little cat of his…"

"It keeps getting fatter and fatter. I'm surprised it can even run around the castle like that."

Lane opened the door to their dorm and they snuck inside. Cassidy was already sleeping.

Sarah laid down on her bed and fell asleep, not giving what she saw in the classroom a second thought.

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Sunday, October 19th, 1977

Willy Wonka: The suspense is terrible..... I hope it lasts. - Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

"What time is it?" Sarah asked.

"Nine," Lily answered.

"How many more hours is that?" Sarah queried.

Lily replied, "3 ½."

"3 ½! I'm going to die of impatient-ness and excitement until then!" Sarah exclaimed, hopping out of her chair in Lily's room.

"Well don't. We need you. And I'm not doing it alone."

"What am I supposed to do until then?"

"Read," Lily suggested as she took notes from her book.

Sarah scoffed, "Read? I'm going to look at your pictures Lily."

"Whatever."

Sarah picked up a picture of all four of them. Lily was in a black dress and Sarah was in a hot pink one. They both had tiaras on and long, elegant evening gloves on. Lane was wearing a mermaid-type dress. It was translucent green. Cassidy had a while gown on with angel wings. All of them had masks on for the Halloween Masquerade Ball the previous year.

"Here, take our picture, please?" Sarah asked Kirsten. She nodded and Sarah gave her beloved camera to Kirsten.

"Smile everyone!" Kirsten said as she took the picture.

"Thank you Kirsten!" Sarah said. "Let's go to the ball!"

They made their way to the Great Hall, which looked as fabulous as it did every Halloween.

"I can't believe I let you talk me into being a princess," Lily said as she entered the hall.

"I know, me neither. It was a fabulous idea!" Sarah answered. "Now let's dance!" Sarah dragged Lily and Cassidy onto the dance floor. Lane had gone to find Alden.

"How comes we're not having a Halloween Ball this year?"

Lily shrugged. "Holiday Ball this year."

"Really? Oh that's awesome!" Sarah examined the pictures. There was one of Lily, Lane, and Cassidy cheering at a Quidditch match in 5th year.

"Go Sarah!" Lily called as Sarah threw the quaffle and it went through the middle hoop.

"Gryffindor scores again! They now lead 30 to 10!" Kemper Weliel announced, a 7th year Hufflepuff at the time.

"Yes! She scored!" Lane yelled.

"Potter has spotted the snitch!" Kemper's voice said through out the stands. "He goes down into a dive with Keskal on his tail! They're getting close to the ground…and Keskal pulls up. James is holding the snitch! Gryffindor wins!"

Lily, Lane, and Cassidy yelled and cheered as loud as they could. "Let's go see Sarah!" Lily said and led them down the stairs to find Sarah.

One was of Lily and Cassidy in crazy outfits at Cassidy's house. They had found a trunk of old clothes in Cassidy's attic, so the three of them tried them on and Sarah had taken the picture.

"Ah! Sarah, I love that outfit on you!" Lily laughed at Sarah's denim jeans with patches and a tie-dye shirt that was huge on her .

Sarah stuck her tongue out and laughed too. "I love yours Lily." Lily was wearing a knee-length skirt that had different colored flowers on it and a see through blue blouse with a red shirt underneath.

"Somebody should take a picture," Cassidy said, wearing an old orange and hot pink dress with a wild zebra pattern down the middle.

"I do have my camera! I completely forgot!" Sarah said as she got her camera out of its case and snapped the picture.

Sarah picked up another picture. It was one of her and Lily last year, by the lake.

"What do you think of James?" Sarah had asked her.

Lily replied, "I still don't like him. He is so arrogant and annoying. Yesterday he had Snape stuck to the wall!"

"That's pretty clever."

"Hey Evans! Will you go out with me?" James yelled from across the lake.

"NO!" Lily yelled back.

Sarah looked at another photograph she had taken 6th year…

"Lily he had no right to call you that!" James protested.

"I don't care! It doesn't give you the right to hex him into next week!" Lily retorted. Sarah snapped the photo then. "Sarah!"

"Did you get my good side?" James asked her.

"Insufferable!" Lily yelled before she stormed off to the girls' staircase insulting James all the way up.

There was another picture of Cassidy and Lily together from 2nd year.

"Take a picture of me and my best friend," Lily told Sarah as she and Cassidy put their arms around each other' shoulders and grinned. Sarah took the picture.

"Great. Now will you take one of me and Lane?" Sarah had asked Lily.

Lily and Sarah weren't best friends until 3rd year. Lily and Cassidy had been best friends as well as Sarah and Lane.

There was one last picture of Lily and her parents. It didn't move like all of the others, it was a muggle picture.

After she was done with the pictures Sarah sat down and started to hum.

"What are you humming?" Lily asked, irritated.

"I don't know. I'm making it up as I go."

"Can't you do something else?"

"I know! I'll write a letter to Mish!"

Lily asked, "Who's Mish?"

"My favoritest cousin!" Sarah took out a piece of parchment from Lily's desk and sat down to write. "My Dearest Cousin Mish," Sarah said aloud as she wrote it down. "How are you? I'm sorry I haven't written in so long. I've been very busy with…sports, schoolwork, boys, and trying to get my very best friend to go out with James Potter, an incredibly charming, sweet, and handsome guy. There is a gorgeous new boy from France and his name is Pierre. I know you would like him. -Lily? How much longer?"

"2 ½ hours."

"Still? Oh well- I was so happy to receive your letter. I'm glad you had so much fun in Hawaii. I would love to go there. It sounds so beautiful. Besides, I want to get lei'd. -Lily! I'm going to call you Lilei from now on. Instead of Lily (Lileee), Lilei (Lilay)!"

"Sure Sarah. I don't care."

"Awesome- Next time you go Mish, take me with you! Please? Do you really think your parents would let me come over for Christmas? That would be so cool!"

"Mish lives in America, right?

"Yeah."

"So you're going to the states for Christmas?"

"Yeah. Maybe. It depends on if her parents say yes or no- I would love to go to New York City. You've been everywhere Mish. You're so lucky. I'm very sorry to hear that Mr. Kochaz is being evil to you. That sucks. It's ok, I don't think my teacher, Professor McGonagall likes me too much. I think she thinks I'm too loud or I don't pay attention or something."

"Sarah, you usually don't pay attention."

"-But I get it anyways!- We're going to have a Holiday Ball. I think it's going to be exciting. Do you have lots of balls? Or just those dances? How are things on the Nathan front? Are you guys going together yet? Can you send me a picture of him? Maybe you two together. And I'm still not going together with anyone."

"You're not going with Sirius?"

"-No! We're friends. Besides, isn't he snogging some girl from Hufflepuff?"

"Claire, I think her name is."

"Yeah, he and I are so not together. Time?"

"2 hours yet."

"Damn- Write me back soon! Just send it to my dad."

"Why does she do that?"

"I can't send my beautiful owl Astrum to her house! She's a muggle! She sends them to my dad by muggle mail and he sends them to me by owl post and visa versa."

"How are you related to her?"

"She's actually my second cousin. But she is my favorite.- Love Your Cousin, Sarah.- Now isn't that a fabulous letter?"

"Uh, sure Sarah."

"I'm going to the owlery."

"Good for you."

"I'm going to send it to Mish."

"I thought you said you had to send it to your dad first."

"Yeah. Hm. I should write him a note," Sarah said and pulled out another piece of parchment. "Dear Daddy, I hope everything is well at home. I'll write you a longer letter soon. I'm very busy with schoolwork and whatnot. Will you please send this letter to Michelle? Thank you Father! Love, Sarah."

"Awesome letter."

"I think so too. Now I'm going to owl them," Sarah said and left the room.

"Crazy, that girl is," Lily told her empty room. She crossed her room and put her book away. As she started to turn away from the bookcase the floor squeaked underneath her. She looked down at the floorboards. The one her left foot was on seemed to be smaller than the rest and left a tiny gap between it and the next one. There was a small hole near the one end. Lily stuck her finger in it and pulled it upwards. To her surprise, it lifted up and revealed a small space underneath. Lily kneeled on the floor and found a notebook, a jewelry box, and a diary. She took out the diary. It was red with white flowers on it. Inside of it written:

This Diary Belongs To:

Gabriella Sullivan

Lily turned the page of the yellowed diary, curious as to who she was.

August, 1957

Mum just bought me this diary at Flourish & Blott's. She bought another one for Brianna as well. Except hers is blue with the white flowers. Summer is almost over, and I'll be heading back to Hogwarts. Brianna spent almost the whole summer at my house. Her parents are muggles, but I think she said that her aunt is a witch? I am not sure. She's an only child. I pity her. I have an older brother, Warner. He works for the ministry now. Mum is allowing Brianna and I to explore Diagon Alley tomorrow on our own like she did last year.

Lily looked at her door, just to make sure that Sarah wasn't about to come in. Who are these people? Gabriella? Brianna? Was one of them Head Girl? It was probably Gabriella, this is her diary…Lily thought as she looked around her room, wondering if any clues to who this girl was. She turned the page in Gabriella's Diary.

Early September of 1957

Brianna thinks that Harold fancies me. I do not think so though. I am Head Girl and Crison is Head Boy. He is in Ravenclaw. We share our own dorm. I thought Harold would be, but he isn't. Life is boring. Thank goodness I have Brianna. Classes are boring. I wish something exciting would happen.

Charlie just asked me to go with him to Hogsmeade. I said yes, of course. I have a date! Brina does not. She fancies Nicholas, but he does not fancy her.

This is Brianna Turcotte, Gabriella's best friend! I found this diary in her desk drawer. Gabella, you need to hide it better than that if you don't want people to see it. Harold most definitely fancies my Gabella. You could do so much better than Charlie, Gab. And Harold was looking at you in Transfiguration. I think you like him Gabella. You just don't want to admit it. He isn't bad looking and he's quite smitten with you. Give him a chance. And someday Nicholas will be mine. You just watch.

Lily put the diary down. It seemed like her and Sarah. Lily placed the diary back into the space with the box and the other notebook. Sarah would be back soon, and Lily didn't feel like sharing what she had found just yet. She found her thoughts wandering to a certain dark-haired boy once again…No…I don't think I like him…I can't. Can I? And he's always been the one I said no to. I don't hate him anymore…if I did I wouldn't be doing this tonight…but I'm not falling for him. We are just friends, I guess. I don't even know what we are!

"Lilei," Sarah said walking into her room, "time!"

"1 hour and 15 minutes," Lily said.

"Ah! Anyways I ran into Lia. And she definitely likes Garret. He's really nice. And Alden isn't too happy with Lane and Pierre hooking up. Sirius is going with May now, as of…oh…½ an hour ago."

"That's what took you so long."

"Yeah. Oh and Adalyn and Bryce had a HUGE fight in the Ravenclaw common room. You could hear it out in the hall. Lia didn't know what it was about, but Adalyn slapped Bryce and stormed off to her dorm. Bryce did the same. Then Adalyn snuck down to go meet Ethan somewhere, a 6th year."

"Poor Bryce."

"But he should've known. I mean, he did ask out Adalyn the slut."

"She isn't a slut."

"Lilei, she's slept with half of the guys at Hogwarts and snogged even more! She is a slut."

"Ah…maybe…"

"See! I am right. And I'm bored."

"Find something to do."

"Let's get ready. What are you wearing?"

"Uh, this?" Lily said looking down at her jeans and t-shirt.

"It's not black."

"So?"

"If we're going to do this right you have to change," Sarah said walking over to Lily's dresser. She pulled out the draws and began throwing things to the floor.

"SARAH! Those are my clothes! Put them back!" Lily shrieked.

"AH-HA!" Sarah said triumphantly as she pulled a black shirt out from one of Lily's drawers.

"Oh please help me," Lily muttered as she looked to her ceiling for some kind of help.

"Put this on," Sarah told her as she threw the shirt at Lily.

Lily did as she said as Sarah rummaged through her draw for another one. Sarah pulled off her pink t-shirt and put on one of Lily's. "Can I borrow this Lilei?" she asked, the t-shirt already on her.

Lily laughed, "Sure."

Sarah pulled out another drawer and found Lily's jeans. "Do you have 2 pairs of black jeans?"

"Yeah," Lily answered.

"Oh good. I found them," Sarah said as she pulled them out from the bottom of her drawer. She threw a pair of black jeans to Lily and put the other pair on, thankful that she and Lily were the same size.

"I suppose I have to wear black shoes too?" Lily questioned her.

Sarah grinned, "Of course!"

"I have some in my closet."

Sarah got a pair of black boots and a pair of plain black dress shoes, but only with a small heel. "Which ones do you want?" Sarah asked Lily.

Lily took the dress shoes "Those are too big for me," she said as she pointed at the boots. "I don't even know why I brought them."

"Um..uh…Isortastuckthemintoyourtruckforyou," Sarah said quickly as she pulled on the boots.

"What?"

"I put them in."

"Sarah!"

"What? I really like them!"

Lily sighed. "You can have them."

"Really?" Sarah asked eagerly.

"I don't care. They don't fit anyways. I told you they were too big for me."

"Thanks darling! Now what make-up should we wear?"

"Make-up! We don't need make-up Sarah," Lily told her.

"Yes we do," Sarah said and dragged Lily over to her vanity. For the next hour Sarah made up Lily's face and her hair, occasionally doing something to her own.

"Sarah, we have to go."

"Is it time?!?" Sarah asked eagerly.

"Yes," Lily replied.

"YEA!"

"I have the list," Lily said, pushing a piece of parchment into her pocket. She glanced into the mirror, and she had to admit, she didn't look half bad.

"Let's go!!!" Sarah yelled quietly, as she swung the door open.

Lily followed her down into the Heads Room, hoping that everything would go right…

A/N: Hey! Sorry it took so long. High school. ::sigh:: I have homework EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! I'm serious. Especially in history. Never take AP/Accel/Honor classes... It's like I'm in college already. High school is prepping me for college? Nooo, not in our school. College should be prepping us for high school. Enough with my excuses. Hope you liked it. It was a tad longer than usually. It kept me entertained.

One question: Where are Sarah and Lily going?

And another: Who's Gabriella?