Chapter 37- Slipped Away
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
"Hm, I wonder why Addison and Maimee never came over," Lily thought aloud, while boarding Platform 9 ¾ for her return back to school.
James and Sirius shrugged with no response. They made their way to be the back of the train, searching compartments for people. No one was on the train home. Had people returned early from vacation?
"Maybe they came back already," Sirius suggested. He had never felt quite so alone on the train before. He saw Moony and Peter board the train, Moony looking quite a bit more fragile than usual.
"Full moon," he answered glumly.
"Sorry we weren't there to help you through it," James muttered so only Remus could hear.
"It's ok. I knew it was coming," Remus said. He sat down, tired and worn out.
"So how were your holidays?" Peter asked, anxiously. He seemed to be withholding something from them all.
"Fine," Sirius answered awkwardly. Everyone else was collapsing into soft snores. "Did you get lucky during vacation or something? You look different."
"No, no," Peter said, covering up the quiver in his voice. "Nothing at all. Rather boring."
"You should have came by Prongs' house then. Lily got me a trampoline. It was bloody amazing," Sirius recalled, smiling at the mere memory of his beloved trampoline.
The clear sky turned gray and cloudy and the rain pelted down making a lethargic sound against the window pane. Sirius couldn't talk to Wormtail anymore, he was growing tired and anticipating his journey back to Hogwarts where he could speak to Addy.
When he had parted with her before, kissing her goodbye, he had told her something he had never told anyone before. Things hadn't gone as well as expected and Addison simply acted as though Sirius was joking. He knew she had been uncomfortable. He longed to tell her he had been serious when he had said those words. Those three unforgettable, life altering words.
.X.
The atmosphere at dinner was one of great curiosity. Lily, James, Sirius, and Remus seemed to be clueless as to what was going on. Everyone else had an eerie, depressed look about them. They could tell immediately as they saw Professor Dumbledore's eyes that this was not an ordinary dinner.
"Now that everyone has joined us, I wish to address the inevitable. Two families were killed last week by Lord Voldemort and his followers," he said, speaking slowly. Lily, James, Sirius, and Remus stared up in shock at Dumbledore, Lily gasping at the thought. Everyone else seemed to have already known but were still effected all the same.
"The McKinnon's and Prewett's were two very noble families. Along with those two, Maimee Hout was killed as well. There were no known survivors but one. Molly Weasley, formerly Prewett is the only known survivor of her immediate family. She has come to speak a few words on behalf of her two twin brothers and sister."
Professor Dumbledore sat down and allowed Molly Weasley to step forward. She was a pretty woman, young and fresh out of Hogwarts. Her red hair was flying askew and her cheeks were stained with tears but she held her composure well.
"My two brothers have long since graduated from Hogwarts and were noble fighters. It took five Death Eaters to kill them and they died valiantly. My sister, Arielle, was in her seventh year and unarmed as she died. It was an immoral thing that has happened to my family. I came her to speak today to warn you that this is only the beginning. He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named has only started his rampage. I hate to even think of that man, but in times like these I must respect my family and do so. My parents tried to save my sister but died in the process. It is a horrible thought that your parents and siblings were helpless yet you're still alive. The McKinnon's were like our second parents and assisted in raising us kids when we needed them. Arielle and Mackenzie were great friends, best friends. It's a shame to see blood shed at such a young age. You all must be prepared. He is a threat and he is real. Please take care of yourselves."
Molly Weasley wiped the remaining tears and sat down where Professor McGonagall comforted her by patting her softly on the back.
James and Lily turned over to see Sirius, but he was storming out of the Great Hall. Lily, Remus, and James all felt tears sting their faces. They had all known those girls as well as the families. Lily had been to the McKinnon household dozens of times. She loved it there. She loved Addison, she loved Maimee. The thought of her two best friends dying at the hands of Voldemort was enough to make one break down and collapse. Molly Weasley had been right.
James rarely cried. His parents had been strong and had not deserved to die, but they had lived their life. They had borne children. They had preserved their love and died together. Maimee, Addison, Mac, and Arielle would never be given that chance. Two prominent wizard families had been cast away, just as the Potter's had been. James knew how Molly felt; he was the only one left in his family as well.
Remus had loved Maimee. They hadn't dated long and hadn't shared many times but he would miss her company. Addison had been a great friend. She and Sirius had shared many great times with him. It was difficult to find the thoughts to place his emotions. He would never get to see where he and Maimee would have went. Would they have ended up together or would they have gone to being friends? He would never know.
.X.
"Damn it," Sirius screamed as he exited the school and crossed onto the grounds. He saw the lake and the rain pouring down onto it. He felt the harsh drops fall onto his face and knew that it was more likely to annoy him even more.
Addison was gone. He wouldn't get the chance to see her ever. She would never come back. Dead. Sirius had known that he had felt lost when the Potters died but now, it was unexplainable. It was impossible to describe Sirius without Addison. Without her, he was forced to start all over again.
She had become such a big part of his life so quickly, that it was a blur. The time spent was a huge, motionless blur.
He longed to remember her. He longed to see her once more.
"Sirius Black is a waste of your breath, Mac. Forget about him," Addison said.
"Addy love, I am going to point out that you, yourself, just wasted some of your own heavenly breath on me," Sirius said between bites.
"You know, your hair would look really good with blue in it," Sirius said, looking at Addy's blonde locks.
"Blue would bring out your eyes," Sirius said.
Remus looked at her eyes then her hair and then said, "He's right."
"I swear, you Marauders are all gay. Besides, my mum would kill me if I dyed my hair," Addison said.
"Well then, let me do it," Sirius said. With a swish of his wand, a few streaks of electric blue were in Addy's hair. She looked really pretty surprisingly.
"Take it out Black," Addison screamed.
"No can do love. It's permanent," Sirius said, lying.
"I hate you," she muttered, running to the closest mirror to look at it.
"It's his way of saying an unpleasant word in the presence of a lady," Remus said. Sirius nodded sincerely.
"Oh, didn't know you cared Sirius," Addison said, shaking her blue blonde head.
"Antsy aren't we Addy babe. Let's wait until we get Lily and James back together and then we'll browse around for broom closets," Sirius said, winking at her.
"Ew Sirius! I meant put the Charm on you!" Addy screamed.
"The Addison McKinnon Charm? Well love, it's already been put on me. I like em' feisty," Sirius said, laughing at his own wit.
"You're impossible," Addison said, rolling her blue eyes.
"Sirius, you have your-you have your-" Addison said, laughing again.
"WHAT? I HAVE MY WHAT?" he asked.
"You have your period," she said, still laughing.
"I HAVE MY WHAT????" Sirius asked, clearly appalled.
"YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS? YOU? LET ME TELL YOU SIRIUS, MY BEST FRIEND IS DATING JAMES POTTER WHEN WE WERE TRYING TO HOOK MY OTHER BEST FRIEND UP WITH HIM! I can't deal with it either. I am having to put up with this too," Addison said.
"I HAVE MY PERIOD! HELLO? I THINK THAT IS A LITTLE MORE DISTURBING. I am a GUY!" Sirius yelled.
"You don't know how to talk to girls without making them cry or slap you," Addison said.
"I am talking to you and you're not crying or slapping me," Sirius said.
"I could change that. Fortunately for you, I am restraining myself with great willpower," Addison challenged, balling her hand into a fist.
"I like em' feisty," Sirius said, grinning.
"But Addy, I could get you some dates for this weekend. You never show off what you've got," Sirius said.
"With good reason. I don't want perverts like you hitting on me," Addison said.
"Hey, I take offense to that!" Sirius said.
"Sorry Mrs. Hout, I'm a little tied down right now. The Mrs. is PMSing seriously if you know what I mean," Sirius said, gesturing to Addison.
"Sirius!" Addison shouted, slapping him.
"What?" Addison asked.
"Merry Christmas," he said. Before she knew it, he had put mistletoe before their heads and had kissed her right on the lips.
Talk about an early Christmas present.
"Maybe. I kind of hope we do. Addison McKinnon is driving me crazy," Sirius said.
"Never thought I'd hear the day when Sirius Black would be hung up on a girl," James said, patting his friend on the back.
"That jerk kissed me. I still try and wash the taste out of my mouth every morning," Addison said, cringing.
"Why is this a bad thing? He's a nice guy and he likes you," Lily said.
She loved the thought of peace and privacy and..Sirus Black with a water gun! That was not in the brochure!
"Oh my god."
Those were the only words Addison could get out before Sirius sprayed her blonde-blue locks.
"So, we need to talk Sirius," Addison said.
"Yes, I am afraid we do," Sirius said.
"Why did you kiss me?" Addison asked, feeling the blush rise in her cheeks.
"You know why I kissed you, Addy babe. I like you. So, I lived for the moment and did what I wanted to do. I kissed you," Sirius said. "And you know what?"
"What?" Addison asked.
"I'm feeling spontaneous right now," Sirius said. He pulled her to him and wrapped her in a kiss.
"We have more pressing issues, Addy babe," Sirius said.
"And what would that be?" Addison asked.
"The fact that my tongue was in your mouth," Sirius said, cheekily.
"How do you feel when all your dreams have come true?" Sirius asked.
"It feels great. I am just so happy for them. How about you?" Addison inquired back.
"I wouldn't know, not all of mine have come true," he said, looking into her crystal like eyes.
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"I want you," he said. He leaned in and brushed his lips across hers, knowing that now, officially Team Lily/James had reached it's missions.
"She's evil. I am ashamed to say that I am related to filth like that," Sirius said. His wand was in his hand and he was gripping it in fury.
"Don't go after her," Addison said.
"Why not? She almost killed your best friend," Sirius said.
"She threatened my family, Sirius," Addison said. "I don't want her to go and tell You-Know-Who to kill my parents."
Now, as he sat back upon the old oak tree he had sat by with his best friends, he remembered the last time he had spoken to her. She hadn't said it back. He felt tears fall from his stormy gray eyes.
Flashback
"So, you're going to come visit me at Prongs' house right, Addy babe?" Sirius asked, smiling.
"Sure," she responded, blushing as he tried to meet her eyes. She was shy with him now, something she had never been before.
"Well, before I go, I've been trying to think of the right time to tell you. No time's as good as the present, I suppose," Sirius contemplated.
"Addison McKinnon, I've never felt this way about a girl before. You're so different yet so similar it's scary. It's as if I know everything about you there is to know. You may not have said it, I just feel it. You're so beautiful and so funny. I love it when you're angry too," he said, laughing. "I want you to know, that I love you. I have never loved anyone as much in my life."
He leaned in to kiss her softly on the lips. He hoped to hear something back, but words failed to reach her scared, blue eyes.
"Goodbye, Sirius," she whispered as he turned on his heel to go greet Lily and James.
.X.
Now he would never know if she loved him. She was gone, forever. She had been taken and would never be replaced. He had never felt so many different emotions for just one person.
Sirius Black wasn't supposed to have fallen in love. It just happened. Sirius looked to see Lily and James walking towards him, carrying a snowy owl in their arms. He recognized it as Addison's owl.
The rain drenched their skin but the two of them kept walking towards him.
James held out a letter and gave it to Sirius. Lily was crying still, as was Sirius.
"It's for you," James said, addressing the letter.
It was impossible. He saw her hurried but readable handwriting. His name had been rushed across the envelope.
Sirius opened it, not knowing what to expect inside.
Sirius,
If this reaches you, I'm probably dead. Two Death Eaters and You-Know-Who have shown up at my house. It's horrible here, Sirius. He killed Mac and Maimee. He's working on my parents now and I just got away. I had to duel with Death Eaters and I've never experienced something to frightening on my own.
I don't have much time but I am writing this as quickly as possible. Please make sure that Mac and Maimee get the proper mention at the feast. I am sure Dumbledore will have a feast.
Sirius, I wrote this as I wanted to let you know something I couldn't tell you at the time. If these be my last words, then so be it. Whatever you may have thought over the years, it was wrong. I have never hated you. I just want you to know so you don't go on wondering. Please try not to forget me completely.
I love you too. Xo Addison.
He felt more tears burn his eyes.
"I could never forget you, Addy," he whispered.